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Dream 1(fragment):

I was watching dino crisis 2 let's play.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was browsing dreamviews, there was some thread about how false awakenings affect dream recall and also i was apparently posting that 'I just had a lucid dream'(?).

I hear Raven speak to me telepathically, "Nomad, help me in this battle." I wake up! No, I'm dreaming... on the astral plane. I open a portal to Raven's house in the desert. She's surrounded by astral Templar demons with her sword drawn. I run in a circle around them, faster and faster, creating a whirlwind. Raven spins in place, and the Templar demons get sucked up into a sky portal. Goodbye, fuckers.

Raven and I hi-5. Cool move! What do we call it? Chaos-Storm!

Raven opens a portal to the Hot Pools on the Moon in the Biodome. I slide in. I feel all the muscles in my dream body relax. WinterFae is sleeping, floating in the water. I give her a kiss as she floats by. Raven falls asleep in the water and wakes up. "I feel so much better!"
"What did you dream about?"
"Nothing, silly. I already am dreaming."
"Interesting!"

"I want to analyze these nanites, if I have any. Let's go to the Moon Tower, since we're already on the Moon." We teleport to the base of the Moon Tower. Washu and Janet are there with Stephanie, the Tower's AI, manifesting as a hologram. They say they are very excited to analyze our physical bodies from the dream plane, a most interesting and challenging task.
Washu has a funny dark energy animal, kind of like a cross between a beetle and a hedgehog. She says she has trained it to drain off a person's excess dark energy without hurting the person. She offers it to Raven. Raven pets it, and gives it back, saying she doesn't have too much dark energy in her dream body, it's the physical plane which is the problem.

The three women lead us into an analysis room. They have us stand on circles with lights above and under us, then lie on beds and scan us with lasers. They say we both have nanochips in our physical bodies, but mine are disabled by the alien implants. Raven's nanochips never made it all the way into her brain, but got stuck in the bone of her skull, which can cause headaches. They say Raven can control them.
We access the Collective. Raven and I are flying down a digital wormhole. I feel calm and at peace. I feel like an android, I feel so human, so alive. We fly into two cubes, spinning in opposite directions, like a merkabah. We say we are machine, we are cyborgs, we take control of our bio-technology.

We wake up in The Sick Bay of the Moon Tower. Stephanie is looking at me, her bluish skin faintly glowing. "We are so much alike, cyborg," she giggles.
"What?" I wake up.

I fall back to sleep.
I am on the Moon Tower with Raven. She is looking through the giant telescope at Masyaf. "Templars... infiltrating, counterspies! Look, Nomad!" I look through and see a city on a mesa, and Templar demons disguised as Assassins slowly making their way in.
"Nothing is True."
"Everything is Permitted."
"As above, so below, as within, so without."
"We must counter-infiltrated the Templars going in to Masyaf!"
"Let's do it!"

Raven and I morph into Templars, then put our Assassin robes over them. We think we look so silly and laugh. She opens a portal to outside Masyaf. We are on the side of a road in a valley. We join a band of demon-Templars dressed as Assassins, following up the rear. We walk with them into the city.

We stay in a special training school. After a few weeks, we discover who all the demon-Templars are, and assassinate them at night, and throw their bodies over the cliff. The Templars lay siege to the city. They shout they want their sacred artifact, the Mask of the Dawn Key, and they will kill us all to get it. (con'td)

Friday, 4/12/13

I woke up at 6:30 am and went back for a nap at 8am.

I was going to WILD, but for some reason, I didn't get any indication of it.

Turned to my left side and fell asleep. When I woke up, I was sure I had a DILD, but didn't get uo, went back to sleep. Next time I woke up, I wasn't so sure about DILD anymore. Until I started to write down snippets. I was trying to recall, if I got any surprise or happiness when I realized I'm lucid, but I didn't remember any. Until now. Now I clearly remember telling someone "ok, I'll count my fingers, but it's pointless, I'm not dreaming". Then I counted 6-7 fingers on my left hand. I was completely surprised. I counted again and again, in awe, showing someone how many fingers I have. So DILD is confirmed.

Snippets for DILD and non-lucids mixed in my memory:

- I walked into my parents house. My dad had my mom's haircut and he was blond. With thin wire glasses. (just now I realized, he resembled the russian spy from The Americans show in his blond wig). My room looked the same way I had it when I was a child. I discovered, that my closet is haunted.

- My brother with his wife and child are visiting. I want to know when they leave, so I can go out and come back before they leave.

