non-lucid

AWAKE
DREAMING

This was a WBTB, I didnt become lucid unfortunately :/
I was in a pub with my laptop, I was showing somebody a video on youtube that the first video of Evile ever put on the internet, I was trying to convince the guy that I uploaded the video. It was live footage of Evile playing 'wolves' which is odd because it's a machine head song??? I was saying stuff like 'see, i'm the reason Evile became known. Later in the dream, I think I was at a motorhead concert, but I don't really remember.
My mom came in to wake me up for school, I sat up really quickly and forgot all of this until I was in the shower, showers seem to increase my recall... wierdly :L

I was in a band, and we were called something that started with a lowercase m and then the next letter was capitalized. All of the band members were called mAsters. We were in a van, on tour, listening to one of our own songs on the radio. It sounded like the beatles' helter skelter.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in a bedroom with a small, skinny monkey. I was going to have to take care of the monkey for a long time.

The monkey was playing around on a bed. There may have been two beds in the room. The bed the monkey was playing on had nothing but a white sheet over the mattress.

I went over to the space between and just past the feet or heads of the beds. I knelt or lay down on the floor, in kind of weird, awkward ways Sometimes my knees were folded under my stomach while my stomach was nearly parallel with the ground. Other times my legs were stretched out in a crooked way while my torso was twisted and diagonal to the floor.

I unbuttoned my shirt. I was planning to take my shirt off altogether, for some reason. It may have been because I needed to take a shower. Or it may have been a part of the "monkey training." But I told myself I needed to be careful.

Apparently it was known that when monkeys first see humans with no shirts on, they take it as a sign of aggression. So I could only gradually reveal my chest to the monkey. I could do this either by slowly removing my shirt or by only gradually turning toward the monkey once my shirt was off.

But as I was thinking about this (I may also have been wearing a heavy jacket over my shirt), the monkey came up to me. He crawled up onto my chest and approached my left (?) nipple. The monkey was going to try breast feeding from me.

Dream #2

I was in a house with my mom and my sister. I stood or sat between two rooms. One room was more like a bedroom. It was dark blue. I don't know what the other room was. My mom sat in the other room. Somewhere, in one of the rooms, was a beige SUV, which was the family vehicle.

My mom told my sister that the kids (my nephews) needed picking up. My mom thought my sister would pick up the kids. But my sister now said she wasn't going to do it. She'd thought my mom was going to do it. My sister basically flatly refused to pick up the kids.

But my mom then mentioned something fun that had to be done once the kids were picked up. This was why she'd asked my sister to pick up the kids in the first place. My sister now said she was going to pick up the kids. It was now like she was refusing to let anybody else go pick up the kids. She may even have refused to let anybody else come with her on the ride.

I was in an auditorium with a whole bunch of other kids. There was a guy on the stage with a microphone. He was displaying a huge rack of clothes, telling us we could all pick an outfit for free. He went down the line and each kid told him which one they liked best. You can even use hex codes to change the color of the clothes. I chose an aqua blue shirt and beige shorts.

I can't really remember how I got there, but next I was by this huge tree. I was now wearing the clothes I picked out. The tree was dead, bent over. I think it had some sort of magical quality to it. Anyway I knew I had to go on an adventure. I was challenged by something (I don't believe it was human but I can't remember) to a series of events. I can only remember the last one, a game of tennis. I was playing really good, but he was cheating. He was using some sort of spell that caused the ball to go to wherever I wasn't. Someone on the side of the court watching said he was cheating, but the judge disagreed. Needless to say, I lost the tennis game.

About forty-five minutes after falling asleep I woke up after having a little dream. I'm not sure if it was a hallucination because I was trying a WILD, but in the dream I was going to bed. T was sitting in our chair and he was playing video games, I think. But the chair was sitting diagonally in front of the door. I went to say goodnight, and I kissed him. Then I thought he had said, do you want to dance? I was like what. And he said do you want to live or die? I realized that I had mistaken dance for die. Then I laughed because he seemed so serious, like I had irritated him somehow. I said don't fuck with me right now I'm drunk. I ran to the bedroom but it was kind of like bouncing, I was scared but laughing hoping it was a joke. When I got to the bedroom, I jumped in the air to land on the bed on my belly, but I didn't land. I started falling through the bed and I think I had made myself wake up. Like I was somehow conscious but I never thought about it. Then I had a false awakening, but that's all I remember about that.

