lucid

Night of May 3, 2018. Thursday.



In my dream, in full lucidity, I hover in an incorporeal form above a bird nest of mostly straw in early morning daylight. Within the bird nest are about seven gray creatures, with minimal white areas, that are all joined as one mass.

Looking more closely, I still cannot determine if they are baby birds or kittens, although the form changes from time to time and I can sometimes make out legs or parts of wings. They seem to breathe as one. There is also an association with baby rabbits for a short time.

Realizing that the autosymbolism is tied in to the typical vestibular system correlation of which is inherent to the dream state itself, my focus shifts very slightly.

The creatures, still as one singular mass, rise into the air, to become a circle of only sparse fur or hair, hovering about a foot above the nest, and now of only about ten percent of the volume of the original feature. I focus on the change and I think of it as thin gray thread. It continues to hover in the air as a floating horizontally-oriented wreath made of thin thread of the color of Spanish moss.

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I was with my dad and brothers outside when we realized my father was taking a while to return.I ran to our old jeep with my brothers, where we found our dad dizzy. Helping him up a bit, i told my brother to drive him to the hospital.

When we got there, my dad was already in the room with the doctor who said there was nothing he could do and he didn't know what to do. This frustrated me. Than my dad started to look loopy and began saying crazy things. I tried to keep him calm but than he tried attacking.

In the next part of the dream, i was watching a girl watching tv in her yellow/light pink bedroom. I felt small and hopped onto the white curtains. I climbed it, looking forward to get away. Once i reached the top of the window, i pushed a smaller window open and felt a cool breeze hit my face. It was winter and snowing.

I hopped out and flew to my freedom. However, i felt a dream presense still lingering somewhere. Watching me. When i landed on the ground i came across a dog that was made out of metal chains that were broken. I pulled him apart as i strolled on my path but than a huge almost chibi like robot entity appeared behind me.

"Is everything okay? I wouldn't want the person i care for to be hurt..."she replied. "Yeah, im good" i said nervously. "Is that you?"she asked now coming closer."Yeah,I'm KarlaB18!"I shouted impulsively. "You are!?"she replied surprised. I didn't know if that was a good or bad response though so i changed my mind and said "no".

The place than changed to a large blue cavernous place where she erupted and began to unleash hundreds of spirits on me. I dodged the white ghostly spirits as i felt her control putting pressure on me. More and more it started to feel like she was a7/10 hard dream boss. But than i got tired of her putting me in corners as i flew around so i shouted a battle cry and dodged the spirits more accurately and with less hesitation. I than changed my form into asriel dreamurr and began showering the place with star power until the spirits and the girl faded.I woke up with a heavy feeling as if i woke from a nightmare but i found it to be too cool to classify it as a nightmare.

While lying in my bed feeling tired I doze off for a few and find myself in walmart. My father and I are at the cash register and are going through the scanning part. As my father is about to complete his purchase he tells me to go get my stuff that I was going to purchase. I am confused because I do not recall ever going through the store to buy anything. I told my father where?

He points to where there is a pile of things that I would never have gotten. I am confused as I have no memory of getting those things and putting it there. I then question that I must be dreaming and realize not to long ago I was lying in my bed. Upon this I return to being awake.

Alien planet

I'm standing on a street, looking at the traffic at a busy intersection. I realize I'm on an alien planet and I am one of them. The cars are wider and have 3 wheels, 2 at the front and one in the back. The back wheel is not always touching the ground, as the weight is concentrated on the other side of the vehicle. I could swear humanoids have 2 ears that look like Shrek ears.

Dream 2

I'm on a vacation with lots of others. Walking around the perimeter of an island. There are hotels and activities.


Lucid flying

I become lucid and decide to fly. I look at near tall buildings and I want to go to the top. I start to hover and as I go higher and faster, I get so friggin happy and I realize, that this way I could make it all the way to the moon. That has been my dream for a long time. But I promptly forget about that and I see even taller buildings. When I reach the top of the first ones, I aim to those, not sure if I can still go higher. But I can. When I reach those, I see in the near distance tops of some very futuristic buildings and I want to reach those. Here is where I lose lucidity. Oh wait, there was some lucid sex here somewhere. Hrm, I wish I remembered more of that.

