non-lucid

Last night bed 8:40pm

I'm on alien planet, in a huge, modern building that is still partially under construction. I'm holding a tiny person in my hand, close to my chest. I don't want others to know it's a person. Some huge construction that's over the water outside the window is coming crashing down. I rush to the window and watch in amusement. I realize these are the "rings" someone was talking about.

Walking to few narrow, modern, metal, automatic doors. One leads to an office. People look at me and I back out. I end up in a large elevator. I have a few mental images of some distant places and I'm suppose to pick where to go. The elevator, which I now learned is a distance transportation device, like a shuttle, stops on a planet. Looking outside, I see rusted buildings, people dressed in worn out clothes, kinda military-ish. I ask myself if I want to get off here or in the next place. Because this one looks like they have war going on. But we get out.

1. I was walking down a dirt path with tree shading it and it was beautiful, up ahead I saw something but couldn't make out what when I was struggling to get what it was out pops the adorable DC that I have been seeing now and then in my dreams (dream sign for me). We both seem to be in our mid to late 20's again. We have a very strong connection without speaking much. We hug and then we walk on the path holding hands, when I see the most amazing tree ever. It had the thickest branches I ever saw (hmmm that just clicked lol) I wanted to touch the tree because the bark was so smooth. I ran over to it so giddy and started to climb onto the lower branches which were very low to the ground. Perfect climbing tree. I climbed about half way up and was amazed at how wide the branch was. I laid on my back and looked up amazed at how high the tree went. Then up pops the adorable guy. Immediately I was feeling frisky and started to undress. He looked shocked at first but then he came over to help me. Can't go into details but it was so much fun and the tree was so soft. I am always amazed at how strong the senses are in these dreams.

2. At an event for work when I had to go to the bathroom and all of the stalls were taken except one and it was just so bad I couldn't go in it. I kept waiting for someone to come out, when I kept seeing this cute little girl peeking under while her mom was in there and I was waving at her. Then I finally decide I can't wait, and go in the nasty one. I flush and grab a wad of paper and start cleaning the seat but it has clear jelly stuff all over the seat and I wipe but it just moves around. I keep cleaning and cleaning then put the paper on the seat. I get done and come out and noone is left in the bathroom lol. Figures I wash my hands over and over in disgust. Eeeew. (How does one go from a great sex dream to a nasty bathroom dream?)

3. I was at a train station in line to board (never been on a train in my life) I get in and sit down and the train is full. This was a train ride from hell. It was a long scary ride with lots of happenings, when we passed another train and I was trying to look at the faces and focus in on them as we passed. I was trying to convey my fear. I saw several people looking at me and was able to get eye contact, but then I saw Hermione from Harry Potter (dream) lol. I was able to telepathically send her a message of what was going on with this train, someone was stealing it and it was out of control. Hermione was able to teleport onto the train and she was now sitting 4 seats in front of me. One lady recognized Hermione and asked if she could give her larger breasts. She did. Then we had people lining up with things they wanted to change. Smooth skin, hair color, sex change, one girl had tiny little arms and she wanted them larger. I stretched them out but they didn't look natural so Hermione had to come up with a spell for that. We even made old people young again. It was so much fun we totally forgot about the fact that the train was out of control.

I was some sort of exorcist. A mother and daughter was hunted by an evil dwarf no matter where they run. I discovered that the dwarf had bound himself to the name of the dead father, and will be able to find and drain the life force of the family if they utter his name. I told them this, and to avoid mentioning the father's name until the dwarf got bored and move on.

Last night, I had this very vivid dream. The worst part is, I didn't get the girls name! Though I do recall at some point I was desperately trying to get her number...

Anyway! Here's the story...

A new girl had moved into the neighbourhood with her family. She was tall, slender and had brown/brunette hair. I kept seeing her climb and jump over walls with great speed whilst viewing her from within my home. She wore a Pokemon jacket. One day, I saw her entering her home across the street from me. She picked up on that and so teased me by kind of waving but not, and having her family tease me along with her - acting as though I can't see them as I thought they couldn't see me looking at her.

After a bit of back and forthing with these antics, said girl finally came over and introduced herself to my family. She seemed rather timid and shy but kooky and interesting. I was afraid of what I might say in case it offended her and she'd zip right off again and not want anything to do with me. Then, the worse scenario happened.

My mum told this girl all of my private and embarrassing moments all within the space of what seemed like five minutes. I pulled my t-shirt up, hiding my face from embarrassment and thoughts that this girl will never date me. I went upstairs, decidedly wallowing in my bath tub (which was empty), fully clothed drinking beer. This girl knows all my darkest secrets, what difference does it make now if she sees me drinking beer in a bath tub, right?