After I had a long dream, but by now I only remember parts. I was with an old friend and something about a dress she didn't want anymore that I wanted to give away. But she wanted me to hold on to it so that she could wear it again sometime. I went to what I had called in the dream JC Penney and I went it but it was kind of like a small town DMV office. So I was waiting and I was on the phone and lit a cigarette. There was a guy trying to tell me to not smoke and finally I realized they had changed the smoking policy. So I apologized and was going to go outside but I didn't want to so I finished the cigarette real quck. Then I was sitting in a chair and I remember telling someone something and I was very direct about it but I can't remembe what I was saying. There was a guy sitting next to that person who I had went to school with a long time ago but he looked older. I could tell he was trying to picture this new me and that's what I had been thinking about when I was talking. Very confusing. I'll just end it here.

DJ Log: June 23, 2011 – 9:00PM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I am hanging out in a large house with a friend who is in a fight with his wife. He packs up a suitcase full of stuff, then turns around and looks at me. He passes a message to me telepathically to run as fast as I can into the corner room, wait for him, then slam the door shut and lock it. I do just that, then we run up a set of stairs and into a large attic area. We run all the way to the other end of the attic, then down another set of stairs into another level of the house. We run down a long hallway, then duck out through a side door that leads outside.

I follow him through the yard and around a corner to a road that has tall trees on both sides. We run for a little while and come upon a Jeep that is in a pull-off. When we get in the Jeep and the terrain suddenly changes into a video game like GTA3. He jumps in the driver's seat at first, but I tell him to get out and I am driving. As we're driving, he is giving me directions on where to drive. I get annoyed by this, then make a sudden turn and jump over an embankment. We are staring at the sky for a moment, then land in a shopping center parking lot. I ditch the guy in the parking lot, then continue to drive around.

I hit another jump and land inside a large building. There are many empty rooms which I can drive through. I drive even faster, as I find that I can pass right through the walls. I blast through the building, then end up on a long section of road. There is a sign at the end of the road that says EXIT. As I pass under the sign, I wake up.

(Note: There was much more action and many details lost in this one. My brain was emptying itself faster than I could type it into my dream journal. I'll take anything I can get, considering this is the first recall at all in the last 3 weeks.)

The dream began in my kitchen. I was looking at a basket full of eggs. The momma bird was inside of the basket as well. She was trying to get the eggs to hatch.

There were too many eggs for the momma bird to take care of, and a few broke. I put the broken ones in a container full of water. The broken eggs hatched in the container. The water was suddenly full of blood.

These weird alligator/gecko things came out of them. I put the container in the kitchen sink, and then all the eggs were in the container and hatched as alligators. The momma bird became a mini alligator.

I suddenly decided that the alligators had to go, so I opened a cupboard and found the class of 2011 in there. They were tiny, and they told me I would have to hold hands with one of them and one of the alligators to get the alligators home.

I agreed, and we held hands. Nothing happened except that the alligators became sacks of sugar.

I found myself in a city. This city looked quite depressing. The streets were of yellowish stone with a bit of sand on top, buildings were of the same yellowish stone. Streets were cramped. There weren't too many people on the streets. Maybe a couple of people per block. The searing heat from the sun made walking there almost intolerable. The clothes people had on looked very arabic in nature. What you would expect to see from saudi arabia / northern africe a hundred years back or so. All in all, it was either a third world country, or I was living in the past, near the equator.

I was carrying a djembe. (A percussion instrument of african origin). I found myself a place to sit with a few people that would hear me play. And I played a little beat there. Apparently I was a beggar, who tried to gain any money he could by performing on the streets.

A fight arose between me and a couple of other people (also beggars, street performers) when I'd taken the place they usually use. They threatened me with violence. So I left.
------I wondered around the streets a bit and chose another location in which to do the same thing all over again. However, that did not last for long. Apparently the other beggars were serious about being the only ones on the same part of town. They appeared to me and said that I'd better get out. I ran away at this point

They (the two of them) got after me, though not running. Just light jogging.

I quickly turned around the street corner and panicked. I needed to get out of here quick. I went to the market area of the block. I found a small closet like room on the side of one of the houses which was not locked. I opened it and went inside. The door had cracks, and I saw how the other beggars passed it. I waited a while before coming out of there. I found another place to perform near me and strarted. Didn't take long for me to be found by the other beggars. I ran away again and they ran after me full speed.

I managed to find a cellar type structure near me, with a metal mesh as a window to the street. I cramped myself in there, trying to not make noises so that they wouldn't realize to look in my direction when they walked past me. After this I took my knife from my backpocket.

I left my djembe there and started creeping around the town centre. I quickly saw where one of the beggars was and creeped behind him, and stabbed him in the shoulder. The other beggar saw me from 20 meters away and was terrified, left his junk there and ran behind the corner.


END DREAM

Dream end was not sudden, yet that's the last thing I remember, really.

