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Monday January 16th, 2012

* The dream started out where I was in a grocery store shopping for random food objects. I didn't realize it but someone was following me. I then ended up in the baby section/family section of the store explaining two different situations to myself. The first situation was where I was standing near this shelf that had coats and other stuff like toys. I really don't know what made this moment tick but somehow my cousin Julian and Gabriel were in involved and so was my aunt. The boys were standing and pointing at the shelves and commuting about something, the toys. Then, after this happened I was helping a young boy who I thought was one of my cousins put a coat on. The coat had transformers or something boyish on it that suited a 5-year-old boy. The second part was when I realized something different from my family being there with me. there was a lady holding a toddler girl that looked about 18 months old or a year and a half old that she then handed to me. It was like this had just happened, but I was in a different situation from the one earlier. The lady told me we had to get ready and leave, but I did not know where. There was a see-through closet that had glass doors like in the frozen food section at a grocery store that had baby stuff like diapers and other necessities like clothes but there wasn't any food. I picked up this pouch while holding the baby that had a sippy cup In and then swung it over my shoulder or something as if It where a purse.


Then everything changed to a different setting. I was hiking on a dirt rode, I didn't know where I was going but somehow I knew I was going to get there. This dirt rode didn't have an end, but then I saw a man with some animals walking up towards me. He asked me if I needed help, It was like I couldn't come up with an answer but I knew that this man couldn't help me with what I needed. Something happened to where I had a gut felling and then right before my eyes it was like time was passing. I ended up getting to a random place by nightfall where people where going to help me with what I wanted. This place was a lodge or motel. I went into this room after this lady in a old Time bonnet and dress told me to make myself at home at the front desk. I walked into this room that was mine to stay in. I looked around for a little bit and then started looking at the tv setting where I found some items that where similar to items I had in waking life but they were different. One of the items was a combination of a madeline item, it was like a book and a dvd in one or something. The dream ended where I was looking back at a dream I had before, it was like I was looking in the past of my dreams.

(As a note, I don't recall any time in the extended past having a dream where my own death occurred.)

Last night, I dreamt of my own death, in a fashion. Recall begins as an aerial overview of cars driving down a highway, where my vision is getting whiter and more staticky, thus more difficult to navigate through the curves, trees, and other cars. My center of awareness was still above the action, but at some point, the vehicle "I" was driving in crashed off of the side of the road.

The scene becomes closer and more detailed as my center comes down to inspect the site. The car had landed in a ditch, and a body had been thrown from it, to land face down in a small impact crater left in an area of soft earth and mud. I notice that it's my own body, due to my hair splayed all around my face and clothing. There is no outward sign of injury, but I know that this body is either empty, or close to losing its connection. It was then that I realized I was in spirit form, looking at my own dying body.

As I stepped closer, I came to see that two silent men were standing near my body, watching the entire scene yet impartial to the action. Also, a wolf-like creature (grander, with a more pronounced snout and gentle grace) lay atop my body, seeming to guard, cradle, and at the same time somehow be connected to it. I realized that, in order to save my body, I would have to interact via the wolf, who looked at me with a bittersweet cast in its eyes.

I looked to the men, and saw that they had backed off slightly, but were still watching. Much like referees, or judges. I moved the wolf off of my body, and told it to do something to help, to no avail. I became incensed, knowing that none of them were going to help me resurrect myself and, if this were allowed to happen, I would in fact lose my connection to my body and die. I turned to my body, still cradled in the earth but now facing upwards, warm but lifeless. I could not interact with it, or assume its essence into my own.

In a final effort, I began to beat the ground next to the prone wolf, who now seemed slightly smaller, with energized fists that sent shockwaves of power where they landed, while projecting in a clear and demanding voice that "No. I will not die. I am not done yet. My work is not done."

With this final salvo of energy, the scene around me began to fade out, and I felt the warm confines of my body wrap back around me as I returned to it, waking gently in my bed.

EP. 1

"A Raid to Remember"
As I step through the door, a white light blinds me. In the confusion I discover several things I hadn't known before. One: I was holding something metallic in both hands. Two: There were loud sounds all around me. Three: Men were shouting, both in front of and behind me. My vision clears; I'm staring down a white barrel at a blurry figure ahead. I open fire, though I don't know at what. Before I have time to think, the firefight is over, and a young soldier is forcing me onward.

