non-lucid

Dream recall from today's nap, had a bit of problem falling asleep for some reason(maybe it was too hot).

I was loking around from the balcony, then somebody called me from the streets and i went there, almost instantly i was down there and we were talking about something while pigeons were wandering around. Then i went back and was instantly back at the balcony. Then it faded out.
I wake up with closed eyes, attempt to DEILD, but don't really works, i get up and i have sensation that i am dreaming, then i wake up again with same sensation. I get up from the bed and dream shortly destabilizes, i fall and for a split second i see weird kinda egyptian eye-like symbol in black and white, then i somehow fall and dream stabilizes, but in a second i wake up.

1. [Lucid?]
I seem to remember becoming aware and suddenly got really excited then woke up. I did not perform any reality checks that I remember, I keep seeing a hand but I think that was from a previous dream.

I was at work, and remember running errands for my boss. I also had to put a bird's eye map on the website, to show people where our building was. I had to somehow take the photo myself xD;;;
Another employee needed help with delivering boxes, so I went to help her. I first went to let my boss know that I was going to go, but saw her on the phone. So I thought I'd go quickly, and help the other, and then come back with the hope I wouldn't be missed in that time.
I then came back and made everyone a cup of tea (Because they're obsessed, even more so than me! xD)

Sorry if it's a bit much to read, this is my first DJ

When I woke up from this dream I couldn't remember it at first, I knew it was one of the greater dreams I had in a while but It just couldn't come to mind. After sitting for a minute thinking hard telling myself to remember it, I eventually did.

I was in some kind of zoo. The entire place was like a giant boardwalk/forest kind of thing with huge trees. People could stay in tree house type rooms and live there or at least stay overnight from what I could tell. Somehow I wandered off down the boardwalk and walked through a random door thinking it was someone's home. It was completely dark and as I walked to the center of the poorly lit room I heard a growl and then a huge roar. Apparently it was a huge Lion pen and the one in it jumped at me (the walls of the enclosures are giant trees but there was also two small trees in the center of this one) for a short time I was just yelling running in and out of the trees in the center or the room to avoid the lion because it was blocking the door. It moved out of the way and I finally ran out but sadly the door got bigger and the lion was able to run out after me. I turned a corner and up some wooden stairs (I think this was the entrance to one of the tree houses you could stay in) but I tripped and turned around and the lion was jumping at me over and over trying to bite me growling and snarling at me but somehow something invisible was blocking it an inch from my face and all I could do was yell at the top of my lungs.

Suddenly I felt weird and to what I'm guessing happened was a false awakening but instead I was awoken by my parents telling me I had a nightmare and that I was yelling. When I sat up I was actually in one of the tree house rooms. The dream skipped a bit but I was till in this tree house (In it was my Girlfriend, some random boy I hated the minute I saw his face even thought of course I can't remember it, my parents and from what I could tell the boys dad. My girlfriend was ignoring me from some reason, the boy as well) Automatically I knew the boy was supposed to be doing something off by himself but when I walked into what was my room in this tree house it was trashed with clothes and him and my girlfriend were laying there watching TV. For some reason all I could do was throw myself down and say "This isn't right" so I left to go ask my mom why the boy was there and all she told me was he wasn't supposed to be in my room, he was supposed to be somewhere else but the dream skipped again.

This time I was on a dock (Still in this tree house/zoo forest type world. The tree houses and animal enclosures were off to the center of the area but it was like a giant island surrounded by a big clear water river and on the other side was jungles and mountains) I was looking at this little cottage on the dock with my friend Brianna and somehow even thought it had no windows or doors it was filled to the top with absolutely clear water. I was walking in and out of it quickly, it slowed you down when you walked in but when you walked out you were dry. I thought the water was pretty neat so without control or thinking I jumped backwards off the dock into the water head first without taking a breath. It wasn't such a great idea when I realized this time I couldn't breath and Brianna was yelling my name from the dock. (For some reason even thought I couldn't breath I refused to move or swim up to catch my breath) Brianna dived in a grabbed my arm to pull me up and all I could say was a simple thank you. I then woke up and the dream was over.

Standing in my room looking out of my window on the road across the field. It's dark and it's snowing heavily. I see front lights paving the way for a bus. I know that there will be two girls, one of which I knew a long time ago and the other her friend, getting out of that bus to come hang out with me. I wonder why the bus doesn't stop by the red house at the road going down the hill to my driveway, and instead just keeps driving out of sight. A few seconds later, I see it reversing back up to the red house and the two girls get off. I watch the two from my window as I get more and more anxious. I turn the light out in my room so they won't see me spying, but I am quickly distracted by my bedroom being a mess. In panic I clear as much of the mess I can in a hurry and notice I'm wearing old unacceptable clothes. I try to be calm trying to find proper clothes to put on as my mother calls from the bottom of the stairs "Mikkel I think you have guests", while on the inside I'm spiraling down into a pool of awkward anxiety, almost at the edge of having an anxiety attack.

