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I feel exhausted in the dream and I go to the shower to sleep since my bed and dream journal is there. The space is larger than usual and there's a window in the roof. It's another day already, I won't be able to sleep. My brother didn't like my decision to sleep in the shower room because then he had to sleep in my room for some reason. He has left three notes with threats, I'm not that intimidated. He has a bad handwriting and I feel sympathetic towards him. I'm able to read the threat from start to finish which is odd, usually all texts are kinda blurry. He tries to ask money from me then but I won't agree to give it to him. He looks to the first pages of my dream journal without my permission. The dream changes and I'm now in a grocery store with my family. I think we're candy shopping, for candy. My dad starts to talk to some man and then the dream hops us back into our apartment. My dad tells us hes sick with a bad disease. I ask for the name of the disease, but he won't tell me. I think he is lying that hes sick. I then try to sleep at my bed.

A force is lifting me from my bed in to the air and I realize the situation right away. My room is dark and I can see that The Grudge is standing where my trash bin usually is. I'm surprised to see her trying to help me instead of being just a regular nightmare. She uses some kind of a telekinesis ability to make me spin in the air, loosening the dark force's grab of me. She also says something weird along the lines : " You're my boyfriend and you will get a girlfriend."I don't like what she just said. She then show a quote from here, Dreamviews, that states :" You can get lucid, believe." I put my hands in the air to my sides and I stop the spinning with my intention. I'm not afraid of the Grudge even for a second. She helped me. I begin spinning again but I'm dropped to a warehouse floor by the dream. With telekinesis I push everything around me away from me and into the walls. I go into a nearby staircase where I see the Grudge for the last time in the dream. I give her a high-five and we both smile, we made it. I made it! I go outside and see an intersection of four roads. It's a brightly lit small city center. The dream seems a bit disoriented, at least the scenery seems. I rise to the air and fly for a minute or so, the next thing is that I'm in a grocery store. I go and walk past the counter and the cashier lady. We laugh at something with a fat man. I'm in a mall. A lively 30-year old woman walks towards me and I ask her to sit down with me. We sit on one of the benches.

I remember my task, maybe one from DV or my own. I whisper to her : " What are you grateful for?" and I put as much emotion into the question as possible. She starts to cry a little and she answers ( the answer doesn't quite match the question ): " Never love anyone as much as you love yourself, because when you do, love for yourself grows lesser." For some reason I feel I'm in a movie similar to Good Will Hunting because of what she said. When she answers there is Ludovico Einaudi's music playing on the background for a while. Her message seems important. I stand up and once again take off to the air. I'm suddenly at a door with my brother. I mentally prepare myself for a great battle, one that is to be set in the ancient Middle-Earth. I tell my brother : " It can be quite scary then." I know it might just be the craziest lucid experience I'll ever have if I get it right. I open the door into dark grass plains. There are some elvish soldiers here and there, a small army. My brother says: " This isn't even good." I agree, a total failure! The quality of the scenario is really bad. The forces run down into a lit enemy cave. There are a few horsemen too here and there. It feels like I'm in a B-tier video game. The last thing I remember is being behind yet another grocery store.

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I'm on a corridor at a grocery store and I'm walking faster than usually. I run faster because there are aggressive insects of all sorts coming from every direction. As I walk I think of some empty aquariums I saw earlier. After a minute or so zombies also start to appear from all around. I look at my shirt and something is growing on it, like spots that are duplicating. The dream changes and now it's 1am and we're at our city's main street. I'm accompanied by my brother, my old friends from elementary school and by a few new faces. It's really late compared to my usual sleep rhythm and I should go home and sleep, but I don't want to. I suggest we go get some pizza. Everyone agrees. I'm having the idea in mind that we will slice the pizzas, no way I'm eating a whole one. I also think it would be cool to go and see a movie at out local cinema that is almost always empty. We have some collectible items with us. I feel great, it's a late summer night, I'm with friends and there's not a single soul on sight besides us.

I start suspecting there's something going on as I'm in the dark in my room. I try and push my hand through the wall behind my bed without looking at it's direction and nothing stops the movement. " Ok I'm definitely dreaming."I open my window and carefully glide in the air towards the night sky. It's a bit cold. The dream changes and I'm sitting at our living room's sofa with my sister's children. They're eight and six years old, both boys. My sister is somewhere at the house and others are too. Suddenly, I notice something odd going on with the 8-year old. He has tummy on both sides of his body. I look at him perplexed and say : " Well this is weird." He replies: "Yes it is." He goes to show it his mother. Suddenly a random man wearing only a t-shirt comes from the other side of the apartment to me. He bends over and says : " Will you stick it in?" "What!? I will most definitely not!"

