non-lucid

I switched positions with peter at sobeys. And I found the work to be very difficult because a bunch of things kept popping up on the computer and no one told me how or what to do with them. Shawna was there and I don't remember seeing anyone else working but me. I remember leaving the cage, and coming back to see my mom there talking. I was pissed cause she was there while I was working.

01.03.2011

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was supposed to be in class, but was skipping. I saw some MTG cards in a store and wanted to buy them. Then the next day I did go to class and we had to build a robot. I didn't have time to finish it before class ended. When I got home I ate with my family but the robot had followed me demanding that I finish my work. I reluctantly acquiesced.

He had a human face and looked sort of like my youngest brother (8), although my brother was also there and I could notice some differences. Later I asked him if he couldn't just learn all the physics I knew and work on himself since he was a genius. He told me it would just take him about a week (ouch). I told him I was pretty smart but was very lazy and always skipping classes, although I still managed to get good grades. Then I cheered myself thinking that I had built a freaking robot.

The dream shifted and I was part of the roman army fighting their last battle in a park. The romans lost and I died fighting. Then the dream focused on my friend from real life M and I became him. The romans were taking away the people who were not warriors who had hidden themselves in a small building (myself included). I grabbed a sword and challenged an important enemy noble to a duel, but in the middle of the fight another man decided to take his place. I managed to cut him on the neck, but it was too shallow. He still pretended to be dying so that he could drown me in the park pond. He failed and he began laughing about how he always did that. Then we started fighting again.

Night of Feb 29

I was in a school play, and I was really really happy about it. For those who don't know, I used to want to be an actress, but that ship has sailed. I just recall being so ecstatic about getting to act again. I believe some Starkid was there, but I'm not sure. Nigel Barker came in the make-up room when I was trying to demonstate my make-up skills and I was way too nervous to do my best.

Later I was walking down the hallway of my school and something happened with Billy, like he hugged me or I don't know. I just remember him being somewhat infatuated with me, but it was kind of whatever. I had forgotten to get a ride home, so I called my brother and he was able to pick me up.

Oddly enough, it was my eighteenth birthday and I had completely forgotten. This made me extremely sad because I didn't have anything planned and i wanted a huge blowout party, because you only turn 18 once. Alyssa, Izzy, and I were going to go out to eat or something, but then that didn't happen because Izzy ditched us.

I was heartbroken. She was supposed to be my best friend. Then her brother called ME out on being mean to HER. Wtf? No. I think I explained my situation and I might have cried, but I remember he, like, held me or laughed and tried to comfort me. Weird.

Awake Non-Lucid

I'm walking down a street I take on my route to school. I stroll along, lost in my thoughts. Arron comes out of nowhere and says "Hey, I'll walk with you. Give me a minute while I get something, ok?" I nod, and follow him into his house. I look around. It's open and very white. Suddenly I feel quite awkward, being alone in his house with him, since I know how flirty he can get.

I relax when someone comes in. It's a friend of Arron's although I swear I've met him before. (Never met this guy IRL, just a random DC) "I know you!" I smile. He sees me and grins.

"Yeah! We spoke at the party a few nights ago! Fancy meeting you here."

I completely forget about school, and the guys grab some food and we head to Arron's room. I lounge on a stool, and the guy introduces himself as Josh. He's rather hot, and I keep catching his eye. The door opens, and more friends of Arron's come in. I realise suddenly that I've missed three periods of school.

I find myself in my school's main corridor. It's pretty much empty of people, so I sit down. Rochelle comes in and says we're going on a P.E trip. She doesn't seem concerned that I've missed my mornings lessons. We walk into the PE changing rooms. Everyone has giant suitcases full of clothes, and the room slopes downwards.

I realise I have nothing to wear, and my moany teacher is shouting at me to hurry up. Mumbling under my breath, I ask someone if I can borrow some jogging bottoms and a t-shirt. I rummage through their suitcase and pull on clothes that are far too big.

The room slopes again sharply and I find myself rolling downwards and hitting the wall. My teacher shouts at me to get a move on but I can't make it up the slope, the flooring has become smooth which makes it difficult to get a grip.

