lucid

Lately I've been having a lot of confusing dreams. They usually go like this: The dream starts and I find myself somewhere, often in my bed. Eventually I realize something's off and do a reality check. Seconds after I realize it's a dream, the dream puts me back in my bed and wakes me up - into a new dream. This cycle tends to go on 6 or more times, to the point where when I eventually wake up, I'm confused as hell and it takes me a minute to make sure I'm not still dreaming.

8/13/2013

Key:
Lucid Dream
Waken Up
Non-lucid Dream

I did a WBTB and partly a MILD for this. I also went to sleep upstate in an RV.

I woke up in my bed at home. I did a reality check by putting my hand up to the window to observe my hands. There wasn't enough light to see, so I tried to do something, and I ended up having my vision zoom in. I saw I was in a dream. Though I never stabilized the dream, and I wasn't very aware, it lasted for a pretty good amount of time. After realizing I was dreaming, I levitated out of bed and tried to fly out the window. For some reason, I couldn't get through. I had to really concentrate to make it through. Even then, I ended up teleporting to some warehouse. I found myself running to get to a portal at the other end of the warehouse. I was also shooting at people with a "hand" gun, and they were dying. :/ When I went through the portal, I got to my backyard on the other side of the window, right in front of the deck. I started petting my dog Ti, who was right next to me. At that point the dream faded, and I woke up in my bed at home again. I thought I was actually awake now, and thus didn't do a reality check. I actually think I went through a few false awakenings like that, before waking up for real.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some weird place and there was some spirituality related talk, then weird false awakening with some loud sound in my head and i was very dizzy, almost lucid, but i woke up before i could fully realize.

Dream 2(fragments):

Was playing some platformer that then turned out to be about sonic apparently, but was really weird, some levels were like unfinished and there was 'level skip' function, then later sonic was piloting some kind of mecha.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing spiral knights and was in guild hall, there were some problems we were trying to solve and discussions, there was some new function that apparently marked people as 'spy' when they said certain words in chat. Then the guild hall turned into old style guild hall and there are some players that are invisible, then i noticed the weirdness of game and realized that i am dreaming, i tried to chat with someone that was not in the game but then gaining no response i forgot about dreaming and continued with the game.
I went to run some gate clockworks and the rooms were connected rather interestingly, at first i thought i was solo but the invisible players were apparently there and were helping fighting enemies, also stuff was a bit glitchy. Then i found danger room gate and we entered it.

I had a lucid dream! ...sorta.

I was doing what I usually do in my dreams (trying to run away from evil people) when I decided that flying would definitely help me get away from them. Then it clicked. "...I CAN FLY! I'M DREAMING!" so I started floating and then I thought "I'M GOING TO FLY FOR AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE NOW!"

I was still floating, but going higher and higher. I looked ahead and it was sort of a desert and I was looking right between two mountains (desert mountains). I was going to fly around them when I thought "wait, I had things to do" and I remembered my list of goals. Number one there is find my dream guide. So I decided to close my eyes and when I opened them I expected to see someone in front of me (I was actually expecting my dream guide to be myself), but... nothing. I shouted "DREAM GUIDE!!!" a couple times, still nothing. I landed (as I was calling my dream guide, I thought it'd be easier if I were on the ground) and I lost lucidity.

So basically, fail at controlling the dream (and it wasn't vivid at all... in fact, I barely remember the rest of the dream - before or after this moment of lucidity), but I was still lucid! Getting there!!!

Another lucid, i was at a normal dream and BOOM i got lucid. there was 2 DC's there. i started to ask them things, i asked something about how they feel to be...
dahh... still got the problem that i can't remember very well when i wakeup. I think while i'm lucid, the shortmemory is turned on and when i wake up, it's not stored in the longmemory.

But i can remember that they were really smart. they answered thinks that i never could imagine. one answer i remember super well was:
"We are all individuals, but we are a part of your brain"
and i maybe asked something about it? i can remember something about that i asked how it's feel to be a part of my dream.

after this i got false awakenings and got normal dreams


normal dreams:

i was at a party in my summer cottage.. there was pretty many pll there, and i was going to take out my cross. suddenly did some persons arrive. it was some black peoples and a girl. (that wasn't black) (and oh, nothing racist about the black, but idk how to else explain it
when i thinking back, i get the feeling that she was looking at me with a smile, and when i first saw her in the dream i got the feeling that i have met her before?
she was like something special idk what.

