non-lucid

Feeling much better. Over the last couple of days, I've had some rather interesting elements.

At one point I flew a couple of miles straight up in the air (Not so good at actually traveling, but I like to hover. This was non-lucid.) at night. I saw stars dancing and flying around in formation, coming towards me. I got disturbed, thinking it was possibly divine in some way and not wanting to really interact with them. I made a troop of them disappear in a flash, simply by willpower. It was as if I wasn't supposed to be up there, and they wanted to catch me for it. I let myself drop, both to mischievously spite the dancing stars and to just enjoy the falling feeling. It's not the first time I've flown high simply to ride the freefall. But this time, instead of hitting the ground, the ground simply opened up beneath me and I kept falling into the hotter layers of the Earth. Like the "divinity" was crossing my escape by sending me southward (if you know what I mean...). I thought "No." to myself, and suddenly kicked awake into reality.

Another time, well, I was ovulating for the first time in years (Off the Pill) and the downstairs neighbors have a baby who's either teething or has an infected ear. The poor thing screams and cries nonstop, which combined with my hormones meant that I dreamed of a baby. I was a teenager, and we had a new baby brother (never in reality, though), but I wasn't "good enough" in my mother's mind to care for him. My younger sister was given the job, and I was told not to mess with the baby. But I heard the crying outside, and learned that my more "responsible" sister had gotten distracted and left the baby outside in early January. I rescued the baby, still crying, and gave it to Mom. I told her that the responsible one had left my brother in the cold, and Mom chewed me out for messing with the baby when I wasn't supposed to. The younger sister was never in trouble, and told to keep taking care of the baby.

I remember another time, dreaming of a woman I knew several years ago. I don't remember what she was up to, but that I saw her.

Took a nap with the intent to WILD, but not having done it for a long time, didn't work. Plus, I think I finally figured out that you can't just WILD when you want, but have to time it with a REM cycle (right?). Anyway... I'm sure there was a little more before I actually start writing, but I couldn't remember anything of it. Oh well

1/3. Nap. 230. 330. Working at some fab shop. Building a buggy? Of of the guys is Rick from Pawn Stars. For some reason, step over the front of the buggy instead of going around. Get some stuff (papers), and step over front again to put stuff in pass seat. Then I’m with the other guys (about 4 guys sitting in front of me). Someone asks, “How much do you want to get paid?” I say, “Uh, 10 (or maybe I said 60) from my last job, so that?” Rick chuckles and says, “No,” and someone turns me around and there’s a bunch of tools, grinders, drill press (red, no base?), screws (blue) (and some other small things). Xxxxx there. I can’t believe it. I’m at a loss for words (literally, can’t find a word to say). Start to drool over all the tools. Wake up drooling a bit, haha

Glad I was able to remember some of the talking, coz I rarely recall conversations

(an excerpt from some day 2010)

As I open my eyes I find my self kneeling hands down on cold, mossy slate. As I look around the rain is pouring down thunder and lightning and I see my self on a roof top high up in New York City with no reccolection of how I got there or any realisation that I'm dreaming. The sky is dark and the city is worn, the slate is cracked and the buildings are made of brown, chalky brick. As I'm kneeling there I can feel my self slipping with nothing to hold on to, no where to climb to and a long, long way down, to far down to see, to far to survive the fall. I continue to slip further and further down the slate, as I look around in 3rd person space I can see my self lying there. I'm stuck and as I realise my helplessness I bein to scream "HEEELP! HEEEEEELP!" No one answers, no one comes to my rescue. I fall. I wake up.

I was at the beach with my dad. I had just gone to the beach with others so I didn't feel like going in the water. We stood on the sand and he kept asking me if I want to go in the water, suggesting games we could play (throwing tennis balls, etc). I kept telling him I didn't feel like going in the water. And his response was always that I was scared or sick. This fustrated me, so I collected my things and went back to the car. The doors were unlocked so I sat in the front passenger seat to wait for my dad. All of a sudden the car started to go forwards, and then back over and over. There were pedals on the passengers side and even the slightest touch would make the car move. For some reason though, you couldn't stop the car on the passengers side. Then I saw my Dad coming, he assumed I was driving off without him, but I tried to show him that I couldn't control the car. The car was going in reverse and my Dad was trying to stop it...
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Me, my sister and her friend were at our Dad's house. (I can only remember bits and pieces of this). My mum asked me to come home some time during this but I thought it was too early, then I checked the clock and saw it was 4-something-pm so decided I could come home.
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I heard that my favourite basketball teamed had signed a new American, although it wasn't the one that I predicted.
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I had climbed some sort of tower with a couple of people watching. At the top on a screen was finance news (which stock was up and all that s**t.).

