lucid

It was nighttime and i was standing on a sidewalk, for some reason the street lamps were all off and the only light source was the moon's illumination. It must've been quite cold because i was wearing a hoodie, i was wearing gloves and i could see my breathe exhaling in front of me. I noticed a girl staring at me from across the street; she was also wearing a jacket, gloves, and a beanie. We both stood for a few moments just staring at each other before she started making her way towards me. She closed the distance between us, finally stopping directly in front of me. Both of us stood quietly in front of each other. She had her hands stuffed in her jacket pockets, Her hair was black, her skin was pale, and her eyes were staring directly into mine. She was beautiful. A moment of silence and stillness passed between us untill she finally took her hands out of her jacket and cupped both sides of my face. She took a step closer to me, Her face was now only inches away from mine, she was so close i could feel her breathing on me. Before i could get a grasp of what was happening She was was already kissing me. Her lips were warm and soft, her tongue was wet and it was wrestling with mine, and her hands gripped my face tightly as she continued kissing me. It was amazing. As we stood there on the sidewalk kissing i felt, to my horror, myself starting to wake up. I did'nt want to wake up, i wanted to stay. I wrapped my arms around her waist and embraced as much of her as i could. I was desperately kissing her back as i felt her fading away from me. The beautiful girl i was holding tightly onto was disappearing and at the same time I was slowly gaining consciousness, until finally i woke up. My room was still quite dark, so i must've woken up right before dawn. For some reason i was short of breath and i was sweating considerably. I could still feel her warmth on my lips. It felt so intense... So real. More real and intense than any kiss i've experienced before. That was, without a doubt, the most vivid dream i've ever had in my life. I sat up from my bed with an ache in my chest as the realization that it was all just a dream hit me like a speeding vehicle. It wasn't real... She wasn't real. The pain of her not being real was too much for me. I started crying. I've never cried before because of a dream. Wierd. It's been four days since i've dreamt of that girl. I can't get get her out of my head. It's as if i'm in love with her. Wow, isn't that sad? I'm in love with a girl that doesn't exist. Since that night i've been going to sleep with her on mind. I hope i see her again. Even if she's only in my head.

dreamviews/safari ate my ENTIRE DJ ENTRY for today. Only re-posting one-sentence summaries for now:

bedtime: midnight

~ 5 hrs:

+ train

WBTB: 45 mins to 1 hour

+ LD#171 blimp ToTM Basic II (sky)

+ LD#172 paralyzed, sucked into sky, cartoon bridge

+ LD#173 "L" science museum, girls, kiss, ask to dance, kiss

BTS

+ (f) offering pizza to friends/guests in a house

+ caveman: oral attention to girl

I go into a player's room in Habbo Hotel, I'm seeing the pixel world as you would normally. There are many roundish pets strolling around the room and I "scratch" three of them once. The owner is present at least, I don't know if there's any other players here besides him. I came to ask for free stuff and as I ask if there is any I add many " xD":s into the question. I feel so stupid because of doing that. The owner replies something and he also adds many "xD":s into his answer. The dream ends and another begins where I'm spectating a Finnish Tv-star Riku Rantala ( Madventures ) on Russia. He plans to prank two Russian police men, and explains what he is going to do. He will pretend to be taking his p***s out of his pants to urinate. He says to the "camera" : " I'm going to run away from them... by standing still." Riku then walks towards them on the street. He starts to open his pants and the police men start to walk quickly towards him. They say to their radios :" P***s out, p***s out." I laugh in the dream. As they get to him Riku then tries to shake their hands and says confidently : "It's okay, I'm from Finland." The police men tackle him to the ground onto the snowy pavement. I laugh even harder. Riku acted like one of the Dudesons. I suddenly appear back in the Habbo room I was in before and now everyone is gone and all the stuff has disappeared. I scroll the chat upwards to see what has happened. Some twenty year-old habbo with a wild hairstyle has said that heterosexuals are boring and then has added all the people in the room to his friends list including me. He has invited everyone to his place then I think.

In the dream I'm laying on our living room's sofa under a lamp's light that is on a bed-side table near me. My father and brother are nearby. I tell them to be quiet, I'm about to fall asleep and I don't want to to be disturbed. My eyes begin to close and my body start to go numb , but then my brother gives a laugh. Now I'm smiling too, argh. I then fall a sleep as from a snap of fingers and I'm levitating towards our toilet while paralyzed. I turn my head and see a grey figure at my room's door, my pulse raises to the sky. It sprints to me, but I'm not scared. The figure's face starts to change and it get's two-dimensional. It bubbles : " Mun mun mun mun mun."

I think I dive straight back into a dream. I find myself aboard a luxury yacht on what seems a beautiful Caribbean sea. It's a sunny day and the sky is blue and clear. I look at the shore and there's a fancy vacation paradise-hotel setting. I feel the sun's warmth on my skin. The dream world feels a bit... roundish I suppose. The yacht has a parquet floor. I walk to the far back of the boat and I then have a quick idea of some k-18 action when a figure starts to come towards me. The figure can't do what I had in mind so I leave that scenario behind and move on. I have appeared at the paradise's beach and I want to go into the ocean. As I'm going towards the waves that are slowly floating ashore my friends and brother shout to me not to go, I might drown because I can't swim. The water is also dirty suddenly. I raise my hand and create a hardened sand pathway into the water, like Toph at Lake Laogai in the AtLA-series. I also kinda want to walk on water like Jesus. I go and walk on my pathway and I see my brother is following me. He then falls and is engulfed in a membrane in the water. I use telekinesis to lift him out, even though my brother is kinda annoying because he keeps following me, I still don't want him to get harmed. I go to a Tiki bar fully lucid. I say out loud to the dream : " Now subconsciousness, show me something funny." A second passes and a madman with a spray-can and a lighter comes in. He tries to burn people including me, but I use my also fiery hand to take a grab of his weapon and destroy it. I don't see how that was funny, huh.