I was going to drive cross with my friend, but he didn't come over, he just drove away xD
the last thing i remember before wakeup was that mom tried to do something with the other cross ..

The thing we can think about is this guy telling me: We are all individuals, but we are a part of your brain"
and to really understand what he meant with that. I thing that i asked something about "if they controll their self" or something similar. and this was the answer.
Let me know what you thing about it below

I should've posted this about five days ago, cause now I forgot most of it. :/

There was more prior to these events, but I forgot them. :/ But I'm currently getting in the getaway vehicle after a a Shootout. My friends Joey and Justin are loading into the car, Joey getting behind the wheel. I jump in the car(I forget which seat) and Joey drives away. I remember all of us are wearing Kevlar vests and weapons strapped to us. Joey starts the car and begins to drive away in a hurry. As we go up a hill Joey makes a sharp turn. Now for some reason physics says I'll do whatever the fuck I want, and sends us backwards over the side of the hill. I notice another cliff about two hundred meters away as we fall. I look down and see the car plummeting to the war hundreds of meters down. We all scream, when I suddenly become lucid! I now open my door and jump out of the car.
"Guys! Just fly!" I shout to Joey and Justin. I now realize how dumb I'm being, and fly down to the falling car. The two jump out as the car hits the water and they submerge. I dive deep down and chase after them. I grab both of them and fly them up to the cliff I noticed earlier. i don't remember anything much afterwards.

set the alarm for 3:00AM (5 hours sleep) but I was way too tired for a WBTB or to even to do any induction this morning. So all I did was go pee and then straight to bed and repeated a mantra. "I will remember my dreams and know that I am dreaming." I probably got only 3 or 4 repeats before passing out.

#211 - 4:08AM - DILD

I have a false awakening in a recliner and look around. I see that I am in the first house I bought with my ex but there is only one DC in the room. My brother is taking apart a old bookcase or entertainment center with a hammer. The piece of furniture looks like is it made of old and weathered 1x4. I am confused that my brother came to visit me. I have no memory of is planned visit from Texas and become even more confused whats going on. I stand up and speak to my brother, "Hey, Tim. What are you doing?"
He replies, "Nothing. It's just a dream."
At first I feel embarrassed and think that he is just making fun of me for my lucid dreaming. He called me a hippie once in waking life and I feel like he's just messing with me again. I say, "Oh funny. I mean why are you here?" If he answered I can't remember because I suddenly have to know what time it is. I look behind me and see a oven with a clock. The time is 23:01. We never use military time and I let out a confused, "Whaaat?"
Tim looks at me, "I told you this was a dream." This is getting really silly so I do a nose plug but my breathing feels obstructed.

I look around and see that house looks different in a lot of ways. Tim is now doing something with a sheet of Sheetrock. As I stare blankly at him I realize the whole process is really distorted and odd. I decide I better make a more through RC and really try to blow through the nose plug this time. The RC proves I am dreaming but I do one more nose plug to be sure. I realize that my sinus feel slightly clogged and figure that's why I didn't quite pass the RC the first time. I say to my brother, "Oh wow this is a dream! I'm such a dipstick."
"Suck shit, dick-shit-dipstick." was his only reply. From some reason I find this to be completely hilarious and laugh my ass off at him for a moment. After I collect myself, I repeat the phrase back to him to be sure I can remember it when I wake up. While I do so I look over at a woman who is staring at me. I think it must be my wife but I ignore her and turn back to my brother but he has now vanished. I look throughout the house, "Dude where'd you go?" I call his name several times but quickly decide to let it go. "By the way, I totally believed you the first time." (lie) "Thanks though. Thanks Tim." I feel grateful to him for getting me lucid. But wait, that probably wasn't Tim. That was actually a part of me. I call out one more time, "Thanks subC!"

