non-lucid

8-7-12 -- Find myself at mom's new apartment, though I have no idea how I got there. Have let myself in with my key and am looking around downstairs, but no sign of mom. I do hear her calling out to somebody about needing lunch or something, and suddenly find a computer that still has something on the screen ordering delivery from Checkers.

I see a staircase and start to head upstairs. It has extra braces and such, and seems to be reinforced, but it is still kind of unstable. I climb most of the way up, and come to a place where there is a beam running across the entire width of the stairs right at hand rail height, and I am trying to figure out if you are supposed to climb over it or under it. I glance to where the stairway connects to the second floor, and there is a wall there with a gap of maybe 10 inches. I might be able to squeeze through this, but mom never could! I am trying to figure out what is going on here.

That's when mom calls to me from the first floor, and explains to me that I am on the wrong staircase. They had to put a new one in for her to make use of, and it blocked off the old one. So I am going to have to climb back down this rickety staircase which is turning into more of a ladder as I start to turn around. The supports are starting to pull out of the wall, and the entire thing is about to collapse when I kind of half step, half drop off it and onto the ground in the kitchen.

Mom leads me around to the other staircase and upstairs. The 'staircase' is made of overlapping metal bits, and it moves. It doesn't form stairs like an escalator, but instead looks like one of the luggage carousels at the airport, except it leads upstairs. I guess I caught mom in the shower, because she is wearing a towel. Because of this, I can tell she has lost a lot of weight. She is still fat, but probably no more than 200 pounds, as opposed to the 400 pounds that she used to weigh.

Now we're upstairs, and she tells me she may have forgotten to let me know, but she has now gotten a roommate, Donna Peeler's daughter, and she is teaching another young woman (who looks kind of like Torri) to become a clown. [This is kind of odd, since my mom died before I ever got into the whole clown thing.] As I step into the room I am practically accosted by the first of perhaps a dozen cats who wants to be petted.

I keep coming across more and more cats, all in good health and well-groomed, each with beautiful coats, and all with different colors and probably at least three or four different breeds of cats. Gorgeous animals, and all very friendly and wanting attention.

Mom is complaining that she can't get anybody to come around and do any gardening work, even for pay, and I am asking if she misses the guy who came by and did the lawns on Hickory. I can't remember his name, but I am trying Fowler and Fletcher. Fletcher sounds right. [In truth, I can't even remember the name in real life anymore. Been too many years.] Anyway, mom keeps teaching clown make-up to the one gal, and Peeler's daughter is walking around half-dressed, and I can't help but notice she's kind of cute.

The Occult

IWL, I study nutrition. Tocopherols are a class of chemical compounds of which many have vitamin E activity.

I dreamed there was an occult called Tocepherol. There were a bunch of people hanging around outside a building. They were all chanting some bullshit. There was a wind storm brewing.

I started kind of making fun of them. I got a tree branch and held it above me. I ran up to them. I had to jump from a 3 foot wall down into their little courtyard. At the edge of the wall, I saw them all walking slowly in a oval as was the shape of the courtyard, or they were just shuffling around stupidly here or there.

The wind was picking up. I saw trees swaying in the night wind. I was back a ways again and had a nice long tree branch. As I ran up, I positioned my branch to be comfortable in my hand and to have proper effect. It was long and looked impressive.

I ran up screaming and mocking them. As I screamed, I was trying to make the wind pick up, and it did. I saw tree limbs snapping. It only added to the effect of me screaming with my tree branch which also snapped in half because it was rotten.

I finally jumped down into the courtyard. There were people joining the occult and people leading it. The people joining had drawn little scribble monster things to show how they believed.

There was a guy and a gir. The girl wore a dress. The guy was saying something about how someone as going to do something like screw something into someones throat, or many people were going to do this ritual. The girl said that if anyone was going to do that, it might as well be a girl.

I thought this was the wrong logic unless you were buying into the occult. I didn't bother to tell them that. I was getting an inside look at this occult and it was getting serious. The screwing into the throat thing had a name, but I can't remember what it was.

I started walking around and mixing with the locals. Everyone was brainwashed. I met one guy who didn't really get it. I asked what he was going to do and he said he was going to go inside. I think I advised against that. Inside was the next level in and it was even harder to get out of the occult. They would try to keep you in.

