All DJ Entries

All I remember is a fragment about dreams and scale from 1 to 10 and there may or may not have an elephant in this fragment as well.

Didn't have any recall this morning of anything for the last couple days but have been waking feeling really tired. This has lasted throughout the days but I have been getting 8-9 hours sleep every night.

Slowly trying to improve my recall by saying mantras before sleep and reading my journal, as I've only just started keeping one I haven't got much to read.

I may start imagining dreams before bed of what I want to do.

Hopefully my recall gets better. *sigh*

1 -st
We overslept to school, i was angry, we ran to school and I took my son into the classroom. I thought - strange...how can we oversleep? so i guess, that its a dream. there were a lot of doors and i desided to open them and look for Checker666 to ask him to demonstrate powers. First classroom was empty, when i entered to the second one i saw two guys. I asked - who of you is checker? One of them answered - its me! i said - demonstrate power! and he kicked his friend with the foot. I became to think how make this DC to fly or something else and awoke.
2-nd
I was in my room, realize that its a dream, went through the wall to other room and stood there, thinking what to do next. Alarm clock woke me up.

I became while driving down empty street at night. A coworker drove up next to me, she also had her sister in the car. I yelled out to them, where are you going? After I said that they ended up pulling over to this really nice house. I parked right behind them and got out of the car when they did.

We all greeted each other as we walked towards her door. I interupted them as they were talking to say, Can you take me Guru Padmasambhava?. I notice when I said this a pronouced his name with a strange accent. Her sister bowed to me and seemed to change form, while saying yes I can take you to him.

She lead me into the house straight to kitchen. She said here is Guru padmasambhava. There was a mexican girl sitting in a chair with a green shirt on. I asked the girl are you padmasambhava and she responded yes. I thought maybe this is an emantion him or something. I got directly in the front of the girl saying nothing. Then she said aww your swollen and a tear came out of her eye. She reached out to give me a hug.

I might hate the school-week for dreaming, but Wednesdays are good, I get to sleep in..

First Lucid: There was no precursor to the lucid portion I was aware as the dream formed itself. The dream was forming in front of me and I did what I could to increase the vividness and overall clarity of it, rubbing my hands together and just willing more parts of it to form. Eventually it was stable enough so I decided to fly, it being the first on my three step task list. I jumped up into the air and began flying straight upwards, but I was going way to fast and I feared that I was going to go into space accidentally, again. So, I just went limp and allowed myself to fall back down and I landed back on my feet on the pavement of the parking lot I was previously in. I started walking, I had enough flying for now, and I came to a fence where there were a bunch of DCs, but no matter how much I tried to use telekinesis, it was just not working.. So, I kept trying and eventually the DCs got mad at me for interrupting their baseball game, as I was on a baseball field. And I talked to them and told them how it was my dream and I could be where I wanted. And after that my dream faded to black.

Second Lucid: This one did have a precursor. I was walking with my younger brother to school, an elementary school, which he was apparently attending. (But that makes no sense, as, my little brother is in high school.) Anyways, so I passed a van with a man who looked at me and my brother and told us to have a good day. I replied back to him, you too. (Side-note: he was definitely getting a blowjob from what appeared to be a prostitute, which me and my brother remarked about as we continued walking.) So, we continued on towards his elementary school, which it was the actual elementary school that both he and I went. When we reached the field of the elementary school I suddenly became lucid. My mind immediately darts to getting points, so I jump and start flying, hoping to accomplish my three step task list in this dream. This time I don't fly with high speed and just, more of, glide nicely over a fence and into the school. And now flying was down just had telekinesis and interacting with a DC. Again my telekinesis was not working at all. I was getting a bit angry but I decided that I needed to focus, so I stopped and focused and used my telekinesis to move a DCs hand and bend his fingers around (don't worry it didn't hurt him.) Now there was telekinesis all that was left was interacting with a DC. I walked over to a lovely DC and asked her if she cared for a dance, extending my hand. I drew her in close to me and we began to dance, I mean how could she refuse me.. haha. So, my dream faded away as we were dancing but only visually, I could still feel her hands and both her and myself dancing, so we continued to dance until that too faded away.