I remember an "inside task" ( the inside joke started at fourth grade ) and I say :" Okay, now the Jannis thing." A door opens behind me and I see Jannis, the kinda weird kid from our elementary class opening the door. He peaks out and I ask : " Do you want Jannis's banana?"( My brother and his friend had really gone to Jannis's door and asked him this question while offering him a banana. Elementary school jokes are weird I know ) "Or do you have Jannis's banana?" I ask him. He squashes a banana into my hand and goes back to his computer to play video games. It's his room, but different than it really was. I also enter and there's a lot of video game toys and game covers. I look into the space between the shelves and I think at that moment he threw me out. I'm back at the Tiki bar. I say :" A door to a train station." A door emerges and I go through it. I get to my home city's train station and everything is life like.Too bad I'm starting to lose lucidity at this point. A cool big silvery train comes and stops. There are flat rollers inside on the floor and double seats on top. I look if I could go sit next to the operator's seat, but I then go sit to all the way back. Then something mildly lucid about my brother being a blue monkey humanoid but I'm not going to delve into that.

ceiling

3 February 2016

It began at the McDonald’s by I-435. I was with woman who resembled Robin from “How I met your Mother.” I don’t remember the events preceding this; I just remember realizing that I was dreaming at some point during this dream. It was cloudy, foggy almost. Now usually when I realize that I was dreaming I almost immediately end up waking myself up and that almost happened but I did not want that. So I decided to say a prayer (I’m a Christian) asking God to help me in preserving this experience and then everything began to snap into focus. I could not get over how real this felt. How real everything felt. I took into account all of the mistakes I had made when attempting to remain lucid before and I made sure not to make those mistakes again. Robin and I then made our way to the 435 Highway and I decided to jump. The jump was higher than expected, like way higher, and when I came back down I hit the ground with a thud. The shock almost woke me up and I could feel myself slipping back out of the dream. At this point it began to feel like sort of a daydream as I was beginning to wake up and I could feel myself lying on my couch IRL. I knew that opening my eyes would finalize the end of this experience so I squeezed them shut attempting to bring this sort of daydream back into a lucid dream. It a few seconds but I was able to do it. My body fell back asleep and the dream was back in full focus. I was back in The Dream Realm.

I was still on 435 with Robin but something was different. In reality 435 is a beltway but in this dream it was a long highway that stretched for miles, maybe hundreds of miles, in just one direction. Robin and I began to fall for each other as we walked down the highway. There were no cars and I do not remember there being a median. The clouds had cleared and now it was a bright and sunny day. There was something tranquil about the whole thing. Vast rolling hills, cool air on your skin, and just the calm silence. It was really cool. Robin and I were coming up on some kind of structure. It appeared to be a series of upright tubes that protruded out of the ground like towers. I could see them past an overpass.
Now one of the tools I use to tell if I am dreaming or not is my magic watch. Every once in a while I will do a reality check IRL by checking my watch. I will press two ‘buttons’ (they’re not buttons IRL) at the top and the bottom of the face of my watch. If nothing happens (or if I’m just not wearing a watch) then I know I am not dreaming. However if the face of my watch unlatches and opens up then I know that I am dreaming. This has never failed me. Now in The Dream Realm I will use this magic watch as a bottomless storage device. When the face opens up I can reach in and pull out anything that I want. I pulled a rose out of my magic watch and offered it to Robin. Then I pulled out a chocolate, Robin was very moved by the gesture. She and I kissed and we’ll just say that things happened from there.

I ‘awoke’ on top of Dennis from “It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia.” The whole gang from the show was there laughing at us. Now I thought that I had woken up for real so I resigned into a non lucidity. At least for a short while. I don’t really remember what happened, I just remember that I was in a highway rest stop and the Dennis and I were embarrassed but we were able to laugh it off. The diner was run by a woman. I remember it was snowing outside, this only served to further solidify the idea that this was not a dream as I had gone to bed expecting a snow storm the next morning. Then I realized that things were not quite right so I checked my watch and sure enough, I was still in The Dream Realm. I was lucid again.