The girl came up stairs and said something along the lines of "I don't drink alcohol that often, but I don't mind a cocktail every now and then" - trying to be on my level and relate with me somewhat. Is she dropping a hint that she's somewhat interested in me? Who knows, but it sure felt that way. As she went back down stairs, I noticed her Pokemon jacket and some figurines were in my old bedroom (from when I was younger). I sat on my bed and sniffed into her jacket, it felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders when I could smell her scent. She then came back upstairs again saying she was leaving and that she's come to collect her figurines (forgetting about her jacket, she was a bit of an oddball like that).

As she left, I felt some form of relief as the girl could no longer hear from my mum about all this - and I have her jacket! Bonus! She may come back and that will spark up some personal conversation without having the whole family listen in!

Indeed, as I looked out my bedroom window, she too had noticed that she had "forgotten" her jacket as she was at the front door of her house - her mother with the door opened and talking to some business person looking to make a quick buck - the girl walked into her house and immediately came running back over the road, claiming for her jacket.

I gave it to her, but as she was about to leave I stopped her and asked for her phone number. At this point I was starting to gain consciousness heading back into reality. I was trying my damndest to stay in the dream so I could learn more about her - but I felt the same compelling passion as many of you on this thread have also felt. This quirky, kooky girl feels like my "soulmate" and I woke up hating myself because none of it was real.

I, too, have been single for some time now (about a year) and maybe this vivid dream is reminding me to take some kind of action? I don't know, but I'm not one to force a relationship to happen. Save for the fact I attend these occasional geek meets we have here in the UK, I've had no luck meeting such an odd and unique character at these meets. Hopefully this soulmate is out there and we can meet.

Two or three hypnagogic experiences while falling asleep. The sensation that I'm walking and my foot slips out from under me. Another "partial OBE?"

Also I imagine I see the purple window in the void again, momentarily, with vague content.

INT. CHILDHOOD HOME - DAY

A white gerbil is sick and dying from starvation. I hold her in a white towel. She struggles in my hand at first but then becomes calm. I place her on a shelf in a closet filled with torn strips of toilet paper.

I dreamed that I was in a convenience store in Thailand. They were selling small newborn puppies in yogurt cups.

I also had another dream fragment where me and a girl got in a spat because we hate each other.

I also dreamed about playing Team Fortress 2.

In my parents front room, I get up from a settee and head over to the door. I stop suddenly noticing a large thick green lizard, like a komodo but nicer looking lol
I make it out the door, but then head back in scared its going to bite me as its moving towards me.
Deciding to brave it out I don't try and hug it but shove my hand into its mouth.
It doesn't bite me and turns out to be this real sweet kid who has transformed.

With my family we were stranded in wilderness. We sheltered in a cavern that opened to enormous pit left by an earthquake. It was in a crossing of huge river, desert and a temperate forest. We quickly prepared the cavern for our living area, then set up a small farm nearby. Just before the harvest, during one night, some people decided to start a wild party at our farm and destroyed almost all plants. We got rid of them and set our farm anew, bigger than before. Then we started exploring the pit in search of coal and iron.

(See Tues/Wed and Wed/Thurs for a description of the dreams mentioned in the title).

Sunday/Monday night

7 hours of sleep. A direct transcription of my dream journal, which has proven rather difficult to read:
Mic pix
Had to hold sisters' up; they were in boxes for some reason
And a friend of mine from IRL was there

Monday/Tuesday
No dream recall whatsoever. So sad! D: 6 hours sleep

Tuesday/Wednesday
6-ish hours of sleep. I honestly can't decipher this note either. I think I was still very much in a dreamlike state when I wrote it, because it makes virtually no sense.
"Dad, strange dry -- almost meter side (winner?)
sprinklers"

I remember this one though: I was at a zoo/aquarium (combination of the two). One exhibit had a nice animal in it (panda? polar bear? I think it was some sort of bear) and some creatures that were made out of slime! They were black with cute eyes, apparently. One snuck out of its exhibit somehow in order to talk to me. He wanted to be free in order to be with his wife and kids. Because apparently, slime creatures get married and have families. :O I guess he needed help getting out of there, even though he had already gotten out of the exhibit. However, the employer (zookeeper?) caught him. A snake friend of mine and I tried to save him, but the results were inconclusive...as in, I can't remember what happened or whether or not I woke up before the dream finished.

