dream fragment

These are moments that struck me as odd or notable, drawn from a number of dreams over the past four or five months. All non-lucid. Mainly these are moments that disturbed me, the ones I felt had deeper meaning if I had the wisdom to penetrate the veil around them--moments with animals, periods of huge change in the dream, and quiet, dark aspects.

-My ex-girlfriend and now good friend had written a book of life advice. Knowing she wrote it, I spoke to her, and she answered through the pages. I felt a sudden chill of knowing and a measure of uneasiness. She told me to sell everything that I owned.

-An old lady who rode my bus. We got off at the same time. In the midst of mindless chitchat, I started discussing centaurs. She told me, "War is coming. Mars shines brighter than ever. And Pluto." I told her, "I am Pluto."

-The closest I've been to flying, I was on a Skyrim-esque adventure (what a beautiful, wonderful game), and I had jetpacks that shot me up into the air. I'd fall, then launch myself up again. Think Iron Man, but propulsion rather than energy.

-A wooden boat in an underground crypt, like the Phantom of the Opera. I knew it was preparation for something. Later, a Smith Agent reaches into my forehead. I left, and had a strange incident with a dog, which was tied to me, and a squirrel, which I tried to protect from the dog but ended up scratching me. A group of friends took a look at my wrist, rubbed my forehead and reassured me to not feel fear or anxiety.

-A group of schoolmates, who have no drug interest, all took magic mushrooms. They all described it as catapulting the mind into the universe. However, it was intuitively understood that the return to earth would have to be paid in blood.

-First lion dream, my friend had one chained. It ran back and forth, the length of its chain. I lay there. It would sniff me each pass, getting closer. Fear.

-Second lion dream. I'm sitting with a friend in a field, and I see a lion approach. I determine not to move or show any signs of fear, but I know I'm lying, the lion knows, my scent is palpable. He approaches, sniffs me as if to take a bite. Then, the dream shifts. Another friend tells me the lion was shot with a tranquilizer dart from a helicopter.

-In the dark of night, under an underpass in heavy snow, I stumble and fall as I walk with my brother's ex-girlfriend. My hand finds another warm hand buried in the snow, and I grasp it. Fear wakes me.

-An eagle perches on a totem pole, and lets down an ancient runed manuscript that reads: 'Human Yoga.' He transforms into a boy named Sam, though he wishes to remain anonymous and is only revealed by a group of passerbys.

-As I walk in the front door of my home at night, I see unfathomably massive lights in the sky, like great energy beams charging. They briefly grow in intensity (it looks like ancient letters with the Enlgish W, S and A) then fire. With a primal yell, I struggle to slam my front door shut due to the incredible shock wave that sweeps through. Low in the sky, a ship the size of a small city roars overhead.

-A very intelligent, conservative and large dragon was intent on consuming my family, friends and own person. We were in a castle by a forest of evil monkeys, and I was attempting to diplomatically see everyone out of this crisis.

-My brother and I were in an industrial, Spartan-like training complex where boys were trained into soldiers. We found a room with water and boxes. I opened one and pulled out this strange fleshly doll, abnormally proportion (large chest and arms, triangular but human). I dropped it into the water, and remember debating whether to pull it out. I knew it was right to, so I did. As I picked it up, it drew breath.

-I was playing a hunting game. I morphed into a werewolf, but then took to the skies as a pterodactyl.

-A dream of two blind men at different times. One passed me in a hall. The other, I scaled a wall, and he was scaling the opposite way. The guy looked rough, with strange eyes, oozing sores, and an expression of anguish.

-Three large snakes were moving in waves, all as one. There was one tiny white snake that I held in my hand.

-I had three bugs of different color which I noticed were imbedded in my forearm. They began to hurt, and I scratched at them to break free from their painful bite.

-I was driving with my friend in the city, when I noticed a bridge next to us begin to collapse. We were on a bridge, too, and it collapsed behind. As we entered, the buildings of the city began to be broken up and destroyed around us as we drove both forward and in reverse.

