dream fragment

Not sure if I'm doing this correctly, I'm assuming it's just an online version of my Dream Journal I keep next to my bed. If anyone is reading this & has any comments for me, please feel free to let me know the correct way to write this Journal. I'm new & working on becoming Lucid, I've been lucid only 1 time that I can remember a very long time ago. All of my dreams are only fragmented, I only remember little parts of them, but I guess that's what this journal is for: To enhance my memory.
Last night 1:16:11: I went over to a friends house because he got a new car, 2011 Dodge Challenger. He asked if I wanted to drive it & I said "of course". I was driving around in my old neighborhood with another person, don't remember what he looked like or who he was, I just knew he was a friend. Every time I came to a stop he would bump the shifter into neutral without me seeing him (we used to do this as kids), so I would step on the gas & the car would not go & the engine would just rev up. (pretty funny prank). Anyway, all of a sudden I looked up the street to see the owner of the car coming down the street in the Challenger in reverse really fast. He ended up side swiping 1 or 2 cars, I jumped out of the Challenger I was in & I had to remove a "virtual reality" type of head gear thing I had on my head, part of the car I guess. & then I woke.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

Good morning! Last night was intense, or actually it was this morning, but still. I figured I'll try to become lucid two days in a row, and it worked. I used some galantamine at a WBTB and the dream I had after that was one of the longest dreams I've ever had. First time ever that I actually didn't want to stay in the dream after becoming lucid.

23.30: Sleep

05.00: Fragment
*I'm watching an interracial couple having sex.

05.00-05.25: WBTB - Mantra: I will lucid dream

06.40: Adventure indeed MILD
I'm in a couch with my brother and two of his friends. We're partying or something similar. I get up and walk around the place. We seem to be at some kind of convention, kinda like Dreamhack. I spot a crowd of people and decide to check out what's going on. "He beats them at chess while walking around!" a guy tells me and I can see a chess table and three guys playing. The younger one is walking around the table while he's playing. Apparently that's supposed to be very hard. The crowd cheers and I realise he's beaten them. I can tell his move was very clever. "You walked right into that one!" one of the guys in the crowd tells one of the losers.

I start walking away from the table and suddenly I'm in a grocery store. I walk along the isles and find Monica standing by the freezers. "We should get something we can just snack on at night" I say and I've got pizza in mind. We check out several different kinds of pizza and similar things. I find a very cheap one. "2 kronor for a pizza is amazingly cheap" I say and show it to Monica. She agrees but the brand is something we've never seen before. A guy shows up and is looking for the same kind of food.

The dream skips. I'm in the car with Monica on our way out of town. I spot a stable and know there's a supermarket just a kilometer behind it. I don't know how, but I make the car fly. It's very dark out but I imagine the place just as it looks like. I can see several streetlights and as we fly, the landscape gets clearer. We land outside of a small grocery store, just where I knew it would be. I go and get a ticket for the car. It expires in just two minutes. Weird. A girl working at the store comes up. "Don't worry, he never checks anyways" she tells us. "Ah damn, money well spent" I think. The car is making a very annoying sound.

We check the car for a long time. We open different doors and close them, push all kinds of buttons but the beeping sound won't stop. My brother Martin comes up and shuts it off. We're just about to walk into the store when he grabs my arm. "Buy me two milky ways and some beer". I look at him and I'm getting angry. "When YOUR friends come to MY place, THEY buy ME stuff!" I yell at him. He disagrees and I leave him there. Entering the store I notice it's being renovated. All walls are grey and the floor aswell. I enter a big room and accidentaly kick away a golfball coming towards me. Two employee's are playing mini golf.

"Hey, where is the place you buy food at?" I ask them. They laugh at the accident and points towards a few stairs across the large empty room. We walk across the room and down the stone stairs. We do not arrive at a grocery store, but a swimming hall. My family is there and so is my coworker Björn. They're swimming around a pillar and the water starts at the end of the stairs, there's no place to stand. I notice Björn's got swimming goggles and I put mine on too. They're blurring my vision alot, but I still keep them on when I jump in the water.

The dream skips. I wake up in the dark. We're still in the swimming hall, but sleeping in different beds all around the room. The water is gone. I try to check my alarm clock, but alot of stuff is in the way. It's standing ontop of a TV in the dark and I make alot of noise as I clear the TV. "05.00". People start waking up. My brother Morgan is up, and so is my dad. Soon the lights turns on and everyone but me is up. My dad is standing by the entrance of the room. "My toe has cramps" his toe wiggles. My sisters and my mom wants to wake me up and starts harrassing me. I want to sleep some more so I can dream. "Get out!" I tell them.

