nightmare

My mom, me, and two of her sisters were inside of what was supposed to be my Mom's house. It was a little like the house she grew up in. We were all getting ready to walk outside to go somewhere when we heard a terrible wind- one so strong that I thought the house might fall apart. The wind didn't last long though, and soon it was sunny and beautiful outside. I went out to look around. I couldn't see any damage from the wind, and everything looked as usual- except for a strange spot in the air. I was like space was distorted in the shape of a 20-foot-tall jellyfish. I could see through it, but there were streaks of "air" that were smeared and slightly opaque. I grabbed my camera and started taking pictures of it. It seemed familiar to me in my dream, like I had seen or heard of this phenomenon before, so I wasn't afraid. I attributed it to the large wind that had just ripped through, and assumed it would dissipate over time. I laid down on the ground to get a shot of the sun rays piercing through the anomaly and as I was focusing my shot, I saw that the thing was moving, and that it was much much larger and farther away than I had initially thought. Almost immediately after this realization I saw that it was a giant light bulb, the size of a house, and then it crashed to the ground, glass shattering everywhere. I was far enough away that only tiny shards of glass showered me, but didn't cut me as they probably would have in real life. Still in shock, I got up, and looked farther down the road and saw a giant lamp shade and lamp base (both the size of skyscrapers) crash from the sky. I ran inside and explained to my mo what had just happened. I told her that I wondered if the recent creation of tiny black holes by the LHC was responsible for this. All I could imagine was that reality as we knew it was breaking down or universes were colliding, expanding, shifting, distorting…something very serious.

I turned on the television to find the news. I couldn't find anyone speaking about these events. I couldn't think of anyone else to call so I called my ex and asked him if he had noticed anything. He hasn't heard about anything, but he came over. My mom was making some kind of sugar cookies. They looked already cooked, but she is puts them on a baking sheet and throws them in the oven. She offered one to my ex. He took one and so did I.

My mom's ex-husband was there instead of her current one. We were all in survival mode. I went to the garage at the back of the house and I heard cats meowing, as if they were crying, and it seemed to be coming from the walls. I ran to the backyard where my two dogs had been. They were gone. To my left, where my dog Mina had been, I saw a large 4' X 3' baking pan filled with what looked like a chocolate cake or uncut brownies. There was a face on it, and it looked scared. I was terrified of it, it seemed to be looking at me. I picked up some nearby garbage (packing material or insulation?) and threw it at the thing. The trash was light, so it didn't hurt the thing, but some of it fell in it's mouth. I turned to run and I heard it pitifully ask, "Help?" I turned around, "Are you ok?" The thing was looking at me, and said in a frightened voiced tinged with nervous laughter, "I..I don't know" and it tried to smile. I started to go back and get the trash out of the cake's mouth, but I was too scared to approach it. I told the thing, "It will come out on it's own eventually," and tried to fake a smile.

I ran back inside to tell everyone what I had just seen. My ex was already inside telling my family about the thing, he had encountered it before me it seems. It now was apparent to me that this thing was previously my old dog Mina. I ran back out to it and out to look for Nadja, my other dog. I saw another cake pan, with something pink inside…but before I can run to it, we all saw a small injured white cat walking slowly towards us. My mom's ex says, "I heard that t he cats are "mascots" and they don't change, but they are preyed upon by other things." The cat was very sick but came to us willingly. We brought it inside and looked for food to feed it.

Once we are inside, something started shooting as us from outside in the backyard. My mom's ex, who now looks like a stranger and perhaps isn't supposed to be her ex, was fighting back and had a massive supply of weapons scattered all over the living room floor. I wanted to help fight, so I looked for something I could use. I touched a few guns and knives but realized that I didn't know how to use any of them. One strange metal medieval-looking cross-bow/sword started to move on its own. It had been infected/effected by whatever was happening to reality. I grabbed a weapon that looks like a flashlight, and I pounded the thing until it was smashed and not moving.

My mom screamed as she opened a trunk in the dining area. "Another alligator head!" One of the men in the room grabbed it, it was alive even though it was a bodiless head, and he kicked it outside the front door, where I could see dozens of other live alligator heads chattering around the front yard.