When I get down in the living room, a long table has been set up and the two girls are sitting by the end. I reach out to give the brunette - the one I knew once - a hug, when she had awkwardly reached out her hand for a handshake. "Oh well okay" she says and laughs. I sense she's just as awkward and confused as I am, while her friend just seems kind of sulky. I sit down facing the brunette, our eyes catch and I wake up.

I was in the middle of a field which had random fires and holes missing from it. I was with some random people, everyone was panicking because we was about to get bombed by an air raid. To survive the air raid we had to go into sleeping bags and lay still, my sleeping bag was filled with water. I don't recall the actual air planes but they must of spread napalm everywhere because I could feel intense heat, that's when i realized what the water was for... to cool me down. The sleeping bag was black possibly dark blue but the inside was a light blue. After it was all over and I emerged from my sleeping bag I was in my old primary school classroom, the one when I was in year 6, exactly how I remember it. I awoke straight after this, it was quite frightening and I found myself in a bit of a panic until I realized it was only a dream.

I am with my family at the Mission City Orthodontist building I used to go to when I younger. The building itself had a different layout than the one I went to in real life and looked a little bit more futuristic but I somehow knew it was the same place. Apparently we came here so my brother could have his mouth x-rayed and examined in preparation for his braces. However, as we are all waiting for the the examination to be over, my mother disappears. The orthodontist finally returned with an x-ray in hand but he looked very disturbed. He proceeded to show us the x-ray he had with him, however, the x-ray was not of my little brother's jaw but of his hand. The x-ray showed there was a large red mass of some sort in his hand. The orthodontist explained that this mass was a malignant tumor. He then stated that he was fully capable of surgically removing this tumor but was unsure how successful it would be at stopping the cancerous growth from spreading. And, in fact, was unsure if it already had spread or not.

My mother walked back into the room and I tried to explain to her what had just transpired. However, every time I tried she would cut me off or told me to stop. I told her it was extremely important but she didn't care. I was furious at her but also distressed at the news we received so I decided to leave and blow off some steam. When I finally left the building and shut the door screamed "god damnit".
The last thing I remember is taking the car and driving around for quite a long period of time.

6/1/13:
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6/5/13:
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6/20/13:
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6/22/13:
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6/24/13:
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6/25/13:
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Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid , Side notes.

Betrayal:
I'm on some sort of tropical island with some friends. If you walk up the shore, there was a pretty big castle, there was an amusement part inside it. One of the areas inside was like a lego land, me and a friend i don't know rode mine carts in some hellish looking lava place. It was fun though. As we walk outside and back toward the coastline, we notice a Hummer was about to be given away. I enter the contest and win by chance.

Soon after, i walk down toward the shore line and talk to my friends, then i start talking to random people i don't know. After that, everything goes to hell, the FBI start shooting missiles all over the place, and because of that, i take shelter inside the castle. Eventually, the people inside start going insane and every one is killing each other. After a while, most lights are out and the place is blown to hell. I soon find a group of mercenary like people and hang with them.

Our group soon makes it's way toward an exit which leads outside, the bombing has stopped, so me and another person go outside. The guy i'm with says "Sorry about this" and then shoots me with his submachine gun. I feel the bullets hit in various places on my body. After about 18 shots, he stops and then fires one more time to finish me off. One of the bullets hits the right side of my neck and i feel blood come out. I instantly drop after that, i'm not dead though but decide to lay there so he thinks i am.

He eventually leaves and i get up, i feel my neck and there's a little blood but everything else is fine. I guess i'm like a vampire or something. Either way, i start walking and eventually end up at a place that looks like my backyard, i find my dad there but in this dream, i don't recognize him as my dad. I walk up to him and he gives me food and guns for protection. And i find out, not only have people gone crazy, but monsters have invaded, how nice.

He gets up and we go out to this mountain woodland place, we're hiking up the trail to some destination, but a fire has started spreading and we decide to go back. We head back to camp, the only people there now are a guy and a younger girl. My dad disappeared. Anyway, those two are friendly and they go out to collect monster souls which they then use to make potions.