They start poking me in the mouth with nail files. My vision is split, and even though I've got my eyes closed, I can see myself on a monitor. I start biting the files they poke at me and bite off little pieces. They keep doing this and I can taste the files, they taste like licorice and they feel very unpleasant against my teeth. I finally get up and start writing down my dreams in my DJ on DV.

I wake up. I get on the computer and onto the chat. I am about to write something like: "Omfg I just had the longest dream ever" but all I manage to type is a very long "-_-" smiley. I realise my DJ entry is there and I read something in spanish. Looks like a poem or something. I am confused and decide to take a walk. I've got a weak memory of just flying and I'm wearing a white shirt. I check my belt for the internet browser buttons. I press one and intend to get on a train site to check for train times. The load is way too long so I open a new window. Which makes me get another white shirt on. Just like internet explorer usually is, it is completely white (?). I walk down the road with my two shirts on, feeling weak and a bit dizzy. I stop at a sandbox for some reason.

A girl clad in black down the road is coming towards me. She's wearing black leather and has a very "emo'ish" look. I look away for a second. When I look back, the girl is gone and replaced by a white cream cake. It's rolling down the road on wheels it seems, and just as it's next to me, the cake changes colour from white to dark purple. A second later the cake starts disintegrating and blows away in the wind in layers. A man shows up. "Hey, did you just see that?!" I ask him. "See what?" he tells me, and the second later, he also disintegrates and blows away in the wind.

"Oh, I am still dreaming!?" I ask myself. This is getting too much. I'm standing outside of a very dark forest and I don't like the feeling of the dream anymore, I want to wake up. I start screaming ontop of my lungs, at first I can barely hear myself, but soon my voice is booming, "WAKE UUUUUUUUUUP!" I start floating upwards and I laugh a little at the entire scenario. I don't wake up right away, but I slowly start to.

I can see my hand infront of me. I am completely paralyzed for a few seconds before I can move again. I get up.

I wake up for real and do a RC right away.

06.40-07.20: WBTB - Mantra: I am dreaming

8.45: Short lucid MILD
I'm by a lake with a few other people. A man, apparently very powerful, is standing infront of me and my friends. He tells us something and two huge green wings emerges from his back. Only one is fully stretched out though, but that's enough for him to take flight. He flies straight up, laughing. I can feel the wind picking up and I decide to follow him. I let the wind take hold of me and my two smaller wings and I start to fly. I fly around the lake two times in a wide circle just for the fun of it, I never get tired of the feeling.

I position myself a few meters above the evil man. "Hmm, perhaps fire will work?" I ask myself as I realise his wings are made out of green paper. I imagine them catching fire and to my surprise, fist sized circles of fire form and eats through the paper in seconds. The man starts falling right away but so am I. We both crash into the water and I get a faint memory of being in the water earlier. I lose lucidity and suddenly we're having a "smoke break" on the dock with my two sisters.

8.45: Insects
I'm sitting at a table with my two sisters. I spot a cross spider spider to my left on the wall. It's curled up in its web and I blow some warm air on it to make it come to live. I know it isn't very aggressive and it fascinates me alot. It starts to crawl out and when I can fully see it, it's alot bigger than I first thought. We all shy away from it and a woman takes it in her hand. "Don't worry" she tells us. Her husband is there and she puts white glue on his head and face. She takes a wig and some fake beard and puts it on there. The glue drips down his face and they tell me their story.

I feel like looking at the spider again. She tells me it's on the ground somewhere. I spot several spiders that looks just like it, but after a closer look, I can tell the difference. They aren't moving either. A cool bug comes running with one its mouth and I flick it away. My hands starts stinging and I notice a few fireants. I flick them away aswell and look where I'm standing. I'm in a fireants nest, and they're crawling up my boots. I shake them off and stomp my feet to prevent anymore from going up my legs.



10.30: Party
I'm at a big house by a lake. There's a party going on around me and they've put up tents. The sun is shining as I walk around the place. I spot a very hot girl in a yellow bikini. I'm having a hard time keeping my eyes off of her, but I force myself when her big latino boyfriend gives me a stare. I walk for a few meters and then turn around. Felix tells me that the girl was checking me out for a long time. "I don't want no trouble" I tell him. I get a text message, it's my dad.

10.30: Party ended
The dream doesn't skip, it's a new one. I'm at the same place, but the party has ended. It's dusk out and everything's very quiet. I know the world is about to change real fast, and I have to find some survival gear. My brother Morgan is there and I grab him. Some other boy, who looks like a tiny orange/brown alien shows up and I realise we have to take him with us. I chase him a bit, we all plunge into a pool and I help him up. Earning the trust of the alien boy, I can finally start looking for gear. I enter the house and my two sisters are on a couch. "Where is the gun?!" I ask them. They point at a box by a drawer.

