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6/29/2011.F.hs.paulasMissedRC
5:30 AM

... I'm in hs rushing between classes. I don't have time to smoke and I'm pissed.

Stairwells. Hitler? Secret books? Escaping by eating our way through a giant pancake?

Later, after waking up and trying to mild...

Paul and I are looking into a doorway, watching his mom (Paula) look at her hands to see if its a dream. Her hands are huge. Paul doesn't seem to care. The dream continues and I soon wake up.

I can't believe that I missed such an obvious sign...

The dream starts off with me walking through a field. There is a thick and heavy fog and I cannot even see the ground under my feet but I can feel it - it is very bumpy and unstable, like I am walking on frozen pillows or something, if that makes any sense. I am walking up a slight incline and the fog recedes a bit when I reach the top.

The unstable ground I am walking on is covered with thousands of bodies as far as the eye can see. There are so many bodies and they are piled on top of each other so high that I cannot see any natural ground at all. Most of the bodies are men in green or grey uniforms but there are also women and children laying about. Despite all of the dead bodies, many of which are in various states of decay, I don't remember smelling the rot around me.

In front of me is a small pond. There are bodies in the water but not as many as on the ground and the water is a dark reddish brown because it is filled with blood and rotting flesh. I walk past the pond and to the other side of the hill, but it is slow going because stepping across the mounds of bodies is difficult. The fog has lessend, but there are still bodies as far as the eye can see and I cannot get away from them no matter how far I go.

I was in the woods walking down a gravel road that had a few houses on it. It reminded me of where my sisters grandma lived and what I have always known as the "holler" I was with reece and his girlfriend of that time along with a few other people I don't know. I went off by myself for a while. There was a house at the top of the hill. I felt I shouldn't go there but did anyway. I went in and started cleaning. Reece and his gf came up to the window I was looking out of while doing dishes. They asked me to come with them so I did. We walked back down the gravel road and got on a bus heading for I don't know where. I sat down in a seat alone. Reece was sitting next to his girlfriend. I wanted to talk to him but wanted not to show him I had a crush on him. I respected her and him and didn't want to show my feelings on that for I still wanted to be able to be a friend and valued his opinion. I wished he sat closer. (I feel odd in groups of people as well. I felt I didn't know her so that made me uncomfortable along with the weirdness from trying to hide how I felt too). Then to my amazement the someone came up and asked for his seat. I felt guilty for wishing for him to sit closer. ( I manifest things I want sometimes even in life and felt bad for her because of what I wanted ) then reece sat next to me. I looked over at her and I felt she was giving me the "stink" eye. I was so distracted by my feelings of guilt. That I forgotten what I wanted to say to him. I don't recall saying anything at all. Then he got up and went to the front of the bus. I began feeling sad. Then I wanted a reason to go up there and not be back here with her giving me the stink eye. I then notice there is a cigarette in my hand that needs to be put out. I then went up to the front of the bus and passed reece on my way to the ash tray. He was talking to a few people. I watched the bus driver put his cigarette out. The ash tray was in a weird spot. Behind the steering wheel on the dash. I asked the bus driver "can I use your ash tray?". He gestured for me to do so. As I reached over to put it out the bus hit a bump. I fell and dropped my stuff. Reece helped me gather up my stuff on the floor. After picking up my stuff he handed me my things and asked me "why are you upset?". I was surprised he noticed and responded "I'll get over it one day so don't worry". And I thought before running off the bus somewhat embarrassed "I don't want to touch him in any way" then I noticed I had a rolled up paper in my hand....I patted him on the head with it, got off the bus, watched it drive away and woke up.

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Well when ever you decide to practice dream plane exploration let me know. Im assuming you havn't even tried if you have where is your personal experience. No body is asking you to believe what me or anybody else is saying, im asking you to seek it out through lucid dreaming and report back with your findings, you havn't even tried and already making assumptions about the non extistence of planes. Back up what you say with your own experience not with what someone else says.