I did go in, but only because I wanted to see what was going on, and I knew they weren't going to brainwash me; when I went in though, it was hard to get out. The leaders had the exit kind of blocked just by sheer volume of people.

I would go out of this room and come back in for some reason, but going back out got harder each time.

I ended up with a bag of something. There was a candle that I couldn't get to stay lit. the wick was in the wax, so I was trying to let the wax melt away from the wic so it would burn higher. Somehow the candle shown on a girl in th bag. It made sense in the dream. The girl was naked and I wanted to get a better view of her.

Now everyone was getting ready to do something for the occult. There was an attractive girl getting ready. She was naked, but she was covered in wax. She was really brainwashed. She was going in to be fucked by someone, or to be burned, or both. Then she caught fire from her right leg. She didn't seem to care.

Then one of the leaders or something--he started telling me and the other guy who wasn't really buying this crap, a story about one of the other leaders. This guy said that the other guy hand taken his two best girs and (accidentally) burned them to ashes, and he would talk to other girls, and taking a little of their ashes, he would say, "This is an ace" or "This is an ace of spaids." Then he would give the ash to the girl he was talking to.

It was time to get the Hell out of there. I talked to this one guy and asked what he was going to do. He said, "I guess I'll bribe the Sherrif!" The guy hadn't done anything, but that would sure make it seem as though he had.

I just left, but I don't know if I got out of the courtyard. It was like I could check out anytime I wanted, but I could never leave. I actually could once I got out of that room, but now the courtyard was hard to leave also.

GF

I was on a beach looking at a huge wave. Some people were surfing. I mentioned that I had surfed waves like that in Melbourne (FL) on the eve of hurricane Hugo. I did surf that day iwl, but it was nothing like the wave in my dream.

I ended up going to this one girls house. They had chickens. I mentioned that I have a chicken coup half built out. She said she was selling one. I asked how much. She thought for a minute and said, $700.00. I forgot what I said, but I mentioned it would be hard to get it back to my state. Later she offered it for $600.00

We went further in the house and I saw her dad. He was looking at repairs that were needed. There was a very narrow hall. One wall looked like an extra wall that wasn't necessary. At the end, I looked around it. Down a long flight of steps was a dark, basement. There was debris like rock and dust at the bottom. It was a good, spooky basement.

The girls father said something about what they needed to do to the basement.

I left the house with the girl. I was in my underwear, but it looked like swim trunks. I asked if she liked how I was just walking around in my underwear.

Dream Skip

I'm with a girl. She was a girl I went out with a couple times iwl, but it just wasn't right--at all. She had asked about us. I had to tell her it was over but I didn't want to hurt her.

I said, "We had fun, didn't we?"

She knew what that meant. She started to cry a little. I didn't say anything else because there was no need. I held her hand.

Now I'm in a car with her and someone else. I'm looking at the girl. I can't take my eyes off her. She looks a little different now and is very cute. Her hair is brown instead of black. Then she has grey streaks in her hair. She's still really cute.

The girl is gone and I'm in the car with a guy who's telling me how he was once driving this VW Bug in disrepair. He said it was only going about 5 mph once while he was on the phone. I told him I had a dream of the occult last night. I remembered the dream I had 3 hours ago in this dream.

We pass a business where they are holding a birthday party for someone. The guy says he would like to get with the girl who wants to do 45 hits of GBS. I look and ask, "Which one?"

He says, "I'll show you." He turned into the driveway, and now I'm with my friend MJ. He drives up and tries to drive through the owners of the business who turns us away. It's a private party. She knows we are up to no good and says, "Sticks and stones can hurt" or something like that.

My friend turned around, and as we were about to pull out of the property, he slowly raises his finger to point the girl out. I told him not to be so obvious.

Driving a Charger

I was with two girls in their Dodge Charger. It was a '67 or so. I was driving it about 80 mph on the highway. It was really shaky. When I saw a car on the side of the road, I had to slow down because I couldn't tell if it was a cop or not.

