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Up early, and took some diphenhydramine to help me sleep. That seems to either repress REM or make it harder for me to remember my dreams the next morning. Anyway, I just remember one fragment.

Fragment 1

Something about my Dad's leftover food in the refrigerator.

First night:

Just a flash of a sex dream. Couldn't really tell who it was with.

Second night before bed, Talked with Raven about a dream Raven had about visiting Jamie. Apparently Jamie was digging a hole in her dream house basement in order to let a "friend," in. I found that suspicious, so I suggested to Raven that we help Jamie dig the hole and find out who her friend is.

Wandering

A dream of wandering around a big and fancy apartment building or hotel. I had to go to the bathroom so I kept going up and down stairs. In my memories of this place I remembered where one might be. I went there but the toilet was gone and in its place: there was a homeless man humping someone under him. I wandered off and kept searching but my memory fades.

Funny

Brief sex dream. Me and Jamie are in Canmore, she's driving a brown SUV or an older station wagon. We park on a street and use the back. I notice it's common for her to be on top.

Oh no

I'm in Jamie's house in the addic room. It's really messy and disorganized. An angry and stressed out Jamie walks in through a door. She has a small piece of paper in her hand and says, " Jesus said that you have to message me and ask me out!" And she throws the paper violently on the table and storms off. I look at the table she threw it on and see a bunch of papers strewn and torn up all over the table.

Now, I did pray about false Jesus' not being able to enter our dreams. Probably why she had to dig a hole to see her "friend." That must be some weird dream - logic loophole.

On the note subject matter: I've already made myself pretty clear on here and still stand on what I said. I'm left on read, for 6 years now. Pretty clear indication that Jamie wants nothing to do with me, and I'm treating it as such. That's a clear boundary for her and me. If she has a change of heart and reaches out - that's a different story. I'm not going to force or manipulate anyone into anything. A month ago I had some dreams of Jamie wanting to apologize, and also that I should wait and be patient with her while she figures out what to say. I'll stick with that.

Laptop

Back in the same room and Jamie is going through my laptop. She's looking for dating sites i used to go on or something. That's all I remember.

Nope, I deleted all my profiles, and removed all apps.

Spring Competition 2024 - Night 12

Floating Into The Dark (LD)
I’m floating down a hallway with brown walls and a tile floor. When will I just get lucid already…oh…this is a dream! I’m lucid. I realize it’s competition time and I should do some control. The dream begins to dim quickly. I begin to fly upward and the scene becomes very dark. Soon, it’s near pitch black and I go to phase through a side wall. I head to the right, but lose visual of where the wall is and continue to head in that direction. I soon wake up.

A beat making channel I watch on YouTube was in a city around Central / South America to meet up with a friend there for a beat video. The friend's girlfriend mysteriously disappeared and they did a video on YouTube where they friend dates another girl in order to find out where she disappeared off to and they go to this sauna that is in a weird beige, backrooms-esque setting. The friend appears to be possessed by something and walks off with his girlfriend in the furthest room in the back. We then notice all guys and girls in the spa wearing their swim suits grab their towel and follow them in the room.

As we enter the big room in the back, everyone is kneeling on the floor as the friend is laying on a massage chair, getting his privates licked by his missing girlfriend and the date.
The beatmaker's beat start playing in the background and surprise, unbeknownst what's happening until he enters the room in silence, looks at me, who has the role of camera man. The guy who owns the spa asks what the hell is going on, ignoring the situation in the room and referring to the beat playing instead. Before any response, goes back to watching football in his office next to the room. The beatmaker, completely in shock runs out of the building as I follow him, initially outrunning the beatmaker and running out of the dark night street before noticing the beatmaker across the street by the subway entrance, signaling to follow me. I run across the street after him, as we enter the subway station, the metro drives off, leaving us behind. We sit by the platform as I say "At least that creepy owner didn't follow us" as we look at the apartment buildings across the platform and notice a guy looking exactly like the owner entering his balcony, telling us to quiet down. We then turn around to the TV screen behind is on the station looking at a news report where they're looking for a suspect who looks like the owner, reported by a newsreader who too looks like that owner.

