lucid

I find myself looking into a mirror in my home. My face is recreated just about perfectly, yet I get a strange feeling about the situation. I begin thinking and realize 'Wait, I was just in a dream where I was helping my grandpa out with some papers, this has to be a dream'. I look into the mirror again very sharply and say, yeah this is a dream. I turn right, head out through the door way and immediately think back to a dream goal I had. I consider trying to find my spirit guide, but then think that I'll do somethink a little more fun in this one. I turn right and head down the hallway, and smile to myself about how realistic everything is. Spatiall, everything is recreated very close to perfectly. Everything is in the right place, the rooms are the correct sizes, and the layout is correct. The color is a bit dim, but the dream appears to be in the very early morning hours. It feels a bit more more like the typical OBE you hear about. I head toward the counter and see only a few things on it. I think back to a previous goal and decide I'm going to eat one of S's chocolate cakes she made me for my b-day. I head around the counter and figure it would be easier to imagine the container behind one of the recesses. I make my way around the corner and see a container with a green lid. I open it, and a piece is inside. It has a lot of moisture as though it has some extra liquid on it. I take a couple bites, and feel the energizing effect of the super intense cocoa. One of my goals was to feel the strong effect of the cocoa The taste isn't very strong, but I know it could be. I turn to the fridge to try again, and try to find some dark chocolate bars. The collapses rapidly and I find myself returning to my body.

I'm in bed next to S, and I roll over in the dark and put my arm over her. We start talking, and I get a strange feel about the situation. I do a noseplug and I'm lucid. I give her a big hug, still unable to see much in the dark. I then tell her, "Well, I have some good news and some bad news... we're dreaming... but we can still keep talking and go outside Wasn't bad news for me, but maybe for her! She agrees and I go to scoop her up in my arms and turn to fly through the window to head outside with her. As I'm turning,I say, "I have to ask you though.. why didn't you tell me that we were dreaming? She says matter-of-factly something like "You looked like you were resting...I didn't want to bother you". Fair enough I thought, and continued toward the window to head outside. The dream begins to fade rapidly and I wake.

I'm in the backseat of a car. There's a hot European guy that I know who is sitting in front on the right side of the car. He's driving, and I'm a little confused as to why he's driving from the right side. Maybe because he's from Europe? My mind goes over all the complications of driving a European-style car on American streets. There's a big, beefy guy sitting in front on the left side. I wonder if he's the bodyguard. When he shifts, I notice he also has a steering wheel on his side. Who's driving?

I woke up rather abruptly due to the sound of the cat throwing up. After cleaning up the mess, I checked the time and found that it was still way to early in the morning to be up. I went back to bed, trying to remember what I had been dreaming about before. I focused on the mental image of Hot European Guy as I drifted off.

I am on a ship (or maybe it a balcony on a cliff?), looking out over the railing. There is a long drop to the water below. The sea is a gorgeous shade of blue-green. There are all sorts of ships below me, and my eye is drawn to one that was half sailboat, half whale? The image starts fading and I know the false awakening is coming. I find myself in the kitchen of the house I just moved out of last week. Right away, I knew I could not really be there. I start heading for the door, though I find a bunch of rainbow-colored straws that are blocking my way. But I kept going, because I knew I'm not supposed to be there anymore. I make it out the door. At this point, I am almost awakened by the sound of a motorcycle revving outside. I focus on the dream imagery, and Hot European Guy appears on the street on a motorcycle. He tells me to hop on. I carefully climb on behind him, grabbing his hips with both hands and press my front against his back. I have a vague memory of the task of the year involving a dragon, and I will the motorcycle to turn into a dragon with Hot European Guy and I clinging to its back. He turns around and asks me what I want to do. I point to my old neighborhood and told him to burn it to the ground. I'm never coming back here.

