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So there has been something that I've noticed about my dreams lately.. So far they have all had something to do with a cousin of mine who passed early January. He never speaks in my dreams but He always looks at me and smiles as if he was saying "I'm alright." I'm honestly 100% okay with this but soon I want to go lucid when this happens to see how that goes.. Maybe I'll find out that it's really him coming down to give me closure. Or maybe it's just my mind showing me what I want to see. Either way I'll be happy~

I've been sleepy all day which isn't normal for me. In fact, I was so tired this morning I did a few RC's just to be sure I was actually awake.

Also, the upper left side of my head has been buzzing for a few hours. So I'm eager for sleep tonight. And curious to know if the buzzing is a precursor of things to come.

5/7/12

DEILD

I was taking a nap while my roommate was playing music. There was also talking that I could hear that may have made its way into my dream.

I was laying in my bed, and I felt super tired. I could hear music. Nick came up to me and started talking. I was so out of it, I could barely respond. He was showing me this plastic watergun thing he had. It extended and bent in strange ways. I was kind of playing it, but I couldn't open my eyes fully to see it. I pretended to study it, before giving it back. He kind of took it from me because I was using it incorrectly. I tried to tell him how I felt about his thing. I could only manage to mumble the word cool. I was wondering why Nick was even in my room. Then I realized this lack of vision was familiar; it was an unstable dream. I RC and I am dreaming. I start feeling around trying to stabilize. I roll on the floor and lose the dream.

I DEILD, and I am waiting for when I am back in a dream. Someone is talking to me again. I remember that I am alone in real life, so it must have worked. I can't fully open my eyes or talk still. I can still hear music. I feel around and try to stabilize and fail.

I DEILD again and could not get it stabilized.

I am with Ray at a mall. We go into a nice restaurant and as we walk we pass by my old art teacher Ms. Greene. She's sitting at a table with a glass of wine.

"If you want some wine it's free over there at the bar," she says pointing toward it.

Ray starts heading in that direction, but he goes a weird alternate route that doesn't make any sense and took much longer than needed.

....I start exploring on my own and find an opening to a secret unused part of the mall. It looks like several kid rides were constructed in this area. It kind of looks like a carnival in the mall- but abandoned...

...Ray and I are back walking through the mall again....

I start to question my reality. Am I dreaming? Everything looks so real though! I try to do a reality check. I look at a Starbucks coffee shop and study the logo. I look away and look back. Everything is still the same and perfect. So much for looking at text! I look at shoppers and study their faces trying to find flaws. They all look normal and vivid. The racks of clothes in the shops look perfect. I even widen my eyes in an attempt to wake up. Nothing happens. Everything is so realistic - more real than I've ever experienced in a dream before and I've had some pretty good ones! Unsure of myself I walk up to a man who looked to be in his 50s. He was slightly overweight with long graying hair.

"What do you represent?"

He gives me a strange look, "Uh...What? What a weird question!"

I start doubting myself. This might not be a dream after all...I turn around and see Ray.

"Ray, I know this is going to sound crazy but I can't tell if I am dreaming or if this is real life!"

He rolls his eyes,"You're losing it Nick. Of COURSE this is real! I'm real! You're not sleeping!"

"But that's what a Dream Character would say!!!" I yell, clearly frustrated. I feel like I am going mad. Everything then fades away - confirming that I was in fact dreaming.

I have a false awakening. I am on the floor in a sleeping bag and I hear my sister Ashley getting up. The clock reads 7:00. Apparently I am at her place and we are getting up early to go to the beach. I look around for my dream journal....

Then I wake up for real.

So me, my neighbor, and my brother are going to a amusement park. It's nighttime. We go to a fast food place and there is a girl cashier. We order shakes. We have two options, one is something along the lines of a sick shake, the other a vomit shake( not made of, but if you drink and go to the amusement park that's what will happen eg.) We leave. My brother is gone and my neighbor pulls up a car, which is actually a box. Inside the box is dead remains of what was Athena. I told him let me drive the box. I woke up

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes

Got it? Great! Now enjoy my dreams.


Wishes, do they ever come true?





Dream #1 A being of Light.

