side notes

Thursday 11/24 - no supplements, no recall

Friday 11/25 - bed at 1am, regular DR 2:42am - I was flying from my balcony, can't recall more

Took GM at 4:17am- no change in recall or vividity or anything

dream at 8:23 am - my cat was attacked by a dog, remembered more but didn't write it down right away
Another dream - I was a babysitter in Thailand

Saturday 11/26 Bed at 11:50pm, no supplements
DR at 2:05 am - GTA video game - just a feeling
4:17am - somebody's family was visiting, it was a pain in the a**.
Then I'm at the ocean. Kid is in a water and i ask him what does he see. I look under water and there is a lots of marine life and a big, fast shark. I yell at him to get out. By now the ocean changed into shape of a swimming pool, I'm sitting on the edge, but the water is still ocean. Shark had changed into a manatee. He is nor really nice. First he is intimidating us by putting his snout right in our faces. i want to let him know that we like him but he is not amused, turnes his back and poops on us.

11/26/11
Notes

So I went to bed last night at about 11 and set three alarms at 3:50, 5:10, and 6:30 to try CrazyInSane's CAN-WILD technique. The first alarm at 3:50 woke me up, but I accidently jerked and ruined any chance at remaining in SP I couldn't fall back asleep until after 5, so I just cancelled my next alarm. Later in the morning I dreamt that I was messing with the alarm on the iPod I had been using. At first part of a song played, but then I shut it off because I knew it was too long for an automatically shutting off alarm. Then I played the chiming alarm I was supposed to be using. When I woke up around 7:30, I didn't remember hearing my 6:30 alarm, so now I think I actually heard my alarm inside the dream and it got incorporated into it instead of waking me up. Oh well, maybe I can mess around with the chiming volume and try to recognize it in my dream instead of it awakening me.

Non-lucid dream, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm in a big, fancy hotel. Some guy starts chasing me through the hotel. I try to get away from him by running up the stairs, further into the hotel. I discover that each floor of the hotel is really split into two sub-levels, with two short, parallel sets of stairs connecting the two sub-levels. There are completely separate, longer sets of stairs connecting the different levels. I realize that one can run all the way around each sub-level in a loop by going up and down the stairs. [ ] At some point while I'm running away, some other guy diverts me into an area off to the side from where I'm running, behind a door, and closes the door. This other guy is helping me hide from/escape from the first guy.

[I know exactly what this was all about. I'm pretty sure this dream was an expression of my anxiety over the fact that I haven't gotten my NaNoWriMo novel anywhere near finished.]

Bed at 12:40am. WBTB 3:28am-4:15am. Did Not take GM at WBTB. Language

I stayed up for WBTB, but realized, that I shouldn't have. I slept too short to have a long REM so the GalantaMind wouldn't have a good chance to work. (Although my very first LD was after only 2 hours of sleep). Went back to sleep with intent to take GM when I wake up next time.

When falling asleep, had some very pretty HH, that were presenting themselves as a vertically running movie strip. I said I like one of the images and then I really liked one and that one started to dominate the show. It was a globe I called planet of beautiful yellow-green color that was back-lit. It had very crisp and detailed scars like a ice moon.

Also, maybe 2 days ago I downloaded dodobirds program that plays a sound every few minutes and you can practice RCs, wakes you for WBTB and then plays a sound every couple of minutes so when in a dream you can realize, you are dreaming. I shut it down when I went to bed and as I'm falling asleep, I hear a "ding" and did an RC.

Dream before WBTB
It was a dream that had some LD elements in it and I woke up from it due to some noise just as I was opening my mouth to say "I'm dreaming".

I'm a little white plush/anime bunny with nice purple accents on my ears. How do I know? When I fly, I see myself from third persons perspective. So I'm looking at this bunny who I now it's me and I'm yelling fly! fly! and later teleport!, while my eyes are rapidly opening and closing. I have never teleported in my dreams before, so this is something new and I was about to become lucid.

