non-lucid

I was driving along highway 16, away from Langham on the way to Collin's house to jam out. He tells me there is a guy who will be showing up whose name is "Maiden Zebra" (Maiden might have been from Iron Maiden) who will show us some cool stuff on guitar. I start driving along the backroads now, to his place, and at one point, I got his name wrong.


There was more to it, but I forgot most of it when I woke.

This fragment asked the question: Is seasonal hunting cruel?
My dream answer: No.

So I continue my lessons in what is proper as I call them, or another way of looking at it is that my mind is struggling with issues of right and wrong, and checking what is right in my opinion. Not that I am ever going to do seasonal hunting myself, but I don't judge people who do. My mind wanted to verify that. Interesting.

In this dream fragment I remember looking for non-catatonic fish in the petstore, but during the dream also thinking that fish may stand for dreams (!).

Note: This was not a lucid dream, but just another example of a dream about dreaming, which I have been having a lot of.

Also note that Fishkeeping is another hobby of mine, and looking for new fish is a regular occurrence right now (about once a month), since I am in the process of slowly stocking my aquarium. When looking for new fish, one looks for lively ones, and thus non-catotonic kind of makes sense for fish, though it is an odd choice of words.

However if fish stands for dreams, and the choose off odd word matters, here is an online definition of catatonic from word.com website:

"1 : of, relating to, being, resembling, or affected by schizophrenia characterized especially by a marked psychomotor disturbance that may involve stupor or mutism, negativism, rigidity, purposeless excitement, and inappropriate or bizarre posturing

2 : characterized by a marked lack of movement, activity, or expression"

It makes sense that I would look for dreams that are non-catatonic!

Pretty fragmented dream recall from non-lucid naps, also was lucid for a few seconds at the end.

There was something going on about GTA-like game and in game there were some military characters that were saying something about forever being stuck in military. Later there was cook character that was saying that he's forever stuck being cook and that he had to make 95 cakes per day or something.
After that i went to kitchen but it was apparently restaurant. There was lot of very expensive tableware, partially made of gold. The owner of restaurant suggested me to drink alcoholless champagne and gave me one for free. I drank a bit and got completely and utterly drunk, everything was wavy and i could not even drink properly. I somehow got lucid from that, knowing that i am in dream, but was still drunk, also my pants disappeared( ). Dream faded out shortly as well.

Worth noting that i haven't been ever drunk IWL.

I was with C. We were walking through a small town. The setting was unfarmiliar, and the whole town was decorated with Christmas lights and trees, as though people were getting ready for the holidays.
I was talking with C, and telling him about Borderlands 2. I was trying to explain to him the basic story of the game and how the game generates guns, etc etc.
We had been walking and talking for awhile when we came into some kind of park in the center of town. In the center of the park was a large mound of sand. There were young children all over the mound working. It looked as though they were trying to convert the entire mound into one giant sand castle.
I walked around the mound, looking for a way to get onto the top. All around I noticed the walls and towers of the sand castle the children were building. They were so perfectly built. I had thought about going and kicking them down but I didn't want to ruin all their hard work.

I was in a computer lab, I think that it was in a middle school somewhere. The lab had a really high ceiling, white walls and incandescent lights. There was a marker board on the opposite wall, leading me to believe that it was a middle school.
I can't remember what exactly was going on, but I knew that i was some kind of outcast, I wasn't really important to the situation.
I booted up my computer and began looking at applications on it. There wasn't much. Just Firefox, Google chrome, and some Microsoft office programs.
Someone had told me to just sit and be patient, and that I wasn't allowed to download any games or anything onto the computer. But after I had been sitting there for awhile, I got very bored, and downloaded Minecraft onto the computer.
When I started playing Minecraft, I spawned in some kind of swamp or bog area. There were alot of trees. There were also some objects that were never present in the actual game, like these thinner types of trees that were not a whole block thick.
I got "sucked into" the game and was given an axe. Although minecraft continued to look normal, the axe I had was very realistic, and I used it to cut down some of the trees as I explored the area.
I woke up not long after I had began exploring Minecraft.