Im in some room looking up outside the window. It is a full moon, and i am talking out aloud about searching for my Twin flame my other half. I begin getting emotional, telling my other half to please appear to me and enter my life soon. I wipe the tears away from my eyes, and walk outside. I look up and notice that there are hearts in the clouds, with the moon turning into a glowing purple colour. I stare in to the moon, and feel myself being filled with some type of loving calmness energy. I begin floating in the air and letting whatever takes me take everything of me.

I sense a being of light, it is a female. She is beyond beautiful, I will try my best to describe her. Her eyes were like a million diamonds illuminating in the moonlight, Her hair was long brunette, and blowing in the wind. Her face was like the most beautiful and most precious of any newborn. She a had glowing bright white and purple light illuminating from her naked body. I was at awe with her beauty. Why, she was simply beyond words. Im now in what looks like an Infinite temple place. There are books and rooms with gold lights everywhere. There are animal stautues of wolves, birds, and different Deitys. and it had a very heavenly feeling to it. Everything feels familiar to me, Almost like this is my home in a way. She shows me a glimpse of what love looks like.

"You are a compassinate and loving person. Do not dwell on the past so much. But move on and become an inspiration, and let your light shine, to make a new path for others."

She then walked up to me and gave me the most powerful hug i have ever felt! It was not a suffocating hug, but a hug that can heal the most violent and destructive beasts and human beings. I begin tearing up from my eyes and telling her that i love her. And hearing her say she loves me too.

I am now awaken in my bed with the most vibrant love of energy i have ever felt from a dream.


3:20 - 3:45 am. Did plenty of reality checks with my totem. And did a little bit of subconscious training.

Notes: Wanted to also try something different over the next couple of nights. Im listening to certain songs like music with love, to see if i am able to get more intimate moments in dreams. I set my alarm to a specific time to go off while i am asleep. I also assigned a certain ringtone to it to see how it will affect the mood of the dream. I keep the volume at a medium volume, and set it across the room to see if i can cue in on it. If it will make me lucid, or pull me out of the dream.


Dream #2 Me and Mila Kunis.


Im in a supermarket and i notice Mila Kunis is working there at the register. I walk up to her and she says..

"Hey babe! Im almost done ok?"

"Mkay, take ya time."

She is looking good. Her hair is down, and she is wearing a green supermarket t shirt, with some beige pants, and black flats on. Im standing by some magazines and start reading thru one of them. (I think it was about good health or something like that)

(Mila Kunis) "K, im ready babe."

She pinches me on my butt and starts tongue kissing me. I put my arms around her, and we stare into eachothers eyes.

"You know what im in the mood for?"

"What sex?"

(She hits me on my chest lightly)

"Hah, noo. Ice cream!"

(Me) "Oh."

"Maybe later tonight ok?"

We are now walking and holding hands. it is day time out, and we go to the ice cream parlor to get some ice cream. I hear a very mellow song from a oldies classic that sounds like its coming from in the background. (must be my alarm goin off on my cellphone)

Spoiler for Lovers Music:

Mila Kunis starts taking her ice cream cone and licking it very slowly.

"Girl you better quit licking that ice cream like that for you get yourself in trouble."

"Hah, what are you gonna do hm?"

"You'll see, keep on."

She starts doin it again, and i shake my head. She starts laughing, and ask if i wanted to lick it. I laughed and said..

"Lick what? Yo ice cream?

Oh see, now you tryna tempt me."

She laughs again and takes the ice cream and puts it right in my face licking her fingers.

"Hah, nice look Q!"

I wipe my face with a napkin and tell her shes gonna get it. Im chasing her thru a grassy field where we roll around kissing and playing with one another. She is laying on her back and im on top of her. We both are fully clothed just a little bit of kissing and staring into eachothers eyes. We get up holding hands and start walking some more.

The area where we are walking, is now in some sort of garden almost. There are rose bushes and colorful birds flying around. I take a rose and give it to Mila Kunis. She smiles at me and kisses me. I reach in my pocket and pull out my maroon colour maroon moonstone totem and say to her..

"I want you to keep this. This token, will be a reminder of my love for you, and it means that i will always return to you ok?"

(She tears up a bit wiping her eyes)

She nods,
And we hug tightly and i can feel the dream closing in on me and i wake up.


5:15 - 5:35 Am. Did plenty of subconscious training.

Dream #3 Natalia and me take a night out.

