non-lucid

Vividness-7
Control-0

Before i went to bed i kept repeating in my head "im dreaming" and then i fell asleep then about an hour later i did WILD. So i finally realized i was ina dream but i couldnt control myself or anything. So i just finally let myself go with the dream and so in the dream im at school and we are talking about trigonometry(i hate it) and then the bell rings so i go to next class.but like always i wonder around he school for while and then the tardy bell rings and then they get me in trouble then they send me to 2 period but right when was about to go to class some kid stopped me and wanted to sell me stuff and i was like "what kind of stuff". But i find out that all he was selling was teddy bears so i was like ok so then i just left and as i was opening my 2 period door i woke up.

Can anyone explain to me why knew i was dreaming but couldnt control myself or anything else?

Took 1 100mg b6 pill last night. Tried a new technique out which did work. The technique is simply repeating in your head "I am lucid dreaming" while thinking of those words in your head. Worked for me last night. Anyways here's what i remember from last night.

Lucidity-7
Vividness-6

I'm in my house. All i can remember is that i think i'm dreaming. I plug my nose and understand that i am dreaming. I still have doubts so i shove my finger through my hand and move it around. It hurts some when it comes out but it verifies that yes i am dreaming.

I walk outside. My mom's boyfriend tim doesn't want me driving the car.(in my dreams when powers don't work for me i just drive around) He takes it out back so i can't use it while he claims he needs to work on it. I pretend to care. I say, " oh darn now i can't drive it" while i sit down in it with the keys. I close the door, lock it, turn on the car. My mom and her boyfriend are banging on the windows trying to get me to stop. I press the gas and i'm off.

This part is hazy, but i think i went to school after that. I'm not sure, but i just remember that women were around.

Dream 2

Lucidity-0
Vividness-8

I only remember half of this dream, the second half. I'm running around a yard throwing molotovs and axes at other people. I'm pretty damn good at it too. Eventually i run out of Molotov's and come down to a be-be gun pistol with no ammo. Someone starts chasing me down. I'm faster than him and once i pass a corner i jump into a car. I load up the pistol with a shot and head into the house. I was apparently trying to find something, but i don't remember what or who.

Dream skip to my school where me and my friend are hanging out in the cafeteria. I pick up a laptop from a fridge and start playing it. A girl walks up to me that i know and asks about classes. I say i don't need to be here and i'm only here for fun.

I've been asked to audition for a teacher. Somehow this audition is a huge life-changing deal. She has already decided to reject me - that's clear - and the audition is merely a formality. The trouble is that my music isn't played by someone born into a wealthy enough family for her.

I start. She immediately covers the keys so I can't see what I'm doing. Fine, I accept that as a teaching technique with some students, but it's a little weird at an audition. She then starts demonstrating arpeggios, Hanon moves, elaborate sostenuto progressions, the works. I'm out of practice and intimidated. I'm not about to show her the music I've written - she's a hostile force.

This is right after I've been introduced to two unattractive gentlemen and asked to choose between them. "Neither" was not an accepted option, so I am now on the blacklist with this piano woman.

Finally, I've had enough. I start playing Scott Joplin's "The Entertainer" - and not perfectly, either, but just because I like playing the song.

She stops the audition and asks me to talk to an adjudicator on my way out.

Before this, I'm on my way to the audition room and I'm walking through a huge house, very clean and spacious. I see lions and antelopes and other huge beasts materializing before my eyes - some of them being ice sculptures, yet alive. At one point I say there are lions, but my sister says, "Lions? There are no lions," and gives me a significant look as if to say, "Don't tell this lion he's a lion!" I pick up on that and say, "Of course there are no lions, because there are no predators. Lions eat people." Then I catch a hurt expression in the lion's face, and I hastily add, "Except the good lions, of course."

Real-life parallels: I've been helping my 20-month-old nephew play the piano. He keeps trying to close the keyboard cover. I showed him how to sweep the keys with his palms and he's fascinated with trying to do that. My sister has repeatedly been correcting things I say in front of the child and ways I deal with the child - in a nice, toddler-friendly voice, of course.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I'm trying to fix my sleeping schedule, so I decided to have a REM rebound day today. Only got a few hours of sleep...