I see the front door and decide its adventure time. I try to think of a goal I had but I draw a blank. I become afraid that I am waking up and try to maintain. I calm myself and reach for the doorknob wondering what will be out there waiting for me. Suddenly, I hear my son crying out and feel the bed move as my wife gets up.

lucid
*I became lucid while standing on a random balcony. I had no agenda just stood there enjoying real everything was. I thought this is absolutely no different then waking life. I observed the rain, the clouds, the detail was amazing. Everything was so still and peaceful.

non lucid
*My step brother Darius gave me a update of his life.
*In my ex step mother's room thinking about how she is doing.
*In the middle of storm taking shelter after playing a game in some random field.
*Subway employee making my sandwich completely wrong, starting to piss me off.

Date: 11 Aug

Pre bed: 100mg B6

Total sleep time: 6 1/2 hrs?

Natural wakes: many, got up on 5 to pee, drink water, take notes. Also lots of micro-awakenings where it took me some time to fall asleep. Noises from neighbors and early morning arrangements of others woke me up too.

Dream quality and recall: Very vivid dreams, some stability issues. Recall was challenging, forgot two lds, but then I recalled them, pffuuu. One suspicious also.

Early dream (+2 hrs after bed): I had the impression there might have been something lucid here, but sleep was so deep, I have no idea, it was quite vivid though.

Dream: some kind of tower, bf, something forbidden? (why didn't I write a whole sentence?)

Dream: this was a crazy dream, not very pleasant but interesting. The part I remember involved me getting to a window, where some kind of deadly poisonous gas is working. I am unprepared (compared to others) to deal with this gas and do some maneuvers to avoid it, while it's coming straight at me. I think I am trying to open the window as well. I notice that small wounds begin to appear on my hands from the gas. For once, they almost look ok, not too bad, but I am naturally worried about them. At the same time, I am fascinated that I feel no pain despite my exposure to the gas. (That was pretty close!)

DILD1: I go out in some kind of yard and want to sit on the stone wall. There are two teenagers there that plan to make out, so I move not to interrupt them and go sit on another fence. Soon they go back to the entrance and I hear an electricity shock. I think that a bad guy has done something to them and is now coming in the yard, so I look for a place to hide. I evaluate a few hideouts but decide I will be discovered so better leave now. The main idea is to get as far away as possible, while still able to observe the guy.

As I make my way through yard after yard, I get this familiar feeling. I have been running like this in a lot of my dreams. Semi-lucid, I continue on my way, climbing fences, going far enough. Then I finally reach a block, which I start to climb as if it is a tree. No matter where I step or reach there is always something to hold on to, like a balcony, the window etc. I finally reach the top of the building, which is like 5-6 floors and sit there to contemplate. It is not very easy to keep balance as I am holding on to some unstable part of the building. At this point, I also reach a much better clarity of mind. I look around and see all kinds of junk around me. I either become worried about stability and the dream becomes unstable or the other way around. I wait and things improve somewhat and I get the weird idea that I will turn this building top into the top of Angel Falls then jump, but I feel the need to have something stable below me to start with. It's a bit like I am sitting on a wobbly chair on top of pile of crap right now.

I look to my left and see that a beautiful river is flowing through the nearby part of neighborhood. There is also a small waterfall in the middle of it, too small, but inspiring enough. I want to go down there, I have no idea how and where I but get and reach to this branch and once again use the tree branch swinging method of moving. I swing forward and land exactly where I wanted to - down where the river is. I start thinking about turning this into Angel Falls. The river starts to change and at some point I find myself right in the middle of it, observing how the now dark water flows down a slope. There are dark rocks as well, and the current is way too fast, so I feel kind of uncomfortable being in the water. Somehow though I am dry and not moving with the current? This is not quite like what it is supposed to be and I concentrate on the landscape to cut off the water and make it flow into an abyss just ahead of me. Despite my efforts the river changes just a bit. I get it, it is just not working right now and I also become tired so give up. The thought quickly flashes that I might try to turn the end of the river flow into a beach, but now lack the mood for that. I begin reviewing other tasks I have memorized but the the dream ends just as I go through them.