I open it and take out two guns. They're very heavy. Morgan grabs one and I tell him he can never, ever touch it. There's still ammo left in the clips, but I want some more. I rumage through the box and find a few keys, an army swiss knife, and sharp metal objects. All of a sudden, my vision changes. I can see the lake and I can hear someone on a radio. He's over the lake in the town and he's on his way over. I shoot with a mini-gun and he laughs. "That's gotta be heard halfway across town". An old man across the lake appears in the enormous hole I just blasted in his house. "You leave me alone you teenagers!" he yells at me, waving his shotgun.

10.30: Fragment
*I'm at a table and my sister Malin is singing. Her voice is amazing. When she's done I remember her being in a choir. "She's great at both singing, and drawing" I say.

Amount of sleep: 10 hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3, 1 x Lucid Dreamer at WBTB

That's it! Awesome. My sisters were in almost all my dreams last night. They just came home from Egypt and I'm seeing them for the first time in a few weeks. Also why I dreamt of survival was because I thought for a while about it last night, what to buy and so on. Pretty amazing, perhaps thinking about it before bed would be even better? Inducing a dream that is. Gotta try that...

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Day 4 - The 16th of january 2011

Today i only had a very weak dream but i could not remember it! I got out of bed, took a cup of coffe and went down to my computer. My msn was running and suddenly a guy comes online: Ruben.
At that moment i remembered a fragment of this nights dream:
- This guy (Ruben) wrote something to me. it was something like ''Hey check this out'' followed by a link. i wrote back to him and agreed it sure was fun/interesting/lame or whatever it was.

We rarely write to each other since he is my dads IT helper etc. so i only ''use him'' if i got big issues with my computer

Note to self:
- dont oversleep (slept from 00.00 to 11.00 AM)

Day 1 - 13th of january 2011
This is my first day of training to become a lucid dreamer. I found myself a little notebook and a good pen to be at my bed side. I am going to try remembering my dreams in more detail.

This first night didnt give me much and i only got fragments of one dream:
- Was doing some math assignments and i had some trouble doing them
- i was fustrated
- My good mate came and helped me

Notes to self:
- Search the internet for more tips for new lucid dreamers (found this forum - yey!)

[This is a catch-up post. This dream is from the night of December 30-31, 2010.]

I'm in a classroom in Britain. We're playing a game that involves the chalkboard, and walking in between two desks.

I'm in a room (possibly a hotel room; there's a bed in it, anyway) with Q [from Star Trek: The Next Generation]. I attempt to walk through one of the walls of the room, but get stuck halfway through it, and yell at him for messing with me. He manifests a bouncy ball made out of water, and we both bounce it back and forth.

[Dreamskip.] I'm still in that same room, but now I'm lying down on the floor under the bed. I'm stuck there somehow and can't get up. Q and some random (apparently) human woman are having sex on the bed. It's way too hot and stuffy in the room, and I'm starting to feel like there's no air in there. I get up and open the door. There's a screen door behind it. Later, I explain to Q why I did that. I say, “Did you forget that I needed oxygen to breathe?” He doesn't seem to mind that I opened the door.

I'm at a party with my mom and a bunch of her teacher friends. We're all on an outdoor patio of a restaurant at first, and then we all get into a rectangular ride vehicle that [somehow] works as a Gravitron. We all strap ourselves into our seats, and the vehicle starts moving forward. While it's moving, I look at a door on the side of the vehicle, labeled Door #6. I don't think it's closed all the way, so I reach over and try to close it, but I end up opening it. This makes the ride shut down, since I've just depressurized the cabin, and makes everyone else on the ride angry at me. A voice over the loudspeaker says, “Next time, the useless will have no reason to be here.” I defend myself by saying, “I didn't know how to close it!” An alarm is going off. I woke up at this point.

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Side notes:
I realized after I woke up from this dream that, for the second time since I've been keeping a regular dream journal, sense data from my real body came through into my dream. In this case, it was so cold on this night that I slept with all the blankets pulled up over my head. I really was trying to breathe hot, stuffy air in reality, so that became true in my dream, too. I think that's a pretty cool phenomenon.

January 15, '11,
I had a false lucid dream.
I was in a neighborhood, lying in a hammock. There may have been a cat lying with me. I was thinking of my childhood until I fell asleep. I felt vibrations in my body and somehow focused on a point in front of my face, and I exited my body (my dream body).
I don't remember what happened next, but then I had a false awakening in which I started writing down the dream I just had. (should have done a reality check after waking). I wrote that I had thought I was Homer Simpson.