Bedtime: 03.30

07.45: Fragment
*I'm eating mackerell, pineapple and round sandwiches.

07.45: The SP nightmare
I'm in SP. I know what to expect and that it's all in my head. The hallucinations still hit me full on and it's terrible. Somehow it's worse than it's supposed to be and I get scared. I can feel pain in my chest and it feels as if I'm being crushed, all the while hearing an extremely loud sound. I wake up in the dream. I tell a few people about the experience. "It felt like I was trapped there for hours. Like I was being shot right in the chest, over and over"

07.45: Seduction, FAIL!
I enter the taekwondo dojo. Everyone seems to be glad to have me back and I shake a few hands. The master tells us to line up and I get in line at the back with all the white belts. After a few seconds I realise I am no longer a white belt, I've got my green one. I push my way through a few people and end up at the front. There must have been atleast fifty people there and we have to make several rows with people to fit in the relatively small dojo. A female teacher with big breasts stands before the lines of people. She starts giving us instructions on how to warm up correctly. It feels more like Yoga. Stretching and doing super easy dance moves.


The dream skips. I'm in the dressing room. "Hey Matteh, are you going to take a shower or what?" a guy asks me. "Nah, I'll probably do it at home" I tell him and walk out the room in only my underwear. I check if the shower outside is busy. It is, and I realise it's the girls shower. I walk back inside and check the sauna door that leads to another shower. A girl is taking a shower in there. "Hell no, this is the guys shower" I say to myself and enter the room. I walk in the shower and stand before the girl. She smiles at me and knows she's in the wrong place. "Can't we do it together?" she asks me, rubbing up against my leg. I can feel her pubes prickling my leg. I pretend to be interested for a few seconds. I am just about to kiss her, but I push her out.

"Get out" I say and close the glass door to the shower. She won't give up without a fight and stands outside, looking cute. I spot a small red light coming from up above. She's videotaping me with a camera. I tell her it's pointless, I won't do anything as I've already got a girlfriend. Even though I can feel something grow in my pants I refuse to give in to the temptation. Suddenly I'm talking to my friend G's sister. She asks me what kind of cellphone I had back in the days. She shows me a photo of a girl and I remember having an Ericsson.

07.45: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 3½ hours

Supplements before bed: Nothing

That's it! So little sleep, but still recall. I hope I'm getting better and better at it. Would love to dream every day of the week when I start working again. I aim for a lucid tonight. Let's hope my intentions are enough.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Well, here I am again, awake. I've been awake since 12:30. I have to be up at 5:30 anyway to be at work at 7, so I figured I'd just go ahead and post the one dream I had. Won't be going back to sleep anyway.

Bold=dream

I was in my family's bonus room. The light was very bright, and everything looked very clear. I was with my friends B and C. We were shooting rotting, gray zombies as they came at us. It was kinda like a video game. B used her gun to shoot 3 in the face enough times to bring them down. I said "Let me try!". She handed me the gun and 3 more started coming at us. I shot them in the neck and face, but one was very close and almost got us. I ended up bringing them down before they could reach us. C took the gun from me and took his turn at shooting zombies. After that, the dream started to become eerily realistic. It didn't feel like a game anymore. It seemed to get darker in the room, like it was nighttime inside, but still light at the same time. Very strange. Zombies are everywhere now, not sure where B went, but C was still with me. I become terrified for my life. C said "Don't let them get you..."

Then, I woke up, half expecting to be in the bonus room. I was panicking. Also, I looked at my phone to check the time, and C had sent me a message 20 minutes before I woke up, which was kinda weird.

I took a melatonin last night, and I'm thinking I probably shouldn't do that again. I used to take it a lot with no issue, but I guess that's changed. That nightmare was way too realistic for my taste...