I'm in a night club with a stage. Bartender walks from person to person showing them a card with metallic, pretty colors on a back and a photo on the front. She wants to know, if we know this girl with long dark hair. I whisper to her in Hungarian, that I do know her, she is in fact a girl who plays piano on this stage sometime.
Then I'm outside in a place that looks like out of tombraider video game. Stone ground with square opening in a middle, like a empty swimming pool without bottom. The bunny is flying out of there and I'm cheering him on fly! fly! When he comes out of there, I'm directing him to teleport to some tall greek looking columns. He is teleporting by sliding really fast an inch over the ground. Not bad for first teleporting try
Just now I realized, why bunny. Before bed I watched the LateLate Night Show and the guy had a bunny puppet.

Now I wake up and do a doomed WBTB. Wake up at 6:30 am and take the GalantaMind. Go straight back to bed. I start to feel it in about 20 minutes. Feel relaxed and pretty sleepy and feel the heaviness of my body a couple of times, but not able to pull it off.

Dream
I was back home in Slovakia. My two cats (that live with me in California) live there with my parents. Someone is responsible to take them to "day care". In the afternoon I go to the day care to pick up some kid. I bring him home and I ask "where are the cats". One is there, but the other one is not. They tell me they forgot to bring him back from daycare. So I go back to school and look for a cat. Its not there. I get back home and they say the cat is in the room. So it turns out, that my dad was suppose to take them to daycare in the morning, but one of them got away from him and got lost and returned home just before I got there and they were afraid to tell me. So I told to myself, that since I live in California now, I should take them with me.
(Realized why I dream of cats - when I do an RC because of a audio prompt, I look at my cats and tell them "guys, this could be a dream").

Resistance in my hometown
I don't know who we were fighting. We were organized militia in modern times. Had some bases underground (literally) and fought in trenches. When we were not fighting, we drove around in cars, looking for supplies. Help arrived - soldiers from another country (US?), but they just mostly observed. In general, very good feeling from the dream. We were the good guys. I like the feeling fighting for good cause gives me. I still remember it, although I had it more than 20 years ago.

Airplanes falling down
Had several of these all within a year or two.
- I'm standing at the bridge in my hometown and see a plane flying over, it's going to crash, feeling of inevitable danger.
- I'm at the end of the runway and airplane is about to crash while approaching me while trying to land.
- I'm at the airport in a huge modern city. Looking up at the beautiful airplanes. Suddenly I know, one is going to crash. it starts to make loops and maneuvers to recover, but it crashes anyway.

Defending my house
I'm standing at the end of the yellow hallway, just at the door to the kitchen, with weapons ready. Somebody is about to attack through the front door. There is more of us. We have long rifles. There is no shortage of weapons. Before fight I went to the basement and got some automatic weapons from cabinets. I was pleasantly surprised, had no idea, we had such a great stuff in a basement. When I asked to have my weapon changed for something better, they obliged. Again, good feeling from the dream. Now I just have to work on having enough ammo. I usually have only a few bullets and then i have to substitute with bread crumbs, pebbles, and whatever I get my hands on. That's frustrating. Dream is in full color, bright.

Low gravity for me
I love these dreams. It seams that for me, the gravity is much lower than for the others. So I can easily climb on the outside of tall buildings, where there are balconies. I just grab the railing on a balcony and propel myself to the next, just with help of arms, I don't really need to use my legs.
It works the same on the stairs. I can either jump down from top of the stairs, or in a tall stairwell, I grab a handrail and propel/lower myself. I loved doing this at School while amazing everybody.
I loved to exit my second story house this way - got on a balcony, climb to the outside and lower myself to the ground, or jump/fly to the street light and fly from there.

Hiding/escaping through a maze of corridors/doors
Also love these dreams. Someone in authority is looking for me/chasing. I'm in a place with lots of short hallways with lots of small rooms that have doors in every direction. I go from room to room, putting distance between me and whoever is giving chase. Good feeling from these dreams, I like to be chased, it's mostly a game for me and I always get away.

The end of the world
I have had a couple of these.
- I'm in California. Nice sunny day. Suddenly I look up and there are ICBM missiles with con trails flying very high up, slowly and quietly, from direction of the ocean towards the inland. I have a feeling of certain end. Try to make a phone call to my mom in Europe.
- This is more dark. It's war. I'm in a city darkened by smoke. Everything is burning. Buildings, puddles of water. I'm hiding in a bigger puddle of water, big as Olympic size swimming pool.

