non-lucid

I was in the bank to get my new debit card. Someone I knew was standing next to me. The guy behind the counter asked the person next to me to get in line. He then asked me what I needed. I told him I'm here to get my card. He told me to come over and give him the paper work. I did and got the card.

8/28/2013, 11:00-6:00

I had no dreams I remember in the beginning of the night. I woke up at around 3 and after that, I fell asleep and remembered some dreams:

Dream 1:

A South Park episode. Butters was being a detective with sunglasses and a cool black jacket. In the beginning, he also did some cool things to put them on. Sort of like the thing the Matrix people wore when they were going to take over the tower from the suit guys. (Love that scene )

So Butters went on his way, and he eventually found a real criminal. There was also an adult real special agent in the exact same outfit on the case, though. Butters in the end caught the bad guy, and him and the adult special agent were in a warehouse, where Jesus appeared out of thin air! He then gave a speech about why the bad guy did it and then said "You'll always be my special agent." The adult one asked "Me?", but Jesus said, "No, Butters." Butters was smiling and happy that Jesus said that.


This is what Butters' costume looked like.

Dream 2:

This is more of a continuation of the last dream. Butters was doing more special agent stuff. He went after a new bad guy, but in a different uniform. He looked more like a cop this time, with beige shorts, beige shirt, sunglasses, and a star on the shirt. Another guy in the exact same uniform (adult, and an actual special agent, if you wouldn't have guessed) was already on the case. The exact same thing happened. Butters caught the criminal, and Jesus at the end said the exact same lines. Only this time, the background was an apartment building hallway. It was white-ish in color, and had a few lights.


This is what Butters looked like this time.

Dream 3:

Spongebob was in a cage with a child. Some people were trying to see how well he would treat the child. There was a chart that had a bunch of categories to the right side of the "camera" (third person dream). So the people said to Spongebob to start, and Spongebob started BEATING up the kid. He bitch slapped him and then started punching him for no reason. He might have kicked him a few times. The thing to the right of the camera was going wild. It first said easy in green, then tough in orange, and so on every time he hit the poor kid. Spongebob was also screaming something to the kid every time he hit the kid. In the end, I remember him screaming "Emanstitution!". Whatever that means, I don't know. When he was done, he asked "How'd I do?". The person in the room said, "Look what I drew," And left. He apparently drew some messed up smiley faces with their mouths in spirals around their faces. They kind of looked like this:



There was also a few triangles in the categories. That's about the dream. Some other stuff might have happened afterwards, but I forgot it.

I was texting my friend on my phone and he asked "Are you alright?" I responded with "Y-yes im fine"
Thats all i can remember

this last two days i haven't been able to remember my dreams. I haven't sleep well. I have to much things to do and i been using my computer too much. I just found that been in front of the computer before going to sleep weakens your ability to fall sleep fast and prevents your REM so you don't get to remember your dream. Today i will stop using my lap at least two hours before going to sleep.

Need to fix my schedule /again/.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was watching/was in some anime where events were happening in some forest/mountainous area, characters were getting new powers.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in some arsenal/vehicle storage area or something.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was at the school apparently, and i had a mission of some kind, there were some people having assassin-style abilities and i had to avoid them, though in the end i almost managed to talk one of them into joining.

The first is a dream about 'my room' from last night. The second is a fragment about cats and the third is a false awakening fragment.

• I find myself in 'my' room. I have had some friends visiting me, but now they are gone. Only one of them is still here, I think he is going to sleep here. It feels like it has been a nice evening together and we are tired and ready to go to bed.
  
  I start cleaning up the mess that the others have left behind, there are so many small things and pieces all over the place. I decide to just put it all onto my ironing board and then to just put away the ironing board. There are some beautiful group photos of me with my friends among the things, they evoke nice memories, so I handle them with care, while I do the rest of the cleaning very fast and sloppily.
  
  I look over to the couch and see my friend sleeping already. He lies on my big, red pillow. I wake him up and tell him that I want to fold out the couch, so that there is space for both of us. I begin to prepare our bed, and as I turn around for one second, it suddenly is already finished and he is sleeping. Peaceful, delighting sight.
  
  I walk around in the room. I tell myself that this is my room, so of course it is familiar to me, including everything in it. In one corner there are ~10 paintings from my mother. I think 'She is getting really good, I like her paintings'. I feel thankful for having the paintings here with me, they are very colorful. I put them aside to make a little space in the room. In another corner there are two empty beds, I recognize them as the beds I and my brother had, when we were children. I think it's funny that they are still around and I wonder why. Then I walk over to the couch with my friend and go to bed.
  