I was awake. then closed my eyes and then I imagined that I am near the gate of on the subways in tehran <4rah'e Veliasr> Then My imagination became true (WILD) and I went to dream in there. Then It was lucid. I entered to Subway station and then after a while I was in a train station with 2 beautiful girls. I took their hand and I walked. then I looked my back. There was a witch that was chasing us. I afraid and flied with 2 girls and near there I descend in a farm land. I imagined that this land be my mind and start to grow increase some Mind Development Material in it.

after my first proper WBTB since months! i used SSILD for induction, also didnt used it like for months, i felt pretty confident to have a nice and long quality lucid

i am in a city and walk down the street. i tell someone? on the phone? about my diploma thesis. "the gathered results there where up to date at that time..." i have an awesome mood and keep on moving. an elevator left to me opens and i make a small jump to scare them a little and smile to them just because i feel so good.
just like that i get lucid and keep on moving some meters. i remember the basic task. i look around and everywhere are some people so i move back a little and found a girl with his boyfriend moving up some stairs. i decide to pull down her skirt and repeat it with her underpants. her boyfriend looks awkward down to the ground, she tells me "oh [my name]" like i would have told a bad joke and stands around. two guys that where next to us smile and look down on her bottom. since i knee anyways because i pulled her pants down i give it a short lick but i dont want to waste time with sexystuff because i have a lot more goals to check so i stand up and tell her to put up her pants again. before anyone react i already move away and see another girl with a dog? i approach her and knee before her for what reason i cant remember [i think i worried a little that the dream gets unstable so i grounded myself with a detail?]. i notice that i am still a little caveman and so i stand up and move on. i remember both advanced tasks and i decide to do the pokeball one. in waking i have incubated a little how i wanne approach this task and so i move straight to a guy and ask him/tell him i want to catch him into a pokeball but he dont have to worry i will let him out shortly after. [with this i wanted to make it feel easier because there will be no battle or resistance] he looks not that enthusiastic but since this is my dream he has no chance anyway. to summon the pokeball i look to him and say "ah and the pokeball is right behind me right" and i point without looking at a place behind me "but more on the right side?" he starts nodding. now i look to the point where i point at and see the pokeball. i smile because it works like a charm and pick up the ball. next to me is a girl or something? it feels like a witch [i hear harry potter audiobook at the moment] and i feel like she will prevent me from catching this guy. i push the button on the ball and throw it at the dude, the ball opens but it only bounce of him and nothing happens. damn it... i pick it up with TK and throw it at one of two ghost next to me [damn you harry potter xD] but the ball flows thru him. i pick it up with TK again and this time a guy approaches the scene and is next to the guy who i tried first. i throw the ball at him and he gets soaked in to the ball. i smile again and pick up the ball. i hold it in my hand and start moving around again. after some time i remember that part of the task is to let the guy out again and so i throw the ball. it opens the guy gets out and in same second the dream is fading.
i think i dont wake up but have a change in scenery where i lose lucidty.
i walk with a friend of mine in a mix of office and climbinghall. i see at the of the wall a climbing wall where a dude is belay a girl at the wall. i have the strong feeling of already knowing him and i already told him once that he is doing something wrong. my friend is laughing about him. he hears us and approaches us. i welcome him friendly and tell him that the thing he did was not smart. while telling this i suddenly have multiple ropes in my hand and i wrap them around my hands and start to swing a little. someone is pulling me backwards strongly and letting go so i swing to the ceiling on both sides. i do a backflip in the air and get lucid by that again.
"this is a dream again or still!" i move around and i see a office with some tables and people in suits. moving around i want instantly to phase thru a glassdoor but it wont work because in the last moment i feel insecure... i take a bowl per TK into my hand with some teabags. i move on and see a secretary i remember the bonus task and start moving and shaking my feet like it would be a earthquake. i say "wow do you feel this i think this is an earthquake" she looks up and agrees that this must be an earthquake but she seems not to bother. on the side of my visual field i see a window and outside some signs falling apart. i stop moving around like pretend because now i dont need to pretend anymore. i move to the window and for a short second hope that it wont get out of control and start to strong or end bad. i sit infront of the window and look around. shining Advertisement signs fall down and make some sparkles. i look at the street and see how it starts to crack up and to make a big hole. i feel satisfied to accomplish the bonus task so easy. the earthquake ends and i stand up and move over to the kitchencorner to make me some tea "hm i never drank any tea in a lucid" i think and expect a mug being in a wall cupboard. i open it up and find a mug with some water in it. i put it out pur our the water and start to boil me some water. since it need some time (doh..) i look around and think about meditate a little but the ground is wet so i imagine to know that next to me are some pillows and fair enough i look to my left and see two pillows. i them both up with TK and want to sit down as my roommate approaches me. i connect a bad feeling with him and think about to approach him and to resolve my waking life problem with him but the dream fades again and the scenery changes.
i loose lucidty and hear him telling me/a friend? that he just cant do it anymore. the music is too loud there are to many birds and he just cant sleep anymore. i sit somewhere outside and somehow feel like this is a dream and try TK on an item but it wont work because i feel insecure about my state. i move to a sign where some letters are pinned with magnets and i try to change them in something like Good bye but the letters are wrong and it wont work. i wake up for real