Mode of transportation
Sometimes when in a hurry and for some reason I'm not flying (it's a non-lucid, after all), this is what I do:
I lay down and hover few inches off the ground and propel myself with my hands touching the ground and kicking off the ground with my feet, as if my body was a surfboard and hands and legs like a surfers, when he lays on a board. I can go quite fast like this. I do it, when I need to hurry and running feels like going through molasses. When I tire of moving like this, I turn on my back and "swim" with my arms like you would butterfly in the water and kicking off the ground with my feet. Always happy to "air surf".

Okay it was me and my friend Keke I think. Not sure. We had these businesses and we decided to team up. Then the neighbors down the road yelled something about their sign being better or something so I went inside to make a sign. I don't think I ever did because the dream switched. I was hanging out with...um... let's call him Eli.
*cough cough* We were all at this beach/playground thing. I had my video camera with me. We were hanging out and stuff and then this person offered some other girl for us to give her a tour. I started to set off but realized that Eli and her wanted to go together without me. So yeah they went off and I was alone. I started looking at the videos. There was one of Eli but he looked a bit younger. Then I started writing in my journal and realized Eli would probably try to read it when he came back. So I looked around and found a fence where I could sit with my back to it so he couldn't see the words. I went over to it and noticed that the sand kind of formed a pitfall/dune thing by it so I couldn't sit there. A group of girls and my friend Caleb came over and checked it out too. I somehow found myself in a hallway at school and sat on a bench and wrote there instead for a bit. Then I saw Eli coming and quickly decided to run for it and avoid him.

My review:
Okay so the business thing was fun. I'm not sure if it was Keke or someone else though. And I REALLY wish I could remember the name we'd come up with because it was cool. As far as hanging out with "Eli" if u haven't noticed he's kind of my crush (IT'S NOT AN OBSESSION!... ...OKAY MAYBE IT IS I DON'T CARE!) and I will never date him in real life because he's out of my league. So just a warning; if you plan on reading my dreams where my subconcious has all the control and I can not help if he's in the dream or not; he's gonna be in this a lot. Heck, maybe if I get bored I'll turn him into a "character" and make him do reviews too. Idk. So yeah long story short I barely ever talk to him, more this year than ever before, and I have no chance with him in this world. Last thing strange about this dream. I was trying to avoid him? Jeez, I know that doesn't work by now! Seriously.

Bye dudes and chicks, sorry you had to live through my teenage dreams (QUOTE! )

Okay so some random people were chasing me. I wound up at my neighbor's house. I had this mini spaceship thing that was supposed to help me get away but some parts were missing. I found them near my neighbor's house. But I accidentally used up all the power/gas or whatever. So I had to dodge balls of green light bullet things that the people chasing me shot at me. I convinced one of the people to help me out and then there was some really random fashion thing I forget a lot of details about. Blue stuff I remember. I finally got the mini spaceship thing to work but I accidentally hit this tree, and then the tree blew up. The tree next to it started coming to life and I made a run for it. I hid from it and somehow made a bet that it couldn't find me before sundown or something, and if I won i'd get a new ship. I won and got in the ship which was normal sized. Then maybe the dream switched or I just forgot how I got there. I was in the theatre and the play had reached intermission. I had to help stall the thing so my friend Katy and I went and helped this girl on stage. We did some improv about a janitor, that sadly I forget details of.

My review:
First issue with this dream. What the heck how is that mini spaceship gonna do anything for me!? Seriously IT WAS LIKE A TOY! How could I escape with that!? And then what the heck did FASHION have to do with anything!? Besides, really, the only thing about fashion I know is "when in doubt wear red" and that's just a long story involving theatre, google, and my friend Tim. (just so people know I tend to do that a lot. Just say 'it's a long story' and then list some things invovled with it. It's just my thang ) Next thing, how the heck did my spaceship get fixed? I don't know. Do you know? No. Because if you knew and I didn't know the student would be teaching the teacher and a student to teach his teacher is presumptious and rude. QUOTE FACE: Back to the review. I hid from a tree...behind a tree. A different tree mind you; i'm not stupid. I was in a forest, where else would I hide? But still. Thank my dream that the tree I was hiding by didn't come to life too. That's a total Wizard of Oz moment. And when I won the spaceship appeared like, right in front of where I was hiding. Failure on the tree's part. I didn't even see it move really. I was hiding, but for all I know it didn't even look. On that note I don't even think I hid for more than half a minute. As far as the theatre stuff, that was coolio. The stage is my home...but since I don't literally live there does that make me homeless? ... nah. Never homeless in a tent! (lol jk)

So this was my first entry of my Journey! Hope you enjoyed it dudes and chicks!
~ Spotlight

Been having trouble writing dreams lately. I feel like I just don't want to move. Could also be due to my reading an unfinished and thoroughly depressing story, Charlie.

