dream fragment

My internet at my house has been out for a couple days, as people weren't around to pay their bills. Therefore, this is going to be a pretty long update - 5 updates since the last time I updated!

12/26/2010 - First Person Shooter and Real Time Strategy

I was on a space station. I entered a large room and picked up a couple weapons (one of them was a gun like the ripper in Unreal Tournament). I entered a large chamber that was open to space. I recall looking up and seeing a number of stars and the planet that the space station was rotating around. I saw a large creature that was channeling what I can only assume was the power to destroy our galaxy. Needless to say, I engaged it.

Since we were open to space, there was little gravity, so I was able to flip around all of the elevated floating platforms in the area. I began flipping about, him remaining stationary while shooting beams of energy while I was firing my Ripper. Sadly, they were ineffective. I switched to another weapon to continue shooting him, but there was a tingling sensation as his channeling began to become powerful. I could feel the hairs on my arms begin to stand on end.

I landed on a platform high up, and spherical orbs of light inside a ring began to converge on the center of the platform. I knew it was too late. The disks circled the platform..the orbs shot out and then converged. There was an ear-deafening boom...and the galaxy was gone. I woke up.

12/28/2010 - Helping a Brother

I returned home again, and sadly my dream recall suffered, as I was sleeping on my house couch again.

I remembered that Eric had asked me a few nights before to wake him up and make sure that he went to the airport to pick up his girlfriend. I assisted him in waking up and helped him get all of his stuff together. I then woke up, realizing that this was a false awakening.

1/2/2011 - Dream Fragments - Free-running and Lightsaber Duel

I had two dream fragments this night. I know that in my 3rd dream of the night, there was a lightsaber duel, but I can't recall specifics. I also recall that I was free-running around an Arabic city in my 4th dream.

1/4/2011 - Zombies (again)

I was traveling through an abandoned city with James, Lane, Shane, and I. Lane was wielding double pistols. I was carrying something tech related, but I didn't actually have weapons (bad call, I know). James was decked out in odd vagabond clothes and double Uzis. Shane had a shotgun and a metal bat.

We fought our way to a safe room that was in a room high up in an apartment complex. It looked like a hotel room, however. There was a device outside the room that apparently controlled the heat exhaust for the entire building. I was concerned with the level of energy that the building was putting off, and realized that if I were to change the settings, we could conserve energy - but make ourselves more visible to zombies (apparently they have heat vision in this dream). The setting I picked helped us save energy. However, a zombie ran up the fire escape to confront us. I ran inside.

I slammed the door behind me with the zombie's upper torso and arm stuck in the doorway. I shouted at Shane to come over, who readies his bat and bashed the zombie's head in when I opened the door. Lane and James then ran out of the room upstairs in order to apparently take care of more zombies. Shane shotgunned the zombie's lower jaw off.

I changed the setting on the device, and once I had changed it James and Lane returned. Lane was bloody and said that he had been bitten. I saw his inventory with 17 bullets in his double pistols. We yelled at my brother to make sure that he wasn't bitten either. Lane hands me his pistols and takes off his arm guard. I wake up to a text message.

1/5/2011 - Australia

My dream started with an intricate flyover of the white, sandy beaches of Australia. We (myself and I'm not sure who else) were having a good time on the beach. We talked about all of the animals there and I recall looking down in the water and vividly seeing an eel that I walked across in order to not get shocked. I wanted to take pictures, but I forgot my camera back with my family. I was really devastated. I started to call my mother in order to ask where the camera was when I woke up.

I stood up and glanced around. I then made my way to my computer tower to look for my camera. I realized that it didn't make much sense for me to look for the camera and I did a reality check, but it was just me sleep walking.

Tonight I'm going to try to record three dreams and attempt to wake up enough to WILD during that third dream cycle. We'll have to see how it goes. This next weekend is going to be stressful, as I'm going to be doing conferences and retreats, so I might not write in my journal for a couple days!

My mum had just cooked curry for dinner and my sister and I were about to start eating it in my room. There were a few flies flying around so I had to keep hitting them away. I got up for a second and when I got back there were a couple of little birds, crickets and flies on my food. I was trying to hit them away but they wouldn't move, and the bird pecked me. So I put my bed sheet around me, as I only had boxer shorts on and went and got the fly spray. When I got back the birds had gone and the animals had almost finished my food which had turned into bones, with a tiny monkey now eating it aswell. But I still sprayed them all, even though the fly spray had very little left. When I put the fly spray back, I walked past Orlando Magic basketball player, Earl Clark.
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I was at the park and saw a really hot girl with her boyfriend. I sat down near them pretending to be calling someone. They soon noticed and walked across the road to outside the fish and chip shop to see if I'd turn around. I did, still trying to make it look like I was calling someone. All the time I was thinking of what I should do to her.
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I was then outside the fish and chip shop when I saw a series of monkeys walk past me all chained together, alot of monkeys. Some were walking backwards, some had their heads the wrong way around, etc. So me and a couple of other people walked around to see where they came from. We saw a big pit with big white plastic bags, which stunk. One of the people with us said that they dumped either chained monkeys or baby kangaroos there, like we saw before. He then got a bag out of somewhere and threw it in and said, 'see'. Then a baby kangaroo started walking near us.
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I was running past a main road when a car drove past, the lady in the car waved at me, but I had my headphones in and was looking down so pretending I didn't see her.
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When I was at the park I saw an advertisement for something stupid. And you had to pay for it which I thought was insane.
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Me and other people from school were waiting around for something. More people were gradually coming. None of my friends were there yet so I had to wait. Then my mate came and a bunch of us started talking. The thing we were waiting for had arrived and we were all in some sort of room with a teacher. People were sitted around on desks and we began kicking a ball around. I was trying to impress the girls with my kicking style. I somehow found out a couple of people of people added me on facebook since we started this thing included LA Clippers basketballer, Blake Griffin. I thought to myself, 'he must see how cool I really am now, we're gonna be best friends now'. I also remember the teacher saying something about jumping over a desk, so I took it literally, and jumped over the desk, thinking I was cool.
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I can't remember how we got there or WTF was going on but me and a bunch of other people were kind of walking through a TV guide. Like, we were stepping on it, and I had a birdseye view of it. The guy who's TV the tv guide was from' Mum had locked all the rude channels and everyone gave the boy shit and was saying how nothing good was on.