Side note:Dream Yoga: Lucid Dreaming in Tibetan Buddhism




Excerpt: "The ultimate goal in Tibetan dream yoga is to "apprehend the dream" (attain conscious awareness) then dissolve the dream state. When you are deprived of physical stimulus (from the sleeping body) and conceptual stimulus (from the dreaming mind), you can observe the purest form of conscious awareness.That sounds like an excellent goal for any lucid dreamer. "

I am with my youngest daughter, I remember something about being split up and away from others. I am pretending to be a little girl, i have changed my name. The women come and measure my nose and my face etc, she is says "its amazing, you have progressed much quicker than a child of your age". I am in a school like place but it isn't a school. I am colouring a picture, a woman has told me to. There are lots of squares on the paper, some are joined up and some aren't. The woman has told me to finish it, i have to draw the outsides of the squares black, some are already done, i have to fill in the ones that aren't done, i am scribbling on the picture and i haven't finished it, i am feeling angry but don't know why. The little girl has died thats why i am pretending to be her. I am pretending to be this young girl of 5 years old but i still look 34. I remember something about a group of men but not sure what though. I remember there was something about a certain man and lady being my parents. A man has made me be the girl and everyone is fooled by me, it is strange because i feel like her age aswell as my own real age.

I am working in a warehouse. I stock the coke shelves. The shelves are equipt with rolling cylinders on an angle. The boxes that I put into the shelves roll to the other side for customers to take. There must be a store on the other side of the shelves. The stock seems to constantly deplete, so I am busy filling it up as fast as I can. As I am stocking I wonder if we get free coke, and If i will get muscles from lifting boxes.

Finally it's the end of the day, and all the other workers are done and it's closing time. I finish my work a bit late, at 21:15, then leave. I am in an unfamiliar place, just walking the streets trying to figure out where home is. Well, it's not completely unfamiliar. There is a sense that I used to know this area but it must have been a long time ago. I walk for quite awhile in what I hope is the right direction. I run into a co worker and he asks me why I am "Down here" (in this area of town). I guess that means I went the wrong way. He asks if i would like to go for coffee. I agree and feel somewhat chuffed as we wander into a shop, getting in line. His girlfriend is there, they hold hands. I feel awkward, like a third wheel. She's yammering on about something, nervous. I guess I've made her uncomfortable.

I'm in a big renaissance mansion in some countryside. I am hosting a party with my boyfriend? husband? ... donno what he is but his name is Robert. He seems pissed at me about something, he's flitting around mingling with guests, trying to avoid me. There is a haunted room in the house.

My friend Marianne has also come, and brought a man with her, whom I don't know. Everyone's kind of drunk. I am going from person to person trying to make sure everyone is taken care of and having fun, trying to explain to people about the haunted room and why they should avoid it.

There is some sort of kerfuffle and Marianne is upset with me, which I find really hard to take. I am trying to appease her, try to explain myself and the misunderstanding to her. There is an implication of something that I've done is inappropriate.

There is a weird fashion show going on.

June 29, 2:28 PM

So I have tried to LD yesterday, with no luck. I have been going over what I did wrong, and I think I know what it is. First, I fapped twice that day (lmao). I also did not sleep in my regular schedule, instead of sleeping by 4 AM I slept at 1 AM, possibly making me not as tired. I was also confused whether to doe a MILD or a WILD, and I kind of went with both. I am still experimenting with both, and if I do not have a lucid dream in a month, I will confirm that I am not a person of dreams.

I had a mild dream, but not lucid. I was in a poll, kinda like in TV shows. I had a number 4 on my screen thing, and I was very sad. That is all I remember

Maybe I need to do more reality checks, or dream more relaxed/without fapping.

It is only day 1, but I am more excited than ever to make this work. I will keep trying and learn from my failures.

Peace

sweet series of lucids last night, but memory is getting hazy now. one bit i was talking to this woman and her girl about obe's astrals etc. when the woman said she didnt believe in obe's a had to ask her where she thought her body was now, or what body did she think she was using now. she still said she didnt believe so i just explained that she was basically saying she didnt believe in dreams and left it there. i spoke to her girl insted who seemed to agree that when she dreams she is away from her real body somehow, and i said that i guess when we are flying around in our dream body, that is essentailly what astral travel is.

had a couple more recurring bits. one was a party for me when i dont expect that many people to turn up, then eventually it gets quite full. one woman there was impressed with something i was doing and offered to give me a cheque for 100k to carry on my work. not sure if it was the garden work or just the dreaming stuff she was impressed by, but eventually the offer was withdrawn for some reason. this pissed me off but the party was still good.

it was in this block of flats and a group of tourists turned up. they were from jamaica and eventually turned into the west indies cricket team. by this stage i was flying around looking at things that i had previously planted around the town. there was this awesome 'guava' tree with massive purple fruit on it that was just so beautiful. shame it wouldnt grow here in reality..