Eventually I make it up and hurry along with the rest of the girls. My dad turns up, and we watch a very scary rollercoaster pass just above our heads. There's a t.v under it, which we stop to watch. Apparently some people are giving their views on the rollercoaster. I notice one of the girls is Emma Watson. She has very blonde, volumous hair and far too much make-up on.

The beginning was the best bit, although it was a very mundane dream which pretty much sucked

This is a dream i found saved into my computer from this past summer.. It ties into the mall theme i was talking about in my feb 28th dream

Apparently it all started in France where i was chasing some cat around town and i found myself in the movie theaters watching this whole dream.. but then i left with a friend and we met up with her crush or whatever and went to some pizza shop and it was all french looking , but then my friend and i were walking down a dirt road and came into this shop.. which turned out to be a so called hospital where the patients never leave from.. so were running around in there trying not to get killed lol but got locked in an elevator and we couldnt get out... but then i like flashed into the mall with my mom at sears and it was raining and we were looking at clothes and then the power went out so im like hey! my phone has a flash light so we used that and managed to get talk to some sales associate about something idr and then we got out in the dark. so i started walking around the mall but my mom turned into my friend and we were just walking around but the mall was closing soon and the store we were in turned into Thornes market (a market place i live near) and im like hey this place changed.. i used to play here in this toy store when i was a kid but now its bigger and no toys..." so we ventured our way back into the holyoke mall and examined stores and then the mall was closing so we went back to sears but then we had to wait in line and my friend turned into another person and the line was for like pre marriage photos for some reason so were like oh hey lets practice faces but i got mad cuz every face i apparently looked like a cow boy and im like im tired of this.. i feel like were in the game the sims.. and then i got a nice face down so we got our pic taken and i couldn't make that face again so i did some stupid thing with my hands and the photographer was like hey, this isnt from the old days.. smile nicely and gave us our pic and im like well at least there's only a week more of this and then we walked though sears to get outside and when i got outside my friend turned into someone else again and we were walking through the parking lot and it was dark and raining and the parking lot was make of tiny rocks so it was hark to walk in and we needed to find my mom but then this kid apparently became a zombie and was chasing me through the parking lot but i was faster but he didn't give up and then i realized i forgot my stuffed animal rabbit behind a car so we had to go back and get it and then after being chased forever we got onto cement ground so i thought i could out run him maybe even faster but then he got me so i kicked him and run away and he stayed down but then there was this hole in the ground so im like check this out... and i clicked a button and it light up and turned into a hot tub with all this music and what not but as soon as i got in my mom pulled up and was like hey its time to go! so i started histaricly laughing and got in the car, and she asked how the movie was and im like yeah it was good but it skipped around to different things alot.. i got confused. but yeahh so i thought it was an interesting dream

Had quite a lot of dreams last night that i remembered.. it must of been from all the times i woke up.. and i did happen to listen to a 30 min song from a post i read about dream recall.. apparently the music helps you recall dreams a little better.. but yupp!

Dream Fraction:
Standing in a giant white farm house... looking out the window
Seemed to be on a horse farm, and i could see maybe a racing track for the horses with a white picket fence around it. It was gloomy outside, muddy, and seemed as it just finished raining. It felt like a scene from the movie The Ring.

Dream Fraction:
Left my house but realized i left my laptop open, i had skype on and this website up. I became scared that my dad was going to snoop through my laptop.

Dreams:
I was down by the river, on an island we have, and i was walking through the woods there with a few people, who seemed to be hippies. They were wearing long skirts of that type and tank tops, and they had dreads. They were in reds and yellows. We were following a path that led us to a old fire pit, but it was blocked off with string, rainbow string.
I'm not sure if this led into this next part, but i remember it coming next..
I ended up in my school cafeteria, it kinda looked the same but was still different.. i was with a few friends from school (a girl and 3 guys) and we were in line for a buffet style lunch but there seemed to be no one else, just blurs of images of people. We ended up just getting one big plate that was piled a foot high and sat at a table up against a wall. We then began stacking the spoons and forks on the plate to make a big pile.

I ended up going to my softball game, but i forgot my jersey and i only had a white basketball T-shirt (even though i never played before) but that wasn't good enough, so i couldn't play. I ended up sitting on the bench facing the trees and crying because i was mad. I ended up on the street taking photos on a digital camera with my dad next to the game, and somehow found myself on a yacht with our neighbors and showing them the pictures that i took.