For once again, nice dream recall.

Dream 1:

Don't recall much about start of the dream, but there was some Third Person Shooter/Shmup hybrid game that people don't really liked but i decided to try it anyways. There was a team of five anime girls that basically were player characters and main part of game was third person shooter with platforming elements, but bosses were being fought like Danmaku Shmup bosses.
Shortly i got distracted from game and was having problem that my mouse wasn't working, but after really heated discussion/arguing with everyone in the room i got it fixed.
Back to the game, i was searching for some secret boss and eventually found activation hidden in some storage behind some green containers. The boss was some sort of black helicopter with green markings, i was waiting for shmup mode to start up, but it got delayed so i had to hide player character from boss for a while. Soon other helicopter(grey with red markings) arrived and this 'activation' sequence started: The player character girl sent signal to girl that was piloting the just arrived helicopter, she then sent it to other girl that was in mobile radar machine of sorts, which sent it to girl that was actually piloting spaceship, which then arrives and shmup mode starts. Dream ended shortly after that.

Dream 2:

I was playing some sort of new version of video game named Spiral Knights. Don't recall much of start of the dream but there was this new mission available which could be played once per day like other 'event' missions and had random Shadow Lair material as a reward in the end(Really rare material in game IWL). I decided to play it then sell material later. The mission was happening in some electrical place/factory and it wasn't really hard, i was playing with two other people, don't recall much about it either because of dream skips or just not much recall.
Soon i was at the end of the mission, and the end area looked alot like and had atmosphere of aurora islands area type from actual game, there was not much in terms of enemies obviously, i recall only having to deal with a few beasts, other than that there should have been that shadow lair material. I haven't found it and the other two people apparently were disconnected, i for some reason had to go to haven(central hub location in game) asap so i just disappointingly left. After doing some stuff in haven i noticed that the there was option to rejoin that mission.
I rejoined it and noticed that two other people were back, they facepalmed at me and said that material was literally at the entrance of the area. And there it was, a bit to the side from entrance gate in the niche, how i could not notice it before? It was some weird material that i haven't seen in the game before though, icon for it looked like some white symbol on cyan background, i didn't checked it's name though. Also now there was also another elevator down, i was out of mist energy(Free energy used to go down elevators) but i noticed that i apparently had around 5k of crystal energy(Energy that is bought, can be used for elevators as well), i decided to go for it.
It got us to some peaceful area and there was some puzzle with blocks. Other two players were beyond it already somehow and were challenging me to complete the puzzle 'hard way'. Can't recall much about how puzzle worked but it was something with destroyable blocks and blocks that disappear, either way i surprisingly easy done it the hard way and now was in the area.
At this point dream switched into first person mode like i was actually in game. Also i noticed that the first player that was in team was using some unknown to me white-ish armor and the other used newbie armor. Newbie dude called me 'black man' for some reason. I took a look around and it seems this place was made just for fun, there was some super bouncy area and some arsenal building and some other things that i can't recall. For some reason arsenal building was pickupable(it was turning into box of sorts), so i decided to pick it up and throw it into super bouncy area, it started bouncing around and that was pretty ridiculous.
Suddenly dream transitioned into me throwing blanket at the speakers, but after a few attempts i was back in game.
Shortly the white armor dude asked me if i could trade him that material, i said that price is around 20k crowns(Currency in Spiral Knights). I said that i sold gremlonium(One of the shadow lair materials) at that price before, so i am not going to make it much lower than that. I also asked him how much crowns he has anyways, but he gave me 'perfect snowball' material for some reason and said that it's actually edible! I was about to eat it but the dream ended.

There was a star system, and there was a habitable planet with another habitable moon orbiting it. It was the future. The year was probably 2162. This dream took place in this time period. The moon was predicted, that in a couple of days, it would impact the planet. The military had proposed a plan to save their planet from the moon. They were going to push it away from the planet and destroy it. Now how they could do this, I don’t know. The second day, I witnessed a smaller impact from an asteroid. The asteroid impact was catastrophic. It didn’t wipe out the planet though. I witnessed this impact from a orbital station above the planets atmosphere. There technology was advanced greatly in this period. The dream faded. This concludes my dream.