I am now in my bed and a bit pissed off that the dream didn't just continue into another scene, and I have so much awareness of my body. I nevertheless remain still, nervously waiting until something like a proper DEILD happens.

DILD2: The beginning of this is very vague. I think I just appeared somewhere and held on to this DC for stabilization. The next thing I know, the dream is much more stable and I am walking down the street with the male DC to my left, holding his hand in a friendly way (I think this is the stabilization residual). I am quite happy and for some reason conclude this is Xanous. I can't remember much of this part of the dream, just that we walk down the street of a European looking town, talking about something. OB is also involved either in my thoughts or mentioned in the conversation.

We are facing a closed metal gate plus fence and the male DC turns to the left to go the part where there is no fence at all. I then tell him, why don't we just phase through the fence, this is a dream after all. So, we go back and walk straight through the fence. I easily pass as if there is nothing there at all, but the DC has a bit of difficulty going through, he emerges but it looks like it has caused him some discomfort. I feel guilty for making him do this and begin apologizing. He doesn't look much like Xanous at this point - brown hair and wider face, but it's him in my mind. He seems quite independent for a DC, but that may be just me. We then continue our walk through the city.

At some point, I feel the dream is beginning to destabilize, but I don't want to share it with Xanous as not to mess his stability or something like that. I just walk further forward, rubbing my hands and hop walking for a while. The dream stabilizes and I am really happy about it. He is to my left again, this time with copper hair and tall. I start talking and notice how clear my voice sounds. But even as I talk, I almost immediately forget everything I say. The only thing I remember is "do you think this will work out" and point at me and him? Then I feel embarrassed this might be understood the wrong way and add "I mean this shared dreaming thing". I finally remember that I was supposed to do a gesture and share the passcode but before I could do anything the dream ends.

Micro-ld: I am back in a town of my past, in the place I used to live. Bf is also there. The thought that I am not supposed to be there anymore crosses my mind, but I come up with the explanation that I am now just visiting the town? I look around in the room and conclude that everything looks like it is real life and not like in dreams where there are all kinds of objects that don't really belong to this room, even though it really doesn't. I see that the windows are very dirty and this makes me think that the neighbors have been throwing drinks from McDonalds at the windows. Soon I see the neighbors throwing drinks. I want to threaten them with the police, but fear revenge, so decide just to call the cops to get them. I also complain to bf about it.

It looks like we are leaving the place next day (Sunday) and I need to take some stuff. I can't remember much detail here, but I look around the place, and there are neatly arranged flowers in the yards nearby, which look similar to dreams about the place I had and not real life.

Then I am in the city center, maybe doing last min shopping, I have no idea. On one of the familiar streets, I look inside a strangely shaped car and see a guy with semi-finished and a purple? demonic face. He gives me an evil look and I become lucid and begin to sway the car back and forth, my intention is to lift it and move it, which I do. I make it turn over and leave it like that for a moment, thinking about some more mischief. In the meantime it changes color and shape. I have the strong desire to try to lift the car as high as possible and then send it flying in the air like a balloon. I concentrate on it and lift it quite high but there is some resistance, I send thoughts that all of the people on the street are also doing this task which makes it easier. I am holding the car in the air for quite a while, until it becomes harder, but I still keep my gaze on it. It has become a round large piece of smashed black metal that is dissolving /dematerializing in the air. Witnessing the dissolution of the object is very interesting, it happens gradually and the object loses its physical properties, becoming more of an energy and I also see aura-like glow around the edges - green and red. The dream ends.

I wake up, think briefly about the ld and then fall asleep which makes me forget it. Noises, distractions and final sleep attempts.

Micro-ld: I can't remember the beginning of the dream/let. There is a very interesting sun clock in the sand of some sort of a pot in the park. I am playing with the sand, thinking about lucidity and stabilization? Then I continue walking down the lane when a DC guy looks me with some sort of irritation and I become lucid. I realize that I am finally in the dream as if just entered a dreamlet and feel very floating/unstable. For some reason, I keep repeating my DSs as a mantra and also grab the guy's T-shirt and move along with him, but he wants to move on his own so he is staring at me annoyed. I let him go and see my mom ahead of me, carrying flashlight which is on and the light looks more like the ray of sun shining on all the dust in the park. Very cool effect. The dream falls apart and I wake up.

