non-lucid

I am at a mall, the reason I am there I completely forgot. For some reason or another, I do a reality check by looking at some dots on the wall, looking away, and looking back at them. Well, even if it was not words, it worked and I became lucid.

After that I decided to not jump into any activities yet, and tried to concentrate more on making my lucid more stable, longer, and clearer. So, I first began by walking very slowly and observing every small bit of detail I saw in the dream world with all my senses. As much as transforming into a wolf came across my mind, I knew these LD exercises were far more important to me.

I looked at a small railing next to an escalator, and looked closely. The light reflected off the chrome railing beautifully. I sat there and tried to smell anything, but I could not smell a damn thing. I figured that was weird, as I have smelled things in my LDs in the past. I thought that maybe my brain assumed malls smell like nothing.

In order to stabilize my LD further, I decided to reach into my pocket to grab a stress ball to squeeze in order to exercise my sense of touch. However, when I reached down to put my hand in my pocket... I had no pockets. All I had was my boxers on. I tried to further summon a stress ball in my hand but it refused to appear. After that, the dream got real fuzzy and I woke up in the middle of the night.


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Next dream involved me going to some costume party. I decided to grab a Predator costume I had.

Fast-forward: I am at the party when I realize I don't have the head/mask to my Predator costume. The people at the college party start to stare, and I begin t feel judged.

Note: Was furious at myself for not trying to DEILD, spinning, or rubbing my hands yet again. I know it works because I have done it in prior lucids, I have just forgotten to for some reason. Even when attempting to stabilize my lucids, they are cut off even shorter. May be due to either me thinking about being asleep too much, or it being the end of that certain REM cycle for the night.

06.26.2010

Dream Fragment #5 (Macauly Culkin + Toaster) (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It was a veeery long movielike dream, but I can't remember anything else than this little scene.

Me and someone else went into a big room, in which were a lot of chairs standing in lines. We sat near the front, because we were about to the an actment or a movie.
As we sat there, the other guy whispered to me, that Macauly Culkin would sit behind us.
I turned around and saw him sitting there. He looked just like in the movie "Good Son" and he had a silver toaster on the chairon his right.

06.25.2010

Fight about the screen quality (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was at Patricks and we watched TV. The screen quality was very bad. I said to him: "My father will buy a new TV soon for us. It will be as big as yours, but it got a way better screen quality."
Patrick was kinda pissed and answered: "You know, that the TV's which you buy, never are as good as they, which you see in the shop, right?"

Not much going on lately.

I had a dream about a friend I haven't seen in like 14 years, Roy.. I have no idea why. Its not like I saw him recently or was talking or thinking about him or anything. In the dream, M insisted I give him a ride but I didn't want to. I was busy playing video games.

1. My research station colleagues are heading to a lecture on the different layers of the sun, but I am too busy to go. I need the information for a future test, so I manage to get a handout with lecture notes on it (failed RC). I work for a good bit and get tired, so I take a break. I get on my computer and go to YouTube, where I start to watch videos from Renaissance festivals.

I find a video from the start of the Ohio Renfest, taken from the Queen's box for a panoramic viewpoint. An old man delivers a witty poem about mortality and time, then the crowd separates into four factions grouped by color. At the man's signal, they begin a massive LARP battle, and after the dust clears the blue team is victorious. The old man then continues his poem, ending with the line "Watch out for that grandfather clock!" He then roleplays his own death very convincingly.

Somewhere in all of this, my viewpoint has transferred into 1st person on the grounds of the Renfest. As I walk away from the old man, I run into MB. She's dressed in blue, but her face is very red and I can see she has been crying. She greets me sadly but without any great surprise, even though I haven't seen her in many months. I ask why she's crying, and she says "We were supposed to meet at 6:30. It's 7:30." She then walks away, saying she isn't OK.

2. I'm in an alternate-universe Chicago university, where my band is preparing itself for a benefit concert. It's something to promote world peace, as in this universe the Cold War is still boiling. The concert doesn't help, and soon the Cold War erupts. My band escapes from the city as radio reports tell of millions dying.