6/23/2011
The dream is first person, I'm myself and am accompanied by a sciencey looking man, a woman, and her child. We go downwards into a vault type area and see the most horrible things in front of us. As we walk through this darkened metallic area we see to our sides great machines that work away all day under a building... They're grinding people. The gore is massive, endless and disgusting. Great gears and spiked spindles tear apart the meat and produce rain of red into a giant consuming pit under each. There is little or no dialogue between us as we reach a fork. To the right is light from a hole in the ceiling and to the other is an elevator; and by my suggestion we open the elevator. Inside there are dozens of floors on the panel outside the elevator but only three appeal to me, S1, S2, and S3. I press the button for S3, and when the doors open the entire elevator is covered in the gore we saw earlier, and it appears darker than our current area. I quickly close it and decide that S1 is probably nicer. As I guessed, the doors opened and it looked totally normal, metallic and safe. I usher in the child and woman and send them off. Next up I open S2, which is considerably less frightening than S3, although still fairly disgusting. I reopened S3, and sent in the man, who was now a Marine looking guy with a machine gun. I closed him in and he wasnt very happy about it when he was sent off.
Now, I have a gun and head into S2 sending myself down. When the gears grind to the bottom and I reach my destination the hallway is extremely narrow and ends about two steps after i enter. Then, it begins to open and as it does the insides of the walls im expected to walk through are covered in the grinding saw blades that did wonders on making mince out of the bodies and the entire time I walked through the ever opening passage I felt like I was going to die at any moment. Then, in a truly theatrical manner some kind of creature pulls itself out of a pit of gears and says something canon to what you would expect for entering its lair.
I remember saying something to myself like, this wont be scary I've seen it before and as I thought it was a recycled sprite from some game or other and the dream suddenly turned third person. A few gunshots later and I was able to kill it, then it zooms out and im in my bedroom playing this "game" I had imagined. After a short conversation with my brother who walked in about the game a score screen came up... Heh, Resident Evil was always fun wasnt it? Thats what we called it.

6/20/2011
My dream started with a city I've never been in and a house I hadnt either. It was designed in a newer esque futuristic hipster way and I lived with a different family. However, I was still me and the girl I was getting in trouble with in real life was still her. I felt the families disappointment in me, a true reflection of what I assumed was what my real family was feeling. Also, the father figure threatened to destroy my Spiral Knights fountain of marble if I kept up my nonesense. I wish I had one of those.
Later I was outside a resturaunt in my dream and called out to one of my good friends and teachers inside, she comes out and we start to walk to mcdonalds. After we leave I walk outside the mcdonalds and it transformed into a gas station. A nearby cart had chips in it so i ripped out the bag of sun chips (stealing I assumed) and walked with her into the darkness with it.
Here comes the weird part, as we went up the side of a steep hill off the road next to a line of cactus she fell. I tried to catch her but was too slow, and then she began to fall and tumble down the hill itself. I was confused as she began to RIP down the hill like she was being pulled down by an unseen force. As I ran after her, I noticed a person sitting out of the corner of my eye. I stopped and said "You"... The thing appeared in front of me and was laying down, without pants. It was offering itself up to me, and i asked "Is this what you want?" it nodded and it just emenated evil. I threw something in its face that I later assumed to be a bible and I felt the thing was a demon of lust. After defeating it somehow I ran down the hill and saw stickers everywhere, which i assumed i needed to find all the letters of my teachers name to get her back to life somehow.

I figued that this story was a show that I learned my lesson with girls, that I choose my education and friendships (symbolically my teacher and friend) over common lust. Proud of myself.

So, for a while now, I have been dreaming of falling in love.
Beginning of dream: I am in MY house, but it's some one elses party. Guess who is hosting the party? The chubby kid from Super 8. So, I walk over to my room, and there is kids in it and they are dancing and doing this weird game. It's like a wimon says thing. Then this one guy I had been looking at says something funny and I laugh and suddenly everyone starts staring me. Then, this part is where I was like "wtf", he turns around and starts whispering to his friend and says "Who realize me and her have to make out now? It's destined." Yep. So I make a what the fuck face. Then the person hosting the party says they are going to move the party down to the basement. And I'm liek "okay." So I turn around and my really embarassing cousin is standing there. Go figure. She is giving me a basket and shoving chips and snacks in it to bring into the basement. Then she says something, but I don't remember what it was, and I say "yeah... okay..." and then I start to walk to the basement and through the basket to the side. When I get down there, the one guy I like isn't down there. And lets just say the whole rest of my dream consisted of me just sitting there on a couch in the basement with 3 guys down there barely speaking at all. Can't even get a guy in my dreams.