  My dream logic did not even consider using the beds for sleeping. I had never seen this room in waking life before, but in the dream it felt so familiar and it was clear to me that it was my room. There was something from every room I ever had in my life in that dream room.
  
  
• There is a wooden bed. It has no mattress, it is only hard wood, but somehow it feels comfortable to sit on it. I lay down a blanket and put a neat little kitty on it. I pet the little grey kitty and it seems to enjoy it very much. It stretches out and I pet it's stomach.
  
  I grew up with cats, but I have not had a cat since I live at my current place. I would love to have a cat.
  
  
• I 'wake up'. It is my bed, it must be late in the morning, it is already bright outside. The air is fresh and cold, because the window was open during the night. I hear the birds twittering outside. Suddenly there is a small bird in my bed. I am surprised, but very delighted. It hops around in the bed, trying to catch a fly. Eventually it succeeds and it looks proud of itself with the insect hanging out of it's beak.
  
  I like false awakenings, they are always funny in some way. I have had quite a few of them recently, I should remember to RC when I wake up, it seems to me that I forget that very often.

-Trying to hide something for a black cat(?), one cat already had stuff hidden, but this one takes back the flat, (blue?) object and scampers off with it itself.

Me and Rane get trapped in a storage type unit. Any doors out are locked. Finally I see a way out, and climb up something to get to it. The latch and screw is all rusty, and I’m relieved when I manage to get it open. Then we have to take a bunch of figurines and stuff off of the latched/screwed shelf. I start recognizing stuff and questioning it, and start getting upset because it’s stuff of mine that’s been missing. I question “where are we??” and try to think of what place it could be.

A few of the things on the shelf: Figurines (I remember clear glass cylinders with things inside them, like flowers), Pokemon cards, and there are some creatures in tanks, like a small crab, and Rane points out a praying mantis type creature in a tank. One of them had rice in the bottom of the tank but it was getting old, so I threw in some new ‘rice’, except it was white plant stalks.

-Asking something about underwear to Rane and saying ‘that’s just too sad’.

When I see a red with white swimming suit in the stuff, I say ‘I could have been wearing this’, because I don’t have many (good) swimming suits.

-Rane watching an anime whose opening I don’t recognize, but when I look over I see two guys walking along a dirt road in a town and see that she’s watching a show I recommended, and I hope it shows the blond girl soon so Rane will get into it more.

Possible inspirations: Climbing comes from the previous dream about climbing the porch/cabinet. I think the blond comes from Yuri in Mawaru Penguindrum, because I was recently thinking about the show and opening song. The style the two guys were drawn in reminds me of Escaflowne. Rice comes from a previous dream. I have deja vu about the creatures in tanks, feel like I may have actually dreamed about something like that before.

I didn’t even know I wasn’t already awake at first, because I was looking at dreams on DV and typing up dream keywords in the Dream Journal blog post box.

I saw someone’s dream and apparently recognized Leon (from Dangan Ronpa).

Some of the things in the box:

Kuwata Leon
Twins doing something (can’t remember)
Kawahira (from Katekyo Hitman Reborn!)

Inspiration: For Leon, I watched three of the latest episodes on Sunday, and remember looking at the x’ed out portrait of him during a Trial. For the twins, I was reading Kingdom Hearts II volume 2 last night, and in it, Roxas was staring across at Sora before he melded back with him. For Kawahira, I saw someone’s comment in the MyAnimeList discussion thread for the chapter I’d read yesterday evening saying that we still have to figure out who he is.

I'm in my room doing seemingly nothing, I notice loud music starts to reverberate through my house from across the street. I automatically assume they are having a party of sorts, usually I would bitch and moan about it, but I notice that I am completely alone in my house for some reason, I wonder where my sister has gone. I wait nervously until I decide to get dressed out of my pajamas into clothes, and sneak into the party across the street, I believe I can because it's almost dark and theirs a shit ton of people in their twenties walking in and out and in front of the party. So I quietly walk out of my house and walk a little ways down the street then turn around and walk along the sidewalk and fence nearest the part. Then I turn into the driveway, and I see a table with a girl and boy managing it, there's tickets on it. I walk up to it and they ask me if I'll be buying the underage tickets and pass, I tell them no I am 21, the boy doesn't believe me so I tell him I can show him ID, and he says yeah sarcastically, but then is shocked when I show it to him, then the girl hands me a sheet of adult tickets and tells me it'll cost $5, so I give her $5, then she says for $1 more I can get a bonus row of tickets so I agree and pay her the $1, then she put a neon blue wrist band around my wrist, then she asks me will I be eating salads or hotdogs? I immediately say hotdogs because who eats salads at a party, but then I contemplate what she meant by salads like if there was potato salad, macaroni salad, because I'd rather have potato salad to be honest, but it was too late she gave me hotdog ticket things so I just walked in and passed everything, the food, the candy stand that all I could see was pop-rocks, and I walk up the stairs and enter the house, hardly any people are in here but I see the parents who own it, they see me and look at me in shock like they know me, the DC's two men I've never seen in RL but I suppose they represent people because I feel the need to apologize to them for what my dad has done to them and that I don't want his blood on my hands and I told them I have nothing to do with him, and they somewhat forgave me but kept an eye on me, then the man tells me that on his bedroom door is a game so I went into his room and shut his door which is clear and play this game that has porno pictures as the puzzle, once I realize what the image is that I was trying to put together I freak out and try to erase it or turn the game off but I don't know how, but finally I turn the game off then walk out into the living room and watch drunkards stumble about.