[COLOR="royalblue"]Non-Aware (Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="blue"]Partially Aware (Lucid Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="navy"]Fully Aware and Vivid (Astral Projection(OOBE)[/COLOR]

I uhm... had a fight with my dad. I like conspiracy theories and the paranormal stuff, it doesn't mean I believe in it all just that I am interested by it. I told him about some lucid dreaming and I already noticed that he didn't liked what he heard, but he didn't say anything. Then I watched the coolest documentary I have ever seen. Have you ever wondered why the moon is always in black and white on NASA photographs? Well according to the movie CELESTIAL by Jose Escamilla they are hiding something. Haha typical conspiracy talk"What they don't want us to know :cheeky:" But since I haven't been to the moon myself or have seen it in color through a telescope I can of course not believe fully that it is true, so I just admired the moon in color since it is the closest celestial to earth. Very beautiful!

My dad didn't liked my amazement he started to yell about science as the only right thing blablabla and he said stuff like "So do you think these old men doing movies on the internet is smarter than Nobel price winners??"
No dad... but they obse INTERRUPTED "On the sunside of the moon there is 400 * C can life survive there?" No dad I just wanted to show you the moon in color take it ea.. INTERRUPTED "Do you not trust the government, son you got to be a little more critical" I SNAP "So this is crazy huh? lucid dreaming is crazy huh? You know what You believe in GOD how is that not as crazy then?" ( I believe in god too but I had to counter with something...) HE SLAMS THE DOOR :roll:

Here is the documentary that started that fight, even though I don't believe everything it is a good entertainment:
[CENTER][url]http://moonrising-themovie.com/[/url][/CENTER]

I went to bed angry, but I still did the last CD on the Gateway Experience called - Living Body Map.
I was imagining my body in a white outline changing it to red, blue, yellow and orange as I did this I started to become more and more unaware of my physical body and more aware of my visualization. Although this time my dream flashes consisted of anger, so I couldn't concentrate... Tonight I am starting WAVE 3 - Freedom!
And if I am not mistaken I think I am going to practice the sensation of floating!

I eventually fell asleep 01:45 ....

[COLOR="royalblue"]I remember some dream where I were in a library with my friend, but some guy kept annoying us trying to make us fight and in the end my friend pushed him down the stairs. He didn't got hurt but he leaved us alone.
I had more dreams, but my recall was bad this night.[/COLOR]

I don't remember anything, I just remember that I woke up smiling from a dream.

08/06/2012
2AM-10AM

(I had this dream a long time ago, and it was a reoccurring dream for some time, so it really stuck with me)

My friends had picked me up for Friendly’s in a rusty old jeep, and it was very small. There were five of us, and I was in the back right seat. We drove to the top of my street and took a left. I’d hardly ever been that way before, so everything was different than how I now know it to be. There were a lot of pine trees along the right side of the street, but there were also a lot of houses. The ground was covered in orange pine needles. We were getting close to the edge of the end of the street when one of my friends said:
“Man, we’re gonna twist that place up!”
I was confused, because I had no idea what he meant, then I noticed a gun at his side. I understood what they were going to do. Images flashed in my mind of them lighting up a cute little Friendly’s restaurant. I then hopped out of the car as it was moving and they kept going.
This was at a time when I didn’t have a cell phone, so I ran down the street. I was heading to my house, but I saw a yard sale going on, so I went to them. As I was turning into the yard, a tall old man with long hair and a short beard came out from behind one of the trees. He seemed very sinister. He asked for me to follow him, but I said no and went to the people at the yard sale.
“You need to call 911! My friends, they’re gonna shoot people at Friendly’s!”
They were completely oblivious to my existence.
I turned to run back home, Ran down the streets and into the woods. I went through as quickly as possible, but I had this weird feeling that I was being watched. I kept looking up, expecting someone to be in the trees. I then turned around and saw the old man following me, and started running. I got back to my house (which actually looked more like my aunt’s house), and my dad was in the kitchen getting supper ready (but they’ve been divorced since forever). I started to walk into the living room.
My dad quickly said, “Watch out, we’ve got someone over painting the living room.”
I went in and up on a step ladder, in a greyish teal jumpsuit, was the old man. He turned and smiled at me. I screamed and went to the kitchen to grab a knife, but then I saw my dad.
The dishwasher was open, and he was bent, leaning over it, impaled with the silverware. I turned around and the old man was right there, with a knife. He went to stab me, but I grabbed his arm. We struggled for a bit, but I turned the knife on him and cut his throat. My mom came in and grabbed the knife from his hands. I could tell something was different about her. She began to chase me around the house, but I found one of those plastic shovels that come with buckets, for kids at the beach. We were in the dining room (not really significant, but whatever) and I turned around.
“You’re not my real mom!”
Then, in a very creepy, multiple-voices-at-a-time voice, she said “Oh, but I am!”
I concluded that she was possessed, and hesitantly shoved it into her chest as hard as I could. It didn’t go too deep, but she started bleeding. She then collapsed, dead. I started crying, because even though I probably just killed a demon, I’d killed my mom along with it.

