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- False Awakening to SP

Had a random false awakening in which I immediately knew I was asleep. SP came right then and went by as it normally does. The only difference is this time, towards the end I could feel my body slowly hovering above my bed higher and higher. It was fun haha. Once the vibrations went away and I opened my eyes, I was back on my bed. Did a nose plug RC which worked like a charm. I got up and did a couple more nose plug checks until I opened my door and went to my hallway. My mom walked by looking like a robot with no emotion on her face. She didnt say anything to me or look at me she just walked by and went into the bathroom. Kind of creeped out by this, I went to the door and said "I might be going out in a bit okay?" to see if I would get a reaction. She then replied with a quick "alright" so I walked away. In my living room my dogs jumped off my couch and ran to see me. They felt extremely lifelike as usual. I kind of got carried away and kept playing with them for a while. When I got bored I went to my backyard balcony and flapped my arms to fly up like a bird. I flew to the top of some trees and looked at the leaves trying to notice all the details I could. It looked just like it should in real life. When I realized that the arm flap method was making me fly very slow, I went back to my house. I tried opening doors and closing my eyes to change the dreamscape, but could not figure it out Jumped up through my roof and started flying without knowing where I was really going and I eventually woke up.

I've been waiting and hoping for a new Ipod4g so I could do voice memos. I got it finally and I got my first dream recorded dow on it, the beauty of this is that now I can store and see my recordings.

However I nearly blew it. I had a false awakening this morning and I recorded everything in the dream. I did the same after I woke up a second time. I haven't had a false awakening in a while. And I could hear my radio in the BG in the dream which added to the realism of the dream. The only problem was I found a few things wrong; I was sleeping in a futon in the living room (we used to have one), I somehow materialized a book in front of me and was able to write everything down but the fact that I wrote it down left me in question, and the recording I did sounded differently and that woke me up. I need to do RCs when I wake up from now on, I should've been doing them from the start. And after next week I'm going to dive into WILDs again. In the meantime I have a new toy that I'm going to frack around with. I'm going to try a timmed recorder so I can literally tell my self that I am dreaming from the out side. I'm a light sleeper and I can hear things clearly in my sleep from the outside, so I should take advantage of that. 4:00 should be a good time to get started on.

Woke up on 8/23/12

1A) I was at the state wrestling tournament and my coach picked me up and span around like coaches do when their wrestlers win, even though I had not even wrestled yet. I wasn’t really excited or anything.

I wake up. I remember to try and think about what I was dreaming of to fall back asleep, but I didn’t remember. I kept trying anyway and when I fell back asleep…

1B) I was back at the tournament with my friend Max in front of me sitting in a chair. I didn’t realize that I had been dreaming of this before. I thought we were at the state tournament, but I still asked Max where we were and he confirmed it. I got excited and began telling him with excitement that we were at state! I thought that it might be a dream and commented on it aloud. Coach Robinson told me to do a reality check and I tried poking a hole in both hands and, oddly, nothing happened. I began yelling in excitement along with the others for the fact that we were at the state wrestling tournament and that it was real. I suddenly realized that I had a dream about this, but I still thought that I was awake and that my first dream was simply playing out in real life. I told my coach in excitement that I had a dream about this and that the details were the same, including the red and white clothes he was wearing, though I don’t know if those were the same clothes in the previous dream.

A house. Aureus' house? We're looking for the "center." An office.

DREAM #1

I’m on vacation somewhere with my family. We’re staying in this big, old house. I explore around the house, and I keep finding weird secret passages that lead outside.

Later on, I check my computer and I find out that the second season of “The Legend of Korra” is going to start the next day.

Then I guess it’s the next day, because I go to find a TV. When I find one, there are a bunch of other kids there. I guess they’re like my Korra-watching club from my college, but I don’t really take a close look at their faces. I guess the TV doesn’t work or something, because we don’t actually end up watching anything.

I wander off to go see this performance that apparently is somehow related to “The Legend of Korra” … The performance is outside, and people just sit on random benches around the performers and watch. I can’t find a bench to sit on, so I just randomly walk around.

Anyway, the play turns out to be like, the Ember Island Players basically. So, it’s really bad. There’s one girl in the play who just wanders off to the side and starts laughing because she realizes the play is really bad. And then her father, who is also in the play, starts yelling at her for ruining everything. But, then the play just continues.