Fragmented recall is fragmented.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some place that was partly indoors partly outdoors, then i was navigating through a maze of rocks towards some building. Then in that building it was foggy and i was talking with some people. Then i was searching through ruined part of that building and i have found someone in costume similar to Santa's(not sure) and there was some talk about some organization. I went back to maze and soon got to the end of it. There was a treasure and some agents were trying to stop me, but i have opened it. It triggered some kind of self-destruction mechanism that triggered some kind of cataclysm, and then dream ended.

Dream 2(fragment):

There was some discussion about lucid dreaming.

No dreams recalled last night. Just checking in to keep the habit of posting.

Date: 22 May

Total Sleep Time: 8 hrs

WBTB: 120 mg gingko

Dream quality and recall: dreams were vivid, but I was very sleepy today, I guess that has affected my recall. My prospective memory and concentration during the lucid were not at their best either.

Fragment1: the dream involved Xanos, no other memory

Dream2: A class meeting again. It is late at night and we are discussing with the girls where we are about to go. I feel like dancing so I am totally fine with any place they suggest. I notice that they have put on some weight. My dad is over-protective and follows me around. I arrange to secretly meet with my best school friend and take her to a concert. I will buy her the ticket. On what I think is the next day, we meet in the morning and take the subway. She has moved to my city, it seems.

Fragment3: We are eating some mix of bacon and cheese, tasted very realistic

Fragment4: the office is closed, my dad is looking for something

WBTB: Took gingko. Recalled dreams and did some dream incubation during which I have fallen asleep.

Dream5: I am watching some trees from above, and want to change their color. It feels a bit like I am observing using google map. Soon I am at the place of interest, in the middle of a lake. There is an old wood-made ship close to the also quite old and dusty quay. I have a game like attitude and want to rearrange the whole place. I succeed in making more space where I want to. Then I am in the water, swimming forward, but it is not very pleasant because this lake is a bit dirty. There is also a fish nearby, and I don’t like that.

Dream6: Instead of the normal section of a restaurant, I decide to follow a DC and go to another part. I am climbing some stairs to reach my destination, but the place is very hard to get to because the doors are smaller. I reach the third floor, where I talk to the waiter – a friend of mine. Three other DCs appear. One of them tells me that he has a Japanese geisha girlfriend and that they are in an open relationship, they are dating some other special girl. He shows me a brochure where all this is explained using some strange Japanese words. I think that he expects me to join their little arrangement, so I say no thanks.

Fragment7: I am in a car, and the waiter of another place we were in, is now John Malkovich. He comes in, bringing my favourite sandwiches. They are perfect.

Dream8 DILD: I am in an interesting looking town, but pay little attention to it at first. I am with four friends, one girl I clearly know, two DC friends in the background and another girl. The other girl is the girlfriend of a friend of mine, and she has come to meet me. At first, I don’t feel at ease with the two girls, even though they are friends, so I fly to the level of the first floor, and follow everybody as they are walking down the street, just above them. I think of why I am doing this and then fly back down. The new girl has brought me some presents – she hands me two notebooks, with school notes, chemistry and other stuff. Then another one with patriotic poems translated in a foreign language. Who would want to read something like that, I am thinking to myself.

At some point which I cannot remember, I become lucid. I feel I have spent a long time exploring around. The next more clear lucid memory is me, still in that city, which looks like a medieval city, feeling happy and going for some tasks (which I don’t remember at all). Then I look around and enjoy the place, the walls of the houses around are made from a dark stone with a hint of green. It feels like an Italian city during Middle Ages. It also reminds me of a number of other dreams I had. One more recent one was in a modern Italian city. The Colosseum should be somewhere to my right, I am thinking and desire to go to that place. At the same time, I try to engage a few DCs to help me on my quest. I look ahead and see DCs passing by, I try to stop them, but they are moving really fast, strong momentum, so I cannot stop them. (The second time this has happened). I look at a DC in front of me and notice how beautiful, elaborate and medieval/renaissance-like her clothes are. I get closer to a DC woman that is not moving, she is some kind of monk, and ask her for help/directions, but she is not helpful at all (interact with DC).