I woke up late for school, and my dad pushed me out the door to get the bus but i was only wearing a pair of old shorts and a yellow V-Neck that i apparently wore the day before that. I got mad at him because of that and also because my legs were to hairy to do that.. ( i was complaining yesterday IWL about that in gym to a friend) I then got on the bus and my dad was laughing because all these new 7th graders were getting on the bus with me and they didn't know what to do, it reminded me of lost fish. After they got on the bus was packed and i called my mom to being me a change of clothes but she said no. We then drive down the street and drive by a girl who i apparently remembered from a few years earlier who was wearing yellow, red, green, and blue Gothic pants that were strapped around her ankles and i said hey its funny how she still has those pants.. Then we go down another street and pick up another girl, Rachel (someone that i met snowboarding this past winter) and she gets on the bus. We drive down the next street and stop, and then i find myself standing in the road with all the other kids. My mom was sitting there in her car and came out to stand with me. i was on the side of the road watching an extremely large Yorkshire terrier (about 20lbs) stand there. My friends sister then proceeded to drive by in a black Outtie and almost hits the dog, so i scream. She stops thinking she hit the dog and backs up. When she did this she hit the dog and for some reason does it 2 more times. On the third time the dog turned into a human man and when she ran it over it struggled and died. In the dream i screamed, terrified, and then i woke up and like rolled over quickly when i did, my heart was beating fast.. I have no idea why.

I was at the mall with my mom and she decided to go into a few stores but i decided to go walk around but when i went to go find her again i couldn't, and the mall was closing so i had to run around the mall turning all the lights on again because they were motion censored. This was the same mall that i had a dream about a few months back, that i got stuck in during a storm and the power went out so it was pitch black and it turned into a nightmare. But yeah i couldn't find my mom, and for some reason the bottom level still had people walking around, that were coming from a dark hallway.

These dream were two long dreams compared to yesterday's 3 dream fragments. It also played out more like a show or movie, not in the first person.
It started out as like a view of a whole bunch of teenagers on an island or a beach somewhere. I don't know where. Then it shows this one kid looking out into the ocean.
It switches view to the direction he's looking and there's a girl in the water (She looked strangely familiar ) And all of a sudden she starts flailing about, apparently drowning. One girl on the beach jumps into the water and starts swimming towards her. For some strange reason, in the next view, the one kid mentioned above is riding piggy-back on this girl as she's swimming They eventually get to the girl but it's too late. Then it transitioned to some youtube video that was very incoherent, apparently commemorating the girl who died...
The dream faded and I woke up. I drifted directly back into sleep into a different dream, but for some reason felt linked to the previous one...
There were these people doing an investigation. There was this woman, who had something jabbed and stuck into her arm. She pleaded to the investigators that it was the end of a pen ( My dreams really don't make too much sense...) ,but the investigators go into the drawer of her desk and find a syringe and a bag of what seemed to be heroine (Or at least my brain recognized it as that.) Then that transitioned to a car going down the Highway, carrying a few members from the show 'Shameless', and then the car got hit by another vehicle. The End

We are at our summer cottage, by the lake. With me there are my family and some of my friends. There is also a little dog. I stroke it and my friends warn me to watch out that it doesn't bite me. I protect myself with a book. The dog tries to go around me. We circle each other for a while. Soon the dog gives up. We talk something, but I can't remember what. I stroke the dog again, and again it tries to bite me. Soon it gives up. We go for a run. After some time we arrive at a block of flats that looks like my granny's neighbourhood. We go round the building. Soon we see a similar building. We go round it too. There is a glass door. It is open, but I notice that it is the wrong door. There is another door, but I notice that it is a wrong one too. The third door is the right one, but after going from it I am again outside. Now there is a soccer field in below us. Thats where we should go but when I look down I see a fall of at least 4 metres. When I wonder what to do I see one of my friends (that wasn't with us at the beginning of the dream) going down stairs. I go down. There are some children playing. They notice us and start yelling at us that they are playing. One of them urges the others to kick the balls at us. The come closer. I take a ball and foot it. Even though one of the kids is near me, I miss him. I suddenly feel weak and decide to leave. The kids don't follow us. We leave the field. We are now in a dark, cave-like place. There are now six of us. The dark place is a womb and near us, gloving soft milky light, is an egg cell. Our mission is to prepare it for fertilization by removing a chromosome from it, but we can't go too close to it or it will fertilize. I take a long stick and stick it into the cell, removing one x-chromosome. There's some guy that I haven't seen before. One of us dares him to eat the chromosome. He does it, but it doesn't seem to have much effect on him.