I then woke up from my nap.

I took the break because I was traveling to see the eclipse but other than that reason I am glad to come back feeling refreshed. The dream before took place in a city, so I was able to seamlessly transition to the swamp one. Passenger had already made it to his place, and I was able to catch up by calling him. I went over to the closest airport and had to get past security to meet up with the person that flew us here. Even though I already told them about wanting to return to the wilderness last time, I said again what I wanted. As I got on the plane they asked if I wanted something more specific, giving examples such as a desert with constant tornadoes, a cave with storms inside, and other crazy dream environments. I told them about the ice truckers, and they understood the challenge.

They agreed to take me to the wildest frozen place and as we flew there the pilot slowly made it clear that they were staying with me. Telling them about the opponent ice road truckers, they said the only way to truly compete was by creating the best truck of our own and thriving in both ice and swamp environments. The truckers would have never come to the swamp, so going into their territory was the perfect choice. The further we flew, the lower temperatures got. Ice started to form over the glass of the plane and the pilot gave me one of their coats. Since they’ll be continuing with me, I’ll call them Pilot.

Even further into the icy lands, and the plane was not able to properly work anymore. All engines stopped and the plane only continued by gliding on air currents. There were mountains in all directions, and Pilot explained how the wind currents over mountains can be dangerous, so they lowered the plane to land. Once we landed in the mountains, Pilot told me they could rework the plane to work as a truck but we were in need of food and shelter or else we would freeze before it was finished. I was able to use my water and earth abilities to pull an igloo out of the ground, but my water abilities were greatly limited when controlling snow and ice. Although the structure worked for insulation, we needed heat on the inside. Pilot was able to put together a fireplace and circulation to push the cold air out using parts of the plane.

We were able to rest in the igloo very comfortably but we still were in need of food and fuel. Although we had not bumped into any animals yet, food was the more urgent issue. We only had enough fuel to go a certain distance, but without food we would starve before running out of fuel. I went outside and put my hand in the snow to sense disturbances. This was done through heightened senses mixed with my elemental control. I was able to sense some, and caught a couple animals including moles and foxes. Bringing them in, Pilot was able to prepare them and we ate. We spoke over the meal and every once in a while they would go out to work on the plane some more. These animals were pretty normal compared to the ones in the swamp, but even if they were supernaturally powerful they still would be easy to handle at this point.

Seeing that my regular fighting part of the dream was gone, I decided to help with the rebuilding of the plane. The plane was large, and the most obvious change was the wings folding back. Pilot explained that the inside was changed a lot, but I helped with simpler things like holding up the wings as they were placed differently or carrying huge parts in after their modification. By the end the plane was fully modified, and Pilot proudly showed me around. It now both had its regular engine and one that functioned more like a train’s furnace, with logs working as fuel. This allowed us to use the surrounding trees as fuel while our gas slowly ran out. While at the city the goal to return seemed clear, once we had the truck built we considered the option of seeing how deep into the cold we could go. I decided to leave that until next time, and I left the dream off in the igloo.

Swamp Assignment:
I'm at work forwarding an email to my boss.
It’s from another team. They are complaining that they have to buy a motorboat for the swamp assignment. They've already had to buy other swamp equipment like a bucket and want more budget.
I'm concerned that my boss may have already been on the chain, and I might annoy him with making him see it twice. Also concerned about his jet lag.
…
I'm in a grassy place in the wild all alone. There are tall reeds where I suspect there is water.
There is a bookshelf with Harry Potter books. I look through them and notice that the book style doesn't have the colored metallic letters that I like.
I see some girls nearby and wonder if they are Harry Potter fans.
There are some shower-like areas nearby. They are built into a free-standing rock structure.
I reason that we are meant to choose a book and go to the shower to read it.

Fragment:
Chase sequence in a parking structure.