We had to run outside from the shooting, and soon we ended up in an urban city-scape that seemed deserted. Things still fell from the sky, and I knew the reality breakdown was progressing.

A flock of sparrows flew up to us. We threw some bread to them. "They are normal!, they are real!" someone yelled. "Yeeesss, weee are reeaallll…" the sparrows all droned together.

I woke up at this point, wrote everything down, and decided to go back to sleep and re-enter this dream, but stay lucid. I was successful, for a short time:

I was back in the house, but no one else was there. I could see white walls in front of me, and two small puppy faces merged into the walls, as if a small husky and a small bulldog melted into the wall with only their faces left unconsumed. "I am dreaming, so I don't have to be afraid of them," I thought. As I grabbed the husky I saw that he wasn't melted into the wall like I thought, I just hadn't been able to see the rest of his body. I pulled him out and pulled out the bulldog too, and then I lost lucidity.

I saw my mom, and kept trying to tell her about this crazy dream I just had. She was busy with some paper work, and eventually I got the idea that I was being annoying.

Later my littlest sister and I were out riding bikes through the neighborhood, which now looked ravaged. We were trying to help a group of people. Something scary happened at a house…(can't remember what) I woke up again.

I am approaching my neighbor's house with my friend Jessica. She is holding a platter of cookies and tells me we're going to deliver them to my neighbors. Two women open the door when we knock, and we are invited into their home. As we sit in silence eating our cookies, I see a roller coster outside the window. "What is that?" "Oh, that's Great America" answers one of the women. I had no idea Great America was so close to my neighborhood.
I go outside and approach the forest that separates me from the entrance to the theme park. The trail led parallel to the park, but I figured I would go a ways and see if it led to the gates. After a minute or so of walking, I notice that I am barefoot and I'm walking on a muddy path, and woodchips are scraping on the bottoms of my feet. This is very vivid and I can feel it clearly, but I'm not really lucid. There is a heavy fog, and eventually I turn back.

Some other stuff with a scary hobo and some rabid dogs happens, and it's quite frightening, but I end up pausing the dream with a remote control, so I guess I sort of know it's a dream. Then I wake up.

Ive had this dream, where i am sitting at the base of the stairs that spiral up and my house is pure white except the railing on the stairs which is a rusty gold. My parents have plans to go out for dinner and dont tell me, we seem extremely rich and my mother is in a beautiful red sparkeling dress with marilyn monroe hair and my father in a very handsome tux, they strange thing is, they have no faces. I am at the base of my stairs playing with some toys and my mother and father go to the door to leave, me being confused i see the door open and a man walks in, they say this is my babysitter, he (unfortunatley) has a face, he is extremely pale, fingers boney and hair bleached white and swooped to the side ( in a AFI lead singer style) and he is wearing a white tux, that is sometimes pure white or has tiny black stripes going down it(it goes in and out of this) he is very well groomed and matches the house perfectly the only 2 things standing out are his eyes and a strange book in his arms, his eyes are pitch black and when you look into them they have a deep blood red swirly ness to them (like the eyes in 30 days of night that the creatures have) and his book is carved with rune like carvings and is glowing red with a giant bookmark hanging out of it, the moment i saw him i was struck with fear so i ran over to my parents and begged them not to leave and as i did i noticed when i looked outside there was nothing but a black void. They kept saying "its ok, its ok" and then left. I went to go sit back down and continue playing with my blocks and little toy train when he walked over and sat down right beside me and asked this question "would you like to read a book?" but the strange thing was his voice sounded like it overlapped, like 2 voices in one. one sounded very sweet like an angels and the 2nd voice sounded like that of a demon, deep and disturbing (and the strange thing is at my age i was a very sheltered child i was only 7 i had never heard a voice like that before in my life). and i shook my head saying no and he kept insisting "come on come on just a lil peek" i kept saying no then he got very stern and said "read the book... NOW!" and he opened it up and i got a slight glimpse inside but it was nothing but pure death and agony so thats why i said no.. i got up and ran and ran and my house warped and twisted and like computer data broke apart into the black void. (you remember those old microsoft stand by screens when it would create a junglegym in different colors) well it had looked like that in the middle a giant junglegym and i ran towards it and in the middle there was a tiny workshop, where a fat man worked on something but it was very loud inside i could tell. i kept yelling PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!! HES GOING TO GET ME!! and yet he kept shaking his head no no im sorry i cant i cant hear you i cant help you. so i kept running around and around until my legs slowed and no matter how hard i pushed i couldnt run anymore until he was right behind me and as he touched my shoulder with his deathly cold hands i woke up, shaking and crying and i was only 7 at the time ive had several other dreams like this where ive been chased, i always had nightmares as a child.