Comments: I am happy on this occasion there wasn't too much B6 related agression with the exception of a few bad looks from DCs which helped me achieve lucidity.

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was at home and was talking to someone and he was saying something about that i should not think about something to have more chances for it to show up.

Dream 2(fragment):

Was some discussion in dragon forum chat.

Dream 3(fragment):

I am in my room i realize that i am dreaming but then i wake up, twice.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was searching some anime on some site and came across some warhammer 40k themed anime and then there was some other anime which for some reason was using very retro 3D graphics.

Dream 5(fragments):

I was at home and there was some talk about rain and that i apparently can predict future or something like that, then a red dragon appeared and started flying in the direction of my house, then some dude appeared and knocked him out somewhere out of view range, i got worried and shouted at that dude angrily and was about to go out and check, but then i noticed small cyan dragon in the distance, it was flying to here as well and then stopped at certain distance. Suddenly some anime characters appeared and there was discussion about something, then i noticed that that small dragon was already here, but strangely now his head was somewhat cat-like and he had fur.
Then some cutscene started showing completely different place, some dark forest and background voice explaining that many creatures that people think don't exists actually do exists, then cutscene zoomed in to some kind of base where a few huge and strong grey skinned humanoid creatures were walking around.

Dream 1

I'm in a little flat, my dad's house. My uncle and cousin are visiting. My uncle J was unable to bring food, so my dad bought food for dinner (tacos?). Later that same day, not too long after we'd last eaten, J brings in a box of pizza that he'd bought. He seems proud of it, as if it was an accomplishment.

Whenever they first came in I am oddly embarrassed and can't look my cousin straight in the eye, and vice versa. We talk while focusing on something on the table, and making offhand comments.

Anyways, J had brought in the pizza, but I was already full from the previous meal. I ate two or three pieces and started feeling guilty because it wasn't too healthy, and the pizza wasn't even that good. It had no taste. But I thought, what the hell, and grabbed another slice. Then I dumbly made a comment about how the pizza wasn't as good as the previous meal, or something that implied that. Uncle Jeff hesitated, looking upset, and I backtracked as fast as possible, feeling like a retard.

Lucid Dream 2

I'm sitting on a chair in a baby blue room. Something happens that I find suspicious, and I think, "This is something that would happen in a dream." I see myself in third person as I do a nose RC, which easily turns up positive. I immediately stand up and start to fly, outside.

Unfortunately I don't remember most of what happened. I flew along the road, heading south from my dad's house. I started to imagine scary things, just after I dropped something I'd been carrying, maybe a bandanna. I looked behind me as I flew and thought, "Wow, that'd be terrifying if that tree came alive and ate that bandanna". The tree's roots reached forward and grabbed it, twisting around. I saw a black, pumpkin-face in the bark. This really terrified me. I started shaking and was really scared, and my fight-or-flight instincts were activated. I was just about to bolt and probably cause something to start chasing me. Fortunately, a voice in my head told me to calm down and fly quickly.

I remember searching for a partner, and smirking at someone as I quickly took off my pants. I was pleased that I could actually feel my pants, tight around the waist, and actually had to shimmy out of them. In most dreams everything happens in a blur; I want my pants to be off and they're off. Or more often than not, I don't even register that I had pants on in the first place. I want to fly and I'm instantly in the air, not even getting the pleasure of starting to run and then taking off. Everything happens too fast. But in this dream I was wearing my old pair of skinny jeans, the pale gray ones. I kept on trying to speed up my flying but it didn't work.

I remember flying without any care, but also being slightly worried about a dark creature approaching me. To curb my fear I held out my hand and imagined a pokeball. It appeared, and I grabbed it out of the sky. I used it to capture this gigantic, hulking, furry creature with a snout. It seemed to be some sort of real-life Tepig (minus the real-life). I threw the ball, and the creature disappeared in a flash of white light into the open pokeball, which then quietly closed. I threw the pokeball again and the creature appeared in front of me, except I wasn't afraid of it anymore and it seemed to protect me. It made me feel safe. It ran behind me on all fours, snorting and bucking its head. It had these huge tusks and a wet, pink nose.