I continue and find another male DC, a peasant, he looks a bit blurry. I know that this dream has been going on for really long, so to avoid it ending I come up with the idea to stabilize the dream by kissing him. He is not really ugly, I find him rather unpleasant, but still, I kiss him. I realize that I am doing something objectionable to me, yet I keep doing it. The dream feels much more stable (stabilize dream), but then someone tells me that as a result of my behaviour, I have now two children and that man is my husband. This place is my home now. It all suddenly feels so realistic to me that I lose my lucidity. I begin to fret about those responsibilities and that I won’t be able to leave the place now. At the same time, I know that this city is special and that there are wormholes appearing every now and then, so I can use one of them to escape. I look at a live city map, which shows the location of the currently active wormhole.

I continue sleeping and have another dream that I cannot recall. I wake up and feel frustrated because I have no memory of the last few dreams. Then fragments start to emerge.

Comment: Although I managed to recover some of the memory of that lucid, it is upsetting that once again I am unable to remember a part of the experience. And yet, it is much better than not remembering anything at all.

I'm getting chased by this car with blacked out windows, I go down streets then hop fences to other streets so the car will have to make u-turns to catch up, I run over this small grass hill that leads to another fence, I hop it and on the other side is more grass on flatland, it's grass like that in a old video game, all the blades of grass are rounded and blueish green. I sit in the grass and feel it. Then I realize a man is sitting on the edge of the fence, he tells me he's just crow, (crow is at cat I had for 16 or 17 years that died a few years back). Then he morphed into crow and I realize I must've entered a portal of sorts, I see a door across from us and run to it and open it and go through and am led to this old house with many doors of many sizes I know all of which are portals. I stick my head through a few but never go through because I want to go back to crow, I get interrupted by my half sister and her daughter, her daughter is being a brat so I go back out the door I came so I can pet crow, my half sister asks me where I'm going, I tell her crow is out there, she doesn't believe me and tells me to prove it, so I tell her to come with me through the portal and she does. When we're through i go on the grass and call out for crow, I don't know where he went, my half sister marvels at the grass and laughs at my calling for crow going ignored. Finally I see a paper towel to the right of us, I run and pick it up knowing it was crow, she laughs at me and says I've gone insane, but I ignore her and keep petting crow, then I stand up and water falls down I get confused and asked jokingly if my water broke, and My half sister says no crow just pissed on you, and I laugh because she just admitted the paper towel was crow. Then the men in the car return and hop the fence into the grass, they have two wolfs, me and my half sister panic and run for it. The two men inject the seemingly nice wolfs with something in the neck, then within a few minutes the wolf become evil and go after us, One catches up to me and bites me all over, I take out my stun gun and give him a jolt and he falls to the floor long enough for me to get my switchblade out and slit it's throat. The second wolf is going after my half sister so I tell her to cut it's throat so she does, she didn't get bit, I new In a little bit I'd probably turn out how the dogs were because I got bit, I see my half sister run into this crate looking place, it has hot dogs everywhere and it's like a steam room, there's kids and elders and they're all letting racoons, rabbits and other animals sweat it out, they tell me they had the poison but sweating it out takes it away, my half sister is sitting with people she tells me to sweat it out before I turn, so i get on the floor and pull out my stun gun again and tell her if i turn to zap me and she agrees, then I lay down face down, my body then begins to slide very very slowly back and forth as if i was on a rocky boat, I can hear all the people whispering in fear about me creeped out that I'm sliding, wondering if I'll change to monster or sweat it out in time, this seems to go on for several minutes, but then I sit up sloppily and dizzy and the people gasp, I grab a hot dog and eat it and mumble something to a kid, but then I feel something coming on so I run through the room and run out side and then these teeth like a mako shark come out of my mouth as I roar like a fuckin lion, i realize it didn't work but I didn't want to hurt them so I ran as far as I could before I lost all control. Then I go through this glass building getting darker an darker, I see this couple in a glass window shaped like and air balloon and they're enjoying themselves looking at a view of dark water. I go through these glass blinds and find these two girls in extravagant dresses and yell at them where are they going? then they yell at me to follow them, I thought they were leading me into the glass air balloon, but instead we go down glass mirror stairs that are so sleek and they go down in a circle swirl That we just slide fast down against the walls of it then we end up under all I saw and they go back up but I just hide under the stairs while girls in beautiful dresses go up the stairs.