-I was missing several teeth. A woman I knew suggested I use various crystals and stones, but they were all too large to fit what was missing.

* This day was more complicated. I went late to bed after some cups of wine...

.../It's night and I'm running around a stadium. There's strange people around. I see a fake taxi getting too close. I decide to go back. In the way I find some wooden toy wagons. I want to try to finish the round riding one of those. It moves fine, although I go in another direction because of it's fun to turn it with my thought. I end inside a supermarket at the end of an irregular queue. I get to a better position in the queue, close to the cash register. The guy behind me doesn't like what I did and he's decided to tell the cashier to take me out of the queue. He points at me while asks the other people if they saw what I did. I'm feeling a little bit embarrassed, although I will try not to pay attention to him...

* The importance about this dream is that I'm starting to make connections between the dreamscapes from other dreams which took place in the same "city". I didn't realize until now, that I could build some sort of map of the whole city which could help me to move better when I get lucid and don't know "where to go".

* After waking up from that dream, I tried to WILD, lying on my side with my arms in front of me, due to some times the dream started when I was lying in the same position although looking at my arms very clear.

.../I'm lying on the sofa when I feel one tooth moving out from its place. I wake up and go to the bathroom. I want to rinse my mouth out. I feel the blood starting to flow. When I get into the bathroom I see the window is open and an old friend of mine, a black cat who lived in the creepy lady's house, is there. I want to turn on the light, although I can't push the switch correctly due to the rush. I try it once more but this time I don't find the switch in the middle of the dark. I see the cat taking a walk inside the bath when I remember he used to do some nasty things to mark his territory. I don't want him to mark his territory on the laundry basket! So I gently tell him to go away, with some drops of water. He goes out through the window...

* Nap after work...

...driving in a highway...
...residual porn advertisement on the screen when I close a window...
...drops of water falling on a light-green and pink leaf...

.../my oldest daughter, climbs on the furniture, jumps and fall on her knees. It makes a loud noise. I want to draw her attention...

.../I hear somebody getting into the house. I wake up and hear something on the floor has broken. I see one of its wooden planks is broken. I want to see how much is it broken. It's about to fall inside a hole beneath the floor. I hold it carefully and see how deep is the hole. It's not too deep. I'm interesting to explore there, but first I have to see who got in the house...

* Sometimes I dream about this place where we moved a couple of years ago.

Woke up and tried to remember any dreams I've dreamt last night but I could not

As the day carried on I happened to see a ex-friends mother and a dream fragment hit me like a bullet:

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In first person I see a crowd of people walking past me, carrying shopping bags and such, I have never been at this place before as the environment is new to me, a small street with gray exterior. Suddenly in the heaps of people walking by I see a familiar face, the mother to a girl I was once fond of.
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From what I can recall from this dream fragment, it feels like I'm an outsider, or a ghost, the people walks by and no one even looks in my direction, maybe they are not aware that I'm there. I can only see one face clearly, the mom's face. The rest of the faces in the crowd is blurred out.

I do not know why, but this particular scene in the dream - concluding that this in fact was a dream fragment and not the whole dream - seems to stand out, and has alot of feelings involved, most likely because of the fact that I was once very fond of this woman's daughter. Nevertheless this is for me a memorable dream fragment, because it managed to stir up old memories.

-Senju

Today my dreams weren't so bad =D (except for the first one maybe)

Fragment 1:
My exams were over and I was in my prom dress. I was wearing the actual dress I bought and my shoes. I was also wearing skin colored tights, but they were to big. Like I was wearing skin colored sweatpants. I was annoyed that it looked so horrible, but I was really happy as well. Because I was wearing that dress.

Fragment 2:
This dream I can only remember words(or the pictures of the word XD )
Fire, garbage, recycling.