There was a star system, and there was a habitable planet with another habitable moon orbiting it. It was the future. The year was probably 2162. This dream took place in this time period. The moon was predicted, that in a couple of days, it would impact the planet. The military had proposed a plan to save their planet from the moon. They were going to push it away from the planet and destroy it. Now how they could do this, I don’t know. The second day, I witnessed a smaller impact from an asteroid. The asteroid impact was catastrophic. It didn’t wipe out the planet though. I witnessed this impact from a orbital station above the planets atmosphere. There technology was advanced greatly in this period. The dream faded. This concludes my dream.

Some guy was tearing up my car trying to show me what happens when an accident is caused. He was trying to show me that what I did caused the damage, but it was actually him doing it. At some point he couldn't even break the wheel like he wanted to, and I was just sitting there thinking "I didn't do crap to my car, you better fix this".

I had another where I was in some medical class. Everyone was talking about oral and pharyngeal airways. Some reason I was wrong, and I felt like I wasn't ready. I left class, and came home. I saw two pairs of old shoes out in my yard. I was going to wash them and wear them the next day.

In my dream my husband is out of town (as he is in real life).

In my dream I asked a coworker out on a date, and he happily accepted.

See this is a perfect example of why I want to lucid dream. This is not who I am in waking life. This is not who I want to be. This is not who I choose to be.

Yes, I am lonely when my husband is out of town I get it.
I will also admit that I like this coworker ... as a coworker, as a buddy, as someone to share ideas with and to joke with.

Infidelity is a big no-no for me, and I also get that my mind therefore decided to present me with this scenario to shock me, to tell me "See I know how to push your buttons." Here is something that would really bother you.

But we already knew that! We already knew that I am struggling with self-esteem issues and with taking control over who I want to perceive myself as and deciding what is proper.

This however I know is not proper. And I refuse to think that I "need" this, so subconscious fuck off! I am going to relearn lucid dreaming, and make sure that I get to decide what I do and what is right for me.

If I am so fucking lonely tonight, why not give me a dream of my husband instead. That would have been nice, ok? But no, my subconscious, you decided to play games with me. Well, I don't appreciate that!

In an hour I need to get up and go to work and face this coworker, and forget that my subconscious asked him out on a date.

Frqgment: In my dream a real life acquaintance mine whom I usuelly see about twice a year were in a dream competition of sorts.

She was trying to learn how to "suck out" the nightmare part out of dreams.

I was trying to learn how to "suck out" lucidity out of dreams.

Upon waking I was struck by the odd use of the word "suck out". Did we mean like a succabus?

Meanwhile, my son was the one who had woken me up (at 2:30am) saying that his leopard and some other plush toy were stuck together and he did not know how it happened. I suggested he bring them to me, and I would look into it. He said he did not know where they were. Realizing that what was bothering was probably a dream fragment, I suggested he go back to sleep, and we would look for them in the morning.

I was non lucid, but i was with my sister playing some game in which one person lead a team to the other side of a set of courses. we had to defeat a boss at the end.

3,4,13

I'm riding in a car, and J is in the back seat with some girl who's supposed to be her daughter...J has a mustache, and I'm like "wow I'm glad I'm not with her now, she has really fallen off" to myself. Her kid looks to be about 6 or 7 and she's talking really dirty....about "sucking cock" or something. And I'm just like WHUCK!?

So the dream ends, and I'm in ISP...I don't even think about moving...totally gonna be a DEILD right? No....freak HI gets silly. Not the demon succubi silly, but the "my dads new GF comes into the room and sits on the bed. I can feel the bed slump down, and hear ha conversation with her daughter. What the fuck are they doing here!? I break it only to find out, I was just hearing things.

Dream recall from non-lucid naps.