Moral of the story: Don't get sidetracked, a lot of people probably died at that Friendly's.

8/5(2) I am in my house at night and we need to wash our clothes, but we are doing it in a weird way where we put one piece of clothing in a at a time in a machine shaped like a traffic light. There were two of them. While this was going on I was also waiting to here what part I got in a movie. I find out that I will be in a movie called something like Basketball III V VIII I IV

8/5 I was at a place like the kingdom sports complex playing basketball but there was offsides like in soccer. It started storming a ton. Tons of roads were cut off. I was riding with my grandparents on my dads side home. In the town there was a huge bride that was partway flooded over so we got on foot now. Then I was with some of my friends. we were walking across the bridge. One of them fell I tried to save them but the said they were just taking a swim so it was fine. Then we were walking and Sarah was siting on a swing crying so I asked what was wrong. She said that she broke up with Carl because he was being a jerk.

8/4(2) I was in this house and we were trying to sole some type of mystery. We were looking for this criminal in the house. There were also a lot of these giant gummy bears every where. I thought that if I went to all of them and clicked my thumb as if I was hitting a button on a ps3 controller, it would do something like an easter egg in call of duty zombies. The house was setup like a zombies map because there were like 2 passage ways to choose from in the beginning. Some rooms were in black and white and in some the light switches did not work well. I was in the main room with 3 other people. One of them was Mr. Jabir. So we were trying to find the guy and Mr. Jabir said that he heard something in this chest in the corner. So I went and hit it then opened it and punched out of reaction. There was an old guy in it and I broke his glasses. The police came and hand cuffed him and then Morgan, the black guy from Criminal Minds, came to interrogate him. I went around to click the rest of the gummy bears but nothing happened.

06.08.2012

I'm a Dancer (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember being a dancer in a huge dance company. Instead of large rooms where people practiced, it looked like we practiced on a gated field full of sand. I remember having a partner. He was oddly familiar, and had brown or black hair. He was a surprisingly good dancer.

Whenever we practiced, some sort of light shown on places I should put my hands and feet at for the next dance move and where I should be positioned. I told my dance partner that I was afraid I would do horribly in the competition without those lights. He told me that it would be easier than i thought.

At some point during the dance, my partner and I transitioned to a dance move where I jumped onto him and did a handstand on his shoulders, so that I was upside down in te air. I was holding (or rather pushing) on his shoulders and he was holding onto mine. We had to keep that pose for a couple of seconds but had trouble keeping it.

Towards the end of the dream I remember that my focus was "switched" off of me to one of my friends. Meaning it was like I was seeing what this friend was seeing and thinking what she was thinking.

Somehow I went up missing (my body did). I still had the viewpoint of my friend. She brought her other friends to go look for me. Eventually, they found me under a pile of sand. In the dream I thought that I was either trying to suffocate myself or someone dropped sand onto me.

I can't remember the rest of the dream.

06.08.2012

Lonely (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember a fragment of one of my dreams. I remember being angry at my two sisters about something in the dream, and it made me feel lonely. I remember carrying my laptop up to my room (it was actually my old room in the dream) and putting it down on the bed. I was frustrated also about the summer reading I had to get done.

That was when I was shocked awake by some thunder.

8/4 I was with all the football players and they were saying how some of the players have to stay till 2 am instead of 12 am. Two freshmen were talking about hanging out with my sister shelby and her friend Margret.

