non-lucid

The Torso

I am out walking behind "my" house. The property is familiar, but it isn't like the house I live in now, or any other house I can think of at the moment. It is a little like my Grandparents' house where I used to spend time when I was really little, and where my family lived for a little while. Anyway, I decide to do some volunteer work for the U.S. Army Corps of Engineers, finding posts that mark boundaries for flood control.

I get to the top of a hill, and see some posts down in the woods. However, I also see a bag full of a human torso, and some body parts. Obviously, there has been a murder. I think to myself "I don't have much of an excuse to be out here. If the cops investigate this, they will find that I was in the area. I don't trust the legal system to not find me guilty of murder, even if there is no evidence".

I decide that the wisest course of action is to move the bag of torso to a different place. I do so, and then return to looking for posts.

My family goes somewhere. When we return, the police have found the bag, and are investigating. We go somewhere else, and when we come back the police are at the top of the hill where I was, with dogs. The dogs have traced the scent of the bag back to its original position. Then, I realize that I didn't wear gloves when I moved the back. I shudder, thinking that (a) I didn't use gloves to move the bloody mess and (b) my fingerprints are now all over the bag!

I consider the matter further. An ond bag has lots of fingerprints on it, right? How could they prove I had anything to do with the murder? And besides, if they did discover that I had had anything to do with the body, I could just tell them the truth. I think about my story, and how flimsy it will sound. I consider confessing to the police what I did. I think maybe I should send them an email, explaining that I moved the bag but didn't have anything to do with the murder. But then I think again that the justice system will probably find me guilty no matter what. I decide to leave things alone. It has been a few days, maybe this will become just another cold case.

It's graduation time, and my mother is with me. A few of my friends congratulate me and tell me how great a person I am. For the reception, I'm reaching for wine with a 21% alcohol level.

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To dream that you are at a graduation, represents your achievements. You are successfully transitioning to a higher level. And you are ready to move forward with your accomplishments and perform more important things.

To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character.

To dream of drinking wine, symbolizes festivity, celebration, companionship, satisfaction and success. You are content with the way your life is going. The dream may also be a pun on "whining" and how you like to whine about things. In particular, to dream that you are drinking red wine, signifies excess and sensuality.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I’m at a hotel, with my parents. (The hotel has some resemblance to a place an Italy and to a cruise ship I’ve been on in waking life. Most of it is random though)
A few things happen… there’s a discussion with my parents… (the dream skips a few minutes ahead)
I’m following my parents downstairs. The stairs have an odd flow to them. We seem to be leaving the hotel.
I notice my parents are dressed for a fancy dinner, but I’m wearing shorts and a t-shirt. I ask my dad if I should be dressed. He says yes.
I’m annoyed that no one told me and I decide to go back to my hotel room to get changed.
On my way back I end up in some kind of a 2 floor high lobby room connecting different hotel rooms together. The structure makes little sense.
I want to go to the second floor, but the only way up is to jump onto some kind of indoor sunshade which is attached to the edge of the second floor.
I try to pull myself up but I notice the thing can barely carry my weight, I risk breaking it. Some people enter the lobby.
I feel like I look stupid and could get into trouble for breaking the thing, so I let go and push it back in its original position.

I'm confused, and look around for another way to get to the second floor.
There's a small bench in the middle of the room I'm currently in, and a young women is sitting there reading a book.
I want to ask her how to get to the second floor and approach her.
One of the hotel rooms on the current floor opens, 2 girls run our, and they leave the door wide open.
Why did they do that?
The girl from the bench gets up and looks at me: "follow me"
She starts approaching the room where the door was left open.

I follow her into the room, but I'm not really sure why.
She tells me to sit on the bed. I suddenly become aroused, but it feels weird. Something is wrong but I can't tell what it is.
She sits on my lap, just looking at me and smiling. I try to focus on figuring out what's currently happening, and suddenly I can think clearly.

I can feel my energy being drained, she's absorbing it, and judging by the look on her face, she's enjoying it quite a bit. A succubus?
I'm not amused. I send a sudden surge of energy her way. She can't absorb it this fast and jumps up in pain.
I stand up and get into a defensive position.

"How the hell did you do that? Nobody can do this, there is no way you know!"

I think I understand what she's saying. She's never met a lucid dreamer, she doesn't know that you can resist when you're lucid.
Feeling superior, I decide to play mind games with her.

"You're quite young, aren't you?"

