I was in fetal position in my bed when I realize I need to get up and take a shower even though my body feels paralyzed. Then I realize that my legs are my children and that it would be unethical if I left my children for a month long shower so I weep while I contemplate this, after all I didn't want these two children, then I realized that they are my legs, they can't be children, So I sit up then I see this man sitting there, I walk behind him and blow air on his head because it's funny that his head is the size of my thumb yet the rest of his body is bigger than mine. I take a picture if my thumb next to his head, then I look at the picture I took and the man isn't in it, then I look back to him and he's gone. Then I go into the bathroom and decide to cut my hair, I have these blue scissors in my hand, but then I put the side of my mouth into the scissors and cut my mouth open joker style and then I just go oops, and then cut a chunk of hair and jam the hair into my wound. Then I find a shaver from under the sink and shave most of my hair off and then take off my shirt and put make up on my eyes and then I go into the kitchen and lay on the ground that has cigarettes all over it but I call it carpet and then I take a picture of my self and in it I have a weird face.
Dream 1(fragments): I was playing some video games. Dream 2(fragments): I was creating dragon character for some forum game and then was updating some of my RtD forum games, while discussing something with someone on some forums and playing some minecraft custom level.
Though I remember almost nothing, I will still post the one sentence description that I **can** remember. Maybe my brain will take the hint and decide to cooperate with this dream recall thing if I keep bugging it August 13, 2013, 8:00 am All I remember is my dream had something to do with walking in a blizzard of some sort. Another dream fragment from earlier: Something to do with the hamster Rolo again. I don't THINK it bit me like in the last dream I had about her, but I'm certain she was present in the dream--I just can't remember it, darnit!
3 dreams and one fragment. The first is about a getaway from a threatening situation or people, the 2nd one is the fragment, it is about motocross in a forest. There is much more to it, but I can't recall more details. The 3rd entry is a pleasant dream about flirting with a married woman (I forgive myself, she is beautiful). The 4th is about coming home: I am together with my brother. We run away from something or someone, it is a threatening situation and I run for my life, I am very fearful. We are in the ground floor of a building with narrow corridors and white walls. I have the impression that my brother is not really aware of the danger of the situation, so I yell at him to convince him to move faster and to follow me. We come to an elevator, 2 or 3 people are waiting for it and I decide to move upstairs as well, as it seems to be the only way to go. But there is no time to wait I think, so I chose a narrow circular stair to the right of the elevator and run upwards, while again reminding my brother that we have no time to rest, or 'they/it' may get us. I tell him 'don't worry about grandmother, she will be alright as she has always been. She has lived most of her days happily, just leave her behind and let her go'. As I say that I feel that I myself also have trouble leaving her behind and letting her go, but I force myself to do that and to continue running, so that I am a good example for my brother to follow. On the second floor we climb out of the window and slide down a slanted roof. I think it's fun to slide down here, but then the fear of the people/thing following us takes over again. We land in the garden of the house, where I find an air pump. I pick it up, just in case I could use it as a weapon. We encounter a gardener, who is raking leaves. He says something, but I don't trust him, he might be part of the complot (after all, I didn't even know exactly what we were running away from). I consider piking up a rake lying next to me and just beat the gardener to the ground, but then I decide it's best to just leave. We walk out of the garden and the fear wears off. I don't know what I was afraid of and running away from. But I was scared, that is for sure. I don't know what the passage with our grandmother means. I rarely experience fear in dreams, but I appreciate it afterwards, when I do, because it makes the dream very vivid and detailed, as the fear forces me to be completely in the moment or situation. I am riding a motocross bike on small forest paths. There is dense vegetation and small hills. The bike is light, but strong, so that it easily rides on almost any terrain. I ride in a group with some other people, I have a lot of fun. I find myself on a broad road between some fields, riding the bike. I have lost the group, which makes me sad and I try to find them again. I ask some hikers to help me, they direct me to a small house in the forest and they claim that this is a sort of meeting point for hikers and bikers. So I go there and I am happy to meet 2 people from the group to rejoin. We go into the small house to rest a bit and maybe to find some others. I know there is more content in this dream, but this fragment is all I can recall. The forest paths were beautiful and the bikes were really cool, I had a lot of fun. I have a conversation with a beautiful, young, blond woman. We are on a small hill under some big and wide trees, the scenery is very calm and relaxing. We are with some people we both know, but I only talk to her. We are in a bus, I sit in the back end of the bus at the left window, the blond woman is in the seat in front of me, but she has turned around to talk to me. She has a cute face and short blond curls, I think I am in love with her. But