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Sorry for the late upload, the WiFi was cut because my parents didn't pay it in time. Thank goodness it didn't go on longer than it did.

Day Seven:

Fell asleep at: 11:00 PM

Woke up at: 6:40 AM


Dream 04: If Marvel Made Overwatch(?)

The dream takes place in the first person camera perspective, much like a movie. The subject matter was, of course, Overwatch.

I think I was playing a story mode of sorts, with (Oddly enough) live acted cutscenes alongside the more stylized Overwatch gameplay. I remember playing as Soldier: 76, shooting a big ol' Roadhog as we both try to get to a closed room.

It then switched to a cutscene where 76 says he will "Open the gates to the outside world, and there's no coming back", conversing to (Of freaking course) Teddy Cruise as two guys try holding him back.

Teddy is struggling to get out of their control, but the gates open anyway, and a bright light floods the room.

It then switched to an interview segment with Teddy Cruise remarking about how the light was so bright, he might actually be partially blind in his right eye. Guess the directors at Blizzard or something must've really hated him.


Day Eight: Nap


Fell asleep at: 4:30 PM

Woke up at: 9:30 PM


Dream 05: Tension Brewing

Talk about day residue. Yesterday, my English class was talking about the 16th Street Baptist Church Bombing, going over an article and a poem about the event. It got real heated, real quick, and I think it's safe to say all of that transferred over to this dream.

I'm in a classroom, just doing my work, then I come to realize the teacher is literally not without a racist bone in his body. The kids aren't making things any better, as they too just reciprocate everything he says, jokingly or otherwise. It's just a hostile environment overall.

Dream 06: Pointers from the Subconscious

I dreamt I was designing one of my characters, a time travelling 80s video game protagonist stereotype named John Jones. In the dream, he's wearing an umpire's outfit, complete with a baseball base as a shield and a baseball bat as a sword expy.

Dream 07: Perspective

I'm at school, again, but this time I'm walking inside the hallways. On my way to the 'I Wing', one of my old friends, D, walks up to me and says hi. We exchange words, catch up with each other for a bit, and go our separate ways. We never really talked that much in the waking world, so I wondered why she was one of my designated 'dream friends' for this one. Hmm...

But there's no time to ponder that fact, as I am now inside my World History teacher's body, personality, everything. In the hallways, I'm trying to calm down two 6ft tall students from beating each other up or something. It was so weird having someone else's thought patterns in mine, but probably something I want to put a pin on later.


Day Eight: Night

Fell asleep at: 11:00 PM

Woke up at: 6:40 AM

Dream 08: Alpuppies

Back at my house, I exit out of my Mom's room to find that my dogs are fully grown...And fully terrifying. My two puppies (Nemo and Kleo) now resemble llamas than, y'know, dogs.

I take them to go pee outside, where they poop, pee, and spit all over the place. The dream ends soon after.

I am in a non lucid dream, playing basketball with people I do not know. We play for a good awhile and then something that resulted in a school assembly happen. I did not know what was happening but it seem like people were celebrating for the students. I drop the basketball and decided to get in line with the rest of them. One guy talk about his son and how he was almost involved in a murder but now has change his life around.

I didn't really understand anything around me, but I had this intense desire to continue playing basketball and this was ruining it. I eventually woke up out of it and could see only black. My eyes were closed and I decided I was a bit tired to get up so I let them stay that way. Before I knew it I was in a dream again when I opened my eyes. My front door was slightly opened, suggesting that someone must've been inside.

I could then hear my mother voice and realize that she is an my apartment talking with my father. This can't be happening, I knew I had to be dreaming and woke up soon after.

The earliest dream I remember was at my dad's old house. We were inside his living room and there were dogs everywhere. His dog Charlie was laying on top of Simon and we were laughing at that. We go into our driveway and across the street to the neighbors house. Out front is Mike Pence and his wife. I look down and apparently I'm wearing a Mike Pence shirt. We all go up and introduce ourselves to them.

Walking back across the street I see the garage is open and dark. I know this place is haunted in some way. I'm waiting for something scary to happen but it doesn't. Other things happen in the dream but I remember I had left and then come back to the front porch. On the front porch is my dad and sister talking.

Another dream I'm at my friend Nate's house but it's really someone else's house. I'm there with a bunch of people in this one room doing a raid boss for WoW. We spend about 10 minutes on this fight where at the beginning two orbs make a lightning pathway and then the rest of the people need to find a path around it sort of like snake. We realize the two people leading the orbs really messed it up so we have to start all over. I get up and say that we're going to take a break. People go off into other rooms doing things. Some take showers and I know I'm trying to take one as well. Sam and I sort of fight for one and then he tells me I can and I tell him he can.

At some point Korri is driving over to her house which is in Castle Wood and I'm tempted to ask her to stop at my mom's house so that I can shower and pick up some clothing. We stop at her place and I can see these two guys in front of me dressing up in shirts and ties but the ties are really messy and they're complaining. I laugh at little but know I need to get ready for this New Year's Celebration.