I find it odd that my dreams are becoming more and more confusing. It's almost like a Salvador Dali painting.

As usual I don't know very well where it started. It remember I was, once again, travelling somewhere. I believe I was climbing a mountain similar to one I climbed some years ago, but I'm not sure if it really exists or if it's just a product of my imagination.
The landscape consisted in a lot of underbrush (I don't know if this is the right word to describe it) and was very dry.

Now comes the weird part. I'm in some sort of hut, Vietnam style. Very rustic. No electricity.
I remember I was in a mixture of living room, bathroom and music studio. In there was my father, a friend of mine called Joao D, and although I don't remember the picture, I have the feeling my mother was present in some other room.

I recall I was jamming with some sort of string instrument, and Joao D was playing music from a portuguese band I appreciate, called Men Eater. I remember I told him I only like one song called Lisboa and he became very confused because he told me that song was one of the weakest in his repertoire. He stated that he composed much better than that, and with that I reasoned he was insinuating I didn't know shit about music. I remember I became angry and went to take a bath. I turn the shower on, and suddenly I noticed my new 2 week laptop was at the bottom of the shower and would break down with the water. I even remember the letters in it: Asus EEE 4000H

Next, I wake up on the top of a similar mountain. I was sleeping on a rock near a huge precipice/abyss. I stood still looking at the horizon and saw some buildings far away. I thought it was Porto city, at the North of my country. I only been there once, but I knew it was a little bit different.
I stood up and started walking away. Then, I started to watch myself in the 3rd person as if I'm in a movie. Kind of similar to my last dream. The thing is that, now I'm a very old guy dressed with a lot of old stained rags.
I notice some kids like 100 yards from me, and went there to talk to them. Suddenly they start to attack me, shoving their small bodies against me, using bricks. I thought it was really odd, but then another old guy appears in front of me. I looked at him, as if he was my father, but he looked like Hannibal from the A-Team.



He told me the end was near and that we had to continue our mission. Then I woke up with my alarm clock. Unfortunately I forgot a lot of my dream, since I was in a hurry and didn't had time to write my dream.

Dream - Lucid

I can only recall 3 short dreams from last night...I've been having a lot of trouble staying asleep, I think it's because I've been crashing on my rents' living room couch. I'll have my own room again tonight, so maybe that will help with my sleeping and dreaming...the living room is NOT ideal for that kind of thing (people walking around, coming downstairs at the asscrack of dawn, etc. etc...).

Anyway, here's what I can recall.

I started dating my friend JS. I was at work, and I was talking about my new boyfriend to whoever I was working with. They asked me who it was, and I said that I'd point him out when he came in. He finally came in, and wasn't wearing a shirt. Now, I'm sitting at a computer desk, but I'm still at work (I work in a coffee shop). JS comes up behind me and starts to massage my shoulders.
"You're dating JS?", my coworker queries. She sounded very surprised. Then, I was talking to JS about his friends, and about how much support he has from them. I started naming them off to him. I then asked JS what my work schedule was, because he was in charge of scheduling, even though he didn't work there.

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A girl I work with, L, was working in my fam's kitchen, but it was supposed to be the coffee shop. She had 2 kids. One of her daughters was in there. She had the most beautiful, long, wavy/curly brown hair I've ever seen. It reminded me of a hairstyle that Princess Leia from Star Wars would sport. Anyway, the daughter was about 16 years old.

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My brother and I were playing hide and seek in my apartment with my dad and my brother's friend. We kept hiding in the same place, which was behind my bed. My dad was the seeker. Dad kept finding me, and I was angry at him for some reason. The last time we played, I bunched up the covers on my bed so it would look like I was hiding under them. Blake's friend found Blake first. It was like they had rehearsed it, so dad wouldn't find me. They high-fived one another. Dad said that he had thought I was under the covers.

EDIT: Remembered a fragment.

I drank the airplane shooter of peppermint shnapps I got from a customer at work, and was surprised that it was gone so quickly.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

Good morning! Got another lucid last night, but it was so short! I lost my lucidity and the dream continued on. Could have been a very cool one though. Anyways, the "2011 Dream Recall Challenge" has really spurred my recall it seems. I know it's because I've been sleeping so much, but it makes me more motivated.