Wednesday/Thursday
6 hours of sleep again. I was almost lucid in this one, but not quite. I had hypnagogic imagery, and I think there was a white toaster floating in a black void. There was a creepy disembodied voice that kept repeating "Dreams within dreams! Dreams within dreams!" and it scared the crap out of me. Tess scolded me a bit when I forced myself to wake up because I could have taken control of the dream! However I wasn't thinking logically enough to do that, it seems.

Thursday/Friday

No dream recall sadly. 7 hours of sleep, but man I was exhausted. IRL, this whole week has been a disaster. Botched an important project that was worth 6% of my grade in one of my major courses. The stress of this semester is insane, and I really hope I can come out on top with acceptance into my program and all As. And not getting super fat in the process would be good too.

Code

I was browsing the web when I stumbled upon source code of Blood game. I immediately downloaded it and started thinking about developing my own projects.

Forest

I tried to park my car in the school parking, but all places were blocked. I drove to nearby blocks of flats and parked there. Then entered school bus and with group of classmates and teacher we drove to forest, where we had a practical exam for a technician title. It was a noon, we drove to the forest along extremely convoluted road until we got to a spot with fireplace. We drove first by car and then by bikes. It was set up for us as a small party after the exam. Suddenly I found myself at the outskirts of forest in the middle of the night. I wanted to get back there as we had to return those bikes back to school. I followed the road and then I heard the sound of fallen tree and chainsaws. I was scared of one falling on my head, but still moved on. On the way I saw huge timber pile, with each log being larger than a building. I met my teacher, instantly recognised him in the darkness. He quickly led me to the bikes. I met two classmates there who also didn't returned their bikes yet. We got them, they were winnying that school's far away. I told them "With power common for lucid dreamers, we'll get there in a second!". I got the bike and focused, and instantly appeared with the bike in schol garages. I left the bike and went away.

Sunday: I was in my home town I lived in when I was a kid but I was there for a job interview where I had to wear roller skates & work w/ this male friend I know IRL but he also reminded me of (JJ) someone else that I won't mention. I had others there to lean on & to give me good references. But I now had a boss who was flirty when other ppl weren't around. Mostly it was good though as the dream progressed. It was about how I'm okay now & have moved on. Reminding me that I'm a very different person now.

Wednesday: On some weird reality tv show w/ 5 yr olds. We take a train on the way to a store & I see a familiar scene & mention it. It was a moment of lucidity but it fled after that. We had to go to a toy store & the girls were to pick out things to use to survive but they had to be in this weird Christmas section that only had toys. I remember this same scene from around Christmas time. We went back to these stables & each girl was in a stall. It was pouring rain. They had to make a fire & were using doll legs for logs. This dream was just weird as shit.

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Asleep: 12:45am
WBTB: 5:30am, 7:20am
Awake: 8:35am
Techs: MILD, autosuggestion, WBTB
Dreams: 3
Lucids: 0

1. (FA) I woke up at 5:30 to use the restroom. While trying to recall any dreams, I must have fallen asleep. I experienced a false awakening where I had just woken up and had to use the restroom. I stumbled into the bathroom, using my book light as a light (which is accurate to real life). It was hard to stand, and I almost fell during the act. Needless to say, my aim was poor. Then I walked back to bed and laid down. I felt one of our cats walking on my legs (we don't let our cats sleep with us anymore so this should have been a red flag!!). Then I woke up for real to use the bathroom. My aim was fine.

2. I was on a bridge with several people who I no longer remember, although I know that one person was a cast member from the TV show Homeland (Brody). I recall a scene where I attempted to army crawl under an obstruction because we were worried that the obstruction would be electrified or that during our crossing the electricity would be turned on. Once we got to the other side, there were cops and lots of people.

3. I am working in the restaurant where I currently work part-time. The time in the dream is 1:45am (which is way later than I'd ever be there in real life). The restaurant closes at 10:00am. The other closer and I are trying to get rid of our remaining guests so we can clean up and leave for the night. We are in the back, cleaning/sorting some items. When we walk to the front of the restaurant, we see that the managers have allowed another 4 tables to sit down at 1:45am!! We're obviously furious at this point. The first table I greet has a man and a woman, sitting on the same side of a booth. The man orders some weird drink that started with a K. I don't think the word made sense and I don't think it's a real drink. The drink menu had pictures and looked way different than our drink menu in real life. The woman asked for a white wine that was sour and had notes of "carrot" in it. I said I would check with the bartender. I walked over to the bartender, who was one of the bartenders from real life. She suggested one of our wines which I have now forgotten. I then walk over to the managers and start arguing with them. (Memory Blank) I walk lto the front of the restaurant which now appears to be a convenience store with aisles of items for sale? I don't remember anything after this point and it's possible that this is when I woke up at 8:35.