the next bit was another recurring place, but i think it doesnt really have a deep meaning to it, just a place that has formed in my mind that i like and revisit. after the place had changed back to a place more resembling reality i asked a guy if he knew the place i was talking about. it was like a bar with a big blue menu screen behind the bar and the music playing was heartbeats by the knife. the bar was kind of part garden centre as well, and we were getting things for the garden and even large daisy like flowers seemed somehow miraculous to me however i still didnt really get lucid at this point as i was earlier. reminded me that i had one earlier in the week where jools holland was presenting a tv show in front of 12 foot daffodils

I've been attempting WILDs for a couple of weeks now, but keep getting stuck in transition because of persistent hypnic jerks, something that has always happened in the past when I've non-purposefully started slipping into REM sleep while still more-or-less lucid/conscious. But, I have frequently in the past (particularly in the morning, if I go back to sleep after my alarm has gone off) gone straight to REM sleep without any problems, so I thought I would try a "WILD" without making a conscious effort to remain lucid, and was kind of successful...

Non-dream
Dream
Semi-Lucid
Lucid

(Some things happened before this, but I can't quite remember what they were) I am lying face down in a puddle, and hear a male voice reminding me that I'm trying to attempt a WILD, but I'm not quite there yet. That voice gradually morphs into my own voice, which is sometimes coming from an outside source, and sometimes coming from me. I get up and start walking forward with a great deal of difficulty (dream logic said that this was because Sleep Paralysis was setting in) I'm keeping my eyes half closed so I don't wake myself up, and every now and then stop at a "landmark" (tree, road, etc.) and tell myself I need to "save my place" by doing some sort of action (like breaking a branch) so that if I wake up, I'll be able to go directly back to that spot when I start attempting to WILD again. (What???) I get to a large stone wall, and the male voice from the beginning of my dream tells me that there is a small door in the bottom of the wall, and that when I crawl through it, I will be in my dream. I locate the door (which is really just a small hole) and wiggle through it.

After I crawl through the hole, I find myself on some sort of medium-sized rocky hill. To my right is a forest, and to my left is the beach at my cottage. (this was good, I wanted to attempt this month's challenge of diving to a ship wreck and collecting treasure. My plan had been to go to my cottage, because I know it quite well and frequently dream that I'm there, so I figured it wouldn't take a whole lot of effort to keep the dream world from falling apart if I went there) The sky is very dark and cloudy, and looks like it is going to rain. I want it to be nice and bright, and try to will the clouds to go away. This doesn't work, so I wave my hand at them like I'm half fanning half brushing them away, and they fall away down beyond the horizon. It's not quite as bright as I would like it, so I wave my hand again upward like I'm trying to pull something up, and the sun rises behind me and shoots across the sky, too far so it's right on the opposite horizon and the sky is red like at sunset. I "pull" the sun up slowly this time, but then think no, maybe I'd like it better at sunset, and push it back down. I play around with this for a few minutes until I'm happy with the colour of the sky and the position of the sun. I look out across the water, and think that, rather than attempting the challenge of the month, I'd like to recreate the land from the fantasy novel I'm writing (ARRRRG, NO! Stop changing your mind once you're in the dream *slaps dream self... again*) . I look up at the sky and think "castle" and when I look down, the forest is still there, but the beach and water have been replaced by rolling hills and a castle in the distance. But... rather than being the impressive castle in the side of a mountain I had imagined for my novel, it looks like one of those "fairy princess" castle made of paper towel rolls and paper cones, all bright pinks and yellows. Yuck. I decide to at least change the colour to something more reasonable, and wave my hand over it a few times until the colour changes to more muted browns and greens (still not what I want, but close enough). I look around and realize that everything is much darker and fuzzier than it should be, as though my eyes were half close. So, I make the brilliant decision to open my eyes wider...

... And open them in real life. ("Crap!")

Dream Lucid Note

First i woke up at 6 am after going to bed at midnight. I took the trash to the curb and fed the dogs while thinking of my dream. All i remember was a tiny fragment. I have been playing Assassins Creed 2.
Delivering a package in Florence in 1488

I went back to bed at 6:30.