My roomate enters the house where we're staying on campus and exclaims that the police are coming. I immediately gather my things and exit through the back. It's dark and cold outside much like in real life. The sirens and lights of the police cars break the night's existence. I begin to climb a metal fence like they always do in COPS. Once on the other side, I quickly change clothes as the Sun seems to be up. Consequently, the students begin to go to class and I am lost among them. I feel relief, as it will be impossible to find me now. I see my friend Dale S.

Wow, last one, and the first one of this year. That went pretty quickly. (I didn't realize that I already had half of them typed up in various places.)

1/1/11

((Note: Each time I woke up, I unintentionally re-entered the same dream.))

1- Supernatural Part I
Something strange is going on with aliens. They are having a weird effect on blond people, causing them to have superhuman powers and giving them visions of the future. My mind instantly goes to a certain blond, the blondist person I've ever seen... I worry what effect this must be having on her, but I don't have time to search. My cousins have been affected as well; I am busy trying to interpret their prophecies and writing a note about the crazyness to my friend.

2- Supernatural Part II
A violent storm breaks out, another result of the incoming alien-induced apocalypse. I run to the front door, where my mother is watching in horror as a thick black cloud begins spawning tornadoes left and right. Instantly becoming lucid, I assure her, "Don't worry, it's just a dream." I hold out my hand and dispel each tornado as it comes my way. Very draining...

3- Supernatural Part IV
I have a vision of my own (even though I'm not blond ). In the vision, I see an army of angels transform before my eyes into a legion of demons. A voice declares that the Christians are following a lie, that the Legions of God are demons damned for eternity, that a destroyer shall come and end the great deceit. It also mentions a child, saying "her actions will be the catalyst."

I started off with my mother and sister. We were going on some sort of vacation together. We were shopping at some point, and I was mentioning that I had spent all my money. They didn't seem to be listening, so I told them that I had absolutely no money left. I held up my wallet and shook it to show them. I didn't think it would be a big problem, but they started making a big deal about it.

Then we were seemingly staying at some ranch for a vacation. We were going to stay there a week. On the last day, the Friday, we were allowed to go on a trail ride. The next thing I knew I was mounted on some big horse. I leaned down and hugged its neck. As I was looking over, I realized there was a little colt or filly in a coat. It was bright blue. It didn't even occur to me that it wasn't normal.

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I was at a book store. I was in some sort of class. BE was there. We were looking at books. Someone told us that we had to pick a book that reflected how we felt at that moment. I saw Gone with the Wind on a shelf, and I picked it out. It had a pink cover with gold letters. I decided to climb on top of the bookshelf and sit there for some reason.

Somehow this led to me watching a video of some guy trying to sell me something. That was the end of it.

12/27/10

This is what I get for watching Resident Evil before going to bed.

Zombie Virus

The world has been infected with the dreaded T-virus; everyone around me, including the animals, are quickly becoming undead flesh eaters. School is no longer safe; I barely survive an encounter with a zombie third grader before high tailing it back home.

Home isn't much safer. My poor little Sadie is long gone, leaving only my rats uninfected. However, the ferret ((which doesn't exist in real life)) is not acting right. I am desperately trying to keep it away from me and my rats, but it leaps in the cage and bites Luna. I jerk it out of the cage by it's tail and throw it on the floor. Poor Luna is still in it's vicious little jaws. I slam the cage down on top of them repeatedly, squashing them flat and sending blood splattering all over the floor. I look at Dusty, my sole surviving pet, and begin to cry. My mom walks into the room at this point. "I can't keep doing this!" I sob. "I don't want to see my pets die anymore!"

My mom tells me to get a grip on myself, which I promply do. "I love you Luna," I whisper to the bloodied pulp of a rat lying on the floor. "I love you, Dusty."

((At that point, I wake up. Normally I like zombie dreams, but this is not one of them. The next one, however, was MUCH more pleasant. ^^ I don't mind killing zombies when I have Alice and Claire on my side!!!))

12/19/10

In Night's Lair
I manage to get on the bad side of a dark King, and am suffering the consequences. Due to the influence of the King's creepy shadow creatures, my cat gets trampled by a mob of hysteric civilians. Fortunately, I manage to get them off of her with minimal damage.

She is, however, injured. From the looks of the way she's limping, I think her hip is broken. I tell my dad that we should get her to the vet immediately. She disagrees. First she points out that it's only her paw, not her hip, and that she can wait until I am out of danger. (I do not find it a bit odd that she's speaking; I seem to think that it's quite normal.) I don't have time to object, as I'm suddenly whisked away to the Null Chamber. (Obviously I play too much zOMG.)