Note: Not sure why I'm so obsessed with flying higher and higher. Sometimes I spend my whole lucid on that. When instead I want to just go around, exploring.

I arose out from my body in my bedroom as usually. It was dark as usually when I travel at night, but I adjusted that and I saw everything in soft gray light. First I had to do my task with my daughter- she asked me to try to wake her or pull her out of her body- I tried but I failed. Seeing that it doesn't lead to anything, I went out of my house... and I got totally lost. It looked as if I was dropped in some kind of dungeon with dangerous looking animal like more or less humanoid beings. I raised up my aura and as tired as I felt, I even became intangible(ghost like) to them. I went through this dungeon to nicer surrounding, then to some city.
In this city I went to big building in which there was maze of corridors and stairs, but only a few rooms. I walked inside of this building for hours(subjective). I got to highest possible point and there was room where very shabby looking man slept... the room was stinking, it was full of rubbish. I accidentally switched the light and I heard murmur of that man as if he was disturbed from the sleep... I decided that it will be better to leave. After longer time I found my way out. I was in some kind of village where people lived in very small houses. Even roads were narrow. When I looked behind, the big building was no longer there. And I walked again. I felt tired, very, very tired of everything, of existence. I felt, that it would be nice to get back to my body and sleep. I probably overdid concentration on "here and now" because I was somehow unable to lose consciousness... I was staying conscious on inertia. If I wasn't so tired I would be very glad of that. It was morning, maybe alarm clocks will wake me up.
I stopped to walk and started to meditate, to clear my mind more. And my surrounding abruptly changed. I was standing back in my bedroom. The very air was shiny, sparkling... it looked and felt like I went from astral dimension to mental dimension. I wasn't feeling so tired anymore. In my bedroom, I didn't see my wife sleeping there... But in mental dimension I didn't find anybody after more than 30 years of experimenting yet. I looked on my physical body and decided to go back- I went inside of it and woke it.

Remarks
Today I was going to sleep very tired and at that I tried to do OBE... Well it showed.
When I looked on clocks I found it was only 00:30... I was out of my body for only about 20 minutes. Felt like 7-8 hours for me.

5/1/18
I was in a store where I met a woman that told me I could take any game for free, as long as I had beaten that game before. I could also take as many copies as I had beaten the games.
[New Scene]
I was in the student center, about to go upstairs to room 293 for a halloween-themed class. There was a hexagonal, black tower going straight up next to the stairs. It had purple lights.
[New Scene]
Played Wii Sports in my old house. I thought about making the game in Dreams. Later, I played Breath of the Wild, and I was in the eastern sea.

5/2/18
-1-At my old house, there were fast-moving clouds outside. Also, everyone in the room (10+ people) vanished at once. I heard a gunshot-like sound in my right ear, which caused some minor pain that one would expect to feel after hearing a noise that loud. I wondered what could have caused that sound, as it appeared to have no source. A character walked out of the hallway and responded, "I'll be glad to answer that!" Next, we both jumped out the window. I got spooked for some reason, so I turned upside down and floated.
-2-I was walking outside near a road when an alien ship fleet became visible in the clouds. They fired some weird stuff at the ground, and had yellow exhaust. Later, I was in a place with ships and buildings. I had to hide some stuff in a place, but I couldn't figure out where. Later still, when I and some other people had to leave by sitting on the couch (teleporter), we set the timer for 300 seconds. In less than 300 seconds, something the building would explode. The result of leaving was taking off into space with Earth, Mars, and Neptune and placing them back in the solar system.
[New Scene]
My family was driving somewhere. There was a large shelf cloud taking up a sizeable portion of the sky. There was a weak tornado off to the right, so I started recording. I should have become lucid then.
[New Scene]
A scene with my chemistry professor teaching chemistry in an odd building that perhaps wasn't designed for such a thing. After the lecture, I walked outside in the snow and went across the walkway to another building. So many obvious giveaways there.