Fragment:
False awakening where I cant open my eyes all the way. I notice some seductive princess themed merchandise on my side table. The wrappers are pink.

Fragment:
I have a vague recollection of a chase sequence. It may have been on an expressway.
Similar to the battle scene in the second Matrix movie.

Spring Competition 2024 - Night 11

1. Throw (LD)
I’m become aware as a new scene begins to form. I find myself in a house, standing in front of what appears to be a table with some items on it, including blue sunglasses.
I begin thinking of dream control, yet move past the table as theirs nothing of interest. I see another table, rectangular and made of a dark wood, just beyond it. I could probably lift that in waking life…super strength won’t count. I move beyond this are and see that the area ahead is essentially a kitchen with white décor, cabinets to the right and large appliances including a fridge to the left. I look to the cabinets and decide on summoning. I’ll do something different – maybe an energy bar. I open the cabinets above head, yet only find various glass containers behind two of the doors. I ignore this and decide to get a chocolate shake from the fridge. I open it and quickly find a glass container with a bit of a thick chocolate substance at the bottom. I go to drink it, yet it becomes thinner, tasting and feeling just like water. I look to the right at more of the contents and just notice two liter soda bottles. I close the door and go for super strength. I grip the top and bottom of the fridge with hands, lift it up, and chuck it at the opposing wall – it simply phases through. I turn back around and notice another fridge took its place. I begin heading toward the wall to explore beyond. I wake up.

2. Time With Grandparents, Once Again
I’m walk to a urinal in a bathroom and suddenly become lucid. I turn around and notice a coworker standing by the sink as well supplies, including a pink and white striped bag, sitting in front of some blue stalls on the far end. I should interact. I walk up, place my hand on the coworkers shoulder.
“Hey! How’s it going?”
I need to get moving - I need to get to my three step now. I head toward one of the stalls, phase trough the wall next to it, and enter the void. I maintain my awareness in the void, yet have the feeling that I’m waking up; I feel as though I can feel my waking life legs. The sensation is probably a creation of the dream. I begin visualizing Haven Peak, repeating the name of the realm. I imagine snow. The sensation persists for a bit, then falls away. I begin getting the sensation of tumbling and go with it. I tumble several times in the void. I suddenly find myself standing next to a bed in a dim room, a pair of what appear to be rain boots in front of me. This looks like a room in Meadow main house. I walk forward and phase right through the window. I begin flying next to the house at night, thinking of where to explore. I notice my family gathered in the kitchen area as I peer through the glass windows on the edge of the room. My grandma is in view as well. I decide to phase in and I take a seat at the head of the table. I notice the my grandpa and mom are there as well. I’m curious what my grandma will say about my dream guide.
”Grandma, what’s my dream guide’s name”
Grandma: “Malthazar, or something like that”
“Who is my dream guide?”
Grandma: “Children are your dream guide”, she says, as though I should already now.
The experience of being right in front of my grandparents as though it’s waking life hits me. I become emotional and begin crying a bit.
“I just want you guys to know that I love you”, I say as I hug my grandma. She hugs me back warmly.
I walk around the table, head up to my grandpa. He's sitting in a button down shirt with his legs crosses. I walk up and give him a hug as well. He calmly and silently looks at me, smiling at me approvingly as I back up. I leave the room and head into the family room for more dream control. I head through the dining room to reach it, make a left and immediately decide to use super strength on the giant TV. I clamp top and bottom with my hands, hoist the massive TV which is about six feet tall and seven feet wide, and let it drop to the floor. I look around the room and decide to use electronics. I notice an old, tan phone and head over to it. I lift the handpiece, hit some buttons, seeing them light up, and feel that’s enough. I phase through the door into the garage. It’s essentially empty with dark brown walls. I decide to head out and explore the neighborhood. I head out onto the driveway into the daylight, and see a large house across the street. I find the place interesting. I hope this neighborhood will have some persistence…I wonder what I’ll call it…maybe something close to the town name…Coloa? I head farther down the driveway, curving to the right. I see a zombie type figure up in a tree, immobile – It’s creepy. I continue farther and see a mansion across the street directly in front of the house. I consider exploring there, but want to see the front of the house. I notice how new it looks and want to tell mom in waking life about it. I decide to enter through the front to understand how it connects. I approach and grandma opens the door with a smile. I greet her. I realize I should get back to dream control.
“I’m going to do some mass TK, check it out!”
I turn, facing the mansion once again and see several gargoyle type figures on the lower level. I go for mass TK and believe I see them flicker up and down a bit, but it’s hard to tell as my vision is blurring.
“My vision is blurring a bit” I say to grandma. “I’ll take my eyes out:
I take my eyes out, but it doesn’t resolve. I rub them a bit.
Grandma: “That’s gross! Don’t do that!”.
I walk forward a bit more and the dream blurs more. I turn to the left and begin rubbing the ground and persist for a bit. I wake up.