The light comes to me again, though now I stand in a large room without windows. I've no way of knowing, but it feels as if I'm underground. A hand rests on my shoulder, but I'm looking away. I hear the voice of a man, and turn to face the Dark Knight himself. He continues to speak to me slowly, but I pay no mind to him. I notice I'm unarmed now, and ponder the implications of this. The Bat shakes me, yelling now, but my attention is drawn to the Flash rushing past, down a tunnel to God knows where. I feel I must follow, but my companion urges me in another direction; I grudgingly follow.

I find myself nearing the end of our journey now. I turn once more to find my companion, but his identity has changed. No other than Bruce Wayne was standing beside me. I speak for the first time, asking, "It gets old losing your stuff every time that happens, doesn't it?". Bruce nods in reply, then states, "Yeah. It doesn't help having to put on that armor over and over, either." I share his pain for a moment, then we press towards our goal. As we close in on an armored door near the end of a hallway, a loud snap comes from my back. I jerk in shock to find the source, but I'm faced with only a dark wall and two white pillows.



EP. 2

"A Night on the Ocean Blue"
As the cold water rocks the frigate to and fro, I can feel the mist of the ocean breeze dance across my face. A deck hand shouts in alarm ,"We'll never lose him this way!", and I scan the darkened waves for the pursuer. The man who was after our very lives was once a brother among us. This much I remembered. The very why as to our current situation eluded me at the moment, though. No worries; I'd have plenty of time to ponder the implications of his betrayal after we no longer feared for our safety. My train of thought is shattered as our rear port side was rammed again by the pursuing vessel.

His ship was submerged under the wake by some strange mechanism. Being the smaller of the two craft, his was the faster as well. This was a huge advantage in the current situation, where we had no means of retaliation against him. How had I ended up in such a situation? My mind wandered to the events that began this awkward chase. While these memories were illusive, I remember a battle taking place at port. Somewhere in the chaos, our forsworn ally had turned against us. Using the fog of war to gain the upper hand in a fight that was all but won. Now we were running, and he was in pursuit. The sharp cracking of wet wood and the sudden seizure of the ship signed that he had already injured our chances of escape.

My eyes searched the horizon for some sign of safety. All I needed was one hope of reprieve. My search brought a large water spout to my attention. It would be perfect. I jut my hand forward, shouting to the man at the wheel, "There! Sail straight for the spout!" His eyes lit ablaze with fear. Surely he thought me mad. Despite his initial fears, his hands followed the command. Leading the bow directly towards what he knew would be our end, our speed picked up. As we were drawn into the twister, I begin to doubt the validity of my plan. Our pursuer had taken the bait, though, and I could see his vessel leaving the water below us. Within a matter of moments, our weight had exceeded the strength of the storm. We fell back into the water, almost on our starboard side. I give the order to ready the guns, looks of bewilderment gaze upon me. The hands follow the command, and the pursuing craft is decimated by cannon fire immediately after landing.



EP. 3 [Coming Soon]

01/16/12

Driving Drunk
I am driving down an isolated street in the middle of nowhere at night. There are two other people in the car with me, and we are all drinking. (Drinking and driving? I don't even like to drink!) I am drinking a beer and laughing and telling bad jokes that I don't remember now. I feel drunk. I drink more of my beer and I see flashing lights in the review mirror. Great… cops… now I'm in trouble. I think I'll pull over, but instead I get the idea I can turn off the road somewhere up ahead and kill the lights so the cops will fly right by me. I speed up to put distance between the cop and me. I start going very fast and I am not able to make the sharp turn that's coming up ahead. Instead the car breaks through the guard rail and flies out into space… there is apparently a cliff beside the road. But the car isn't going down… it is continuing to fly… or am I just too drunk to know we're crashing?

Dont remember anything from the past 2 nights. I will tonight though.

I dreamed I was with S.t. We were in bed. I rolled into position so that "I" was in S.t.'s hand. It was a very short dream, but the one I was waiting for.

I had another dream where I was by the water. I never actually swam in it, but at one point I was concerned because I was swimming in it, something was swimming after me, and the thing knew which way to swim because the water had a memory of where I had gone, and the fish thing that was after me could read the water. (This comes from something I saw on youtube of how water really does have a memory.)


I saw the water retain the swirls of where I had swam, and knew the fish creature would follow the current and find me.

Then I saw some tadpoles. I looked at them in my dream. They were kind of evil looking. That was the most vivid part of the dream. I really focused on the fish. I saw them in very shallow water, and they looked like some other kind of fish. Kind of evil looking. They were kind of long and hand round heads like Alien.