Airport
I remember it was night and me, my friend Lajja and some other guy were hanging out. I had flown to Wellington in order to hang out with her, we were all going to fly back to Auckland tomorrow.
I woke up in the morning and there was some issue with the flight, like Lajja had forgotten to book her tickets or we missed the plane. We have to go and get new tickets, I'm not really stressed about any of this though. We're in the waiting room which is split in two by a set of folding shutter doors. I sit in the second room while everyone else sits in the first room. I think I did it because it was quieter? The air hostess comes to tell the next few people to proceed, this happens a couple times but not once does she alert the 2nd room. I'm aware she's not doing this, the first time it happens I opened up the shutter doors a bit so she wouldn't ignore it. The 2nd time she still ignores it, so I pull the doors open all the way... The 3rd time she does it again, fucks sake. I just get up and head out instead of waiting, telling myself to just go ahead since Lajja and the other guy went with the hostess the 3rd time. I see them down on the floor below, connected to my floor by a set of escalators. Lajja and the guy are holding hands for some reason, I find this weird since they're not dating and Lajja has a boyfriend already. I head down to meet them and ask if they got the tickets, the guy says "Oh yeh, but uhh whoops I forgot yours, sorry mate". I instantly pick up that he did it on purpose, he's trying to sit alone with Lajja on the plane. I have to go buy my own ticket now.

Plane
I'm on board of a plane, it's a sort of continuation from the last dream (though I definitely recall waking up between them). The plane is quite small with 1 or 2 seats on either side of the walkway. My dad is on the plane next to me or in front of me, we're talking and I briefly look away from him mid-conversation. When I look back at him it's my mum instead. What the...? I'm a bit confused, wasn't I just talking to my dad? Or maybe it was my mum.. Everything feels real, I decide that 'maybe' it's a dream (although I don't even feel like it is). I do a reality check and it succeeds much to my surprise. I stand up and try to stabilise, recalling some advice about making the most of lucids by maximising lucidity and awareness. My mind is a bit chaotic though... I try to force the lucidity to the max and it sort of works but the dream isn't very stable. I can tell because it was bright at first and the world was gradually getting darker and darker. I'm in my flat room now, kind of feels like everything is spinning. I try to escape the room, thinking that maybe moving and engaging the dream will help extend it. I fly out through the window but end up awake. Crap. I do a reality check and succeed, I guess I just had a false awakening. I'm in my bed, I clamber out of it and I'm wearing heaps of clothes which are a bit restricting, it's quite dark and getting darker... I wake up for real.

Created Tuesday 28 June 2016

I got three LDs, one WILD, and two DILDs after that. There were a few dreams before that, though of these, I only have scraps for one. Furthermore, my illness made it difficult to think clearly during the dreams.

Scrap Group 1
Altering my Abbyssian deck for Duelyst. I think of adding even more Deathwatch reliant effects and minions.

Dream 1 - You Can Touch, But You Can't Look

A dizzying sensation indicates a successful WILD. I see my bed is even bigger, fluffier, and has many more pillows than usual.

On shuffling, I'm warped into the void. I shadowbox for a while, hoping I'd get thrown into combat, but nothing happens. Next, I'm warped to my bedroom. Something about my sister being there, saying something, and vanishing in quick succession. I bounce in bed for a while, noting the low gravity, before I simply hover around for a moment.

Get bored. I land on the floor, and try charging electricity in my hand. Nothing seems to happen, but I pretend it was working. I shoot towards the closet, and notice its door was open. On crossing through, the surroundings warp. I now stood beneath a tall, narrow space enclosed by wooden walls, a chute, perhaps. I pretend to wrestle with a harpy (this just being the first random monster that came to mind). Surprisingly enough, I feel a weak, invisible presence in my grasp. More alarming was finding myself levitating against my will. I release the hold, only to have an unseen force clench my arms and take me for a ride.

Eventually, I reach the top, and find myself in a giant-sized hallway, an equally giant-sized bureau a distance ahead. I'm taken towards an upper shelf, on which was placed a straw nest the size of a living room. I'd a bad feeling of my unseen captor's motives, let alone what the giant residents would do if they found me.