Sword:
My dream has a medieval setting. I'm in some watch tower at night, there's a busy town below. I take a broadsword off a stand. I then exit the tower. As i stroll around the town, i see a computer with skyrim loading, i decide to go over and mess up some settings hehe. But then this ladies mother catches and chases me into this alley. While we were there, i take the sword and stab her. I then flip a secret door open and drag her down into it.

Once we get down there, we're in a room full of my slaves, i lock her up on the wall. As the slaves eat. One asian slave takes her drink and she gets mad, i set there and laugh.

Engineering sector:
I'm in some sort of big rpg world with a team. As we're walking, me and this other lady fall off the bridge, we land in a high level engineering area we haven't unlocked yet. There's some people down here building jets and stuff, the lighting is dark. However, i luckily find my way up and talk to an engineer from tf2. I tell the engineer to go back down and help the lady but he shows me his paintings instead.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing AI War with SilentEternity and there was a battle.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in some anime apparently and was exploring some ruins with a group of people, searching for something. Then i was in and there were some anime girls, then there was group of people who were apparently from certain forum, i joined them and we were celebrating somebody's birthday and there was one person who was trying to fool people. They got weird minitower on the table and i decided to climb it, i got to the top and then jumped down. Then it went back to exploration of ruins.

Dream 3:

I wake up, get up from the bed and do some stuff, i remember that i should do reality check, but before i do it some weird noise comes and i wake up.

Bedtime: ~ 12:30
WBTB: No
Aids: None
Recall: Medium
Vividness: High
Awesome Factor: Medium

I'm in what looks like a high school gymnasium, minus the bleachers, with a bunch of other people. I don't know why we are there, but I don't think we are actually attending high school. The only person there with me that I think I recognize is a middle-aged woman, C, whom I'd had some classes with in grad school.

I think people have sleeping bags and/or are just hanging out on the floor. There is a television at one end of the room, and someone puts on The Avengers. In the dream I don't own the movie yet, and am super excited that it's already out on DVD/Blue-ray.

Suddenly Tom Hiddleston-as-Loki is there in real life, performing his confrontation with Odin in Thor, except that Odin isn't there and Tom/Loki is facing us. He's only a few feet away and I realize, to my delight, that I've basically got front row seats. I'm sitting just behind C. I'm pretty sure we're sitting on the floor. The weird thing is that we're sitting on the stage and Tom is performing from where audience would normally be. (I don't think my dream self considered this weird, though.)

Tom is dressed pretty much the same as Loki in the movie, except he has a neck brace with writing on it, as if friends had written on it like people do on casts in school. Anyway, I feel so lucky to be there, and I'm totally feeling his performance. I actually get shivers. My attraction to him is secondary to the fact that I'm getting to see this amazing actor perform live and so up close.

Tom is gone now, and I realize that I've been resting my forehead on the back of my former classmate's shoulder. I'm disappointed that instead of enjoying Tom's performance fully and maybe getting some eye contact, I've been hiding my face. I'm also distraught about what the C must have thought about the close contact -- we barely know each other, after all. She has gone somewhere, but I decide that when she comes back I'll apologize and tell her I was tired or had a headache.

Next, I'm outside. It is nighttime, and it looks like I'm on or very near a college campus. There's an abandoned building made largely of glass, which I enter. The ground is earth, and I'm excited to see that it is littered with beautiful crystals. I'm particularly in awe of this huge quartz crystal that must be at least 2/3 my height. It is lying flat on the ground. When I come closer to take a look at it, I see that there is a beautiful, large blue topaz crystal inside the giant quartz, maybe six inches from the point. I decide that I must take it home, worrying if I'll be able to carry it, but when I touch it, it feels like plastic and I'm disappointed.

There is a cluster of topaz or aquamarine lying on the ground nearby. These are attached to the matrix, so I'm sure these are real. However, I don't want to dig it up with my bare hands, so I leave to get some kind of tool.

Outside, I meet a college girl. She says I shouldn't be walking around alone at night, though she's doing the same thing. When I tell her or she sees that I'mgoing to the abandoned building with the crystals, she says she knows it, and seems excited to accompany me. (I don't remember if I got a tool or not.) As we approache the building, however, three female employees from a nearby store are keeping watch over it, since people aren't supposed to be entering.


Key thoughts/emotions: Elated, Uplifted, Impressed, Embarrassed, Disappointed


Interpretation: I think this dream says a lot about my beliefs regarding my acting career, or just creativity and self expression in general. I'm watching one of my favorite actors peform; he's totally in the flow, and I'm feeling it as well. I'm on stage, and yet I'm hiding my face.