Fragment 3:
Again also fragments of fragments...
Stiles Stilinski was hugging me, just friendly hug. Stiles Stilinski was hugging me to comfort me. Stiles Stilinski kissed me. I actually think this wasn't Stiles Stilinski, but it was my DC Damon, but he looked like Stiles Stilinski.

For people who don't know who Stiles Stilinski is. He is a character of a TV series that I watch called Teen Wolf.

Here is a picture of him...

Date: May 5
Sleep Length: 7h
Techniques: DILD
Summary:
(1) I was in a classroom with a bunch of people (about 50), I sat on a seat on a platform, about 3 meters above the floor, together with a friend of mine (v) I remember seeing the ceiling from above, as if I was inside it. We were drawing stuff. A friend of mine (jt) drew mice with blood around their mouths and I drew a naked lady and said "It's a leftover from the last international women's day"... I'm normally not sexist or anything. There was more, but I forgot the rest because I didn't write it down
(2) I was on a journey or something, it was summer I think. Well, it was night and I sat on a table with my father and some strange people (guests, probably friends of my dad). The chairs looked like the chairs from my elementary school. For some reason I had to go outside and walk a few miles.
(3) It was drizzling and I locked a car. very grey, so many clouds. I was in a small village I think. I forgot so much because I didn't write it down.
Vividness/Awareness: 2/2
emotions: indifference
tags: classroom, v, ceiling, drawings;; vacation, guests, table, hiking;; car, drizzle

So, after some things happening here and there (I'm skipping them as this is an entry for the small LD), I suddenly realize I'm dreaming.

I'm in a room, either on a rented mountain house, or a rural hotel, but I was looking at a wonderful mountain view, with people walking around. It's a huge window with a big glass. Everything is crystal clear (or that's how it looks like), full of colours, and I'm once again amazed to how nice and perfect does the brain create this dream-world.

I don't know why but I didn't do any RC. I think that even if I was lucid, I was somehow trapped on the dream, like "drugged". I decided to jump out and fly. When I stepped outside, I saw one of those alarm-control boxes on the wall, with a disconnected orange light. I turned it on with my mind, as some kind of RC.

i have my shoes on but laces are not tied. I decide to tie them, but as I'm doing it I think I'm just losing precious time, and look away trying to remove the feeling of loose shoes, and pretend they are tied up. I can't remember if I did it or not.

Next thing is a nose-pinch RC before jumping, once again I think "it's really amazing how I can feel I'm holding my nose, but I can breath!". I jump and start flying in horizontal. I scream in joy. I move over some small paths with people walking around.

I reach an area with a couple small buildings. There's a shop, and on the reflection I see myself, but I'm walking, not flying. I think "it must be because my brain is used to see me walking...", and then I see another guy flying around. This is really stupid, but on the dream I though that maybe it was some other like me having an LD.

I wonder how many time more I have left because last time I looked at the clock it was 6.30, and alarm hits at 7.00am.

Then I "wake up", but I'm on the street. I notice nothing weird and fall for the false awakening. I drink from a bottle of water (as I alwas do with the one I got next to my bed), but I think that maybe it wasn't a good idea keeping in mind someone else could have used it "while I was away".

Then I wake up for real.

*It was a little bit stressful day, I was more tired than usual. I got to write some notes. It was what I got:

- .../chimps, like porn actors who don't know how to think but how to reproduce...

- .../a police officer in civil clothes tries to follow me. I let him to get confused and lost away...

- .../I see some people gathered like in a TV show. It's something about a game of telling stories. They broke up the vessels. That way, there's no sequel, just 2 episodes...