I'm realizing it's a dream but I don't quite "get it" yet. I float to the air and I'm gliding eight meters above the ground. The landscape is much different than usually, all the building I know have changed. I wonder where my high-school is, there's only a blue walled square building where it used to be. I see a few other people floating around, I guess they're other lucid dreamers ( I'm definitely semi-lucid). They start to follow me. Suddenly they change into anime-looking characters and they drag me down and pinch me to the ground. They stick a wide and black spear into my chest. I see a glimpse of a blue man's face who's just standing there and accepting what's happening. I appear to the other side of train tracks that go past the area where my high-school is. Some machines start appearing and I realize that they are bombs. I start beating their metal surfaces with my fists to break them so I won't get blown up. They keep appearing more and more so I take off to the sky and suddenly I'm more aware. ( This has happened a couple of times, flying straight upwards has lead me to gain more awareness.) I go back down and slide in the air near some building's rooftops and then I take off to the clouds above. As I'm near the clouds I decide to roll over so that the clouds are actually beneath me and the ground above me. Then I boost straight upwards and go all the way to the outer atmosphere. There's darkness ahead so I turn back and look down to Earth. The quality foggy so I dive back down, and try to head to New York City. I get closer and closer and houses start to appear the way they do in Google Earth. They get 3D.

I'm suddenly teleported to the surface and everything is life like, which is really nice. I feel like I'm a good spot now. I'm on a street of a quiet middle-class neighborhood. I begin stabilizing by rubbing my hands fiercely together while looking at the details of a nearby store. The quality of the dream gets a bit better, though it was really good already. I think about transforming. So I rise my hands and stand like Jesus on the cross at the middle of the street with my eyes looking up. I'm not thinking of anything particular what to transform into. I actually just want an armor, like that of Iron man's. I feel movement on my other hand and I look at it. A green titanium battle suit is completely covering it. It's made for combat. It has an "army" vibe into it, like it was made by humans in the far future. I manage to create a gun that matches the essence that of the battle suit's. The suit covers now all of my body, not only just my hand. I begin to walk the street searching for a mirror so I could look at myself. I find one at the front of one of the houses. I look at it and I look bad ass. I miss a helmet. I close my eyes and try to focus on it appearing to my head. I feel a tingling sensation on the back of my neck and titanium begins to engulf my head. It's nearly complete, but I wake up.


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Now this dream had a seriously weird start. I think there was something happening before I got lucid but I don't remember it.

I was in some kinda camp close to a small creek. There were tents and some structures which I guess were placed to dry clothes or so. I had some self made "arsenic meat" with me, it was in an aluminum pot and was essentially raw meat in a clear liquid that consisted mostly or to some degree of arsenic. It smelled abhorrently chemical and I know that I accessed a Wikipedia page on arsenic via some kind of direct neural interface, no intermediate electronic device needed. On the page it talked about its psychoactive properties (not existent in real life as far as I can tell). Either I ate a piece of that or the smell alone was enough to induce said effects and I experienced visual distortions and some degree of control over these. That promptly made me lucid.

Spoiler for TL;DR: I had sex with my wife:

Though I became lucid I didn't really remember my goals or anything, instead I instinctively summoned my wife and had some forceful but pleasant sex with her, it was way shorter than in real life only a few minutes. And we were in an impossible position too. The sensation caused me to have a wet dream as well...

After that I had a FA but I did not wake up. I was in my home, and for once it was spectacularly close to my actual home, only minor details like color were off which is super rare. I was standing in the bathtub and was fiddling with a tarp that had seemingly become dirty when my wife and me had fun. I had also worried about my wife getting pregnant since we didn't use any contraception. And the tarp was mostly in the toilet... the weirdness of it all snaps me back into lucidity, I do the nose pinch RC. I go onto the bed in my bedroom, and my wife was also there, talking about something. I know I half consciously listened but since I knew it was DC I didn't pay it too much attention. I thought about trying shared dreaming but ultimately didn't try.

I jumped outside, I'm pretty sure from my balcony. I look at the sky and... it's obviously bright day from all my surroundings yet it's actually night in the sky, it's black and I see the stars.
(I only saw it in the dream but found it weird after I woke up and thought about it, this mix between night and day at the same time is new to me.)
I thought about flying up but didn't want to spent too much time in a black void, so I improvised and filled the space partially with a beautiful green nebula, it worked quite spectacularly. I fly up into the sky, aiming at the border of the nebula. I was rather disappointed to see that the night sky was only a texture several kilometers above the planet. Instead of fixing it I turn back towards earth and spin it around to take a trip to Japan. It takes me a moment to find it, and it's not a normal earth globe either but I managed. The globe was... it was still a perfect sphere and the countries had roughly the right shape but it was vastly scaled down, so that each country was only barely a large city. I entered Japan on the east in some kind of harbor and went westwards into an industrial area. I remember seeing some soldiers and then I used a weird high precision zoom interface to inspect my surroundings. I see some products and wares and eventually find and pick up a lead-pouring game, you know that Sylvester tradition thingy. Right then I'm violently yanked out of the dream and wake up.