03.30: Sleep

08.00: LAN
I'm at a large LAN party. My friends are at their computers and there are a few more guys there. We're all about to play some game like Civilization but two of the computers have frozen. I take a look at one of them. "Can't you just tab out?" I ask. Obviously it's just the screen that has frozen. "No, it's a virus" one of them tells me. I sigh and tell everyone to start the game. "Alright, the challenge is to build a penis shaped village" I say and laugh. No one seems to find this weird at all... They all start building the tip of the thing on a mountain with buildings that are all shadows. I spot someone doing it wrong. "No! You need to make it more round, and don't build across like that" I instruct.

08.00: Fragment
*I'm running around in a town similar to those of Assassins Creed. I see my character in third person and I'm being chased. More than ten people show up and I try to escape them by dodging to the left and right. They are too many though and they soon catch me. They beat the living shit out of me with sticks while I stand up and I fall down all limp and bloody.

08.00-08.30: WBTB

9.30: Counter strike MILD
I'm with my friend Eric. We're playing Counter Strike and it's in first person mode. We buy all our weapons and our team takes the elevator down a level. We take the other one but we go up instead of down. I realise I'm dreaming. I stop the elevator and tell Eric we're not going up. I push the button to go down again. "Don't do anything, the elevator is tricky in dreams" I tell him as I hope the elevator won't get stuck. It feels smaller and I touch all the walls with my hands to stabilize. The elevator isn't going fast but after a while we reach the first floor again and we get out. I look around and spot a dark door and try to open it.

I lose my lucidity. We break down the door and end up in a huge, dusky warehouse. There's old stuff lying around everywhere and I tell Eric he needs to equip his gun. I give him a bag with an MP5 in it. He won't take it. "Fuck's sake! Take the damn gun!" I tell him angrily and shove it into his arms. I give him two clips of ammo aswell. My brother Martin and two of his friends are in that warehouse I see. They start shooting at us with BB guns. Eric starts shooting back and I keep close. We walk through the place.

I throw a pair of protective eye wear to him. I run away from the battle to a table. I need to fill my clips with bullets and gas. I spot my friend Henrik next to me. "If you shoot me I'll fucking punch you in the face" I tell him. He tells me he won't as he's shooting Eric instead. Everyone laughs as Eric goes down. "We are using sour cream as a propellant" Henrik tells me.

10.45: FA
I wake up and look at my clock. "14.15" It's almost dark outside. "Oh shit... I'm exhausted and it's already this late..." I think.

10.45: Blind date dinner
I'm at my friend G's house. Eric is there and he's preparing food for our date with two girls. I'm supposed to be a wingman or something I guess. The grill looks awesome, on it are two skewers filled with juicy meat and vegetables. One is already lying on a plate on the table. I grab a fork and knife and cuts a piece.



"It's a bit too rare for me" I say as it's almost red in the middle. Eric hands me a small cracker with roe on it. I eat it and comment on how unmanly it is. He hands me another small dish, it's cucumber with some kind of dressing on top. They both taste nice though.
The dream skips. I'm sitting at the table now with G's sister infront of me, and Eric on my side. We're waiting for the girls to arrive. Two girls show up all of a sudden. "I guess I should introduce myself" I say and start to rise. "That's not them, those are Sandra's friends" Eric tells me. I sit back down.

"What if they are too hot? I've already got a girlfriend, that might suck" I think for myself. Two girls enter the front door and from where I am, they look to be very hot. One's got a white dress with a nice cleavage. I start eating food. Before they sit down I have almost finished my plate. I've got my headphones on one ear and Eric tells me to greet the girls. I look up and to my relief, they are not good looking at all. One of them even has a baby on her hip. I barely say hi.

12.15: Bastard
I'm in a car with my dad. It seems as if we're driving Monica's car. The small red car is having some engine problems it seems as it splutters and shakes. The car dies and we get out. The house we stopped at was apparently one we had to do something in. We enter the house without taking our shoes off, a crazy woman greets us. She hands my dad half a bun and takes a bite off another one, which she hands me. My mom starts complaining about how disgusting it is to wear shoes indoors. I get out of the house and sit down at a swing. Some black haired boy is there and apparently there's something wrong with him. He's a bastard and my brother. I feel guilty for some reason. We talk some, but I can't remember about what.

13.30: Porno
I'm walking down the road outside of my appartment. Monica's with me and her friend Emo. I start talking about some porno I want to remember. Apparently I know the names of all the different porn actors and I name them all. Monica seems to recognise the names and tells me what kind of movie it is. I leave my computer headphones in the snow next to the road and Emo unlocks her bike. She hadn't really locked it, just put a metal bar through the tires.

13.30: Wtf
I'm sitting at my computer and Monica's in the shower. I can hear someone moaning and I realise it's coming from the shower. I walk to the door and sneak a peak through the crack. I can see Monica behind the curtains and she's touching herself. I walk back to the computer and I notice she's been on a forum. "Weird dildo's" the topic says. I scroll down and spot a fleshy one with tentacles sticking out in all directions. A superman dildo is just below it. "Uhm okay" is all I manage to say.

