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I was in class in high school with all my old friends. I dont think a teacher was their. We all were just having fun, talking, and watching a movie.

Katlynne talked to me casually. Which was nice and odd, because usually she felt repulsed by me. So I joined her group of friends for the last 10 minutes of the movie and we talk and had fun.

The bell rang and we all left. On my way out I talked to Devin a little. It was nice to see her again, because we were always on good terms. I go to my locker and grab a couple things, then headed down for lunch. It was a lonely lunch since I had no one to sit with.

Katlynne

I thought I'd take some time to go in-depth about katlynne, just in case my future self forgot. She has blonde hair, a perfect body, and has relationship issues; on account that everyone wants to hit and quit her. We've always had a weird relationship, in the physical world and dreamworld.

Back in middle school, I put myself out there for her and she rejected me, pretty harshly. And I had never went for a girl before. She ignored me for a while. Then our friends hung out so we kinda got put in the same situation a lot. We'd say a few words to eachother then kinda ignore eachother. She was the most complicated girl I knew. I couldn't tell if she just wanted to be friends or was kinda being nice because of how hard she threw me down or because she felt sorry for me. No idea. Then for 3 years we are seperated, as in, we are not put in the same situation. Then we get history class together and she starts to laugh at jokes I say in front of the class. She even approached me one-on-one a few times and put casual conversations out there. As if she would like to be my friend. I would talk back to her, but also kinda brush off her conversations. I was still confused and hurt by how she acted before. I feel like she may have been interested in a romantic relationship with me, obviously if we hung out more and she confirmed that she liked me. But I wouldn't put that theory on record. And at this point I had undergone a lot of changes. Something had to have appealed to her to want to be my friend. I more or less brushed her off, dropped out of school and went on to do other things with my life (highschool is pointless and I didn't need to go to a good college for my career choice). Anyways, I've seen her 1 or 2 times since I dropped out. A part of me wishes I didn't drop out, I now realize that her friendship would've meant a lot to me.

Now the tie-in. Ever since I left her 1 and a 1/2 years ago, Ive had dreams of her. About every two weeks I'll have a dream about her. Im not exactly sure why, Im assuming its a mix of her having a big impact on my life and that we have a spiritual connection. Of course I wouldn't say that on record, but I kinda feel that connection with her. Take that however you want, but... whatever. Anyways, these dreams are always about being rejected by her or just kinda watching her. In my dreams, her form basically represents rejection (especially from the feminine), the love that wont be, and just sitting on the sidelines. Always she acts out those themes to me in my dreams, up until last night, when she accepted me.

Afterthoughts

Katlynne usually represents feminine rejection/disconnection for me. And I've probably have had 20 dreams over the course of the last 6 months of her consecutively representing those things. So her having a casual conversation, trying to repair our relationship, means something big. Now I couldn't really tell if she was looking for something romantic later on in our relationship. But one thing I do know is that her form now accepts me and were on good terms.

I can't say that I know exactly what this means. It felt really good to have her acceptance and be able to have a nice conversation with her. It could mean that I've conquered my fear of rejection. But it could also mean other things. Im also not sure if this was a shared dream or not. If it was then it could've been just as much of her getting over what I represent in her life as what she represents in mine.

The lonely lunch definitely puts a twist to things. Like, I'm accepted/not scared of rejection yet Im still lonely. Shiitt, that's right lol Though I'm still a bit scared of rejection. There must be more dimensions to what she represents than I'm realizing.

I can't help but feel that one day Katlynne and I are gonna meet again one day and have a great relationship (friendship, possibly romanctic relationship, whatever happens). I just get that feeling out of no where. It could just be the dreams and resentment of how I left things. I guess time will show if its true.

08.06.2012

Baseball Killers and Sakyo (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm watching a Baseball game at the lower levels of a stadium, and it seems that you could go under the stairs and watch it as well. It's bright outside, and the whole baseball field is colored with light green.

Teams would be lined up on opposite sides, and apparently, there seems to be umpires on each side as well? Guess this Baseball game had elements of Tennis in it as well. The players looked like those small cartooni-sh looking baseball figures.

They were mostly round on the edges, wore caps, and apparently had circular shields as well. I pondered on why they would need shields in the fist place, but after some time, I think if a team wins, Sakyo from Yu Yu Hakusho would show up at the top levels of the stadium and scream,

"Kill them!!"