Date: 21 May

Pre bed: 120 mg gingko, WBTB: 2x peppermint oil capsules

Sleep quality, dream contents & recall: fantastic sleep quality, more or less realistic dreams with some exception, very positive mood upon wake, quite bad recall for the vividness.

Fragment1: Thinking of a friend

Fragment2: Received a text message from a relative I was recently thinking about

Fragment3: An actor that asks people about his origin, I am the only one to correctly guess it

Fragment4: With a classmate on a street in my hometown, she has a blue bike

Fragment5: I am on another street nearby, this time a dog transforms into some kind of mutant creature – a mix between a dog and hulk, dark grey bluish color and is after us. I decide to run towards school because there are more people there, so it will attack them first.

Fragment6: I am in a store I know, looking to buy some tea mugs, or dishes. It looks like the sale is over. The lady on the cashier gives me some stuff I have apparently purchased, including a jacket. Another DC woman takes the bag and I run after her, explaining those things are mine.

Dream7: I am in my hometown again, controlling the movement of trams. I am meeting my bf, so I direct the tram forwards, but then I go back again. I am then on the street, and it is extremely hot. I notice the way I am dressed, same as always, but my belt is about to fall and my jeans are a bit loose. It is so realistic that I struggle moving in this heat. I look to my side and see grandma, dressed the way she always did. Some feeling of lucidity that quickly evaporates. I pay attention to the shops nearby, there is one where they sell natural remedies and I see a huge pack of gingko biloba, I wonder if I should buy something from the shop. I continue on my way, a DC tells me that someone has died. The women have been dreaming about it and told him but he didn’t want to listen.

I'm in this strange, yet fancy museum/zoo place. Its a big business, and i work in it... The next thing I know, im on this ranch, and it has something that has a huge dog or horse (i cant remember). It begins to be naughty and so we know we have to contain it. So we start to attack it. This giant horse/dog sends out normal horses, and i can see some of the horses being stabbed from flying wood debris. one horse knocks over a cow statue and the statues head falls off and lands on one of the fence posts. There are geese and white ducks varied in size right next to the post where the statues head landed. The is falling a lot and hitting the birds causing them to HONK, and then goes back to where it was, and it does this many times. each time it does this, i look around to see what made the noise, because i forgot, and then i realize again, that it was on of the geese.
once we get the giant thing contained, we have to take it to this other place because we dont want to have to deal with it any more. this other place just so happens to be a shack, but on the inside it is fancy, but not as fancy as our place. I notice two goldfish, each about a foot long, in a dug out box about six inches deep and about two feet on each side. im outside now notice a black widow crawling around in the rocks. i point it out to cierra, who apparently loves to kill spiders. She picks up a small piece of wood and starts going at it trying to kill the spider. She misses multipul times, but she does eventually kill it. My mom then says to me "jaren there is your aqua dog!" while pointing down the road. I look to where she is pointing and see an extremely old car driving by with something extremely hairy in the passagers seat. I cant tell if it is a Fat hairy chubakka lady, or and extremely poofy dog.

---Dream fades---

Im on of the quad players (of course because i play quads in the band) standing in the corner of the gym. I look over and see Jared (the other quad for the 2012-2013 season) in the other corner. It must be a part of the drill because we have our drums on. On the snare line, i notice the guy from orchestra who is a brony, like me. At a time, he has two snares on. When they are done, i walk up to him and say you should try out for drumline and snar because auditions are tonight. i dont know why im saying this because i know that the upper battery is already set, and he wouldnt have a chance of making snare because the snare line is already set.

