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Supplement Dose: 10 mg Melatonin, 250 mg Choline, 50 mg Zinc, 400 mg Niacin, 100 mg Inositol, 100 mg Vitamin B6, 800 mcg Folic Acid, 500 mg Vitamin C

Dream Fragment - "Walking around an apartment complex with R explaining to him why DMT is special?"

The Secret Compartment [DILD]

The first part of this dream is hazy, but I was doing something at school which then became a mall. I vaguely remember seeing people I've known since elementary school, and then I told this girl MH who has the same last name as me that she's have to put something up my butt. (A quarter, I believe? ) Shortly afterward I became lucid, however, and I was walking around in some big department store section of the mall. The dream was quite vivid at first but rather unstable, and to save it I walked around singing "I can see clearly now, the rain is gone....", which worked like a charm. I was fully lucid in the sense that I had full comprehension of the fact that I was in a dream and none of this was real, but I still don't think my rational mind fully turned on as I was making some strange decisions. I decided that I wanted to steal a TV which would surely serve me no purpose for some reason, so I grabbed it and started heading toward the exit (the one that actually leads outside, not back into the mall). However, as I was walking up to the censors a thought occurred to me: if I walk out of here knowing I'm stealing this, the dream will probably make the alarms go off and I'll have to get out of here quickly, and that might cause an adrenaline rush which could wake me up. I opted to find a better way to sneak it out to see if I could get past the censors without a fuss. Also, when I wasn't looking the TV turned into a toy gun. I never really focused on it intently so my memory of it is hazy, but I want to say it looked like this one more than anything.

However, my mission didn't change, and for some reason I still wanted to steal this. I walked around until I found an attractive female DC. *cough* I then grabbed her, pushed her over, pulled down her pants, and shoved the gun into her ass. Hooray, it fits! My plan from this point on was to make her walk through the censor and look like they're just going off randomly because she's not stealing anything, then walk through and get it back out of her, but then I woke up. ._.

There were a few more dreams, but I guess I was lazy and possibly having false awakenings because I vaguely remember intending to type them down, but there were no further notes than those. >w<

Spoiler for Reflections:

Well, this was actually the second night that I took that insane amount of supplements, but the first time I had smoked too much weed so I didn't really remember anything, though I did wake up feeling amazing. This time the dopamine boost seemed especially significant to me. A couple of the times when I woke up I felt that my heart rate was slightly increased and my hands felt "tight", like they can from good MDMA. I also felt a bit of euphoria. Even though I smoked some weed yesterday too and that may have distorted my recall a bit, I'm thinking about bringing it down a notch for tonight to see what the difference is. It almost feels like I might be pushing this aspect a little too far, and maybe I should swap out a little dopamine boosting for some acetylcholine action instead. I suppose we'll see.

Supplement Dose: 10 mg Melatonin, 50 mg Zinc, 250 mg Choline, 100 mg Vitamin B6

#1 - Hyperdimensional Tentacled Alien Reality Factory [Non-Lucid]

This dream was fairly long if I remember correctly, but as it was early in the night and has a significant ending I've forgotten much of the beginning. My old friend D and I were back at our middle school, though we were still our same ages as now and didn't seem to think much of it. We got in my car, which was parked right in front of the school (in the parking lot), and we drove probably less than 100 feet, parked in a different spot, and got out and started walking back to my house instead. The park in between the school and my house seemed odd; the layouts of everything were arranged incorrectly and there was a ridiculous amount of very confusing construction going on. It seemed that in every direction there were lines of constantly moving shapes and out-of-place colors and textures (which is kind of hard to describe). The trees in the forest also took a very different path than they actually do. Of course none of this tipped me off to anything, I just turned to D and said something along the lines of "Wait, why are we walking? We could just go back to the car and drive there." We went back and got in and slowly got on the road in line with the other constantly-moving vehicles, though we had to drive on the sidewalk over lots of construction to do it, and we became part of the Escheresque conveyer belt just like everything else. As we approached the area where there was normally a bridge that crosses through the foresty part of the park, instead we were carried (because the road dropped, so we were more like floating now but it was more of a telekinetic pulling sensation) through what I can really only describe as some kind of yellowish-beige hyperdimensional caverns that also appeared to be some sort of fantasy town filled with enormous (like, their heads were bigger than my car) tentacled but vaguely humanoid alien monsters that emitted an aura of being some kind of hyperspatial entities with various astral powers. As we were pulled further into this it became clear that all of this was actually just part of a gigantic plane of perception that existed as a singular object which was simply modifying its own structure but was still just one thing.... And then my recall fades out and soon I woke up. X)