Non-dream Dream Lucid

Im not sure in which order I saw these, but I think they went something like this:

1. I had a FA. I walked out of my room, but then it turned into a nightmare (like my FAs allways do). And like allways it was about my parent/s trying to kill me. This time I was given two ways to die, other one was cooking me (how pleasant). Fortunatly I allways get lucid in FAs, but unfortunatly my dream control is pretty near 0. Im not sure what happened next, but I remember hiding in darkness/smoke that suddenly filled the room.

2. I think this was the part where I had about 5-7 FAs in a row (frustrating) before i woke up.

3. I were in my school, but the teachers were unfamiliar (someone explained that it was another school that looked like ours). We watched a film that was about some sailors going on an island (at least I think it was an island) where some men had been murdered in the forest, but the people living in a village didnt know about it because the governant didnt want anyone to know about it. But the sailors heard about it from the kids in the village and thats all I can recall (movie plot worth an Oscar). I felt really tired, so I tried to sleep all the time.

4. I was going to store with a scooter, but for some reason I started going back home before I reach the store. I come to a street where i think my home is (it isnt) and at the end of the road there is an replica of my grandparents house and yard. I accidently fall on top of my grandparents dog and two (dead)cats and they start chasing me (that "dead" means that the cats are dead in real life).I close myself into a closet and realise im dreaming. I try to teleport somewhere else and kinda succeed, but instead of getting somewhere else my dream changes and I lose lucidity.

5.I saw an sloth chasing a grasshopper in somekind of white box (like universe would be nothing but flat, white floor as far as eye can see) then they both fell out of the box and then it changed to some kind of game where you had to activate "soul totems". Soon after that I woke up.

Plans: This is my first night of the new year, though I don't have any special plans going on for tonight. This may or may not have contributed to the fact I have only a couple fragments of non-lucid dreams to post, which while these dreams are insignificant and dumb, I am journaling them to stay in the habit of remembering and journaling.

Free the Holiday
I am in an office, this is where I work, and there is an office meeting going on right now. I look around the room and see the other people I work with, and also the boss is in there addressing all of us. I am sitting at a computer, working on finishing up a system backup of one of the many servers I am responsible for. I am in the data center of a hospital working as a computer operator, which means I am also responsible for answering phones and responding to issues that users throughout the hospital may have… and this is the part I hate. And it is because of this that I am completely miserable right now, sitting there at the computer, looking at the phone, actually afraid that it could ring at any moment. And while the whole team is present in the office, I am the one currently on duty, so if the phone rings I will have to answer it. While I am afraid of the phone ringing, the boss is talking about an upcoming holiday, saying an operator will have to be on duty for the holiday, and we are taking turns covering holidays so no one person is forced to work on all of the weekends. He is now announcing the person who will have to work on the upcoming holiday, and he indicates a black man who I know works the same shift I have… so at least I won't have to work that holiday. He is getting mad, however, saying that since I just started work here I should have to work for the holiday instead of him. The boss isn't pleased with the other man's attitude, he says the holiday schedule is based on taking turns, it's not based on seniority, and it is his turn now, so he will work on the holiday. I feel some degree of relief that at least I won't have to work on the holiday.

Poison Desert
I am out in the desert around my house, it is sunny out, though it isn't especially hot. I decide to take a shortcut through some open desert so that I can get home a bit quicker, so I follow a trail I know off into the desert. It is a fairly long trail, and I haven't really explored the entire area, so this will be a first for me. I come to a place where there is a large sewer tunnel entrance, and there is a small warehouse type building next to that with some equipment and stuff in it that is used in the sewer system. I think it is odd that there aren't any roads leading to the warehouse, so I decide to investigate. I go over and look into a window, where I see many barrels of toxic waste… or I am assuming they are toxic due to the radiation symbols all over them as well as the skulls and crossbones. One of them is being emptied into the sewer system, and that seems like a really bad thing, so I think I need to get some evidence and turn these idiots in. I am considering breaking into the place when I see there are people in there, so I had better wait until there aren't any people there. I move a bit away from the building and then I notice there is someone coming out… shit… I do a couple stretches on my legs and then I take off down the trail jogging as if nothing is wrong at all, as if I haven't seen anything out of the ordinary. The man is yelling to get my attention, I don't want to stop because he might be suspicious, so I keep going, pretending I haven't heard him. As I get out of sight, I put my earphones in figuring if he catches up and says something I can say I had my music turned up too loud. Would that work? No clue. I continue, moving at a good speed, until I finally reach a main road. I head down the street towards my house, which isn't the house I currently live it, it is the house I lived in previously, and I haven't lived there for about 10 years…

I think I started to get sick this day, which might explain the weird and stressful dreams.