I feel the dream slipping, and awaken suddenly. Woulda gone for a DIELD, but I already sensed that wasn't possible.

Dream 2 - The Chameleon Mulligan

The visuals were blurred. I was in an unknown room.

I (and a few others, I think) were watching Rocko's Modern Life on a CRT TV. This had the Chameleon Bros, Chuck and Leon, driving Rocko and Heffer via sedan through a forested highway at daytime. The brothers argue on their legs bumping into each other, taking their focus off the road. The car swerves and sways, while Rocko and Heffer's concerns go unnoticed.

Eventually, the characters are replaced, and the environment becomes realistic. Now, I, and my brother Darren, were in the back seat of a dark colored minivan. Meanwhile, the Chameleon Bros. were replaced with what, for all intents and purposes, were realistic counterparts of themselves, including their phony Northern European accents and flamboyant mannerisms. Appearance wise, these were identical, thin, clean shaven, pale skinned men with short, spiky brown hair, both donned in neon colored shirts under black dress suits, and wearing thin rimmed spectacles. I was aware of the dream, but let it run its course.

While approaching the driveway to a wide building, we talk of the origins of the term Mulligan. Darren simply defines the current popular definition, whereas I correctly (more or less) identify it originating from an amateur golf player infamous for making do-overs. I make a joke of a "Mulligan" card, comparing this (perhaps incorrectly) to some old credit card commercial. Despite my terrible execution, everyone laughs heartily at this joke.

The dream fades and ends soon afterwards.

Dream 3 - Fiery Exit

The visuals were a bit blurred. I was seated on the while tiled floor of a bedroom in an unknown home. Across the room was CRT TV on a small desk. Behind that was tall window, the night sky in view. A bed with white covers behind me provided a means to cushion my back. On my right was a small squared wooden table, bowls of food scattered on it. A bathroom was visible from an opened door on the right corner. Furthermore, my nephew, Jarred, was seated ahead of me. I was "semi-aware" of the dream.

We were watching an old, late 80's/early 90's movie of an unknown genre. This started with two figures stepping out of a wood-paneled station wagon. One was a 40-something year old woman, light skinned and Farrah Fawcett-esque auburn hair. The other was a scrawny, bespectacled 8 year old kid with a blonde buzzcut. The mom talks of movies the kid never watched, but the kid refuses to listen so as not to have things spoiled for him.

As this goes on, I eat a rice, beans, and meat meal from a bowl. Think it had a bit too much tomato sauce and salt. I glance at the bathroom, where, oddly enough, I find live crawfish crawling on the sink's rim, their shells cream and white swirled in color.

In the movie, the kid is getting ready for a bath. Then, on dipping his hand in the tub, his arm is accosted by several large green bugs and worms, which he doesn't even notice. I question how that boy could miss something so obvious. Jarred remains oddly quiet.

So, I'm finishing my meal, when I notice verdant caterpillars on the table. I stopped eating in disgust, leaving a few spoonfuls of rice to waste. Dart back to the film, where the kid was now surrounded by insects. And yet, despite such a horrible state, the boy hardly reacts, let alone screams. Let's see. Creepy crawlies in the movie, creepy crawlies near me, and a creepily silent nephew? Yep, sounds like a nightmare's a-brewin. I gain full awareness.

Of course, I think to get the heck outta there. But before that, I immediately wreathe myself in an aura of flames just in case, briefly tensing my muscles to do so. Anyway, I rush down some curved stairs constructed of laminated wood, a red carpet running down the center. Once halfway down, I sensed the burning corpses of vermin falling and crumbling on me. Furthermore, my pyrotechnics have apparently set fire to the place, if the sound of a roaring inferno and creaking wood behind me were any indication.

Downstairs, I reach a wide, fancy marble foyer, where I overheard my sister and mom arguing. Ignoring that, I exit out the door, only to land into complete darkness. The dream ends immediately afterwards.