If the quartz crystal were the human body, the blue topaz would be in about that same region as the fifth chakra, which is seen as blue and associated with creativity and self-expression. I think it's too good to be true (feels like plastic), so I focus on some more realistic mediocre crystals. Yet I don't want to get my hands dirty, so I go looking for a tool and end up locked out and without any crystals.

My original interpretation is that I don't believe that I can really have what I want: an exciting, fulfilling career that puts me in the spotlight (the big quartz with the topaz inside), but I don't want to settle for a mundane job or getting little reward for my efforts (not wanting to get my hands dirty getting the smaller cluster).

Dream dictionary entries, however, suggest that plastic can means not being true to oneself. This would change the interpretation from simply not believing I can have a successful career to not being meant for great things , but not wanting to settle for less.

Both are pretty gloomy interpretations for a dream that initially left me smiling.

Not much for today. I had trouble falling asleep last night. I remember only one dream. For whatever reason, I asked the woman who lives in the apartment across from mine if I could use her shower. She said yes. Then, a girl became involved (she seemed like a tomboy). We were apparently friends. We started messing around, but the woman came home, so she had to hide. The woman found her anyway. I don't remember anything beyond that. At some point, though, I was looking at my crush's Twitter page.

I was also planning on doing a finger-induced lucid dream. I had an alarm set for 4:00 a.m., but I apparently didn't hear it, as I woke up around 8:30. I'll try again tonight.

[Dream 1: Where am I?]

I was in a different school to my usual one, I was wearing different uniform too, it was in black. The setup to the front of the school was weird, I was sitting on some chair with loads of other people who I didn't recognize. There were chairs going across in a straight line and infront of the chair was what looked like one of them barrier thingys at a bar that the bartender is behind. Anyway there was this girl next to me and she looked kinda cute so I created conversation :p I asked her what school this is and she looked at me sorta puzzled. I'm pretty sure she reacted in a way of how do you not know?? Anyway I explained to her that i'm from a different school and i'm not sure how I got here and am in this uniform. We talked a bit more and the conversation expanded, and the person that was near me turned back and looked at us talking towards us. I knew him. From a long time ago, nearly 7 years ago, we went the same primary school. I said his name and said, do you remember me??? We went to the same primary school. He recognized me. I'm pretty sure at this point everyone went to class, but I didn't go for obvious reasons. I remember just sitting there thinking about that girl, I kept thinking if I should of asked her out. I don't know how but I was on her twitter page and she had posted my name on her twitter, a few times actually, in very positive ways. I keep thinking that this dream has a meaning, maybe I will see this friend who I haven't seen for a while.

[Dream 2: Not the usual]

I was at pizza hut and I was getting a pizza with my dad, I kept thinking how odd this was because I'm a very healthy eater and I wouldn't usually go do something like this. We were in the line and there were these special breads they were selling, I picked up one and ate a bit of it.. just taste like bread. My Dad told me off because he said we might have to buy them now, but in the end we didn't.

[Dream 3: Prize race]

This place I was in looked like the map terminal from CoD. There were these arcade machines around us, and there was a competition. We were doing races and whoever won would get some sort of prize, nobody knew what the prize was but I remember there being names of bands on the machine as a clue or something like that. We were against some other players, I recognized some of these people from my school that we were vsing. One of our team went up to race another member but we didn't have much hope in him, so I took his place, it was the final race so we needed to win for the prize. The race began, I sped off, and completely thrashed the opponent. Not too sure what happened after that

- Getting dressed for assembly
- Only piece of paper in my bag was a DnD character sheet
- people leaving the hall, each with a character sheet of their own
- little sky light
- grey decor

I was walking to Subway, and these girls who I didn't know where dancing and scared me for some reason so I hid. I played a little bit of a video game where you have 5 pieces an hour and you fill in the pieces on a bridge (there was a map of the bridge) and walk across.

I texted H, my friend, and told her to meet me there to hangout. She wasn't like her normal friendly self and she was very cold and rude. She told me she had "grown up" now and no longer liked doing any of her previous hobbies "because she had a man to take care of her now".

I remember I was desperately trying to salvage the friendship (over text), but she ignored me. After that, I logged onto Tumblr and it was completely different. I logged onto H's page and you could tell where the curser of everyone viewing the page was.

Some of the other people on there were making fun of me for "not knowing how to use the site" even though I was using it normally. I contemplated how I would get new followers. I clicked on my comments tab (which was only on this new layout.) and I only had one from someone wanting to now what the monsters' names were on a drawing of cute monsters I did.

I went back to playing my video game, and I started over but the pieces I had filled in were still there. The female character (protaganist) was on a rant about Human racism against mythological creatures. The rant was unusually long for a video game character who wasn't in a cutscene. I woke up.