And gunfire would be aimed at the winning team. I look at this nonsense in awe, wondering what is the point to shoot the winning team in the first place. There were a couple of dream resets for sure, and each one made me feel as if I'm a baseball player as well sitting on the sidelines....

I could see these people's wickedness, and the thoughts that I would be next started to overwhelm me. The dream shifts to where I'm with a group of older people, and these look like people who would be orchestrating this sick act. The more they are talking to each other, and the more they are in my proximity, the feelings of fear faded away.

Sometimes I wonder if I was part of this vile act...

They were talking about how a lady managed to escape in the hallway they were in. The flooring was just one big gray surface, and it feels this area was well ventilated. For some reason, there was an opening between two people, and I wanted to just dash through them. But I felt that if I would do this so sudden, something would make them suspicious of me.

I honestly don't know who this woman was, but I just wanted to get out of this area. I waited until they were in the middle of a sentence, and quickly dashed towards a door behind them that they declared was opened. I wanted to know this for sure before I ran, because I felt they would shoot me, even though they didn't have any signs of weaponry on them.

I pulled on the door as if my life depended on it, and continued to run like a madman, looking at all viable options I could take in escaping through the random doors generated. I went to one door, and it didn't even have a door knob. I didn't take any time to wonder why, because I still had that feeling I'm being chased.

I quickly went down the mini-stairs to get up to that door, and kept running until I found a random door. I can't remember how it looked like exactly, but I just placed my fate that this would be one step out of this place.

I can't remember what I do next....

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08.06.2012

Sakyo and Toguro (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I see a house, and I'm in spectator perspective. The exterior is made of white or gray wood layers going horizontally. It looks fairly small, and had the style of it conforming to what you see in pop-up books...

Except that it was 3-D, and there are two windows, one right above the other. I look at the bottom window, and I see someone slowly walking down the stairs. The lighting inside has a yellow-orange type of hue, and I see the person is wearing a light gray suit with a blue tie or some dark color, and light grey dress pants as well.

He's pretty tall, maybe 6-7 feet from first glance, and I noticed that it's Sakyo from Yu Yu Hakusho. He looks at me with a smile, a stoic smile, or just.....it's hard to explain. He clearly had confidence in himself. This picture pretty much is how his facial expression was.

After looking at me for a few seconds, he looks up, and it seems the Younger Toguro brother from Yu Yu Hakusho is inside the level above him. Toguro rests his left arm on the side of the window, and peers down at Sakyo. He's wearing his dark green jacket, just like in the series, and has his shades on as well.

They exchange words, though I can't remember what exactly, and there seems to be a bunch of shaking on Toguro's level. It doesn't take them long to finish talking, and they go their separate ways.

Then it feels as if I'm being teleported into the inside of this house. In order to get in though, I had to go from some underground cave. When I get into the main base of the underground section, it's reminiscent to the area where Yusuke and Sensui fought each other in Yu Yu Hakusho.

I think I was interrupting their battle, but it's hard to say because I was running too fast, bt I do remember getting a quick glance of Shinobu Sensui looking at me, and he looks irritated, but he doesn't do anything to retaliate my sudden appearance.

(Kinda between these two pictures)


and this, except with his body on the same side as his head above

I keep running up the slope to get up to the door to get out of that place as fast as possible.

I slam the door as hard as I could, and then a bunch of random things happen that I can't even remember which one occurred first. Hiei from Yu Yu Hakusho is wearing his black cloak over his main fighting outfit, and is using his sword to slice random demons generated from a small section. Someone comments on how impressive Hiei's performance is, though I can't pick out where this voice is coming from.

just for fun sakes I'm going to share with yall's how I stumbled onto lucid dreaming, it was very bizarre and to this day I'm not sure how it happened but Im glad it did.