This was a shock to me as I had never been lucid for this long before. I turned away from the window to see that the place had gone dark. The counter was closed off and all of the blinds were shut. I was freaked out by this so I pulled a six shooter out of my magic watch. I thought about exploring the diner more but decided against it as the place kind of made me uneasy. I went outside. I was in the mountains and it was a wooded area. The snow was thick and the wind was strong. I did not know where to go from here so I asked God where I should go next. Before I knew it the wind blew me towards a pair of motorcycles. The moment I mounted one of them it was as if winter itself disappeared in the blink of an eye. All the snow just sort of evaporated and it was a clear sunny day. Again I could feel myself waking up and I fought it off. Someone had joined me on the motorcycle next to mine and we both rode off on the highway. Then the police chased after us for reasons unknown and we attempted to out run them. Now the guy who had joined me, we’ll call him Jeff, I guess was streaming this online because he kept talking to a camera. We went off road with the police hard on our tails and took dive off of a ledge. It must have been 20 foot drop. We hit the ground with a splat and I remember us both laughing as our mangled selves were lying in pools of blood. My femur was completely broken and sticking out and it hurt like hell but I was having such a good time that I was able to laugh it off. Then Jeff said to the camera, “I hope you enjoyed this segment but we gotta go now. Till next time, keep it real!” Then he said to me, “Whelp time for us to wake up. Till next time.” And he disappeared, I assumed he was another dreamer who had woken himself up (I may have been lucid but my mind wasn’t completely rational).

Then I decided it was time to wake myself up. Not because of the injury but because I just felt that it was time. I had a blast and now my time was done. As Jeff said, “Until next time.” I woke up on the couch and checked my wrist: No watch, this was real. I quickly jotted down this experience and proceeded to caress my femur for the next minute as phantom pains persisted thereafter.

I feel exhausted in the dream and I go to the shower to sleep since my bed and dream journal is there. The space is larger than usual and there's a window in the roof. It's another day already, I won't be able to sleep. My brother didn't like my decision to sleep in the shower room because then he had to sleep in my room for some reason. He has left three notes with threats, I'm not that intimidated. He has a bad handwriting and I feel sympathetic towards him. I'm able to read the threat from start to finish which is odd, usually all texts are kinda blurry. He tries to ask money from me then but I won't agree to give it to him. He looks to the first pages of my dream journal without my permission. The dream changes and I'm now in a grocery store with my family. I think we're candy shopping, for candy. My dad starts to talk to some man and then the dream hops us back into our apartment. My dad tells us hes sick with a bad disease. I ask for the name of the disease, but he won't tell me. I think he is lying that hes sick. I then try to sleep at my bed.

A force is lifting me from my bed in to the air and I realize the situation right away. My room is dark and I can see that The Grudge is standing where my trash bin usually is. I'm surprised to see her trying to help me instead of being just a regular nightmare. She uses some kind of a telekinesis ability to make me spin in the air, loosening the dark force's grab of me. She also says something weird along the lines : " You're my boyfriend and you will get a girlfriend."I don't like what she just said. She then show a quote from here, Dreamviews, that states :" You can get lucid, believe." I put my hands in the air to my sides and I stop the spinning with my intention. I'm not afraid of the Grudge even for a second. She helped me. I begin spinning again but I'm dropped to a warehouse floor by the dream. With telekinesis I push everything around me away from me and into the walls. I go into a nearby staircase where I see the Grudge for the last time in the dream. I give her a high-five and we both smile, we made it. I made it! I go outside and see an intersection of four roads. It's a brightly lit small city center. The dream seems a bit disoriented, at least the scenery seems. I rise to the air and fly for a minute or so, the next thing is that I'm in a grocery store. I go and walk past the counter and the cashier lady. We laugh at something with a fat man. I'm in a mall. A lively 30-year old woman walks towards me and I ask her to sit down with me. We sit on one of the benches.

I remember my task, maybe one from DV or my own. I whisper to her : " What are you grateful for?" and I put as much emotion into the question as possible. She starts to cry a little and she answers ( the answer doesn't quite match the question ): " Never love anyone as much as you love yourself, because when you do, love for yourself grows lesser." For some reason I feel I'm in a movie similar to Good Will Hunting because of what she said. When she answers there is Ludovico Einaudi's music playing on the background for a while. Her message seems important. I stand up and once again take off to the air. I'm suddenly at a door with my brother. I mentally prepare myself for a great battle, one that is to be set in the ancient Middle-Earth. I tell my brother : " It can be quite scary then." I know it might just be the craziest lucid experience I'll ever have if I get it right. I open the door into dark grass plains. There are some elvish soldiers here and there, a small army. My brother says: " This isn't even good." I agree, a total failure! The quality of the scenario is really bad. The forces run down into a lit enemy cave. There are a few horsemen too here and there. It feels like I'm in a B-tier video game. The last thing I remember is being behind yet another grocery store.

ceiling

I'm on a corridor at a grocery store and I'm walking faster than usually. I run faster because there are aggressive insects of all sorts coming from every direction. As I walk I think of some empty aquariums I saw earlier. After a minute or so zombies also start to appear from all around. I look at my shirt and something is growing on it, like spots that are duplicating. The dream changes and now it's 1am and we're at our city's main street. I'm accompanied by my brother, my old friends from elementary school and by a few new faces. It's really late compared to my usual sleep rhythm and I should go home and sleep, but I don't want to. I suggest we go get some pizza. Everyone agrees. I'm having the idea in mind that we will slice the pizzas, no way I'm eating a whole one. I also think it would be cool to go and see a movie at out local cinema that is almost always empty. We have some collectible items with us. I feel great, it's a late summer night, I'm with friends and there's not a single soul on sight besides us.