5/3/18 (L)
-1-Outside my old house, I could fly using imaginary pegasus wings. A friend and I flew up to a cloud and found that it was solid. I dug in to make it more comfortable to sit on. It was like digging in warm snow with adhesive properties, and it only stuck to itself. We then used the cloud as a vehicle to float down near the ground where my younger sister was. I asked her if she could see us, and she could. I didn't do a good enough job with the cloud then. Later, there were a few moments of bliss while flying slowly, but it was hard to keep my non-lucid expectations up. I was briefly lucid at same point in the middle of this.
[New Scene]
I flew and walked on the ceiling of my grandparents' house. There was a bear on the floor trying to eat me. As time went on, the ceiling and the floor switched gravity repeatedly in a confusing manner, and also switched locations.
[New Scene]
I flew into a well-lit concentration camp.
Lucid Time: 5-10 seconds

Scarlet Rose

I was sitting comfortably in a chair in the sitting room, when I noticed a rather strange thing happening at the window. AJ was sitting in another chair on his laptop, oblivious to my curiousity. A small yet distorted cat was tapping its head against the largest window. Fascinated, I rose from my chair to observe the animal in more detail. As I did this, I glanced at my hand, and I realized I was dreaming. I was filled with a sudden sense of urgency and impending doom, so I hastily prepared to fly through the window. As my hand permeated the glass substance, A yelled ‘What the !@#$ are you doing?’. Shocked by this sudden outburst, I halted my action and returned to the room. Frustrated, I attempted to demonstrate my ability to levitate, but I was thwarted when I fell backwards onto my backside. Extremely irritated now, I clicked my fingers and removed several objects from the room. Nonetheless, he was not convinced. Finally, I probed my mind into his brain, and distracted his perception towards his game on his laptop. Fortunately, this worked, but it was too late. I glanced through the window to sight a cream car pull up onto the lawn. Further inspection revealed the driver was a short policeman from maybe the 1950s, lacking the typical modern uniform. He stepped out of the car, but I knew he was not arresting me. Instead, I flew through the window, and met with him, and now his assistant, a corpulent man with combed-back hair, a polar opposite to his leader. Nonetheless, they both possessed a grim expression.
I greeted them, and flew with them over leagues of countryside, to arrive at a magnificent red rose bush. However, once the resplendent yet macabre blossoms were clawed away, one could see a young woman’s mutilated corpse. Her flaxen hair was besmirched with scarlet as her azure eyes gazed unseeing.

After the horrific scene, I was somewhat mentally disturbed, but I reaffirmed to myself that I was the detective. I flew on, and realized that the strange behaviour of the cat was intrinsically related to murder. With this thought in mind, I decided to visit a feline psychiatrist. However, I was denied entry, as the man had an exceptional phobia of policemen/detectives. Moderately irritated, I took the opportunity, to transform into a cat, whilst partitioning some of my body to a disturbed female cat owner. Although it may seem paradoxical to be two creatures at once, I was experiencing sight as the cat, whilst I controlled the owner remotely. Finally, after impatiently waiting in the reverberant stone waiting passage with towering ceilings, I could see the psychiatrist. He looked like he came from several centuries ago; he looked like Charles I. His assistant, a man similar to my mental depiction of Mr. Collins from Pride & Prejudice, after having a very strange conversation, notified ‘me’ that the insane psychiatrist was prepared to see me.

In the cold chamber of an office, I imitated the cat’s behaviour, whilst my human part made some meaningless noises. The psychiatrist then proceeded to explain the symptoms. “This disease is contracted from riding an infected horse. Only from someone else’s horse, not one’s own”

I suddenly recognized who the victim was. I cast myself back to a few days ago. I was in an unknown town in England, with some sort of festival taking place. One of the spectacles was the ‘bullet gallery’, where supposedly one could look at historical bullets in history. in personal DJ
Now, they proceeded to complain of the poor quality of the gathering, and consequently, blamed me. Frustrated, I had ignored them.

Now, in a vaguely sadistic mode, I transformed back to a detective.

NOTES:

Created Thursday 03 May 2018

Got a fragment and a DILD to note. There was a lot more non-lucid portions to the latter, and I'm sure several other dreams besides.