Then, in a later dream, I was in school, looking at an online comic. Parts of the comic moved and I thought it seemed very dream like. But I didn't pick up on the hint to become lucid.

Me and 3 family members are sitting at my dining room table. We are dealing put cards. One member is trying to teach another member how to play the game. I am trying to help. Unfortunately we gave the rules for playing with 5 people rather than four but we sart anyway, and mess up the whole game. It takes us a whole round to realize our mistake.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, Dream within a dream, [Commentary made while awake]

[This is a catch-up post. These dreams are from December 24-27, 2010.]

Night of December 23-24

I'm playing Neopets, and I somehow obtain an item that makes a particular level of a particular Flash game easier.

I'm with P. in a hotel/bookstore. It's 12:30 A.M., according to an analog clock. [That's what my handwritten notes say, anyway.]

I'm at my high school, once again visiting the second row of portables located a little distance to the west of the main campus. [These portables don't exist in real life, but did appear in a previous dream, namely, the last dream in this DJ entry.] I'm walking around with no shoes on. As I climb up the steps into one of those distant portables, I wonder whether I'm going to get in trouble for that.

Night of December 24-25

[I only have a very vague memory of this dream, especially now that I'm reconstructing it from handwritten notes this long after the fact (1/15/11). I've reconstructed it from my handwritten notes as best I can.]

I'm at dream!Disneyland, watching a video in a theater. I also have a lucid dream within a normal one. When I first realize that I'm dreaming, I try to fly, but I can't. There are three DCs there, one of whom introduces himself to me and to the other two, and says something about how he isn't sure if we've met in reality or not. [Hmmmm... very interesting.] I actually tell the three of them that I'm dreaming. I get a second shot at completing a mission, and this time, I succeed. The mission involves saving the son of some teacher from someone. To complete it, I have to go into a room full of computer workstations and press a red, rectangular button that I find on someone's workstation. I couldn't find it the first time. At the end, when everything around me is blowing up [I think], I'm lying face down, going, “Please be a dream... please be a dream...” because I'm convinced that it's reality.

I wake up out of my lucid, back into the regular, non-lucid dream I'd been having before.

Night of December 26-27

I'm riding along on my bicycle. A mechanical arm attached to an overhead conveyor belt grabs my bike and pulls it into this big, elaborate, two-story construct that's a combination of a maze, a play structure, and an amusement-park ride, with me still on the bike. I think, I thought things like this only existed in dreams! I didn't think anyone had actually built one as a ride! [LOL, more dream sign fail...] I'm excited to be going into it, though, because I know it's an amusement-park ride/activity and it'll be fun. The conveyor belt goes up at an angle, taking me up to the second floor. When I get there, I get off my bike and go inside a room. Other people are there, including some real-life friends [I think; I don't really remember who now]. We're all role-playing that we're scientists in a laboratory [I think], because that's part of the ride.

The next thing I remember is realizing that being put in [artificial] danger is also part of the ride. I run toward the double doors through which I came into the room and open them by punching them. They swing outward, and I see that I've opened them just in the nick of time – just after the doors open, I see a locking bolt on one of the doors shoot out automatically. If I hadn't opened the doors when I did, we would have been locked inside.

[I don't remember the transition to the next scene.] I'm in a large bike repair shop. My red bike [the one I have in real life right now] has been taken here, and I want it back. The female DC who runs the bike repair shop gives it back to me, along with a brand-new pair of long black-and-gray bicycle shorts, which are lying in a particular spot on the floor, waiting for me.

[Fragment] Something about a [different] female DC who is infected with some kind of microbes that, when active, cause her body to become excessively warm.

The scene starts with lights upon a guitar. As soon as there is a solid awareness of the guitar it instantaneously shatters into pieces. The guitar strings elongate and distort to become the legs of a real woman dancing on Broadway.

A marionette puppet walks by on its own accord.

The Broadway gal sticks her long lizard-tongue out at me as she slowly but surely turns full reptilian. The puppet walks on alone, somberly through dark corridors. A large butcher knife comes down from the ceiling and cuts the puppet in half. The puppet reattaches itself and stands up to escape, but the butcher knife comes back down and dices the puppet into neat little squares, and then minces it into bits.

The bits of marionette puppet instantly ignite afire, engulfing the world’s oceans. I see the world, with all it’s oceans on fire. Dolphins, ablaze, jump into the air and hang for a moment before sinking under waves of flame. The clouds, too, were on fire and angels fell from the sky.