I start suspecting there's something going on as I'm in the dark in my room. I try and push my hand through the wall behind my bed without looking at it's direction and nothing stops the movement. " Ok I'm definitely dreaming."I open my window and carefully glide in the air towards the night sky. It's a bit cold. The dream changes and I'm sitting at our living room's sofa with my sister's children. They're eight and six years old, both boys. My sister is somewhere at the house and others are too. Suddenly, I notice something odd going on with the 8-year old. He has tummy on both sides of his body. I look at him perplexed and say : " Well this is weird." He replies: "Yes it is." He goes to show it his mother. Suddenly a random man wearing only a t-shirt comes from the other side of the apartment to me. He bends over and says : " Will you stick it in?" "What!? I will most definitely not!"

I'm realizing it's a dream but I don't quite "get it" yet. I float to the air and I'm gliding eight meters above the ground. The landscape is much different than usually, all the building I know have changed. I wonder where my high-school is, there's only a blue walled square building where it used to be. I see a few other people floating around, I guess they're other lucid dreamers ( I'm definitely semi-lucid). They start to follow me. Suddenly they change into anime-looking characters and they drag me down and pinch me to the ground. They stick a wide and black spear into my chest. I see a glimpse of a blue man's face who's just standing there and accepting what's happening. I appear to the other side of train tracks that go past the area where my high-school is. Some machines start appearing and I realize that they are bombs. I start beating their metal surfaces with my fists to break them so I won't get blown up. They keep appearing more and more so I take off to the sky and suddenly I'm more aware. ( This has happened a couple of times, flying straight upwards has lead me to gain more awareness.) I go back down and slide in the air near some building's rooftops and then I take off to the clouds above. As I'm near the clouds I decide to roll over so that the clouds are actually beneath me and the ground above me. Then I boost straight upwards and go all the way to the outer atmosphere. There's darkness ahead so I turn back and look down to Earth. The quality foggy so I dive back down, and try to head to New York City. I get closer and closer and houses start to appear the way they do in Google Earth. They get 3D.

I'm suddenly teleported to the surface and everything is life like, which is really nice. I feel like I'm a good spot now. I'm on a street of a quiet middle-class neighborhood. I begin stabilizing by rubbing my hands fiercely together while looking at the details of a nearby store. The quality of the dream gets a bit better, though it was really good already. I think about transforming. So I rise my hands and stand like Jesus on the cross at the middle of the street with my eyes looking up. I'm not thinking of anything particular what to transform into. I actually just want an armor, like that of Iron man's. I feel movement on my other hand and I look at it. A green titanium battle suit is completely covering it. It's made for combat. It has an "army" vibe into it, like it was made by humans in the far future. I manage to create a gun that matches the essence that of the battle suit's. The suit covers now all of my body, not only just my hand. I begin to walk the street searching for a mirror so I could look at myself. I find one at the front of one of the houses. I look at it and I look bad ass. I miss a helmet. I close my eyes and try to focus on it appearing to my head. I feel a tingling sensation on the back of my neck and titanium begins to engulf my head. It's nearly complete, but I wake up.


ceiling

Now this dream had a seriously weird start. I think there was something happening before I got lucid but I don't remember it.

I was in some kinda camp close to a small creek. There were tents and some structures which I guess were placed to dry clothes or so. I had some self made "arsenic meat" with me, it was in an aluminum pot and was essentially raw meat in a clear liquid that consisted mostly or to some degree of arsenic. It smelled abhorrently chemical and I know that I accessed a Wikipedia page on arsenic via some kind of direct neural interface, no intermediate electronic device needed. On the page it talked about its psychoactive properties (not existent in real life as far as I can tell). Either I ate a piece of that or the smell alone was enough to induce said effects and I experienced visual distortions and some degree of control over these. That promptly made me lucid.

Spoiler for TL;DR: I had sex with my wife:

Though I became lucid I didn't really remember my goals or anything, instead I instinctively summoned my wife and had some forceful but pleasant sex with her, it was way shorter than in real life only a few minutes. And we were in an impossible position too. The sensation caused me to have a wet dream as well...

After that I had a FA but I did not wake up. I was in my home, and for once it was spectacularly close to my actual home, only minor details like color were off which is super rare. I was standing in the bathtub and was fiddling with a tarp that had seemingly become dirty when my wife and me had fun. I had also worried about my wife getting pregnant since we didn't use any contraception. And the tarp was mostly in the toilet... the weirdness of it all snaps me back into lucidity, I do the nose pinch RC. I go onto the bed in my bedroom, and my wife was also there, talking about something. I know I half consciously listened but since I knew it was DC I didn't pay it too much attention. I thought about trying shared dreaming but ultimately didn't try.

I jumped outside, I'm pretty sure from my balcony. I look at the sky and... it's obviously bright day from all my surroundings yet it's actually night in the sky, it's black and I see the stars.
(I only saw it in the dream but found it weird after I woke up and thought about it, this mix between night and day at the same time is new to me.)
I thought about flying up but didn't want to spent too much time in a black void, so I improvised and filled the space partially with a beautiful green nebula, it worked quite spectacularly. I fly up into the sky, aiming at the border of the nebula. I was rather disappointed to see that the night sky was only a texture several kilometers above the planet. Instead of fixing it I turn back towards earth and spin it around to take a trip to Japan. It takes me a moment to find it, and it's not a normal earth globe either but I managed. The globe was... it was still a perfect sphere and the countries had roughly the right shape but it was vastly scaled down, so that each country was only barely a large city. I entered Japan on the east in some kind of harbor and went westwards into an industrial area. I remember seeing some soldiers and then I used a weird high precision zoom interface to inspect my surroundings. I see some products and wares and eventually find and pick up a lead-pouring game, you know that Sylvester tradition thingy. Right then I'm violently yanked out of the dream and wake up.