"Screw you! This is impossible!"

I act amused and laugh at her, like she's a little child not fully understanding how the world she's in is working.
Obviously I have nearly no idea myself, but I don't show this to her.
She's pissed, and I can clearly feel her projecting thoughts my way.
She's trying to make me fall in love with her, and let her do whatever she wants to me.
The feeling is strong, she grows more attractive every second.

But I know what's happening, and manage to focus.

"Kiss me!" she says, absolutely certain that she managed to control me.

"No."

She jumps back furious and confused.
I laugh at her again.

"You better not try this again in the future young one."

She's scared. She draws a portal, gives me another quick look and flees through it.
I contemplate following her for a second but the portal closes behind her.

The dream fades away...

Today I couldn't really remember a lot when I woke up, but over the day I started to remember some vague details:

this one was written during WBTB:
I'm in my old elementary school, I am helping people to install Dutch-programs (WTH!!) because only the one for the last year works (the name had the letters 'SP' in it, wonder if that was a sign...). I try something with an old flashdrive to put R4-Chips in. Dream Recall minimal.

DS: Back at old elementary school, the old flashdrive I never use.

This is what I started to remember over the day, only some vague fragments:
Somethin with my crush' tarantula. I wrote something on my forehead with bleu pen (it may have been 'lucid' god, I'm really missing the hints...) and felt like I should wash it of, it worked. I remember the feeling of the pen and the washing of feeling very real. Something with a red haired girl in a white parka (may have been a charrie from a book I read). Something with a snow-covered hill. Someone (female, with dreadlocks) is getting hit by several people, woman stopping it. Something with some sort of indians (the sort of indians from America, not India).

DS: The tarantula acting odd, writing on my own forehead, indians

As a segway from the previous dream, the cop who had come to his senses
bought plane tickets for me and some other people. I am not certain as to where
we were going. The next thing I remember, we were in seats taking off, but this
wasn't an ordinary plane. It looked like a fancy building on the inside and our group
were the only passengers. There was a fountain in the center and all the seats were
along the side on a balcony. I knew we were still on the plane because each side was
lined with windows and I could clearly see clouds. The people on the plane consisted
of my family, my best friend, my crush, and a friend from college who has never met
either of them. She seemed to be best friends with my crush. I did absolutely nothing
for a while, just joining in the conversation and such, then finally, it was time to land.
we all got in our seats and fastened the belts. Then there was a countdown of some
sort and we were almost landed when I woke up.

I am at my house, in my front yard, and it is mid-day. I am, in some way,
disfigured ( like a zombie or something ), and the only one who sees me
for the normal person that I am is my best friend. We are down on my
driveway talking when a police car goes by. We know that for some reason
the police are looking for me, and I'm like America's most wanted. So I run
as fast as I can into the woods but it's too late. The cop already saw me and
called in for backup. Seconds later, a cop comes with a backhoe and starts
trying to kill me with the arm. I manage to grab on to it hang on. I forget what
happened next but somehow the cop realized that I never actually did
anything and decides to help me. It gets a little fuzzy after that.

I was in class and I was making friends with a few people, and the bell rung. I was leaving, but they all wanted me to walk with them instead of by myself. I turned around and walked with them, and we all got to a point where our classes went a separate way. I was thinking I could get used to do this on a regular basis, and I looked up at the sky and saw this huge satellite.

All of a sudden there was a big blast that emitted from it, and the satellite began it's decent. Everyone was panicking and trying to run in doors. I was just saying "i knew this would happen". And I headed to a set of doors and i noticed that there were gray hand prints on the doors from where people were trying to get out of that particular building. I waited there until the explosion subsided, and walked inside.

It was my next class. I was late, and I was looking for a seat. I sat on one side of the room, and changed my mind, and sat on the other. I don't know what the teacher was talking about, but it was very dark, and there was some presentation.


I also had a dream that I was watching a movie in a theater, and the people in it were skiing in the desert.

I was in a living room lying on the floor smoking a cigarette (something I've been quit for over two years now). I turned to my friend who was lying beside me, stumped the cigarette out and gave him the packet of 20 cigarettes because I was dissapointed in my self for smoking. I got up, went to sit on the couch and started to watch the TV. At this point I got wind that I might have been in a dream, but I wasn't entirely sure so I decided to do my most common reality check (looking away and looking back). Since I had turned my attention away to my friend who I gave the packet of cigarettes to I looked back at him and I noticed he had a 10 pack of a different brand, at first I thought it was a good indication of a dream however I thought to my self that he might have simply put the 20 pack I gave him away and the ones I was looking at were his 10 pack, so I turned my attention to the TV.