I'm not sure about the timeline to the other dreams but I was ultimately trying to get to this New Year's celebration. The scene was over by the KC apartments but there were bars set up and this river/jungle to the right. We were walking by the bars and someone suggested these places, I was reading each of their signs aloud. One was to the right and purple inside. Eventually we're in the different bars. At one bar there were people in clusters under this roof over a bar where a bartender was serving drinks. I think I was trying to help someone talk to a girl or vice versa, I'm not really sure but we were going in between clusters of people having conversation and it got hostile at some point.

The last dream I was in this arcade place with some of my friends. We are sitting at this table when I see this skim ball game. Someone hands me a ball and I start rolling it up the ramp into the holes. There are a bunch of balls on the ramp in the way so sometimes I hit those and sometimes I hit the top of the cage. People behind me are cheering as I'm making a lot of balls into holes and especially the hard to get ones. I win the game and actually set the record for most points at 175. I keep telling people I couldn't believe it happened. I'm walking over to other games to see what they do. One of the games is set up where there's a platform and then a ball pit under it with a bunch of obstacles in the air. On the other side of the obstacles is this hoop that has a foam green fist stuck facing downwards and the object is to push it through. Will Ferrell is there trying to play the game with someone else. Eventually it does go through and a secret slot opens up on the left side of the game.

Behind the cabinet was a white cartoon bunny face and below that was a flashing orange button. He pressed it and another secret slot opens up and gives him the options of two prizes. They were both some sort of currency and I was confused because I thought he was going to win some sort of stuffed animal. Another game I saw was this flash game like the superhero where you literally put on red shoes and try to run really fast into the game to beat it. I saw my step brother Alex trying to play the game.

At the end of the dream I walked over to my friends where Sam Bahar and Sam's brother Jake were hanging out and talking. Sam was making a joke and I was watching on a laptop inspirational videos. I remember feeling really awkward like I couldn't contribute to the conversation.

Ib 3?

I was in my father's house and was introduced to a game which was suppose to be like Ib the horror game but a newer version. I didn't know that the game would involve the places merging with reality though. My mom walked in as i was contemplating which path to take. I didn't want to go in any halls or dim rooms and i definitely didn't want to go up the stairs. She told me to stop being so scared and crying about it. That she would go up the stairs no matter what. I let her go as I scuttled away a bit and a random distorted shape tryed to attack me. I pretended i had a stick weapon as i had a feeling it was a dream and attacked the monster. I was able to get rid of it but as i moved on I think that was when i warped to a room.

In the room was my mom and brother and i was holding a phone that was like a game remote. On it a random scene appeared that was very vulgar and disturbing. I put the volume down because i didn't know the game had such a scene and quickly walked out the room to turn it off. The horror game was still merged with reality though and i had no idea how to beat the game. I was pretty scared too despite being brave. I ran to my older brother's room and jumped on his chair where he was next to his computer. He asked me what was wrong. I said that i needed help to beat a horror game cause i didn't know how to do it.

He agreed to help and began looking at a game guide/ coding something in the computer. He said he felt bad for china because the code works against them there but there was nothing he could do since the game was programmed in such a way. He told me that the number I had to put in to get to the next level was 3, 6 and 18. There were three more levels left. He did it for me and i thanked him.

Afterwards i fought a small boss and had only three levels to beat but my dad called me and mentioned that it was getting late and i should go. I was dissapointed cause i wanted to see the ending. As I saw him toss porkchops into a pan I saw the game slowly dismerging with reality and just accepted that i would have to continue another time. Woke up after that.

School In A Castle

I was in a new house that had many items, curtains, even the walls/flooring in white color. My mom was present and told me to enjoy my nap. I walked into my bedroom and hopped onto the white big bed, covered in fluffy white pillows. There was even a white silk curtain hanging above the bed and a lovely sunny scenery of a park showing through the open window. I was so content there and wrapped my arm around the fluffy pillows. As a nice calm breeze blew in I began to think "This feels so real. It would be mind blowing if it was a dream". I tried to fall asleep than but the dream shifted.

I was now at a dream school that was taking place inside a purple creepy castle. We would have to stay there for a good amount of time but i looked forward to making the best of my stay. I walked inside with a group but my close friends were two guys. One of them made me think of Eye. As we walked through the halls i got kind of lost but reached a place where there was a huge pool of water and a water monster who was apparently there to test student's skills. I gave it a shot and made a high jump to attack it but than somehow i ended up messing up another group's plans.

They were hoping to graduate as villains in the dream school. I excitedly looked at their cool anime forms than ran away as they chased me. I ended up clumsily tripping but the guy who reminded me of Eye stepped in and fought back the group. He than took my hand and brought me to a table where our other friend was making chocolate desserts that looked golden on the outside and round like a rice cake. He showed me how to make them there. It was weird but he said to take a small amount of dough and to put chocolate in it. Than the metal thing would cause it to rise and it would cook/gain its shape. I hugged him than tried it myself. Woke up after that.

Notes- I want an all white bedroom now.

These are just non lucid dreams. They were not the most vivid or intense but I am just committed to recalling and recording as much as possible whether they are lucid, non lucid, vivid, not as vivid, happy dreams, night mares, etc. I just unconditionally try to remember as much of my dreams as I can no matter what.





Dreams from 2018-02-19 to 2018-02-20.


The first time I got up to use the bathroom, a few hours after going to sleep, I didn't remember any dreams.