But heres the weird part.....

When i turned 9 i met someone by the name of Joshua, today he is my best friend and i would give my life for him we connect in so many ways..
Strangely enough he had the EXACT SAME DREAM except his was inverted and everything was black and his man was in a black cloak with pure white eyes, and instead Joshua actually looked into the book and was showed hell(that which when i spoke to him he had an extremely difficult time trying to express it because he started shaking and it was so difficult for him to talk about the agony and death he saw) so he ran as well and came into a white void, but with tiny twinkling red stars and he got caught and was shown the book again, but then something strange happened...

I came, but not as a child as he had seen me but as an adult, i was in a white cloak with long flowing hair a pair of glasses and he said i was beautiful and he described my body a lil same as now. he described me a little as i look now, but older.

i had pushed down upon his chest and woken him up, just as i was he was shaking terribley and was drenched in sweat.

He says i appear in his dreams often, i save him from many terrible things....
Funny thing is, this dream happened RIGHT AFTER he had moved away from me, and i lost contact with him, and then i didnt have glasses..my hair was short..i looked nothing as i do now, and i never hit puberty and he had never seen me after that. But when we saw each other again after 6 years.. he completely freaked out because it was like he was reliving his dream.

So how then.. could he have seen me and why do i always appear to him to save him.
I am 16 now, and ive always felt a strange sense within myself, especially when i dream and when im around anything paranormal.

I had also had a time when i was 8 when i had fallen asleep one night and woke up with amnesia, i didnt remember where i was or what day it was, the time, or anything before that, it was like my life was erased from my mind, i have a few memories as a baby and toddler but i have nothing else, i dont remember life before i was 8, only my dreams and a few memories..

Id like someones imput on my situation..

Sincerely, Mai.

I was in a mall and I realized I was being chased by FBI guys. Those two things gave it away that I was dreaming, because I often dream of being chased and malls. So I found a hot one and we started to have sex. He just took off his pants but I wanted to see him so I took off his shirt, and my pants I wanted to really get the whole experience nut just the cloths on quickies I usually have in my dreams. Then I stopped before we really got it on. I either decided to try to do other stuff or was running from the chasing.

I flew through a window, the glass, and outside. It was nice and bright and here was like a big sidewalk, kinda like by the river in Chicago. A bunch of people were chasing me but I was flying. Someone yelled and through me a one piece running/bathing suite because I was ½ naked it took 3 try’s till it landed on a wagon wheal sculpture thing I grabbed it and stood on the wheal when I jumped off I landed on the ground even though I was trying to fly. So I flew again and tired to fly really fast like superman. I did but only for a short time 2xs I think but I couldn’t do it again.

I flew over a hill and saw a beautiful castle house in the mountains surrounded by snow. So I flew in, passing through the glass of a window (did that a few times) I was still being chased. From there I through fireballs at a big tapestry hanging out side, a stage curtain I think. I felt the heat in my hand and then a fire ball built up from black smoke to fire and I through it, I did this in both hands but I tired to get one in each hand and do them together like the ASL sign for “wash” but I only got smoke. And I only felt the heat in one hand. I passed through glass a couple more times.

I ended up hiding in the town near the castle. There was a train in water me and someone else hide under it I remembered hiding there before (which of course I had not) and I had left little blue things that looked like lemon juice bottles of air. I breathed one and realized sense I was dreaming I didn’t need to breath so I gave them to my companion. Someone came looking, to check on the train. Which was filling with water because of us on the bottom but she just emptied it.