somehow I also know that she is married, so I am not sure how to behave. I decide to ignore the beautiful landscape outside the window and to look beyond my morals and doubts straight into her eyes. As I force myself to do that, I find that it is not at all uncomfortable, but rather it is the most natural and pleasant thing to just rest my eyes in hers. Suddenly my fears of being hurt and my doubts about the moral situation seem ridiculous and I give her my undivided attention. Wow she is beautiful, I think, while she talks (I'm not really listening ). I want everything about her, now, there is no doubt. I sense that she feels the same way, but that we both are unsure how to express that. We walk along the ocean between a forest to the right and a beach to the left. She takes my hand and we just walk, saying nothing. I think, wow, I almost forgot how good this feels! I had several dreams about cute, blond women recently, but I don't know how to relate that to my waking life or why or where it comes from. I guess I have just been single for a while and maybe I am just ready for someone new? In any case it was a nice experience, I am certainly open for more dreams with her I am in a residential area and I walk on small paths between tall houses. A boy, who looks Korean/Chinese, walks past me. He makes some clicking noises behind me and as I turn around, he suddenly has a bike and he rides away. I wonder where the hell did he pull that bike out? But then I just move on. I decide to turn around and go to my mothers place. The apartment door of my mothers place looks a lot like the door of my room I think, as I stand in front of it. There is light and noises coming from the workroom, so I figure that my stepfather is at home. There is no door handle, though. So I investigate the door further and I find out that it is opened by a little light switch. I am now inside the apartment in the hallway, but all doors are closed. I know that everyone is at home, because I can somehow sense their presence, but I don't want to draw attention to myself yet, so I go into the kitchen. There are 3 burned pizzas in the oven and the oven door is open. I sit down and enjoy the calmness, peace and idyll of the situation. Smells and feels like being home and everything is alright as it is. The bike coming out of nothing should have made me more curious or even lucid, because I noticed it in great details and even wondered about it. But somehow I just went on with my walk. The apartment is not the real one, but purely dream fiction. It was a pleasant dream nevertheless, it had the comforting feeling of being home.
non lucid *I was about to sit down in front of my shrine while chanting the vajra guru mantra. I felt a lot of happiness because of this.
Tuesday, 8/13/13 Last night bed around 1am DR 5:20am I'm in a tall building, seems like maybe 5th floor. The building is right on the edge of an urban river. River seems to be flowing in a manmade channel. It's wide and deep. I notice that the water is more turbulent than it should be. Suddently I see inside the water. There is a lots of fish in a tight group. They are huge and moving around within this group slowly. One fish on top looks like sturgeon. I say it out loud to a person in the room. I also say, that's why the water is so turbulent, bacause of the giant fish. Then I observe the surface of the river from one bank to another to see the water churning, but not violently. I also think to myself, that maybe the fish wasn't that huge, I only saw it that way, because I had some different vision, like binocular vision. As I look at the river, I notice, that except that group of fish, there are no other fish as far as I can see. I deduct, that they may tavel in groups like that. --- I'm standing on the bank of a different river. It seems like a campground. I'm talking to a former classmate about going or doing something. --- There was something else, a long dream about something, maybe I'm in a long house.
In one of my confusing cycles of false awakenings, there was one that stood out from the rest. I opened my eyes to see my room. I was lying on my back. Usually I sleep on my side with my legs drawn up near my stomach, almost in fetal position, while hugging a pillow under my head. But that's not what made me suspect it was a dream. My vision was blurry, I felt vibrations in the back of my head, I heard the sound of what could be my facial muscles tensing (try making a huge grin all the way to your ears, you will hear a kind of rumbling / underwater sound). I recognized all these three signs from past experiences with sleep paralysis (or dreams of sleep paralysis) and thought knew what was coming; a bit of noise, vibrating vision and colorful hallucinations. But what I got, was the terrifying experience many people talk about. I couldn't move, and I felt a presence by the side of my bed. I was scared and wanted it to end, but I couldn't do much before I knew if it was a dream, and I had to perform a reality check for that. My reality check of choice is to clench my nose and try to breathe. Problem is, how do you do that if you can't move your hands? I fought hard to lift my hand - it felt like there were concrete blocks attached to my arm, weighing it down - and eventually I got it up to my nose. I clenched it and I could breathe! Now the dream would end for sure, like all the other times I discovered I was dreaming in the past months. But it didn't. I tried to open my real eyes (or my eyes into the next dream, I'm not sure), but they too were weighed down by concrete blocks. I woke up in my bed again, terrified. Thought maybe I should do a reality check to make sure I was awake this time, but it felt so real I didn't bother, and slipped away, either back into sleep or into the next dream. Right now, I am not sure if I was even awake.