#2 - New Phantasy Star Dungeons [Non-Lucid]

I was hanging out with N, R, and J, and R and J had been playing Phantasy Star Universe apparently and N was showing me how we could use our PSPs to connect our Phantasy Star Online (which is not even a PSP game) files to their Universe files and together we could all play on brand new maps, including an insanely detailed forest where we fought a boss that I can't remember now, and sort of a Star Ocean-like medieval town that was in a circular shape and caved in to a sewage drain in the middle where we battled some kind huge red robot monster that was designed to have these really curvy claws and body structures.... Also hard to describe, but I thought it looked cool. >w< However, R and J had passed out for most of it, and N was slipping in and out of consciousness, so for the most part it was either him and I or just me playing. Near the end, N commented about how we need to "slow down on the rum" for some reason, but then I woke up.

Dream Fragment - I don't think this dream ever fully formed, it really was a legitimate framgent. What I do remember is that I'm pretty sure Linkzelda was there and we were talking about schizophrenia, and I vaguely recall either putting on or already wearing a two-piece bathing suit that releases dopamine, which sounds insanely awesome. XD

#3 - Karaoke Game [Non-Lucid]

My cousin K and some friend of hers had left a karaoke game at my house and I played it with her friend since K had already left I suppose, but I didn't really know any of the few songs they had already unlocked so I wasn't doing very well. Later the girl just kind of vanished and I went to turn off the game, originally thinking it was in my GameCube but then realizing that it actually had its own system set up next to it. I looked through the menus a bit more and noticed that it was a Disney game and the characters were all kids and moms. I specifically remember seeing a little boy based on Mickey and a tall, completely black-and-shiny-skinned voluptuous woman based on Minnie. o.o I turned the game off and wandered into the kitchen and started getting really nauseous for some reason. I looked at the clock and noticed that it was almost 11:30 AM, and I thought to myself that it must be because of all the dream aids I took. () I went to grab a cookie to eat to try to make the nausea pass, but then I woke up, thankfully not nauseous for real.

Spoiler for Reflections:

Well, this was an interesting night. First of all, all of the dreams were extremely vivid, even the fragment as much as it possibly could be. There were multiple times throughout them where I had to read things off of various surfaces and it was all 100% clear and legible. Background details such as the placement of objects in my house were also highly accurate, and even included things like the container full of cookies that were only added to the environment within the last couple of days, and the GameCube in the living room that I've only used like once since moving it out there recently. As for the purpose of the experiment.... Are my dreams subconsciously forming the way I want them to? Yes, I would say so. (Especially the bathing suit that releases dopamine, ohmygod yes. ) There was definitely more of an alien quality to them, particularly the first two, and the way reality was pieced together in basically all of them matches ways that I would want to influence them (it's kind of hard put into words how, though). The first one was just amazing, it feels like it's been forever since I had a dream like that.... Take me back to the factory, oh magical tentacled overlords!

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Supplement Dose: 10 mg Melatonin, 50 mg Zinc

Spoiler for Why I Took These Supplements:

I've decided to start a new experimental regimen. I've been doing a lot of thinking about the connections between hallucinogens and dreaming, especially after doing a lot of research and testing with menthol, and what it's really brought me to is the relationship between dopamine and prolactin. As far as I can tell, dopamine is like the chemical of the subconscious.... It connects us to our thoughts and desires, brings our imaginations to life. Prolactin, on the other hand, controls how much desire we actually have, and I mean that on a rather deep, subconscious level. Dopamine and prolactin are normally inversely correlated, but they can both be active at the same time. My theory was that having both dopamine and prolactin going would make for a more general enhancement of a dream or hallucinatory experience, but it would also make them rather wild and uncontrollable, or at the very least impulsive. Dopamine, however, while it is very impulsive in its own right, would allow for an experience that more naturally formed around our desires when not inhibited by prolactin.