There’s a large group of people sitting on one bench, but then they all get up and leave. So I’m like, “Oh goody! A free bench!” So I rush over to it. But then I feel guilty about stealing the bench in case those people come back, so I just sit on the arm of the bench or something so I’m not really taking it. Some other girl comes over and sits down on the bench. And she and some other girl argue about who gets to sit on the bench … But, I’m not really paying attention.

I also just stop paying attention to the play and start reading some book that I have with me. The book has a lot of illustrations … or maybe it’s a graphic novel or manga or something. I don’t recall what was in it, really.

Eventually I leave and go back to my room in the house, and check my computer again and go on Tumblr. I see that people are posting all these clips from the new “Korra” episode. And I’m like, “AAH SPOILERS.” There appear to be like … pirates in it, or something. I decide I’m going to look up the episode later.

My sisters tell me that we’re all going bowling at some apparently awesome bowling alley. But, the dream ends before we actually go there. Too bad.

DREAM #2

… Or this could be a part of the same dream? I’m not entirely sure.

I’m at home. And, my parents decide I’m going to go back to college right away, even though I haven’t packed or anything yet. So, I try to start packing but I can’t find everything I need. So I’m just like, shoving random things in the car.

I find some books that I’m going to pack … and then some weird thing happens, like I have a memory within the dream of buying those books. It was at some small bookstore, and I remember picking out books, and then shoving ones I didn’t want under a table or something, and feeling guilty about it … I don’t really know.

Anyway, so there’s this closet where I’ve been storing a lot of my dorm room stuff over the summer (in real life), so in the dream I go looking for it. But I find that someone has moved a big dresser in front of it or something, so I can’t get it open.

I start kind of panicking and realizing I don’t have time to pack everything. I go outside where my parents are waiting for me. Except, my mom looks like one of my great aunts and not like my mom, which is weird. But anyway, I start explaining to them that I don’t have time to pack everything, and that if I went now I’d just be alone on campus for like a week anyway.

At first, they don’t seem to care. But then they finally say I don’t have to go back yet. But they still want to drive to campus just to look at the pretty autumn scenery or whatever.

This was a really long dream. Seemed like it lasted almost an hour.

It was really late. My sister was watching TV (I think an episode of Ghost Hunters) and I was playing my DS, among other things. Near the end of the dream, my mom runs down the hallway saying something happened and she needs to go somewhere... I cant remember. She left, and the TV show was almost over, so I get up and walk up stairs. I say to myself, "This would be a great time to do a WBTB.", lay down in bed, and fall asleep (gah!).

Missed opportunity.

Yay, dreams!

Alright, so apparently I was swimming somewhere and needed to go back to the local Middle School for something. Something? I have no clue.
Anyways, I didn't have any cover-ups or anything, and since I was alone, the house was locked. So I was forced to walk over to the middle school in a turquoise bikini (I've never worn a bikini in my life). Making a grand entrance half naked, it seemed as if the location changed. Like I was walking through the elementary school too. There were two offices, and of course I chose the one with the vicious principal in it. I still don't know why I had to go to the middle school in general. I simply walked back out of the school, and turns out the kids were being dissmissed.
Great.
From the 6th/7th grad ewing I heard Kiniyah shout. "Erika!" I turned around, wondering if she was going to come to me or I would have to go to her. As she was walking to me, I quickly turned around to see Brysen crossing the road between the actual school and the gym. Funny how when I haven't seen the boy in a whole year, and when I do, I'm in a fricken bikini.
Leaning against me, I pushed him to the ground. Just as I was going to quickly walk off, I saw Kristen and Dylan. Weird because Kristen moved in 4th grade and Dylan went to a different school in 5th.
Walking to me, I felt relieved because they weren't too bad. Somehow we were all holding hands--me in the middle, skipping to my house.

~*~

And then something about Phil, Dan, and Chris (youtubers) dying with a water gun in my neighbor's carport? What even

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #12: Whistling the "Ashokan Farewell"

I'm walking past a school building with Wife. For reasons I can no longer remember, I'm clutching a handful of documents.

It's close to dusk and the sky is growing red. I look up as we walk beneath the branches of a live oak and suddenly I'm lucid. I stop walking and look down at the papers in my hand. On top is a piece of sheet music that I can't read. I try to think of what I had intended to do and I (incorrectly) think that I wanted to perform a piece of music that I know from waking life.