- I'm flying in controlled flight. Happy.

- I'm taking a cab home. 2 other passengers. We go by my house and I want to get out, but cabbie says it has to be in order we got in. So we go to two other places first. I decide not to give him a tip.

- I walk into a room and it's an interrogation room. A guy is behind a desk. (I was watching the show Revolution before bed)

- I'm escaping through the roof, but each time I break through a layer, there is another, different one behind it.

- I'm diving into a lake, wanting to swim in tropical sea. Water is dark and dirty, like a polluted river. I'm trying to make it brighter and it's getting brighter and I'm starting to see gravel on the bottom.

I suspect there was more, but don't remember it.

so, yesterday i decided to use a bracelet that i always wear as a kind of RC. i wrote some numbers on it figuring they wouldn't show up right in the dream. unfortunately it didn't quite work out - i think my mind has turned that particular number combination into a picture, therefore defeating the number test. i did, however, manage to bring the bracelet into two separate dreams (at least - all i could remember) and actually had a 'wait a moment' and did a RC with my bracelet (even if i did fail). plan on still using the bracelet, but imagining something else on it/reminder to do *other* RCs. also trying to be more aware in daily life. ADA. used to meditate a lot, so not that unfamiliar with the process, just out of practice. also, found myself naturally waking up ~4-4.5 hours after going to sleep - around 12/1230am. wasn't sure if that would be the case considering my wacky sleep pattern (i'm trying to force it to normalize yet again).

My partner was out for the night and I fell asleep on the sofa.
I'd done something wrong, although I don't recall what, I was on a boat of some sorts, maybe even a submarine, all of the doors where the rounded type and the walls and floors were metal studded in design. As I walked up a flight of stairs, I noticed a room in front of me with the door open, inside I could see a girl getting ready, she was naked though she made no attempt to cover herself and was completely at ease with her nakedness. As she began talking to me, a guy I hadn't noticed lying on the bed made himself known and it was apparent that he did take offence at her nakedness, what with me being there and all, an argument ensued. At some point during the argument, Martin Ribey, Bri Newby and a group of younger lads from around town came along and took hold of me, apparently I was to be punished for what I'd done - even though I still didn't know what - and they proceeded to hold me down. They put me in a seated position on the floor with one of them holding my arms behind my back from behind. Martin had gone off to gain more evidence and proof of what I'd done and we sat there and waited. By the time he returned, the rest of the group were getting impatient and wanted to give me a kicking. One of the younger lads was getting in my face and preparing to hit me, I was still being restrained and so I said "You're not even going to let me fight like a man then.?" There were like 6 - 8 of them in total, so I guess they figured I had no chance and decided to let me fight. As I was released and stood up, I grabbed the angry lads hair and started to kick him in the face, I had steelies on and so it wasn't pretty, seeing this Martin made a move towards me and so I kicked him in the balls, he doubled over, as he did so I grabbed his hair also and then started to smash both of their faces of each others. Seeing this feat of amazing self defence, the rest of the group turned their tails and beat a swift retreat. I let go of the younger lad as I knew Martin was the one I needed to worry about. We continued to fight until I had him on the floor and was sat on his chest. At this point, he turned into a praying mantis - I know right - and so I started to punch him in one of his eyes until it exploded at which point my partner returned home and woke me.

We had a cup of tea and a fag, then went to bed around 4.30, she got in at around 3am and so I figured an attempt at WBTB wouldn't be a bad idea apart from the fact I'd interacted with her quite a bit, although I was still tired and sleepy, anyhoo, I dreamt about Diesel and Dutchess, I was out walking with them and we went to the shops. For some reason there were a lot of people there from a circus and all had different animals with them, there was a guy with tigers, I saw a rhino and an elephant, the types you'd expect to see, Dutchess was in her element and all of a sudden she ran off barking after a stoat. It jumped into the water and Dutchess wont go in deep water, at this point I noticed a man swimming with dolphins and I knew that if I slapped the water or knocked on the bank, they might come over to me, so I started to slap the water, it felt awkward and so I began knocking on the bank instead, as I'd thought, one of the dolphins came over, the weirdest thing is, it was like I was blind and I couldn't see the dolphin, no matter how I tried, I could feel the texture of it's skin and even felt it's tongue, but try as I might, I couldn't see it. I tied the dogs up with a kindly old man who said he's be happy to watch them for me and I went into the shops. I woke up proper at 8am.