Dreams from the second time I woke up. These dreams were weird because When i woke up from them my mind didn't go straight to dreams and it was hard to keep my mind focused on dreams. It was probably because I had more of a scattered day yesterday and didn't read as much L D stuff.

Pokemon that could only evolve if a special machine was on. Then it was like a special evolution.

I was looking along the bottom of a grocery store fridge and there was pizza and beer. For the beer I thought the word " bud" I guess as in Budweiser. I was drinking beer in the dream and then thinking that I really don't want to be doing this. Something to do with my Nana.

Car with A C pulled up. A C and A B kind of sat on this side walk thing with me. I only remembered this part vaguely.

I Wanted to play Wii games for a job but working for G A. Two tall guys saying they are from another country and have more muscle tone or flexibility. Pokemon card tournament.
Sitting in my yard without a shirt on.

I was taking out the garbage. Neighbors told my Dad "your one son is horrible" (talking about me). Then they talked about how someone was trying to get into someone else's house somewhere in the neighborhood.

Female employee just started at my job. Working in an office. I had a binder with some writing in it. I was questioning if I could even be considered an employee because all I thought of was the next time I would go talk to her. She was sitting in a group of people and I tried not to stare at her too much but it was hard to resist. I was very attracted to her. But I didn't want to be predictable. S L and J J on stage as company leaders, talking about something to do with money.

I was experimenting with a special headset technology. I had my phone. I looked at the time and it was 2:45. I looked again and it was 2:02 but in the dream I thought it meant it was 3:02 but that it had changed from daylight savings time or not been changed when the hour got added or subtracted. Also I was surprised if it was 3:02 that so much time had gone by which is funny because that happened to me from 2:45 to 3:09 P M during the afternoon the previous day.
I was sitting outside without a shirt on getting sun. It was somewhat cold but just warm enough to not have a shirt on. I kinda thought that people wouldn't want me to do this but I needed to get my sun.

Some dream of some kind of disagreement with my sister. I have been having various dreams of arguing with my sister since I told her about circumcision trauma and how if she has kids she shouldn't circumcize them.

There was also something in the dream when I was in a drive way. I was listening to something like a louise hay audio book. she was talking about being nice to ones self and being happy. I had some sort of resistance to the ideas but also a part of me liked them.





It took me a while to fall asleep. But I had some more eventful dreams.

The first dreams I noticed were of being near this big dark body of water. And in this dark tunnel thing. There was water flowing through the tunnel. My phone and another electronic device were left in the tunnel and I had to go back for them. The interesting thing about these dreams was that I noticed I was dreaming, woke up in my bed, fell asleep again into the same dream, noticed it was a dream, had a lucid moment, woke up again, and that happened like 8 times. I didn't really do it on purpose though. More may have happened around those but I don't remember.





I was in the car on a cell phone or in front of a store. Talking to my ex girlfriend. And I was telling her how if she has a boyfriend, she shouldn't talk to me, because if I was her boyfriend, i wouldn't like her talking to a different guy.

Here was another dream. I went into this Youth Center kind of place. I call it the boys and girls club in my dreams because I seem to go there a lot. It is just like this community hang out place where lots of people hang out. It might be one of the most frequent locations in my dreams out of the locations without physical counterparts.

So I went in the cafeteria of that place to eat. I got various tupperwares. One was these small green and purple grapes. I remember seeing a woman there with a big box of those snack packs of chips. I got the idea that people donated food to this place for people to eat since it seemed like a lot of food they giveaway for free.

Then I chose a seat and it was like a couch I could lay down almost all the way on. I was watching this video on a computer monitor. In it, there was a woman talking about how she had tried to give up an addiction by throwing out her stuff. I tried to hide the monitor from some guys who had sat to my left. I also felt bad for taking the best chair. The guys questioned why the woman had tried to go cold turkey on her addiction. I tried to explain to them that some people can't just do things in moderation. They are either in full blown addiction or they are sober. They didn't seem to understand.

There was some more stuff in that community center place. i think I drove home in the dream. I might have been in my old houses back yard somewhere in the interim.

Next I was home and I dreamed that I had napped for the whole afternoon. It was around 5 when i woke up. on my desk I had two tupperwares, one with a big glob of peanut butter, and another with a big glob of peanut butter plus a big glob of cottage cheese. I remember thinking these must be the food items I took home from the community center place. I think I had the tiny grapes too. I forgot the cottage cheese was there and looked back and it was still there. i figured that had probably gone bad by now. I wondered what I would eat. I considered just sleeping the whole night through and skipping dinner.




Not as many dreams tonight I guess. I had a couple hours insomnia each night the previous 4 nights and then this night was the first night when I really slept. I had a bout of sleeplessness part way through but not as much as the other nights.

Myself and a party of people descended some stairs onto a beach. The beach was littered by rolled-up bags. The size of trash bags, but made from a material more like jute than plastic. We started grabbing them, and dragging them off to the side because they were littering the beach. That's when I noticed there was something inside the bags. On one end, the bag was 'swollen', and I could see whatever was inside was slimy, organic and warm. I felt very uncomfortable all of a sudden. I realized these bags could be like eggs, hatching some kind of bizarre creature inside. The others didn't care and continued, but I went back up the stairs, which I now saw was a heap of these jute sacks stacked like stairs. I moved to the top, and started throwing off bags to destroy the stairs and to ensure nothing could follow me if they started hatching.