Me and Natalia are in a fancy hotel walking downstairs to a lobby it looks night time outside. Natalia is wearing a very lovely dress, it is Red, and she has her hair in a ponytail, and wearing black strappy high heels.

(Me)

"Just relax ok?" It will get taken care of.

"No Q, im fucking tired of relaxing! Shit...it seems like when i do try and relax, something always happens!"

We are now in a limosine on our way to meet with some people. Im wearing a black and white suit, with my hair in a long braided pontail, looking at my reflection in the mirror in the limo.

(Natalia talking)

"You look good ok."

"I should've worn my other suit."

We get out the limo and enter this very fancy looking restaurant. There is classical music playing and me and Natalia have a seat. Some italian men sit down at the table to have dinner with us. They are explaining to us about some men ruining their business or something like that. Me and Natalia take a good long hard look at the pictures.

I only remember frags here. Something about me and Natalia being in a hotel setting up cameras, and hot wiring a car.


Notes: Im not sure if in my 1st dream if that was my Twin flame or not. But the energy that she carried certainly felt strong. I am most happy with all the dreams that i got. I think i may try and stick with what im doin so far to see how this will affect my dreams over the next few nights.

I haven't had any recall since my last DJ entry, six days ago. Then I had this lucid dream out of the blue.

So I was riding a bike in a large group of people, many of them being family members,friends and other people I know in general. We were riding though a forest/park setting. I can remember the sun was either rising or setting.
I can't remember many details of what happened during the bike ride or if it was a race. I can remember talking with some of my friends from school for awhile but I can't remember what we were actually talking about.
I can remember more clearly when we got off our bikes and got into some kind of vehicle. I could probably describe it as a mobile home or a semi-truck. I can remember it being all white with an orange stripe down the side, and a black windscreen. Some of the people that I knew got into it too.
I was the one driving, and I drove for probably ten minutes. I can then remember pressing a button on the dashboard of the vehicle.
It caused the front part to sort of collapse and crush me. The crushing was very uncomfortable and lasted about ten seconds. Out of pure stupidity, I pressed the button two or three additional times.
We stopped in a parking lot when I realized that at the very back of the vehicle (The interior was a long, plain white room without any seats.) was my (now dead) grandmother. She was kind of a monochromatic blue color, and sort of hazy. I'm assuming she was a ghost. She was holding a knife. The knife on the other hand, was silver, with a brown handle. (As it should have been)
She started killing everyone inside with the knife. Eventually, A friend from my school named A was the only one alive other than me, and he was wrestling with the ghost of my grandmother. It was obvious he would lose. My mind was racing. The first thing that struck me as odd was that I was seeing my grandparent again, when they have now been dead for almost a year. I questioned reality.
From there I got lucid, just as A was overwhelmed and killed. I put my arms across my chest, then forced them out, pushing out to the sides. The vehicle around me exploded into several large pieces. The ghost of my grandmother was nowhere to be found.
From here, I proceeded to stabilize the dream. I looked at a large oak tree at the side of the road, and tried to make out the details of the leaves, to some success.
Behind me was a small building, with entirely glass walls. It was kind of horseshoe shaped and very small, only one floor. In the middle was a counter with a cashier and people waiting in line, I'm assuming to make purchases.
I decided to try some dream control and went up to the man that was first in line. I can remember him having a sort of tall face, and being bald. I punched him in the cheek, while screaming "sonic punch". I had to reach up above my head because he was quite a tall man.
When I hit him he just sort of looked at me for about half a second. My hand was still on his cheek and he just randomly flew back and hit the inside wall of the horseshoe shaped building.
We got into a huge fight at this point. Knowing I was dreaming, I was doing these remarkable martial arts moves and the man that I was fighting was really no match for me.
Eventually, I wound up standing on a table, holding a coffeepot. The man made some joke, I think it was related to World War II, but I can't remember it. I poured the coffee on him. At this point the dream destabilized. I knelt down on the table and screamed "stabilize dream!"

I had a False awakening. I can't remember the details of it but I woke up, and went around my house telling family members and friends about the awesome lucid dream I just had.

I remember running around outside my house with only a towel on. This usually happens often in my dreams; it's kind of embarrassing; especially when someone in my class ran up to me and started carrying me back into the house.