06.29.2016
9:30

Teleportation Practice part 1 (DILD)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

I am at my college at night and want to go to sleep because I vaguely know that I was trying to WILD but the rational parts of my brain aren't working i guess. I try to find a place to sleep but can't. The dream changes and I am in my mom's office helping her with something. I randomly do a nose plug RC and realize I'm dreaming. I fly out the window before I consider my goals. I am in a difference building and city than my mom's real office. I land on a roof and feel the roof to stabilize. That's right, my goal is to practice teleporting. I close my eyes and picture my bed room because that should be my most familiar place. When I open my eyes there is nothing and I can tell I'm waking up. I try and feel the carpet of my room but feel my bed sheets instead. I wake for a short WBTB. I tag this dream and try WILD again.

06.29.2016
10:30

Teleportation Practice Part 2 (DILD)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

I am in some sort of bizarro sandbox world where I can make what ever I want. There is infinite flat grass to the horizon. There is a bunch of random technicolor stuff built around me like if someone was building with lego but didn't have enough to not use random colors. I am working on the colors of some furtniture. I have an eye dropper that is more like the size of a turkey baster to copy the colors from one place to a another. I am making a bed have blue bedsheets and remember that I am in bed. I remember that my goal is to practice teleporting so I give it a try. I think about teleporting home but based on the previous dream that might just lead to a FA or destabilization. I close my eyes and imagine the ally way in a neighborhood near my apartment. I should be able to train there without any DCs around. The ally way appears and flys in beneath my feet. Everything on the left looks right but on my right there is a soccer field behind a chainlink fence with DCs playing. There is also some DCs talking in the ally. I practice some telekinesis on a rock but deside against it because of the DCs and that I should keep training teleporting. I up in the air and remember I want to talk to Androx. I yell,"Androx, I summon you." Wait didn't I want to go to LA and see if I can find the DHL headquarters and I start flying in that direction. "Wait, wasn't the whole point to teleport?" I get a bit overwelmed with different goals. If I can fly as fast as last time I should be able to get there in less than a second. I think as I start to fly over some mountains. I hit some fog though and loose my vision.

The dream changes to me in a tunnel under the mountains. A guy in a green robot suit is attacking some cars. Suddenly, Iron Man flys into him and pushes him into a room connected to the tunnel. I run in and see Iron Man get blasted in the corner. "Oh so you brought your friends? I will take care of them too." the titanium man looking guy says and shoots some sort of energy beam at me. It deflects off my body and I start throwing random things at him to taunt him. "Grah" he says and throws a sticky bomb at me. I TK a wooden palate into the bomb and fling it away. I pick him up with TK and fling him into a trash compactor in the corner and pull the lever with TK. I hear a crunch and think he is dead but I hear him say, "I can still breath. Help!" I guess it broke his suit but it protected him from death. Iron Man steps out of the rubble in the corner and takes off his suit which turns into a brief case. He asks who I am and I explain that I am part of a new superhero team from a different timeline. I think he would actually make a useful ally for the Dream Hero League. "Your timeline is about to get really bad. Come with me to my timeline where you can make a difference. If you really want to go back after I can teleport you to right before I came here." Tony and I walk while he considers it. Hawkeye and Captain America run into the room. I pat them on the shoulders as I walk by and whisper to Tony "We don't need people like them. Only powerful people like you. Oh and Thor. We should find Thor." I consider Hulk but I think he is to much of a loose trigger to be helpful. This is pre Age of Ultron Tony so Vision and Scarlet Witch aren't around yet either. While we walk down the tunnel Black Widow and Nick Fury jump out and hold guns to me. They tell Tony not to listen to me and I might be an enemy. I say to Tony, "About that teleport." I grab his arm and close my eyes. I have never tried teleporting someone with me before but it's good practice. I imagine the DHL headquarters and teleport us.

I open my eyes and I am in some sort of government building. Tony is no longer Tony but a handsome but average looking man. Teleporting has made me loose track of my goals again. I think I am trying to insert this man in the FBI as my spy. There is a guard at the door checking if we have clearance. The spies name is John. Wow what an average person. He has clearance. The guard looks at me suspiciously and say "Your guest needs clearance too." And starts looking through his paperwork. I punch him in the jaw and he drops to the floor. I look through the paperwork and sure enough my name isn't on there. John and I run inside. It looks like a plain office. "Wow this place is so boring." John says with a British accent. "Oh, yea, I guess this is the FBI in the default dream timeline. They pretty much don't do much exciting stuff in real life. Maybe the CIA in the James Bond timeline would be more your speed." I see a really bored looking woman in a cubicle. I say to her," Hey, want to go on an adventure?" She says yes and looks excited to do something actually cool. The guard runs into the room holding his jaw. He looks furious. I grab John and the womans arms and we run through a door. We a few floors up on a balcony over looking the loby. I jump over the banister and pull the DCs with me. Here goes. I close my eyes and picture myself landing on solid ground without falling.