Then I was in a court yard with a tree in the middle and someone was attacking me with snakes. I tired to get away at first but then I decided to let it bite me to die and see what happens. It hurt, felt kind of like electricity but I didn’t die so I tried to get all the snakes to bite me but I didn’t die.

I ended up back at the mall and I saw my boyfriend, Chris so I went up to him and tired to talk to him. But he was really one dimensional, answering my questions with one-word answers. He did ask me for a package of raw meat. Chicken and beef I think. Then I started talking to 2 girls near by who were eating candy, and they ate the meat I handed Chris. That seemed like a good idea so I ate some peanut m’m’s which were good and tasted real. The girls were talking to me. They could have been sisters. They had their own things to say, which I can’t remember but I definitely thought they were more real then Chris was. They asked me if I was in dream space too. I said yes. I don’t remember what else we talked about. I may have tired to engage Chris more, maybe sex. Then I woke up and tried to go back to the dream but the real Chris walked in the room and I got up.

Non-lucid Lucid

I am in a dark building with long hallways, brick walls, many doors and many stories. I am pretty sure that it is an apartment complex. I am with some friends and we keep on running into zombies behind every door and around every corner. These zombies have bulging eyes, bald heads, and no skin so that their raw flesh and veins are showing. Whenever I anticipate that a zombie to be in a certain place, a zombie is always there. We are trying to run through the hallways, ascend the stories and reach the top floor of the building where we'll be safe. I open the door to the stairwell and see a zombie standing still in the darkness. I yell at my friends to run for it and this makes the zombie spring into action and it starts to chase us down the hall. As I am running, I suddenly remember that zombies are one of my dreamsigns. I do the nose-plugging test and I can still breath so I become lucid.

To escape from this zombie, I simply float up and pass through the ceilings of three or so stories as if I were a phantom. I enter the "safe" top floor of the building, which is a completely empty room coated with dust. I want to bust through the ceiling of this floor and fly off. I try to do so and am unable to because this ceiling is made of titanium. I simply bonk my head against the ceiling. Fortunately, there is one window in this room. I walk over to it and I see some city streets below me. All the buildings and houses are kind of old and run-down. I break the glass with my mind, climb through the window, and safely drift down to the sidewalk. I get a strong desire to find my dream guide, so I attempt to yell, "Dream guide, where are you?". When I try to shout it only comes out as my voice at normal volume. THings start to get hazy, so I re-stabilize the environment and make it as vivid as real-life. I walk down the sidewalk and see a group of five or six people waiting to cross the street at an intersection. I think that they would be able to help me find my dream guide so I walk over to them and say, "Do any of you know where my dream guide is?". Most of them have no idea what I am talking about, but one lady tells me, "I'll lead you to him". She is a plump lady in her mid-fifties and has yellow, curly hair. She looks at me condescendingly for some reason. We cross the street and I get a little to excited to find my dream guide so my dream fades very quickly and I wake up.

Recently, I have been having nightmares about my past that I never even knew existed. Most of them are water based like somebody drowning ( a member of my family drowned in the bath and sadly died of shock) most of the dreams and nightmares are personal, but if I have to share them to get people to understand a lot better, then I shall share them. Thank You.

Recently, I have been having nightmares about my past that I never even knew existed. Most of them are water based like somebody drowning ( a member of my family drowned in the bath and sadly died of shock) most of the dreams and nightmares are personal, but if I have to share them to get people to understand a lot better, then I shall share them. Thank You.

Lucidity: 6/10
Vividness: 7/10
Length: ~5 Min.

I was in my bed and got up. My dad said that we were going some where. So we were in our car and I thought that I might be in a dream. I thought "but it feels so real" and stuff like that . Then I tried to lift a rock using Earthbending and it worked. So I jumped out of the car. I walked to a playground and someone said that something wasn't working. So I just did what ever too it and said that works now. And it worked. Then I looked up and saw Keona. I was like "wow I still remember what she looks like." So I ran over there to try to fuck her. She was getting uglier by the second. Then I found out she turned into a guy and was like "fuck, that sucks." And I woke up.