---dream fades---

That is all

My dreams are annoying me lately. It seems like the more I try to remember these things, the worse off I am. Funnily enough, this used to be very easy for me. Back in the day I would have two or three very vivid dreams a night, with a couple of Lucids a week. Of course, I was in practice, and at the top of my LDing game. Now I've suffered a sad decline into barely remembered fragments.

I know at one point I was dreaming about some family members, as well as some monsters. Possibly high school as well? I had three or so dreams again thanks to the snooze feature on my alarm clock. A bank may also be involved, but of course I might just be remembering bits of "The Dark Knight".


There are a few other things I feel I should add, but I can't for the life of me recall them. Maybe I'll think of it later?

In this long and complicated dream I was somehow involved in politics of Poland (my country of origin, where I was born, but now I am a US citizen in real life).

There was this blond thin very pretty very charismatic woman who in my dream was in a position of power in Polish politics and was also a close family friend on my mother's side of my family.

She and a large group of people where house guests at my mother's home, and I was communicating with them mostly via phone and texting.

One time we arranged to meet. The setting was an outdoor cafe with the tables and chairs set up on a bridge for some reason. When I arrived, the important woman, a male assistant of hers, and a prisoner were already there. We were going to interview the prisoner to find out important information from him, but I do not know why he was a prisoner and what the important information was. There was no chair for me, so when I arrived, they first pulled several empty chairs from a neighboring table, and had to readjust it, so that there was only one empty chair for me. The prisoner's restraint had to be removed so that he could talk more freely. It turned out that he only had one restraint to begin with: a hair restraint, and so the assistant cut the restraint restraining the prisoner's hair. (How a hair restraint would suffice for a prisoner, and how it would prevent him from speaking freely - my dream did not explain any of that, nor did I question it.)

Change of scene to a political rally. The important woman was talking and saying "... And that's why capitalism failed in Poland." I interjected, "Excuse me, but as a proponent of capitalism, I have to correct that capitalism did not fail in Poland, it was designed to fail. What those in power called capitalism was designed to be unacceptable to people, so that they would beg those in power to abolish Capitalism. Which is what those in power had wanted all along." While I was talking about begging, I enacted the gestures of putting my hands together in exaggerated begging, and my perspective changed so that the powerful woman was higher up and I was begging her from below.

I do not know what the consequence of my interjection was because I then woke up.

Fragment 1: about personal finances and 401k retirement plan.
Fragment 2: a fragment of a dream about my grandmother go alas is no longer alive. In my dream she was frail, so toward the end of her life.

Blame it on the menthol.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #98: Menthol and Marriage

I'm watching my son E perform some kind of a play with other 3-year-olds. At one point he's supposed to pretend a wiffle ball bat is a magic wand, but of course he goes waving it around dangerously close to other kids' heads. I run over to intervene but another mother gets there first. "I'll take that," she says, plucking it out of his hands.

"Sorry! Thanks for grabbing that from him," I say, embarrassed that she got there first. The woman gives me an unfriendly "where were you?" look. This annoys me, but as the father of the kid who was going nuts with a wiffle ball bat, there's not much I can say. I look back over at the play and E, laughing merrily, leaps over a low stone wall and goes running off God-knows-where. I take off after him...

...and have a false awakening in complete darkness. I hear Wife stir in the darkness and she asks me why I'm awake. I tell her that "I had this crazy dream where [E] almost hit a bunch of other kids in the head with a wiffle ball bat." I move to settle back against the pillow and realize that it's way, way too dark in here. "I'm dreaming," I tell her.

"Mm-hmm," is her sleepy reply, and I hear her roll over.

"It's super dark in here," I say. "I can't even see you." She doesn't respond but she rolls over again, leaning her head against my shoulder and putting her hand on my chest. I'm feeling really frisky and I think about asking her whether she wants to "make out a little bit."

Before I can unleash this suave line on her, she exclaims, "God, your breath!" and rolls away in horror. As she says that, I notice that the inside of my mouth feels nasty and vaguely thick, like my pre-bed dental care has totally worn off.