When I was younger i remember 2 distinct dreams where i had brief moments of lucidity;
the first was a t-rex chasing me when i realized "hey! im dreaming it cant hurt me!" so i turned around to challenge the tiny-armed beast whom proceeded to take a giant chunk of my arm O_O I was stunned and woke up with my arm throbbing.

a few days later i was dreaming of being chased yet again by this sasquach thing, and had that thought again "hey! im dreaming, it cant hurt me!" and yet again i turned around to face my opponent and this time i got kicked in the stomach to wake out gasping for air....


years and years went by with no notable Lucid dreams until 2 years ago in summertime.
I had just gotten out of the shower and decided to take a nap on the couch in my bath robe, my eyes began to close and I drifted away and then this thought came into my head "i wonder if i can control my dream" ( I still have no idea where and why this thought came into my head, i had not read, watched, nor listened to anything that had to do with dreams and dream control)

I fell asleep immediately after and immediately woke up on my couch...fully clothed, and hair dried...I stood up and realized I had just woken up....in my FREAKING DREAM?! I stood up and cautiously walked down the stairs in my apartment hallway all-the-while thinking "i really hope im not sleepwalking right now.." i opened the door to the outside where my eyes were greeted with GINORMOUS gothic buildings across the street from me, they stretched up for hundreds of feet and were a dark stone color, it was astounding.

I continued to walk around baffled by everything, i wanted to look at every single leaf, pebble, and bug i came cross. the street was identical to mine with a few twists, i was walking in the middle of the road and people were looking at me as if i was well...walking in the middle of the road lol
I realized i could do anything so being....human. I decided to make a cute boy appear and try some dream kissin
oh he appeared all-right, I leaned in to kiss him and opened my eyes just a little to see that his face had...shifted....and he now ha a pig snout
I woke up flinging myself upright on the couch.

and that is how I got into the wonderful world of lucid dreaming

Every morning I've woken up and I have written down so...many....pages.... But no matter what I do, when I have lucidity, I lose it just as fast as I gained it, or I'm aware but I can't do anything significant. This doesn't discourage me from repeatedly trying again and again and again until I get it. But it's a little frustrating to know that I have only so much knowledge of what it feels like to be lucid. My basic idea (and when I mean basic, I mean that I really can't confirm it but it would seem about right) is that I suddenly feel like I just woke up, and I went back into the dream or I'm thinking about the dream as if I was awake. There has to be a way to get myself to mount firmly before I lose that control. Because I lose it as soon as I see it. How do I know that the feeling is lucidity? Well I checked back to my first experience (which was the most vivid of them all) and I realized that after seeing that I was in fact dreaming, and then getting my arse knocked around in that tail spin because I got too exited, that same feeling followed, and it was there with me while I was in my spinny, blurry, limbo. then I realized that I've had this same feeling many many many times before especially when I'm in a tail spin. So my question is, how the heck do I mount myself in the dream before I lose the control? I don't think the "I'm an anchor" thing works. Anyone have any suggestions?

Im in a helecopter and theres a man next to me showing me how to fly it then
The helecopter blades are realy loud

Then out of nowhere im in front of a army base im in front of the front gate

Then I realize im dreaming so I look at my hands and focus everything blurry so I start to spin it stabilizes it enough for me to see my hands so I look at my hands and focus it get clear I focus on what im hearing too then I lick my han to ingage all my sense it salty my shadow looks like it has my hat on but it dosent feel like I have a hat on

I look down and start to fiddle with a electrical box thinking if I shox my self the feeling might stabilize the dream but I worry if im not dreaming this will kill me but I keep telling my self this has too be a dream beacuse it dosent make sense how I got here and just appearing outside the helecopter dos not make sense

So I stick my hands in the wires and pull them out beacuse I still didt convence myself so I try to prove im dreaming to my self by reading thing so I try to read the soda machine infront of me but there a leave design I front of some of the letter so cant read it so I decide to go into this tv store thinking how the tv would work in a dream the tv are black and stack ontop of each other on a brown shelf they all three keep repeating the same images a clown bening over a couch then repeat and so on I look over a bed and see some girl talking I try too stay focused

I climb over the bed take of the robe I waz apperantly wearing and get to excited and wake up

one o the first things i drempt about was taking a bunch of ecstasy tablets thinking they were acid. I got some from my sister's ex boy friend casey. Later i traded the neigbors kid for some. None of the pills did anything and i plugged in the black light in my room for no reason. Also i traded all my bags of weed to the random neigbor kid named matt for one stupid pill. i was also mad that i relapsed but mad that there were no effects.
Later in the dream, ironically enoug, i drempt i was back in my old rehab but this time it was like out in the world rehab and was in my house and around the hood. but before that katie became my sponsor and we did a couple steps at her house. and then i showed her a picture of the young me at some aquarium or somthing. pretty much random dream

Dream - Lucid

I fell asleep and found myself in a mix between my current house and one I lived in briefly as a child. It was daytime outside according to the lighting in the room. I think I was in my room, but it looked different. I immediately knew I was dreaming. I examined my hands so I wouldn't get too excited and wake up. I then remembered my most recent lucid goal: To confront JP about being in so many of my dreams. I started to call out his name, trying to get him to appear, but he didn't. I kept looking at my hands to keep the dream from fading.