Took 50 mg of b complex and 250 mg of choline at bedtime at 1:30 am.

Had a few dreams but can't recall enough to write about. I was in SK, packing something in a bag...? I have a feeling dreams were long, but can't recall.

This time I took only 50 mg of B-complex just before bed at 11 pm, and took choline 250 mg at WBTB at 4:20am.

I stayed up only 10 minutes, just long enough to write in my DJ and take the choline. Tried to WILD for 1 1/2 hours, no luck. Tried to imagine the falling/sinking in bed feeling I got previously and it worked to certain degree. Felt like I'm falling through bed head first. Pretty cool feeling. But couldn't pull it off to the end.

Before WBTB, (so only on B6 and no choline) I had 2 pretty detailed dreams. After WBTB, I had some dreams, but was too tired to get up to write them down.

Dream 1.
My former classmates R mom had a heart episode. We were trying to figure out how come, since she only had heart problems from contact with roasted coffee. Then we found out, that the men she was taking care of (she is a nurse) who was munching on something out of his pocket while laying in hospital bed, was eating small pieces of roasted coffee. That men was one of the teachers from Harry Potter (long black hair, don't know his name, not a HP fan).

Dream 2.
I was on an airbase as a guest and i was watching some cool airplanes fly by. Then, the person who invited me there (r.d.anderson from Stargate movies) was landing his fighter jet and when I yelled out "look at the cools stuff", he crash-landed. He was ok, I don't think I caused the crash.
Then, I'm in a room on this base. Room is my childhood room from the house I grew up in. I'm putting on a cool air force uniform. Navy blue pants with yellow embroidered anchor on left pant, dark shirt, white belt and some small bag around my waste, that's making sound. I look in it what's making that sound and there is a small container with 4-5 bullets, they took out from r.d.
My dad walked by, and also r.d.'s aid and all were saying that I look cool in that uniform.

Fragments:
-I'm on some hillside fields. there are suppose to be lakes here, but they dried out. The shape of them reminds me of lakes I saw from an airplane when flying over Greenland IWL.
-somebody is visiting, mom is cooking, I'm trying on some clothes and putting on a tie

Day 2 of taking B-complex 100mg. 11/16

Took b-complex in the morning, bed at 11:45 pm. Had some dreams about taking Galantimine (I thinking about taking it when my order arrives). Dreams were not clear, nor vivid.

Day 3
B-complex at 2:45 pm. Bed past 1:30 am 11/17
I have a feeling a have dreamt about GTA (I played all day IWL). Not clear nor vivid.

Day 4 - 50 mg of b6, only half of what I took the days before
B-complex 1 hour before bed, Choline right before bed 11/18
remember more dreams and more details
I'm in Himalayas in a gift shop. Looking for a preticular gift shop, because I know I have been there on a previous trip and they had some great postcards but I didn't have time to buy them. So I want to buy them this time. They don't have them, so I want to buy tibetan or nepalese wooden bead necklace, but hey have only something really big. I want something simle. Finally find the gift shop with the postcards.
There is a vendor by whose accent I guess he is polish. But his wife speaks to me in slovak. Suddenly there is another friend of mine - former classmate.

The other night I was dreaming that I was at my house with my fiance and my son. UFO's had been being spotted all over the area and were abducting people. They were coming and leaving and then returning. Upon one of their returns I knew I was next. I started telling my fiance that we needed to run, now. Right then, a bright blue and white light shone through the door.

I started getting a telepathic message from them and they were telling me not to run, not to hide. I didn't listen, I took my son and started running outside towards this really big RV. When we got inside, there were other people there from the area and I got behind the wheel. There was this strange ball that was used to control the vehicle. Someone was trying to tell me how to use it but I was in such a hurry that I just started driving it. It was moving so fast and I had to use the ball to slow down. I ended up driving down this ditch and felt like I was just gliding above the road.