I stand alone and scream in agony before graphically tearing myself in two to the bone. My skeleton catches fire. With the entire world ablaze, it looks like a fireball. It incinerated into a tiny burning ember in the center of a baby’s eye. I pan out to see the baby in full view as the butcher knife reappears dicing the baby to bits. The puppet somberly reenters with a broom and dustpan, to sweep the bits of baby up and dump it into the garbage.

I had a very long dream last night that lasted the whole night (sprawled over multiple dreams). Sadly I only remember chunks (thankfully large ones) so here goes:


It all starts off with our family heading off to a friend’s house. The family we are visiting doesn’t exist in real life, and I am not sure if I actually knew them in the dream either. Anyway, we are at their house, it is daytime, their house is long and rectangular, and it is plopped in the middle of a field. Tthere are no roads and the grass is rough and short in all directions as far as the eye can see with no trees. We are eating and fellowshipping and “getting to know eachother” I suppose. I don’t quite remember the transition, but I somehow end up shrunk and inside the body of the father with some mission do destroy revolting red blood cells or something.
I don’t really remember most of this section, however there is a part when I am trying to destroy some evil red blood cells (they are about as big as 3 or 4 life rafts and as tall as my chest. Everywhere is red, I don’t recall if I had a breathing device or not. But there are strands, and tissues, etc. I meet this man in there (which later in the dream my memory changes to me having met a girl which I later actually fall in love with in the dream) and he sort of follows me around and helps me out. He warns me of the white blood cells, where if they see us they will attack and dissolve us in an instant. Why of course right then and there approaches a white blood cell and I start scrambling around trying to escape.(Basically they are like white versions of the red blood cell with a little more goo). Inside the body was basically like a giant cave that twisted in all directions with strands of red flesh (sorta like pillars) everywhere. However as we were in fluid, you could sort of run/swim/float around. I have a hard time trying to escape the white blood cell as I find it difficult to move. I am again transferred to my next part of the dream.


This part of the dream happened, then was constantly referred to throughout the rest of the dream so I am not sure EXACTLY when it actually happened. I am just placing it here. In the dream we are in a building ready for a wedding. Supposedly me, this girl (we will just call her Suzy, because she looked similar to a character I know called Suzy. She was also the daughter of our friends father in the previous section), and this “friend” of mine (Though Suzy was supposedly the one that helped me out in the body episode, it could be also that this “friend” was the one as well. So though it was one person, it resulted in two dream characters) are all getting married. As odd as it is, it is supposedly me and this guy both marrying Suzy. We supposedly had this great adventure and became extremely strong friends (and I fell in love with Suzy, and though it was in the dream, it felt like real love, not just simulated). This adventure I don’t remember (though I did get brief flashes of the adventure (false memories that I can’t recall), OR it could be the last part I recall of the dream, which I think it could have been in part (though Suzy didn’t actually appear that much in it, and the “flashes” show a lot more team involvement), which I will get to in a bit. As for the building, it had a back room where we were walking out of, connected to a really looong room (same dimensions from front to back, but very long from left to right) with seats then a concave area where there was a small stage where we walked to and stood. The ceremony started, and I couldn’t help but notice that my family was just barely visible around the corner to the right. Constant thoughts of regret, nervousness, and worries kept creeping into my head. Not only was one that I had confirmed never to get married (a reality in real life), but there was something I knew about this guy that scared me with the idea of him marrying Suzy. Also, I most certainly didn’t want to have this guy marry Suzy alongside me. So when it came to my turn on the vows, I sort of stood there silenced and worried. At this point I noticed a tear going down Suzy’s face, which almost hurt to watch. However, I translated it as a, “Why are you doing this? Don’t do it, you don’t have to sacrifice yourself for me!”. I stopped, told everyone I had to wait a moment, then ran down the left of the room (far off) to think. I think it was my dad (maybe mum) that came up and asked what was happening. I explained that I really didn’t want to have a double marriage like this, and the reason I was doing it was because the guy I knew could get really violent, and once the passion or infatuation wore down with him, it wouldn’t be long until he became one of those husbands that abused his wife. So for this I wanted to be able to keep an eye on him. I don’t remember quite the conversation that happened, but I was then convinced for me to jump out of the marriage. So, I walked back up onto stage and pronounce something along these lines (on the spot, all while thinking furiously of what to say. Also, I was unable (and still am) to recall Suzy’s and the guy’s actual names) “I have decided it is best for me to cancel my part in this marriage, so that… the marriage… will rather be between … (trying to remember their names) just two friends… (some other blubber that completely embarrasses me, that I don’t recall. It was a made up reason for why I was doing it, because I couldn't just pronounce that the guy would beat his wife). I then walk into the back room sad, tearing (teering? … that is to say watery eyes) a little. I pull out a picture of Suzy and start looking at it, though for some reason her head is wrong and I try to think of ways to fix that.