13.30: Fragment
*I'm squeezing two pimples. They are very deep ones.

13.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 9½ hours

Supplements before bed: 200 ml applejuice, 2 x Omega-3

That's it! MILD is working great for me atm. I've had intentions of becoming lucid and lucidity I achieved! I might try to get up earlier tomorrow to rebound my REM for friday morning, last "dream day" of my vacation. Will use galantamine to try to induce a lucid then.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

05.01.2011

Music fragment (Fragment)

I was in my family's car with my parents and brothers. We were going to celebrate my birthday in my music school (yeah, makes no sense) When we arrived my parents were worried about the time, so I told them it was 2:28 and that the opening times were 2:20-7:20 (not like that at all in real life) and I got out of the car.

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05.01.2011

Judo store (Non-lucid)

I was in some kind of mix between a store and a gym with the man who used to be my Judo teacher. My youngest brother and a bunch of kids were also there. He was teaching a kid but the kid began crying because he couldn't do it right.

A while later someone came into the store and warned the teacher that there was a fire or something and he had to leave. I decided to look at a cupboard in the store and in the top half (I looked at it several times and could never get it right, i think it switched places) there was a soap and bubbles kind of toy. I wanted to steal it but in the end my conscience won and I didn't.

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05.01.2011

Groundhog bus (Non-lucid)

I was in a bus being driven by one of my cousins who didn't have permission. I new he was driving because I'd already been in this situation before (I think in the previous part of my dream I stopped him but in a different manner). So tired from having already done this I just went to the front of the bus, took the steering weel from his hands and forced the bus to stomp, but then I accidentaly put it in reverse and someone else had to stop it.

After that the bus was taken back to my home town and I sat with a person (I think at first she was a girl but at some point became a boy) I explained to her that I knew about my cousin because I had already lived this day many times. She told me to call my parents because they might be worried and I thought about how to explain to them that a thing such as reliving your day over and over could be real. (Note to self: if you ever, ever face a situation when you fear explaining something because it doesn't seem real, then for the love of God do a reality check.) When we arrived at my home town I walked her to the hospital. Once in there I saw him and I decided to stay at the hospital because it was about 3:30 and I was scheduled at 4:00.

Wow, two dreams tonight in which I checked my watch and I didn't do a reality check. Oh well, at least watches are starting to appear in my dreams.

Non-lucid, 'Video-game-controller mode' [see side notes], Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

My dad and I are on a bicycle ride together. I've just checked out a thick paperback book from the library, and it's in the rack on the back of my bicycle.

I'm outside a movie theater in Florida, with my mom. Directly across from the entrance to the theater is a small kiosk where you can get drinks in plastic cups. She and I get some drinks from it for the whole family.

False awakening in my current real room. I hear the sounds of people shouting something about a surfer dude, and decide to follow the shouting out to the creek, but decide not to wake my parents. As I'm walking out of the house, I see that there's a bunch of writing in thick, black letters on the back wall of the dining room, as well as several papers with more writing on them taped to that wall.

I'm entering an upstairs apartment. My uncle is there.

I'm walking past a junior high school. I see a large group of kids in PE uniforms setting off on a run around the perimeter of the school.

I continue walking, and my route takes me along the street in my old neighborhood that goes around the edge of the park. I'm going in the direction of House #2. I turn around and see a tiny, cartoon kid with a BB gun standing behind me on the sidewalk. I'm a little worried that he's going to shoot me with the BB gun, but in the end, I ignore him and continue walking.

I reach House #2. In the garage, floating vertically in midair, is a menu of choices, like on a DVD. They say something like 'imaginary ideal' and 'reality' [I think; I don't really remember.] I select the former first, and find myself standing in my bedroom at House #2. The room is arranged the way it was in reality, but everything in it is completely white. [I really wouldn't call that design choice 'ideal.' However, when I lived there in reality, almost everything in that room really was white, and I was pretty happy living there.] I return to the menu, and this time, I select 'reality.' After making this selection, I find myself back in the same bedroom. It's still arranged the way it was in reality, only now the bed has a green bedspread with flowers, kind of like the one I have right now in reality [which I bought when we moved to House #3], except that the pattern is bigger and bolder.

I look out the window of my room and see a wide view of rolling grassland, with a lot of people walking around all over the place. There's only sunlight shining on one small, roughly circular section of the scene, though; the rest is in shadow. I speak aloud to the scene, saying something to the effect of, “It should be sunny all over the whole scene!” The sunlight spreads to cover the whole scene.

The scene shifts without my noticing it. The window of my room is now a doorway that opens onto a scene of an arctic landscape, with a wide, shallow pool of water in it. [An aside: After all those times I complained last month about the lack of snow in my dreamworld, I finally had a dream with snow in it, and not only did I completely fail to remember that I was supposed to make a snowball and hit somebody with it, but that Task of the Month is over now, anyway! Argh.] I walk out into the scene. From the far side of the pool, I step into the water, trying to walk on it, but I quickly give up the attempt because I get scared away by an orca and a walrus approaching me through the water. I walk back out. I then get the impression that they weren't really threatening me, after all. I go back toward the house. My mom is standing outside the doorway, and I tell her she can watch me do this if she wants to. I start walking back toward the pool of water again, concentrating on continuing to walk forward, straight into the pool, while believing that the surface of it will be just as solid to me as the ground is. It doesn't work; I end up standing ankle-deep in the shallow water again. [That's all I remember.]