Nap #1:

I was in the desert, searching for something, then i find some place. Suddenly huge cactuses rise from the ground and i start falling.
I wake up in the bed but room looks different, dream fades out as soon as i move for an reality check.

Nap #2:

I was playing some Warzone 2100 multiplayer with LV, we played coop versus 2 AI bots. Game got weird in a way that alot of defense structures were being built by everyone, literally walls of towers and stuff, and we were only at the start of the game. AI was building even faster somehow(cheating?) they had literally bases twice as huge after a while. Then LV got disconnected and i continued playing without noticing it, only to be overwhelmed by AI building towers and bunkers literally near my base in masses. Later i noticed that LV disconnected and shortly...
I wake up in the bed, room looked normal but there was weird stuff in the mirror(i didn't paid attention to that in the dream though), i was about to do my usual reality check, but suddenly huge pressure was coming from everywhere and there was very loud noise was in my head. Dream ended shortly.

I fell asleep last night at around 1am and had a regular dream or two. Woke up at 5am and stayed up for about 10-15 minutes and went back to bed. My final waking time was 8:30am. Basically last night I had kind of an unintentional wbtb. In the time during my second sleep I had a couple, long non-lucid dreams. Just a side note: I have not been doing any rc's lately or anything besides having a thought or two of LD'ing in the back of my head daily. The night before last I was having a dream when I just randomly said to myself, "I am dreaming" and that triggered quick lucidity but as soon as I realized it, the dream had faded to black. I am not counting that as an official lucid although I am impressed with myself for getting to that point. That night I also had an unintentional wbtb, as I had fallen asleep on the couch and went to my bed later in the night.

So here I am, in my non-lucid dream. I am standing on some bedrock looking at all the waterfalls that stretch down the horizon. It is dusk outside. The dream is vivid and clear. I see a billboard at the top of one waterfall closest to me, thinking "why the hell would someone put an ad here?"

Anyway, I looked around for a few more seconds and randomly just say to myself "I am dreaming". I get that awesome rush you get when you find out that you're dreaming and run and jump off the bedrock into the water below. Below the surface it gets darker and darker the deeper I go until I'm falling into black space. All of a sudden I'm completely still. I open my eyes and I'm back in my bed. The room is completely dark and for a moment I'm thinking I really did just wake up. I lean up and see an industrial white light on the wall by my bed, which is not there in WL. Without question, or doing any rc's, I know this is still a dream. I get up slowly, pulling the cover off. I sit on the edge of my bed for a few seconds thinking about how my goal in this dream is to anchor myself in and engage all five senses as much as possible. Idk why but I put it off and got up and dug through my drawer for something but I dont recall what it was that I was looking for. After that I pace around my black room for a minute or two. For some reason I felt very tired and my eyelids were heavy. I was fighting the urge to close my dream eyes for the fear I'd lose the dream and wake up. I decided to do a rc just to see what my hands looked like in the dream. They looked normal, but my focus was zooming in and out, clarifying then blurring, like a camera trying to focus. Through the dream I never let myself forget I was dreaming, and that seemed to keep me in longer. I then Looked at my phone to see what funky characteristics it had. I turned on the screen and a red samsung came up with weird quotation marks, like "SAMSUNG" and then something appeared below it. I figured, fair enough. I walked around my room a bit more feeling sluggish and half asleep. I finally had closed my eyes.

A couple seconds passed and I opened them slowly, hoping to be in the dream still. But what I see is daylight instead of solid darkness, and I can see everything in my room. I lean up to do a rc. My hands look normal, none of that zoomy shit. I plug my nose and can't breath. Great, I'm awake! I decided to get up and write everything down in my dream journal. This LD lasted about 5 minutes. My record before this was 20 seconds. Talk about improvement!! This time though I didn't just take off and fly and wake myself up out of the excitement, keeping my cool worked.

I'm kinda impressed with myself for have lucid instances in the last two nights. I'm sure they had to do with my wbtb's. It seems all I gotta do is say "I'm dreaming" and voila. I will do wbtb's the next couple nights and see how it works out.