I realized that the Tepig had been missing for a while, probably because it had been behind me and I'd forgotten about it. I told myself that I'd let it run in front of me now so that I wouldn't forget about it. I held my hand out and imagined the shape of a pokeball, again. It appeared, faintly. I 'pulled' it into life, and it popped into 3D. I grabbed it and threw it, and Tepig popped out.

A witch trapped me and kept me tied under something. Every time I tried to escape my heel got rubbed raw. I finally did succeed in escaping, but my achilles tendon felt so weak that I had to limp and felt as tho it was broken and bleeding. It really did feel rubbed raw. This all occurred sometime after a popular girl's birthday party.

I remember being inside a trailer and pausing for a moment. I look over and see cake piled on a white plate. I feel disdainful for a moment, but then think why not and pick one up. Something made me think that it wasn't going to taste good, I think that the edge was burned or the plate was grimy. The cakes themselves were good looking, with pale rainbow colored M&N's. I tried it, and couldn't taste it. It was as if my taste buds were miles away, it was really weird.

I tried to find a city full of people to play in, but didn't succeed. I did manage to conjure a few shops and around fifty people, tho.

I was flying with someone and remembered when I'd flown into a green lightning storm, but wasn't too scared. It's seems to always be too dark in my dreams. Always a dark, cloudy sky.

I see signs along a road and read them as I soar along, while thinking of my first real lucid dream. The letters are strange, they seem to be shapes similar to hieroglyphics. Anybody know why I can't feel or taste things in dreams?

I did it! I FINALLY made it Lucid the second time that I can remember--first time since giving up over half a year ago! It's a very long dream too, took me 4 pages of paper. Very vivid, and very memorable, with enough lucidity that I was able to exert some pretty cool control--but not enough lucidity to take control of the course of my dream.


"Bear" Lucidity

Sunday, August 11 4:00 AM----went to bed at 12 Midnight


I'm in a deep forest. THe trees are incredibly vivid and bright green--much brighter than any in real life. They are tall as well, probably hundreds of feet. I walk for a bit across the soft mossy ground; my feet sink into the moss. It's pleasant, warm, and tranquil. It really does remind me of something from either Tolkien or possibly the Chronicles of Elantra. It isn't long, however, before I see something ahead--a very large, very mean looking bear.

The bear is mangy looking, with tufts of thick brown fur sticking up here and there. He's snuffling the ground, making grunting noises as he does so. I'm starting to feel really scared, considering running before it notices me--and then I have the realization that I don't need to be afraid of the bear. I'm Dreaming, and it can't hurt me! I didn't do a reality check, I was so sure I was dreaming (although I wish I had, nothing like a reality check failing!). The thought that I'm dreaming simply pops into my head--I'm not even sure what triggered it, except that I fell asleep repeating that I would realize I'm dreaming.

I decide to play with my newfound lucidity by dealing with the bear in a rather cinematic way--I'm in a fantasy setting, may as well throw a fire-ball at it like any mage from a fantasy novel would do. I'm just about to form the fireball in my hands when another thought occurs to me; a perhaps better way to deal with the bear might be to put it to sleep instead! So, I fling my hands forward, and a wave of energy rushes forward, striking the bear. At once, the creature lies down, and starts snoozing! Impressed with my work I head on my way, to wherever the forest path will lead me.

And then I lose lucidity completely. For some reason, after a bit of walking, I start to be very afraid of the bear again. I have the uncanny feeling that it will be majorly ticked off when it wakes up, because I put it to sleep, and that it will try to eat me. So now I'm running, trying to get out of the forest before the bear catches up to me.

I then come across what I can best describe as a very odd hunting lodge. It looks rather small from the outside, but inside it is amazingly large--almost like I'm outside again. There is a person I've never met--I can't remember what he looked like, but I *think* he had short blonde hair. Anyway, I tell him about the bear chasing me, and he takes me to the back room to help get away from it. The back room is very impressive. It is massive, the ground covered in moss, and logs are stacked about the walls. The walls themselves seem to go higher and higher--I can't see the ceiling, and a path of these strange logs lead up, up, and up. I start to run across the logs, every once in a while coming upon a gap that I have to jump--very reminiscent of a side-scrolling video-game like Super Mario World.