My friend is tasked with finding a special flower that only grows on the top of a mountain. He has been off tryign to find it for quite a while now. I decide that I want to go visit him so I go to a special room in the castle and find a door there. I put a key of intention in the door and then strike the door with a blast of power. The door blows off the hinges into a mountain snow storm and when it lands on the ground the whole room I'm standing in suddenly becomes the mountain too. I see that the door that landed on the ground has turned into a snowboard. Remembering LD teleporting I am shocked into happy lucidity for just a moment thinking that was a pretty awesome teleport. The surprise shocks me into my body and I wake up.

I was living in a cross between Mumbai and Diagon Alley. There was a lot of poverty and there were winding staircases that lead to building upon building stacked upon themselves. The buildings were built poorly, and sometimes they were just mere tents.

The world leaders had decided to destroy the sun. They determined that it was useless for the world since we "could sustain ourselves without it". They did this despite hundreds of thousands of protests that everything would freeze.

When they destroyed the sun we watched as the world was engulfed in darkness. It was a creeping darkness. The scene zoomed out and we saw how it slowly took the world.

I had met a girl named Idani. We took shelter somewhere warm, knowing that it wouldn't last for long.

After about a half hour Idani and I came back out of the tent, puzzled as to why the Earth had not drastically cooled. We looked to the sky and saw a sun! It was bigger than our sun, and it was getting bigger as we watched too.

A man was walking past us and seemed to read the confusion on our faces.

"We lost orbit with the sun when we destroyed it. Our planet fell in line with Sirius now," He commented, "but we are getting way too close to this star."

Idani and I looked up again. The Earth had gotten so close to Sirius that we could actually see the sun flares arising from it.

As our planet loomed closer to the star the air was getting hotter and hotter. I heard screaming, and realized that someone had just caught on fire. They ran past us as a screaming ball of fire. The engines in cars were no longer safe because it was getting way to hot. People were getting desperate, if they were lucky enough not to spontaneously combust.

Idani and I went back into the main allies and I looked around for where my parents used to have a small house. I believed that there was also water in the cool basement. We could take cover there.

I told Idani to stay with a man I had met earlier. He was old and looked like wandering ascetic.

I ran back to the allies but couldn't find anything that resembled an entrance to a house. Small ally-side shops had taken over. I went inside one of the shops and looked around. They sold hijabs and other headgear. I pushed my way through all of the fabric to the back of the store where I found a small hallway. There was a creaky doorknob. I opened the door and went down the stairs.

To my surprise, there didn't seem to be anybody living there. I was fairly sure that this was our basement, but even if it wasn't we could still reside there. It was dark, but cooler than the blazing outside temperatures.

I noticed that on the other side of the basement there was another door. I feared that if I opened the door I would find a hostile family on the other side. I opened the door anyways and found that it lead to another empty basement.

I determined that this was a safe place to reside and went back for Idani. I found her and took the wandering ascetic with us. Temperatures had risen so greatly now that not only were people spontaneously combusting, but they were also now becoming ZOMBIES!

While we were running to the hidden basement, Idani told me that she had 30 coins that she could use for water. She had them in a little brown sack. We ran through a dark tunnel and came face to face with a zombie. Idani tripped and ripped the bag, coins spilt everywhere.

The zombie looked extremely deformed. It had giant teeth sticking out of its gums and its skin was burned crisp. I was about to fight it when I was woken up for breakfast.

ok so this isn't a recent dream but this is the one I can remember the most...

so for some reason, I found myself walking through the halls of my Middle school. I went inside the gym and found a huge party. So I went looking for this girl I liked [it was never gonna work out], instead I found my best friend Miranda crying. I asked her whats wrong and she asked me if I loved her. I was silent for a few minutes, then she ran out of the gym crying... After that I woke up

My Dad leaves me in the lobby of a roller rink. I wait a while, watching T.V. carelessly. I remember a "Who's Your Tiger" commercial of Joel Zumaya for the Detroit Tigers. I couldn't remember if he was still on the team, and decided to leave. I left, and found myself on the other side of town. It's a sunny day, and I am at the "Rochester Village" a series of restaurants and shops. My dad is eating outside on the sidewalk with my friend's dad, Mr. Ingraham, and his daughter. I join them at a table under an umbrella, and they are very insistent that I eat. The waitress tells the daughter that her hair looks better than it did yesterday. She thanks her, but once the waitress leaves, she mutters "eavesdropper" under her breath. We order cheesy bread sticks. I ate a few, but don't remember their taste. Soon after, I woke up.