And incidentally I realize I had this dream right on time to finish my first TotM (I had this dream only hours into February), and I didn't know the task by then either.

No dreams from last night, since I only slept for like 4 hours. Did get a nap in, however.

I immediately WILD into the dream. I'm in the main building for classes at my college. My parents and brother are here, and we’re in a long hallway. My brother is walking somewhat ahead of me, and my parents are way behind me. I notice I’m just kind of floating down the hallway, which feels pretty cool. My dad shouts something for me to tell my brother, but I can’t hear him. Besides, I’m lucid, might as well do some things. I mainly just enjoy flying around a bit, while this random woman follows me around, asking if I want to join her in private. “Not until I get some tasks done first.” (*pats dream self on the head* Good boy)

I decide to start with the basic task - look up at the sky. I see this room off to the side that looks almost like a cockpit to a plane, with a huge control panel against the wall. The windows are huge, so I go in and look outside. The sky looks an incredible shade of blue, with several clouds that look almost copied-and-pasted across the sky - it reminds me of the wallpaper in Andy’s room in Toy Story. The horizon starts to turn orange - the sun is rising. However, I can’t shake this weird feeling that something hilarious is gonna happen. Sure enough, as the yellow circle rises up, inside is Michael Jackson dancing to Beat It, with all his backup dancers barely visible in the background. Immediately I can hear the music start up, and I find it funny. Before I even realize what’s happening, I’m dancing along with the music, doing pretty much all the choreography from the music video. (*smacks dream self on the back of the head* Dude, what the heck?)

As I do this one spin move, I realize that I should get back to doing stuff, so I instead continue to spin a bit to stabilize the dream. Unfortunately, it seems to have the opposite effect, and I wake up. I almost manage to DEILD back into it, but my roommate decided to watch YouTube videos on his big speakers, which jolted me awake when they fired up.

Kind of a fragment to start off. I am at a fancy Taco Bell, but I can't decide what I want off the menu, which makes the manager really angry for some reason.

Next, I'm at a band concert at my old high school, with my old band director leading the band. I'm in the audience with the rest of the students, who seem incredibly uninterested in the concert - they're even taking while the music is playing. Speaking of music, the band's sound is mainly done from an audio recording, and the actual band is just playing over it - the band version of “lip-syncing”. I give up on paying attention, and start a conversation with one of my friends next to me, at one point talking about DreamViews. The song finally ends, and the director says a few words. During this, there's some glitch in time, and I go back like 10 seconds, listening to him say the same words again. He even notices me do it, and after his words catch up to where he was, he laughs that I just had to experience it a second time.

I had a time slot to take a nap after my first class, so I did. I WILDed into my dorm room, and jump down from my bed. I try to plug my nose and do an RC - it kinda works, but my nose is really clogged with snot, almost like I’m sick. However, it’s good enough, so I continue. I try to think of one of the TotMs, but I can't quite remember. I figure one has something to do with a DC, so I expect my roommate to walk in the door. I open the door, and both roommates walk in and immediately jump in their beds. I for some reason decide to tell them I'm dreaming, but they don't seem interested. I try flying to convince them, but I can't quite stay up in the air, despite the assist from our rug in the middle of the room, which is acting like a trampoline. I end up bouncing until I wake up.

I end up DEILDing after what seems like a long time for a DEILD. I currently don't remember exactly where I am, but my boss is here, so I assume I am at work. I try to think of the tasks again, and for some reason remember that one of them is to eat a banana… So I go to the break room and get a banana, peel it, and eat it. Well that was easy. I wake up shortly after, upon which I wonder where I ever got the idea to eat a banana…

I'm being moved from a dream to another, hey what is happening? The realization hits me and I scream: "Lucidity!" from the bottom of my lungs. I immediately materialize into the dreamworld and I find myself in and odd large room with the ceiling reaching fifteen meters high. As if it's a station, a station from where you can leave to "nowhere", a "nowhere" that a human couldn't understand. I strongly feel that Iv been here before. The room has some benches by the wall. I don't recall what kind of beings there walked and stood around, but even though they have kind of a human-like features I have a feeling they're something different. Kinda like the shadowy people from Spirited Away but with colors. I do a few reality check such as breathing trough my nose while pinching it firmly. I then try to approach a black man dressed in stylish jacket with large shoulders. He glows with mystery as he calmly stands there by a pillar-looking object. I try to approach him, but I find myself being stopped by two other men. They won't let me go to him, huh. The man in the suit looks at me silently as I turn away. I head outside. I guess the place looks kinda like a mix up of three structures : The Spa from Spirited Away, a church and a train station. There are suddenly tribesmen all around me and their tribe's/dance group's coloring is almost all red. They're dancing around and walking past me. I then concentrate to gravity at the same time as I watch a lower part of the small mountain I'm at. Guess the mountain is only around a hundred meters high.