A lot of people on my friend's list are there for some reason; one of them has screwed something up and gotten us all stuck. Somehow they all manage to teleport out, leaving me unable to do so. Hmph.

I don't fancy being stuck in the Null Chamber for the rest of my life, so I begin looking for an alternate means back out. Finally I find a secret door, which leads me into the Realm of Shadows; a place I definitely do not need to be in.

Sure enough, the King's shadow creatures are there, very aware of my presence. After a fairly short chase, they've got me cornered. I am perched atop some tall bookshelves, with nowhere to go. A very tall, very fat, very strong creepzoid approaches, smirking at me evilly. I had gotten him in trouble with the King towards the beginning of the dream; it is obvious he is about to get his revenge.

Then, out of nowhere, I am grabbed by the wrist and jerked into another dimension. I see, much to my surprise, that my rescuer is the Queen. (Though not MY Queen...) We are running up a staircase, our haste tinged with desperation. I realize that we are in the Castle. Couldn't she have brought me to a safer place than this???

She practically throws me into her private chambers and tells me that she'll be back as soon as she can. Then she shuts the door, and I am alone. I immediately begin searching for a hiding place. I see that she has a door to the Null Chamber in her closet; that will probably be my best bet if the King comes searching.

As I am crawling around, looking for other suitable hiding places, I see that I am being watched by one of the maids. How did she get in here without me noticing!? "Please," I say, but I can see the hunger in her eyes. She knows she will be rewarded greatly for alerting the King to my whereabouts.

She runs out of the room. I am now watching a cut scene of the Queen running frantically back to her room, trying to reach me before the King does. As I watch, I note true concern in her face and I wonder why she cares so much. I can hear the King's voice close behind her, saying that it's about time he got another queen.

Everyone bursts into the room all at once. There is no point in hiding; I will stand and fight honorably, even though the odds are stacked against me.

11/30/10

1- A New Level of Narcissism
I seem to be a different person than my RL self, in an alternate life. A guy around my age is with me, an old friend who obviously wants to be more than "just friends." I am discussing a problem that has recently developed.

About a week previous, I split into two separate people. There are now two halves of me, and we act exactly alike in every way except one: She seems to have inherited the devious side of me, while I contain the more inhibited side. I fear whatever evil she is planning. Although we have grown inappropriately fond of each other, I worry that she will eventually kill me in whatever endeavor she is pursuing.

As I am discussing these concerns with my friend, I have a flashback of the day the split occurred. I see myself lying in bed, gripping my grandmother's severed head while tendrils of dark energy seep from my eyes and mouth. Once it recedes, I see myself and my friend go off into the woods to bury the head.

At the end of the dream, my double is embracing me from behind. I have another brief flashback (but one that I choose not to share. ) I ask her if she intends to kill me. "Is that what you've been worried about?" she asks in a somewhat soothing voice. I realize that, while I don't trust her, she will most likely spare my life.

Wow... That's a new one.

10/10/10

Staying in a hotel at Georgia... Great place to have some seriously disturbed dreams. :S

1- Sacrifice
I am performing a ritual that calls for the sacrifice of an animal. I buy a huge meat cleaver to get the job done, but then I can't go through with it. ((That's all I have written in my DJ, but it's definitely an abridged version. I remember accidentally killing a cat before I even got the knife, and some creepy person attacking me. I believe I used the meat cleaver to chop their hand off, but it's been several months, so the memory is very vague.))

2- More Neo-Nazis
I am stealing a book in a future where books are illegal, when the Nazis come to take me away. I quickly hide the book in my jacket.

They ship me off, but after a huge ordeal ((which I stupidly didn't write down)) I make an escape on horseback.

3- Torture
A CREEPY preview for some movie comes on tv:

A flash of a monster-woman, with a spider like face and arachnid jaws. A red-headed girl strapped to a table. "Just relax," the spider lady laughs. She drags her long, metallic claws down the girl's legs. Flashes of torture. The lady has huge garden shears that she uses to cut off the girl's fingers, one by one, while the girl cries over and over, "Mother forgive me, Mother forgive me, Mother forgive me!"

The clip ends, showing the name of the movie. We all stare at the screen in disturbed silence.

10/8/10

1-Hidden
I have the odd feeling that I am not alone; after a brief search, I find my friend Cheyenne hiding in my closet. She tells me that she's mad at someone in her family and doesn't want to go home. I decide to help her hide.

This proves to be quite the task, considering she seems to be drunk and refuses to stay hidden.

"How am I going to get you to school tomorrow without my mom finding out?"