At some point, I regain lucidity again, as I'm running across the logs, and remember that I don't need to fear the bear, he cannot possibly hurt me. So, I walk down the log path, to the ground below. (Blame my not jumping down on being only partially lucid--I'd have LOVED to jump down instead of walk down. Darnit). After I get down, I leave the hunting lodge, only to find myself in my living room. However, the living room is entirely different from how it is IRL. For one, there is no wall between the dining room and living room. For two, there is moss like there was in the forest, covering the floor and thick jungle-like vines covering the walls. There's a single couch and the door leading to the bathroom in the back of the living room.

My mom and dad are sitting on the couch. I excitedly tell them how cool it is that I'm in a dream right now! Mom tells me how awesome that is, congratulates me on having a lucid dream. Dad, however, starts telling me how it doesn't matter, it's just dreams, not life--and it is stupid anyway. I'm standing behind the couch, and mom starts arguing with dad about what he said. I take little notice, however, because I feel the dream starting to fade--and I retain enough lucidity to know I want this to keep going.

"Uh oh!" I exclaim out loud.
"What?" Asks my mother, turning around to face me.
"The dream is fading." I say. And then, I look at my hands, remembering some of the things I've read here about how to keep from losing a dream. Oddly enough, my hands appear mostly normal for dream hands--the only real difference is they are fuzzy. I then vigorously rub them together, shouting "STABILIZE!" When that doesn't seem to be working enough, I start to spin. I spin three times, mumbling in a sing-song voice "spin, spin, spin" as I do so. When I stop, mom asks me what I'm doing.

"Stabilizing the dream" I tell her. My lucidity wavers slightly and I have the foggy idea that mom will be more convinced that I'm dreaming if I change my appearance. I decide to shape-shift into one of her favorite music singers, Michael Jackson (I too am a fan, I must admit). I go into the bathroom to the mirror hanging on the wall. I look into it, but I'm still the same, despite my desire to change shape. I frown, then have an idea. I turn around, and tell myself "I look like Michael Jackson."

When I turn back around, I am the spitting image of MJ, how he looked during his video for the song Dirty Dianna, complete with long dark hair, the thin white shirt and leather pants. I'm wearing the buckled boots he wore in his video for the song "Beat it" and in the background, the opening strands of Billie Jean begin to play. Dad comes into the bathroom, telling me how stupid I'm being and all of this lucid dreaming stuff is. In my new shape, voice sounding EXACTLY like Michael Jackson, I put a finger to my lips, shushing him. I then place my index finger on my Dad's chest, and in the same tone MJ uses when he states "Who's Bad" in the song, I tell dad "BEGONE!" Of course, he looks quite confused.

"Be gone?" he repeats in surprise.

"Be gone!" I repeat firmly. Then he just pops out of existence--poof, just like that, leaving me amazed. My excitement, however, is short lived. Before I ever even make it out of the Bathroom to show Mom that I really am dreaming, everything goes black, and I wake up!




7:00 am


I only remember a fragment of this dream. I remember being in the kitchen telling my mother about my lucid dream from earlier. I heard dad get up, then mom got up starting the coffee. I came out, told her about the dream, and that's it--I remember nothing else. I would classify this as a false-awakening fragment.

So I finally had two interesting enough lucids, and pretty long, too. I'd say 50 minutes or so combined, probably a lil' more dream time... yet I didn't tr out any of my main objectives.

Lucidity: 6/10
Vivacity: 8/10
Control: 7/10

I randomly check reality in my father's apartment. I don't really have the time to get exited about that: it's dark everywhere and I have to hurry and stabilize the dream. There a guy in the house; he apparently's got a weapon and wants us dead. I fight him, and though he hit me with a metal bar in the head, I win.
My father tells me to stay, but I don't feel like listening to him and jump off the window, with a gainer.