I invited a few friends to my house. One of them lives in north Jersey, the other two I know from a gardening group that I used to be involved in. The gardening people came but the guy quickly left. I was at the house where I grew up. Me and the girl were sitting on the couch. I was offering her beer and coffee but she just wanted water. I was worried that I was boring her because I couldn't keep a compelling convo going. We were sitting with butts touching though on the couch watching tv. Later I went to the fridge to get some food and then I called NM, my friend from No Jers. He answered and said he wouldn't make it. I told him I was mad at him but that I wouldn't hold that anger for that long and it was okay. Next, my landlord called and told me that I couldn't have a party at the house. I told her in strong voice that I wasn't having a party and that she can't regulate that. Suddenly, a party of like 50 people arrived, most were from my high school. I was thrilled about this. The venue became a hybrid of the house I grew up in, my uncle's basement, and the house I currently live in. I saw a guy from my tennis team, CP and we were thrilled to see each other. The party was coming to an end early and I went to see my gf who was doing homework upstairs. There were no partiers upstairs. We slept in a different bed.

I a different dream, I left work with my co-worker MB. We went to a perfume shop, though both of us thought it would be lame. It wasn't. They had all sorts of scents, condoms, and cds. All these homeless people kept coming in and talking to the woman at the register. This homeless guy who I always avoid in town came in and I got angry but the woman was friendly toward him. When we left we saw another co-worker KY. She was drawing or something. There were some people nearby outside of their cars and they were talking about directions. They were headed to the All Good Music Festival. KY had a gps in her car and she went to get it so that she could give them directions. They were a mix of people reminiscent of some people I once met 10 years ago, with one token crazy hippy who said something hilarious (to us) that all of his fellow travelers were annoyed at.

In another dream I went on some kind of hike.

I was at some sort of music festival, behind the stage, OUTSIDE of the festival grounds. There was a full crowd in front of the stage, but I couldn't get in due to a chain link fence with a barbed-wire top. My Chemical Romance were on the stage, and started their set with Famous Last Words. I was rocking out behind the stage, as I could faintly see them. One guy in the crowd noticed I was glancing around for a way in, and he called me over. He handed me a ticket through the fence. I started making my way around the fence toward the front to the entrance, rocking out to MCR the whole way there.

...That is all I remember.

lovely, lovely dreams tonight. nothing particularly unpleasant has been going on in waking life as of late, but these dreams showed up anyhow. slept from about 9 to about 6.

i have spoilered the more graphic parts of the molestation dream for those of you who might be disturbed by it.

in the first dream i am driving around my city at twilight. i remember the exact area where i was -- near the intersection of R-----d & R----n.

Spoiler for click to read:

suddenly i feel invisible hands touching me. it is as if i am sitting on someone's lap but there is nobody there. i am greatly disconcerted. suddenly i am in the passenger seat and a teenaged asian boy is driving, while still touching me occasionally. he pulls into my school's parking lot (it is night now). there are 3 other boys waiting for us as well as an old man. i am nervous. the asian boy introduces me to the old man and tells me that he was the one who was touching me. a girl adds that he is 63 years old and a banker, and gives me his full name. she urges me to tell the police.

later i am in a room with blue walls. there are my little pony posters and merchandise everywhere. i am talking to a woman in her 30s about my experience. i want to tell her the man's name, but i cannot remember it. i get frustrated at this and also about the fact that i am discussing my sexual abuse in a my little pony fanclub.

in the second dream i am in an unfamiliar house. i am sitting on the couch and i am shocked to discover that my ex is sitting right beside me. for a moment i consider that this could be a dream, but the vivid and detailed imagery convinces me otherwise. i get extremely angry. i start yelling at him, asking "how did you get here?" "why are you here?" i don't get a straight answer. i begin punching and slapping him. he barely fights back.
i go do something else for a while and i come back to find my ex sitting on a bed crying. i thought he had left and now i get even angrier. i scream at him and throw heavy objects at him. i tell him that i'm going to bed, and if he isn't gone by the time i wake up "something bad will happen".
i go into my bedroom for a while and then come back. my ex is still there, playing a SNES game on a blue tv. again, i physically attack him and threaten that bad things will happen. i'm furious. the tv says "error, zero zero, error" and then i wake up.