I tell Wife that I'm going to whistle "a song from the Civil War" that I know from childhood. (I looked this up -- I meant Ashokan Farewell, a song that is actually from the Ken Burns documentary on the Civil War. I had not thought of this song in many years.) Wife laughs, saying, "Only you would pick a song like that." She waits to listen. I whistle a few bars of "Ashokan Farewell" before I wind up accidentally turning it into "The First Noël".

Once I'm done with the chorus I decide that it's time to fly. I realize that I've completely forgotten to stabilize the dream and I feel myself losing my grip on the experience. Suddenly flustered, I'm frozen in place as the dream scene collapses around me.

I attempt to DEILD back into the dream scene but sleep won't come. My alarm clock rings a few minutes later.

Dream - Lucid

I was with my friend Leigh, though I don't remember where, it was somewhere weird. We were looking at these colorful patterns on the wall. We had to choose from them for something. I kept thinking they reminded me of spirographs, but they weren't spirally at all; most were, in fact, star patterns. I told Leigh the ones I liked, which included some light blue shooting stars, some circle with a rainbow on the top, and I can't remember the last one. She didn't like the first one I picked, and so she told me the ones she liked. We both liked the one with the rainbow, and I think she said she liked the last one I picked as well.

~

I was in my room, and MK was there. She went into my closet to look for something, I'm not sure what, but she sounded upset about it; she said something in a whiny, sad voice. She knelt down at this old wooden toy box I have in there where I used to keep my pipe. I didn't want her to smell it, though it didn't really matter because she knows I occasionally smoke, but I rushed over and sat on the toy box anyway, and said something to her about whatever she was upset about.

I guess I must have left the closet at some point, because the next thing I knew, I was standing in my room again, and I figured out I was dreaming. I wondered if MK was still there. I went over to the closet, and before I opened it, I said I wanted Ray to be in there. I concentrated on that for a minute, then opened the closet door.
"Ray?", I said. Nothing. He wasn't there. Neither was MK.
But my closet had all these pretty dresses that weren't there before. I remember a poofy, prom-ish looking, sparkly light blue dress, and a small white halter dress with a big sparkly black belt around the waist. I really liked that one!

False awakening. I couldn't sleep, so I just decided to get up. I went to the computer, and my friend from Ireland, Ray, had messaged me on Skype.

Or had he? I thought I could see I had a couple of messages from him when I had been laying in bed, like maybe "Good morning" or something, but there wasn't really a message there. Maybe I should just go back to bed.

Laying in bed again, and I hear what sounds like a phone ringing (from the caller's end), and I rushed over to the computer. When I had went to lay down again, I had accidentally hit something to video chat with Ray. His face popped up in a thumbnail by his messages.
"Oh shit!" I said as I covered my mouth, "I accidentally video called you! I look awful!"
He didn't say anything, and I was trying to avoid looking right at the camera or his face.
"I'll be right back, I'm going to go make a cup of coffee."
I catch a glimpse of his face. The camera showed a side view of him at the computer. He was smiling. He looked kinda like another guy I know in waking life named Levi. I thought that as I walked off to go downstairs and make coffee.

When I got downstairs, I went to the Keurig carousel for some coffee. It was full; I guess my mom had gone to the store before she left for Wisconsin. I looked at all the different coffees, and noticed she had accidentally gotten decaf. It was some kind of decaf vanilla coffee I had never seen before. I looked at the other coffees. I picked one and put it in the machine.

I then looked at the refrigerator, and had a feeling I was dreaming again. I looked at some advertisement that was magnetted to the fridge, looked away, and looked back again, and the words had changed. I can't remember what they said. I kept doing that and the words kept changing. I was so amused, I was reading the new phrases aloud as they changed, kind of narrating what was going on.

I then went back upstairs and decided I needed to go fly. I walked into the bonus room and to the two big windows at the far end. The couch was still there (we got rid of it recently in waking life), so I climbed it and started to try to break the window by ramming my body into it. I was met with very realistic resistance. So I tried it again and again. I had a vague feeling of being trapped, and that it was my subconscious telling me something. I kept ramming the window until it finally gave. Parts of it broke, but the window itself tumbled to the concrete below. I watched it fall and shatter.

I then stepped outside. It was a nice, sunny day. In the dream, there was some roof there for me to stand on (not so in waking life). I started to wonder if I was really dreaming, or if this was real and I was losing my mind. I thought about people who confuse dreams with reality. So I decided to try to hover a little before I flew. I kept jumping up and down with less-than-promising results. I did know that I was dreaming, though. I didn't worry too much about all that after the initial "Holy shit I'm going to have to pay for that window and get locked up in the loony bin" moment.