I was afraid of a tadpole.

dream : comments : lucid

17th of January, 2012

Had some failed lucidness early in the night.
I was sleeping and Nooks woke me up saying "it's 9pm, time to wake up!" I was all "Why the shit would you be waking me up at 9pm?" at which point she proceeded to start putting fish on my feet. By that stage I was all "nup, this is stupid, this is obviously a false awakening" and when I did my hand-check I mustn't have been deep enough into the dream and the movement actually woke me up for real. Almost immediately after that I went back to sleep and back into a dream. Not quite a WILD, but I was almost instantly aware. Quasi DEILD, perhaps. Again I was lying asleep except I was a bit deeper in and was this time at a beach. I was in the sand when I woke up again. Did a RC and wasn't dreaming. God damn it!
Back asleep again and THIS time I was still at the beach but could really feel the sand and water. I focussed on sinking into the sand so as to stimulate my senses a bit and really tried focusing on Nooks' face to become hyper-aware. It all sort of worked but then the dream began to fade and I couldn't get it back. Ah well. Close.

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I was at some dodgy apartment block and was meeting all the neighbours.

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I was at a birthday party and drinking champagne. Some hippie type girls offered me LSD which I accepted. The acid was on these plastic strips that had different phrases printed on them. The one I took said “Spiders in your mouth”. I half dissolved the strip and suddenly realised I didn’t want to be tripping on acid and remember that it said anything about spiders being in my mouth so I spat it out and asked for another one, which they didn’t let me have. I wanted the one that said "Ice cream".

We went outside where people were drinking and partying in the back yard and I hung around drinking my champagne and having a good time. Presently, I looked up into the sky and was struck with awe. The moon was enormous but different. It was covered in gigantic ice crystals- all perfectly formed like giant snowflakes. The arms of the crystals spread out far into the sky, about twice the diameter of the moon itself. I was totally blown away and ran screaming to the other people to come and have a look. When they came over the crystals had begun dropping off and falling through space towards us. While they fell, they broke into smaller pieces and snowed down on us as snowflakes the size of dinner plates. It was a beautiful experience and I remember turning to Nooks and asking if it was the acid or if it was really happening and she just smiled and nodded before catching one. It was nice.

Later on there was something to do with hot air ballooning in a cave and finding magic mushrooms. That lead into my family having issues with a neighbour shooting arrows into our yard. The neighbour became one of my younger brothers who stabbed one of my other brothers with an arrow and when we told him we would call the police on him he suddenly became really cute and baby-faced. I asked him to apologise and when he did he became a manchild with a seedy ass beard and looked totally creeper. He started apologising in this weird rhyming slang and I decided I hated him.

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Aliens invaded in cool space/aquatic ships. They were all spiky and black. As they landed in the water, huge waves flooded large parts of the city and the street we were on was suddenly awash with buses coming towards us. We narrowly avoided being crushed by the sliding buses and ran up a hill into a park. There, some people offered me cheese and I said, in a very posh voice “no... quite alright thank you” which they scoffed at. I asked if they’d prefer a more bogan approach and said “aw, fuckin’ aliens and shit invading, hey!” then left. We went into a house that had a smaller house inside it and I climbed onto the smaller house’s roof. All of a sudden I realised my teeth were loose and they began to fall out and break apart.

Didn’t do a dream check because apparently I’m an idiot and don’t recognise my own dream signs.
Anyway, I woke up shortly afterwards.