Scrap Group 1
At a beach with family. We left at dusk, at a time when the tides were rather strong. Warp. At home. Akuma and Ryu from Street Fighter were visiting, apparently to ask me for new pairs of sandals, of all things. Furthermore, me and my brother Arnie somehow knew how to make geta's for the two. That would've taken at least a week's work to get done. In the moment, I could only loan out my nephew's sandals to Akuma (the guy was laughably short).

WBTB by meditating. Certain distractions kept me up longer than I would've preferred.

Dream 1 - DILD In WILD's Clothing

Scene 1 - Another Inner WILD
The visuals were a bit blurred. I was upstairs in my sister Estrella's place. Seems I had to take care of my niece, Annette. I felt extraordinarily exhausted, enough so to just drop strait to bed. Both Arnie and Estrella passed by eventually, muttering disparaging remarks under their breaths. Meh.

Somehow, I was of mind to start a WILD. I quickly fell 'asleep' with complete awareness, and with my eyes opened, no less. Took the next minute to meditate, which caused the others to fade from view. I then shrunk myself for the fun of it. Next, I jumped down, and made my way out (or rather, under) the door. Things destabilized. I rubbed hands and concentrated while awaiting a transition.

Scene 2 - Missed That Kiss...
The visuals were slightly blurred. I was in an unknown bedroom, dawn light peeking in from a distant window. Just about everything there was white, including the floor, the walls, the shades, and the bed covers.

I shrunk down once again, first to the size of an action figure, then to only about an inch high. Next, I leaped onto the bed, the creases on its sheets like small hills from my perspective. While gadding about, a gigantic woman steps in view, a nice looking blonde in white pajamas (of course). Perhaps too alluring for someone who'd just woken up, but I digress. She approaches, seemingly unaware of me, if not for her mischievous smile. Indeed, she seats herself alarmingly close to me, and in such a manner so as to shake the mattress as much as possible.

We greeted each other silently with a mutual gaze. The lady allowed me to climb on her palm. Then, to my surprise, she drew me closer to her pursed lips. But alas, I quickly lost hold of the dream, causing another unwitting transition.

Various forgotten, non-lucid scenes. Something about being in a hotel room with family. Don't recall how this ended.

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apparently i haven't been on here since Before I Left For College
oh boy have things changed

a lot of my experiences since i started college have shaped my dream life into something far different than it used to be. more and more often i find myself both dwelling on the past and jumping far into the future. because of a rough first couple of years at university i had long periods of short, sharp nightmares that come back to me sometimes even now. because of a lot of soul-searching and self-reflection many of my dreams deal with fears i have only recently realized i have. because of an abusive relationship my dreams sometimes bring me back to a time and mindset i am still trying hard to overcome.

i am so different now, and seeing my posts from so long ago i can't help smiling at who i was before. i'm like, twenty years old. i turn twenty one in two weeks, but sometimes i feel pretty ancient. my dream journey is beginning again, and this time it is with purpose. initially my interest was just that; an interest. now i think i would like to utilize my dreams in order to overcome my fears. i haven't been vigilant about reality checking, or about dream journals, or about anything non-academic, to be honest, but i think that this new dream goal is important and will help in my efforts to begin living a healthier life, mentally, emotionally, and physically. wish me luck.

2018, 05-02

The Dark Tower – City of Ludd

I am on a bridge that is high over a river. The bridge is falling apart, there is a large gap where only cables are holding the bridge together. Roland, Susanna, Eddie, and Jake are all there. Jake is holding his billy bumbler Oy and carefully making his way across the gap. Eddie seems to be having more difficulty, he’s afraid of heights. I go over to help him get across. Susanna is doing fine on her Witchblade legs. I tell Eddie his Witchblade will save him if he falls so there is really no need to be afraid. While we are trying to help Eddie a man has arrived at the far end of the bridge. He looks like a leper. The leper calls himself Gasher and says he will use a grenade and take the whole bridge down if Jake doesn’t go with him. There is some arguing but then Jake says he will go with Gasher willingly, Roland says he will come to rescue Jake.