Gravity pulls me to the lower part. I gaze to the upper mountains across the valley and there's a red beautiful castle on the mountain side. I look at it with wonder and I kinda would want to go there. The middle part of the castle is a little blurry. I then go and sing with the tribe's me and I somehow know the foreign, however simple, lyrics by heart. The music echoes all around the dreamworld. I'm then having difficulties staying in " first person" view, it feels as if my eyes were on the back of my head. After this I'm gradually losing lucidity. I go down under the castle through a short cave to a concrete hallway. I walk through black hanging curtains and enter a dimly lit parking lot. I'm being led by one of my elementary school - time friends and he is now ten years older. I'm not afraid of what's to come if there is to come something weird. The dream hops to a cold room- grocery store. Kinda like the place the Asian man in Blade Runner had where he was doing something with human eyeballs. But not that cold. I look at the other customers that seem to be my friends or something and I realize they don't even exist. I start to think the way they told you not to think about everything in Inception. Everyone turns their head at me. Oops. They charge towards me. Oh hamburgers hahaha. A man orders them to stop and they freeze. Huh? The man is dressed in a relaxed office suit and he looks at me with a semi confident look on his face. He knows Iv been on a long dry spell and I'm nearly getting back to the habit. He knows I'm close.

I'm holding a presentation with two other students in a big hall. There are some hundred other students listening. I'm having big trouble reading what is said on the screen, the text is greenish-red and all blurry to me. A girl who is keeping the presentation with me and another guy asks whats wrong. I then start to keep the presentation all by myself and I start fooling around. An imagine is show on the screen that is supposed to be funny and I sarcastically say :" ... ha." Everyone laughs. I think the students went from 16-18 year old to 13-14 year old. I start reading everything with an exaggerated bored- tone. Again laughter. My mom comes in through the main opening and takes the microphone away from me, she looks at me disappointed. The dream hops me and the other students that are back to my age, 16-18, to a hallway at our high-school. We hear screaming coming from another hallway. We find out that our monsters that we have created with our minds into existence are now scaring the 13-14 year olds. The creature I have created is a purple giant scorpion, actually it's not that big of a giant, maybe half a meter tall. We run away from them for some reason, they were kinda like our pets in the beginning I suppose. Once we get outside I see that two monster socks are following me by hopping forward. I distract them by walking backwards. Then there's something about a Yoga Ball game. We then discuss the possibility of playing some video games with my friend. Then I want to go home. Suddenly, another friend of mine all the way from elementary school appears and I feel pleasantly surprised. I don't want to go home anymore, I'd rather hang out with my friends.

I'm in my high-school and I walk outside to the parking lot. There's a new platform on the area that used to have spots for cars. Students come out and a big brawl breaks loose, the reason, there is no reason. They're just mindlessly fighting each other like mad men. Someone tries to pull me in and I get scared so I run away as fast as I can towards a nearby train-station. I come to steep stairs and fearfully I slide down the railing on it's side. The sliding feels awesome actually. I hear a student shouting behind us to the others : " They're running away!!" LUCID.

I take off to the air immediately and rise to fifty meters above the ground. As I levitate there above my home city I'm starting to feel a danger approaching from somewhere... the sensation comes from behind the visible sky. I look up to the clouds and a red meter the size of a large mall falls from the skies with great speed. I watch it hit the ground but there's no explosion, the giant lump is bouncing towards my location destroying everything under it's sheer weight. I create a blue force field in front of it's path and I use it to move the rock away from me and then I freeze it still. I'm not satisfied with the what has happened with the lucid so far. I feel the sensation again, I enforce it with my intention. The clouds shred open and a gargantuan boulder burst towards me and my and my city. I look at the thing and I estimate it between 500-600 meters wide. I raise my hand and head it directly towards it, I feel no fear. A massive blue and bending shield comes into existence to guard the Earth from my command. The meteor pushes deep into it but the shield is indestructible, the shield is made by The dreamer. The meteor stops like the one before it. I move the shield with pointing my hand towards it, then I pull my hand back, and thrust it forwards and I shoot the pathetic little crumb back to where it came from! I see it go to an asteroid field and there's meteors ten times it's size. Ummm... I'll let them be. Just to be sure. I see Shia Labeouf on the asteroid field and every asteroid is filled with different kinds of animals. Foxes, rabbits, bears, giraffes you name it. Shia crawls inside one of the asteroids and the asteroid shuts.

I'm lucid again and I recall one of my long-time goals, get to Asgard, the home of Scandinavian gods. I start looking for an empty area so I could try and use the Bifröst. An ancient teleportation. I'm at my home city again just around fifty meters from the train-station when I find a good spot. An empty circle-shaped area. Out of nowhere Thor ( the one how Marvel made him look like) comes to stand next to me. I look up to the sky and a faint flash can be seen. Whhhooooossshhhhh!! The circle is hit by a straight- lined ray of light as we stand right in the middle of it. I quickly grab Thor with my hand, just to be sure. He looks at me and raises an eyebrow. I'm suddenly in the space between being awake and being asleep. Whooosh! I appear at the golden front hall where the Bifröst bridge begins. I'm kind of in a kneeling down position and when I look up I see the front of a man in a golden armor. He holds a golden scepter with both of his strong hands. He looks down to me smiling and says :" Hello, my name is Heimdall." Dude... Everything is as real as in waking life. I'm in fricking Asgard! Woooooo!!! I see a golden little object on the also golden floor and I pick it up to give it to Heimdall. I hand it to him and I see that my white tiny hand pales in comparison to his godly powerful brown fists. I briefly see Odin's home, the peak of Asgard in the distance. The rising golden pillars. I have a feeling I might end the dream because it's so awesome and everything melts.