I remember feeling - in between sleep paralysis - this overwhelming feeling of fear, and a very dark presence being very close to me - like I was standing and she was right there, but a dark and terrifying version of her - the ex again, right in front of me. I just want to get over this. We were talking in class today on the stages of grieving, and talking about how some people may think they have reached acceptance when they are still in the depression stage. I feel like my consciousness is in the acceptance stage while my subconscious is still grieving and depressed/angry..

Hoping for a lucid dream tonight, back home so hopefully i'll get a good nights rest

While reading Robert Wagonner's Lucid Dreaming: Gateway to the Inner Self, he touched on the concept of a dream review committee. This reminded me of an LD I had a few months ago during a nap:

Weirdest dream I've had in a while. The dream was basically a series of scenes, all of which had me lucid dreaming. I can't remember every scene, but one had me getting into a van next to a car that two guys were robbing, driving off, and them chasing me. Since I was in full control, I started creating things to throw at that, starting small with bricks all the way up to gallon barrels of gas.

The only scene I remember REALLY well was walking into a magic shop. When I am lucid dreaming, I tend to play along with the dream, then go mega deity on it, but the store clerk knew it. He started talking straight to me saying, "I am the one thing you can't change." I created a sword, stabbed him, and it went through. Then, I turned and this stuffed bird started talking saying it would teach me a lot about real lucid dreaming. I spoke to it, and kept saying I would be more powerful than anyone. Realizing I was losing control, I reigned the dream back, only to have the store clerk fight that and manipulate my manipulations. Finally, he tossed me out of the scene into a series of scary scenes with him somewhere in them (think G-Man walking around). He looked a lot like David Blaine, but I think it was because it was a magic store, and I imagine all Magic Store clerks looking like that--douchey.

I woke up, terrified. As when I sleep on my back at my parent's house, I get this sense that someone or something is in the room. I ignore it because I didn't want to move out of sheer terror. Eventually, the feeling passed, but I was scared to go back to sleep for a while.

Weird, weird dream.

So, here, I was assessed of my dreaming abilities, didn't accept it, and was punished. I didn't take into consideration that this was an assessment of what I can do lucidly. Going to investigate this.

Awake, Non-lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

[This is a catch-up journal entry. This dream is from the night of October 28-29.]

I'm at a meeting of a class I'm in. We seem to be in an upstairs balcony space with cushioned benches along both sides, and no table in the middle. I get out some generic allergy medicine and tell everyone about how effective it is and how often I take it. I go down to the basement of the building we're in to get some water. My Aunt Edie enters the room.

I'm with a group of my peers, and we're all walking to a swimming pool. I'm the only one who's still wearing street clothes, because I didn't bring a swimsuit with me because I don't want to be seen in one; everyone else already has theirs on. As we're walking, I say, “Wait a minute. You guys have seen me in a swimsuit before, haven't you?” I remember when they saw me in my new blue one-piece [that I have in real life, but no one but my family has ever seen me wear it]. I wish I had my swimsuit on now.

My family and I are at Disneyland. The entrance to Star Tours is mostly filled in with blue construction walls, and the space is being used for character meet-and-greets, one of which P. wants to go and see.

Woke up at 5:30, took some notes, went back to bed. I hadn't gone to bed until almost 11, and I now know from personal experience that I have more and better dreams just before getting up. The one I had early this morning was EPIC. Too bad my recall is so spotty, since I waited over an hour to start writing about it.

I'm with a group of my peers, and we're all making our way to a class somewhere. My peers are communicating with our other classmates via cell phone about how to get to the classroom. Someone who's with me says something about explaining to me how to get there. First, we get into an elevator situated on the right side of the entranceway to a building. We have to hold the elevator for one of our other friends/classmates who is approaching. The elevator takes us down into the building complex.

The next thing I remember is being in a little car, still with that same group of friends from the elevator, driving through a parking garage. There's a place where the interior changes from a garage to a white, carpeted room with nurses doing some mundane task in it (there weren't any patients in this room; it was just a sort of prep/administrative area). I say, “We have to drive through that?” I think, This is weird. It's a lot like the stuff I dream about. But I know where we came from and where we're going, so this is real. [*facepalm* Well, to be fair, asking myself how I got to wherever I am is the RC I've been using the most often lately.] The open space in the middle of the room is wide enough for our little car, and as we get into the room further, I see that the path turns to the left and goes out of the room again. We travel through the room on that path, which leads to an outdoor garden patio. There is an old man out there whose irises are all red, reclining on a hospital bed, and I talk to him.