And incidentally I realize I had this dream right on time to finish my first TotM (I had this dream only hours into February), and I didn't know the task by then either.

No dreams from last night, since I only slept for like 4 hours. Did get a nap in, however.

I immediately WILD into the dream. I'm in the main building for classes at my college. My parents and brother are here, and we’re in a long hallway. My brother is walking somewhat ahead of me, and my parents are way behind me. I notice I’m just kind of floating down the hallway, which feels pretty cool. My dad shouts something for me to tell my brother, but I can’t hear him. Besides, I’m lucid, might as well do some things. I mainly just enjoy flying around a bit, while this random woman follows me around, asking if I want to join her in private. “Not until I get some tasks done first.” (*pats dream self on the head* Good boy)

I decide to start with the basic task - look up at the sky. I see this room off to the side that looks almost like a cockpit to a plane, with a huge control panel against the wall. The windows are huge, so I go in and look outside. The sky looks an incredible shade of blue, with several clouds that look almost copied-and-pasted across the sky - it reminds me of the wallpaper in Andy’s room in Toy Story. The horizon starts to turn orange - the sun is rising. However, I can’t shake this weird feeling that something hilarious is gonna happen. Sure enough, as the yellow circle rises up, inside is Michael Jackson dancing to Beat It, with all his backup dancers barely visible in the background. Immediately I can hear the music start up, and I find it funny. Before I even realize what’s happening, I’m dancing along with the music, doing pretty much all the choreography from the music video. (*smacks dream self on the back of the head* Dude, what the heck?)

As I do this one spin move, I realize that I should get back to doing stuff, so I instead continue to spin a bit to stabilize the dream. Unfortunately, it seems to have the opposite effect, and I wake up. I almost manage to DEILD back into it, but my roommate decided to watch YouTube videos on his big speakers, which jolted me awake when they fired up.

Kind of a fragment to start off. I am at a fancy Taco Bell, but I can't decide what I want off the menu, which makes the manager really angry for some reason.

Next, I'm at a band concert at my old high school, with my old band director leading the band. I'm in the audience with the rest of the students, who seem incredibly uninterested in the concert - they're even taking while the music is playing. Speaking of music, the band's sound is mainly done from an audio recording, and the actual band is just playing over it - the band version of “lip-syncing”. I give up on paying attention, and start a conversation with one of my friends next to me, at one point talking about DreamViews. The song finally ends, and the director says a few words. During this, there's some glitch in time, and I go back like 10 seconds, listening to him say the same words again. He even notices me do it, and after his words catch up to where he was, he laughs that I just had to experience it a second time.

I had a time slot to take a nap after my first class, so I did. I WILDed into my dorm room, and jump down from my bed. I try to plug my nose and do an RC - it kinda works, but my nose is really clogged with snot, almost like I’m sick. However, it’s good enough, so I continue. I try to think of one of the TotMs, but I can't quite remember. I figure one has something to do with a DC, so I expect my roommate to walk in the door. I open the door, and both roommates walk in and immediately jump in their beds. I for some reason decide to tell them I'm dreaming, but they don't seem interested. I try flying to convince them, but I can't quite stay up in the air, despite the assist from our rug in the middle of the room, which is acting like a trampoline. I end up bouncing until I wake up.

I end up DEILDing after what seems like a long time for a DEILD. I currently don't remember exactly where I am, but my boss is here, so I assume I am at work. I try to think of the tasks again, and for some reason remember that one of them is to eat a banana… So I go to the break room and get a banana, peel it, and eat it. Well that was easy. I wake up shortly after, upon which I wonder where I ever got the idea to eat a banana…

I'm being moved from a dream to another, hey what is happening? The realization hits me and I scream: "Lucidity!" from the bottom of my lungs. I immediately materialize into the dreamworld and I find myself in and odd large room with the ceiling reaching fifteen meters high. As if it's a station, a station from where you can leave to "nowhere", a "nowhere" that a human couldn't understand. I strongly feel that Iv been here before. The room has some benches by the wall. I don't recall what kind of beings there walked and stood around, but even though they have kind of a human-like features I have a feeling they're something different. Kinda like the shadowy people from Spirited Away but with colors. I do a few reality check such as breathing trough my nose while pinching it firmly. I then try to approach a black man dressed in stylish jacket with large shoulders. He glows with mystery as he calmly stands there by a pillar-looking object. I try to approach him, but I find myself being stopped by two other men. They won't let me go to him, huh. The man in the suit looks at me silently as I turn away. I head outside. I guess the place looks kinda like a mix up of three structures : The Spa from Spirited Away, a church and a train station. There are suddenly tribesmen all around me and their tribe's/dance group's coloring is almost all red. They're dancing around and walking past me. I then concentrate to gravity at the same time as I watch a lower part of the small mountain I'm at. Guess the mountain is only around a hundred meters high.