One the TV was an advert, it was of a family in a kitchen, advertising what, I don't know. As I watched the TV advert it looked like any TV advert would look in real life, people were speaking coherent sentences (unfortunately I don't remember what words were said), everything made sense and no matter how many times I looked away when I looked back at the TV it continued playing just where it left off. I even looked around the room at the people who were with me, some sitting on chair/couch, some siting at a dining table and again no matter how many times I looked away, when I looked back everything was just how I left it.

I was confused, really confused, for the first time in my life I was absolutely convinced it was reality. I sat there for a moment and thought to my self; I tried to remember how I got there and I couldn't (this unfortunately didn't act as a reality check as all other checks seemed to override it). My reality was a mess, I had no memory, I was completely lost, the world I once knew was no more and I had no idea what my place in this world was. Eventually I just accepted it and said to my self "this is reality," at which point one of the dream characters looked at me and laughed, as if to say "of course it's reality, stupid!"

I turned to my cousin who sat beside and asked him if he wanted to leave, to which he replied yes. He got up from the couch and when he stood up I put my hand out to him as if to help me up. He just looked at me, I said to him "help me up please," to which he replied "get up your self you lazy bitch!" This wasn't normal behaviour for him, the confusion set in again and I started to get angry. I shoved him and he shoved me back, so I grabbed ahold of him and pushed him right into the TV which was still playing just as coherently as it was before, untill the screen smashed.

I turned to the people sat at the dining table and they looked at me like I was crazy, I started to question the people I was with and it became too much for me. As much as I was willing to accept reality, I had to do one final check and try to wake my self up, it was the only way I was going to find out for sure what was reality. I woke my self up...

I wake up in my room, except its from the previous house I used to live in. I'm nonlucid so I accept whats going on as reality, but then I try something that really has had me confused since having the dream. I lay down and close my eyes and try to induce a WILD. I see some HI behind my dream eyes and I even start to get heavy vibrations go up and down my spine, then I get a rushing feeling go to my head (and like in previous WILD attempts) I hear a white noise and an odd "ping!" sound when I know i've made it inside the dreamworld. Except this time instead of the "ping!" noise, it was actually the sound of getting a coin in a Super Mario game, more precisely from Super Mario Galaxy where you hear the sound come from the little speaker in the Wii controller. I mean, exactly, like that.

I then find myself in a black abyss where a dream forms and I'm playing a new Mario game I've never played before, it was really fun actually, it felt light years beyond any console game I've played. It was a strange mix of first person, side scrolling, and 3D platformer at the same time? This whole time I'm completely in control and "lucid" in the sense that I knew I was dreaming... I just didn't know I was already in a dream to begin with and there was no need to WILD in the first place! So I guess it was semi-lucid.

art by Marcus Blättermann

Anyway it was lots of fun. Well, up until Bowser killed me and as soon as he did, I woke up. But not in real life, but rather in the bed and that old room I used to live in. Still of course convinced, that I'd woken up and thinking "aw man, what a short WILD".

Looking back at it now, I understand the argument brought up by Inception (and of course before it as well, on this forum) between those who believe that layered dreams are real and those who think its just that we perceive them to be layered but are in fact just one dream. I'd like to say there's no such thing as layers, but after having experienced it myself, it's a fascinating idea and it felt pretty convincing, but I'm undetermined until I have more practice and experience with the subject.

First night since joining the site:
Scene: Old School/home town
Actors: Old teacher (Thu) school mates (ON, Morten, Martin, Benjamin, Frederich B)
From the beginning:
I cannot remember the start of the dream, but as far as I remember back, I was walking in one of the old streets, and for some reason I had to drive Martin, Benja and Frederich home, on my bicycle. And by that I mean that they sat on my bicycle, which apperantly was large enough for them to sit on it, and me to drive it. Anyway, after we had driven Frederich home, we went to my old school, where Thu was the leader of a youth club projekt, and ON was in it. As we walked around the school, we also met Morten, whom I haven't talked to in a long time. Can't really remember much other than that. I also remember that I was walking in the main street of my town, but because it was so dark, I chose to turn around, and walk home.