[Scene change.] I'm on a two-lane road that runs in a ring around a huge rock that sticks out of the ocean. It looks a lot like Morro Rock, only it's two or three times as big, both in height and in circumference. The road is elevated up out of the ocean, and is built out from the rock, so there is an open space of ocean between the road and the rock. The road comes up to about a third or a half the height of the rock. It's nighttime, but I can still see everything clearly even with no apparent light sources [just moonlight, I guess]. The ocean waves are surging up unusually high, so that they break over the sides of the elevated roadway. There are at least a couple hundred other people walking on the roadway; we're all coming back from a camping trip out on the rock [I think]. We're all walking on the sidewalk near the outside-edge railing when the waves start, and I watch at least two successive people fall over the rail into the ocean and start drowning. It occurs to me that this is a chance to watch someone die, something I'll probably never have another chance to do, but I can't bring myself to actually watch. As the waves get higher, I step back from the railing so that I'm standing in the middle of the road, where the waves won't hit me, and start calling out to the others to do the same. No one listens. I think, I am going to die, but in a very detached way, with no fear or, for that matter, any emotion at all. The incoming waves rebounding off the big rock start to create smaller, but still scary waves that break over the inside-edge railing. My parents come out of the crowd and find me, and I'm glad to see that they're okay. Eventually, most of the crowd makes it to a tour bus that's waiting near the place where the two-lane elevated road widens and connects to the roads on the mainland, so everyone can get on it and be taken away from the rock safely.

Hello. I had a series of dreams. They were at some places a bit scary. I'm surprised that I didn't realize that I was dreaming, because they were a it weird. Only good thing is, that girl n. didn't show up lol

Hours of sleep: 8h
Vividness: 4/5
Recall: 4/5

1. I'm in a mallI wonder if this is a new dream sign lol. There are a lot of people. Something isn't right, the people are nervous. I'm afraid and don't know what is going on. I want to leave and walk towards a door. But it's closed. I get more afraid and start to panic a bit. I'm nervous and go to a DC. He tells me that we are trapped in this mall and something odd is going on: although the mall is closed and no one gets outsides, some people disappear. I realize this and I get nervous. There is a security guy. He's nervous too. He wants that we go on a different floor. He tells us that we have to hide us somewhere. Most of the people go somewhere else. I go upstairs in the second floor. I go in a broom cupboard. There is also someone else in it: there is a guy, who is really nervous. I ask him if he knew what was going on. He tells me, that some kind of creature is going around in the mall. It catches the people and looked them up in a room too eat them afterwards I panic. I ask him if we are safe in this cupboard. He tells me that this creature was sighted in the first floor. I ask him where the police is. He tells me that most of them are already trapped and few of them run away. They locked up the mall, that this creatures doesn't escape. I get angry about that and I leave the cupboard, although it's dangerous. I go back to the stairs and look down. There is this creature. It looks like a big-foot or something like that. I panic and run away.
I awake. I have my eyes closed. I'm still scared. I don't want to open my eyes because I remembered immediately the last time when I had an nightmare: I awoke and had some weird hallucinations, had the feeling that there was someone who started to pull my legs. So I decided to let my eyes closed, because I already started to get some weird feelings. I tried to calm down and fell asleep immediately
I have still this paranoid feeling. But this time I'm in falling down the sky I'm not alone, there are a few other guys. We are skydiving. A second after, I'm already at the ground. I talk with a DC and say him that it's the second time I did this. I've never skydived before lol. We look a the sky and I see that there are others skydivers. They are dressed in blue. I start running towards the place they are landing. I ask them who they are and they said:
- We don't know, but we are no aliens
What the heck? I want to say something but something terrible happens. We see a burning plane in the sky. It crashes in the ground. I'm scared to death.
My view changes and I see that this crash isn't real, but that I'm watching TV. I start laughing. A family DC shows up and he's angry about the film. He says that this film is shitty and he doesn't want to watch it.
Note: This doesn't make sense at all.
3. I'm in a bus. A university professor enters. In real life, she is really talkative. I hope that she doesn't sits down next to me, because I don't want to speak. BUt she sits down next to me. I say hello, but she doesn't replies. She doesn't start a conversation and doesn't talk at all. I'm surprised. After a few minutes she leaves and get out of the bus.
A second after, I'm standing in front of my home. There are a few friends. They want to talk with me. But I have a really depressing feeling. I'm apathetic and don't show any kind of feeling, although I'm crying in my thoughts.
4. I'm sitting in a bar. In front of me is a table. There is an empty glass a bottle with something alcoholic and a bottle of pineapple juice. I have to mix my drink at my own. I don't have a clue what I'm doing there nor, what drink I ordered.