I kept losing the dream and then going back into it (it's been awhile since I've been lucid), but I regained lucidity each time this happened, and I would remember my goal as well. Every time I'd "wake up" somewhere else in the house, and I'd start to call JP.

I finally ended up somewhere that didn't look like the house anymore, but I think it was still supposed to be. I was standing in front of some stairs, and I called on JP. A man in a suit then appeared on the stairs, but he didn't look like JP; his skin was a bit darker, and he looked older. He didn't say a word and kept a strange, small smile on his face as he walked up the stairs.

Regardless of his strange looks, I treated him as if he were JP. I forcefully asked him something along the lines of "what are you doing here?" or "why are you in so many of my dreams?", but he kept on just walking up the stairs with his little smile, staying silent the whole time. Things then started to get blurry, and I tried to examine my hands to keep the dream, but I, again, lost it.

I then "woke up" somewhere else, I'm not sure where, but wherever I was, I decided to try to fly since its been so long. I took off into a blue sky dotted with clouds. Below me was green grass and trees with lush, green leaves. At a certain height I felt a little resistance, but that's normal for my flying dreams; I was glad to even be flying at all since I haven't had many LDs lately.

As I was flying, I passed by some kind of tiny flowers, and I reached out to touch them.

That's all I remember from that one, though I know there was a bit more to it than what I can recall.

~

I was in my bedroom, but, of course, it looked different than my actual bedroom. I was talking to someone on the phone, or myself, I'm not sure, but I was worried that the sound would carry through this weird window in my wall that went into the hallway, and my mom would hear my conversation. Later on, she said she didn't hear me, but I knew for a fact that the sound carried extremely well into the hall; I even heard my own voice coming from my room when I was out there.

This one is sort of vague, but I had a dream that I was Neal Caffrey from White Collar and I stole a freight train somehow. Peter was suspicious of me the whole time.

Journal later:

Walking up hill and JC gives me a pitcher of beer.
Sit down at a table drinking with friends. Later, walk up to the table again wondering where everyone went, but some friends and I sit down.

I see two purple, paper ovals and a dollar.
Rafting in a man made river.
BL had taken me there before.
On raft, a mediocre girl with underwear on and nice package below on me. I didn't want her on me at first but then I thought about her underwear and pulled her down on me.
Going down river, I know a waterfall is coming, but it's safe.
We dropped. My wife said, "That hurted." The girl and I were fine.
I tasted the water. We got out of the river.

It's Peeeeeeoplllllle!

I was in a car wit people I've never met. There was plenty of room for everyone. There was a black couple, a really sexy girl and her husband, and some other people I don't really remember well.

I was people-watching and considering the cards everyone had been dealt. I thought it was interesting that the black guy ended up with a black girl. It seemed so token. There was a sexy gal I wish I'd been able to get with, but that seemed typical too. She was with some responsible guy.

This guy was eating a barbecue sandwich. It looked really good. He asked if I wanted one and I said, "I'll get something later I'm sure--whatever I get." Then the guy had a camera. He was trying to get a picture of someone. I figured he'd try to get a picture of me sleeping because it was so real, or it told some story of our day.

I closed my eyes because I was so tired. I figured I'd give him the picture. I couldn't help but close my eyes.

I woke up and saw it was raining really hard. I looked back and saw we were at the top of a hill. behind us it was raining even harder. The clouds were dense, yet I noticed small cloud patches flying by. They looked like balloons being blown horizontally.

I pointed it out to someone. Something was wrong with it. It was completely unnatural. The storm had been worse behind us, but now it was over us more. Lightning struck a tree about 20 - 50 feet away. Over the next few seconds, lighting lit up the sky (just a little really), but I saw the lightning bolts strike over and over.