Date: 15.01.12

I was with S, T and N. We were going out or a meal, so started up the stairs to a restaurant we fancied, whilst walking past the toilet a guy shouted-
"Don't come in!"
"We won't" I said
"Get out" he shouted, and came out. He was the owner.
"Alright!" ..."god he's friendly" I muttered. We turned around and headed out. The gut came to the doorway and said, "No young ones tonight" as if that were any consolation.
So, with that we headed back to our accommodations, I walked with S through what I thought was her accommodation, remarking how beautiful it was, what with the archaic architecture and light blue, frosted windows. She said it was part of main arts and that she didn't want to go back to her accommodation as she hadn't paid rent. I said she could stay at mine...
Then somewhere along the way we were with T and N again and apparently in some sort of battle against everyone else, they were trying to stop us doing something or other, anyway, the details are hazy. We hid in the toilets, locking the doors. I had a plan to escape onto the roof, but someone had turned on the power which made the roof-covered in wires- electrical. We escaped through a different window into what appeared to be a garden centre, as there were plants scattered and growing everywhere in pots and over the pathway. People were trying to stop us pass, we kicked and punched our way through, i grabbed my bag after we'd had a rest to readdress which route we were going to take, but i saw a baked beans can on a shelf, had an idea and grabbed it. From then on anyone who got in my way, I bashed their head with it. There was one woman in particular who was lying on the floor due to my friends having pushed her over, I said "she's gonna grab my leg, don't grab my leg, don't grab my leg!" I stepped over at which she grabbed my leg, I shouted "I SAID DON'T" and bashed her in the head with the tin,a red line appeared and a trickle of blood shortly followed, I felt pretty bad, but needed her to know she couldn't stop me, she didn't seem fazed and I ran to catch my friends up. An old man stepped in front of me, in a tweed jacket holding a dandelion under his chin, (like people do with buttercups) I didn't want to resort to violence again, so said-
"Do you like butter?"
"I do like butter" he replied
so I said, "Then let us rejoice in the fact that we all like butter" and strode past him. I caught up my friends and T asked, "did you just pretend to be a member of a secret club my making a bizarre, code like statement?"
"haha yeah!"
at the culmination of the dream we ran up into a tower, we gathered together and waited as the people after us had set up a bomb, they were about to press it. I said "we should stand together in our last moments",
T said, "haha, right our "last moments" " and gave me a look as if to say, just wait for it. The person pressed the bomb, but instead of an explosion a special effect sound of a cow mooing was heard. We burst out laughing and that's where the dream ended and faded away.

1/16/12

DILD

Notes: Nap...I felt very apathetic in this dream. I was not interacting with my environment much and I felt like I didn't have any objectives.

I dream started where I was laying on my stomach on the grass in ben's backyard. Kevin walked up and said, "It didn't ruin their lives...it just changed them." (he was referring to a TV show I had seen and talked to him about in an earlier dream. It wasn't a real show). I remember thinking that I should rewatch it to prove my point.

I somehow become lucid and stand up. I decide to walk inside the house and see if I can summon HM. I am visualizing her pretty well. However, about halfway there I get this thought that is like, "Ugh...I bet its going to be Robin again." I round a corner and instead of ben's living room, its my old one, and of course, Robin is sitting on the couch. I sit down next to her somewhat disappointed. I ask her why she is always here. She has some response that I can't remember. I put my arm around her and sit silently for a bit. I then grab one of her legs and put it over my lap. I am just sitting and thinking to myself. I do feel some connection between me and her. I eventually start trying to have sex with her. She is just going along and I stop myself, realizing I don't want to do this.

I get out and walk outside, half-expecting to see HM again. It is the front yard of my old house and she isn't there. I walk into the street. It is fairly dark. As I look up to fly, I see the trees have branches that extend way too far. They are touching each other so there are no good gaps to fly through. I find a small one and fly up. I just get to the branches and fall back down (I didn't hit the branches, I just got near them and lost all speed.) I decide to try and portal so I look across the street and start to draw a circle on a nearby house. Halfway through, some guy walks up and says something. I am mildly distracted but I look back and see the portal is finished. It is very large and has a red outer ring. I don't respond to the man and head for the portal.

I fly through it and suddenly I am gently flying over a large amphitheater. I am flying slowly, but I keep that speed. I think to myself, usually if I go too fast I lose speed and altitude. Maybe it will be easier if I just go slowly. It was. Eventually I have to start breast stroking, but I don't mind. I looked back down and everything was black. I tried to imagine seeing the seats of the amphitheater. Eventually a tan half-circle forms, and that slowly forms into the seats. Once I regain full vision, I look up and see that I am about 6 ft. below this platform. I just get enough height to land on top.

I stand up and turn around a corner. Some girl on the platform is yelling at a girl down below (but not as far down as the amphitheater). I decide to not get involved so I look to a nearby wall. It is really short, only like 2 ft. tall and made of wood. I try to make a portal in it. However, instead of the red ring, I just made a circular line in the wood. The girls look over at me and laugh. One says, "Look, he thinks he's magical or something!" I figure out a way to fix the portal. I use telekinesis and pull the circular chunk right out of the wall. It falls harmlessly to the ground. The girls are shocked. I walk over to the portal, but it is really small...only about 10 in. diameter. Before I figure out how to get through it, I lose the dream.

i have always had strange dreams,my whole life,not just strange dreams tho...the stranger they became the more real they would become... until they did become real...there would be times when i would be afraid to sleep due to such a strong sensation of knowing that it would be real.... unable to mentally handle the situation.. unable to grasp the concept that i can dream the future..Always asking my self if this real....this has got to mean something,and there has got to be a way to control this....what if dream of something bad....and it happens to me? How do i stay focused on positive things? Am i alone with having these sorts of encounters? am i the only one like me?