This next section is spread throughout the dream, but I will just place it here (it was also quite short). I don’t remember most of it, but it took place at my grandmothers old house. She was (and is) dead at the time, and I somehow inherited the house. It involved my dad sending me out to have a new key made for the lock (so that the lock would be different and the workers couldn’t get in to steal things). No matter what I tried I couldn’t get the info of where the key mold, nor the locksmith were and dad would get increasingly angry whenever I asked (which is a ton more frightening in dreams than in real life). I had to take the car (which was my grandmothers old car I guess) and try to find it. I never made it out of the driveway before this section ended. (this is the one out of place part of the dream)


This last section greatly resembles parts from the series “Keys to the Kingdom” written by Garth Nix (Heh, you can tell what I have been reading recently -.-" ). I don’t exactly remember where it starts, but there is a section where Suzy and I are on this giant creature (Intelligent, could talk, and it flew. Perhaps giant bird? Though I recall the flesh had no feathers and was leathery-like, though not a dragon). The creature was evil, and was taking us to the edge of the world I suppose. We could somewhat steer it, but with difficulty. There were lush green islands in the sea, and the sea was a rich blue as we passed over it at fast speeds. I could see large waves rolling by, until I noticed the “edge” of the sea. It was like a constant crashing wave (very tall) made out of cloud, or mist. I don’t remember my thinking, but for some reason I thought it was good and we steer the creature t’words it a little. As we just barely pass through things become black’ish and sort of flash a blue tinted world as the creature laughs manically. I then hear a friend (a large sailor guy) in my ear (though somehow he is back at wherever we came from) shouting “What are you doing? Come back, that world is dangerous and just being there will kill you!” (It was more of a different dimension than a different world) I struggle with the creature trying to get it to go back. With great effort the creature (which has now turned into a thin-paper like creature) turns around and we fly back out. Some part of the dream I don’t remember happens, that is really important. One small section of it that I DO remember is I am on an island where I meet up with “The Will” in its fish form (so the third part I suppose, though it’s personality was different, though just as stupid and frustrating). The next section I remember is I am on a different Island. It is dark around (perhaps I am inside? It isn’t actually dark “outside”) viewing this evil lady in a room who supposedly stole power from me. She knows I am there and there is some conversation between us, something happens to her, I don’t remember, but it all results in me being captured with the intent of me being killed. The people on the Island all support her, so there is a large crowd near the edge of the water where Suzy and I are led. (Really “Suzy” doesn’t appear much in this section, but she is always sort of “there”) We are to be thrown over the edge to this shark. At this point the dream switches to 3rd person, where the rest of it had been 1st person. I am looking down as these huge jaws come out of the water and I am thrown into them. The jaws close, and I can feel it swallow (though I am watching this happen to me from far away). It goes under where it reveals that large sailor guy, my “friend”, and the fish (the will, which supposedly informed them of where I was) below the water next to the beast (which is supposedly friendly, and not a shark at all. Chosen to fool the evil lady because of its large jaws) . They struggle a little to get the thing to spit me out, which it then does with a shark-like equivalent of a last-effort puppy face and I am given oxygen from a large scuba-tank like device. Next comes Suzy, same story as me, just repeated. Something else happens in the dream I don’t remember then I gradually wake myself up.

So yeah... very long story that spanned over multiple dreams. I don't usually share these dreams that have personal parts to them (such as the marriage), but for whatever reason I decided to share this one. The dream itself felt like it lasted for 3-4 hours. Whether this is accurate or not, I don't know.

1- The Van
I don't remember the details (of which I am extremely grateful), but I go into a van with some woman and something incredibly disturbing happens. (And not the good kind of disturbing, either.) Fortunately, I'm not sure what it was. Shortly afterward, my brother experiences the same thing.

2- Clubbing
I am leaning against a wall, arms crossed sternly, watching everyone dance. Who's idea was this, again?

3- Untimely Deaths
My father dies unexpectedly. As a result of this (though for some unknown reason), my mother decides to divorce Chris. Somehow my brother gets control of our house and is planning to kick me out, so I'm making preparations to live somewhere else. Everything is in turmoil.

At my grandparent's house, we are having a viewing of the body. My dad suddenly comes back to life for several minutes, then keels over and dies again. Through it all, I am trying my hardest to hold myself together.