Notes - I had to fly this morning (private pilot) so I needed to get sleep. Since I've been experiencing insomnia the last few nights as a result of LD practice after WBTB, I decided to skip the practice this morning. I still did MILD before going to sleep and I still woke up twice last night and experienced a FA. I'm excited for tonight (Friday) since I can practice WBTB + MILD without worrying about what time I have to be up in the morning.

Morning of February 10, 2017. Friday.



I am living in Cubitis with my wife Zsuzsanna and our children as we appear now. I am in the southwest bedroom, mostly looking at comic strips in newspapers. I eventually have to use the bathroom and absentmindedly get ready to go on the carpet near the door to the room. There are several books on the floor. Soon though, I decide that this is not a very good idea, so I walk to the opposite side of the hallway to use the bathroom.

The bathroom is different from how it was in real life, though my dream self does not consider it as such. The toilet is closest to the door where the sink was in reality and the sink is where the toilet had been. (As this dream includes doorway waking symbolism, my need to go renders the toilet as being closer to the door.)

A vulture, nearly as tall as me, is to my right and I am annoyed. I leave the bathroom without using it. I push its neck back with the palm of my left hand as it comes out into the hallway from the doorway but this is not enough to keep it back. I then use my right foot to additionally push its body back into the bathroom and close the door.

---

This dream’s meaning is to serve as a biological waking prompt to wake me in order to use the bathroom.

The floating sensation one experiences when entering sleep is often the main reason for the presence of a bird in a dream, which may or may not relate to waking life. This also includes the metaphorical association of “returning" to the physical body during the waking stage, including as a subliminal attempt to lessen the falling sensation.

Noticing books or other reading materials in a dream is a subliminal attempt to utilize critical thinking skills, which are not usually extant in the non-lucid dream state. This dream validates this with a type of parallel thinking where I first consider urinating on the floor near the books.

Doorway waking symbolism often includes the transforming emergent consciousness factor from the higher energy of the preconscious. In this case, it is the vulture. It is preventing me from using the illusory bathroom; to generate enough emotion to wake due to a real physical need.

The vulture’s beak as potentially jabbing me relates to a recurring hypnopompic physical prompt (as in “The Buzzard’s Beak” from October 4, 1969), experienced since childhood as a jab in my back though only in the final waking state. It does not occur in this dream.

---

I had a dream about something to do with my dad talking to my boyfriend.

I am at a dignified office party, a party which takes up two floors of a department store. There are partygoers travelling up and down the escalators like shoppers at Macy's. Nobody's face is distinguishable; everyone is a shadow figure. The building is filled the sounds of conversation, laughter, background piano music, and wine glasses tinkling. The predominant color of the party is brown -- the walls and carpet and light fixtures are all brown, invoking a very seventies feel to the aura of the interior. There is a black Baby Grand piano on the first floor. Groups of people are huddled around it with drinks in their hands as some unseen shadow figure plays smooth jazz.

As I ponder the ambiance of this party, I wander the floors seemingly invisible: nobody tries to talk to me, nobody recognizes me or even alludes to the fact that I'm there. I seem to be a ghost. When I realize this, everyone in the building suddenly freezes. The piano music stops. All the shadow figures freeze in mid-sentence, glasses raised, and the place is enveloped in total silence. I will myself to rise above them like a spirit and float around the department store. I float past them down the escalators, along the corridors, the breezeways, over the indoor balconies. To me it looks like an empty department store filled with dark, faceless mannequins.

I eventually leave the building and float out into the city. I walk amidst the rubble and ruin of where famous skyscrapers once stood. I begin to look for my brother in the rubble, but I cannot find him. I suddenly translocate from the demolition site to a warehouse filled with boxes and pallets and heavy machinery. I am now holding a glass bottle filled with a white, milky substance. I drink from it and it tastes like a vanilla milkshake/energy drink combo. Two warehouse employees join me and together we look for my brother. We make our way all the way to the back, expecting to see him sandbagging and hiding from the boss, but he's not there. I am wearing blue jeans and a blue button-down shirt -- dressed just like the other workers. I then realize that I too am on the clock now, and we shouldn't be back here. I look around cautiously and tell the two guys that as long as we hang here we should be safe from detection. Dreamt 1/20/2017