Jumbled Mess
0845: Software at work is breaking. We buy something close but it fails two. I want a chance to fix it. The whole thing catches on fire. I think if break it into pieces, it will work. I try to convince people I was wedding chaplain in the army. On a beach with a big bon fire. Also like SAV home office.

Weird Father Dream
1045: Father trying to sell solve computer problem. ... try to call Google but their office won't open for a few hours. He3 suggests we break into their office and steal what we need. I say let's not be so hasty. Since the problem can wait, no sense committing a crime. We can solve it any time during the week, when their office will be open.

Then similar situation in a college class. Father want to cheat on a test. He tries the ... way into a parking lot to avoid the fence. He wants to lie to the professor about being on vacation.

More Paranoia
1205: Trying to solve math problems with my sister. Don't have a calculator. My father's truck is in a parking lot. The brakes barely work. Security cameras everywhere.

Entry #1.
Sleeping period: 10.5 hours
[ ] Lucid [X] Nearly-Lucid [ ] Non-Lucid [ ] Nightmare [ ] Controlled
Comments: Bad memory of last nights dreams...Not much to elaborate on.

I was at my locker with Mika. It was dark, and the halls were crowded. I was showing her my new dress that I had stored in my locker. This is the first time where I nearly became lucid. I started to wonder how I had the dress there while the dress was also at home. I simply dismissed it, thinking perhaps I had two of the same dress and I had forgotten.

Then I was in bible class at school, the classroom looked as it does in reality. I asked to go to the restroom, I went without having to fill out a pass. I got lost in the hallways, the school was like a maze suddenly and everything was more complex than reality. I came out at the west exit inside. Mrs. Landes was there, she passed by and said "You did well on your test." This is when I realized that I needed a shower. It was so ridiculously important, I absolutely needed a shower. I could feel that time was quickly passing and I was going to be in trouble for missing class. I almost, ALMOST became lucid here...My instincts were telling me to keep going and not stop to get a shower.

Abruptly, I was with my mom. I can't clearly recall where we were...But I think we were in the car on the way to New York City. I was crying and telling her how I missed all of my classes, since the day was now night, and my teachers were going to be angry.

Somehow, it turned back into day. This part is a bit blurry. I sort of remember being in the cafeteria of the Native American museum in Washington, D.C.. The next clear part is walking up a city street with Clare, my friend. A cathedral is in between buildings, it looks like it doesn't belong. I don't remember the rest, but I sort of think I may have woken up at this point.

And there we go. My first dream journal entry...It wasn't too bad.

2 nights ago: Dream start: I am inside cod6: modern warfare 2, In the map quarry. I am there alone, Or with a girl with short black hair, Like a TV haircut around her face. I realize that a war is going on as there is a mp5k gun in my hands and that there is a small group of people with me. We are in a small warehouse with windows on the sides and a large double door which is open at the bottom. Suddenly i look out of a window and see Jeremy Clarkson running down the dirt track on the edge of the map to where the bomb would be on S'nD (B) with 2 other people. I put my gun on the window ledge and let rip but the BB pelleets fire in a very weird way. They are all spread out like a grid flying away. I am surprised and duck back into the window and do not know if i have hit them. I fall back with my team to another window and jump up onto a desk in a corner and stay there contemplating.

End.