1. My mom's side of the family was having at party at someone's house. I am not sure where it was located, and at this point in the dream, I don't know what it is for. We all sit at a large, white table to eat dinner. I can see out the window that it is late. I went over to my little cousin Lauren, who was having pasta. In the pasta was green peppers, red peppers, and tomatoes. I gave her more tomatoes, but she did not mind. For some reason, I didn't know tomatoes were already in the pasta! I went over to my cousin Jeannine, since Adriana was texting on her phone. All of a sudden, everyone went to one couch and sat on it. It was 15 minutes to the New Year. When I saw the countdown, I woke up due to my alarm.

2. There was something about driving. I think I was driving and it was foggy outside.

3. I was at my aunt's house, but it looked exactly like my friend, Kyle's house. We were going to make a haunted house. My little cousins would scare people by swinging down from zip lines located in the house.

1/24/11 - Highschool Prostitution
Dream Non-dream Lucid

I was at some weird fairgrounds-like place, with abandoned circus tents all around. There were no lights except for where I was standing; I was next to a small red-and-white tent, and there were lights strung across posts above it. A peculiar, obese old woman with extravagant clothing approached me. I can't quite recall what we discussed, but for some reason it became clear to me that this was not somewhere I wanted to stay. The woman informed me that a spell would keep me trapped within the tent I mentioned for exactly one hour, and that I would find an old acquaintance there. She opened a flap in the tent, and I walked inside against my will. The flap closed behind me, and I examined my surroundings. It really was quite a small space. There was a queen sized bed in the corner, and discarded clothes covering almost half the floor, resulting in hardly any space to walk around. What I was more concerned with, however, was the boy standing in front of me, wearing nothing but a pair of oversized boxers. I recognized him immediately as a boy - no, now a man - whom I'd gone to school with until halfway through seventh grade. He took a couple of steps towards me, but stopped when I said his name aloud. He suddenly seemed to recognize me. I asked him what he was doing here, and what was going on. He said he'd dropped out of highschool and was living here, as a male prostitute, to get by. According to his words, the old woman's entrapment spell would not wear off until he and I'd had sex. I glared at him as I thought it over. My dream self, being in my early 20's(and therefore what I consider "old enough"), reluctantly decided to go along with it, so long as he agreed to abandon his current lifestyle afterwards. We then spoke little else, because the two of us started making out. He started to unbutton my shirt and I ended up awake in my own bed.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

(false memories / background)
I'm an assassin, highly skilled with blades and firearms, but I'm not a bad guy.
For some reason I was on a science project about entering another dimension through a portal some scientists opened.
100 of us went there, the portal collapsed, we couldn't go back.
We immediately got split up into 2 groups due to internal disputes, my group and the "bad guys".
After some time (a year or so) every group has erected their own mansion.
We know that the other group is still capable of opening portals, we're basically part of a science experiment to see how we'll survive in this dimension or something.
We're angry, we want to go home, and we stage an attack onto the other mansion, to secure their portal and go home.


The dream starts during the attack, I'm with some army guys in military gear.
I myself only have a standard pistol with a few ammo magazines, and some poisoned needles, I don't need anything else.

I’m following my team up some stairs leading to the mansion. We stop just before reaching the top. There is a single guard, he hasn’t spotted us yet.
I tap our group leader on the shoulder and make him a sign to stand down, I got this. I have a small belt of needles strapped around my left wrist.
I remove one needle. They are poisoned with a very strong sedative. I leap out from my cover and throw the needle.
Before the guard realizes what’s happening it hits him in the neck and he drops to the ground. We’re moving in…

… We’ve been in the mansion for some time. A lot of fighting has been going on. There are only 4 soldiers left in my team.
As we move into a new room, suddenly a woman appears on a balcony just above us. I instinctively target her within a split second, but I hesitate to shoot.
I never hesitate… why did I? The woman had a hand gun pointed at my face just as fast as I did. And suddenly I realized who she was: Ziva (Ziva David from NCIS).
She and I go way back. We’re both assassins. I had no idea she was in this world, and I assume she didn’t know I was.
This is a very odd situation; I’m not sure what to do. I’m not going to shoot my friend, and there is no way she’d ever side with villains.
But I need to keep moving, or else I’ll be in trouble.
I take a shot, targeting the balcony. I manage to startle her for a split second, which is enough for me to get moving again.
I’m close to the portal room. An overwhelming enemy force is approaching us, we don't stand a chance and my allies fall quickly.
I have no choice but to make a run for the portal room alone. After some very fancy acrobatic moves, I manage to slide down a set of stairs whilst shooting enemy soldiers trying to kill me…