My feet touch ground right away. That means we teleported. I think the feat of falling makes it more effective. I open my eyes and we are at the bottom of a staircase. The banister is now pat of the staircase. There are people in suits and dresses mingling. I pull them into the staircase and find a place where we are alone. "You are both in the CIA in this timeline now. Tell me your names so I can find you when I need information." Wait, wasn't I trying to find the DHL headquarters? Why am I infiltrating the CIA. I think I need to be more careful to hold onto my awarness when teleporting. The woman says her name is Rosa something or another. I touch her shoulder and repeat her name. I turn to John to ask his last name but wake up right away. I try to DEILD and get close but it feels a bit to late in the dream.



I am pretty happy that I did my goal and learned a lot about teleporting. It should be a much more reliable way of traveling if I can maintain lucidity and my goals. Now I have to decide what my next goal should be. Should I try and teleport to the DHL headquarters and fight the armed men. Or should I summon Androx and ask him about my dream world and dream guide. He might give me new powers too. Write in the comments what you think I should do.

I was having trouble sleeping, and the last time I checked the clock it was past 8 am I and woke up around 9 am, so it wasn't a long sleep.

I was having a normal dream and I realized I was dreaming, I was excited but somehow I was floating over my bed unable to change my position. I almost always have full control over my body when I LD, but this time I had only control over my mind. I ignored that and tried to conjure something behind the door while floating over my bed and failed.

Then suddenly I was in my bed thinking I'm awake but I wasn't. I had very painful sensations.
I felt like a couple of balls are moving inside my skull, they were moving and crawling under my skin, and I was shaking badly.

I also felt hot air coming out of my ears. I can't remember every sensation now, but I was in so much pain and trying to fight it. I tried to move my body and it made things worse. It all felt so real but I think at some point I realized that it wasn't because I tried to snap out of it and I woke up.

It didn't feel like sleep paralysis because that's not how it felt in previous experiences but probably the same person experiences it in many different ways.

I failed to sleep after, and I am still awake with only 3 or 4 scattered hours of sleep in the last 34 hours .

I opened a discussion about it here including a previous recurrent experience.

I haven't had many LDs lately.

I didn't record the last 2 here because there were not much details, but I used my LD app on mobile to save the dates, April 30 and May 5.

For the April LD, I remember trying to run too fast, I probably turned to a wolf at some point running on four, but my memory is fuzzy now. I also recall asking questions that went unanswered for the first time, maybe because I said something and waited a comment instead of asking directly.

I don't remember anything about the May LD because I fell asleep after it, and my entry on the app says "Don't remember details" .

In the next post, I will write about my today's LD.

28/6/16
Dream 1: I was living in like a dystopian alternate universe where peoples freedom of movement and expression was heavily restricted. I was part of a rebel group and secretly ferried people to and from meetings. It was early morning and I was waiting in a café when my client came in. We made eye contact and understood eachother then we both left at slightly different times to not arouse suspicion. We both hopped into my car and I started driving her through the city, talking with her about stuff.

Dream 2: I was playing in a tennis tournament against Maria Sharapova, I think I had won a competition to do so. Obviously she trounced me, however I had one amazing rally where I hit a drop shot which she returned but I smashed down the line to beat her. Everyone was really impressed with that and I was pretty chuffed myself.

Unintentional WBTB

Fragment: I was farming mobs in firecat alley.

Dream 3: I was playing in a competitive dota team. It was a best of 3 and I think my team had lost the first game however we were doing well in the second.

Dream 4: I was playing a Mario-esque platformer game against my brother. We were both taking it very competitively and it got pretty heated as we tried to beat each other.

Fragment: I was at home doing something.