It began to look as though we were rolling backwards. Eventually I noticed the driver was backing up down the hill. She wanted to get away from where the lightning had struck. There were trees all around, but we weren't really getting away from any. They were all over.

At the bottom of the hill we were now out of the car. Responding to a comment that we might be dreaming that it is raining, I said, "I much prefer you dream it is a nice day. Then we might wake up and find it IS a nice day."

The guy with the sexy wife put his computer in a plastic tub that had water in it. He didn't care it was ruined. He thought it attracted the lightning before and said he'd rather leave it there and get a new one later.

I looked up and we seemed to be at the dock of a warehouse, but the dock platform was up about 8 or 9 feet. People from our car were sitting up on the dock. One guy was hanging out in the dumpster. He had given up.

Then clothes started falling into the dumpster. Some would hit a concrete platform and the bounce into the dumpster. I saw an old time hat that Humphrey Bogart would have worn with same other piece of clothing and a wallet.

More and more clothes started falling and I began to realize that that is what the strange clouds were. It was people and they were falling where we had parked.

My DC's had the dead-pan dream-thousand-yard-stare going. I was trying to get there attention to get back in the car. Realizing what was going on, I knew it was like Soilent Green, but I couldn't help it, and I yelled, "It's Peeeeeoplllllllle! It's Peeeeeoplllllllle!"

another one that I initially remembered a lot of, but didn't have time to lie there and hold on to it after waking, so most of it was gone before I could write it down

*****FRAGMENT*****

So, I'm apparently someone fairly high up in an army, and the commander is William Wallace. He tells me to collect some plants from my back garden, because he wants to make something he calls 'wolf-gas'. We then find ourselves on a large field- our army is there, but I couldn't see the enemy. Wallace then gives a speech- similar to the Braveheart one, but not exactly. As far as I can remember it was along the lines of the enemy being just like us, and just as scared as we were.

-There's then a large chunk that I can't remember-

I'm on a hill with William, and there's a farm nearby with smoke rising from it. He tells me to be careful, because it's wolf gas, and we then run in to rescue the people inside (the wolf gas seems to have a similar effect to mustard gas). I'm then walking around after the battle, and I see a man dressed as a clown fighting with someone over loot. I turn a revolver on him and tell him that neither of them have the rights to loot.

*****END*****

So, yeah, disappointing recall, but that was more of an external issue- I woke up because my father was shouting up and needed to speak to me, so I had no time to remember much or write anything down. There was certainly more of it, but it's too faint.

This requires a lot of explaining. So in other words, a lot of reading, but please bear with me ._.

Ok so about 6 months ago, I lived in a nice house... Everything was normal. Then, out of nowhere I had this one dream where it felt like I was awake. But what happened was, I was laying down with my eyes closed... And I could feel my bed float off the ground a few feet, and rotate 360 degrees before slowly falling back to the ground again. ...It didn't stop there. A few days later, I had another one of these dreams, except it was a bit more intense. Instead of slowly floating, this time my bed floated a bit faster, right up to the ceiling of my room. My eyes were open and I saw the ceiling like 20 inches away from my head. Then it dropped quite fast onto the floor. I started to have these dreams quite often, and they kept getting more and more intense with each one. Eventually I was at the point where I would have a dream like this and my bed would either skyrocket past my ceiling and into pitch black darkness, or carefully aim itself and dive into the floor at breakneck speed. It felt like I was on a roller coaster, except way faster. After about a month or so, I actually started to discover on my own that I could kind of control where my bed was going using my mind. Although it didn't work as often as I had hoped, it still helped. Then I had this one dream... This one specific dream that really freaked me out.
My bed floated horizontally in this dream. All I saw was darkness, but I could feel it moving. And then my bed floated by a white fireplace. I didn't have a fireplace in that room. But the thing that really freaks me out about that is, there's a chimney right outside my room, as part of the house... There WAS a fireplace in my bedroom... 200 years ago.
The fireplace that I saw was white, and there was a small fire in it, and it was brighter than it should have been for such a small fire. Yet, the light didn't go anywhere else. The light itself only surrounded the fireplace.
Eventually these dreams started to happen less often. Then I had to move out of that house. I left my old bed there because I already had a new one ready for the new house, the one I'm living in now. After I moved here, those dreams stopped ENTIRELY. I think those were lucid dreams, though. Because I felt awake in all of them. Even though these events happened not that long ago, at the time, I knew what a lucid dream was, but... I don't know... I have no idea why I didn't take control. For some reason, now, it's harder for me to fully LD... Anyway, thanks for taking your time to read this, it was pretty weird.