Frags

NOTES

park, waves, football

bus stop

creepy albino eyes

FU ONION EYES

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staring through a silvery wormhole

Moon on the other side

1- Target Reality Show
I viewed this scenario from a third-person POV. There are four people working in Target, and they are not allowed to leave. After many hours of alone time in the store, one of them beings to have a nervous breakdown. Everyone tells her to settle down, and she starts yelling at herself. "If they find out I'm crazy, they'll put me in a shell!" She keeps repeating this through her sobs. The others begin to yell as well. I'm not sure, but I think Angela Lansbury is narrating the show.

2- Phoebe, Cher, and Flooding
I am at a party, and I don't know anyone. The host is Shelly, but I can't find her anywhere. My iPod is playing on speakers in the middle of the room, and I'm staring out of the balcony trying to look unapproachable as to avoid any awkward conversation. The other guests assemble on a rug and turn on the television. I turn my iPod off and watch from behing a couch. Phoebe from Friends is on the screen and everyone is laughing. I learn that they all know her personally, and she couldn't be at the party tonight because she was making an appearance on TV.

I am at Phoebe's house now, but I am not myself. I am Cher, who, according to my dream, was a character on friends. It is dark. Phoebe isn't home yet, and I have to pee. When I flush the toilet, the water overflows. It is building up around my ankles! I open the bathroom door and water spills into the foyer. "Phoebe is going to kill me!" I say to myself. The water continues to rise, so I open the screen door. The deluge flushes onto the porch. I start to kick the water onto the lawn, but it is taking too long. I can hear Phoebe entering through the back door. I realize I am naked, and I don't want her to see me. "Now she'll really think I'm insane!" I run across the lawn and Phoebe opens the door. I am caught. "Cher, what the hell?!" She yells at me and calls someone to repair the damages.

3- The Sarah Silverman Presentation
I am in my room preparing for school. On the floor are three beautiful posters for a project that is due the next day. I am very happy that my homework is complete.

The next day I walk into class and there aren't enough seats. Other students who did not find seats as well are gathered in a corner, so I join them. When the teacher comes in, she gives us extra chairs. One boy who was leaning against a whiteboard decides he'd rather sit on that than a chair, so he tries to rip the whiteboard off the wall. I can't tell if he is joking, or if he is just stupid.

Oh, crap! I don't remember bringing my posters!! I take a seat and open my bag. They are there! Thank God. I lay them out on my desk. I'm not sure what the project was, but my posters don't look like anything school related. One of them has drawings of two people dancing, another has a series of silhouetted buildings. William is sitting kitty-corner from me and compliments them. I thank him, and turn them in. When the teacher leaves the room, the lights go out and Sarah Silverman appears on the screen at the front. This is part of my presentation. "Actually," I think to myself, "I don't believe we are supposed to present these, but I know everyone is going to love this!"

When the video is over, there is a silence. I clear my throat and say in a quiet voice, "Sarah Silverman is a comedian. Everyone thinks she is dumb, but she's actually quite intelligent." The class murmurs in amazement and I am pleased with myself.

4- The Lucid
I am in a dark basement, and at the end there is a door standing ajar with a ray of light leaking into the room. With my hands against the light, I do a random RC. My left hand is missing my ring finger, and my right hand has six. I'm dreaming! Forgetting to stabalize, I walk through the door into what appears to be a laser tag arena. The heavy fog makes it hard to see. I think to myself "Increase clarity!", but not much happens. I figure that if I say it out loud, it might be more effective, but I am afraid to speak. Or I've forgotten how.

I approach a small glowing box. There is a screen on the top, and in order to read it, I have to put my face almost against it. There is a countdown, and it wants me to press something. I'm not sure what to do, so I hit it. A door opens, behind which are clear plastic strips hanging from the ceiling like the entrance to a meat freezer. Inside is a man standing in a hall facing me. I try to increase clarity, but I am losing lucidity. This is when I wake up.

We were at James' house. There were a lot of people crashing in different rooms. In the morning we stuffed a bunch of corpses into the trunk of his car. I went through the McDonald's drive through and they gave me the wrong order. Instead of chicken selects I got a cheeseburger. I could taste it in my dream - the ketchup and pickles. Disgusting.

Fucking random, but the symbolism is the same that it always is. I'm not taking care of myself, something in my life is lacking, I'm dead inside, etc. It's great that my sub conscience is pointing this out to me for the millionth time, but what am I supposed to do about it? What am I supposed to fix or change? I wish that I could find answers in my dreams.