I am in an old city. The alley I take ends in a fall. Below me there is a marketplace. When I'm wondering how to get down, two girls go past me, jump on a roof and then on the street below. I notice an iron rod hanging in the air. I decide to use it. I jump and grab it. When I'm hanging there, a woman comes to say to the girls not to jump on the roof. I drop down and notice a friend of mine. The last thing I remember is becoming lucid, though there probably is more that I can't remember.

So last night I could finally recall my dream, but I dreamed that I was in a tall building that was being attacked much like 9/11. The dream would switch me from inside the building to 3rd person view outside like its some kind of movie. Somehow I ended up in the other building before the one next to it collapsed. I have felt so sick in that dream and a million things going through my mind that I am going to die. Before this happened it was night time and I was looking over the city and a air plane was coming and missed the buildings, then it turned around and streaked the building and I was teleported inside of it.

I was in a room with three other guys giving up hope that we would ever leave there, I found it odd that there was a chair that was in the shape of a tipping building. We figured out we where low enough to escape the bottom and people helped us out. One lady told us to run into this building to be safe and we did. The nightmare ended then.

There where other stuff but I don't remember it.

I had this one early this morning, and though it wasn't exactly "scary," it was definitely traumatic.

Dream Notes/Observations

Some friends and I have been invited to a party, in Alaska. We're being rushed to catch the plane (and drink with the pilot on the way), but we have to run some errands first. As we're driving around to do this, I'm trying to convince my buddy not to let me drink too much because my ex will be at the party.

At some point during this I insulted a group of crazy gangbangers, who looked like Rastafarian MS-13. The swore they were going to make me pay, but we sped away in the car.

We get back to my house and my friends drop me off so I can get dressed for the party. I go downstairs and let my ferrets out to play while I get ready (I do have ferrets IRL, and though these looked a little different I knew it was them). While my ferrets are playing two new ferrets appear from nowhere and start playing with them.

After I'm dressed I hear someone break-in upstairs, and somehow I know that it's the gangbangers, and that what their going to do is beat me, make me watch them eat the ferrets, and then kill me. So I try to gather up the ferrets and hide them in the closet, but the ones I don't know run away and I can't catch them.

I just manage to get my ferrets hidden when I hear them coming down the stairs and scramble to grab my sword (an ugly, poorly made black steel blade, not nearly as nice as my sword IRL). I've just managed to grab it and run out into the hallway when they get to the bottom of the stairs. There are 6 of them, and they are wielding hockey sticks and metal bars. I manage to bottleneck them in the hall so they can only attack me one at a time. They hit me a few times, but nothing serious, though there are a few close calls, and after 5 minutes of furious combat all 6 are dead.

I start freaking out about having killed 6 guys, and go up stairs and start pacing. At this point my friends return to pick me up, but I won't leave the house. I try to play it cool, but inside I'm losing it, considering chopping the bodies up to hide them in the yard. After a minute I break down and tell my friends what happened, but instead of freaking out they just think it's cool that I managed to kill 6 dudes by myself.

After a few minutes I decide to call 911 and report it, since it was self defense. The police don't come, but send an investigator: an older woman who kind of reminds me of my 5th Grade teacher. So I take her downstairs to show her the scene, but when we get down there all the bodies have turned into giant badger/dog things. 2 of them are dead, but the other 4 are just severely crippled. One of them has found the two stranger ferrets, killed 1, and is trying to kill the other. I start kicking it to try to protect the ferret, and the investigator gets mad at me, saying something like "This may have started as self defense, but if you keep that up you'll be charged with assault, the law doesn't protect your pets" (though apparently it did protect giant badger-dogs that used to be people). This makes me really angry, and I wake up.