Morning of December 31, 1999. Friday.



I am with a group of about eight people, all of whom are unfamiliar and unknown to me. The setting is a partial house with typical indoor outdoor ambiguity. The people seem somewhat friendly and there is no conflict at any point. It is an informal social atmosphere.

Eventually, there is at least one lion walking around near the perimeter of what is implied to be the house. It looks our way a few times but there is never an implied threat. Still, I feel puzzled at times as to whether there should be a wall present between us and the lion. The other people do not comment on its presence.

Indoor outdoor ambiguity is likely the result of subliminal awareness of the differences between being conscious in waking life and being unconscious in the dream state, as a wall is otherwise liminal space division autosymbolism, the waking space between the incomplete fictional dream self identity and the conscious self identity.

RAS modulation (dominating RAS mediation triggered by delayed consciousness reascension) remains inactive here, as there is no event regarding the lion, which otherwise remains a passive emergent consciousness factor. All this is saying is that RAS does not detect a possible threat in my immediate environment as I am sleeping. In childhood, concern over a wild animal getting into my Cubitis home was a recurring waking alert factor by way of RAS modulation, though such dreams were not nightmarish, as they only held sustained concern until my dream faded. It is a biological mechanism related to survival instinct, though additionally triggered by the lack of clarity of one’s environment in unconsciousness, especially upon an unfamiliar noise being subliminally perceived.

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Trapped

I had several dreams of being trapped in an abandoned sanatorium. There was a demon there who was making it hard for me to breathe. I remember Asuka and Jamie trying to get me out.

Guitar

I was at my brother's house playing guitar and trying to get the right guitar tone. He had a blue effects processor.

Lucid

I was in a truck driving through a city that looked like Las Vegas. In the Truck was youtuber omargoshtv.

I was in somebody's house or a restaurant. Downstairs an asian family were eating something. The food they ate slowly turned them into Zombies. I went upstairs to a balconey and find a window. I hear the zombies getting more rowdy, they have vine like black veins that are coming from their skin. I fly out the window. I Become lucid because of the gravity being light. I fly towards a green valley. I go fast quite a few miles.

I find a house on the edge of the valley and enter it. I find a black couple I seem to know and warn them about the zombies. I tell them to leave immediately before they get here. The guy says it's okay he can handle it and offers me a pepsi. I see a 2 liter bottle and ask if he has cans? He says no, So I take the bottle.

The truck I was in pulls up. I get in and someone from lethbridge is in there. I mention it's a dream and I can't believe my lucidity is lasting so long. He nods in agreement.

We drive for a while and I lose lucidity. I have to pee so I ask if there's a stop. Turns out my dad is driving the truck and we stop by a grove of trees. I go out to pee but my dad starts arguing with me for some reason I can't remember what. An asian family tells him to stop picking on me but he persists. I wind up throwing him to the ground and say some final words in the argument. I take off somewhere but can't remember.

Battle

I am in a desert valley with some people from the dark tower series. I am shooting a gun and kill lots of bad guys. A black wolf keeps teleporting around and I can't get a clear shot of him. I pull out a device and call Raven Knight. I tell her to get there quickly because we are pinned down. She arrives on an elevator that appears out of nowhere and begins tracking down the wolf.

2018, 02-19

Ghost House Treasure Hunt

I am with some other people and we are going into an abandoned house of some kind. It is a large place and I am wanting to get photos and video footage of the place. It is night time outside, so the interior of the house is very dark. I have a flashlight that I use to find my way around. I hear the other people with me, I think there are two of them, but I don’t think to turn the flashlight around to see them better. The place looks abandoned, dusty and dirty, and a bit creepy, but I’m not afraid. I want to get videos and photos that I might be able to use for making a video game, I am not thinking to find ghosts or anything creepy here. I see a spider scuttle up the wall when I shine my light on it and that seems to freak out one of the men with me. I just tell him the spiders are more scared of him than he is of them. He says he’s not so sure about that. I add that the spider we saw was a tarantula, and they are completely harmless to humans even if one does bite him. I use my flashlight for light and take a few photos of the antique furniture in the room.

I leave the first room, which was furnished like a living room. I then enter what appears to be a dining room. There are plates and silverware on the table, as well as blobs of gross looking stuff that might be whatever is left of a dinner set up many years ago. I wonder how any trace of the food is still there, animals and bugs should have eaten it by now. I take more photos of the table, the chairs, the plates, and even the gross stuff on them. I am now wanting to document everything I find, I have the feeling I won’t be able to ever return here. I see some stairs and head up to the second level. There is a bathroom up there that smells like a rotting zombie just had diarrhea and didn’t bother to flush, then collapsed by the toilet and continued to decompose. I think I might be sick, so I just snap a couple quick photos of the bathroom before closing the door and moving away quickly.