- .../It's once again the creepy lady's house where I rented a room, it's mixed with one side of the stairs of my school. I'm playing with some cards on a drawing table. then I'm talking with one of my new neighbors who is testing me. Then he dives into the water that appears around the table. I see him getting back dressed in a Fred Flintstone costume. It looks similar although the feet don't match, it's like an inflated rubber costume. He pretends to push the table-boat using his feet to propel the way the cartoons do to move their cars. I laugh because of his feet got stuck inside the costume, at the end it gets deflated on the table with a pair of scratches in the feet, when the real Fred Flintstone jumps out of the water yelling his classic "yabba dabba doo". Then he propels our boat and his boat with that funny movement of the feet. I end standing on the upper side of the stairs which is adjacent to a window. I see from above a couple going upstairs, to the room which is one level down from my point of view. He looks like Woody Allen and he's talking about a test I have to take by killing somebody. That idea disgusts me, I see them reach the door and get in, my Aunt-mom lets them in. Next to me, there's a woman speaking something about Architecture. I realize she forgot to mention something about the walls. I see her graphic floating on the air, then she splits it in two, explaining something about its design. It's like a tutorial or some...

- .../I hit like in a post, then my wife asks me how could I do that if that's a racist post. I review it once again. It's on a newspaper which shows some pictures of a sad Batman comic. I scroll down the comment to read more. It shows a progression of pictures that lead to some UFO's flying on the pyramids. I couldn't like something like that! I should have read it all first, how stupid! Then I want to write an idea which should stand for something like "in order to dislike some facebook post, one must like it first". We are sitting on a table in a park. There are clothes racks with white sheets all around. I cannot write the idea on the paper. Then my wife tells me I have to hurry up because of the bus is coming. I try to write it down with no success. Then she stands up and goes to the bus station. I want to put all my things back in my bag, but it's all a mess on the table. I know I'm missing the bus and she told me she's leaving without me if I'm not ready. I see the bus, and realize it'll be impossible to put all the things inside the bag, I want to pick all things together up and arrange them in the bus, but my mp3 player and some other things are still on the table. I give up, I miss the bus, feeling horrible. I think I can reach the other station first but I don't know how. I leave the things fall on the floor, thinking for what should I do now. I think perhaps I should wait for her at home until she gets back, I'm confused...

I don't actually remember much of anything. I'm pretty sure the girl I like was involved and that it was a good dream.

Yesterday I could again not recall my dream. But today, I could recall a lot.

Fragment 1:
IRL the ink of my printer has to be replaced, I am the only one that knows, because I keep forgetting to tell my dad to get ink. But I dreamed that I was on my laptop watching Youtube video's and my father printed something and the paper came out white, but with a purple square on it (IRL only the black ink has to be replaced, the colored ink is still full). My father showed me the papers he just printed and said 'Yes, ink has to be replaced.'. Which is weird because I hadn't told him in my dream (or IRL) that the ink had to be replaced.

Dream/nightmare:This dream shows my exam stress
I was in the classroom were I have to take my exams IRL next week. I was given my English exam and already started making it, but when I looked up the teacher was still talking and nobody was writing. I slowly closed my test and listen to the teacher explaining I couldn't write on my test, only on my answers-paper. I panicked because I wrote on my test and I didn't have a answers-paper. Than everybody started and I asked for the answers-paper. For some reason I was sitting in a different seat right now. First I was sitting front row in the middle, now I was front row next to the windows. The woman gave me a paper, but it wasn't the answer-paper, it was just a paper to take notes. I had a notepad with me (IRL you can't have that with you when you are making your exams), and started making the test. I turned around to look at the clock and it was huge and I still had enough time left. Than there was something wrong with my calculator (why I needed a calculator for my English exam, I don't know). So I raised my hand and a teacher (a tall small, dress wearing, grey short 'curly' haired) came and I asked her for another calculator and a answers-paper. She gave me a calculator, but not a answers-paper. Than I was hot, because I was wearing a thick scarf and a winter coat. Than all of the sudden it was okay, I was wearing a thin scarf and just a T-shirt. I got passed a note, almost like a homemade greeting card, from the gray haired teacher. It said I was to loud and I wasn't going to finish the test and I should stop asking for paper and stuff and I was awful kid. I was so shocked and so panicked I didn't react. I looked on the clock and thought I still had an hour, but the other male teacher stood up and said that we just had ten minutes. I panicked again. I raised my hand and the gray haired teacher gave me the answers-paper without talking.
As a mad men I started to take over my answers from my note pad to my answers-paper. But I found out that the test had to parts and I only made the second part, but both assignments started counting at number 1. So I had only made the second part. In five minutes or so I made the first part.
Then my dream ended.