Dream 5: I was on Sydney road working. There was a big building which had a huge vine over the front which had giant caterpillars within. It was my job to spray for those caterpillars and capture any I found. After a while of this I went into a shopping area to get some food. I stumbled across a girl from high school who was working in the café. She walked out with me for a bit but said she had to get back to work so we said goodbye. As I walked along the street I saw two other guys from high school who insinuated that I had been on a date with the girl. I denied it and then asked them what was going on. As this happens I start feeling a bit lucid and try putting my fingers through my palm, it works! I feel like I am about to wake up so I do another reality check, counting my fingers, and then shoot out some fire from my hand to see if I can. It feels real enough, although not as present as some of my other lucids. I then wonder what to do, and remember I wanted to ask my dream guide what my true name was just to see what the answer would be. I ask this question aloud and suddenly, an impossibly deep, rumbling voice from within me speaks slowly and deliberately. "MMM'SSOOORRIII MMOOORRAAAHH" (Or something like that I couldn't remember it 100% when I woke up). I was taken aback by the power of the voice and the name resonated within me for a while, as if the voice I just heard was echoing throughout my skull. I then thought I had woken up, and began trying to recall my dreams and write them down, however it was a false awakening (doh) and so when I woke up properly my recall has suffered a bit.

On a side note The voice and presence seemed ever so slightly malevolent, or rather just scary because of its extreme power, and reminds me of the dark presence imitating Sivason's avatar when in my last lucid I called out for my dream guide. Both of these entities were extremely, overwhelmingly powerful and huge, dark presences, so maybe they are the same thing and it is my dream guide. Hopefully in future dreams this becomes clearer and I can start a relationship with it.

I was entering an auditorium for some kind of job-related announcement/seminar. Donald Trump is there. The crowd was told that they can’t stay unless they are wearing a certain kind of shoes or attire. I looked down to see I am wearing a pair of strange high-top black with white markings canvas tennis shoes. I had to leave. Someone tells me I should have worn my silver shoes and I feel irritated by this remark.

I went to my apartment, which is similar to an apartment I rented in waking life over 10 years ago. My mom was there, she tells me that Donald Trump has bought the company I work for. I told her he did not, I don’t even work for a company, I work for one woman who calls herself a company. My mom laughs at me, telling me Im wrong. The way she is treating me made me angry. I asked her where are her facts?! And she sort of went catatonic, looking off to here right, not acknowledging me. I yelled at her but Im confused why she isn’t answering me now. Then I realized I was dreaming. I still felt angry so I pushed her and then I decided I was going to through the television out of the window. We were on the 2nd floor, but since I knew I was dreaming i knew there would be no consequences. I did this, and then I left. I was outside on the drive with my dog and I decided to fly. (ho, hum) I had my dog under my left arm and I was holding sandals in my right hand. Once I was floating I realized I didn’t need to hold onto my sandals and I could let my dog to the ground as well. I thought about running with my dog too. The outside of the apartment and the street are almost identical to the apartment I rented over 10 years ago. (#4) My husband wakes me up to tell me he is leaving for work.

Thoughts:
This apartment seems to be an important location. In waking life I lived tree for only a year. When I moved in things were great- I was dating a new guy, I had just started a career I loved, I could pay my bills and I had friends that I went out with regularly. Over the year that I lived there my drinking became out of control, my closest friendship enabled my bad habits. We were robbed together at gunpoint down the street from this apartment while walking to a nearby shopping center. I starting dating a drug-addicted-sociopathic-compulsive liar. I lost more than one good friend and a good job. I ended up moving out of the place and into the house that my crazy partner lived in with some friends. This was the beginning of one of the roughest periods of my life, but that ended up teaching me a lot of valuable lessons. Maybe the apartment symbolizes a transitional period between good and bad?
The dreams where family members hate me or treat me horribly are so common now that I have decided to really focus on becoming lucid in these moments. Instead of throwing things out of a window and flying off though I would like to do something else. Something to break this cycle. Maybe just tell them I love them?
Shoes were a theme in this dream too. I guess they must symbolize how I feel about myself compared to others.? And how dare Trump invade my dreams!

This dream was part of a nap, in which I had a bunch of dreams. The others aren't that interesting tough, so I think I'll only be posting this one.

I was at home, lucid, altough it seemed I was in a low level of lucidity. For some reason, I wanted to have the powers of Saitama from One Punch Man. I was trying to show off to someone in my house that I was really fast, by running down a hallway. I wanted to be able to run along it in the blink of an eye. I was pretty fast, but nowhere as fast as I wanted to be. After a few tries some people entered my home and I went to the living room.
For some reason, I was kinda pissed off, so I ripped out the bars in the window (there are some bars along the window IRL, to keep children from falling) with my own hands. For some reason I felt like I screwed up and shouldn't have done that, I guess I tought that because I wasn't very lucid. I tried to climb out of the window, but somehow ended up climbing back in. I think I jumped out of the window and flew around. I eventually landed in front of the building where I live.