I glance behind me to see if the people with me are still following me and I can barely make out their dark forms in the dark hall following me. I go into a large bedroom that must be the master bedroom. The master bathroom smells every bit as bad as the first bathroom so I close the door to minimize the smell. Now I start taking photos of the room. After taking some photos I go to a chest and open a few drawers. There are old and worn out clothes in the drawers. I then start wondering if there might be anything of real value still here. I start searching through more drawers. I come to what looks like a large jewelry box and I open it. The jewelry box is full of shiny sparkling jewelry. I wonder if any of it is real and valuable or if it might all be trash costume jewelry. I reach in and pull out a pair of earrings. One of the men with me says I’d better not put that on. I tell him I wouldn’t try it on until I’ve cleaned it thoroughly. He says no, he means the fact it’s cursed. I don’t take the comment on the curse very seriously. I keep looking at the jewelry. There are some nice looking pieces here that I want. Every time I go to take something, however, the man with me gets upset. I decide that in spite of thinking earlier that I could never come back, I would find a way to come back and collect this jewelry. No one else was using it, so it wasn’t really stealing!

I leave the master bedroom and look in the other rooms. I am wishing I could get separated from the men with me so I could return to the master bedroom and collect the jewelry. In one of the other rooms I go into a closet and grope around the far wall to find another exit. I find myself in another bedroom and I go from there back to the master bedroom. I go to the jewelry cabinet and pull out anything I can get my hands on into my purse. When I turn around I see a woman with long dark hair standing in the room and watching me. She looks annoyed, but also a little amused. She says the jewelry is hers and I shouldn’t take it. I do a double take, I don’t remember seeing her before… and this house is supposed to be abandoned. I comment that I thought it had been abandoned, I didn’t realize someone might come back for it. She says she can’t come back for it, but I should be truthful… those beautiful jewels would be disgraced to be worn by a fat ugly pig like me. She says she will wait while I put the stuff back. But now I’m annoyed at her and I throw a piece of broken wall at her. That goes right through her… she’s a ghost! Instead of being afraid I realize she can do nothing to stop me from taking the jewelry. I tell her if she’d been nice I would have put it all back, but since she had to be a bitch and insult me, I’m keeping it. I walk right past her and into the hall. One of the men is there. He asks if I woke the curse. I tell him the curse is as impotent as a bullet with no gunpowder.

The dream was in this massive area. In the distance was the JMU football stadium but we were not really at JMU. We were at the beach from what I remember. To the left of the beach, in the middle were dunes, and to the right was the forest. There were thousands of people walking towards the stadium. I was getting a birds eye view but also walking there myself. I'm on the beach. I bring up my phone and send a picture to someone showing them how far away I was. Eventually, I get there. The stadium looks medieval and people are dressed for this occasion.

I'm in this place sort of like the in lord of the rings with rolling grasslands and small hills with houses in them. There are people there and there's a castle of some sort. At some point this gladiator semi-god guy with a green outfit and red hair/beard came thundering out of the castle and was slaying some sort of monster but I don't remember what it looked like. Once he was done, he expected an award but there was this announcer overhead saying something like "okay someone get this guy some cheap beer" and the dude was disappointed. I ended up in my mom's house IRL in my sister's room. I was watching porn. My mom walks in and catches me which made me feel extremely embarassed. I'm frantically trying to close down windows and pop-ups but there's too many. I go try to take a shower but Eva is in there. There's a phone in the trash can underwater so I reach in through all the gunk and pull it out. I start to open the browser and she snatches it from my hand saying that it's hers. She takes a while to get out and then I'm in the bathroom but there's a shower head pointing towards the floor and one in the bathtub. Eventually I'm back in my other sister's room again looking at porn and again my mom walks in, and again I'm frantically trying to shut down the pop-ups.

Another part of the dream I was spectating this olympic event that was like extreme putt-putting. The event was held on this huge wooden ship. I climbed up the ropes to this hangout up top where there was a girl and an old man competing against each other. They would take turns hitting the ball down the ramp, up a lip and into the hole. I was constantly bouncing on these ropes watching them compete. Under us off the ship was a massive Christian ceremony going on. The old man asks if he can use the balls I'm holding in my hand. I have a red ball, green ball, and two blue ones. A few of them are actually cubes. I hand on to him and the girl says that's unfair because the colors were the same or something. I'm now noticing how high up we are and am trying to find a way down.

Dreams from last night, lucid part in bold color text



Thing before grocery store part but only vague memory.

Thing with friends K W and/or B L at grocery store. Thinking about what the animals had been through whose meat was being sold. K W or B L wanted to buy meat but I was not buying meat.

We were in Nana's living room. Cousin there. Going accross circle of people.

Multiple choice test. Something about looking at someone else's paper.

Underground scenario with people. Something about only a limited number of people getting out. One somewhat elderly person and an extremely elderly person wanted to get out. Something about helping people out of there.

Dragon Ball Z video game. I was like Goku. There were parts where the bottom half of the screen showed a text box where the text colors could be changed. Other colors costed more money or something like that.

Thing about weight lifting competition with R A. Squatting 315 for reps. R A out squatting me but I was attempting 350 and up to 405 but failing the reps.

Going down to my college weight room to do a workout. I didn't have my key card to open the door. Hoping someone would be coming up the stairs and out the door and I could walk in. It was Miss M, a high school math teacher I had. She gave me a look like she knew I was trying to get in without a card. I told her I just left my wallet in my car. This was true in the context of the dream. She said I had to go to the desk and give them my name. I didn't want to have to do that but she was pretty stern about it. Another woman I went to H S with, G A, came up the stairs behind her. She smiled very brightly and glowed with white light. I felt loved.