For example, I recently decided to do research into the pro- or anti-prolactinergic effects of various psychedelics. The well-known ones that I've experimented with that I was able to find information on include DMT, psilocin (from mushrooms), and LSD. DMT and psilocin each give me trips that are totally uncontrollable, and often are alien and bizarre. Psilocin gives me me a considerably more "connected" trip than DMT, and is often very sexual and shows me amazing visions that do reflect my subconscious, but overall it's more like I'm going along for the ride than anything. LSD is a totally different story. Whenever I'm on LSD, reality forms to my desires without me even having to do anything; the world simply bends and twists until it's reshaped itself to explore my every fantasy. It's not a conscious method of control like using powers in a lucid dream, it works on the subconscious level in the sense that the dream-like state itself is formed in exactly the way that you would form it if you were doing it manually, and since it's just happening for you and your subconscious is creating it it's even better than you could possibly create with your conscious mind. Unsurprisingly (to me, anyway), DMT and psilocin increase prolactin levels, while LSD decreases them.

So how does this apply to the supplements? Well, I got to thinking.... Menthol raises prolactin levels and potentiates D2 responses. This is why I believe it creates some of the same connection to desires as dopamine (like the sexual effects), but it also makes them more sensual than fiendish, and it adds lots of visual effects like RobStar commonly mentions. It also definitely does make me more impulsive while lucid, and there's certainly nothing wrong with this; the "pure" sexual feeling is one I've already grown quite fond of. However, I still have the desire to test my theories further and see what a high-dopamine/low-prolactin state of dreaming would be like. This is difficult to do normally.... Drugs that increase prolactin tend to increase REM (like menthol), whereas drugs that increase dopamine tend to decrease REM. However, that doesn't mean there's not a way around it. The plus side is that increased dopaminergic activity itself will decrease prolactin levels if unopposed, so all that's really required is to find a way to raise dopamine levels and increase REM at the same time.

That's where the supplements come in. Melatonin directly opposes the effects of dopamine, particularly at D2, to suppress REM and induce non-REM sleep. Therefore, the REM rebound effect it creates later is the result of a direct increase in the dopaminergic activity of dreams to make up for lost time. So that's how that works. Zinc is another cool one, I think. Zinc is an NMDA antagonist, and this alone may add something to it but it's not my main goal; however, it does mean that chronic use of zinc will upregulate D2 receptors, and that should make for more enhanced dreaming overall. In addition, zinc appears to be a positive allosteric modulator of dopamine receptors, especially D1 and D2. This means that it doesn't actually provide any effects by itself and will not create a dopaminergic response (i.e., it won't wake you up), but it will enhance the ability of agonists at the receptor such as dopamine to create their response. So in other words, it makes the dopamine at those receptors more effective. It's also known to decrease prolactin levels with continued use. Together, I believe these two supplements, especially in chronic use, may be able to give me the kinds of effects I'm looking for. I'm also planning to add new ones to the stack to increase the effect, such as vitamin B6 to increase the production of dopamine where the brain needs it, and vitamin E to further reduce prolactin levels. I'm also considering going on the no fap challenge during this (which is why I've listed the entry as "Day 0", as I'm already unable to officially start today) so that my dopamine receptors become more sensitive and my daily prolactin levels drop. Hopefully, this will turn out to be a very successful endeavor and give me dreams that are more tailored to my desires without me even having to intervene!

#1 - Latex And Superpowers [Non-Lucid]

There was a lot going in this dream leading up to this point, but where my memory really comes in was at a cafeteria on a college campus. I was really late for lunch so even though I looked around a bit I didn't really get to eat anything. At one point I went and waited by a doorway for M who was apparently on the other side of the wall but being held up by something, and it randomly occurred to me that I was wearing something like this:

Though, I can't remember if it was those colors exactly; I didn't pay much attention to myself. Two other girls walked up also wearing latex outfits and heels and I recognized them as more friends of M. Eventually the three of us decided to go see what was taking M so long and "get her out of trouble". (I wrote that in my notes, followed by "(they thought she was too young)", but I'm not exactly sure what it means now.) After a short talk I guess I forgot about M, and my friend J walked up and tried to kiss me on the cheek, which really weirded me out considering that it was coming from him. Our mutual friend S who was a grade below us in school was there too, and she claimed that she decided to get "happy and drunk". I randomly jumped up on her back so she was giving me a piggyback ride, and I told her that with me there we'd be able to phase through walls so she didn't have to worry about that. We started walking through walls randomly and talking about college, but around that time the dream was starting to become unstable, and soon I woke up.

Visualization came extremely easily after this dream. I probably could've done a WILD if I wanted to, but I was sort of focused on something when I woke up.