After the re-death incident, I am sitting around the table with some of my relatives. They are beginning to give me lectures and preach to me about how it's deeds and faith that get you into Heaven. I'm wondering WHY they're telling me this. I can't tell if they have found out about The Van incident or if they learned of my conversion. Either way, it's highly embarrassing.

Toward the end of the dream, my brother dies for unknown reasons. My mother and I decide to move somewhere else and start anew. I am writing a letter to someone (the same MORON who's been in my dreams the past few nights. Why do I keep dreaming about him?) explaining what has happened.

1/15/11 - Walking in the Dark
Dream Non-dream Lucid

I was on my front porch, standing under the little light in the ceiling, talking to someone. I told them to stop talking, that I needed to examine the dream some more. I looked around and stepped outside. It was pitch dark out. I walked further and still could see no light, all I knew was that I felt concrete beneath my feet. I held onto that feeling.
I looked up, and could barely make out the outline of the moon. I decided that it should be daytime, and willed the sun to rise. An orb of light rose up into the sky, but it faded away quickly. I tried saying it aloud, "Sun, rise." Nothing happened. I turned around and looked back at my house. All I could see was the small glow coming from the front porch. I walked in that direction...and I don't know what happened after that.

I remember being in a classroom, with a bunch of kids from my old school. I was with Mary and Hannah, as usual, and we were talking about something. Just when class was about to be let out, there was a loud booming sound. Rain was pummeling down outside, and lots of water was blowing in through the open windows. Everyone crowded together on the floor, in the middle of the room, as the booming continued and be could see sparks of electricity right next to the windows. It was a really bad lightning storm. After several minutes of sitting there and witnessing the storm, it died down, and the thunder and lightning stopped. The teacher told us we could leave. I was pissed because the book I'd been reading was soaked. Then I woke up. I wish I'd remembered the task of the month!

NOTE: I was already awoken like five times this morning, this was a very short dream. The kind you have when you go back to sleep at like 8:00 A.M.

I dream we're heading to battle. We're all in Marine armor from Starcraft II. We see our opponent. Suddenly, I become lucid without dream signs! Armor? Yeah, don't need it. I fly up into the air and blow the armor off. I grin at my enemy, who looks scared now. Then, I awake to my brother's loud foot steps! Hey, what the hell man?

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Finally I got my sweet sleep. Took some B6 last night and got a few long dreams early on, but my recall is a bit weak tbh. I did have a lucid, but sadly it was early during the night and the dream didn't last long.

02.45: Sleep

05.25: Bear attack DILD/MILD
I'm out walking with Monica when all of a sudden a bear shows up. As bears are my mortal enemy I get scared shitless. We try to run away from the monster but it's impossible. Monica goes limp all of a sudden and hits the grass. I try to lift her up but I think I left her.
The dream skips. I wake up and go to the bathroom. I'm in Monica's dad's house. He's shaving in the bathroom. "Hi Matte, have you seen Monica?" he asks me in a serious voice. "Oh shit... the bear!" I remember and I realise he's pissed at me. I get out of the house. Outside I can tell I'm at my grandma's house. The bushes are really narrow and I have to squeeze through to get out on the street. I realise I'm dreaming and I decide to fly some. It doesn't work right away, I feel just as constrained as I just felt by the bushes. After a few jumps I am flying down the street. I jump from roof to roof.

05.25: The facebook experience
It's christmas and I'm at my cousins house. All my relatives are there and an old classmate of mine, Matilda. We're talking and she's getting on my nerves. I am pissed when I decide to stop talking to her. "Why the hell would she say stuff like that?" I ask myself and sit down at the dinner table. We're just about to have eat and everyone's seated. They all start slandering me, pissing me off so much that I leave the table. They all laugh. It feels awful to get picked on like that and I decide to go get some fresh air.

I'm sitting by the sidewalk when my mom comes out with a present for me. "Here, open it" she tells me. I remove the red wrapping paper. It's a pillow with the "Facebook" logo and some slogan on it. I get it now. The pissing me off part and all that shit was my christmas present. A big fucking joke. I have never been so mad in a dream before. I scream myself hoarse and yell for a long time at my mom and everyone inside.

05.25: Fragment
*I'm about to play "Cluedo" with a few people. I bring up the game and try to tell them all the rules. I get an idea on how this could be used as a beer game one day.

09.30: Work #1
I'm at work and I'm trying to compress the ground with a remote controlled machine. I'm close to a wall on a small slope, and ofcourse the thing goes down the slope towards the wall. I shut the thing off before it damages it. I inspect the low concrete wall going along the water, it's all crooked and is leaning dangerously. I ask Björn about it and he tells me it's supposed to look like that. An excavator helps me with the stuck machine and I'm handed a smaller one. It's a super fast remote controlled car.