Fragment 2:
I was on the stage with two other classmates in front of all my classmates and their (and mine) parents and grandpa's and grandma's and uncles and aunts. It was graduation day and I was getting my diploma and now a teacher was going to say something about me and my other classmates that were on stage.

Fragment 3: followup of my dream
I handed in the paper and collected my writing stuff and walked out of the classroom.


So this dream clearly shows my anxiety's, but when I woke up I felt really confident t that I would make my exams well and that I would graduate.

The farthest I remember back, I was in my room. I realized I was about to miss the bus (a common theme in my dreams as it is a prevalent fear IRL), so I frantically got ready and left. A few things were odd. My dad's girlfriend was there and they were both awake. It was morning, but it was dark (coulda sworn it was nighttime before). There were more people walking outside than there are usually.

I got to my bus stop in time, but the bus drove right past me and almost hit two people. I went to chase it (in retrospect, I'm surprised I could run in a dream), but I realized it was not my bus. As I walked back to my stop, I figured this was unusual and did an RC; lo and behold, I'm dreaming. I feel myself become lucid and I hop into the air. I'm intent on having a world of fun, but the person next to me starts attacking me, making it impossible to concentrate, so I wake up.

Date: May 4
Sleep length: 3h + 5h
Techniques: DILD + WBTB
Dream Summary:
(pre) at first, I remembered another dream because of this dream. dream (1) is a sequel of this dream: I was in a forest with a friend of mine. We used to do drugs in a certain forest, but this time we didn't. It looked like autumn, everything was red. We were at a big hollow and suddenly we noticed a police officer with a drug dog. We laughed and said "Luckily we don't have drugs"
(1) well guess what happens in now. We are at this hollow again, and he got some weird drug. It was mixed with coffee for some reason... He hasn't told me which drug he used though. I thought it was Meth or Cocaine. The effect was more like Weed and a bit Acid though. I blacked out for a moment, when I woke up the drug-mug was under the bench we were sitting on and we were blown away. I tried to stand up and fell down. I was trying to throw away some weird empty blunt which was covered in a yellow liquid. Then we wanted to go away, but of course there was this drug dog again, as expected. We wanted to go away without him noticing, but he already smelled us so we started running. Here's the action part of this dream. I was running and thinking and I thought I was gonna get some "police letter" and I was also kinda afraid of this dog. I realized it's probably too late and turned around. I wanted to keep my dignity. But I couldn't find the police, so I just turned around again and started running again. I ran through the red forest to a field and gradually woke up. When I woke up I continued thinking about running, until I realized it's a dream and I should write it down.
(2) When I was writing (1), I remembered (2). I was playing pokemon like back when I was a kid. It was fun, I tried to catch a rare pokemon. I went to my balcony to play there, it was night and pretty dark. This is really just a fragment, I was hearing voices from a room with an opened window. It was my mother and a guest.
Vividness/Awareness: 8/2
Emotions: trust - indifference - shock - fear - worry - guilt
Tags: drug, coffee mug, forest, autumn, police dog, running;; balcony, pokemon

Hey DV. I had two lucids in a single night a few days ago, I've just been to busy to post about them. I can't recall much from them, but I will say I'm glad because I had four lucids in one month, which is three more than I usually have. But all I can remember is flying in the first dream, and in the second dream I remember pulling an April Fools joke for the TOTM. I'm hoping my recall will get better, as well as my ability to stay asleep longer for longer lucids.

Fragment involving Odin and Thor. And later a fragment involving Persephone, which referenced an older dream where the McKittrick had been a journey to the Underworld.