#2 - The Amazing Future Smeargle [Non-Lucid]

This entire dream took place in third-person, and thus a lot of it is hard to recall now. I had the feeling that I was playing some new Pokémon game, but it was just that the screen was taking up my entire perception. Essentially, the plot was about some insanely powerful Smeargle who was completely dominating all of the Pokémon in the world in the future, and so the legendary beasts sent it back in time to get rid of it, but as a result others followed it to continue trying to beat it while certain organizations were trying to capture it for themselves. By this point in the game I already had it on my team, along with a few other fully-trained Pokémon, but I can't really remember what they were now (but I do remember something about fighting the legendary beasts). The Smeargle really was kicking ass; I'm pretty sure its moves were Fire Blast, SolarBeam, I want to say maybe Earthquake, and something else I don't quite recall now.... A terrible spread, but it was doing pretty well in-game. X) Not long after a battle ended, I woke up.

Also, thanks for the idea for this, RobStar. It's going to come in handy.

Spoiler for Preliminary Reflections:

Alright, so day 0.... The first dream interests me the most, though the second one is worth noting too. I haven't really had third-person dreams of that caliber in a while now, and I have to wonder if that was related to increased D2 activity. Melatonin has definitely given me some OBE-like dreams before. But, like I said, it's the first dream that I find really significant. First of all, this is the second time recently where I've felt that consequences weren't quite so important and just jumped on someone's back. However, in the first one I was trying to be playful, even if I was doing so in sort of an odd way, and I had reason to believe that nothing mattered because I was "back in time". In this one I just totally didn't care at all, and I knew that we'd be able to phase through walls easily. The rules of reality definitely didn't apply to me in this dream, and I was aware of it somehow. At no point did I become lucid, at least not fully if this counts at all. It was more of a... "this is my reality" type of feeling. Furthermore, there's the matter of the latex outfits.... It's entirely possible that this is just incubation from the sexy hawt females thread, but nothing of that sort has ever really happened to me before. I can say for sure that the incidence of myself and other girls wearing those outfits increasing definitely correlates with what I would expect from increased dopamine and decreased prolactin (and it in fact extremely accurately reflects some of my LSD experiences ).

So, of course, this is only the very first trial, and it's far too early to say anything yet. However, those are my current thoughts. I can't wait to see what kind of dreams I have tonight!

Today I experienced my first Celebrity dream. the dream starts with myself waiting for someone to pick me up at a place i have no idea of. A black car pulls up (could have been a Toyota, i dream of those a lot) and what do you know Chris Brown awaits me in the car! i approach him as if him and i were good friends. I remember my first reaction was "wow this is your car?" (I remember the interior was very base, silver and black). Judging by the look on his face he didn't take the comment so well. I guess it is because he is a celebrity, and he was in such a basic car---most celebs would pull up in a lambo or something but him in a basic black car. He proceeded to tell me that the music Business is hard. The only thing that he enjoyed was "the Women and the Fame", but everything else he hated...I found that very strange of him to explain that to me. I remember also hoping that he didn't take my comment of his car the wrong way...I actually thought it was a nice car.

Me and Chris were going on a rode trip, we were on our way to L.A. I remember being on the freeway---everything seemed so real. The conversations we held were long and detailed, the signs on the free way were very vivid (the one I remember in particular read Stockton). Me and Chris Discussed my career---i want to launch my own clothing line, and i wanted Chris to sport my line to get it noticed.

The difficulties about starting a clothing line is actually coming up with pieces to distribute to the people. I have noticed in my dreams that it is very easy for my mind to come up with concepts for my clothing line! I have seen this many times in other dreams, but they are just so hard to remember in reality. My reason to achieve lucidity is to be able to bring the clothing my mind comes up with in my dreams, and make them a reality!

Anyways in this dream i pulled out a shirt that my mind created for my clothing line. Since i have been recording my dreams it has been easier for me to remember the piece. It was a white shirt with a sad bear imprinted in the middle(the name of my clothing line is half face: heart break teddy bear). the bear was floating in the air holding on to two balloons that ascended him higher into the sky. he wore a gray suit and a red bow tie. I remember showing this to Chris explaining the concept of the line, and why i chose this.

Suddenly we came to a stop; we had made it to "L.A." we pulled up in the driveway of a beige house---the garage door was a typical white, and dark red bricks were laid triangularly across the roof. The place looked like your typical suburban house.