I got lucid by doing the nose pinching rc. I got up from my bed and grounded myself in the dream, which stabilized it. I decided to just jump out of the window and fly. Not sure why I don't remember any of the goals for the competition. I phased through the closed window and jumped off the ledge. That was pretty scary this time, I actually felt scared of falling but forced myself to do it anyway. I started flying up and when I looked back, the area looked completely different. I didn't even notice anything had changed. Funnily enough, I actually tried to see if anything would change after this. That made me mindful and the mindfulness seemed to make things more coherent, at least while it lasted. I lost that again quickly. After flying for like half a minute I decided to land and look around. It was raining and kinda cold so I went into this restaurant. I started talking to a waiter right at the entrance and then woke up.

I had a strange coincidence I forgot to add concerning the Jamie voice. Well I Don't know if Jamie has come to know Jesus as saviour yet, or if she understands the gospel. (I have a strong suspicion she does read my DJ on here since I stopped seeing her drive by me after I called her out on it on this Dj) So... I was out having a smoke late one night and her voice popped in my head, " We're born again Christians!" Her voice said boastfully Right after I heard that I looked into the sky and saw a shooting star. Always nice to get a wink from the old man upstairs!


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I was in a large parking lot during the day and sitting on a large bench or divider with Jamie. She had red hair like a ginger. I must have looked different as well because she didn't recognize me. I also didn't know who she was. But she seemed familiar. She was telling me about a guy she knows, hasn't talked to him for years, but she keeps hearing his voice in her head, and also other strange things happen concerning him. I mentioned to Jamie that it sounds like a soul tie. Jamie seemed mad at that statement and stormed off.

I got up and went my way Some guy went past me on a hover board and was also drinking a blue juice. I realized I was in a Fortnite dream. Well that explains us not looking like ourselves... I was gonna shoot at him but he didn't notice me. I decided to just go on my way.

Regarding soul ties. Popular Christian theories state soul ties are created from sex, . The Bible says sex creates a bond. Everyone you sleep with you give them a piece of your soul and you get a piece of theirs, including generational curses and demon possession. Well... Me and Jamie never did the deed. However I believe us having a strong emotional bond created it. Or possibly a sex dream, which I do remember one from that era. One giveaway that it could have been shared was how she went silent on me for an entire week. I noticed after we would hang out she would freeze me out for days as if in reaction to the emotional intensity of spending time with me. After that dream ( wether she dreamed it as well or somehow read it on my dj) and the way she went quiet for so long, I'm positive she was aware of that dream.

Regarding voices again. Her voice seemed to reflect her feelings from the dream. In my head she said it seemed like I'm too good to be true. To that I say the only way to know for sure is to talk with me in person, or messenger ( god forbid), or through DV, and we can compare notes on all this crazy stuff. The worst that could happen is I might give her a big hug if she asks me.