My confidence is a bit punctured, but I respond, "This is a dream. I can't possibly have bad breath in a dream."

"Okay, if you're sure," she says.

I move toward where her voice is coming from and try to kiss her. I wind up just finding her feet, which start flailing around when I touch them. "Why are you facing the wrong way now?" I ask, confused and a little exasperated.

"I don't know!" she responds. Holding on to an ankle, I very clumsily sort of turn her around. Since it's dark, I can just imagine that she's now facing the right way. As I do, the light in the scene increases ever so slightly until I can see her. I've managed to put my "death breath" from earlier out of my mind, so we kiss.

As they say, "one things leads to another", and the dream ends with roughly 4 minutes of very vivid LD sex before I wake up. Describing this part in detail would be a little too personal and graphic, but even after having a fair number of lucid dreams, the realism and detail of LDs still amazes me.

Last night I kept having dreams that occurred in the same area, but different places around the area. I ended up getting lucid three times!
Lucid Non-Lucid

This is just a fragment of a dream. I was in my house. I became lucid, and RCed. I decided to go outside and fly around. I jumped off the deck, put my arms out, and imagined floating. I ended up gliding a bit, and then landing face-first on the ground. I got up, and tried to fly again, and this time I floated a bit.

I was in a large hotel which looked like a mansion with my entire school I went to last year. My friend and I went in the pool, but then this dark cloud appeared right over it in the corner. It formed into a tornado, so my friend and I ran inside to go hide. Another friend was in there, and he told us to come lie down by him. Then, the tornado came in, and a huge part of the building fell right where we were thinking about sitting before. After, everyone in the school got up, but then we all had swords, and everyone was trying to stab eachother. I stabbed a bunch of people, and then my little sister came up to me, swinging a mini-sword at my face. I grabbed her hand and told her to leave. After that, it was night, and I couldn't find my room at all. Every room I went into was wrong, and I kept going into the same rooms. Eventually, my teacher told me to sleep in this one room which was really big and dark. So I walked in, and the lights were by the door, so I had to walk to my bed in the dark. Then, this slenderman thing came up, and started following me. I woke up.

I went back to sleep, and ended up in the same room, non-lucid. This time, I was sitting on the counter by the stove with my computer, but it was daytime, and there was a large window in the room. I became aware that I was dreaming. I thought 'Oh crap, this is where I was before. I'm getting out of here. I grabbed my computer and jumped and smashed through the window. Luckily, there was a massive lake, so I landed in the lake instead of on the ground. I swam to the surface, but then I woke up.

I fell back asleep again, and ended up right outside in the front yard of the mansion. I could tell I was dreaming, so I thought of tasks for Checker's competition. I saw a really nice car, and I tried to teleport myself into the drivers seat, but whatever I was trying didn't work. Eventually, I ran up to the car, and tried to get in it, but the person inside drove away. Then, I ran down towards the lake I had jumped into before. There was a huge cliff in front of me (going down). I was going to try and fly into the lake, but then I decided not to. I saw some cheetahs (again?!? They were in an earlier LD), and decided to try transformation for on task. I got down on all four, and ran towards them. I could feel the transformation, but my clothing was still on. I reached them and woke up.

Then, I fell asleep and was back in the mansion, but in a different room. My dad and sisters were there. I became aware I was dreaming, and RCed. I went up to my dad and said, "Dad, you're dreaming! Here, plug your nose!" Then, I demonstrated flying to him. I jumped up and hovered a bit. Then I landed on the ground and looked at him. The scene went blurry for a second, then unblurry. I decided to stabilize, and rubbed the couch a bit. Then I showed him flying/floating again, and I woke up.

This is the last one I remember. I was in the mansion, and my friend and I had to stay the night. We went into the basement, and found a cookie factory! We crawled up into the machinery to sleep, but there were a bunch of other kids. Then, we got plastic containers full of cookies from the machine, and a worker said we could have as much as we want.


Four lucids in one night