There is a break here, then I am back in the dream, but this time I actually AM Jake. I am following Gasher down a long narrow alley and he is going a bit too fast for Jake. My arrival caused a bit of a slowdown, and that pisses Gasher off. He stops and moves to strike me right in the face. I catch his arm as he swings and twist it around to pin it behind his back. I growl at him that I am coming with him because I gave my word, but that does not mean I will put up with any of his abusive shit. I twist the arm a bit harder before saying he should try to hit me again if he wants to experience his last days of existence with only one arm. I finally let go and we continue. We reach a sewer access cover and he tells me to move it. I lift the metal disk easily and throw it aside, again displaying that I have more than enough strength to handle Gasher if he gets any ideas. I can see he is having trouble hiding the fear from his eyes.

Another break, and now I am in a train station and there is a monorail engine on the other side of a locked gate. Roland, Eddie, Susanna, and Jake are all here now. They are punching in a code on the number pad beside the gate and it slides open. The train is talking and says we’d better hurry or the gas will get us. Eddie asks why do that, Susanna says so many will die, but the train just laughs. I tell them I will take care of the gas and maybe restore some semblance of stability to the people remaining here. Everyone does a double take when they see I have appeared from nowhere. Susanna says she never sees me coming, I’m just there. I tell her that happens a lot. They all get into the train, which is Blaine the Mono and Charlie the Choochoo all in one, and the door closes. Blaine tells me I was too slow. I say I didn’t want to get on now, I’ll catch up later. Blaine didn’t seem to know what to say to that.

As the train leaves the station I take to flight over the city of Ludd. I look down into the streets where a lot of people are in full panic over the noises that came from the speakers earlier. I see a purple gas coming from the sewers running under the city. I focus on the song Blitzkrieg by Metallica and use it to create a vortex that pulls all of the toxic gas into itself, condensing it all into a small ball about the size of a tennis ball. I then focus on the song Full Moonlight from the Devil Hunter Yohko soundtrack and that creates an orb that looks like the moon which hovers over the city and bathes all of Ludd in its silvery light. I see people are no longer panicking, and that is a plus. I won’t get to see if it brings those psychos to their senses and makes them stop killing each other, they never knew that was all for Blaine’s entertainment. Sick Blaine. Now I need to get MoSh and get back onto the train but instead I wake up.

Created Wednesday 02 May 2018

Got one dream in memory today, part of which I had lucidity. There's a lot more to it, I'm sure, perhaps even another lucid scene...


WBTB, then insomnia, before this dream started.

Dream 1 - Morbidity and Fury

Scene 1 - Smooth, Fuzzy Frohawk
The visuals were a bit blurred. I was in the bathroom. While shaving, I noticed my hair had randomly changed into a mishmashed frohawk, fuzzy at some parts, and smooth in others. Took about minute before I figured out the dream. Things destabilized. There were various forgotten scenes before a transition to below.

Scene 2 - Corpse Curiosity
Stuck at the void. Still aware. I got morbidly curious of how people would react to finding a corpse in public. While remaining a disembodied spectator, a scene formed ahead, blurred at first, then mostly clarifying over time. This depicted a large arborous park in the middle of a city, overcast day sky above. Exposed behind a bench and trash can was the body of a dead woman, 40's, average build, slightly tanned skin, dirty blond hair, and in warm-colored formal wear. There were no apparent wounds, nor signs of decomposition.

Passerby's appeared within a minute's time. At first, people didn't seem to notice her, or perhaps they just didn't care at all. Later, a mother and young child seated themselves on the bench. It took the kid's inquery, then horrified reaction, to finally get people to acknowledge the tragedy. Before any emergency personnel arrived, a pack of reprobates started openly looting the dead woman's belongings. This disturbed me enough to lose awareness. Unwitting transition.

Scene 3 - Toy Air Counterattack
The visuals were a bit blurred. Semi-lucid (knew this wasn't real, just not necessarily a dream). I was walking between the aisles of a toy store. Notably, I was an extraordinalily tiny figure within this enviornment, perhaps no bigger than a sugar ant.