I finally awake.
PS: Something is wrong with me. These dreams (and the previous ones) reflect this. Unfortunately.

Date: Friday October, 2010
Time: 2:30 pm.

red=Lucid

Note: There may have been some communication with either another being, or a direct link to my subconscious.

So I laid down to take a quick hour long nap. I start to slowly enter SP, I feel the all to familiar energy waves crash over my body. I still get excited when this happens. The auditory hallucinations kick in. I remember I was thinking about something, but my thought trails off into a sort of dream where I enter a trance and am not even conscious of the fact I am falling asleep. I quickly realize what is happening and come back to consciousness before I fall asleep regularly. I start off with some hypnogogic imagery. Shiny multicolored light appears, little windows show up, giving me images and choices of what kind of dream I would like to enter.

The imagery stops and I find myself in a dream, but I am not lucid yet. I am being mauled by my dog (who was sleep right beside me ha ha.) I remember falling to the floor and not being able to ask for help. I keep calling out my sister's name in hopes that she will hear me. No sound comes out of my mouth. I soon realize that the dog, although biting me. It isn't doing any damage, or pain. I "wake up"from it, but fail to realize the FA that just happened. I fall back asleep, but my consciousness wakes up, and I realize I just was dreaming, and that I still am. I crawl out of bed, and instead of being in my bedroom, I am in my place of work. I become lucid immediately.

I walk around the store for a bit, but I end up blacking out. I wake up again into another FA, where I am standing in my backyard. I feel unusually confident in my ability to control my dream. Which for some reason I start to fight a DC. At first its a fist fight, but then I start controlling the elements. I forcefully push him with a gust of wind.

To test my ability further, I go into my front yard and see several tornadoes whirling around. I grab one and throw it at the DC. He can't do anything but grab onto the car that is in my driveway. So I push the car out of the yard with my mind. The fight finishes, and I start looking around. The neighborhood looks different. I see my brothers Jamie, and Jay in my dream on the deck. The day turns to night as I walk up the stairs. Jamie turns to me and says "What's up Joe!" and my other brother says high. I noticed that they were drinking beer. I was going to go grab one, but decided not to. Instead I look up and jump up into the sky.

I fly easily, something I never have been able to do without the most extreme amount of effort. I look around and get the exciting butterfly feeling as I do when I am at extreme heights. I see the millions of houses, and building structures. The world seems so real. I start doing loops in the sky, and decide to fly super low to the ground and great speed. I make a beeline toward the earth. I end up spotting a big pool and dive for it. Free falling is really scary, and I almost forgot that I was dreaming. I splashed into the pool, water waves crashing over the sides of the square in ground pool. I decide to go underwater, my speed isn't affected but my clothes are soaked. I didn't feel wet however.

I see tunnels underwater, it is really dark. I can breathe underwater and was going to go explore the tunnels but decided against it. Flew out of the water back up into the sky. I remember a thought I had when walking my dog outside at night. I remembered I wanted a cool night air time flight, where I could feel the breeze of the wind rush against me, and smell the familiar air that is so distinct to the night. I became completely relaxed as I flew on. I must have flown across entire cities as I lost track of time. Just completely deep in my thoughts.