Dinner: included 3 eggs

Pre bed: 3mg mel

Total sleep time: 6 hrs, lots of insomnia

Early fragment: thinking about ld, this was one of these FA things where you remember a previous lucid then wake up and can't recall anything. Suspicious.

Fragment: I am in our first home and look at some expensive according to mom shoes that she has ordered from India for my aunt. Then she shows me a coat that she has bought. She tries the coat with a handbag and asks me if I like them. The handbag is very ugly and green.

Micro-ld: Near neighbor's entrance and I make place for some people to come in. There is a Japanese breed dog and it starts licking my palm, it licks and licks, I can't detach myself from it. When I finally do, it falls on the ground with a bound of sadness. I am thinking it got so much positive emotion out of licking, it now feels devastated. It tries to get to my hand again and I feel disgusted and want to wash. There are two-three girls, we are going up to wash, one of them is naked, but her breasts are not there, just weird nipples.

The dream skips forward and now we are in a large hall where people receive awards. The girl is part of four of the nominee teams, which are small island countries and Japan. A guy announces his name on the microphone. Then, I see a classmate of mine and wonder what the hell is she doing here. (She randomly appears in dreams). I decide to do a RC and stand up from my chair, saying RC and raising my hand to examine it in a very conspicious manner. My classmate looks at me and replies RC. This looks so nutty, I am fully convinced it's a dream. I can't recall much else, just that I decide to get out of there, but the dream fades and I am back in my bed. I lay still for a DEILD.

DEILD: I appear in an apartment at night in the shower cabin. In the dream I recall about me wanting to behave like this is real life and know that if I do that, it will stabilize the dream. Therefore, I do my best to pretend that this is real life, take a shower, examine the showerhead, carefully trying to simulate proximity to real life. I even use a towel to dry myself. I decide I want to visit my friend, but look in the mirror and see I am wearing only a short T-shirt. I certainly don't want to appear like this in front of him, if I think about my attire when meeting him, but decide it will change by itself as I go along. I have no clue where he lives irl, so decide to try to go to school and see if he is there.

Currently on the fourth- fifth floor, I hang on to the curtain and swing forwards, it elongates and transports me down perfectly. I am in our old neighborhood and need to walk to school although it's quite a risky idea. Slightly above the ground, I do the the curtain swing again, even though nothing is holding the curtain and I know that but don't care. It's pretty effective and I am going fast. I do my best to hold the image of the street as stable as possible. I pass quite a distance for a dream, curtain swinging at tree level, stepping on each tree as I end each swing. It is daytime now. :yumdumdoodledum:

At the end of the street, the trees and buildings begin to lose shape and become a white flowing background. I slow down a bit and the street is back again. I reach a small garden and notice a large war memorial that is not there irl, but the place still looks kind of familiar.

Then, as I move forward, I interrupt my concentration of holding the dream/images and think that CL flies a lot and that maybe that would have been a better option, since I am taking too much dream time. Yet, I reply to myself, that would involve imagining flying over the specific area I need to go and may actually be harder for me. These thoughts take just a moment, yet this is enough for my control over the scene to wane and the scene in front of me changes. It is a smooth change, but it is no longer where I am supposed to be going. I try to go back and change it to the specific location, by turning my back on it and checking it again. It changes again but now it's like a totally different city with an old castle up on the hill. I feel saddened I am not going to make it to my friend and take a turn to the left.