Gravity pulls me to the lower part. I gaze to the upper mountains across the valley and there's a red beautiful castle on the mountain side. I look at it with wonder and I kinda would want to go there. The middle part of the castle is a little blurry. I then go and sing with the tribe's me and I somehow know the foreign, however simple, lyrics by heart. The music echoes all around the dreamworld. I'm then having difficulties staying in " first person" view, it feels as if my eyes were on the back of my head. After this I'm gradually losing lucidity. I go down under the castle through a short cave to a concrete hallway. I walk through black hanging curtains and enter a dimly lit parking lot. I'm being led by one of my elementary school - time friends and he is now ten years older. I'm not afraid of what's to come if there is to come something weird. The dream hops to a cold room- grocery store. Kinda like the place the Asian man in Blade Runner had where he was doing something with human eyeballs. But not that cold. I look at the other customers that seem to be my friends or something and I realize they don't even exist. I start to think the way they told you not to think about everything in Inception. Everyone turns their head at me. Oops. They charge towards me. Oh hamburgers hahaha. A man orders them to stop and they freeze. Huh? The man is dressed in a relaxed office suit and he looks at me with a semi confident look on his face. He knows Iv been on a long dry spell and I'm nearly getting back to the habit. He knows I'm close.

I'm holding a presentation with two other students in a big hall. There are some hundred other students listening. I'm having big trouble reading what is said on the screen, the text is greenish-red and all blurry to me. A girl who is keeping the presentation with me and another guy asks whats wrong. I then start to keep the presentation all by myself and I start fooling around. An imagine is show on the screen that is supposed to be funny and I sarcastically say :" ... ha." Everyone laughs. I think the students went from 16-18 year old to 13-14 year old. I start reading everything with an exaggerated bored- tone. Again laughter. My mom comes in through the main opening and takes the microphone away from me, she looks at me disappointed. The dream hops me and the other students that are back to my age, 16-18, to a hallway at our high-school. We hear screaming coming from another hallway. We find out that our monsters that we have created with our minds into existence are now scaring the 13-14 year olds. The creature I have created is a purple giant scorpion, actually it's not that big of a giant, maybe half a meter tall. We run away from them for some reason, they were kinda like our pets in the beginning I suppose. Once we get outside I see that two monster socks are following me by hopping forward. I distract them by walking backwards. Then there's something about a Yoga Ball game. We then discuss the possibility of playing some video games with my friend. Then I want to go home. Suddenly, another friend of mine all the way from elementary school appears and I feel pleasantly surprised. I don't want to go home anymore, I'd rather hang out with my friends.

I'm in my high-school and I walk outside to the parking lot. There's a new platform on the area that used to have spots for cars. Students come out and a big brawl breaks loose, the reason, there is no reason. They're just mindlessly fighting each other like mad men. Someone tries to pull me in and I get scared so I run away as fast as I can towards a nearby train-station. I come to steep stairs and fearfully I slide down the railing on it's side. The sliding feels awesome actually. I hear a student shouting behind us to the others : " They're running away!!" LUCID.

I take off to the air immediately and rise to fifty meters above the ground. As I levitate there above my home city I'm starting to feel a danger approaching from somewhere... the sensation comes from behind the visible sky. I look up to the clouds and a red meter the size of a large mall falls from the skies with great speed. I watch it hit the ground but there's no explosion, the giant lump is bouncing towards my location destroying everything under it's sheer weight. I create a blue force field in front of it's path and I use it to move the rock away from me and then I freeze it still. I'm not satisfied with the what has happened with the lucid so far. I feel the sensation again, I enforce it with my intention. The clouds shred open and a gargantuan boulder burst towards me and my and my city. I look at the thing and I estimate it between 500-600 meters wide. I raise my hand and head it directly towards it, I feel no fear. A massive blue and bending shield comes into existence to guard the Earth from my command. The meteor pushes deep into it but the shield is indestructible, the shield is made by The dreamer. The meteor stops like the one before it. I move the shield with pointing my hand towards it, then I pull my hand back, and thrust it forwards and I shoot the pathetic little crumb back to where it came from! I see it go to an asteroid field and there's meteors ten times it's size. Ummm... I'll let them be. Just to be sure. I see Shia Labeouf on the asteroid field and every asteroid is filled with different kinds of animals. Foxes, rabbits, bears, giraffes you name it. Shia crawls inside one of the asteroids and the asteroid shuts.