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Side notes:
I'm really not sure for how much of the above sequence of events I was actually asleep and dreaming, and for how much of it I was awake and actively using my regular old imagination. I felt like I was doing the latter for at least part of it, hence the green text, which I always use to indicate a sort of half-awake, half-dream state where I know that I'm using my imagination like a video-game controller to control what happens. The division between green and purple text (indicating a lucid dream) is mostly an arbitrary guess. Then again, I was definitely aware that I was dreaming by the end, so it's entirely possible that I really was dreaming the entire time, and that's what dream control feels like. If so, that's really cool! I really advanced a lot in the area of dream control last night. I will have to experiment with this further.

I'm mildly annoyed, but not at all surprised, to discover that verbal commands work really well to control my dreams. As much as I love Inception and would love to be able to alter the dreamscape just by thinking about what I want to happen, that idea is relatively new to me. I've been a Star Trek fan for years, so it's not surprising that the older and better-entrenched idea that one can change one's surrounding environment by giving verbal commands, like they do when using the holodeck on Star Trek: TNG and later series, would take precedence over the newer idea that one can change one's surrounding environment just by thinking about it. Now that I know what works for me, though, I guess I'll go along with it.

Me, my brother and sister were standing on something like a big platform, jutting out from a really tall building. Like a balcony with no edge.
We were going to play some sort of game.
"I don't think this is safe, if one of us tripped we could just fall off the edge!" I said nervously.
My brother and sister both agreed, so they started laying down bricks along the edge, building up a brick wall, with mortar and everything.
"What the hell are you doing? When Dad sees this he's going to go mad - the mortar... this is permanent! You can't make a brick wall here!" I said. But my words made no difference, they built the wall on the edge of the balcony anyway.
My bro then brought along a little pet cage with a tiny monkey in it.
I sat down and talked to it.
It seemed to know what I was saying. It did some tricks, and over a few minutes it showed that it could understand me.
My delight ended when my brother (who is older than me, by the way) came along and picked the cage up. He moved it away, and sat down with a smirk on his face, hiding the monkey from my view.
"Why did you have to go and do that? You always do things like this - just as I'm having fun you come and ruin it, like you find it impossible to let anyone else enjoy themselves!" I shouted.

-dream recall jump, same dream but different place-

I'm faced with a menu screen of characters to choose. I pick an ape character.
I was standing in a nice looking town, a clean modern metropolis.
The little monkey from before was by my side. I can't remember much, except that we went through the city looking for my brother (I think). The monkey could understand me and followed my orders.

Eventually, I end up with my Dad. I'm still trying to find my brother to teach him a lesson, but for some reason he's wanted by the law so I can't tell anyone.
I walk into a clothes store. I go to the back - there are loads of urinals and cubicles, and random cubicle walls dotted around the place, so I decide to look around and see if I can find my bro hiding anywhere.
A beautiful woman walks up to me. She's a shop assistant, I think. She asks if I need any help, so I tell her I'm looking for an actual toilet, because all I could see was urinals.
"Jericho has some toilets" she told me, and explained where I should go to find it. Apparently "Jericho" was another clothes shop.
"So, is there anything... else you think I should tell you?" she said, batting her eyelids at me. I just knew she wanted to give me her number, but I panicked.
"Uh, no no I'm good. Super good, I'm fine thanks - in fact I have a lot of stuff to, um... goodbye..." I said, and ran out of the store.
I'm telling you, it was like a scene out of one of those embarassing comedies, where the main character just fails beyond comprehension.
I'm not quite sure why I declined her offer of her phone number, I think I was just shitting myself because a super hot babe just flirted with me, and I didn't have the confidence to act in the spur of the moment.

After I walked out of the store, my Dad said:
"What was that about? She was totally trying to give you her number, why didn't you ask for it?" in an incredulous voice.
"Well, you know, I don't even have a phone at the moment for starters" I replied.

And so the search for the store "Jericho" began. I think I walked along train tracks through a mine, and other things.
At some point I met up with my brother, but I can't really remember what happened.
Something about me being taller than him, and then... ugh I don't know, I'm too tired.

Fragment:
I'm standing in front of a window, looking down on a field or something. Strange chibi characters are playing below.
I realise I'm lucid, but... that's all I remember.