Soon, a woman (gigantic from my viewpoint) passes by. In fact, this was the above-mentioned dead lady, only very much alive at that point, of course. I float up to eye level, where I waved and shouted a greeting at her. Upon noticing me, the woman was driven into a snarling rage, swatting and striking at me without relent. Reactively, I created a fighter jet, forming it such that I was already flying it. I swooped around the angry giantess, dodging her attacks. Concurrently, I blasted her when given the chance, taking shots at and behind her joints. These may as well have been toy munitions, for they had no effect, save for enraging the woman further.

One bad turn, and the jet was caught in the giant woman's hand. She then made the unusually diligent effort to try and peel me out of my vehicle. Well, whatever she had in mind, the dream ended before she could act out on such.

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I had some interesting dreams so far. (Currently its 3:08 A M and I couldn’t get back to sleep.)

First I remember dreaming of something with people from high school or college, vaguely. Something with a grocery store even comes to mind but its just teasing me! Not going to fully reveal itself.

Then, I was in a public bathroom stall. (M) was in the bathroom stall next to me. His leg kept coming under the bathroom stall and touching me. I was like, “Please keep your leg inside your bathroom stall.” Then there was only one toilet and we were sharing it. Other people were in the bathroom stall too.



It was full of used toilet paper, up to the top. I was embarrassed because a female I liked was there.  I said to him that he should flush all of that before it gets stuck. He flushed it and it was fine.

Then I was waiting tables at a restaurant. My Nana wanted a chicken nugget sandwich.



I was handing them out but biting off the ends first. They weren’t really on the menu. People had to specifically ask for them.

Next thing I remember, I was in my Nana’s kitchen. Aunt (B) may have been trying to type something into a tablet on my chest. I felt like I was becoming a video game character in the kitchen.

At some point there was something about building a Pokémon team. I had an Ice type in the third or fourth slot. I forgot the other types but they were all types with good resistance.



Still, opponent Pokémon in the game were a higher level, so I wanted to level up before any battling. I was imagining a Gyarados doing over half my HP even with a not very effective move (something like that).

Then it was like a mix of Pokémon and Zelda. I chose a starter. Then another character left and I became Link. I was stuck in the water.



I remember clearly hearing one of the songs from Zelda video game. I was like, ‘wait, this isn’t a Zelda game. How did they get this music?’

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkH2zETKqws

But my character became Link like I said, struggling in the water. But then my starter (I think a blue one) came to me, trailing a blue line behind it.

The starter pulled me out of the water. I rotated between a mix of characters. I think I was seeing a red one with antennae have to jump over a ravine of water.



Then I was a green one and running. I got to a fork in the path. It was like running through a canyon.



I chose to go to the right but left seemed like the safer way. Sure enough the T Rex things caught up to me. I remember seeing their shadows overtake me as I ran. But some ran right by me.



Then one did get up close to my face. Only instead of eating me, this other spirit entity came to my face.



I tried to draw that as best I could. It was tricky to actually draw. But there was talk or understanding that they wanted to harvest my physical matter and my energy for some project.



It showed a robot hanging in space. They were building it for some purpose and it was almost done. It had hips like Inferno from Beast Wars. All I could see were its legs hanging there, at first.



Then it became Optimal Optimus, kneeling. I felt like the thing had been created but it decided to not do any harm. So the kneeling meant it was surrendering.

Then I re appeared in the video game. I witnessed other characters telling the woman that my green starter and I had been caught by the “antagonist”. She easily revived us and we were okay. 

Then it kind of jumped to where my Uncle (C) was looking up some things on the computer. Something about an hour.

Then it showed a live stream called “Just This”. It was a Lucid Dreaming live stream with a woman. She sat on her bed to give the live stream. She gave a list of benefits to Lucid Dreaming. One was “Help Small Children”.

Then there was something about fasting or some kind of powers. I remember I, along with some other people, was being spoken of as one of the “top in the nation” with this power. Maybe something to do with fasting. I started to feel like I didn’t want to be public about it. I drank one of my waters and went to find my other.