...one of the most vivid dreams i have had in quite some time. it was spring time and it was storming, raining very hard and the wind was blowing and i can remember the sound of the wind howling through the cracks in the window...and i can remember water droplets running down the glass....i don't know where we where... but the dream was mostly black and white...only parts of it in color, you where smiling and laughing, and i can remember thinking that it was very nice to see you smile....and clouds of fog circling around the room...you held your hand out to me and asked if i like to dance... ii stuck my hand out to grab yours and i can remember blushing , and very embarased because i knew i could not dance, but i didn't want to turn down the offer.
the most vivid part of the dream was the feeling of your warm hand on my lower back pressing me up against your body, spinning and twirling around and around in circles and then i began to laugh like a little kid...
i then awoke to a loud whisper of some one calling out my name......i rose out of bed and my body was covered in goose bumps and no one was around...the house was still and quiet......

Wednesday Jan.11/2012

Woke up at 4:31 am and remember getting images and going into LD, but don’t remember, if there was an LD.

DR: I’m on a top floor of college dormitory/hotel. I need to remodel some thing in the rooms, to get them ready. I feel like student’s are coming the next day.

I’m repairing small picture frames by putting painters tape on frames and painting. I go from room to room. When I’m done, I go to check, but they are not good. When I pull the tape off, some tape is stuck. I go to rooms to collect them and redo by next morning. Kids and teachers are already there.

1 teacher S is already in the last room on top floor. She is heating up something on a small electric heater for her daughter. I see sparks flying. It smokes and sets of the fire alarm. I can hear it’s beeps. People start moving downstairs, I know, I can’t use the elevator. I come upon the infirmary with patients in blue sitting on benches alongside the walls, waiting to be evacuated. There is a girl with two crutches. I ask her if she needs help getting down, but she says no. I ask the nurse if I can help anybody get downstairs, she also says no.

Thursday Jan.12/2012
DR at 4:25
I have a nosebleed, someone is helping me.
We have returned from a trip, I’m going to lay down.

Friday Jan.13/2012
B-complex 100 at 2:50pm
DR 3:24am I sit on a ski lift alone
going down to the gold mine

7:18am
Our class is on a trip. We are in a small airplane. The entertainment on the plane were magic tricks by a magician. We are told it is expensive. We made a stop. People are getting off, I’m looking for my camera. I unload my backpack, everybody is leaving stuff on a plane, we just going to get some souvenirs and continue on a trip. Someone tells me he is going to get me same big gift as he is getting for someone else already, because I saved his life. Prior to this we flew very low under some electrical cables and I was worried we are gonna hit them. Then this person stands up and reaches up to see if we are too close. We were not, but he got electrocuted. As he is laying on the floor I check his pulse and breathing. He comes to and he thanks me.

Then we are in mountains. Not much green, more dusty and dry looking. We are crossing a natural bridge. On the other side is a castle. Inside we are finding treasures - I find couple of tiaras in shelves, bunch of jewelry, rings and such. There are also photographs from my previous trips with class. I want to borrow them to make copies. I ask husband of the teacher (they live here) if I can borrow the yellow envelope full of pictures, that I will return it to the teacher when she goes to work, school is just two streets from my house.

WBTB 7:18am-8:10am GM 4mg+Choline300mg at 8am
woke up f/WILD at 11:35am

HH- I’m looking at a moving landscape underneath me. Sunny fields. I Imagine seeing myself on the ground. The view is coming closer and I see something flying in the skies. When it lands, I realize its me. As my view is coming closer to the ground, I wish and I merge with myself on the ground. My view changes and I’m in the dream standing on the ground in middle of fields.

There are a few houses nearby. Three cars are parked in front. Yellow, maybe red and closest to me is a beautiful, shiny black dodge charger. I have never drove a car in my dream before, so I decide to go for a ride. Then I notice beautiful orange flowers in grass in the lawn right next to the car. I squat down to take a closer look. These are my favorite orange flowers, that are so common in parks in SoCal. They are so pretty. I see the grass too. Very clear, sharp, I see every blade of green grass. I inhale the air, don’t smell anything though. I look at my hands. They look completely normal, only 6 fingers per hand.

