non-lucid

After the dream began with me seemingly scrolling through some sort of texting timeline, my perspective faded back to the dream world. I looked around and saw some DC's watching TV. The TV screen quickly changed to something else as my perspective switched to it. It was some weird version of The Sims 2 where you select choices from a dropdown menu and the game judges your choices before the Sims do them. I remember a DC directing one in-game boy to tell another in-game boy a secret. The boy just whispered "secret" to the other boy over and over. Then I was woken up by my alarm.

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Dream Goals

Beginner Goals:
Remember 3 Dreams in one night.
Remember at least 1 dream/night 7 nights in a row. (2/7)
Have a Lucid Dream.

Intermediate Goals:
Meet my dream guide.

Advanced Goals:
Get a Job In-Dream
Make a Meal In-Dream
Use a non-physical superpower

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In dreams, I have something called "Dream Perspective". If I'm looking that a picture or screen and I concentrate on it, it will morph to fill my entire field of vision until I want to look at/do something else. So yeah.

Morning of May 4, 2016. Wednesday.



There are warnings about the “great white wolf” but over time, it is understood that the term relates more (in a very unlikely sense) to aggressive man-eating sea creatures in icy water, including dolphins, penguins, and seals, which supposedly become more aggressive during the more extreme winter.

There are areas where parts of the ocean are frozen over near shore. It seems unusual that people use the word “wolf” to refer to winter as well as animals that are not wolves or even wolf-like (no actual wolves are ever present). I am aware of a thick cluster of sea creatures, so close together that it seems they cannot move around much but still somehow are a danger for people who swim. (This makes little sense as who would swim in icy water in the first place?)

I seem to be a member of a team making a documentary or special news report. I am in an unfamiliar town that may be in or near Alaska or Canada.

An unknown male is throwing numerous cardboard boxes of various sizes into his open convertible (an odd choice for such cold weather). These boxes are supposedly filled with extra supplies to help get him through the winter. Not only does the idea of driving around in a convertible during a harsh winter seem illogical, the cardboard boxes fill the entire vehicle including the driver’s seat area. Still, I do not question how he is going to drive home as such.

I get the strong inclination to ask him more questions as a “real” reporter would, even things which would be very obvious. I ask him if he is going to stuff blankets or at least cloth around the doors and windows to keep out the cold air. His response is “yes”. I ask him what sort of material he uses for blankets and to stuff around the windows and doors and he replies “hessian”. “Really? Hessian?” I say, for the benefit of anyone watching the broadcast. The idea of using hessian for blankets (which I would think to be very uncomfortable and possibly not very warm) during a harsh winter seems so odd and unlikely to me that it causes me to shift consciousness and wake up.

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Dream state indicators (in this case blankets and bedding) appearing near the end of a dream is a common event. It is not symbolic, but a literal factor of subliminal memory of having fallen asleep. Cars in a scenario such as this often symbolize the physical body and its status (or sometimes the dynamics of a bed in relationship to the body depending on the stage of sleep and other dream content). A convertible with the top down suggests I do not have or want blankets over my body, as this has been validated regarding a few other dreams. This was the case with this dream as well. The RAS mediation at the beginning, still linked to dream state induction (water), though with aggressive animals (though not a direct threat), inherently to prevent me from going back deeper into sleep, did not work so well, thus the preconscious makes a more passive appearance signifying his eventual leave-taking of the dream state, trying to bring my focus on blankets to remind me I am actually asleep and to realize my body is too warm.

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3/5/16
Dream 1: There were nonstop maths tests at uni, as soon as I finished one the tutor came past and gave me another one.

Dream 2: I was catching a train into the city. There was a problem with my ticket butI managed to get it fixed before I arrived. When I got off at the platform I saw a group of Chinese tourists on a guided tour.

Dream 3: There was a british comedian guy interviewing Rowan Atkinson, however they were both in character. They were on a boat and paddling along when it started to flood and monstrous waves swamped them.

Dream 4: I was on a minecraft server, There was a huge city which I flyed around, after a while I saw an arena so flew over to there. I saw it was aweird, made of curves rather than blocky stuff.

This was a very vivid hospital scene where I was waiting for my anesthetic before an endoscopy. An endoscopy involves quite a lot of hospital tech including the usual blood pressure and pulse, anesthetic plus the machine to do the investigation into the stomach. It is a long tube which goes in the mouth and has a camera on the end. There are also devices for taking samples. I was on the hospital bed and one of the team a lady in her late 40s perhaps who seemed very kind but I knew was just doing here job. I said to her that I usually get a heavy anesthetic because I can be troublesome and reject the scope. She said "Oh yes I remember you from years ago. That is no problem.". They would normally never say something that impolite so I was a bit shocked by that. Anyhow she placed what i thought would be the usual stuff in my mouth but it felt different it was small but I trusted the process. She said to the team that she was going to administer the anesthetic. As she did I started to feel the effects of it and instead of going completely out and then waking up after in the recovery bed I just woke up at home this morning

In another dream before this I met some good friends from the past. They were happy and alert as usual. We were at a retreat and were gathering around the table. I was bringing a friend with me who I forget who it was. This was not the normal retreat setting but it was very kind and warm atmosphere.