I was near this patch of dirt. I started to go pee on it. I woke up really thinking I had peed in my bed. Luckily, I didn’t!!! 

If I had wet the bed, I mean all I would do is just clean the bedding and the mattress. So its not the end of the world. I guess it would cost me some sleep. But it could happen to anyone and so I just want to prepare myself not to flip out or be mean to myself about it if it does.

That was it! I woke up from those, and had a decent recall. I must have slept from about 9 to 1 or 2. Since then I haven’t got back to sleep. Maybe I will get back to sleep in an hour or two.



Well I fell back asleep probably around 5 and slept until maybe 7 with little micro awakenings. I dreamed about my Brita filter in the kitchen. And of being at a meeting I hadn’t been to in a while, noticing two people in particular, who I hadn’t seen in a while.

Then I had a Dream Induced Lucid Dream where I was falling backwards onto the floor in my old house’s bedroom. I looked up and saw some shaped on the ceiling. I became lucid as I fell and confirmed it when I landed with no pain. Then I woke up momentarily.

[img of mattress and pillow]

In my next dream there was a mattress and a pillow. I interacted with a guy in the dream. Something about moving a pillow. I was lucid in this dream.

Then there was a younger girl and I guess her mom. I helped the girl with her home work. Then I talked to her Mom. It was a meaningful conversation but I couldn’t remember the details. I remember looking at her eyes though.


(It was closest to the middle one on the bottom row)

They were a greyish color but hard to name the color exactly. Very vivid. Eventually I woke up from that.

I woke up in my old house’s bedroom in a false awakening. Tried to write my dream. South Park was playing really loud on a monitor behind me.



I tried to turn it off. But wasn’t really able to. I think I might have thought it was a dream momentarily but didn’t get lucid.

My computer fell behind my desk. All I wanted to do was write down some brief notes about my dream, before I forgot it. Windows acted funny when I picked it back up. All the windows were different. I worried that dropping it had broken it. I was glad I backed up my computer at the start of the month. (I really did back up my files in waking life)

There was an air conditioner in the window. (I had been thinking of putting in my AC in waking life) so I was like, cool. I guess it never got taken out.



I had a little micro awakening. Then I dreamed of appearing some where my friend was setting up cafeteria tables, for a party. She was like, “Are you here to help?” And I figured I was because I couldn’t explain it otherwise.



I dreamed something about a heavy metal band. I remember the image of the neck of a guitar.

Then I got up. I was kind of sad when I had another insomnia happen.  But I had more peace of mind anyway. I got up and did an hour or two of stuff on the computer that I was going to have to do that day. I mean this was when I just knew I wasn’t going to sleep. I try not to give up on sleep prematurely, but sometimes, I can feel I have too much energy to sleep.

It is grey with much cloudy weather, I go outside and begin to run to no where. I then see a bear with a yellow shirt and yellow shoes. I then decide to run the opposite direction of it as I knew it would try to eat me. I became lucid at this point and look back to notice it has a ridiculous run about it. I don't understand how a bear could run like that but I made it in to this van and took cover for a few moments.

Before making my way to the old house I use to live in. I closed the door and recalled that in previous dreams like this, the door would never close all the way even when I would shut it. I look back and could see the door was still open. I slammed it in and gave a huge relief. I then woke myself.

I laid down and relaxed... my body was heavy in short time, and I stopped to breathe... I can stay that way for up to about 5 minutes when I'm that relaxed. The separation is faster that way- breathing can disturb me in time of separation sometimes. I felt touch on my legs, like hands and they went up my legs. I opened astral eyes and I saw exceptionally beautiful young woman with brown hair and brown eyes coming up to my body... She was naked, slim, with firm breasts of about B-cup with small nipples, slim waist... She was coming on all four limbs up, until her eyes were in front of mine. She held me down with her hands on my arms and I couldn't separate out of body. I felt no arousal and looking into her eyes, I had a feeling of falling toward her eyes... Then I needed to take a breath and since I wasn't separated, I found myself back in physical world.

Remarks:
I would say it was OBE to astral projection, but I managed to open my eyes only.
I got aroused once I was back in physical but in that state it was asexual for me.