Kept having dreams with lots of clues that I was dreaming - back in school, living in a dorm, etc. The dorm was like a giant basement/loft with 4 showers. Roommates were old school mates. Jeremy was working very hard to organize the place. It was an amazing place. I would awake and wonder why I couldn't recognize the dream clues. Got up for a little bit, fed cats, and went back to bed with intention. As soon as I hit the dream world I did a reality check (looked at my hands) and bingo! Dreaming! Flying in the night sky and felt so free. The moon kept getting larger so I wanted to slow down and come back down to earth. I'm still afraid of the moon. I start to conjure JC. I land in an old theatre and one of the tech guys says he is out by the purple loading dock. I run down the stairs toward the loading dock and there he is standing in a doorway. He smiles and walks over to me. He looks 10 years younger. We hug and I just look at him. He comes to help with setting up the basement/loft/dorm. Then I think there was a wedding of some sort - no one I know of.

I've gotten good at getting JC to show up (took about a year). I need to come up with some intentions once he gets here (and stick to them).

[COLOR="royalblue"]Non-Aware (Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="blue"]Partially Aware (Lucid Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="navy"]Fully Aware and Vivid (Astral Projection(OOBE)[/COLOR]

I told myself I would go to bed at a normal time, but I tried to figure out a way to upload and play FLAC files on my Iphone so I could listen to the Gateway Experience on high quality sound. I did find my solution but I went to bed very late, 01:15.
I started to listen to the "Energy Bar Tool" Exercise. I did the normal Focus 10 procedure and was then told to imagine myself holding a white light-saber looking bar and Monroe instructed me to change the color of it to, green, orange, yellow, blue and red. When he told me to try it's pulsing energy through visualization I didn't understand what he meant, but then he said "No imagine it bright white again, and imagine it go on and off over and over again". As I did this my whole body started to pulsating almost in synchronization with every clear picture I had of it. "On" My left leg started to twitch and I thought it had gone off!" "Off" I am back in the normal state again.. "On" My right leg twitched! Then in the end he told me to come back to physical consciousness (the C-1) by moving my right hand and thinking of the number one. I did and the exercise was ended, my awareness felt weird, I had my eyes closed and it felt like my awareness had shrink and that my body was 5 times bigger. Not as special as it sounds, but it felt weird. Then I fell asleep...

[COLOR="royalblue"]I did end up chaining the dream to a lucid dream, so I have forgot some details of the first dream, but I was an American time traveling but ending up in Sweden at some farmers house. I met some guy about my age and he guided me around the area. I said that I had been told that the Swedish girls have the most beautiful voice and that I would like to meet one lol :D And he said sure there are tons of girls trying to sell American books in the town.
When I got there I saw my old friend Elna (although not aware that I knew her at the time) and when she spoke I almost melted. :panic: It was such a beautiful voice, and then I told her that I had already read that book because I was from the states (In that dream). And she couldn't believe her ears, I was like a celebrity to her. Then I hang out with her and her friends accompanied with the other guy and I remember having a conversation about drugs and the only drug they knew was alcohol lol. And I thought to myself "Oboy if they knew how freaky LSD was they would go nuts haha.".
( I DON'T DO DRUGS! I MEANT THE EXPLANATION OF LSD) :)
But I didn't tell them about it, it would be too much for them. Then we hear some roaring in the sky and we look up and see a white old airplane, a white airplane with a propeller at the front. They looked with amazement and I was like meh...
Then we see a big black stealth aircraft and I think to myself "Wait a minute those aircraft doesn't exist now?!" and I start to scream UFO! The other look up and say "Woooow". In the group I found my old friend Astrit. We talk about aircrafts and he asked me if I had seen the documentary "something something" about UFOS? And I thought "Yeah I have, but you can have because it came out in my time". I asked him what year it was and he said "1964" and I thought for some weird reason that that made sense... I also remembering saying "Oh then there is going to be a UFO invasion in Washington the 29 July!" Although this actually happened 1952 and it wasn't an invasion, but and UFO incident, but I have no idea of how I could remember the exact date. The others went into a restaurant I think it was Burger King, but that didn't make sense, although nothing made sense in this dream anymore... :roll:

I told Astrit that I needed to go to the bathroom and he said "I'll go with you I have to go too." When I started to pee I thought to myself for some reason "Oh what if I do it for real? Oh right it usually never happens so..." But then I woke up and I had my eyes closed and I wanted to chain the dream. I heard my dad snore in the other room, but I continued to focus on the black space behind my eyelids and suddenly I was back where I had left but lucid! [/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Although it felt different, everything was quiet not a sound was made. I looked at my friend Astrit then he just disappeared! I knew it was a dream so I didn't bother, it was kind of dark in there now but I put a sweater in front of my eyes and focused to stay in the dream. I looked myself in the mirror and it was blurry so I couldn't see myself clearly.
Then I woke up again, still had my eyes closed and I tried to get back again somehow. Suddenly I see my hands and I am back where I had left once again. It was very vivid now although still a little blurry vision, so I started to spin and it did clear up a bit. I thought to myself "Ok this is a vivid as I can get it in a start without glancing at objects, so this is how the guy in the Castaneda book perceived the dream at first. Ok so now all I got to do is to look at my hands and then at some new object to get a surge of energy." But I never looked back at my hands again, because something else caught my attention. :( I saw a body laying on the white floor, and when I approached it I saw who it was. IT WAS ME! :shock:
I thought to myself that it couldn't be the real me since I am in my bed but I was still curious to see what would happen if I touched myself at the left arm. But as I did the body synchronized it's movement with mine but in a laying position.
I looked at my head and it looked kind of freaky, I think I could see a bone structure at the back of my head, or something white reminding me of bones anyway. I was a little scared that the eyes of that double would suddenly open it's eyes like in a horror movie. As I thought that the double got up and looked at me with a angry look and then took a defending fighting position. It looked really freaky :huh2: but then I woke up.

I tried to chain the dream again, but I heard the high pitch ringing in my head that normally let's me know that I wont be able to WILD, but I still tried but as expected I couldn't return. The time was now 07:31

This was a fun experience, but next time I should focus on my objective - To look at my hands then on a dream object and then back at my hands again. Over and over and with different dream objects. :roll: [/COLOR]

5 August 2012*
Dream 1: I was sitting alone listening to music when C walked up and started talking to me. He looked a lot like Russell brand and he seemed to know nothing about modern culture and technology. We walked around te city for ages looking at all the technology and busses and stuff. He appeared to like Lil Wayne a lot and we listened to that the whole time. Later we were in some underground train like place when it was pouring with rain. A window popped open and a dog came jumping through it. I got such a fright but then saw it was just the care takers dog. M came through the door and said that the dog had kept him up all night so he had brought it here.*

Alarm after: 4:45
Brief description: Took a while to fall asleep, probably 30 minutes, so I know for a fact that the time wasn't ideal. Woke up when my alarm rang, did a very short WBTB, and managed to stay focused, in part because I had laid out the exact steps to follow in bed the night before.. So I grabbed my milk cap, laid down comfortably and focused on the feeling of it in my hand. I think I hit a decent balance between zero focus and too much focus, and eventually I fell asleep while focusing on the cap-feeling. From then on I remember nothing, but then I woke up again lying still, the cap in my hand, so I repeated the same thing again and fell asleep with the cap-feeling again for the second time. I'm not sure what this means... Did I fall asleep the first time, but stayed mentally awake, and so when there was no dream to enter (alarm timing wrong, I guess?) I woke up again to repeat the scenario? Or maybe I fell completely asleep and woke up naturally after a longer time, but remembered to try WILDing again? Who knows. I should have looked at my clock the second time. Another thing I noticed is that I forgot completely about lying still. I didn't fight the urge to move at all, so that's definitely something to fix tomorrow. 4:45 made it easy for me to focus, and also easy to fall asleep, so that's a time I will continue using for as long as I'm well rested. When I lack sleep, 6:15 will probably be optimal. One more thing I really noticed is the fact that I don't keep a real dream journal. Maybe I've been having successful WILDs and simply forgot about them, who knows? I will start keeping one on the morrow.

To sum up:

• Need to fight the urge to move more
• Physical anchors seem to work well
• I need to keep a real DJ for better recall
• Alarm at 4:45 works fine when I'm well-rested