I'm lucid again and I recall one of my long-time goals, get to Asgard, the home of Scandinavian gods. I start looking for an empty area so I could try and use the Bifröst. An ancient teleportation. I'm at my home city again just around fifty meters from the train-station when I find a good spot. An empty circle-shaped area. Out of nowhere Thor ( the one how Marvel made him look like) comes to stand next to me. I look up to the sky and a faint flash can be seen. Whhhooooossshhhhh!! The circle is hit by a straight- lined ray of light as we stand right in the middle of it. I quickly grab Thor with my hand, just to be sure. He looks at me and raises an eyebrow. I'm suddenly in the space between being awake and being asleep. Whooosh! I appear at the golden front hall where the Bifröst bridge begins. I'm kind of in a kneeling down position and when I look up I see the front of a man in a golden armor. He holds a golden scepter with both of his strong hands. He looks down to me smiling and says :" Hello, my name is Heimdall." Dude... Everything is as real as in waking life. I'm in fricking Asgard! Woooooo!!! I see a golden little object on the also golden floor and I pick it up to give it to Heimdall. I hand it to him and I see that my white tiny hand pales in comparison to his godly powerful brown fists. I briefly see Odin's home, the peak of Asgard in the distance. The rising golden pillars. I have a feeling I might end the dream because it's so awesome and everything melts.

ceiling

I had a lucid dream yesterday but I forgot most of it because I didn't write it down. However, something important I can recall is Dawn being present. One of my favorite yet use to be hated long time dream character. I'm not sure what happened between us or where we were though.

In the dream I have a feeling I mentioned it was a dream. Than there was another dream I can recall. A blonde lady was inside a clinic/school room with me and was trying to make a move on me. I told her to stop and to back off. She replied in a disappointed manner but acknowledged my decision as well.

Afterwards I recall being in a clinic or hospital and was supposedly working there but it was my first day. I kept repeating "I don't want this job" but than thought positively and realized maybe I could put these job skills to help someone or myself. What came next is I was observing a school for kids with my younger brother.

No one could see us but we saw and talked about the people waiting outside for the school to open. In the dream I was supposed to work there and forgot about the clinic.

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An image depicting of an office set up

I was in this office kind of area, with white walling, a window leading out to the outside and light shinning in and there was a green plant in-front of me. I remember being like, "Oh, I'm dreaming!" And telling myself over and over again to calm down and not get too excited because I would wake up out of it.

But I ended up finding myself stuck in stationary position whilst standing up and I couldn't move all I could do was see what was around me. I tried my hardest to move but sadly I couldn't. But I guess this was a start in lucidity and a foundation to hopefully be able to control dreams and finally be able to do what I want and spend time with those I love.

Notes: None to note.

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• Date — 2/2/2016

• Went to bed — Cannot recall...

• Woke up — 7:00AM

*Time logged — 7:05AM

• Total sleep — +3 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Meh

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — RC

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — The Obvious

• Perceived Length — 2 Minutes

• Emotions — Excited

• Awareness — Yes, very

Okay so I have my own personal, physical journal but I just wanted to post this one on here as it's the first time I've gotten lucid since I started focusing on dreaming again (in a long time) last week.

I was in my room with my cousin, standing by the closed door, and I told her "I'm going to walk through the door." because I thought I was dreaming. (Questioning whether I'm dreaming or not and walking through walls/doors were never reality checks that I thought I would try, I had only briefly read about them once so I'm excited that I thought to try them)
So I stuck my arm out, and started walking, and my arm went through the door. The feeling is so weird, it's like something is gently rubbing against you, or some kind of gentle breeze. My arm went through, and then my head, which was really cool, and I could see the bathroom and my sister's room. So I had successfully walked THROUGH my door. Upon this realization, I got excited and said, "I'm dreaming!" I ran through my hallway to the living room, shouting to my cousin that I'm gonna try flying. I stood there, looked up, and reached out my arms. And then I didn't fly. Then I thought, "ok, maybe I'm not dreaming." to which I then walked back to my room, where my cousin was waiting, and I told her I'm gonna try walking through the door again. So I put out my hands and pushed them against the door, and they resisted. I felt my hands hit my door. They wouldn't go through.
Then I was convinced I was just awake and being ridiculous.

Also, since I'm writing in here anyway, the next dream happened in a hotel-size room. Apparently I was at my graduation dance, and I saw my dad behind this random wall sitting at a small and high table with a boy that I knew. He was asking my dad for permission to ask me to the dance. I somehow already knew he was asking my dad this, but I asked my dad anyway what they're talking about. My dad told me, and I started laughing, kinda embarrassed, and hit the boy on his shoulder and I walked away.
I then woke up, kind of anxious, actually, then I remembered that I already graduated 7 months ago, and there was no dance to get anxious about.