1. Midnight At M & P’s (LD)
I open a drawer in M & P’s house. Why are our items here if mom and dad sold the house?...this is a dream…I’m lucid. I turn from the drawer and begin to head to the family room area. I see the wall on the side of the open doorway and phase through it. I enter into the room and head toward the couch area. There’s a ethereal, blue shimmer throughout the scene. It feels as though it’s midnight and moonlight is reflecting into the room. It’s competition time…I’ll shapeshift quick. I shrink down into a mouse, then become curious as to what my reflection looks like. I find a nearby cabinet and catch my reflection, which looks like me in humanoid form. I’ll go for cat form. I revert to humanoid, then shrink down into cat form, feeling myself becoming a quadruped. I look once again at my reflection as I walk past the cabinet and notice the back portion of a gray cat with it’s tail up. I begin walking to the sliding glass door and decide to explore outside a bit. I phase through and my vision becomes white fairly rapidly. I drop down and begin rubbing the ground. My vision goes fully white and I wait for a teleport. I sense Bran approaching and suddenly feel that he’s poking my side repeatedly. I lose lucidity.

2. Transferring Lucidity (LD)
A character I sense as Harlequin is standing in front of me. I understand that If I pull hard enough on her arm, her dream control will stop and her lucidity will transfer to me. My hand releases after I pull hard on her arm. I’m lucid in a dim room. It’s competition time…time to get moving. I begin to fly upward. I wake up.

*Need to go to sleep earlier, I could sense if I laid in bed longer I would have a lucid but sadly I have to work!*


J and I were in a Walmart trying to buy some bread that was on a quick spinning display. It was frustrating because every time we tried to grab it other products would get knocked over. The time window to grab it was less than a second.

We ended up getting frustrated and decided we needed revenge by robbing the store of random stuff. we started making an escape when we realized we didn't have a car. We stole a really old, rusted metal bodied car and took off.

J was driving and I was somewhere in the back feeling a hole in the vehicles exhaust, it was blasting air out and was sparking.

Some time passed and the police caught up to us, pulling us over. As J pulled over, he got out and ran to the back of the vehicle "Watch out a snake!" he pushed a stolen inflatable snake that was hanging out of the trunk and slammed it shut, hiding the stolen goods. "We need to search your vehicle!" demanded the officer. "Show me a search warrant first!" J retorted. The officer looked annoyed and told us to stay put as he walked back to his car.
We knew we were in trouble so we booked it while he wasn't looking. We got pretty far away and found a large wall camouflaged like the surrounding area, it had a door we decided to go through.



I wake up.

Burden:
I'm on a hockey team and I know I am the worst player.
My hockey stick wont stay together. There is some mechanism to put it together that I can't get my mind around.
There is a warmup the team is doing that required eggs.
My entire carton was busted, eggs cracked and leaking inside.
Then the was an issue with my skates. The coach had to ask another player to help me.
I feel useless and like a burden.
We eventually make it to the pre-game huddle.
The coach calls me out for my bad mobility on the ice.
According to him, I struggle to turn around and keep my balance while doing so. I know it is true.
I contemplate leaving the team so that I don't drag the team down anymore.
Maybe I will practice on my own to reach base level, return, and get my honor back.
I wake up feeling defeated.

First night:


strange

Just a brief flash of me floating in a living room and I'm also praying for Jamie.

what?

I'm in some room waiting for Jamie and she walks in holding hands with some guy that looks like me, only it's not and she's really smiling. Ok, so there are fake dream versions of me now?

Next night:

driving

I'm in a car with my brother. He's driving. It's on some country roads. we come to a 4 way stop and on the side of the road is a deer and a dog. I keep saying to my brother, "Can I pet that Dawg?". He turns and... Suddenly I'm in a dream with Jamie and we are holding hands. At least I finally got a happy dream about Jamie!

flash

A flash of a dream where I am intimate with Jamie. It seems to be a replay of the one from days ago. but this tim it's in black and white.

Last night:

I had a long non lucid, but can't remember the details. something about being in a big building... I really have to invest in a notepad again.