My mum was taking me to the party of this girl my friend had gotten the number of, but I had never spoken to her. My sister was also in the car. About halfway there I realised I hardly even knew her, so I told my mum I didn't want to go anymore. She seemed really suprised but turned around eventually. At this random place there were heeps of computers which were showing what was happening in the party via hidden cameras. There were a few people there plus NBA player, Patrick Mills. They had some sought of plan which involved Mills going to the party dressed well. When he was at the party, the people were watching him on the computer. He ended up not doing what was planned and everyone was disapointed.
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I was remember checking the score of the Milwaukee Bucks game a few times, and the won 105-99.
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I was watching TV with my sister when we felt like googling one of the girls we saw on TV. The google images of her showed alot of shots of her in little clothes, and one in no clothes. I said "stupid slut" and clothes the internet window.
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I was taking my dog for a run late at night and we were running near the shopping centre when I saw another man with a dog ran passed, we were going in the same direction as him and we kept staying in the same route. I was kind of scared and saw other people at a distance so thought it would be safe to stay near the man. We were both now in an alley-way when I somehow heard my mum telling me to reassure the man we wouldn't hurt him. So I called out to the man and said I'm not a bad man and he shouldn't be scared. He responded by saying that that was a good thing. We later met up at the road crossing and he said thanks for not being a bad man. We talked about our dogs for a bit and then I crossed the road. He stayed there to tell off his dog for doing something naughty

So I've been MIA on here for a while, but rest assured, I am back.

GUNS!- So me and my dad were going to go shooting. We loaded up our SUV with tons of shotguns, sniper rifles, and my own rifle. We then proceeded to stop at Safeway for food. When we got there, it was seemingly abandoned. My friend Kovach came up to me and wanted to hold my rifle, but I said no, because it was loaded. He tried to make a grab for it, so I jumped back and slammed the butt of the rifle into his face, knocking him down. I then aimed it at him and told him to calm down. After that was resolved we ended up having a party where everyone was happy and getting drunk, which I guess wasn't a good idea because everyone was loaded down with guns. Later on some police came and arrested my father. Not sure why.

Fight! - I dreamt I was having fighting matches in my room. I was doing well, and with each opponent I beat I became stronger. Later in the dream my friend wanted to wrestle me, which is odd because he's much smaller than I am. I ended up throwing him through the wall of my room >.<. He was a bit peeved at me afterward.

Fragment- Dreamt I was on IRC and had to decide on a rather serious topic, however, I can't remember what it was.

I had 4 dreams last night, though I can only recall a fragment of one.

I was in my room at my family's house, and it was nighttime. It still had all my furniture in it (all my furniture is at my apt in waking life). It was the day before my college's graduation, but I wasn't graduating yet. One of my best friends, CR, was about to graduate. She really wanted to hang out, because we hadn't done anything in awhile. She told me she didn't care what we did-we could drive around and find something to do-she just wanted to hang out. At some point, I was sitting at the computer in the bonus room (hasn't been a computer in that room for years in waking life). I was watching a video from CR's New Year's party. It was of her, KS, and both of their boyfriends. I was jealous that they had had such a great time, so I closed my eyes so I wouldn't have to watch it. I could still hear it though, and I could very clearly hear KS's boyfriend's voice. Then, someone dumped out this random bag of stuff I had onto the counter, my pipe being one of the items. I got mad because I was trying to conceal the pipe, and so I went to hide it, not without dropping it on the floor in my room and spilling all the resin out onto the carpet first. I hid the pipe in a clear plastic drawer.

~

I was hanging out with BH, an old friend from high school. Someone else was there too. We were at his apt. I did something to make him angry, so I left.

~

I had JB's (an ex) hat. It was black and covered in zippers. Tucked inside of it was a card and $41 from his new girlfriend. I kept having flashes of us together before, and how I "remembered" him cheating on her with me. I thought this girl must really love him. The card had notes from written all over the inside of it, "I miss you" and such, but never "I love you." I looked for an "I love you," but never found one. There was also a drawing folded up inside the card, but I don't remember of what, I just know that JB had drawn it. Also, there was a beautiful sketch of a rose on the inside, shaded with a pale pink. I saw where JB had written a little note back to her, but I couldn't read his handwriting. The only word I could make out was "kitty." At some point during all this, I ended up sitting on my family's living room couch (their house seems to be a recurring theme for me right now). I took the $41 and tried to start tearing up the card, but it was very tough. I finally started to, and thought "Well I can't give it back to him anyway, since I deleted his number and have no idea where he even is."

~

JB could turn into a dog. A beautiful, yellow, medium-sized fluffy dog. He looked almost like an Australian Shepard mutt. He was with me, but not. It was weird, we were hugging and stuff and acting like we were together, but it didn't seem right, I guess. We were with someone else, not sure who, and we were outside. It was nighttime. JB was in his dog form, and the other girl that was with us didn't know it was JB. He ran up to me and I started petting him, then I told the girl it was JB, and he transformed back into a person, first growing very tall and skinny, then evening out to his normal size. I hugged him during the transformation. Now, in high school again, and it's the last day. I was in an english teacher's class, one whom I was not particularly fond of in waking life, but it wasn't english. I think it was history. The classroom also looked like my classroom from the 6th grade. The teacher, Mrs. H, was going to read us a chapter out of the book. "How boring.", I thought to myself. She started reading, and the girl next to me, CF, a girl I was friends with in high school, was on her laptop, laughing at something on YouTube. I thought to myself "Chelsea doesn't go to MTSU...", which is a university, not a high school. Then, I was in my family's bonus room again, and two people were in there. They were a boy and a girl, all decked out in "punk-rock" clothing. The boy was standing on the windowsill playing the electric guitar, and the girl was on an exercise bike. She had long, blonde hair with a hat/bandanna, and an anarchy symbol cut into her arm. I was trying to explain Christianity/spirituality to them, and they kept laughing at me and making snarky comments. I got angry and took this whip type thing and started trying to hit them with it. They acted like I wasn't doing anything at all, even when I hit them. Usually though, I would miss and hit the blinds behind the guy instead. It was very frustrating, not to mention I had to jump very high to even try to hit the guy, and everything was much bigger than me and the people were much taller. Then, the girl had to go because, she said
"My Atheist friend is going to commit suicide."
She was going to go try to stop them from doing so.