… I’m entering the portal room, at the same time Ziva is entering it from the other side. We meet again.
The room only has 2 entrances, one at each side. We’re both standing just in front of each other, both having a gun pulled to the other one’s head.
Both of us ask at the same time: “Why?”
Me: “What do you mean why? You guys have the only portal to go home, and you cut us off!”
Ziva: “What portal? There is no portal! You guys came to steal our water reserves!”
There’s a short period of silence. I have trusted her all my life, she has no reason to lie to me.
Me: “Our base is next to a fresh water source, why would you think we’d attack for water?”
The expression on her face changes. She clearly didn’t know. She had been lied to. I slowly move my gun back down. She waits for a few more seconds but finally follows.
We take a closer look at the room we’re in. All the walls have been filled with formulas, even the ceiling. It’s mostly written in red, it looks like written in blood.
There are magic / alchemy symbols all over the walls as well. Fancy pentagrams and all sorts of things.
I look at her. “You’ve never been here, have you? This is the portal room.”
She looks to the ground, where we’re both standing. There are circular burn marks. We’re standing in the exact spot the portal used to be.
“FUCK!” Ziva screams in anger.
We’ve both been fooled, both part of some kind of experiment.

We hear steps. The army guys are approaching.
“Now what…?” Ziva asks me. “Your guys are all dead and mine are in on the whole thing. They’ve been coming into this room all the time… Once they figure out that I know…”
I interrupt her: “We’re on our own.”
I drop the clip from my gun, knowing it only has 3 bullets left. I replace it with a full clip. 2 Clips to go and one bullet left in the gun, 37 shots.
We’re cut off, we hear the enemy closing in from both sides. There is no way to take cover in the room, it’s empty.
We stand back to back, supporting each other, guns drawn at both doors.
Army guy: “2 armed hostiles in the next room. Proceed with caution, shoot to kill.”
I can feel Ziva’s back shivering in anger, but right after hearing the call, she stops.
Although we’re both fueled by anger, we’re professionals, we’re fully concentrated, and although the odds are against us, we still stand a chance.
Army guy: “Go go go!”
Time slows down. The first guy appears in the doorway, within a split second my gun is aimed at his head and a shot fired.
The moment I take the shot my vision blacks out. I still hear the after sound of the gunshot echoing though until finally I hear the bullet casing dropping to the ground.
It hits the ground once… twice… and the moment it would hit it for the third time, I wake up.

Realizing I just woke up I turn around to see if Ziva is okay. Staring at my pillow I am very confused for a few seconds.
Then, after realizing how wrong that thought process was I feel like a bit of an idiot. It puts a smile on my face though. Waking up randomness can be quite amusing.

I'm new to posting Dream Journal entries here, so if any aspect of this isn't correct, let me know!

Now, onto my first entry:

I and two friends, Chuck and Reg, were being chased down a seemingly endless stairwell by a "Tank," the muscular, hulking type of zombie from the "Left 4 Dead" video-games. We ran down the stairs for some time before suddenly hitting the bottom and entering a mall. At this point the pursuit of the Tank zombie behind us became somewhat secondary in my thoughts as I noticed an ad being played for an animated film that was, strangely, a crossover sequel to the cartoon movies "The Little Mermaid" and "The Pebble and the Penguin" and including a number of the "Disney Princess" characters.
Suddenly Chuck, for some reason, launched a massive broadsword at me that hit a nearby bulls-eye and barely missed me. He seemed to be attempting to hurt and bother me for fun all of a sudden. As I attempted to escape he "trapped" me in a crowd by somehow causing everyone to abruptly perform a Bollywood musical number, and I was caught up in the chaotic yet choreographed-style movements of those around me amidst blaring Bollywood music coming from everywhere.
I noticed my dad among the dancers as well and we escaped the dancing and entered a book store, possibly a Border's or Walden's. Inside, I found myself suddenly searching for "Venus in Furs," a book I've heard of but never read and of which I have only a vague knowledge. Some time after this I awoke.

*I realize this is late*

I was on YouTube. I was watching a video that my friend Mina posted. I posted a comment saying "Hey have you seen Kat's (our friend) bra? Apparently she lost it in the lunchroom."