There's this rich and powerful old woman who sends her goons to fetch me and Julie. One of the guys working for her warned me that she's got a thing against shapeshifters like us, and I'm pretty sure we're in danger but Julie's already gone with them. She's not entirely right in the head, off in her own world most of the time, so I don't know if she can read the atmosphere, realize there's a problem here. When we get to the old woman's place, she's lying on a bed with more goons in black suits around her, but she stands up to greet us. There's a line of tiles in the floor inlaid with zodiac designs leading from the door to her bed, and it's important for ceremonial reasons to step only on that path, like the old woman does; but me and Julie just walk naturally, sometimes on and sometimes off the tiles. The old woman makes casual conversation as we approach, pleasantries, and I worry again whether Julie will be able to recognize this as a dangerous situation, but when I look over at her, Julie's got a knife in her hand. She looks happy.
Key: Non-Lucid Dream Lucid Dream Wake up So I was exploring this incredible basement. It looked a lot like the alien spaceship in the movie "Prometheus." I explored the place somewhat, so dark, so abandoned; I eventually lost interest and took the elevator back home. When I arrived upstairs my father was talking to some friends of his, they brought over their daughter Gaby. I have never spoken with Gaby but she came up to me and we started talking. Then Mike arrived he went down to the basement to wait for me. Next thing I know I am in bed and Gaby is standing at the edge looking down at me. I realized suddenly in bed next to me was her sister Monserrat. I panicked and got up quickly, Monserrat grabbed a camera and wanted to take pictures of me but before she could I did a Reality check and realized I was indeed dreaming. I moved away her camera before she could even take the picture without touching it. They looked at me surprised and I just smiled and told them "Lucid Dreaming!" I began to run away and I realized if it actually is indeed a dream I might as well get to know Monserrat. I began running back and saw another girl who is also called Monserrat but is Mike's friend, not mine. The whole thing began getting blurry and breaking down which made me drift back to reality. I did a reality check and then opened my eyes and became so happy at my first Lucid Dream!
This one started off with me and a couple friends in the woods. We had a TV with us, so we put it down, and then I started to wander off. It was getting dark, and it was a full moon. I came across a tree with a hatchet halfway through it. I grabbed it and took it back to where the other people were. The moon had set by now, but the TV was so bright it didn't matter. I said "The TV is brighter than a full moon. " One or two laughed, then the TV got brighter and brighter. Then, I woke up.
Lately I've been having a lot of confusing dreams. They usually go like this: The dream starts and I find myself somewhere, often in my bed. Eventually I realize something's off and do a reality check. Seconds after I realize it's a dream, the dream puts me back in my bed and wakes me up - into a new dream. This cycle tends to go on 6 or more times, to the point where when I eventually wake up, I'm confused as hell and it takes me a minute to make sure I'm not still dreaming.
8/13/2013 Key: Lucid Dream Waken Up Non-lucid Dream I did a WBTB and partly a MILD for this. I also went to sleep upstate in an RV. I woke up in my bed at home. I did a reality check by putting my hand up to the window to observe my hands. There wasn't enough light to see, so I tried to do something, and I ended up having my vision zoom in. I saw I was in a dream. Though I never stabilized the dream, and I wasn't very aware, it lasted for a pretty good amount of time. After realizing I was dreaming, I levitated out of bed and tried to fly out the window. For some reason, I couldn't get through. I had to really concentrate to make it through. Even then, I ended up teleporting to some warehouse. I found myself running to get to a portal at the other end of the warehouse. I was also shooting at people with a "hand" gun, and they were dying. :/ When I went through the portal, I got to my backyard on the other side of the window, right in front of the deck. I started petting my dog Ti, who was right next to me. At that point the dream faded, and I woke up in my bed at home again. I thought I was actually awake now, and thus didn't do a reality check. I actually think I went through a few false awakenings like that, before waking up for real.