Interesting set of dreams. They all seemed to end up at my family's house for some reason. I tried to set an LD goal like I did yesterday, but I never ended up lucid. I did keep waking up last night too, it was kind of a restless night. I'll just have to try again tonight.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

Good morning! Had the same strong intentions of becoming lucid last night as I did yesterday, and it kinda worked. I rememeber waking up and I had the memory of having a nice lucid, but not a single memory of the dream itself! I was kinda mad at myself for forgetting as I usually have good recall. Anyways, the rest is below.

01.45: Bedtime

08.05: Fragment
*I'm sucking on a few Omega-3 pills. They are sweet.

08.05-09.00: WBTB

10.45: DEILD
I'm lying in a bed. My friend Eric's on the bed next to me and we're talking about work. "I refuse to let our friendship come between work, this career is too important for me" I say and I'm crying for some reason. He notices it and smiles at me mockingly, like I'm a child or something. I get up and walk towards a few computers. My friend Henrik is sitting at one and he's playing WoW. I am about to go to my computer when I notice that the character is moving on its own.

I realise I'm dreaming but I start to feel my body instantly. I end up in SP and I can feel my arms twitching and spasming. I relax and try to enter the dream again. I can hear newspapers flapping and the wind is picking up. "I am wearing earplugs, that's just the SP" I tell myself. I open my eyes in a very bright room. I'm on the matress on the floor next to the computers. I try to sit up but it's so hard work! I relax as I do a situp in slowmotion. "Need to stabilize the dream" I think and put my hand up to my face.

I realise my real eyes are open and I'm lying down in my real bed. My hand isn't really there, it's on the side. "Damn!" I think and don't realise it's just a very realistic FA.

10.45: Playing tag at the supermarket
I'm at the local supermarket with my brother Martin. We're playing tag or something similar and I've just lost him by running around like crazy. I intend to fool him and I pick up my cellphone. "If I turn on a ringtone and place it on the toilet, he'll be fooled" I think as I bring up the song I want. I put the phone on the toilet and leave the door open just a little bit and run away quickly before he shows up. Martin shows up after a few isles and he tackles me. "You're it!" he tells me and runs away.

I realise I've got no shirt on and my work helmet is on my head. People all around are watching and I kinda feel guilty as I don't act responsible at all. Apparently I'm an employee. I spot my friend G. He's smoking a cigarette and seems to enjoy it alot. Some other people are also smoking next to him and I realise there are alot of people coming from somewhere. Some guy is handing out bags with supplies to the newcommers.

10.45: White dog
I'm standing on a porch overlooking a backyard. My family is there with me and we're all watching their dogs run around and play. I don't recognise one of the dogs, a white husky-looking one. It growls at me and I back away. They continue on playing and I ask my dad about the dog. "Oh, we're just watching it for some neighbours" he tells me. The dog growls at me once again. My family goes out on the grass and leaves me with the white demon dog. It starts going towards me, growling. I can see its fur trembling, kinda like a cat's. "Hey dad! Tie this dog up will you?" I tell him. He takes the dog and ties it to a grey plastic seat.

10.45: It's a trap!
I'm some kind of detective and I've got a partner. We enter a very old looking house. I take the stairs down to the room below. I enter a room and it's filled with strange gadgets, small pictures and old stuff. I pick up a picture and look at it. Suddenly I get a creepy feeling, the house is way too quiet. "Oh shit, it's a trap!" I think and run out of the room and up the stairs. A young girl is standing in the hallway and asks me what's wrong. I don't buy it and throw her to the side. A woman comes out of a room just as I run past it and tells me I shouldn't leave. I run as fast as I can towards the porch door. I slam the door open and throw myself over the edge. I fall in the dark for a while.

10.45: Aunt and uncle
I'm at some relative gathering. My uncle and my aunt is there. I greet my aunt, she kisses me on the cheek then looks at me in a weird way. "You need to shave" she tells me. I touch my chin and tell her I will soon. Monica tells me she wants to go home and I ask her if she's had anything to eat. "No... I'm not sure I'll like it" she tells me. I take a look at the food offered. It's some kind of sausage stew with pasta. She takes a plate and pours some on the plate with a plastic dishwashing brush.

12.15: Flying
I'm in a barn with some other guy. We're looking at a small propeller plane. I read the instructions. "If the propellers stop working, you can do this to keep the plane going" it says and I can see a picture of a man making the plane fly with bicycle paddles. We go in the plane and fly around over the woods. The dream skips. I'm standing next to a lake now. The plane is gone but who needs a plane when you can fly yourself! I fly around the lake a couple of times before I go down on the water and skate on it for a while. The person I'm with wants to learn aswell. I grab him/her and try to fly. I've got a safety belt holding us together, but it makes it all harder. We manage to fly a little bit.