The street changes again and is now a familiar one from my hometown and it leads to school too. Among the crowd, I notice a very unpleasant person from rl and a pain in ass in non-lds. Her eyes look very lively and I feel her aggression. She also says something that's supposed to be irritating to me and I can hear her voice quite well, even though she is not that close. I don't pay attention to what exactly she says but can clearly smell trouble. I wonder how did she appear here among the crowd of DCs walking down the street, I didn't think about her. I begin to worry about her but turn my back, reminding myself that if you don't think about it, it doesn't exist. Yet, I can still feel her presence behind me. I speed up, now flying low above the ground. She is behind me and I feel an upcoming confrontation that I prefer to avoid, so I wake myself up.

I take brief notes and end up with insomnia.

Fragment: I am in a room and there are masks that one wears underwater, but they don't really exist irl. Bf and dream friends come in the room and we talk about something. The water has been running so I turn it off, then this girl looks at where all the water has been going, somewhere underground. There are huge fish there and also normal ones, they expect to be given food.

Fragment: something about bf's mom and food, there are poppy flowers nearby.

LD Fragment: This was a nice, average to long ld, but mostly remember the last part of it as I involuntarily fell back asleep.

I don't feel well, nasty pain, I stop and ask these DCs to tell me what is wrong with me. Something about their appearance strikes me as odd, so I become lucid. I think I ask them how to get better or something.

No memory what happens next, I have been doing stuff in this apartment, talking to DCs, free-styling.

I remember looking myself in a mirror and noticing that I look really nice. I like my dream make up very much and try to memorize it so that I put it the same way irl. I also have some thoughts about trying to manipulate my body in a certain way and see if there is an effect irl.

I go to another room and look at the cupboard, notice a beautiful china milk jug with blue decorations but feel mischievous, so decide to use TK to make it fall down. It falls on the floor and then gets on the the chair in front of me, broken in two. Now, I feel sad and want to repair it. I also think it will be a cool skill to repair things and even have a false memory of repairing something. I try to fit the pieces together and hold them, but it doesn't work. I hear a buzzing sound and me and DCs in the room see some sort of a wasp, maybe twice the normal size and completely brown and shiny. I decide it's time to get out of there and head for the window. There is a beige mosquito net on the window and I try to phase through it but meet some resistance. I remind myself that I can do it and push forward. The net stretches a bit and finally I pass through and fall/fly down.

This part was very pleasant but I don't recall all of it. Basically, I end up flying low over a yard that transforms to meadow with different wild flowers, mostly yellow ones, as the late September sun shines down on the meadow. Absolute beauty and I remain with the scene for as long as I can until the dream finally fades.

Fragment:I end up in another dream for a brief while, making profane gestures with hands.

Woke up happy, fell asleep again, had another short dream I can't recall. Then woke up very worried as I had forgotten the most of the last ld.

(After valerian root was mentioned in a previous dream, I looked it up and found it was used for insomnia, and gave it a shot in an effort to get my sleep schedule back in order - I've been going to sleep around 6-7 am, a good 2-3 hours later than I prefer. Marvelously effective tea, managed to get to sleep before dawn. Predictably, dream recall was terrible - but since I'm only using the tea to help me get back to my usual sleep schedule and don't intend to use it long-term, that's acceptable.)

Just the one fragment: an image of an absurdly beautiful man representing either St. Michael or Apollo, with a comparison between the blue of his eyes, the blue-within-blue eyes of Dune, and the blue lotus.

I was staying at a hostel like the one I was at a few weeks ago, although my High School Maths teacher was incharge and he lent me his credit card which looked exaclty like the Boots loyalty cards. I was out in Chester but the rows were old fashioned victorian market stalls and as I was paying for some bread a boy stole the credit card and a necklace from me. The rest of the dream was very action film like and was all about finding this boy and getting back the card, we tried to trick him by showing lots of cards that looked the same and hoping he'd get the wrong one thinking it was ours, but we knew which was ours as it said 7090 on the back.
I was in America for some reason and needed to call the Police but I didn't know whether 999 would work so I spent a while debating with someone in altrincham ice rink car park what was right, 911 or 999
We managed to get the necklace back but the way we got the card back was quite sad, there was an old man (Donna Noble's grandfather - doctor who) to be precise and he gave up his life and befriended the boy and took him out a window which was where they threw all the waste and tar onto the streets, and they both got coated in something which essentially froze them, killing them both, except when I was getting the card back I realised that although the old man was dead but the boy was alive, but couldnt move anything other than his eyes because the tar had set and he soon died because he couldnt breathe.
At the time it was really action film like but quite morbid looking back haha, and it was all in victorian times too which was strange with the boy being dressed like something from Oliver Twist

Dream recall from today's naps. The last one was almost lucid!