I then had another false awakening. I was laying in my bed, staring at the ceiling, but I knew I was dreaming immediately this time. I actually had a ton of FAs, a lot more than I can really remember other than me waking up and losing the dream again. This seems to happen to me quite often in LDs--if I have one FA, you can bet I'll probably have more.

I then was at the bottom of the stairs, trying to think of how I could properly spend this LD. I wanted to have a deep, spiritual experience, but I didn't know how to induce it. I kept thinking I had to slow my breathing down and really calm my mind, but I felt my waking body breathing, and it didn't feel like I was able to take in enough oxygen, even though I was breathing through my mouth. I tried to concentrate on getting in touch with my inner self (or "higher self", whichever you prefer), which is one of my lucid goals, one that I think will be very beneficial if I can properly implement it.

Then, I felt the buzzing of SP, and my vision turned to some hypnogogia. I then was having yet another FA in my bed.

I didn't know what to do with all this lucid time. So I decided to get down and dirty and have sex with Ray. If you want to read the explicit details,

Spoiler for explicit content:

He was then there, and we were getting naked. I kept kind of losing the dream, but kept concentrating on keeping it. I was surprised at how well this was working out. Usually, in these kinds of situations, I get too excited and wake up...it is actually something I've been working on in my LDs .

I do feel like I lost it once, but it wasn't for long enough for me to wake up. I was then on the dresser, mostly naked, and he was on top of me. For a second, I was looking at the ceiling, and it looked like a chalkboard with words written on it that kept changing. I touched it, and it felt like...well, a chalkboard. I then shifted my attention again. I noticed his pants were still on, and they started to slide down as he got on top of me. There's a mirror on my dresser, and I watched as he entered me. I kept almost losing the dream, but I never did. In fact, it was very vivid...and sexy. I finally came, and it was ridiculously good. Like...ridiculously good.

Then I finally woke up.

And all I have to say now is hot damn. Probably the best sex dream I've ever had.

CommentaryNon-LucidLucid

I didn't have great dream recall this morning. I was at my girlfriend's place and she woke up as soon as I did. While I was trying to recall and write she was dividing my attention. Throughout the night, when I would wake up, I would say very strongly and clearly into my mind, "I will be lucid tonight."

It was my second night in a row where it became apparent that the tensions between my aunt and uncle are bothering me in my unconscious. Also, a friend BD has been showing up consistently lately.

My grandparents are about to come over for dinner. My mom would rather go to their house though. We all hop into my Aunt's van. She is nervous and is biting her fingernails as she drives. I am in the backseat with either my sister or cousin. Soon, it is my sister, me, and my two cousins in the back seat. We are trying to go to sleep in the van but it is cramped (my girlfriend was taking up too much space in the bed). Interestingly, my aunt has all of these sexual bumper stickers. I think that they are extolling the virtues of orgasm, but I can't remember clearly. At one point we pull over on what resembles the street in my hometown where my high school is and my aunt was trying to get my cousin a job cleaning a house. He was not enthusiastic and my aunt reluctantly got back into the car with him. We arrive at my grandparent's house and they are glad to see us. My grandfather is especially glad to see me and takes me up to the second floor of the house (that is where the bedrooms are located in their actual house). I remember wanting to wait for everyone to go up. In the house, I feel like the ground is shifting. I feel like the house will fall over but nobody else notices. My uncle is on the couch watching television and eating some Ricotta. He's on the phone. Everyone else is at the dinner table eating. I talk to my uncle a little. He mentions to my cousin (his son) we're going to bring a lot of chicks over to our house this year. This pisses off my aunt and she starts complaining about him to everyone. (remember, they got divorced a year ago and it has messed up the family and some of my mom's relationships including my relationship with my uncle)

Other dreams that I only have a minor recollection of

Being in my town, looking for my friend MC. (also had a dream like this a few nights ago).

Having great sex with my girlfriend.

Met my girlfriend (YW), my female friend BD and some other faceless girl in the Bank of America parking lot. It was hosting a mobile supermarket. BD pointed to YW and said, "You're quite a woman."

i remember feeling like i was in a video game with a friend. the enemy was a ghost and zombie character and me and my friend kept shape shifting into those characters. I don't really know what our objective was we just kinda kept moving and killing shit with our little fire balls. I climbed a conveyer belt and stole a package from the boss of the level, apparently he was a nazi cause there was a swatsticker on his telivision set. he was talking on the phone as i opened the package. to my suprise it was a drilll. i didnt want to torture anyone with the drill and i started to hear the dramatic requiem for a dream song play. the phone began to ring nd i hit decline but it just kept ringing.