I go back and forth over the snow and make tracks in it. It's incredibly fast and I'm having a blast. All of a sudden the car goes through the ice. I can see it through the ice, stuck just where the water begins. I get on my knees and thrust my hands down and grab the thing before it sinks. I get wet all over as I fall down. Björn laughs at me.

11.00: Work #2
I'm with a few other coworkers and we're about to go in on a coffee break. I spot a girl at a small tree we've planted and the other guys start talking about how hot she is. I recognise the girl as an old classmate and I decide to go say hi. She smiles at me as I greet her. She seems a bit slow, like she's on drugs. The tree she's been hanging in has broken in half and she's trying to fix it. "Want some duct tape?" I ask her and spot some on the ground. "No thanks, I'll be fine" she tells me. We erect the tree.

She tells me how she's been at the psych ward because her girlfriend (apparently she's lesbian) had some major breakdown. She tells me how she also had one. I tell her about how I was worried I might end up in one as I think too much. "I'll be fine" I say and tells her I have to go. "Alright, hugs and kisses" she tells me. I walk up to her and give her a hug, she laughs and gives me a kiss on the cheek. I walk up some stairs and when I'm reach the top, there are no stairs going down the other side, but a very nice beach. I've ended up at a hotel next to a beach.

The weather is very pleasant. The sun is shining and I can feel the warm air. I walk down a few stairs in slowmotion, and run towards the hotel. "I wonder why I always run in slowmotion when it's hot outside" I think for myself. I enter the hotell and end up in my room. All my friends are there with their computers. Monica is also there but she doesn't seem very happy about us having a LAN. "Hey Matte, you can sit here" my friend G tells me and points at a tiny desk with a box for a chair.

11.00: Work #3
I'm at work once again. I hear a crash and I spot a car at a crossover. He's hit a little girl. Me and my coworkers start yelling at him, calling him names. We have a long discussion on how stupid he really is, but the driver doesn't seem to get it. He goes off and me and my friends decide to chase him down. We run along the road and soon we spot him stuck in traffic. I grab some snow and throw it at the car, my friends do the same. The guy gets out and we all start running back, digging through large piles of snow.

Jonas comes out of one and I kick him by accident. "Oh shit, I thought it was him. Why are we running by the way? We're three and he's just one" I say and we stop. The guy shows up and Jonas drops him with a kick to his face. He falls down with an "Ouch!". He gets up and I decide to take him on. I hold my hands up and dodge to the left and right like a boxer would have. We fight like two pathetic drunks and I can't seem to land a single hard punch on his face. I try to spin around and kick him but my kick doesn't hit anything.

12.00: Tekken
I'm playing Tekken with my brother Martin. He chooses a very strong character with a staff. He almost kicks my ass before I see a pattern to his attacks. I kick him out of the map and I follow aswell. I win the next round and I'm surprised the character I'm using is this good. We start playing different mods to the game. Old nintendo 8 bit game themes are used to make the game more interesting. We play a hockey game and it is just like the old one. "To unlock the tekken mode, you need bla bla points" it says on the screen. Suddenly I'm watching some doctor using a cartridge doll to perform some operation. The belly of the doll is filled with electronics.

12.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 9 hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3, 150 mg B6

That's it! That was my 50th Lucid since I began recording them! Requires some celebration. I will go for the G+C combo tomorrow with a WBTB if I am allowed to. This is the first time I've had dreams about work when it looks almost just the same as reality, kinda cool.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

First of all, all of my entries are supposed to say 2011 but I wrote 2010, sorry!
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My Mum and I were stuck on this cliff kind of thing. There were two sides seperated and a thin bit connecting them in the middle. We were on that bit, our legs hanging over one end, and our faces the other. Below us was another boulder (We were high up, I say boulder because I don't know how else to describe it). I somehow felt like we had been in the situation before. I kept spitting on the boulder below us and somehow writing on it with my mind or something. My mum kept telling me of for doing this but I still did it, one time I nearly spat on her. I started to think I should get down but was a little worried because the boulder curved down so I could easily slip.

After a little thinking I was suddenly on the boulder with the show, The Office. Toby did something bad and he got told off, so he kind of ran a little like a little kid.

I was now sitting at a table on the boulder with members of The Office and Family Guy writers, Seth MacFarlane and Alec Sulkin. I talked with Seth and everyone else didn't say a word. Mostly we talked about twitter and I was complimenting him and he would joke around.