Me and Chris entered this house to find two of his "managers" awaiting us. One was a white man wearing a suit with dark brown hair. the other was a woman who wore a ladies suit with a business skirt, and she was a dirty blonde.

The dream quickly changed at that instant. Now The man, the woman, and I were hanging dearly for our lives from a mountain. The detail of the mountain was so vivid. The mountain resembled a waffle cone ( I know weird). It was dark brown, and made those little diamonds that a waffle cone made. I remember looking down and there was just nothing but darkness! I start to since that frightened felling of being on a roller coaster just when it about to plunge downn.

Where the hell is Chris Brown when this is going on

Then There was a crack (note Waffle cones Break easily). The dirty blonde has soon met her death. The waffle cone broke, and she fell into the darkness.

then i wake up...the funny affects of Melatonin

Allahu Ekbar

Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

[Note: This was my first time taking melatonin. I took a 3mg pill before I went to bed. I'm on a trip, and my hosts offered it to me to help me get over jet lag. I also tried to concentrate on lucid dreaming more than I had been lately, as I was falling asleep. One or both of those things worked.]

I'm walking along the right-hand side of a broad, wide street, passing several marching bands as they march past in the opposite direction, one after another.

I'm in a classroom at a school that looks a lot like my old elementary school. There are a lot of other people my age there. A bunch of us start sitting down in a semicircle with our musical instruments; we're about to play an impromptu band concert. TM [a real-life friend and roommate who I only met within the last six months] is one of the people participating in the concert, but it's obvious that she doesn't know how to line up for one correctly. I yell at her: “[TM]! You have to sit so that you're spaced evenly! That's the done thing in music!”

The band starts playing “The Star-Spangled Banner.” The memory of how to play it comes flooding back into my mind from high school. [This is a real memory. It was one of the songs I had to memorize how to play for football games.] I'm surprised and pleased to find that I can still play it. As we're playing, though, the other members of the band lose interest, stop playing, and wander out of the room, leaving me playing my clarinet all alone.

When I get to a stopping place, I stop playing and leave the room in the company of a female teacher. We walk around the western edge of campus and come to the entrance of another classroom, where we stop and talk to a male teacher. Somewhere around this point, I realize that I'm dreaming. [I don't remember the specific moment it happened, but I know I've had at least one other dream featuring this version of my old elementary-school campus before.]

In the conversation with the male teacher, I ask him how old I am right now: “Am I eleven, the age I was when I started playing the clarinet; fourteen, the age I was when I graduated from junior high school; eighteen, the age I was when I graduated from high school; or twenty-six, the age I am right now in the real world?” I mention the real world specifically to see whether he'll pick up on the implication that the world we're in right now isn't real, and how he'll react.

“There is no real world involved in this discussion!” the male teacher exclaims.

I decide not to pursue that topic any further, because it's obvious that I'm not going to be able to convince him that this is a dream.

So I couldn't fall asleep so I took Melatonin for the first time in a couple months (10mg) So has expected I had a pretty odd dream.

It started out with me going to a party at a friend's house. My grandma takes me and I get there to find my friend's garage door open and four guys between around the age 18 and 19. There are two couches, a lawn chair and recliner. Two are sitting in on one of the couches and the other two are in the lawn chair and recliner. I don't know any of these people. I walk up a little unsure until one says, "You here for the party?" I nod. They all look quite chilaxed. The same guy says "Well come right in, your a bit early. My grandma looks them over and isn't sure if she should let me stay but I say it's cool and I stay. She drives off and I flop down on the couch no one is using. One of the guys hits a button and the garage door closes. We sit there for a second and I say "So...when is every going to get here." A guy shrugs. Another says "Not sure IF there coming.." Silence... I'm kind of getting that,'I'm in a garage alone with four guys' feeling I simple say to no one particular "oh.." Silence... I then ask were my friend is (after all this is his house and I haven't seen him yet) One of the guys looks around and says "You known? I don't really know where he is." Silence...