Dream 1(fragments):

I was at home and something was going on, some kind of event.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was apparently playing team fortress 2(...which i haven't really played IWL), team's weapons were really overpowered and enemies were coming in hordes, which i was shooting down from a minigun and some of them were turning into eggs.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was leaving home but was interrupted by someone and there was some random naked person...

Dream 4(fragments):

I was playing some arcade racing game with some people with rather mazey tracks. We eventually got to the last one which was going through some ice place and it was really hard to control movement on it and not to fall into water. At the end it was really straight instead of being mazey.

Dream 5(fragments):

I was playing Spiral Knights and apparently some item that i was selling didn't got sold and also i have received mail with recipes to upgrade heat crystals and was discussing it with SilentEternity.

Dream 6(fragments):

There was something about music and recording.

Dream 7(fragments):

I was at home and i was preparing for a nap, doing mantras and stuff, suddenly i heard some sound behind the window, i look out of window and get the feeling that someone's coming. Suddenly a trio of, rather small, brown, dragons flied towards window and landed on windowsill, one of them made a sound which i 'understood' as "Hi", i responded and he morphed into a form that partially looked like a human child. We started talking and then he started telling some story about lands that were very far and about some adventures. Dream ended midway through story.

I am standing in my greenhouse which is at a new location in my garden. All the plant are almost dead. They have died because of my neglect. Someone else is in the greenhouse with me. This person knows something about the vast plant death.

The LD(yey): [COLOR="#800080"]I sit in my bedroom's bed(the old bedroom I had) and I look around.I'm in the room with my mom,sister and dad.Looked like there were a lot of paintings and art things on a brown table[/COLOR] .[COLOR="#008080"]I suddenly realize I'm dreaming from no apparent reason.I tell my mom I'm dreaming but she starts to get embarrassed by it for some reason I don't know :|.I do some nose RCs but my mom keeps slapping my hand saying:Stop doing that! I try to hide from her and do the RCs.Laying in the bed I do the hand RC and I keep trying to count the fingers but had a hard time doing it.I stand up from the bed and do the hands RC again and realize I have 6 fingers on my left hand O_O(The dream suddenly got very vivid with some GOOD self awareness),Then I say to myself: Finally! I have a Lucid Dream! I do more RCs just to be sure(The nose RC that didn't worked).I close my eyes and try to spawn 2 persons.I realize I can't do that and tell myself that I must not waste my time doing that because I must have fun in the LD.I try to push my head through the window again while my mom is watching me and saying: What do you think you're doing?! I finally realize I can't do that and eventually open the window like a normal person and jump from it(I also done the push my finger through the hand RC because I simply couldn't believe it was a dream).I jumped on a tiny building with a green roof and when I landed on the roof I made a weird noise :/. I jumped then on the ground(made the same noise again)and saw a girl and I tried to scare her away apparently(With that noise and no idea why I wanted to do that) and she ran away.I laughed evily then see a black man and suddenly I wanted to be a vampire. I touch my canine and tell myself that it will grow or something.The left canine starts to grow and the right one couldn't grow because it fell.I give up on that and then a car comes and park in the front of my apartment complex. It's a black car with red lines and it had a tiny door.I said to them: Do you want me to enter in that car?The guy who drove left(there was another guy in there tho) and then I entered in the car and started to drive but I get too happy, I stand up and start screaming and things and the guy stands up too, he looks at me, I get a really really good and strange feeling and I suddenly felt some vibrations and then woke up.(Didn't knew if it surely was a dream but eventually thought that I was in the old bedroom and I was SURELY dreaming)[/COLOR]

Fragments from a dream : [COLOR="#800080"]I'm walking through the city and go somewhere I've never been before. I look around and there is a green bypath and around the bypath there is water with some grass and things.I walk on the bypath and then arrive in a place that looks AMAZING.There are 2 big fountains there.It was somewhere high because I could see the view with trees and all kind of awesome things.I keep walking and realize there are some nice white fences just so we don't fall from there(since it was a high place) I go up and there is the end of the grass.There is just a road with a car.I see an asian walking near the road,and then I say to myself: Wow,I never knew at the end of my city was this,I can't go further,It's too far away and I'm not ready for an adventure. I go back at the bypath and eventually jump in the water but I could hardly swim.I swim to the bypath.While on bypath,I see some people at the other side of it with some funny sporty things(I don't even know what they were) and I say to my friend that apparently appeared from nowhere that we should go there.She is in the water and she starts to drown and I yell for help and try to get her off the water.(I also remember at the end of the bypath there was snow)( I know that there is more of this dream,I just can't remember it)[/COLOR]