I didn't go down to the weight room. I saw Miss M at a desk, in front of a computer, and on the phone. There was a cigarette butt on her desk. I was getting a download about her that she stays busy on the computer all morning and then busy standing in front of a class teaching all afternoon. A way of being workaholic and always busy. She seemed stressed on the phone.

I went over to her and she was a cyclops. Instead of two eyes, she had one giant eye in the middle of her head. I felt unsure of how to respond. I tried to make "eye contact" just with her one eye as if she had two. She began to tell me how she came from some ancient civilization. There were some specific names of civilizations I don't remember.

I might have got the order wrong in that the underground part or the goku part might have come after the cyclops part. Sometimes remembering the order isn't as easy.

Something about studying for a test again. Preparing for a test.

I was going to stay in this house. The heat was off when I got there so I put the heat on for myself and when the other people arrived. I also made sure a window was closed that had been left open. Something about action figures?

I had some tupperwares with plants or flowers. There was a woman living there and I was trying to appease her with flowers. She was talking about the other women who lived there as if they were not there. How annoyed she was of them. She was saying how she had just quit smoking. I said she might get along with L S because L S just quit smoking too. We were standing around a countertop.

In the dream it seemed like the woman wanted something. I had three folded up Pokemon shirts. One was of Pikachu. There were two others. I liked them, but the woman seemed to want or need them. The dream context was that she had ruined another shirt I had lent her so I thought I might not want to trust her with my cool shirts. But I didn't have the heart to say no.

I was looking at a Pokemon card in the hall way from the front door into the kitchen. I was thinking of my shiny metal energy card and giving it to the woman as well. Then there was a part of a Pokemon card with metal energy and another kind of energy, maybe fire or psychic.

That was really good dream recall for the first round of dreams. I was very happy as more details continued to flow into my mind.

It took me what seemed like hours to fall back asleep. I don't know why. But it did. Eventually I did fall asleep though. I had one mini dream of a grey glove with a whoopie cushion feature. Then I had some more dreams with I forgot most of. Maybe with U C or my sister. But that round of dreams ended in a funny way. I was driving along the main road in my town near the numbered streets. As I drove, I kept thinking of parallel parking somewhere. There was a car behind me I kept seeing in my rear view. To my right, along the side of the road, there was a bicyclist bicycling along. He started yelling at me because I guess he could tell I was starting to pull off to the side and he thought I would hit him? He was keeping pace with my car which is interesting. He continued to yell things at me until I heard "Stop!" Really loudly and then woke up with a startle.


It took me a little bit to fall asleep again.








In the next dream, I am with a tan woman and I only remember that party vaguely. She goes out for a moment and I am at my black desk with some food that I haven't eaten from my meal plan during the day. I wonder for a moment why I am eating spinach at this hour but I figure I just didn't eat it during the day and had to catch up. I am playing a game or writing on my phone. The room lights are on and I realize this might disturb my sleep. I reach for my orange glasses in response to this.

An application pops up on my phone that has to do with dating. it is like an easy dating for singles app. The interface is black and red. I think that dating sites aren't really my thing but maybe one day I will try it. I try to close it but there is an ad positioned on the window where the X is to close it. I think to myself that that shouldn't be allowed, for advertisers to put a link in the close box so when you go to close it it opens something else. The app won't go to all apps view when I press the all apps view button. The top bar where it says File, Edit, View, etc. has the word File to the far right. I click File then Exit and it closes. Another dating app pops up. This one I am able to swipe away from all apps view to close it. I do not use any dating apps in waking life.

There is a big container of coins. All types of coins. There are even giant silver coins which I think must be fifty cent pieces. I take the coins out and look at them. I am also eating my spinach with the same hands that touched the coins, questioning if that is really a good idea but continuing to do it anyway.

The woman returns to my room and comes to join me. She realizes she has something else to go to. I realize this is a dream in a very subtle kind of way. The thought just comes to me that it is a dream, and then I realize, oh, of course, it must be. Very calmly. Now I am lucidly aware with in the dream.

I wonder what I will do. I realize I am sitting in bed so I decide to just meditate. I close my dream eyes and see a dim white glow on black background. I feel calm and think to myself that I will just go to sleep within this dream and have a lucid, dream within a lucid, dream. Then I will wake up to the other dream and still know it is a dream. I start feeling like this will really happen.

I begin to float out of my bed and around the corner. I was previously in my current bedroom but now I am in my bedroom from my previous house. I float into the teal room which is my sisters. The tan woman is in there with my mom and sister. I am flying with my head running along the ceiling and I look down at the women there. The tan woman turns out to be M C and she looks very pretty. I have an understanding she is my girlfriend in this dream. I fly down and kiss her forehead, then we kiss regularly. I am aware my Mom sees us. my sister walks out but for another reason, not from being weirded out or anything. My Mom seems happy that I have a girlfriend. M C has to go do something in another room.

I notice glitter glue writing all over my sisters walls. Gold and bronze glitter glue saying things like remember your dreams, discover, remember, in script writing. I realize it will be fun to tell my Mom about my dream so far. Not to tell her it is a dream but to talk about it as if we are in waking life, and I just woke from a dream. Like, "Mom, you will never guess the dream I had," and then tell her about the events up to that point. I also thought this could help my dream recall.