(Aprox. 30min)

Estávamos nos jogos escolares (novamente! Isso está quase virando um DreamSign!). Tinhamos acabado de vencer uma disputa de futsal de 2 x 0. Ficamos assistindo a alguns jogos. Como a copa já havia passado, já sabiamos quais resultados os jogos teriam (embora os jogos do colégio não tivessem nada a ver com os jogos da copa). Tinhamos que esperar mais um jogo para jogarmos novamente. Resolvemos sair e ver os outros jogos. No pátio externo, estava acontecendo outro jogo de futsal, na quadra de queimada. Will aproveitou que houvera uma falta e bateu-a (ele não fazia parte do time, só estava comigo). Ele bateu a falta e fez gol, todos comemoraram, não sei por quê.
Estava quase na hora do nosso jogo, contra a Argentina (???). Fui tentar voltar, mas eu mal conseguia correr, minhas pernas não respondiam direito. Me preocupei pois não sabia se conseguiria jogar dessa forma.
Dentro do ginásio, encontrei Chayene, que disse que deveriamos ganhar nosso próximo jogo. Eu falei que seia complicado (nisso, eu quebrei uma mureta do ginásio sem querer, e estava tentando encaixá-la novamente), pois iriamos enfrentar a Argentina.
Começou o jogo, me lembro apenas de Gabriel no meu time. Eu estava tão desatento do jogo que, quando perguntei se estava 0 x 0, me disseram que estávamos perdendo de 7. ~

Well, I'm brazillian. So, I'm going to write my dreams in portuguese, because it's faster and easier for me.

Old friends - Velhos amigos
(Aprox. 15min)

Ontem, meus amigos da minha escola de música partiram para Xaxim, para participarem de um congresso regional de coral. Com esse fato, sonhei que estava indo me despedir deles.
Ao chegar lá, vi Karol e Drielle (minhas amigas que mudaram de estado no começo do ano, e tenho muitas saudades). Ao vê-las, me emociono muito, e logo corro para abraçá-las. Abracei-as muito emocionado.

I just remembered I had some really vivid, sweet dream sex with this petite Asian DC. Afterward, I'm not sure if she fell asleep or if I had a false awakening, but I was in a hotel room with several other people who were sleeping, and I was sticky, so I remember tiptoeing naked to the bathroom to clean up, and it was a large, gleaming bathroom with a couple stalls and multiple showers.

It's been hard to fall asleep recently, being snapped awake by the slightest sound, but I tried to maintain my mantra: "I will remember my dream".
All of yesterday I had been RCing using my keys which have sticky tape on them, sort of like a totem.

Dream 1:

I'm walking down the main road near my house, with a church friend, when we see a really old-looking house. It wasn't a run-down house, it just looked like it was from a long time ago.

My friend and I go inside and see an old person. At first I felt we shouldn't trust them, but they gave us a plate of food, which we set down on an antique table.

We're both looking around at the antiquities in the dusty living room, when I look under a bed and see lots of blue blankets. I then turn around and see my parents talking to the old person, and I woke up.

Dream 2... sort of

I don't know where I was, but it looked like I was standing inside my eyelid; everything looked like how it does when you close your eyes.

I held my hand up (after reading about the hand RC the previous night) and thought "Whoa, my hand looks weird" then I pull out my keys, as I had been doing the whole day, and the sticky tape wasn't there :O I thought "I must be dreaming!"

Then, just like a few days ago, I seemed to be getting sucked out of my dream, but I tried to mentally grab it and pull it back over me, then I woke up.

Dream 3

My entire school grade was at a mid-sized indoor swimming centre (Australian spelling ) at night.
The place was dimly lit, but everyone was having fun.

I was sitting with my group of friends, talking, when suddenly, out of the blue, one of the girls kisses me! I remember falling over, and the group was yelling in shock, then I woke up.



Yep, not very interesting, but I have read everywhere that I should keep a DJ anyway

Woah! How could I forget my beetle dream!?

2- Giant Beetle
A HUGE beetle is trying to eat my foot. When I say huge, I mean this thing is the size of a dog. It keeps grabbing ahold of my shoe in its monstrous jaws as I desperately kick at it, trying to get it to back off.