1. One of my friends and I escape from some oppressive desert country and use a vacation house in Colorado as our hide-out. For some reason, I have an abundance of superhero T-shirts.

2. Singing "Bohemian Rhapsody" with a bunch of other guys. I do the lead character's lines, and seem to be the only person out of the bunch capable of hitting the high notes.

3. Something about playing with a rocket launcher.

4. Something about ugly necklaces.

5. I'm stuck at someone's residence with some snobbish former classmates and a handful of little kids. One of them criticizes the way I was eating a popsicle, and others join in on verbally harassing me. I run to find a room that I can lock from the inside so I can be alone, but they keep chasing me. Even when I've managed to lock a door or find a really good hiding spot (even when I'm hiding in my own house), they always get in and start dancing on my head, all while claiming that I'm in the wrong for hiding from them in the first place.

Then there was something about the estimated value of some herb and going to an incense shop to get something to help with meditation, but my alarm clock woke me up in the middle of that.

Dynamite Town

I’m flying! I’m close to the ground, no cars, just a big long road in the country surrounded by yellow and orange autumnal trees. I let my muscles go limp and the wind takes me higher, passed the power lines. If I go too high I get a little nervous I’ll never come back down, so I stabilize myself a few feet above the power lines. “It feels so good to be flying, finally,” I say.The wind is warm and everything feels exhilarating.

A tiny voice in my head starts talking to me: it’s my mom! I lose lucidity. She wants me to go get “Cochla root” for my dad, who has a bit of back pain. I need to go to the medicine woman we see for the herbal nutrition we buy from her.

Luckily, my school is having a trip to the same area today! Now I’m on a bus, looking out the window. We’re here, in the little mountain town where she lives. I call it a “boomtown” but for other reasons: all around us, people are working with dynamite in the mountains to access the gold and coal that are inside. The surroundings are all dirt and mud with laborers outside on this particularly rainy day. The houses are scattered boxes on the fields passed the dynamite lands. The bus rides through on the only paved road I see.

Out my window I see a girl who’s working. I look in her eyes as she works. There’s a connection here, one that I’m uncertain of but I feel something. I want her to look at me, but the bus passes before she turns.



Ahead, the other bus of students is returning from the town, going home. There is only enough room for one bus, but this isn’t a problem in a dream. Our bus kind of goes “over” the other bus, without an accident or anything dangerous, we are on the same track but on different levels of the same road. My POV is inside the other bus as it passes below us. I see Heather sitting alone, crying. I know she’s having an anxiety attack because of all the dynamite and danger around her. Jack is in my bus and starts taunting her.

“Jack,” I say. Everyone on both of the buses stops talking. “Shut the FUCK UP.” He does. We move on.

We get to our destination soon. It’s a old fort house a little ways passed the main dynamite mountain area. Inside, I get a little scared; this is a haunted house-esqe attraction, not an informative guide through the history of the town. Although I’m scared, me and my friend Celina are the first to run in. The doorway frightens us: when you walk over it, it rains on you. This was terrifying in my dream!

We sit down against a wall and let everyone else explore the house. I go into the kitchen where the witch doing all this scary magic is kneading bread. I ask her about the medicine woman and where I can see her.

“You’re on the same road but this is the wrong house,” she says. I feel embarrassed. I sit back against the wall with Celina and text Heather. Eventually everyone has explored the scary house and we leave.

On the way home we stop at a McDonalds and I order two chicken nuggets. I receive my order and they are huge, about half the size of me! I can’t wait to give these to Heather (I’m vegetarian), but they’re really heavy and difficult to pull along.

The scene shifts to me in the back seat of a car. My Uncle Pat is driving. I don’t want to tell my mom that I didn’t get the Cochla root and she’ll have to drive back to the town. I think of ways to tell her the bad news. My Uncle is going really slow and when I notice this, he hits the accelerator and goes through a shortcut home: through a bank parking lot and then through a school playground. Before we reach the playground, my POV shifts to above the car, as if there is no car, only me and him floating (but I still “feel” that we are in a car). We start passing through the fence into the playground and I see a bunch of curved spoons on the ground.