One of the guys turns and pulls the smallest of four rubber balls off a shelf behind him. He tosses it to me. It looks like a "Sky Ball" Only without the words written on it and it is simple clear rather than a color. It looks just like your ordinary bouncy ball, about the size of a real Sky Ball. The guy who through it says something that throws me off for a second. He says, "Lick it." I give a reasonable response "What now?" He gives me a and says "Go on I dare you. You won't be disappointed." I look at the other guys and they all have this 'trust me' smile going on. I reply "Why would I lick a bouncy ball?" The guy who gave it to me laughs. Not in a evil way but more in a 'that's a funny question' way. "It will do something cool. So go on and lick it. I dare you." If you know me then you know that I rarely turn down a dare (Given I most likely would not take up a dare I didn't fully understand it and it was given by a stranger but hey, dream logic never makes sense) I think it over for a moment and say, laughing nervously " I'm going to lick this and nothings going to happen and you guys are going to laugh it out right?" They all just keep smiling. Ok then, I think to myself, whats the worst that can happen. Then I licked the ball.

Nothing happened. A laughed and threw the ball back to the guy. "oh very funny" I sit there for a moment. No ones laughing just sitting there smiling at me. I start to say something and that's when the world went insane. I felt like I had just exploded. Everything got dark and I got bad tunnel vision. What I could see was blurry. I felt like I was floating there space completely weightless. Sound was numb, if that makes any sense. I look around in confusion and everything moves in slow motion. I fall back on the couch and lay down. I have no idea way is going on. I look over at the guys and there laughing. Have you ever seen a movie where the main character gets drugged or comes near fainting and everything becomes all echo like and sound weird. There laughing was like that. I got really REALLY happy and started laughing myself. I started seeing colors going insane and flashes of images like fields and waterfalls. Then it all stopped at once.

The whole thing happened super fast and then I was completely alert. I snapped up. The guys where in a conversation or something but they all stopped mid-sentence and looked over at me. With a highly confused look I say "What...What just happened?" There's a pause for a moment with plank faces then every one laughed. The guy that gave me the ball then says"Ya sorry about that maybe I should have given you a weaker dose, that lasted longer than I intended. " Again Confused I look down at my watch. 12:15pm. I got there at 7:30pm. I have been out of it for almost five hours. I jump to my feet "WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED!" I say this in a surprised rather than angry tone. He shrugs smiling and say " Just let you have some of the newest stuff, free I might add. It's great stuff right?" I sit down dazed. The guy drugged me and I was out for five hour but I wasn't mad. That in its self I found odd. But then I found myself wanting more. That was the most insane yet awesome thing I had ever been through. My only reply was "ya...." I was pretty tired at this point so I laid down and just let myself drift.

I dream change occurred at this point and I found myself somewhere else. I was inside some house that I believed to be my own. I went out side and saw there was lava come out of the ground. I'm like "Oh shit..." I turn and get in a car that won't start so I start running. I hop a fence into the woods on my neighbors land. I'm running though the woods and trees are catching fire and lava is coming my way. I'm running as fast as I can and I come to a high ground were the lava can't go. I go up it and wait. Then I see a man in a really old car, had to be like one of the first cars ever or something. He just trugs on past me and I'm just "What the?" So the lava is going and surrounding me and it turns dark and starts raining.

Dream change

I'm standing waiting for a train with a man in old fashion clothes and top hat with a umbrella is standing beside me. It's still raining. Then I see a scrappy looking kid holding his hand. He turns to me and says "You can't let anything happen to him. He is your responsibility now. I'll get you on the train." The train comes but goes pass us. He shoves the kid in my arms and grabs me and we chase the train. He pulls open a side car's door and shoves me and the kid in. "GOOD LUCK!" he says as the train leaves him in the distance.
After a long time the train stops and first thing after we get off, a weird human sized bird dressed in clothes runs up and takes the kid. I follow the bird to a orphanage. I go inside and try to get the kid back but they say I'm not old enough I adopt. I grab him and run. They chase us through the town which bares looks like a town in mexico. The way it's structured and how there is a lot of sand and it's hot. We run and make it away.

The last thing I remember is handing the kid over to his rightful parents, i don't remember the events that led up to this though.

So ya that was my long and highly odd dream induced most likely from melatonin. mmmmmmmmm..........

Took some melatonin last night. Just 2mg on if. Had amazing dreaming this morning. I had a fantasticly long and vivid dream. Things i'm proud of that dream for is being able to know where i was sleeping while asleep. Being able to know what time i was supposed to wake up. And naming off all but one in my gaming collection. Anyway here are some fragments.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-5

Brother hands me a blunt. I don't take it right and he gets mad. I get it a little later and cops drive in front of us. They don't notice the blunt and just keep going to do something.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-5

A shark is attacking me. This is related to some sort of video game, but its like a nightmare. Sharks terrify me.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-5

I'm in a video game world. Its a top down rpg i'm pretty sure of. Just general odd things happen. I don't remember much from it but it was crazy fun.