WTF

I'm in the house where I live in Bowden. My brother is in the koitchen making something. I hear a knock on the front door. Some Filipina lady walks in and calls me by name. I have false memories of her commenting on TikTok or something. She's wearing a mcdonald's uniform. I have other false memories of a different filipina woman coming to my home. I tell the current girl that I don't work at mcdonald's and to please leave. She keeps saying she's in love with my, and her appearance has changed. She's wearing a loose shirt and thes tight white pants, the kind that don't leave much to the imagination. She squats down so I can see her curves. Her Boobs are falling out of her shirt. I try to tell her it's a mistake and I don't know her and I'm asking her to leave. (In my mind I don't want to be messing around with people because I believe Jamie is coming in, and I don't want ANY complications.)

Upset

Just a brief flash of me and another person Talking to Jamie. She seems defensive about something and raises her tone and pitch. I can't remember what was being said or the context.

Flash

Something about Jamie telling me something. But it's so brief that I can't even comprehend a word she was saying.

I slept pretty well.
All of my LDs thus far have been through WILD.

Although I am able to get LDs fairly easily I'm still relatively new when it comes to lucid dreaming, before the contest I just let myself naturally have them when I could "sense" I was able to have one.

I have this fearful feeling like "wow, I'm going to lose my mind." But I know I'm not losing my mind, I'm just becoming aware of it and feeling afraid.

Color code
Non-Lucid/Notes
Semi-Lucid
Lucid
Intentional control

Uncontrolled Drifting: WILD
I'm drifting through this building. Floating up through the ceiling from one floor to another. I'm rubbing my hands together in an attempt to stabilize and gain control. The dream clarifies a bit but when I go to land back on the floor I just phase right through it to the floor below.

*I wake up and remain still*

School to Minecraft: WILD

*Before I enter this dream, I'm telling myself I want to visit school.*

I enter a school; the hallways are long and dimly lit. Everything is stable and I'm able to walk around for a while. I'm not really trying to do anything, and I get bored.



I begin to fly at high speeds into the wall. I phase through it an now I'm in Minecraft and everything is bright. I remember my last three step task, Mass telekinesis, I see about 10 mobs and beckon them, they begin floating. I continue flying beckoning every mob I see, causing them to float and follow me. I see a hallway leading into the school I was just in and turn around to see them still following me like balloons and dismissively gesture the mobs.



I turn back and land in the hallway, back to reality, I see someone and begin chasing them, it felt natural for some reason, they begin running away from me. I see them turn a corner and open a door, I jump into the air and attempt to stop them from closing the door by slowing down time, unfortunately that slows me down too. The door closes and I'm now frozen in time. I look around and see a monitor about 20 feet away, it has Minecraft on the screen, I'm able to control and play it from a distance. I stop after about 3 seconds though as I feel the dream ending.

"Don't be fooled by a false awakening I remember last time"

False Awakening?

My eyes open and I can sense I'm not actually awake. Attempting to move my arms fails. "Sleep paralysis?" I've already decided the next time this happens I'm not going to close my eyes. Everything is very dark, moving like normal doesn't work so I imagine getting up and walking. It works, it doesn't feel like walking though, it feels like I'm just seeing through the eyes of someone I told to walk, it's very slow and takes a lot of will power to move.
I'm now standing and I'm fighting back fear. The room I'm in looks like a distorted version of my room. The door to the living room here is much further away then it should be and there's no bathroom door. Continuing my struggle I open the door and can actually hear the creaking. I see the TV already has YouTube on it.

*I set an intention for this exact scene, the next time I wake up in my apartment I'm going to get up and watch YouTube on the TV*


The living room looks very distorted, and everything is misplaced, movement feels more natural now, I go to sit down on the couch and read what's on the screen, "wok", "mill" and something else. It's just gibberish and I don't know how to play any videos.

I wake up

Note: I'm very close to completing my personal goals, I feel like I overcame my fear of retaining awareness after a false awakening, but I wouldn't consider this to be exploring a real place or watching YouTube.

Also maybe I shouldn't chase helpless DCs if I want to talk to them.