At this point, I somehow became more lucid and tried to remember one of my dream tasks. I had a lot of stuff planed but since I was dreaming about superpowers anyway, I tought "Ah screw it, I might as well try to use my hero powers". I saw a store nearby and tought about trying to find my hero suit (from the Dream Hero League). I entered it and it was kinda empty, save for a clerk I found there. I asked him if my suit was ready, and they told me that it was. We walked into another section of the store, which had more stuff in it. There was a a counter with some clerks behind it and there was a line with some people. There were also some shelfs with potted plants on them.

The clerk took me to the counter and the clerk behind the counter gave me a box with my suit in it. As I rushed out of the store, excited I started opening it. I had to stop to calm myself down a little, so I wouldn't lose the dream. When I opened the box up, everything was there. However, my gloves where made of cotton instead of leather. I didn't notice that, as I was distracted at how comfortable they looked . I asked the store clerk if by just putting on the glove, the whole costume would appear on me (just a shortcut so save some time) and they said that it would. However, I couldn't put it on, as it still had those little plastic bits that come on new clothes, which you have to remove (dunno what they're called) and they kinda where tying down the hole in which I was supposed to fit my hand through. As I was struggling with the gloves, a guy that looked like Harry Potter suddenly appeared beside me. He looked way older for some reason. He was angry for some reason, asking if I was a wizard (he called me some name that I don't remember right now) and I denied it. I was gonna tell him my Hero name (Ryuk) but I couldn't remember it at the time. I them lost lucidity and the dream turned into some manga panels from My Hero Academia. The dream ended shortly after.

I was at a mechanics to get my car fixed. A song came on the radio (some old R&B or funk song) that I liked, and I felt happy. I told someone that my Dad used to love this song. I started flowing around the parking lot. Realized I was dreaming and became lucid. I flew into the sky and saw 3 blue jays flying near me. I decided to fly next to them, but one of them looked wary of me so I sped up and flew really fast towards the mountains in the distance. I was high up, and there were clouds, and it was beautiful. I landed on the highest peak of the mountain, and I discovered a small room just inside of the rock I landed on. It had a small branch carved into the stone and an olive-green cushion to make the seat more comfortable. There were 2 windows carved into the stone as well, and I looked back out towards the area I flew from.

As I climbed down I lost lucidity. I walked past a house that was partially open (missing outside walls) and I saw an area with lots of shelves and interesting [nature-based?] art. All I can really remember about these objects is that I saw leaves and wood.

I needed to take a shower before a road trip. I had trouble deciding which shower I would use. I knew I had hours until I needed to leave so there was no rush.

I was living in an apartment complex and driving home through the parking lot. I knew I needed to pay my rent but the office was closed. I saw who I thought was the office manager outside talking to another person and I briefly thought maybe I would just walk down and pay the rent to her. But when I parked near the office I saw that there were designated slots to put your rent check in after hours and I decided I would do that. My last name was completely different than my maiden or married name: Polley. First name was the same.

Thoughts:
I have no idea. I have been getting good sleep the last few nights. The lucid dream wasn’t the most lucid I’ve been. I will have to think about these for a while.

I am in what looks like my grandfather's Boise house. I am with several other people, include Mike A. Somewhere in my interaction with the group, I realize I am dreaming. After I become lucid, I realize I am no longer an active character in the dream, but rather, an awareness observing the dream. This is unusual so I decide to experiment with this new "ghost" state I am in. I see Mike in the kitchen. I approach him and whisper in his ear "I am right here." He reacts as though he does hear me but he looks confused because he cannot see me. He leaves the kitchen, but I stay, trying to decide what to do next. I opt for a dramatic dream exit. I consider spinning, but decide to try to sink through the floor instead since that has worked for me in the past.

I sink down through a vortex in the floor and find myself in a large, crowded building with many hallways. I begin walking around, looking at the dream and hoping for something interesting to present itself. I see dream characters but am reluctant to approach them for some reason. I feel as though this maze of dark rooms and hallways is endless, and I don't really like it. I've found myself in this kind of maze many times, and I always want out. I consider ways to locate an exit, but I wake up before I try another technique to change the scene.