Date: 12/4
Duration: 3-4 mins
Method: DILD (remember waking in the morning and intending to do SSILD but falling asleep)
Scene:
I was having some ordinary dreams and actually two girls wanted to ask me out on a date the same night (!), that led to the feeling that something was wrong
I just got the feeling I was dreaming and there was no "visual" dream, only this feeling. I felt a bit frustrated because I thought I was going to wake up any moment so I started to visualize something but it didn't really work out. I then decided to open my eyes, and I was in my room in my mothers house (where I was sleeping because of weekend visit). I did a RC, blocking my nose and after a few sec I knew I was in a dream.

I thought I should try to do the tasks from the first week because my LD-count has been almost 0 this last weeks. First I decided to throw myself out the window from the second floor of the house. I got a little exited but reminded myself to stay calm and not solidify the window.
I passed through the window with no feeling of there being one there at all and I flew a short circle in the garden and to get to to the ground I thought about paragliding and leaning to my side to ascend easily. I find it hard to control my flying in dreams and normally I just "float around" with little control. Anyways...

Once on the ground I decided to do another task and tried to fall backwards. I had no doubt I was dreaming and it wasn't scary at all. I just fell through the ground like one would fall into whipped cream. It was totally wonderful. I was kind of making a tunnel in the ground and it was so soft and cozy!

Back on the ground I looked around and it was night/dusk and everything had this dreamy glow and extreme contrasts. It was truly beautiful and a man appeared next to me and we were talking about something. And I thought I would try to find a dream guide or "power animal" like the shamans have

Calling out loudly "I would like to find my power animal" several times, there was a blue, upside-down saucer flying next to my head and I shooed it away. Next thing I know, my dog Loke comes running up the drive way and we greet each other with much joy. I realize this is a common scene from calling him many times in "this" garden and he is most likely not a "power animal" or anything (maybe to some extent), but since my dog moved away from me last summer and I have't seen him since, he appears in my dreams a lot (good dream sign?)

I wake up.

Reflection:

I did 3 RC during the dream, rubbed my hands and affirmed I would have a long and stable dream. I think the reason I got lucid was from drinking a couple glasses of wine last night and the rebound effect got me more or less spontaneously lucid.

I noticed that when I am dreaming, sometimes, I have no visuals but its just blackness and I am sort of "in my head". This situation often lead to a LD but I can imagine I miss a lot of these occasions because of lack of awareness. My main goal now is to try to get to bed earlier, drink more wine and also get more LDs!

Puh, long one this time, but its my comeback from mental fog last few weeks.

The number pi, triangle, calculations - that's all I remember from this dream. I think it's a variation on 3 is complete perhaps (another dream).

its kind of odd cuz i had this dream before i even knew about the new mission. this was a semi lucid dream where i found my self captured on another planet but i turned the tables, here it is. . . this took place on Some other world, this guy was holding me and some other people captive and making us slaves. He had some specail lights on that allowd him to to controle us and keep a good eye on us. Some how some one dont know who dissarmd the lights. I came to and seen that he was holding a gun, i made a golf club apear in my hands and swung it at the gun to dissarm him. He then became our prisoner. I then started eating a bowl of mac n cheese with parmisian in it. . . After this is off topic from the dream army but still took place on the same planet. . . I remember picking out some more food from a fridge and pantry. I got a borito some weid looking stuff off a vine. Then i looked behind me and saw maple bar donuts yum i grabed 2. Then i sat down to eat. After that i warped into the middle of a city on the planet. I now felt as if i was immortal and could live forever. There was some kind of consert that took place it was soo good i never heard music ever like it and the band was flying around. I wanted to see and hear it again but it didnt take place for another 200 yrs. So i just started flying around and woke up.