08.28.2012

Rage Quit (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm suddenly angry over some member on the DV irc, and I said,

"SHUT THE F***K UP!" and left the irc program.

Huh???

OldSparta gives me a PM relating to why he kicked me out of the irc, but it seems I'm kicked at some different system other than the default one and KVirc.

His message was quite long, and it's hard to remember what he said exactly, but it mostly contained what I did and what another member did.

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08.28.2012

Sex or Blurry Foreplay? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I think a woman had her way with me last night, though I can't remember the exact details on it. All I remember is that that room are dark, with some lighting, and I felt like some female was all over my body doing something to me.

I wonder if she drugged me....you don't need to drug me to have sex you know.....just saying.

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08.28.2012

Sisters in Aunt's House (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember seeing one or two of my sisters in waking life inside of a house that looks like my aunt's.

Meh

DAMN IT, WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER THE SECOND DREAM...I KNOW SOMEONE WAS INCHING THEIR WAY ON MY CHEST....gjdfkagjgkdjkkjdfkfgs *cries*

The dream started off me driving in an apartment complex in a red camero which I instantly knew I was dreaming. I stopped the car and got out to work on stabilizing the dream. I use the staring at the hands method and visualizing light in my brow chakra. The brow chakra technique really seems to work for me by bring lucidity up to real life quality. After this I told my self to stay calm and explore the area. I saw a guy on a golf cart and decided to ask him questions. I walked up to him, said hi while shaking his hand very politely. Naturally the next question I asked was his name, in which responded with production bob. Weird answer I thought. Then I asked what he represented in my mind, he said the need to be heard. He appeared very odd wearing a yellow polo with a kind of bug eyed face.

All memory of Dream before semi lucid is forgotten

I am with my brother and we a literally in a mine-craft world I say to him to look in the distance and see nothing. I and him both turn around and I imagine a city, we then turn around again and see a very un built city, buildings are missing.. I look at my hands very carefully and shout "I DEMAND CLARITY" He is shocked. I am flying up and looking at the top of my city. I continue to fly up by myself as I want to go to space, once in space I have a loading screen there. when that passes I can see venus the moon and the sun with all ,blue colored number underneath giving me the distance of each I am traveling to venus where I can see a what looks like a very poor quality 2D screen shot of venus, suddenly a floating magazine pops up about space and venus

Which Is when I wake up.

Entering a classroom setting, a group of us are instructed to find a seat and begin the test.

Test? What test?

After a few failed attempts, I manage to find a seat and flip open the booklet.

Ah, bubble answers, I can do this.

I bubble in a few things; I seem to know what I’m doing when the test format changes to a computer.

Uh, what exactly am I doing?

I glance over to my neighbor and he doesn’t seem to have a laptop yet suddenly I know what to do. There’s a first person shooter game I’m supposed to ‘play’.

Alright! Game playing, easy as pie. Picking up the mouse, I begin executing a hoard of virtual zombies. Strange, but completely doable.

Game ends. I wait for the results, my score. I can’t seem to read the numbers? Or are they letters?

Now we all sit and listen to a lecture. It’s interesting and the speaker is in the field I want to be in. He’s also decently charismatic until he says something funny about not liking vegetarians.

Oh, that’s right, I’m slowly transitioning into vegetarianism… sort of. Guess I’m included in his statement.

The girl I happen to be sitting next to is giving off a strong vibe. I look at her a moment. She has brown hair, tall, athletic, vibrant. Do I know her? I feel like I know her.

Dream transitions and now it’s post academic setting. We’re bonding at a hotel, with a large water slide. My new friends are shouting at me to jump down the slide. I feel a little foolish but decide I should have some fun. I kick off the boots I happen to be wearing, remove my cell phone from my pocket, then take a running leap through the entrance to the large water slide.

Practically flying down the slide, I can feel the rush of the cool water, the wind against my face, my breathing quicken. I haven’t done this for ages.

Seeing the end in sight and a friend nearby, I attempt to fly backward, mid-flight, and head over to my friend. However, once I hit the water, sinking into the middle of the pool, I hover there a moment. Treading water underneath the surface, I look around and take in the refreshing environment. I feel the beauty of the place.

I get out and wander around the hotel at some point, still with the same group of people.