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I had a lucid dream yesterday but I forgot most of it because I didn't write it down. However, something important I can recall is Dawn being present. One of my favorite yet use to be hated long time dream character. I'm not sure what happened between us or where we were though.

In the dream I have a feeling I mentioned it was a dream. Than there was another dream I can recall. A blonde lady was inside a clinic/school room with me and was trying to make a move on me. I told her to stop and to back off. She replied in a disappointed manner but acknowledged my decision as well.

Afterwards I recall being in a clinic or hospital and was supposedly working there but it was my first day. I kept repeating "I don't want this job" but than thought positively and realized maybe I could put these job skills to help someone or myself. What came next is I was observing a school for kids with my younger brother.

No one could see us but we saw and talked about the people waiting outside for the school to open. In the dream I was supposed to work there and forgot about the clinic.

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An image depicting of an office set up

I was in this office kind of area, with white walling, a window leading out to the outside and light shinning in and there was a green plant in-front of me. I remember being like, "Oh, I'm dreaming!" And telling myself over and over again to calm down and not get too excited because I would wake up out of it.

But I ended up finding myself stuck in stationary position whilst standing up and I couldn't move all I could do was see what was around me. I tried my hardest to move but sadly I couldn't. But I guess this was a start in lucidity and a foundation to hopefully be able to control dreams and finally be able to do what I want and spend time with those I love.

Notes: None to note.

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• Date — 2/2/2016

• Went to bed — Cannot recall...

• Woke up — 7:00AM

*Time logged — 7:05AM

• Total sleep — +3 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Meh

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — RC

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — The Obvious

• Perceived Length — 2 Minutes

• Emotions — Excited

• Awareness — Yes, very

Okay so I have my own personal, physical journal but I just wanted to post this one on here as it's the first time I've gotten lucid since I started focusing on dreaming again (in a long time) last week.

I was in my room with my cousin, standing by the closed door, and I told her "I'm going to walk through the door." because I thought I was dreaming. (Questioning whether I'm dreaming or not and walking through walls/doors were never reality checks that I thought I would try, I had only briefly read about them once so I'm excited that I thought to try them)
So I stuck my arm out, and started walking, and my arm went through the door. The feeling is so weird, it's like something is gently rubbing against you, or some kind of gentle breeze. My arm went through, and then my head, which was really cool, and I could see the bathroom and my sister's room. So I had successfully walked THROUGH my door. Upon this realization, I got excited and said, "I'm dreaming!" I ran through my hallway to the living room, shouting to my cousin that I'm gonna try flying. I stood there, looked up, and reached out my arms. And then I didn't fly. Then I thought, "ok, maybe I'm not dreaming." to which I then walked back to my room, where my cousin was waiting, and I told her I'm gonna try walking through the door again. So I put out my hands and pushed them against the door, and they resisted. I felt my hands hit my door. They wouldn't go through.
Then I was convinced I was just awake and being ridiculous.

Also, since I'm writing in here anyway, the next dream happened in a hotel-size room. Apparently I was at my graduation dance, and I saw my dad behind this random wall sitting at a small and high table with a boy that I knew. He was asking my dad for permission to ask me to the dance. I somehow already knew he was asking my dad this, but I asked my dad anyway what they're talking about. My dad told me, and I started laughing, kinda embarrassed, and hit the boy on his shoulder and I walked away.
I then woke up, kind of anxious, actually, then I remembered that I already graduated 7 months ago, and there was no dance to get anxious about.