I get up, open the car door and get in. Its beautiful inside. Black leather, black steering wheel, gages and dials accented with red, windows are small and sleek and tinted. I realize I don’t have the key but I know I just need to put my hand to key hole and I will have the key. So I do that, turn the key and car start up. I step on gas and off we go. The road in front of me is turning left in front of some houses. I come to the corner and wake up.

Saturday, Jan. 14/2012
I have two roommates. One is M, we are in US. We want to go to the beach, but she says she cant, she is ill, had some tests done.
Then we are in front of my home in NZ and I’m telling her about possibility of healing in LDs and I explain to her all types of LDs.

Sunday, Jan.15/2012
We just got back home from somewhere. I’m in NZ. Before going upstairs to the apartment, I check the mail. There is a ton of mail. I look for ours and find a ton of magazines, envelopes. It’s exciting.

WBTB 5:37am-6:20am
DILD around 10am

I woke up in this house. For some reason I go to the roof. I see the roofs of other houses, it’s a residential area with moderns SoCal. houses in terracotta colors. I say to myself, if this was a dream, I could fly. So I levitate up and I realize I’m dreaming. I’m dressed in underpants and undershirt. I look around and there is a car approaching. Behind it is a cop car. I decide to better get of the roof, I’m sure the cop had seen me and comes after me thinking I’m breaking in. I loose lucidity around here. I’m back inside of the house. There is more people here now. I wake up.

I entered the building and decided to go get some water and instantly saw people screwing around, making things float and such. I then walked around and asked about what this was all about. I was then redirected to a screen here the president of I assume the convention. He we with about 3 other people in cloaks with super deep voices. He said "those who make it to the lucid competition and win the competition will win the title of lucid king". I then started walking toward a back room planning to take out some competition. All of a sudden bubble started coming out of the floor and started getting everyone stuck. I summoned a knife at my feet and started pawing at it very slowly and got my foot free. I then used my foot to pull my hand out, then cut my hand out and then cut myself free. I headed to the back room while people yelled at me to get them free. I then ran into someone and promptly turned them into a mouse. Someone shouted at me to stop and that I was cheating so i turned him into a cat. I headed to the gift shop and saw some girl was buying stuff which I made disappear.
FIN

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Had an interesting dream last night, it's been a while since I had a survival dream.

22.30: Sleep

05.30: Camping
I'm in my mom's neighbourhood. I walk through the woods behind her house when a car appears on the road on my right. I walk slowly, but a part of me tells me to run. I pick up the pace and head behind some bushes. The car keeps up with me but as soon as I break eye contact I get down on all four and start to run like an animal. I run up a steep hill on a game trail, trying to get away from the weird car. After a few minutes of running around I end up down by the road, only further down. A car stops next to me and I recognise it as my mom and dad's car. They start talking to me, and wants me to go with them. I follow them for a while but I soon stop. "I'm going out camping for a few days. I'm not going to bring anything" I tell them.

This is apparently what they didn't want me to do. "It's dangerous!" my mom says. "But this is what I want to do! That's also the reason I want to do it. To make my own shelter. Soon it will be dark and cold" I say. 'Perhaps I should bring a blanket...' "I might bring that blue blanket just in case I say and grab one from the car. I'm really looking forward to the trip. To be one with mother nature and just live off of what she has to offer for a few days.

05.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7 hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I downloaded an app on my phone that was supposed to help with meditation. Well it did clear my mind and all that good stuff. But I still haven't gotten any success.

WILD attempt #3
Awake: I lie down in bed, shades drawn. It's dark, quite, comfortably warm, ideal conditions. I turn on the app, it's playing ocean sounds. I lie still, within minutes my legs are numb (This so far is always the first thing to happen). This is followed by my right arm, and I never remember when my left arm goes numb. I start seeing the green lights again, they move like a wax in a lava lamp. They go away quickly. I lie still for awhile and eventually feel a sensation at my feet. It feels like a mix of heat, water, and my feet dissolving. It doesn't spread any further. I try to envision myself sinking into my bed. No dice. I keep myself semi-focused on the ocean sounds throughout it all, not a thought at all except for a song I like playing itself in the back of my head. The green lights come back again, it makes only one round this time and fades away. I'm back to numb feet and only a semi-numb right hand. At thirty minutes in, I give up. I do a reality check. Alas, still awake.