“That’s where crack addicts do their drugs. If I was going to do crack, I’d do it here,” I say.

On the playground, we pass a teenager on a small child’s bike. Now I am riding the bike.

It has backwards peddle brakes which are so foreign to me that I just don’t brake. Instead, I kind of idle around the edge of the playground until I can cross the street. I go for it without looking, and a car almost hits me: it was my mom, we’re both going home. I find this funny.

Peddling home, I stop on the side of the street to collect some acorns that have fallen from a tiny tree. My uncle’s voice booms to me: “Stop, let’s go home!” I tell him to wait a minute and then we proceed home.

Fragment

(Copied directly from my dream journal, I can’t make sense of it)
Me + a lot of people, nighttime, afraid on couches in a big house. Julia. My cat forms into a square of space + I wake up with her still there.

Maybe something about the girl who sits behind me in philosophy.

Im at this competition where we have to find teddy bears from the nature. We are at the pesäpallo field and theres H, J and M, atleast. I suddenly realise that J is not so good looking. I have to compete against J and M. I run down the hills and jump from these wooden platforms to another. Then I see the teddy bear and I take it, I lift it above my head and start to run the hill upwards. I see the dissapointed faces of M and J. After I've ran awhile I notice that I have a pretty good endurance and at the same point I feel exhausted and I grab this young tree because I feel like im going to fall down.

We are on some kind of field trip with our class and at the same time its like a competition like amazing race, or something. Our teacher is complaining about my and N's shorts, but she doesnt notice first that I have shorts. Shes complaining about them because there might be snakes sliding in the tall grass. Next Im at this field wheres lots of grass its in the middle of a forest. Im watching out for the snakes and the next thing I notice theres lots of pink, long and big earthworms on the grass. S is joking something about them and then Im joking about them too, and like jumping over them.
Then Im at this room wheres computers and guys surfing on the internet. Its my team from the competition. I find some old videos about L on youtube, and at first I dont want to show them to her, but when I try to switch the video there comes another video about her, everytime. Then L notices it and Im like "Hey heres some videos about you, well look at that" and shes laughing and "Oh my, I look so bad in those." Then we need to continue the competition and we are going downstairs to eat some food. I go to the stairs and feel like someone is going to scare me from behind. I turn around and this girls which reminds me of O, is laughing and says something "No, you noticed me". I go to the kitchen and O tries to scare me again, but fails. Theres some waffles for us to eat and H comes from a door...
Next Im looking out the window in our kitchen and I see that L's team drives to the frontyard with a grey car. Im eating candy at the same time. I dont want to bump into them so I run upstairs to my room. I see that someones been "funny" and has turned on lights on ppls mopeds. The guy has got my mopeds lights to work and Im amazed because of that. I go to my brothers room to find out whos guilty and T is there. Im wondering to him how he got the lights on my moped to work, then he says something "I just held down the glutch and started it"

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

There were a woman and man in some dark area at night. The area seemed to be inside, like in some dark, abandoned factory.

The woman and man were both strong and sexy in a comic book sort of way. They were both very pale. The woman had red hair and wore some kind of small outfit. The man may have had pale blonde hair and probably wasn't wearing a shirt.

The woman was the leader of a gang of killers. Most of the members of the group were women. And, mostly, the aim of the gang was to kill men. The man may have led a group of men.

The man had done something wrong, possibly to betray the woman in some slimy, underhanded way. The woman was very poweful. She had the man in her grip. She was strangling him and drowning him in some pool of water.

Eventually the man went limp. The woman may actually even have cut off the man's head by the force of her grip.

But I now saw that the man had just feigned death so the woman would let him go. He fedll deeper and deeper into the water, as if this were a big river in some city. He had his head. He had been falling with his back down. Now he twisted around so his stomach faced down. He swam away. I knew he was going to gather people to fight against the woman.

There were two women in a car in a dark, deserted, alley-like street in the city. Both women were part of the gang of killers.

One woman had gotten out of the car. She had been in the driver's seat. She walked around to the passenger side and got the other woman's attention somehow, letting her know she should get out of the car.

The first woman knew that the woman in the car was young and naive. The first woman was taking the second woman to the leader. Apparently the second woman had done something wrong and was now going to be punished, probably killed.,