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Dream recall from today's naps. Dream 1(fragments): I was in some weird place and there was some spirituality related talk, then weird false awakening with some loud sound in my head and i was very dizzy, almost lucid, but i woke up before i could fully realize. Dream 2(fragments): Was playing some platformer that then turned out to be about sonic apparently, but was really weird, some levels were like unfinished and there was 'level skip' function, then later sonic was piloting some kind of mecha. Dream 3(fragments): I was playing spiral knights and was in guild hall, there were some problems we were trying to solve and discussions, there was some new function that apparently marked people as 'spy' when they said certain words in chat. Then the guild hall turned into old style guild hall and there are some players that are invisible, then i noticed the weirdness of game and realized that i am dreaming, i tried to chat with someone that was not in the game but then gaining no response i forgot about dreaming and continued with the game. I went to run some gate clockworks and the rooms were connected rather interestingly, at first i thought i was solo but the invisible players were apparently there and were helping fighting enemies, also stuff was a bit glitchy. Then i found danger room gate and we entered it.
I had a lucid dream! ...sorta. I was doing what I usually do in my dreams (trying to run away from evil people) when I decided that flying would definitely help me get away from them. Then it clicked. "...I CAN FLY! I'M DREAMING!" so I started floating and then I thought "I'M GOING TO FLY FOR AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE NOW!" I was still floating, but going higher and higher. I looked ahead and it was sort of a desert and I was looking right between two mountains (desert mountains). I was going to fly around them when I thought "wait, I had things to do" and I remembered my list of goals. Number one there is find my dream guide. So I decided to close my eyes and when I opened them I expected to see someone in front of me (I was actually expecting my dream guide to be myself), but... nothing. I shouted "DREAM GUIDE!!!" a couple times, still nothing. I landed (as I was calling my dream guide, I thought it'd be easier if I were on the ground) and I lost lucidity. So basically, fail at controlling the dream (and it wasn't vivid at all... in fact, I barely remember the rest of the dream - before or after this moment of lucidity), but I was still lucid! Getting there!!!
[HR][/HR] [B]Tuesday, August 13th 2013: "Amazing Mirror" (LUCID) Type: WBTB/WILD[/B] After a brief WBTB period (around 10 minutes), I begin to slowly enter sleep paralysis. After the vibrations begin I relax as usual and focus on seeing through my eyelids. A few moments later the picture becomes clearer and clearer. After about 5 seconds, my bedroom becomes extremely vivid, and I just move my dream body and sit up. Excited that I entered a dream, I take a deep breath and get up from my bed. I look down at it, thinking maybe I'll see my body lying there, but no... I just see the bed, the pillow, and the sheets. I analyze the objects in my room and laugh because it's just so vivid. I am also lucid enough to know that I'll soon have to get up for work, and worry that maybe my alarm clock will wake me up soon and ruin my lucid dream. Now I enter my living room. It is day time, actually morning, just as in reality. I see one of my friends lying on the couch, but he doesn't live here at all. I tell him this is not reality, and ask him if he already knew that. He says no, and seems a bit disappointed. I tell him I have some things to do/experiment with, and that I won't disturb him, so he can remain lying on the couch. He laughs and says ok. In my living room there is a big mirror in the same position just like in real life. Now it dawns on me that I wanted to experiment with mirrors next time I become lucid. Very excitedly I step closer to the mirror and closer. Now I see my reflection... which is... extremely odd, just as always. But this time I am analyzing every detail of it, and it simply amazes me. My reflection is "angry", and "scary". My eyes look very focused, as if I'm ready to attack someone. One eyebrow is raised, which looks funny. In any case, the atmosphere is somewhat eerie, but it's a good feeling nonetheless. Now I move to the left, and the reflection seems to move just a bit differently, perhaps with a 1 second delay, and some minor differences in movement. Then I move to the right, and again, there is a delay and minor differences. Then I get very close to the mirror and analyze my face. One eyebrow is still raised, eyes are still scary, and the face is in "attack-mode." I actually laugh at this point, but my reflection doesn't laugh. At this point I decide to try what I read somewhere on the internet, and that's pulling the reflection out of the mirror. First, I stick my hand inside the mirror for a second, then pull it out. It looks cool, kind of like pushing your hand into liquid. I move my hand really close, then push it inside the mirror very fast and grab my reflection's hand. I pull it out, and pull, and pull... first up to the wrist, then up to the elbow. He's pulling back very hard, and I'm pulling in my direction. My friend watches the whole thing in amusement. I tell him to help me pull him out of the mirror. Gets up and helps me. However, at this point the arm begins stretching kind of like rubber, and I see that I can't pull him out, instead it's just like a very long arm that is now almost pulled to the end of the room. My friend and I decide to let go of the arm, and it just pulls itself back very fast into the mirror, snapping back kind of like a rubber band. A false awakening occurs. I am in my bed, but I already know it's a false awakening without doing a reality test. Everything is amazingly vivid again. I laugh and get up, but before I get to do anything... my alarm clock "really" wakes me up.
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