Other dreams:
1. I was in a pole-dancing/ballet class and a woman told me to swing on the pole, and hold that position then rest my feet on a boys stomach while he ballet dances.
2. I had a camera-point-of-view behind Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler walking together, Adam holding her shoulders, and Drew holding his waist looking up at him affectionately trying to kiss him. Drew was pregnant with his baby, apparently, and also they had gotten married because she couldn't get pregnant the first time with him (my brain was telling me these facts as I was looking at their PDA)
3. I was in a cul-de-sac neighborhood decorated with white christmas lights, and there were about 5-6 foot pine trees everywhere, and there were small patches of snow, and it was slightly snowing. I remember hearing crying and seeing a taxi (there was suddenly a lot of snow on the ground) and knowing my cousin (a different one) was crying in there. She was with her boyfriend (which I just recently found out) and I remember feeling responsible for making her cry, so I kissed her head and told her I was sorry. She laughed and sobbed a little bit and "That's not why I'm crying." I don't remember what I told her after that, or if I even did tell her anything, but I know I said after that "I'll see you later." the taxi drove away, I turned around to look at the neighborhood, and I looked up thinking about the boy that I'm insanely in love with.
4. I was in a stadium (like a basketball stadium gym-thing) and there were about 25+ other people just throwing basketballs onto the court.
5. There was a couple I was looking at, sitting on bleachers. Two young blondes. Both lanky. The girls hair was curly and she had freckles. The girl was showing him a picture on her phone of her vehicle and he said "you don't look like you drive a rove ranger" to which I then imagined her driving a station wagon because that's what I thought she drove. Suddenly I was in her body, driving a red jeep, or it could've been a rove ranger (it was box-like), and her best friend was sitting in the passenger (both are just DCs) I remember driving fast trying to get somewhere, then with MY eyes (the girls body I'm in is focusing on the road) I look to the right and see a boy and a girl driving to a graveyard. I know in my gut that he's going to chase us because he second-glances us and he looks angry all of a sudden. The girl's best friend notices this, too, and starts freaking out (I don't remember how, I just know she does) We're driving on a freeway, on the far right lane closest to the grass that separates the freeway and the trail to the graveyard. So he cuts theough the grass towards us, tailgating us, and starts shooting. I swerve right and we spin a couple times. He parks besides us, facing my passenger window, and shoots once. I pretend I get hit, and let my head roll. The other girl is staring at me, and she starts panicking, I scream at her to play dead but her eyes are looking straight through me and she's talking about life and I start screaming more. The guy doesn't seem to notice that neither of us are dead so I put it into drive and drive away.
6. My auntie drives into a wide but small grocery store's parking lot (it's on the side of a freeway) it's an enter-only entrance, and there's a car driving towards us, she calls him an idiot, starts beeping her horn, and proceeds to call him stupid (she might've called him a dick or a cock-sucker but I might just be making this part up. But it would be funny because she doesn't swear like this. At least not in front of me)
7. I'm walking through a small apartment hallway to a small room. All I remember is there's an attractive boy, we're both wearing cool clothes, and one of us asks if tge other is ready (i dont remember) we're both wearing black leather snapbacks. I remember hugging him? I think? This is really weird to think about because he's just a DC. Anyway, I'm assuming we were living together.

Most of these have an explanation:
1a. I'm a dancer. Not a pole dancer. Nor do I really like ballet dancing. But I follow a girl on instagram that pole dances as a sport and she had posted a video that I saw.
2a. I low-key want Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler to be together. Also, I woke up from this dream in the middle of the night convinced they she was pregnant with his child, I almost googled it but was too tired so I went back to sleep.
3a. I associate all good things, and happiness, from city-life things and christmas things like christmas lights, snow, and pine trees. I've been kind of sad lately that winter's ending and that it wasn't exactly the same type of feeling that I always used to have. Also my cousin has a boyfriend and they live together (they're adorable) I haven't seen her since I graduated, nor have I talked to her, and I miss her a lot. So that's how she made her way into my dream.
Whenever it snows, or I see something pretty, I think about the boy I'm in love with. It's cool how I also did that in my dream.
4a. I have no explanation.
5a. I've been playing GTA5 lately, as it helps calm down my driving anxiety and my fear of guns (lol) so I'm assuming that's the reason for this dream. Plus I know that if someone were to shoot at me, and I don't get hit, I would just play dead.
6a. My auntie has road rage and I remember seeing this store on GTA5, I think it's called dollar pharmacy or something, but the entrance I dreamed of isn't there.
7a. There's these shoes, and shirt, and hat that I want. And I was wearing them in my dream. I also sometimes wonder what it would be like to live in an apartment with a friend, not my family

I see a poster of the upcoming Hobbit - movie. Instead of being called The Battle of the Five Armies it is named simply Crumble. The poster has a black background and there's a lot of smoke, not forgetting the bad-ass looking Smaug. I guess what I'm shown is a quick fake teaser: The dwarf company goes up some stairs and Thorin is stabbed by a ghostly being and he dies. The mountain they're climbing is located not in middle-earth, but near my high-school. The night is cloudy and only a small light emits from the train station below. I try to use telekinesis to part the clouds to assist the dwarf on their journey but I fail.