Lucidity-8
Vividness-9

I wake up in my bed. I roll over and start thinking about things. Just random thoughts on what i have to do today, where i have to go, and general daily things. I remember to do a RC in case of FA. No this can't be. This is way too realistic. I get up and look over at the clock. It says its 9:30. I think, "It can't be 9:30, i set it for 7:00". I stare intently at it and the room goes black. I think oh crap i just left the dream. But then i bump into something in the room. I'm still in there.
I go to my laptop. I open it up, type in something i can't remember, and it takes me to funnyjunk.com. I look at some pictures thinking that dream funnyjunk would be great, but its just a bunch of reposted things that suck. I get off of it and walk out the room. I see my golf clubs. I see my moms boyfriend. I think this is a dream, i might as well hurt something while i'm here. I grab a golf club and hit him a few times. But he is a big guy and manages to pin me. Some stupid shit goes on about my ps3, talking about who can play it and stuff. I get let go and walk into my room.
I think why can't i use any powers. I look at the wall and think lightening with my hand extended. Nothing. I keep saying, if i know it will happen it will happen. Still nothing. I think maybe i need to charge myself with some sort of dream energy. I grab a small metal object, open up a wall socket, and stab the metal piece in there. I feel some shock, but nothing painful. I try blasting lightening again. But it still won't work. Damnit i say.
Dream Skip
Me, A DC that i know is supposed to be a friend, and his girlfriend are in an unknown location. Someone comes up and hits his girlfriend. He confronts the person that hit her, but something stops him. Likely the army of people that are with the guy that hit her. I take his back and we start attacking. He grabs a firehose and tells me to touch the end. I grab the end for a second, and fire starts spewing from the hose. I then start to swing the hose around in circular paterns attacking everyone around me. I'm careful not to hit the girl or my friend. People just burnst into flame when it hits them. After a few seconds none of the enemies are left.
Dream Skip
We are going home from the trip. A little kid is driving a very big monster truck as a toy. I think wow this has been an awesome dream. Then wake up due to my alarm that went off at 7:00.

Didn't write any notes but have some recall from memory. Before bed, a hot bath and 3mg melatonin.

Pizza Craving Fragment
I am in the Daisetta house. It's very early morning and everyone is still asleep. I am craving pizza. I get up and find 3 odd pieces of pizza, all different kinds and brands. I stick all three in the microwave, being careful not to make any noise.

College Library, Lame Pick-Up
Method DILD (spontaneous)
Lucidity D
Vividness C
Control C
I'm in a nice building with marble walls and floors. I want to find the bathroom. I'm in a lobby, waiting for the elevator to take me to the ground floor where I believe there is a bathroom. There's a security guard here in the lobby. A man in a wheelchair comes out of a room and moves toward the elevator. The security guard says something really rude to this man about not taking the stairs because he is in a wheelchair.

I get on the elevator and there are a few other DCs in there. I ride it up and down a few floors. It never stops at the floor I want it too. Then some young DC hits the sideways button and the elevator goes sideways. Frustrated, I get off. I seem to have forgotten about the bathroom. Now the building I am in seems more like an old college library. The walls are wood-paneled and the lights are dim. There are many DCs here who look about the age of college students. There's a line of people at a customer service desk. At the desk is an old librarian lady who points me out and says "Excuse me, have you been helped?" I don't want to talk to her so I just walk away toward a wide stairway. I overhear a conversation between two girls. They are trying to decide on a book that interests them to read.

I walk up the stairs and into a big room full of bookcases. The walls are all full-length windows so the whole room is lit by the afternoon sunlight. It's a pretty cool looking room. There are a few DCs sitting quietly at tables around the room. In one corner is a bed. So I lay down to sleep. Maybe I have a false awakening. The next thing I know, a doctor and a nurse are standing over me. The doctor is a middle-aged balding man with a while lab coat. He asks "Have you been treated? What is the problem?" I say there's nothing wrong and I just wanted to sleep. Then then start tucking in my blankets. I close my eyes again and maybe have another false awakening.