Woke up.

Had a dream the other night about an old house I used to live in when I was a little girl. I had walked by it and realized that I could go inside. It was really dark inside and I crawled in through the window. I started finding lots of things that we used to have and many of my toys from then. I found some cd's that were my sisters and soon realized that this house was connected to another one. There were toilets, sinks, and bathtubs appearing all over though. They were high-tech looking, and one toilet had a strange looking sink right next to it; it looked more like a fountain.

Can't really remember much else. Vivid, vivid dreams.

The most intense dream I have ever had. I'm losing it now. It was days, literally. School was ending and I was going to brmingham with Leo. I had to leave Kara behind and I was sad. I somehow realized it was a dream. Leo and Kara did too we just couldn't decide who's dream it was. Hours of conversation came through about who's dream it was. We knew each other but we didn't know how we knew each other. I knew and acted exactly how I did them them now. The thing about this lucid was that no matter how hard I tried I could not remember anything about my waking life or could wake up at all. I liked it a lot. The vividness was at the next level. At one point Kara and I saw the sun come out and we ran outside. It was beautiful. The sky was filled with colors I have never seen before. The sky was a magnificent painting. Even as I write this I feel different. Like I went through the most important journey of my life. This wasn't a normal lucid and I can't get over that. We tried so hard to remember waking life. Things would happen and we would laugh about who's dream it was. We all went to a club in a Vegas type setting. I left to the mall alone to walk around and think. It was 1 am and I wondered if I would ever wake up. I didn't care. I had Leo and Kara and that's all that mattered. Leo and I looked at each other and said we did it. I could see slight fear on his face. I had some fear too I don't know why. I would have thought I would be ecstatic. I day passed of us doing random things but they were so detailed so long. It's slipping me. I remember thoughts and feelings more. I remember thinking how detailed and long everything was and how beautiful and vivid it was. So much more than a lucid. It was a reality. A really good one. We had a time where the sun would go down. I didn't want it to. We all chanted and laughed as it slowly came up. It kept going down and we would chant it back up. There were sex scenes but those are slipping me now. I never slept I think. Kara and Leo did randomly. I just sat in thoughts. Trying to remember my old life. There were several walks alone. It seems as but a memory now but to me in the dream it was my life. I felt like I could come back to this life if I slept in the other dream but I couldn't sleep. Where I was was real and solid. When I was there this was fake. I will never forget this dream. Well I will and that's whats crazy about it.

Delted

Today I started taking B-100 complex with 100 mg of B1, B2, B3, B5, B6, and 100mcg B12 and B7.

I had three really long, really detailed and somewhat more vivid dreams. But didn't come even close to an LD. Dreams were so detailed, that I didn't even write down everything, because I felt like I could go writing forever.

Took B-complex around 2pm.
Went to bed at 10:30pm, woke up at 3am from dream #1. Went BTB at 3:40.

Dream 1.
I'm in Slovakia, talking to a friend somewhere outdoors, like in a field. There is more people around us, probably classmates. Teacher is telling us, that next day we are going by bus to either recite or sing for someone. We are at this time pioneers (in communist countries, these were kids in uniforms with red bandanas in shape of a triangle tied around necks). Our act should help to do or prevent something much bigger that is suppose to happen in Europe. I see a map of Europe, with some tall, skinny, black structures, that have something to do with energy. They need 1500 of us.

On a trip - we are on a field and we watch an old man flying by on his bicycle with wings. Looks like its a routine for him, he is commuting home from work. I have a feeling we are seeing future. Then, three more people fly higher up. I yell "Good luck" in English to a girl with purple hair.

- in a large building, like the Jedi Temple in Star Wars battlefront 2. I see couple of men of importance on top of stairs talking about some scheme, how stuff is not what it seems and I get a bad feeling, it's against us.

-I'm standing with a friend in a different building, next to the window. Walls are light green and white. We are on a 2 or 3 floor. Waiting for something. Somebody walks by and tells us, that the thing we wanted to do, we have to do it now. I know he is talking about escape. I grab my friend by shoulder and we ran. There will be like three "stages" we have to exit from to get out. I usually have good feeling and fun and I enjoy being chased, but not this time. There is something ominous about this place.