The flight ends abruptly as I kind of black out and appear outside of some random house, in a random neighborhood. I notice the house I am in front of is on a hill, and looking down the hill notice a straight long street. I see other dream characters walking around doing what they do. I decide to start a fight, so I go to some random dude in a truck and say that I can control him. He was a decent sized fellow, with a scruffy brown goatee and short brown hair. Was wearing a plaid jacket and blue jeans. I start to try and control him, but I can't for some reason, so he walks up on me and actually forces me to my knees. No matter how hard I try, I can't do anything. That quickly stops as I get aid from another DC. The guy I picked a fight with runs down the street, and me and the other DC give chase, running at super fast speeds. We never catch him as I end up in a weird room presumably in the house I was just in front of.

I hear a radio, I see a t.v, and there are two other DCs in the room. I do not recognize either of them. The room was small, with black and white tile on the ground, a green two people seat couch in the middle facing the t.v. There is a radio playing in the corner of the room by a door that leads outward. One DC was standing in the doorway of the room, the other sitting on the couch. I remember hearing a cool song play, and wanting to write it down or try to remember it for when I wake up. But couldn't. Then I hear a freestyle rap going on. One of the lines I tried to remember was "I am like the bank cashing all the checks....." and was amazed by how sick the lines were. Me and the DC sitting on the couch were getting hype by this rap. That soon ended as the t.v shut off. I started paying attention to some sort of noise playing in the background.

I turned toward the radio and went to it. I sat down and listened to it. It sounded like white noise, and the occasional station being flipped through. But at a super fast rate. I had a thought that this was my subconscious trying to speak to me. The words were going incredibly fast. I had another thought that said this was how fast I was thinking subconsciously. Then another thought came into my mind that said this was everything I heard today being played back to me by my subconscious. As if all the commercials, all the songs, all the conversations I heard were being played back to me at an undecipherable rate. Then I heard words, I couldn't write them down as I remember that I can't bring anything back from the dream world so it would be pointless.

It started speaking to me this voice. It told me my fear. That I would not make it to heaven, or purgatory. That my fear was that I would end up in hell. That I thought I was doing everything wrong in life, but wasn't. Only that I had to switch a few of my habits around. This voice said I was on a path to God, but I have taken other paths leading off of it recently. That if I correct my path I would end up in heaven. Then it went on to say that I do not fear death as others do, but that I have accepted it as a natural thing everybody has to experience. That where I was at was the actual afterlife. I wasn't just inside a dream anymore, I was in a different realm, where DCs are now beings. I asked the two DCs, or beings about it and they told me that the voice was correct. That they aren't just in my dreams, that my consciousness was actually completely in a different place. Right then I just became an observer, and listener. I just went along with it, yet I was still completely lucid (or was I??). Then the voice said (not directly to me as I originally thought.) Since I was not afraid of death, that I would meet it Sunday, the 31st. I would pass on into the current realm I was in. I didn't get scared of this foreshadow, or prophecy but curious on it. Then an announcement happened over a PA system that asked for somebody, I can't remember the name. The voice told me that was the person who was going to die, not me (It could of been talking to someone else entirely.). I relaxed a little more, I asked about God, but the voice went away. Dead silence for a few minutes, then it began to talk again. I stood up accompanied by the two DCs, or beings. I again asked if this was really what the afterlife was like, and they said yes. They lead me out the door, and out of the house were I began to hear a ringing, and realized within the dream that it was my alarm. Disappointed, yet excited I prepared to become awake within the real world (at least what I consider it to be).

I woke up feeling all sweaty, and weird contemplating all that had happened.

 
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this reoccurring nightmare always takes place at my aunts house, and one of the rooms is haunted or has a demon present.

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I then spent about an hour on the computer, typed up this in my dream journal(this is an edit), and just spent time on the forum getting some better thoughts in my head. Then i decided to try WBTB. I stayed completely still focusing on my breathing for about twenty minutes but i found when i would let my mind wonder a bit the "lead blanket" would become more present and i eventually got to the vibrating that way. however when the vibrating got very strong it began to hurt which lasted about 20 seconds. confused about the duration and thinking my health was in danger i stopped... Should i keep going next time? can everybody do it? i was excited that this was happening but i didn't think the vibrating was supposed to last that long.