I'm flying over an area that looks like a western/Hawaii zombie town. I glide down and whiz into a tavern through the front doors. There's only one person present, an old lady. I go up to her and she asks with hoarse voice :" Who are you?" I answer happily :" Hi, I'm Mika."NAs I finish introducing myself I feel like taking off and leaving for an adventure. Before I can do that the old woman sharply answers : " You will die now." She picks up a phone and begins dialing numbers, so she could call her other maniac seniors and tell them to join in my killing. At this point a new lucid begins, chained I guess. I appear at my apartment and instantly I start sprinting towards a window. I merge through it as if there were no glass in the first place. As I'm flying over my neighborhood's street I see that I'm "still" holding a metal bar, I'm planning on using it as a weapon just in case I encounter any other psycho DCs like the old lady. I go back down and land on to a street that goes downhill near my elementary school. I walk for ten meters and I keep looking at my hands repeating :"You're in a dream, you're in a dream." I stop. I think of nothing but I try to knock my branch ( metal bar turned into a wooden branch) three times to the ground to see what would happen. *Knock*, nothing. *Knock!* After the second hit the landscape slides towards me. *Knock*. *Paf*. A meditating monkey creature appears in front of my eyes and the area near us turn greenish and booming. The being sits in a meditating pose with his legs crossed. He seems wise. He tells me I would guard many kingdoms with the sword he then represents to me. A green-silvery, gleaming short sword comes into existence in front of him. As I look at the weapon of power it grows greatly in length in the blink of an eye. Suddenly two Russian men start shooting at us because they despise our ancient ways. The bullets won't hit us, we're beings of greater strength. I become Doctor Manhattan and I create a force field around us, and the monkey shaman has a greenish glowing force field around his body.

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2.1.2016

Last night shift from 5-10pm

Slept from 2am-9am

[Yesterday I read a book about Just Paying attention. So I was doing it most of the day, trying to keep my attention on what I was doing. For ex. I was carrying a box, so I would say: I'm looking at my hands, I have black gloves on, I have a box, I'm walking, looking around, there are people, are these DCs, HI DC!, ... and just basically noticing things around me and acknowledging them.]

Woke up with memory of a DILD.

I am with some people when I realize I should be dreaming and lucid. I count my fingers but I decide I'm not dreaming. Immediately after that I KNOW I am ALWAYS dreaming and lucid so I recount.

I count one by one, all the way to 12 on my left hand, to make a show for those people. I'm amazed, because every one of my fingers is dressed in pyjamas. Light blue with some toys and teddies like a baby's soft flanel pyjama. When I come to 12, people are also amazed.

I walk to the window and tell them "Now I'm gonna do what I always do when lucid. I'm going for a flight". And I jump out the window.

I'm flying superman style (I normally fly in standing up position, kinda like a hummingbird) over some sand. I realize I wanted to see the Lencois Sand Dunes in Brazil.

So I bank left and there they are.

One lake is more beautiful than the other. All different colors and shapes.

Turqoise, green, blue. I can hear myself go "uuuuuu" and "aaaah" and I'm surprised and amazed at such beauty.

Little further down, also in sand dunes are some low, elongated openings to the underground. It seem to me that those are the ends of lava tubes where lava was coming out from. Not sure why, because they don't look like it. (I have been to a real one on the Big Island of Hawaii).

After all this I write down the 12 fingers, the lakes and I feel especially important part is how I realized that I am ALWAYS DREAMING. I knew I'm writing this down in a dream but I was hoping it will help me remember after I wake up. (This is second time I done this)

There's a charity question : Would you cut off your other leg if seven million people were given water? I answer yes, and a happy victory music starts playing.

I don't recall where it starts, but I remember to start remembering everything that will happen. A force is taking me through the air in deep caves towards somethings. I'm dropped to a circle platform that has all kinds of mystic patters on it. The platform lies on the wall of the cave system and there's a door on the wall. A green humanoid creature in a suit appears next to me, he has no eyes nor nose, only a mouth. The humanoid creature says to me : " We have finished the Dutch Force animation. " ( Dutch Force - Deadline is one of my favorite old school trance songs). "Ooh this will be neat" I think to myself. I go through the opening in the wall and I'm suddenly in a office floor. There's a man who changes his appearance twice in a row in front of my eyes. He's name is John Je___. He said his name twice but I can't remember it. The humanoid now present me a wooden gold key thing that is the shape of a long diamond. On the top of it there's four finger-looking appendages. The humanoid suggest we would use this item in the animation."What do the letters B and F mean on the key?" I ask. "Love and ( I'm getting my hopes up ) politics". Me : "...." *sigh* I go into some room from the office and there are two guys in there. I ask the other one : " Is that youR motorcycle?" that can be seen outside. They both look outside from the window. I had pointed to a children's bike. It was supposed to be a joke, they don't laugh. I'm now watching the Dutch Force animation in a spectator- mode. Mononoke from Princess Mononone- movie rides with a limp dragon in a cave that is filled with water. The animation was so horrendous I paused the dream sequence. Even the music isn't correct.