First "stage".
We have to get out of a rocky courtyard, that's in a back of a building.

Second "stage".
Mental institution. We get cornered by employees in white, it's the same building as the one where we were waiting by the window, light green walls and white tiles on the walls, chrome instruments. There is a black lady, I feel like I know her, either a classmate or an actress IRL. We cry to her, telling they will kill us if she doesn't let us go. She doesn't want to, but finally opens a door by pushing a button on an instrument panel. It's almost too late. We ran cautiously through corridors, trying to avoid a group of people, look like monks, that are walking in formation somewhere in corridors and they scare a living daylight out of me. We almost run into them but friend of mine notices them and we change direction.

"Stage" three.
Looks like a mining facility in Red Faction video game, especially the part, where the mining carts or a conveyor belt is up in the air transporting ore. We see one woman in white t-shirt on this broken up conveyor belt, trying to escape. Suddenly one cart turns on it's axes and she falls to her death. I feel like we are shown this as a warning.

Dream 2. Woke up from it at 5:33am.
I woke up after this dream but felt like I'll remember it when I wake up, so I didn;t write it down at night. I repeated some keywords to myself.

I'm in a room, like a modern tavern. Feels like I'm in a future or on another planet, some kind of a mining facility. This is a rec room for workers. There is a girl playing a game that looks like wheel on Price is Right on IRL TV. She spins and twice she gets a Ten and another Ten (in English).

Then I see in same fashion as Price is Right, big wheel with each "window" representing a dream. There is a picture and a title for a dream. I pick "Adventures of oil driller". I can read the title. It's in English.

Immediately I'm a patrol men in jeep at night in a city. Looks like a city I grow up in. Couple streets from us is someone disturbing peace. We pursue them. It's a group of kids on bicycles. We decide to arrest the ones in red shirts, because we could not arrest all of them. When we get there, most of them had calmed down, but three of them are still riding in a circle while being loud. I start to arrest one kid in red shirt, but my partner tells me to let him be and get the ones still on bikes. I made them pick up their mess - water bottles and lots of trash, papers.

Suddenly I'm standing outside the big arched gate. My partner is coming towards me. There is a big wind, that turns into black, swirling, not too tall tornado. I can feel it being strong. My partner doesn't see it, as it is coming from the side, from behind him. I yell at him "Tornado" in English, but he can't hear me.

Dream 3.
I worked as a babysitter for a new family. Nice young couple. They left for the evening and I watched over their kids. Kids are sleeping and I walk outside. I bump into a mailman. I don't even know, there is a mailbox, but there is a note, that I have delivery, but she didn't find me home. We laugh and she pulls out the delivery for me. She sais, someone had sent me money. $ 8864. We are both surprised at a large amount. She shows me a paper and I notice on it who is the sender. It's a woman from my previous job. The mailman is little reluctant to give me that large amount of money, but when I tell her what it's for - I see on a paper that it's for a website maintenance (in English, handwritten), she starts to give me the money. She gives me about $100. Some are in really old US banknotes - dark green, pretty looking, smaller than current bills. Some are in Slovak promissory notes, that are light blue and dark blue, like an old czechoslovak 20 KCS bill. This has a very nice picture of Bratislava castle on it. I have to go inside to get my documents so she can give me rest of the money. The youngest girls is still asleep, but two boys - one belongs to the family and his cousin, are watching TV. I want it in normal currency and she has no problem with it.

This family is suppose to come for a visit in Slovakia to the house my parents still live in IRL. So I'm looking out the window and see a car that looks like it's theirs - silver SUV. I want to put on jeans, but realize, I'm already wearing them. Suddenly there is a young woman with short hair standing in the door to the kitchen. It turns out, she is a family we have not seen in a long time, maybe never, and she now lives in Washington, DC. We had a conversation in Slovak, where she lives and that I live in LA. She was telling me something really fast, like instructions, and I tried to write it down, but in three big notebooks I could not find empty space. Then she went someplace on a bus and I asked her if she is coming back for a chat. Friend that was with her asked me which phone number to call me. I have a feeling that this dream had continued after I went back to sleep.

I'm not sure, if I have the energy for such a long and detailed dreams. But I'll give it another try. Will buy Choline today and take that too. Hoping for an LD tonight.