During a nap; Saturday, May 05, 2012

An old friend and occasional bedfellow moved back to town, and came over to have a sleepover, as though we were children. He didn’t want to have sex, because he didn’t want to bring up old issues, but he wanted to sleep in my bed and wake up with me. He slept over, and I kept trying to kiss him. Then he turned into a girl, and I noticed that she had a series of rotating metal rings in different patterns where her stomach should have been. It reminded me of those ear piercings people get, the ones that stretch out the earlobe until it’s a huge hole surrounded by flesh. That’s what her stomach looked like; small metal rings around the border, on the same plane as what remained of her stomach, and larger rings on the inside at a right angle to the other rings. I asked her if she was commissioned to play robots in films, and she said she was. I remember wondering how we were going to sleep together now.

To begin, I was being told that I needed to find a real job other than the volunteer work at the city hall that I was doing (I am not doing any volunteer work at the city hall. Perhaps inspired by my previous desire to join the volunteer fire department, or my past efforts of volunteering at city hall). I started to work at the local grocery store, "Read's Food Store". All was going well for most of the day, until the boss started being a pain in the neck. She told me to mop the floors - I began to mop the floors. But for some reason, she was yelling at me the whole time, saying things over and over again, effectively creating a scene. At one point she insulted my stepmother, who was present at the time that she said it! I occasionally corrected my boss's sideways logic, but other than that, I continued to work.

When the day was over, I went to a table, which had all of my possessions on it. Including my dream journal and personal journal (I worried about having forgotten my dream journal throughout the dream, and never did a RC. Nice going). Instead of my Texas folks coming to pick me up, it was my Indiana folks. We hopped in the car and went off to a hotel that they were staying in. The notable thing about the hotel room was the urinal. It was a black panther in the stalking pose. With its mouth open round. In order to use the urinal, one would place his penis inside of the panther's mouth.

Going back to mart, for parts of the dream that I don't know where to place chronologically.
I was involved in some sort of spy mission, with T'Pol from Star Trek:Enterprise, and a random male figure.

While taking a break from work at the grocery store, I was assigned to take photographs of the intersection at the single stoplight in town. I noticed like 3 police cars in the photo, going through the intersection (Likely caused by the amount of ridiculous police activity in town lately, and my having been followed and harassed by police in recent months). And somehow some way, in the photograph I was able to zoom in on one specific police car. As I zoomed in, the photograph followed the car as it drove down the road, dodged some folks crossing the street in the ghetto, then left town.


When I turned to face the intersection again, I saw a badly damaged car that was flipped upside down, and a few meters away was a car with minor damage.
The driver of the car with minor damage was seemingly upset about the dents on his own car, while the other bystanders and I were focusing on helping the person in the overturned car. I asked if anyone had called the fire department yet.. (In my town, we have to wait for EMS to come from the city - our volunteer fire department is our first response to emergencies)
The man in the overturned car crawled out of the car. As it turns out, he was a conjoined twin... He had one body and two heads. His brother was complaining of his neck hurting badly and being "twisted", and the other brother was being relatively calm. A strange siren sounds, and a 1950s fire truck shows up.(Not out of place, actually. Our fire department consists of civilian pick up trucks and two old fire trucks from the 60s and 50s). I went back to work, as emergency response had come.


Later on, I was in my room talking to T'Pol and the other spy. They said that our current mission was to destroy evidence and dispose of dead bodies. T'Pol was working on a USB drive, while the other guy is bagging bodies. T'Pol seems to think that smashing the USB connection piece would be sufficient. I tell her that we should get inside the USB drive and smash the ROM chip. So I begin to try to dismantle the drive, which is for some reason a zip-up bag... Every time I unzip a bag, there's another one inside to unzip! I continue this loop for a while before finally taking it apart and finding out that there's no more to a USB drive than the connector piece. That the connector piece is the only part of the USB drive and the rest of it is just a grip. I must have been fundamentally wrong about USB drives, right? I should have become lucid here lol


I heard a noise - I go out in the hallway armed with a screwdriver... I kick the door open - It's just my brother. He tells me that my friend is over. "Tell him to come on up", I say. When I go back to my room, the male figure throws me a small foam basketball, made of the same material that the USB drive's bags were made of. The ball has some sort of text on it, and is perfectly crafted. My partners said that they made it out of the USB drive bags. No time! I tell them about my friend coming up, and suggest that they return to base. T'Pol tells me that it would be illogical to return to base because it would consume too many resources. So I come up with a plan to introduce the two to my friend as a regular friend.