When I open my eyes, I'm in the same library but the doctor is gone. Very close to my bed is a table with some DCs, studying I suppose. Then there is a commotion as people rush to one of the windows. I get up and look too. Out the window, I see that I'm on about the third floor, looking down over the center square of a college campus. There's a grassy lawn and some walkways and more brick buildings. There are lots of DCs walking every which way. The people who rushed to the window are pointing out "The Fat Man" who is a really fat guy known throughout campus. I see him and he's quite obese but not as fat as I expected.

Unimpressed, I step back from the window and think for a moment, starting to become pre-lucid. I have this little dialog with myself: Hmm, what should I do now? I feel like having sex. If I were dreaming, I could have sex with anyone with no consequences. So I have to find out if I am dreaming. I nose-plug RC and confirm I am dreaming. So now I'm lucid but don't stop to stabilize or remember my goals.

I run down the stairway and out the building into the square. I approach the first girl I see. She is bonde and about 18 years old. She's not super attractive but I'm not choosy at this point. I grab her hand and start leading her off to the left. "Do you like to party?" I ask (what a stupid line...). She says something to the effect "Umm, yeah I guess." I'm leading toward another building. I say "We're going to this party and all my friends are there and you'll have so much fun and meet some cool people." Just before we reach the building, she stops and pulls her hand back. She says she changed her mind and doesn't want to go with me. I am disappointed. Dream ends.

8/17/10 – [Choline] [Melatonin] [Tension Tamer] I didn’t get to bed until 2:15AM, so my WBTB was at about 7:30. I initially had a lot of trouble going to sleep and keeping still, until I decided to listen to some binaural beats. I laid down on my back with my arms close to my body, like the fetal position. I laid there for a while listening to the beats with no effect, for about 20 minutes. Then I fell asleep.
I remember a short dream where I was playing some kind of video game with a zombie alien. I had “3 bronze medals” on that particular level, and I had a conversation with one of my close friends on Steam while playing it. I remember telling him I just unlocked a new character and I could “swing” with him, instead of using a gun. Then the dream ended and I presumably went into a DEILD from there.
All I remember is darkness, then I realized I was in SP, making me come to the realization I was dreaming. I could feel it, and my dream was affected by the things happening in the real world. It felt like there cold boney hands grabbing my hands as I lay in blackness. I was amazed by how easily I could stay calm and reverse my thoughts. I thought of the hands as a bar support for a roller coaster, then all of a sudden I was riding front seat in a wooden roller coaster! I rode for about 10 seconds before I heard the ocean sounds from the binaural beats, which I attributed to the sound of wind, and then the roller coaster was in mid air, very high up.
My little dachshund sleeps next to me in bed and frequently kicks his feet when he sleeps. At this point, his legs kicked my arm and got ‘caught’ on my bicep. I felt this in the dream and knew what it was from instantly. It felt very particular. The roller coaster seemed to disappear and I was falling through the air. I couldn’t do anything at that point. I was just freefalling in the middle of a blank sky. It was intense. I soon started flying by numbers that count down, starting with 100. I assume this was counting down to the ocean or ground.

I didn’t stay long enough to find out as I woke up at about 30. Crazy.

1:30am - finished one cup of Calea tea and went to bed
2:30am - still wide awake, take ~2mg melatonin
3:30am - still awake, lying still and trying to sleep
4:30am - still awake, lying still and trying to sleep
4:45am - move to couch, hoping to sleep more easily there
5:30am - still awake, get up and read, make a cup of catnip tea hoping for sedative effect
5:45am - sun is rising, drinking catnip tea, wondering if it will be possible to sleep yet
6:15am - go back to bed, cat takes an interest in my catnip breath, kneads my pillow, cute but whiskers tickle
6:20am - cat lies on top of me as I lay on my left side, comfortable and obliging me to be still
6:30am - around here I go to sleep at last
7:15am - wake up and recall two dreams, clarity good, content and recall average
7:16am - focus on remembering the dreams for later, need sleep too much to write them now
7:17am - carefully extricate myself from cat and blankets and visit bathroom
7:18am - discover cat is now somehow hogging entire pile of sheets, blankets and pillows
7:19am - grab another comforter for myself and try to go back to sleep
11:15am - wake terminally and write down the previous two dreams in bedside journal
11:20am - as I'm writing, suddenly recall two more dreams I had during second sleep period

Conclusion: Results negligible apart from the sleeplessness, since I normally remember multiple dreams when keeping an active journal.