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Okay this first nonlucid is kinda stupid but anyways... hahaha. So Brad Pitt and Morgan Freeman are detectives and they enter this empty abandoned building. It is a trap. The doors shut down behind them and Xerxes shows himself. He has tens of child prisoners. No one will leave. It is revealed however that Xerxes is not the main villain and does not posses any control over the situation and decisions. Nothing happens, because the place is now full of books, thousands and thousand of them. Night arrives, and Morgan Freeman pick locks his shackles and runs to open the doors. Brad Pitt also manages to escape and he waves for the other police cars by the road. Some twenty officers come to the scene and everyone rushes in, including Morgan Freeman. Someone asks the kids why they're there in the first place. Suddenly, *CLANK!* The doors are shut. The person who shut them was... Brad Pitt! HE was the evil master mind behind everything and he's plan to get more people inside had worked perfectly. Muahaha...muahahahaha!

My brother keeps following me through-out the dream, ugh. I want to adventure by myself. I see a peacock on small hill and as I walk towards it I use telekinesis to gently pull it to me. It decides to come right in front of my nose, like a super eager child who wants to get to know who you are. It ask :" Hello, who are you?" I just reply : " Hi, I'm Mika." It asks : " What are you doing here?" Me : " Well, I would like to know your name." The peacock replies :" Gamhee." I smile at it. It's leathers are bright and colorful and the creature almost glows with friendliness. I'm suddenly back in my room in the dark and I realize I'm still in a dream as I sit up on my bed. My stabilization comes too late.

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I'm at a "Dudesons" festival that is held on a steep hill. They stop the show earlier than planned, but they make up for it by starting the "traditional challenges". I see a glimpse of a man washing his teeth with mashed potatoes and some fat man naked on a van before the dream changes.

I imagine myself in some van that is rising up and down when suddenly I'm inside of a hallucination. In the hallucination I'm in near darkness and I walk to a door where there's standing a black creature. I separate from my body. I'm in an underground station at night. A train arrives and I hop in and I sit on one of the benches. A conductor comes by and asks to see my ticket. I get worried I won't find one from my pockets, then I see one lying right next to me on the bench. I pick it up and give it to him. He punches a hole to it with a machine. I decide to walk in the train. I tell a kid : " That is our stop" and I point the next station with my finger. The train stops and I step into another dark underground station. The dream hops suddenly and I'm in a large grocery store what I know. I ask the dream : " How about a dream guide?" A blonde woman starts to walk towards me, but I get the feeling that she's not my guide. I try again : " I want to meet my dream guide." The shelves nearby jingle and the same student from my high-school comes to ( the same from "Fake Dream Guide" - dream). I say : " Hey, what's up dude ! I had an idea it might be you again." He suddenly shows me his dream journal, it has some well drawn dream sequences in it. The test is typed with a computer however. "Well drawn" I tell him. "How long have you been keeping it?" I then ask. " Ten days" he replies. I look at the drawings again and say to him : " It's all fighting- dreams." He laughs.

We run down the escalators to the lower floor. There is a new floor between the two that really exist and there are only mandarins sold there. Tons of them. I shout : " Whooo!" and pick one up a mandarin, but I put it back. The dream hops us to the outside plaza/street. There are two guys, the same age as us around 16-17 years old hanging around. I start bending metal pipe with my bare hands and they look at me amazed. I flatten the pipe completely by squeezing it with both of my hands. I then see there's a brawl going on nearby between two youngsters. The other is apparently " a bad guy". Another bad guy is stretching behind them, he's preparing to join in. I won't let him, it wouldn't be fair. So I go up to him, take a hold of his and and crush it all the way to the bone. I shoot a continuous red laser beam out of my hand and I cut people in half with it. The other bad guy's arm drops off as he's running away from me. It flies through the air. I cut the top of an office building with the laser and it comes crushing down to the street. I stop the beam and then try and point my hand at a giant building in a distance. I lift my hand, and the building rips off from the ground, I'm not even trying. I feel like Magneto, I feel invincible . I shoot it in to the skies. I then try to create a door which to use for teleportation. A dark brown door engulfed in blue flames appears behind me. As I walk towards it I fear the dream will end, and so I do.

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