Today: I am in a warehouse which is dimly lit. I am in a corner of the warehouse and realize that i am not alone. Zombielike creatures are coming towards me so i make my way to a office which has reinforced windows all around it. I make my way there and realise i cannot enter. Suddenly the zombies are upon me and I somehow can stack boxs like the game minecraft. I build up a wall and the zombies cannot get me. I start jumping up and down and out of the corner of my eye i can see a elegant man in a dark suit with a large pistol, like a deagle walking along the walkway on the top of the warehouse. He could have saved me but doesnt and continues walking into a cubicle on the top stairs. I follow him in but nothing is in the room he went into. I wake - No lucid

I was at what was apparently school. Me and a bunch of people were in some giant wooden lodge. There were a few wooden tables about, and I was at one of them. Mrs. P and Mr. B were giving us some assignment there. RE was there. She was supposed to get something, so she went off to get it outside. Later she called on my cellphone and asked if the teachers were there yet.

Eventually I ended up in some car. Mrs. P was in there, and I think my mother was driving. We were talking about how I had given Mr. B a giant toblerone chocolate bar. Mrs. P said something about it being a good way to get him to shut up. Then it ended.

I am sitting on the floor in a large white room and there is some workshop taking place. There are other people sitting on the floor too. We are all sitting in a circle. I have noticed a small metal box with some ornaments on its sides and X or O on each side too. The box is in the middle of the circle. there is RG sitting there too. I have e feeling that we are playing some kind of game, even though we are all still.

*this is all I remember.

I am standing in a field. Several houses surround the field, each made with dull orange bricks. It's quite a nice sunny day (a common theme in my dreams) but I feel sad. Apparently I had to go back to school. I saw my two friends, O and O walking past me quite happily. I walk towards where I know the school is, and turn into another field, this time with a football pitch. While walking accross, I join more people walking to school. Suddenly, a small blonde boy stands in front of me, smirking. I try and fail to get past him, and then I get hit from behind. A group of 12 year olds start beating me up, spinning me round, throwing me e.t.c. I'll teach the little f****** I think, but every time I try to throw a punch, I meet heavy resistance until I either stop short of them, or it hits with barely any force. They aren't actually hurting me, but its infuriating to not be able to do anything. I used to get bullied a lot (though never physically, thank god) and this used to be a common theme in my dreams . One of my friends, B, calls "I thought you said fighting Year 7's was easy!" They find my struggle hilarious, and eventually throw me at the ground and go off to play football. I walk away to take an alternate route: a small path running down the side of the field, seperated by a small hedge. I find a stick, hop on and zoom along about a meter off the ground. Suddenly, I see a floating stick in front of me, blocking my path. I think to myself, "If I were lucid right now, that stick would..." and BLAM! POW! THOCK! THWUMP! HEDGEMONY! I become lucid. The stick seems to be some kind of evil force, trying to manifest in the stick and morph to a form more dangerous to me. As it dramatically gathers itself, I just bluntly grab it out of the air. No evil in my dreams...well, other than my evil. I smile wikedly to myself. I wonder how those Year 7's will cope with a lucid warrior? Righteous fury welling inside me, I fly dramatically over the hedge and make a beeline for the football pitch where I can see the perpetuators. The dastardly curs! And then, the dream changes and I loose the little lucidity I had. The rest of the dream involves me placing presents in giant christmas stockings. Still, at least I had a new years lucid!

I was walking with my family down a snowy road with a video game disk in my hand ( idk why..) . Then I dropped it and it somehow floated and hit a train. It didn't break so I picked it up. Then we walked to a random concession stand and I got a burrito. After that I walked to a hotel where I saw myself in window, that was when I gained control of the dream. I stabilized it, then Looked back in the mirror and saw a weird looking guy in a mask behind me. Sadly then I woke up...

I was walking with my family down a snowy road with a video game disk in my hand ( idk why..) . Then I dropped it and it somehow floated and hit a train. It didn't break so I picked it up. Then we walked to a random concession stand and I got a burrito. After that I walked to a hotel where I saw myself in window, that was when I gained control of the dream. I stabilized it, then Looked back in the mirror and saw a weird looking guy in a mask behind me. Sadly then I woke up...