Thursday, June 23rd

I. “Everybody Likes to Say Good Morning”

This dream doesn’t make very much sense. Here’s what was notable about it – it was a musical, directed by filmmaker David Lynch (therefore having many surreal and really creepy yet humorous qualities) complete with a song that I’d never heard before with lyrics and all, meaning that another unconscious composition was put into my head. I remember a bit more about this one than last night.

The melody and style of it I can compare only with that song “I’m Getting Married in the Mornin’” and the “Every Sperm is Sacred” song from Monty Python’s Meaning of Life. The costumes and dancing were actually a lot like the Python song now that I think about it. I also remember 3 lines of the lyrics, however none of them consecutive so there’s not any cohesion. The first line of the song was “Everybody likes to say good morning!” There was a call-and-answer part that was sung by one man and a group of women. I don’t remember what the man says, but I will make something up now that would work – it would have been the same rhythm and syllables as “The hair is all the rage now” and the women, I remember this specifically, answered with the rhyming line “Joined in fancy braids now!” There were two different endings to the stanzas. The one that happened most of the times I don’t remember all of but the last two words were “On parade.”

The other, which at the end of the song I was supposed to sing in David Lynch’s face in order to startle him awake (?) was “It’s all the same!” Someone cut me off and finished the song as I was about to do this though.

One big reason I became interested in lucid dreaming was to write and practice music in my sleep – I’d heard quite a bit about different bands doing that.

1. I'm in a bar, relaxing somewhat awkwardly at a table with my frenemy H.B. and his girlfriend J.J. The interior reminds me of a bar in my old college town, but the view out the windows is that of a bustling supermarket in my hometown. H. asks for a pitcher of water as I start texting with my own girlfriend. I turn around and notice that the bar proper is taken up by a line of sorority girls, dressed in black Playboy bunny costumes for a frat party.

2. I decide to go to my old grade school, touring it in a suit, but while doing so I run into people from all levels of schooling. John M. from high school I see in the bathroom, the high school art teacher I see in the hall (interviewing for a position here), and C.W. and S.A. from college I see on the stairs as I'm leaving.

3. I stay up very late watching some football game... then go to sleep. I FA into my own bed at 9 o'clock at night, and my brother is sitting on the chair beside me playing Nintendo DS. My mom walks into the room and starts to berate me for my lateness and asks me how I expect to eat.

I was in my basement with my friend Austin and one of his friends. He somehow created two Legend of Zelda games for GameBoy Color for both of us. They came in blue cartridges. We played for a little while, and the game was actually very quality for GameBoy.
Now it is the following morning, and my brother and carpool are ready to leave. I'm holding them up because I have to prepare a very quality steak, and I refused to eat it in the car. I took my time and ate the steak, and it tasted familiar and delicious. (Once I woke up and remembered the taste, I was actually surprised at how good the taste was, considering I was dreaming.) In the car, I played Zelda, but it was too hard, so I switched to Pokemon. Soon, my vision became the GameBoy screen and I used a Geodude and a Farfetch'd to defeat Gary Oak. Just as I was about to catch a female Nidoran, I woke up.

I don't remember all of it well but I'll write down the parts that I know.
So it kinda seems that we're on a field trip and I'm with my friends. It's an overnight field trip so we're kind of in a hotel with a bunch of beds in one big room and the chaperons are telling us to sleep, I guess. Some of us had to share a bed and I remember looking to my side and seeing Spencer from Pretty Little Liars asleep next to me and me saying something to my friend beside me about her, but it wasn't a good thing to say. I don't remember which friend it was or what I said but I said it. Next, me and that same friend wrote on the wall with crayon or something about Spencer and someone told us that the owner doesn't like it when people write on the walls. This seems pretty stupid so far, but it's what I remember.
Next the dream seems to jump to a high school. (I'm going to high school next year.) I'm with my friend and the high school is almost like a tower type thing. It seems pretty modern with glass windows and when you look inside it is very white and there is a black staircase leading to the classrooms or something. We appear in a classroom and a teacher that I know of named Mr. Scoville is teaching there. He isn't teaching there, he was just sitting at his desk telling us to be quiet but we never do. My friend Kylie is there. We were bored so we took this box and the box seems familiar. Now, I'm starting to remember that a teacher there quit or something and Mr. Scoville took over and rearranged the classroom and we recognize the box near us. We took the box and we looked inside. I can't remember what was inside but we laughed at it and joked around like we usually do when we're actually at school. Now I remember my friend Sam being there. Kylie and Sam are best friends.

That's about it. Some of it doesn't even make sense but it's worth writing down.