"We can just explain everything to her in the morning," she decides. She sits down on my bed. "Promise you'll let me keep a marriage proposal ring?"

"Uh, sure... Who proposed to you?"

"My brother."

I am unable to hide my shock. "Um, I don't know about that..."

"Please?" She takes out a small plastic ring that says "BEST FRIEND" and smiles sadly. "He's in Heaven now." I am left with the disturbing image of a fetus dying in the womb before I wake up.

9/19/10

1- Evil Sophie
((First, an explanation. Sophie is another of my "alter ego" characters that I use for writing. No, I do not have dissociative identity disorder. ))

Sophie turns evil and wishes to join an order of evil magicians that we had read about in a book. She signs us up for a summer camp so she can kill some people. "Not my problem," I think, but upon arrival I realize that I will be the one to pay for her actions since she's using MY body. I forcibly regain control of my body and cast her out. She becomes a small white cat.

I pick her up and pet her, whispering things in her ear. "You look cute as a kitty," I giggle, and she bites my hand to express her annoyance. One of the camp girls asks if she can hold her. "No," I say, "this cat is rather unpleasant." As if to emphasize this, Sophie viciously bites my hand again.

I was going to attempt to pretend to be Sophie while at camp, but she had put HER age down, and no one is going to believe that I am 13. Instead I signed in as a late arrival and ended up sharing a cabin with a girl named Natalie. While I am asleep, Sophie takes on her human form and kills my poor roommate. I wake up shortly afterward. "Not my problem," I think once again, and have a brief conversation with Sophie as she is removing Natalie's bones from her body. Some of the things she is saying make me slightly uncomfortable, so I leave the room to have an early breakfast.

I am speaking to a boy named Roy (who Sophie intends to kill) about the language of the elves from Tolkien. Suddenly I realize that if I don't tell anyone that Sophie murdered Natalie, when I was clearly a witness, I will be considered and accomplice. Darn...

I tell the headmistress of the camp about Sophie's deeds. (In her human form, Sophie was a known camper, since she DID sign up.) Th lady doesn't seem very concerned, even when I tell her of Sophie's plans to kill Roy.

One of the other campers informs me that Sophie has put a "lunar microwave" (whatever that is) in the bathroom.

((Ahahaha! This dream is ironic, because Sophie is the LAST one of my characters I'd expect to turn evil. ))

I was hanging out with two aliens. One male and one female. They were both a dark blue in color, but were also an equally dark purple. They were humanoid, and displayed sexual dimorphism. The female had a body similar to female humans, and the male had a body more like male humans, but much more board in the chest and shoulders. The female seemed to be wearing a mask, but it was no mask, she just had a changing face that was out of proportion with her body. Me and the female were playing in an ocean, swimming around and having fun. I don't remember the details very well. I swam to the beach, which was raised a bit, and I was unable to get out. The male alien came over and lifted me out with ease along with the female alien.

Soon after I witnessed the two engaging in sex, which was interesting to say the least. The female was on her back, and the male kissed her neck to her chest. From their groins sprouted many tentacle like parts, the male's blue and the female's pink. Both of them became upright and swelled up like ballons, and their tentacle groins touched together suddenly. All this was done in a cartoon like manner. Green goo oozed from the female's backside, and when the male removed himself from the female there were suddenly a line of alien men. I could hear a narrator say "and sometimes after mating a baby will pop out onto the male's member!" and sure enough one of the male's had an alien baby on him. I rationalized that it must be from a previous mating.

Right after I was walking from a house outside, and a TV was placed on the outside of the house. A news reporter was on saying that they had to make the alien mating scene cartoon like to keep a PG13 rating. I was walking with a yorkie in the muddy grass to a car/spaceship to say goodbye to the aliens. We said our goodbyes and they departed.

I walked back inside the house, where there was a family gathering taking place. I was forced to eat cake, which I was not happy about. While sitting at the table, the tv plugged into the wall began to smoke. I noticed all the lights in the house flickering and beginning to smoke, seeing through the walls to the other rooms having the problem. I determined this was happening because of some plastic sheet that was covering the sockets, so I removed them.

I then decided to go to a grocery store, but it only sold dog/cat clothes in the freezer bins. I wanted to find something for my cat, but could only find larger clothes for dogs.

9/13/10

1- The Split
A strange lady is after my alter ego... I get the notion that she's not entirely evil (as we share a somewhat humorous banter while she stalks us) but all the same she wants Madison dead. Somehow the two of us (Madison and I) end up splitting into two separate yet identical entities. Rather than kill us both, the lady tries to figure out which one is which. Until she does, the danger is over.

((Not very long, but I really enjoyed this dream.))