This isn't as vivid as my other dreams, mostly because I didn't remember it until after I'd woken up. I tried several WILDs, but none of them seemed to work. Anyway, here's the dream:

It was a sunny day, and I was warm in my grandparents' house (which, unlike places in my other dreams, actually looked like it does in real life). I remember walking into the porch, and seeing four sets of skis - one for me, one for each of my grandparents, and one for my little brother. We left the house, and outside the door was a ski slope.



We were about halfway up, so we needed to take a ski lift to get higher up. It was a very shallow slope (perhaps because my brother has never been skiing before?), and was very easy to do. I can remember turning and going from edge to edge as I went down.

That's where the dream ended.

I've been wanting to incubate a lucid skiing dream for a while now, ever since hearing that lucid dreaming can feel as realistic as the real thing, as well as reading that lucid dreams can act as practice in the real life. Unfortunately, this dream was not lucid. However, I now know that it is possible to incubate a dream, so V-WILD is sounding much more possible. I'll try V-WILDing tonight, and see how it goes.

My recall seems to be getting better, I've been remembering at least 3 dreams a night although they seem to flow into each other and I do have to wake up between them to remember
Here are the 3 I remember from last night - the last one has a cool ending

1) In the early part of this dream someone I know becomes the head of his family like a maphia family only not into crime and not dangerous, it's set in the city i live. I'm driving around in a jeep, when I spot 2 people I know and go 4x4ing towards them. I get out and have a chat with them showing them the difflock on my new jeep which i acquired in my dream but can't remember how. Later I'm at my grandfathers funeral and my aunt and cousins are talking about how difficult it was to grow up with him because he was a difficult man. The dream is now set in the town where I grew up (huge DS right there) I get in an argument with my mom about how she's just climbing on the bandwagon and judging my grandfather unfairly (this is the second time a male ancestor has come up in 2 nights). To make my point stronger I tell my mom how my relationship with my dad isn't great and I end up getting furious and shouting how he hasn't hugged me in 10 years . The dream fades or I wake up.

2) I've been doing some training with young people (which is my line of work) in another city. I encourage them to start small groups and pair them up to do that. I have an argument with 2 of my friends who are the leaders of the group about my teaching style they say it's to unprepared, I'm saying that it's far more effective than their styles. Later we're indoors and there is a hive of huge bees (some-one else was dreaming about bees). My daughter is there and I tell her to stay away from the bees (this is related to me helping move my dads beehive the day before in RL and then hearing his bees left the hive and were in the tree in his garden). Later I go to bed and there is some weird sexual stuff going on (really weird), it involves no sensation for me but the DC is enjoying it.

Snippet this is either from this dream or the next one : I get fired at work and my friend sets the work computers to download a massive porn database, which will fill their harddrives and use up all their bandwidth. Later I feel guilty and ashamed about it and almost get caught for doing it.

3) My friend is riding my bike with me on the back except it's not DS bike like I've got it's a super-bike. We're riding through a rough area of an unknown town. He's riding pretty good. There are security guards and criminals guarding the entrances to different streets. He turns and speeds through an enclosed arean between buildings. As we exit a gang tries to stop us, He swerves around them at speed and continues. They run to try and head us off at the next turn, I tell him to carry on they'll never catch us but he stops and does a half donut and heads back the way we came, I realize that this is a good idea because they've run off to try intercept us. As we pass the area where they were we head towards a raised highway. There is an old man where the gang was holding a stick with a broken bottle taped to the end, we swerve around him and my friend suddenly stops, partly to let me drive and partly to speak to the old man. He approaches the old man cautiously talks to him and then comes running and jumps on the back of the bike. I take off really quickly and we're riding up this highway onramp that winds as it climbs higher. I overcook the fist turn and bump the curb, we continue to accelerate out of control and hit the next curb square on causing us to ramp off the edge. We nearly make it to another portion of the road but we miss. I realize that we are falling to our death, it feals awesome. I wake up long before impact.

Dream signs atarting to emerge (comment on these is you want) The town where I grew up, My bike (or lack of my bike)
I still don't feel close to realizing I'm in a dream and my only LD was still that FA - help please!!!
I also have a serious problem with excitement ( I can't fall asleep even in the middle of the night )