Other dreams:
1. I was in a pole-dancing/ballet class and a woman told me to swing on the pole, and hold that position then rest my feet on a boys stomach while he ballet dances.
2. I had a camera-point-of-view behind Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler walking together, Adam holding her shoulders, and Drew holding his waist looking up at him affectionately trying to kiss him. Drew was pregnant with his baby, apparently, and also they had gotten married because she couldn't get pregnant the first time with him (my brain was telling me these facts as I was looking at their PDA)
3. I was in a cul-de-sac neighborhood decorated with white christmas lights, and there were about 5-6 foot pine trees everywhere, and there were small patches of snow, and it was slightly snowing. I remember hearing crying and seeing a taxi (there was suddenly a lot of snow on the ground) and knowing my cousin (a different one) was crying in there. She was with her boyfriend (which I just recently found out) and I remember feeling responsible for making her cry, so I kissed her head and told her I was sorry. She laughed and sobbed a little bit and "That's not why I'm crying." I don't remember what I told her after that, or if I even did tell her anything, but I know I said after that "I'll see you later." the taxi drove away, I turned around to look at the neighborhood, and I looked up thinking about the boy that I'm insanely in love with.
4. I was in a stadium (like a basketball stadium gym-thing) and there were about 25+ other people just throwing basketballs onto the court.
5. There was a couple I was looking at, sitting on bleachers. Two young blondes. Both lanky. The girls hair was curly and she had freckles. The girl was showing him a picture on her phone of her vehicle and he said "you don't look like you drive a rove ranger" to which I then imagined her driving a station wagon because that's what I thought she drove. Suddenly I was in her body, driving a red jeep, or it could've been a rove ranger (it was box-like), and her best friend was sitting in the passenger (both are just DCs) I remember driving fast trying to get somewhere, then with MY eyes (the girls body I'm in is focusing on the road) I look to the right and see a boy and a girl driving to a graveyard. I know in my gut that he's going to chase us because he second-glances us and he looks angry all of a sudden. The girl's best friend notices this, too, and starts freaking out (I don't remember how, I just know she does) We're driving on a freeway, on the far right lane closest to the grass that separates the freeway and the trail to the graveyard. So he cuts theough the grass towards us, tailgating us, and starts shooting. I swerve right and we spin a couple times. He parks besides us, facing my passenger window, and shoots once. I pretend I get hit, and let my head roll. The other girl is staring at me, and she starts panicking, I scream at her to play dead but her eyes are looking straight through me and she's talking about life and I start screaming more. The guy doesn't seem to notice that neither of us are dead so I put it into drive and drive away.
6. My auntie drives into a wide but small grocery store's parking lot (it's on the side of a freeway) it's an enter-only entrance, and there's a car driving towards us, she calls him an idiot, starts beeping her horn, and proceeds to call him stupid (she might've called him a dick or a cock-sucker but I might just be making this part up. But it would be funny because she doesn't swear like this. At least not in front of me)
7. I'm walking through a small apartment hallway to a small room. All I remember is there's an attractive boy, we're both wearing cool clothes, and one of us asks if tge other is ready (i dont remember) we're both wearing black leather snapbacks. I remember hugging him? I think? This is really weird to think about because he's just a DC. Anyway, I'm assuming we were living together.

Most of these have an explanation:
1a. I'm a dancer. Not a pole dancer. Nor do I really like ballet dancing. But I follow a girl on instagram that pole dances as a sport and she had posted a video that I saw.
2a. I low-key want Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler to be together. Also, I woke up from this dream in the middle of the night convinced they she was pregnant with his child, I almost googled it but was too tired so I went back to sleep.
3a. I associate all good things, and happiness, from city-life things and christmas things like christmas lights, snow, and pine trees. I've been kind of sad lately that winter's ending and that it wasn't exactly the same type of feeling that I always used to have. Also my cousin has a boyfriend and they live together (they're adorable) I haven't seen her since I graduated, nor have I talked to her, and I miss her a lot. So that's how she made her way into my dream.
Whenever it snows, or I see something pretty, I think about the boy I'm in love with. It's cool how I also did that in my dream.
4a. I have no explanation.
5a. I've been playing GTA5 lately, as it helps calm down my driving anxiety and my fear of guns (lol) so I'm assuming that's the reason for this dream. Plus I know that if someone were to shoot at me, and I don't get hit, I would just play dead.
6a. My auntie has road rage and I remember seeing this store on GTA5, I think it's called dollar pharmacy or something, but the entrance I dreamed of isn't there.
7a. There's these shoes, and shirt, and hat that I want. And I was wearing them in my dream. I also sometimes wonder what it would be like to live in an apartment with a friend, not my family

I see a poster of the upcoming Hobbit - movie. Instead of being called The Battle of the Five Armies it is named simply Crumble. The poster has a black background and there's a lot of smoke, not forgetting the bad-ass looking Smaug. I guess what I'm shown is a quick fake teaser: The dwarf company goes up some stairs and Thorin is stabbed by a ghostly being and he dies. The mountain they're climbing is located not in middle-earth, but near my high-school. The night is cloudy and only a small light emits from the train station below. I try to use telekinesis to part the clouds to assist the dwarf on their journey but I fail.

I'm flying over an area that looks like a western/Hawaii zombie town. I glide down and whiz into a tavern through the front doors. There's only one person present, an old lady. I go up to her and she asks with hoarse voice :" Who are you?" I answer happily :" Hi, I'm Mika."NAs I finish introducing myself I feel like taking off and leaving for an adventure. Before I can do that the old woman sharply answers : " You will die now." She picks up a phone and begins dialing numbers, so she could call her other maniac seniors and tell them to join in my killing. At this point a new lucid begins, chained I guess. I appear at my apartment and instantly I start sprinting towards a window. I merge through it as if there were no glass in the first place. As I'm flying over my neighborhood's street I see that I'm "still" holding a metal bar, I'm planning on using it as a weapon just in case I encounter any other psycho DCs like the old lady. I go back down and land on to a street that goes downhill near my elementary school. I walk for ten meters and I keep looking at my hands repeating :"You're in a dream, you're in a dream." I stop. I think of nothing but I try to knock my branch ( metal bar turned into a wooden branch) three times to the ground to see what would happen. *Knock*, nothing. *Knock!* After the second hit the landscape slides towards me. *Knock*. *Paf*. A meditating monkey creature appears in front of my eyes and the area near us turn greenish and booming. The being sits in a meditating pose with his legs crossed. He seems wise. He tells me I would guard many kingdoms with the sword he then represents to me. A green-silvery, gleaming short sword comes into existence in front of him. As I look at the weapon of power it grows greatly in length in the blink of an eye. Suddenly two Russian men start shooting at us because they despise our ancient ways. The bullets won't hit us, we're beings of greater strength. I become Doctor Manhattan and I create a force field around us, and the monkey shaman has a greenish glowing force field around his body.

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