And then I woke up.

I sat on a cough next to a guy that looked liked Santa but without the costume. He was reading a story from a book but he was confussed all the time and I had to help him. I felt really nice and comfortable next to him but the other people were jealous.
Then I was in my mothers bedroom and she was asleep in her bed. I saw a blue tit who was feeding here baby's, they lived in the curtains, I found that very interesting.

I pull up to my sisters house in my moms silver truck. I walk in and everyone is asleep. So quietly I move around and gather the rest of my stuff. I grab my Scott Pilgrim movie... I love that movie I think to myself. I go into my old room and grab A couple of bags, filled with clothes I forgot, and Im keyboard too. I run it all out to the truck because my hands are full. I come back in and start grabbing everything else I need and walk out... trying to stuff it all in the back seat of my moms truck feels like a chore but I do it because If I put it in the bed it might get wet, because of rain. Now I'm on my way back to my moms house with my stuff and I'm passing the tribal police station, as I go to take the corner, the truck slides into the parking lot and into a police cruiser. I start freaking out and a bunch of cops come running out the building all asking me questions at once. Finally they get ahold of themselves and start walking back inside, all but one cop, who's car I hit. Turns out it was a very sexy police woman, and she whispers I have half an hour till I'm off in my,stick around, in my ear.

Went to some really cool retreat with Leo Dina and Kara. There were monks there and a giant forest. We each took the pez. I took 8 drops. At first nothing happened and I did a really cool handstand where I bent my elbows and went over almost touching the ground. Then I slowly moved back into handstand. Eventually everything started getting really colorful. Flowers were changing into different colors and the sky was a deep purple. We were getting ready to go into the forest. Everything was really magical and I was having a great time. We ended up in some weird part of the forest that looked kind of spooky. There was a giant building hidden inside with a tiny door for entrance. We went inside and were instantly locked in. There was a broken down train in the building and we had to cross it to get to a other platform. As we crossed it the train came to life and tried to crush us. There was another woman with us that warned us of this place. She was ripped into the sky above and killed. We were scared and tried to make our way out. The door was locked and we were stuck. A voice came and said as Long as we were alive we would be stuck there. We figured we had to pretend our deaths. We got on the train and it rode us out to the front of the forest. We figured If we could hide in a cloud on top of the train it would think we died. Everyone got on their cloud and as I jumped onto mine I was launched at a blinding speed away from the train. It was really scary and I wanted to retry. It rewinded back to when I jumped on the cloud and this time I just tucked me in a space above the train. The train suddenly stopped and let people out. we were getting out. The dream changed and it was g who was hiding and Leo's dad lookin for him. He was up where to trunks were and Leo's dad was about to give up when g started moving. He was found and Leo's dad was relieved. He though he was dead.*

Another DILD last night. I'm getting better at this.

This time, I had much more lucidity and clarity than before. Still not enough to remember those dream commands, though.

I don't remember what made me do a reality check, but I was lucid enough to remember to stabilize the dream. I did the trick where you rub your hands together. For some reason it didn't work. I didn't notice, though.

The dream was very blurry. Can't remember anything. I remember stabilizing the dream and flying. That's all. I don't even remember doing a reality check.

All I need to do is become lucid enough to remember the "More lucidity!" dream command. Then I'll be fine. D:

I was in my house like normal, it was at night, and then it randomly turned to day and i randomly teleported. I was in a truck with my friend and we were talking about lucid dreaming. I told him i knew i was dreaming and i did my reality check. My middle finger faded away. I jumped out of the truck and went in a room made primarily of minecraft blocks (if you dont know wat minecraft is its a game for the computer). I thought to myself to chage the colr of the blocks form blue to red. I concentrated and it turned purple, i concentrated harder and it turned red. I concentrated on being able to jump through the wall and i did. I met back up with my friend and random aliens attacked. We both got weapons and were fighting them when i got drowsy in the dream and started losing control. I stumbled into a wall and woke up. I thought to myself that i had a lucid dream.