I vaguely remember a total of five different dreams. One involved going to the dentist, but I don't remember anything more about that.
Another takes place in a mansion. I'm not quite sure what, but we are investigating something (again, not sure who 'we' is). Perhaps the murder of a middle-aged/old woman, with short dark grey hair, who seems to feature in this dream. There is also a place we go to think about information we've gained while in the mansion or surrounding grounds; it is a grey, mottled place with no horizons, set with a number of portal-like occurrences, which are either pale salmony pink or light blue (could be either. Don't remember which). When we enter any of the portals, we are taken back to the mansion.
A third dream takes place in a jungle or forest, with a rushing pale blue river. There are groups of people, none of whom I know, and I am put in a group with them. We all receive 'skills' which appear as pale dotted markings on black spheres/circles. Now we have to cross the river/work our way up it (don't remember which - something to do with the river) but to do so, we have to choose new groups. Nobody wants me in their group. This may be because my allotted skill is useless, or because I don't particularly want to join in. I end up in a team because someone whose 'skill' appeared as a pink scorpion engraved on a black sphere grudgingly allowed me in.
In the morning, after I wake up, the only dream I remember at first is the investigation dream (I guess that was the dream I had woken up from), but I rapidly forget parts of it, such as what we were investigating. I spend a moment trying to remember parts of it, with a limited degree of success, and decide I need to write it down quickly. However, I don't, and without realising it, fall asleep again, in which I dream that I have written down my dream. Sadly, by the time I wake up again, I forget even more of the dream, although I can now remember the rough theme of the dentist dream. Now I really need to write it down, but fall asleep again (did I ever wake up from the first dream which I write down my dreams in? Perhaps it was a false awakening). Again, I dream I have written down my dreams and begin to sketch the woman from the mansion one. I wake up for the third time, pick up my notebook, do a reality check and write down my dreams. Half way through, I remember the jungle dream. Later, when my mother is making me a coffee, I remember another dream. I remember the details of this one;
My friend D has brought in cakes and sweets to sell at charities week in the auditorium. I don't buy anything until later, when there are two plastic bags full left. D's stall is set up near the front of the hall, about level with the speaking podium, and comprises of one blue table which is longer than those in real life. I check the bags and see in the one on the right side a box of cakes and ask to buy them. 'You can't buy the whole box' says D. I say that I want to, or something like that, and later, we walk from the auditorium of my current school to the year six classroom of my primary school. Here, we sit on a desk in the room which we weren't in in year six and I ask D how much she wants for the box of cakes. She says £3.75, and I'm not sure I want to pay that much. I have my handbag and have been holding about four pounds ninety in change in my hand for a while now. D leaves. I open the box (which is light blue) of cakes and look at them (I still remember the layout), eventually deciding I don't want them all after all. Instead, I decide to buy a pain au chocolat and put dibs on the éclair when D comes back. Dream ends before she does.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was in the field, brown ground, i was the leader of the warrior squad, there was semi-ruined building that we decided to use for camping, but soon, we were attacked by enemy warriors. We were battling them at our best, but they kept coming. I saw an enemy leader while overlooking the terrain, i sent some of my warriors to deal with him, but they failed. I had to deal with this by myself, but before i went there one of warriors was saying that i should not go for enemy leader. I ignored him and soon was about to attack enemy leader, but it was a trap, leader somehow paralyzed me and then dream ended.

Nap #2(fragment):

I was in some futuristic city and there was facility i was visiting. There was some blue humanoid, that i was calling 'Curdy', and he was operating machine that was making curd. He told me recipe and there was some kind of secret ingredient, then i went to home. There was cutscene happening back at the facility, Curdy went missing and there was dude that was mostly bald and he was in cyan suit. Then cutscene ended and i was back at home, i was trying to eat potato but was very hard to eat, then dream ended.

Nap #3:

I woke up in my bed and i had to move some stuff around room< then i realized that i forgot to take off headphones, i took them off and binaural beats are still playing, so i am dreaming, dream is somewhat unstable so i rub hands on my way to balcony door. Then i slam the door open and fly outside, i feel the wings and i fly around pretty quickly. Shortly the dreamscape changes and goes weird, like two perspectives are overlapping, some parts of it are normal and some parts moving around with my field of view. After i fly over some street it goes back to normal and i decide to attempt transformation into a dragon again. There's not much of result though, my hands only got a bit bigger. I fly through some kind of temple ruins and suddenly my room appears right in front and before i can do anything i crash into the wall in the room. Dad comes into the room(i think my awareness decreased after this transportation...) and we talk about bunch of things that i barely recall, i recall something was about transformation. Then dream fades out and i woke up.

I fall out of a portal on to a horse, a fine young quarterhorse, sandy brown like the desert we are riding through. Raven is riding black mustang with red mane and fetlocks. MoSh is riding a large black horse, and there are others with us. We are running from demon possessed zombie wolves.
We face back, and take out a few with our guns. We ride to a cliff, and make an abrupt turn. The zombie wolves go sailing over a cliff. We ride up a mountain, there is still one chasing us. A well placed shot hitting a boulder above triggers an avalanche right on to the zombie wolf.
(to be con'td)

I lived in this fabulous haunted house. Ant was there - should have been a clue that I was dreaming. He was mad at me but was setting up my drum kit. We were going to a concert, but was going to be very late. We were hungry and went to a drive through - I ordered Birthday Cake number 2. Loved the house with secret rooms.