I'm hanging from a tree, holding onto a branch with both hands, dangling above rows of spears planted in the ground. I believe I've been slipping in and out of a dreamworld, and I need to get back, there's something there I need to accomplish. I consider that this place might also be a dream - but whether it is or not, I still believe I need to get back to that other dreamworld.

Below me, just beyond the rows of spears, there's a woman who reminds me in some fashion of a lizard. If she'll do me a favor that will help me get back to that dreamworld, I promise her a jar of three peaches. Someone else has promised her two peaches to do something different - that someone else is a good friend of mine, but we haven't been able to consult with each other recently, so we've accidentally wound up getting in each other's way. Now the lizard-woman's torn, deciding between the two offers, but I'm thinking it'll work out well for her whichever way she goes.

Yesterday I couldn't recall my dream, but today I had a bit more luck.

Fragment 1:
I dreamed that Damon kissed me. Suddenly I was on a island, that I don't know. I was alone with Damon, I thought, but there were more people around. There was a resort on the island.

Fragment 2:
I was in a bedroom laying on a bed. Damon kissed me and held me in his arms. We were getting 'intimate' when somebody bursted into the doors. Screaming and shouting and falling silent when he saw us. Damon covered me with a sheet and he left with the boy/man to take care of the situation.

Pre pre: turmeric

Wbtb: had 1/3 latte, was more sleepy, so the ld was more stable, but tasks less accessible.

A dream starts with some scenario going while I'm in my bed in ex-bedroom trying to fall asleep. A moment of the usual confusion as I'm uncertain in the darkness which hands I'm moving. I think I'm moving my real hands because I can touch some of the furniture next to the bed. Then decide to make the dream appear, get up and expect to be able to move in the dream scene, which builds now fully around me. With slightly more confidence I go to the other room, where I examine the furniture layout. Contrary to my expectations the room seems very orderly, and nothing stands out to point out this is a dream. It looks suspiciously realistic and as if this is happening now. Then I have a look at the sofa and see dad and bf relaxing on the opposite sides.

I remember I wanted to do the easter egg task again. This time, I decide to just think of it rather than use hand summon to make the egg appear, then look to my side. There is a weird looking plant which is decorated with eggs. I pick a purple colored egg from the plant and remind myself to break it. Yet, the egg feels hollow and light and I'm afraid there won't be anything inside. I hold it for a while trying to make it a bit heavier and fill it with something to see. The egg remains light and I now worry that if I don't hurry up, these mental efforts will make it transform to something else, so go ahead and break it. The initial impression is that there is nothing inside, but as I examine the small pieces of egg shell fallen in, I notice there are a number of miniature banknotes inside the egg. I make a mental note for the journal.

The DCs change positions and now it's mom, dad and bf sitting on the couch and I start asking them questions. Unlike other of my conversations with DCs, these three can actually speak, forming entire complex sentences more or less answering my questions. I believe I have finally come across smart DCs. Unfortunately, I was unable to recall the most of the things they said, and had not been very prepared to ask them more questions either. This is what I remember.

My first thought is to wonder if it's possible those to be the real people I know, where we are all dreaming this here and now. I have some intuition that this isn't the case, but then wonder if it could be that all of us are engaged in this conversation in a different time (like the past or maybe the future), so I ask the DCs about that. My mom's DC starts to explain something about animals having the ability to do something similar to what we are doing now, but humans have lost this ability. I want them to continue explaining and ask them more questions I can't recall. The only gibberish moment happens when I focus too much on the speech and try to apply extra understanding to it. If I casually listen, they continue with their explanations.

The DCs change to other male DCs I don't know, they continue being smart and I feel close to them as if meeting friends I haven't seen for a long time. The conversation continues and I ask one of the guys something about the dream. He makes a remark that long dreams like this can be especially tiresome for some of the participants as if referring to himself. I'm out of ideas for questions, so try to remember the other tasks but the very strong effort to access this hard to reach memory causes the dream the completely collapse and me to wake up.

I do a mental review and still tired continue sleeping.