I jump around from building to building, doing huge flips (of pretty much all kind). The sun's shining now, but i still have to stop, rub my hands and repeat "I'm gonna have a long, awesome lucid".
I keep on jumping for a long time until I get back to the apartment. There's a girl there.
We get out and get to a lake, where a girl tells us that it' s important to be careful about the environment. As she explains us why she loves nature walk away to put something in the trash can.
I get under a bridge; it's dark. I hurry and walk faster but the dream begins to fade out. Luckily I get pat the bridge and stabilize the dream a little. I keep on rubbing my hands and notice a guy (from Prison Break) is looking at me.



He was fixing a car or something but as soon as I see him he walks up to me and punches me. We start to fight and I beat him, but for some stupid reason I feel exhausted and fall on my back. My father and the girls I was with Grab my legs and pull me away, all the way to the dark area of the bridge. I feel the dream fading out but I can't do anything. I can't move, and can only prepare for DEILDing.

I Deilded from the last dream, and I'm now Micheal (The Hero in Prison Break) and I'm laying in those things you put injured people in to lift and transport them.

"I'm gonna have a long, awesome lucid dream".

I quickly get up and walk up to a brick wall, where the others follow me. I decide to try and practice my flips, and maybe find a way to improve them in real life. I run up the brick wall and gainer off of it, just for fun.
Then, I get back up the wall and decide to reverse side flip it. I prepare for the flip but for some reason I really don't feel comfortable and decide to sideflip off the wall normally. I get back up the wall and this time I try to reverse sideflip it. The flip turns into a weird 360 tucked tunnel flip.
I get bored a little and try to have some fun time but that wakes me up for good.

Dream recall from today's nap. Starting to try out some random idea to fix up my dream control issues and change dream world overall by adding rules.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing Spiral Knights game.

Dream 2(fragments):

Some talk on skype.

Dream 3:

I wake up in my bed and i am very dizzy, i get up but can barely stand, i notice that some objects missing but it kinda fades out.
I wake up again and still dreaming, i try to get up but some force stops me and holds me in air, i have some really weird sensations and then dream fades out.

This is my first dream journal published on this website. I picked some interesting ones (or at least the ones I found most interesting) from my old-fashioned DJ. Please excuse me for any grammar/spelling mistakes.

1-12-2012 (NON-LUCID) A Playstation game box

I found a box from a game for the Playstation 1 (called Grand Prix?). The box stated the game was made in 1999 or 2002. I looked in that box, and I also found a magazine in it. As I was reading the magazine (which looked gibberish for most part), I found an article about the iPad. I said: "Huh, how could the iPad be in this magazine?". As I was reading a little bit more, it said something about 2006 (which seemed to be the date of the magazine), but even then, the iPad wasn't there.

2-12-2012 (NON-LUCID) The message

I was standing next to a very big swimming pool. I saw a person which looked like someone from Kassa (a Dutch television program). She was asking another person what's going on, and I walked to a corner, because I saw a weird text floating in the air:

"Bing is not available in Mexico."

When I looked back at the swimming pool, it has become dirty.

11-12-2012 (NON-LUCID) The Tram Track

I was standing on the tram track. As the tram came in sight, I tried to jump on the platform, but it felt like my legs didn't work. When the tram hit me, I was still alive!

15-12-2012 (MIXED) The Wall Driver

I was driving a scooter. I seemed to gain speed rather quickly. Then I decided to fly, but I thought I couldn't. But as I approached the wall, I started going higher and higher.

(LUCID) The Lucid Fail

I was sitting in the tram. After some time I was thinking more and more about being lucid, but when I became lucid, I was so excited that I woke up.

?-7-2013 (NON-LUCID) A creepy forest

I was walking in a forest, together with my friends. This forest has a very long path, together with some pretty weird trees. It seemed like we had a constant feeling of being followed. A pretty good excuse to leave this creepy place.
Without looking back, we followed the path in hope that it will lead us to the exit.

The path finally led us to a U-turn. At the end of the U-turn, I saw a bath of green and dirty slime interrupting our path. I warned my friends just in time.
As I was trying to walk around the slime, the trees blocked my path.