My Mom is smiling and very happy. M C comes back and makes some kind of advance towards me. I give in to do something I sometimes try to hold back from doing in dreams.

I woke up from this kind of wishing I had taken my time to explore the dream instead of just doing other things in the dream. But I guess it is living and learning. I had really good lucidity in this dream, probably from meditating at the onset. I didn't even think of tasks of the month or my healing goals.

I was in a room with a DC. A younger girl, I think. She had a 'condition', or rather 'unwanted ability'. At some point, she started crying when she felt it coming. We both 'shifted' into a nightmarish version of reality (that was her ability, to move there). It was dark, gloomy and everything looked dilapidated. In the room we were in, we were attacked by a kind of shadow monster. It was smaller than a human (size of a large dog) and moved on all fours, and its legs had sharp claws to them (but made of shadow). There were a few 'lights' on its body, which I assume were eyes. They reminded me of the monsters from the sidescroller game 'Claire', which also features a nightmare version of reality, and a girl who accidentally travels to it. I think I stomped the monster to death.

I went through double doors into a corridor, but at the end there was the shadow of a person. This dark figure suddenly started screaming loudly, and lit up in flames. The flames spread rapidly, and moved through the corridor towards me. I screamed back, and somehow this 'pushed the fire back' until the dark figure was completely extinguished. I think I rushed at it with random objects laying around, and tried to whack it. The figure telekinetically flung stuff back at me, trying to stop my progress.

I think I was trying to protect the girl until she could get us back.

Morning of February 19, 2018. Monday.



In the first part of my dream, I notice a square hole in the floor in front of our couch, near the middle, about a third of the size of the couch. I consider that our youngest daughter might fall through if she is not paying attention, although the concern does not dominate my thoughts, as I also consider she would likely be aware of it for the most part. It seems to be late afternoon. The couch is in the wrong orientation. It is perpendicular to its real location, as it is on the west side of the lounge room facing east (where it has never been in reality) instead of being at the south edge of the lounge room facing north.

Later, Zsuzsanna and I are in a fictional room that is oriented where our oldest son’s room would be in reality, though is implied to be a mostly featureless lounge room, though there are bookshelves present. Zsuzsanna remains on my left. I focus on what looks like water dripping from a small area of the ceiling. I somehow see through the ceiling and see a large hole in the roof (as if I had x-ray vision, a fairly common dream state trait), oriented to my right. I tell Zsuzsanna of this, remembering that a new roof had just been built onto our house (in reality) and this new one has already partly “dissolved”. I also notice a smaller hole in the roof near the far corner of the room. I strongly focus on the idea of rain and water coming down, and (without viable lucidity) see water pouring through the small narrow irregular hole in the ceiling.

After this, I expect more water to come in near where the cat is sleeping in the far corner. A smaller amount of water than in the first instance comes through the ceiling near the corner and splashes the cat, but it does not seem that annoyed and remains in its position. I have a vague concern about books getting wet, but no more water comes through and I slowly wake. (The supposed rainwater event is more like someone quickly pouring water from a bucket from the two areas above the ceiling rather than a leak caused by rain or an even amount of water over time as it does not even seem to be raining when I look through the ceiling with x-ray vision, and then through the hole in the roof each time, as the sky is blue and cloudless.)

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My dream self’s first focus is on the hole in the floor. This represents neural OR gating relating to a subliminal focus on Zsuzsanna’s unconsciousness, as it is in the same location in front of the couch where Zsuzsanna sits in reality. However, when Zsuzsanna later appears in my dream, she remains on my left when subliminal autosymbolism of our real sleeping position is present.

Vestibular System Personification is incidentally rendered as our youngest daughter in this case. There is no modulating RAS factor or personification thereof and my dream self’s concern is illusory and ambiguous as in many past dreams of this nature.

The holes in the roof represent neural OR gating of my conscious self identity (which has featured in many past dreams as such), to my dream self’s right as I am sleeping on my left side, my right side more exposed to my real environment. The larger hole, closest to my dream self, opens to my consciousness precursor, the other, Zsuzsanna’s. Neural OR gating means that my conscious self is manipulating my dream, with my personified subconscious (dream self) being only subliminally aware of the implications (that is, without full recall of the dream state, as the subconscious level lacks viable intelligence and temporality). To clarify, my conscious self is subliminally aware of being in the dream state, though my dream self is not (and does not even recall what a dream is), though my dream’s autosymbolism is still based on a value of “one” (OR gate). This is why there is a hole in the roof and why my dream self can see it through the ceiling (liminal space divider, that is, a neural pattern between dream self and conscious self).

The cat is a precursory emergent consciousness factor (as a common liminal space denizen). My dream self is aware of its autosymbolism, which links a thread to my conscious self identity of which tries to reinduce and sustain the dream state by willing it to rain. (Even though in real life, rain coming into our home after the roof was torn off was obviously a negative event.)

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4 different days of LD's combined to catch up.

Can't recall much from the first few, they were dark / black and grey type of LD's that came from the roll over technique of being partially aware that my body is tricked into thinking i'm asleep but I ended up rolling out of my body into my room each time and had very little to no control in the Dream state for some reason..