14.00: WoW
I'm playing World of Warcraft. There's a huge fight and I'm playing my warrior. It's going very well for my team and I'm charging all over the place. My friend Jonas shows up all of a sudden. I enter the game and we talk as we're dueling. "So, how are you?" I ask him and kick him in the stomach. He grunts in pain as he explains how his stomach had a hole in it, and that he started burning from the inside. I kick him in the solar plexus and he can't breathe. We fight for a while longer, I land one more kick on his neck.

14.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 11 hours

Supplements before bed: 200 ml applejuice, 2 x Omega-3, same at WBTB

That's it! I am so frustrated! I must have been lucid while flying around, I clearly remember the feeling of lucidity and freedom. I almost always realise I'm dreaming when I am flying, but I don't have much recall of that dream as I didn't wake up at 12.15 to write it down. Anyways, a successful DEILD is always something!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Once again, I only remember fragments, but the parts I remember seem like the most important.


(( To understand this part, you have to know that recently our family has been divided over my dog and how to deal with him. We just built a fence for him and everybody is conflicted as to whether that was a good idea or not ))

What I remember starts with a group of dogs walking up to my lawn very specifically, as if they were ready to call my place home. All of these dogs appeared well groomed and taken care of, and all had collars on them. Some of the collars looked tattered.

Only one of the dogs had a proper tag on it (what it said I can't remember), while the rest had those little keychain plastic photo frames, only they were landscape instead of portrait. In the frames were images of scenery, campsites, and I do believe one was a picture of their owner, a thin old man which one would immediately label as a hobo. In sharpie marker, the man had written on these frames little phrases as to why he had sent the dogs to me. "I could no longer keep them", "Freedom was more important", "it was time for change." Things like that, though I couldn't tell you the specifics.

My grandmother was, displeased to say the least. "We can't keep them. We can barely keep your dog, bla bla bla bla." So I told her we wouldn't keep them, we'd just hold them until we could find them better homes.

(( Today was my first day back to work, by the way ))
So it flips to a new day. I wake up for work and have to get the dogs food before I go in. I decide to stop at a quick mart in a gas station. It's old and decrepit, looks worn in by the people who continuously visit it. There's a very small diner attached. I spot the food, though I keep my eye open for a bigger bag...

For the life of me, I have no idea why I thought this was a good idea, but I decided to take my jacket off, and have no shirt on underneath. I don't think I actually realized that until I was topless, but instead of immediately putting it back on I try to play it cool and act as if nothing is wrong. Which works for a short time, until I walk by a policeman. He tells me to put my jacket back on, which I quickly comply. I hope to God he's just gonna let me off with a warning, but all the sudden another man behind me starts talking to him. While he doesn't look like it, I guess this man is a policeman too... And they start writing me a ticket for prostitution (lol, what?) I say 'really?' but that's all the fight I put up, if you can call it that. When he asks me why I did it, I make up an excuse and tell him "I thought I was dreaming" (Which I now realize I was, thank God.) And he replies: "this is no dream, young lady."

After I leave, I feel terrible. I realize all of this is probably going on my record and nothing will take it off. Moreover, this is the side of town my boss lives on, and there's a good chance he'd find out about it.

i play a game but like in the outside. i smash a giant egg with my virtual hands,a chiken comes out, I kill the chiken a DRAGON comes out i try 2 ill it its too hard we make friends and then i HAVE TO kill him when i kill him he says "remember....NEVER betray a dragon!!!

This is my second Dream Journal post.

This dream happened 4 days ago and when I woke up I wrote the topics about it so I could write them here. I don't recall much since they are very fragmented.

At first I was at a cinema that was a mixture of an old school amphitheater and a cinema I usually go to, nearby. I remember the place was abnormally big.
At the entrance there was a security guard that was giving each of us a microphone so we could talk to him, in case there was any sort of problem. Weird stuff.

I had my backpack with me, and had the sensation I was on a travel. There were a 5 of friends of mine that I don't want to enunciate here and an unknown woman. One of my friends, let's call her, Anna, got a little bit distant from us for no apparent reason.

The movie we were seeing talked about the life of baby Hawk's that leave in train lines. It looked like some sort of digital simulator or computer game because it was seen in the 3rd person with a fixed camera or something.

Suddenly I'm into the movie and I'm a Hawk, flying in those train lines and trying to get away from train's and train electric wires. I'am caught in one of those wires and get an electric shock. I didn't felt anything.

The next fragment is about beeing in a Hotel near the place I got electrocuted, but now I have my own body again. My group of friends is there again, but I don't recall any unknown girl.
I leave my hotel room and move forward to the Hotel courtyard to play tennis with a friend of mine that we are going to call Antonio. He sees a baby Hawk in a puddle of dirty water, injured. Probably it's the electrocuted one.
He's trying to grab him, but that makes me furious because I believe he's going to hurt the animal. We start to argue and than we start to punch each other badly.
There is great confusion and everyone is overwhelmed by our reaction.
Next, we spot the media coming with there cameras, microphones, vans and satellite dishes, which makes me kind of scared.

I go to the top basement of the hotel, which is strangely old. There is a bar there where all my friends and other people make presence, and everyone looks at me with a lot of despise duo to my radical reaction.

And that's it. One more step towards lucid.