I was at a mountain at building on 3rd floor. I seem on a trip and the building I was on looked like a temple. When I saw inside it was dark. So I was standing alone in the outside and it was so cold. (It's cold because I on a fan before slept but I didn't realise it )

When it's time to get down, people on the ground told me to just jump.

At first I want to climb down the rusty pillar on my left but didn't confidence that I could do it. Again people on the ground encourage me to jump. They even prepare something like mattress below. So I jump. Eyes close.

Only to open them again when I could gently and gracefully landing.

'Wow, I'm not hurt. My legs not hurt.' I thought to myself.

Then I join my group waiting for the bus to arrive.

"Thanks, I was freezing above." I said

We talk about something and I look at my fingers. I saw there was a long and huge ring on one of my finger.

I forgot the rest.

7 august 2012

I had a short dream, extremely vivid.

I walked into my kitchen, and noticed a puddle of water on the floor.
I traced the leaking to a cupboard adjacent, noticing it was dripping slowly.
Upon opening the cupboard, I looked up and saw the leak. It was a large white pipe that curved and went through the top and left sections of the cupboard, in an 90' degree L shape.

However the end of the pipe would have had no end, this should have been my first indication I was dreaming, carrying on...

I don't remember my thoughts, but I guess I was bummed about about the pipe leaking, as you would be.
My first image was my father, I wanted to call him and ask for advice on fixing a leak

like this, and would have done so if I hadn't exited the dream.

I was awoken by a deep breath, or yawn, it wasn't violent, but it was enough to shake me out of the dream.

Funny thing is, when I went into the kitchen to check the cupboard, I found there wasn't even a pipe there at all.

WBTB - Awoke around 7a.m. and went back to bed around 7:45a.m.
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Part 1
I walked through a neighborhood, it was lined with different sororities playing kickball. One threw a ball and hit me in the head. I took my durag off to reval jerry curl like hair. I then started doing flips. I saw a firend of mine on a bike crash into a ditch under a bridge walkway to a house. I helped him out of the ditch. I then tried to get his CD out of the house. When I went the guy in the back controlling the radio yelled at me and said I wasn't suppose to come back there.

Part 2
I made my way to a roof top party. A lot of people I knew from highschool were there. I met aliengirl and we were still good friends. I then went to go chill with C.B. while we were chatting somone was trying to diss me, but C.B. stood up for me.
I then had on football gear. The jersey was dark green and our mascot was a duck. We were then at some kind of award ceremony where everyone gathered together and were all down on one knee. Someone beganthe Lord's Prayer. -Gets fuzzy here and I awoke.


****Side Notes
I now know 3 of my dream signs
-Flipping
-Significant Bikes or me riding one
-Me being a football player

I will be more consistent on my dream journal.

I was trying to survive during zombie apocalypse. I was trying to protect some kids and some would not listen. I tried to fight this one really buff zombie. I used a bed mattress to shield myself against him. Then I tried to use his bike to ride away. He came up beind me and almost caught me.

Non-Dream Dream Lucid Dream

Dream 1:

I am in a very evil place. I am not sure if I belong here as I am kind of on the fence between being good / evil. It looks like an apartment complex being renovated. I have an absolutely amazing stripper all to myself. She has dark hair and is very tall. She tells me that she works directly with the big boss so I can have her always (?!?).

Dream 2:

I am at some wedding in a casino where two groups are sharing the same reception area. The bride (a young black woman) comes up to me and says "I'm doing two dances today: one with my dad and one with you." I get up and leave when she turns away because I don't want to dance in front of everyone.

I find some people after walking away from the wedding and I start teaching them how to fly. The act of flying renders me lucid. They ask if you have to flap your arms like wings and I say "it helps at first but it is not necessary." Then I show them that I can do it without flapping my arms. I start losing the dream so I yell "clarity" but it is too late.

Dream 3:

I am playing a very strange card game with lots of clubs - I recall having a King and Ace of clubs in one hand. My brother beats everyone with a pair of 8's. MF from work is in the game too. There are tons of strippers / hookers.

Dream 4:

I am in high school I think and I'm at a party. I am wearing some fat guys incredibly smelly jacket and I'm making everyone smell it. I think there might have been some drug use in the dream.