2nd day which was about 3 or 4 days ago I believe I became lucid while in an airport. I was putting things into my duffel bag and I put away my Toiletry bag and then I ended up putting away a second Toiletry bag and that made me realize something was up. I knew that I only owned one of those so when I started putting a second one away it made me think I may be dreaming. I did a RC and checked my fingers and had 5 fingers on each hand which was odd but I could feel I was in the dream universe and checked again and I had little heads of different people on the end of each of my finger tips on my left hand which confirmed that I was indeed dreaming.

From that point I decided to go have some fun, I flew off out of the terminal showing off my flying skills which was funny because some of my dream characters seemed impressed I could fly, most of the time they don't really pay much attention but this time they were watching in awe. I flew around and hovered and had great control and then flew upwards by a building. I wanted to try to walk up the building like in inception vertically and after a few tries I was successful and was able to walk vertically up the building which was really cool. After that I let my body fly down towards the ground while people were watching and decided to do some fun front flips on the way down before landing on the ground and that caused me to wake up for some reason.

The next LD I had was a couple of days ago, I was in a room and I don't recall much about it but something made me realize I was dreaming because of the walls or the room itself. I recall doing a RC and had 5 fingers on both hands until I rechecked my right hand and noticed 6 fingers confirming I was dreaming. I'm starting to notice my RC with my hands are starting to more often show normal sets of fingers which has never been the case int he past which is very stranger. I recall busting through walls to get outside as I was inside a building and remember flying off to feel that amazing feeling I love of flying. I also was doing some TK with some items and objects around me and tried on some people and I notice that with items I can easily use my TK powers but with people it's much harder for some reason but still possible just not with great success. I wanted to try some different things I hadn't tried in a while so I tried shooting a energy ball like "Ryu" from street fighter in a way and it worked fine but there was nothing spectacular about it. I then finally remembered to try out a couple of my dream goals which were 1 create a delorean time machine from back to the future and go travel to the future to the year 14,000 or some great distant future and also to Draw a door and make it open and travel to a destination i'm thinking of as a different way to try to teleport to new places. I was successful at creating a car that looked similar to a delorean but unfortunately when I went over to it to check it out it was like a huge mess of random wires and gadgets and seemed like a messed up version of what I was trying to create so it didn't workout completely. I don't recall what woke me up but that's the last I remember from that LD.

Yesterday I had another LD. I was in a building up high in what seemed like some really unstable top story building on the beach and went to get some sort of drink from it and had feelings of it's unstable issues. Something about that or about me being worried about being hurt or dying from this caused me to realize this was a dream. I decided to go a long with the dream for a bit before going onto other tasks I wanted to do and drank out of the bottle to see what it tasted like and it had a really good nectar type taste which I enjoyed. It had a weird bandage like top to open up which was strange but I remember drinking out of it twice and really liking the taste which was cool. My vision began to fade out and I just went with it and then somehow tried to make it back and I was there again. I don't recall much after that but I was ready to go do some fun things and explore but I can't recall what I did or what happened but I believe I woke up shortly after looking around the environment and enjoying some of the senses I was feeling of the ocean breeze and smells.

I'm starting to think that when i'm in situations that make me worried about being hurt or dying from a building or being in a odd situation that I wouldn't normally put myself into is helping me become Lucid.

I think i'm hitting in the mid 200's for LD's now. I don't really count many that are brief that don't have much substance to them and the past few months I've been having natural LD's a couple of times weekly without trying my usual WILD or WBTB techniques which have been great as that has always been my long term goal to have consistent weekly LD's .

1) I entered a supermarket with a girl and we were shopping for stuff for our sleep over. As we looked around and she picked up stuff, I got the urge to buy something sweet. However, she ended up asking for my help to find the coca cola soda. It happened to be stacked waaay up high. On top of a bunch of other sodas. Some how I managed to rock the stack enough to catch the coca cola with the help of the girl. I got a feeling I was dreaming because the soda was transparent but I decided to ignore it and came across aisle where a woman was selling freshly baked cakes. There was a side where there were cakes in boxes and another side where the cakes were out on display in the open.

I took a piece of a Pink heart shaped cake and ate it. It tasted like strawberry. I than went to a cake with vanilla frosting and ate a piece. It was delicious. The lady told me to stop and to choose already. I was concerned that mice could have gotten on the cakes for a bit but when I was reassured by the woman that they were okay, I just decided to get the ones in the boxes. They were mostly powder cakes with almonds and walnuts. Stuff that didn't interest me but I picked up a powder cake without nuts that caught my attention.

Next, a group of girls pointed out a delicious looking honey cake that looked like it was taken right out of the oven. I said I wanted it but than a whole classroom of Japanese students showed up pushing me away from the cake I wanted. Eye showed up too. He told the woman who was starting to get annoyed to make a good impression again because she was going to put off the customers. I watched as she hurriedly tried to stand all cool and act nice.

Afterwards, randomly, as I sat down at a table with other students, I cut my hair in a bang and shoulder length to signify a new start. I than looked to the guy next to me and asked him what he thought. He said it looked good. I than wondered if I could catch Eye attention but woke up.