In the dream before that I met an old friend of mine who is best friends of my brother in law. He was wondering what I was up to these days. We were in the City chatting and he was asking me how many rooms were in my house. He was happy that I was doing well. The city was looking dark and rainy but with plenty of activity. It was noisy.

First dream

I was on a crowded street, in front of a bar. Just as I wanted to enter, a car accident happened. I ran to help people and tried to enter that bar, bit whenever I did - car accidents happened and I had to save people. This happened six times, and then I was able to enter. I told barkeep that story and ordered some vodka. After I drank, I went to suburbs to house, and told that story to father and his pal. That pal, a dark haired, stocky man, said that I should still look to find what I want.

Second dream

I was in my backyard, there were lots of people from school gathered in my garden. There was some kind of grand academy, but I didn't watched it. Instead I was wandering around the house, experimenting with bugs that were some kind of a project that teacher told me to do. He was doing some parts of it on his own, while the rest was left to me. The academy took to late night hours. I decided to take the dog out for a walk, and people were still coming back. I noticed a strange old man wearing a robe. He looked at my dog and said "By the light of Lord!" And ran away in panic. I looked at my dog, confused. Lights gathered around the dog and burst wildly as she turned into a gigantic dragon and flown away, into some ruins.

Third dream

I was in some ruins. Strange gargoyles composed of rotten flesh and bones tried to kill me. I was shooting them down with some kind of wands.

5.3.16

Second day of night shifts.

Sleep 11am-2:30pm

DR:

I'm looking through some saddle baggs. Then I'm on a bicycle, riding up the hill on a deserted street, that has sand blown on it. In some places it's deeper than the others.

I something dark ahead of me and when I get closer I see the tail of a black snake. I keep riding and now I'm noticing more signs of snakes that had slithered that way accross the street. The classic snake shapes in the sand.

I get off to take a look at that first snake. I want to take a picture but I remember taking it out of my saddle bag. So I take his pic with my phone.

It's long, black and it has a mane like a comodo dragon. It goes near two guys who are sitting on the street around a campfire. I asked them if they saw that cool snake, but they didn't. They go look and start chasing him and the snake is now coming towards me. I know he can go fast. I get on a bike but it's not easy going in the sand. I know if the snake wanted to, he could go faster and reach me.

- I was with an old friend that I had a falling out with as a teenager. Someone began making fun of him for having a small penis, and he was deeply offended at it. He started getting depressed about it. We hadn't gotten along, and he kept being a complete jerk about it, mocking and teasing him. I had no issue with this guy making fun of him about that, and I thought it was good. I told my Mom about what happened. She had a very different view of it. She said that if it was me that was making fun of him, she wouldn't still be talking to me now. She said she'd have abandoned me and had nothing to do with me. I found this outrageous, but she stood strong in this, insisting that she would have had nothing to do with me and cut me out of her life.

- I went back to college, but it was just for a brief time. I walked around for a bit, excited about things. My parents were following me around, but I had the option to just go. I didn't though, until later on. Then, I began to realize this was merely a dream. I found some thing there that weren't there in real life, and I knew it was a dream. I went to this place where there were several girls from there. I attempted to have sex in this lucid dream, but my Mom was standing around...... and obviously the dream basically didn't let me, as she was just standing around. Later on, I wasn't really as lucid anymore. I was going to go to a symposium for something at school. A girl that I really liked from there was there. However, she had ditched me in real life. In this dream, I didn't even get a chance to talk to her, although other people were talking to her. Later on, there was a demon that was chasing me. Oddly enough, the energy of me began to shift from the demon and back. It was odd, like a cycle of possession and non-possession. At times, "I" was the demon. At other times, and then the demon became what used to be me. It was very strange, yet it almost illustrated that there was no demon. Instead, the demon always was what was different. Still, this was a very frightening dream.

I remember a female teacher with superpowers in my dream. A male student threatened her, but she just scared him off by conjuring fire.

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DREAM GOALS

Beginner:
Remember 3 LD's in one night
Remember at least 1 dream/night for 7 nights in a row (1/7)
Have a Lucid Dream

Intermediate:
Meet My Dream Guide

Advanced:
Get A Job In-dream
Make A Meal In-dream
Use A Non-Physical Superpower

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Special thanks to JadeGreen for Apprenticing me, at least for the time being!

I remember I had to take care of my new youngest cousin. She was just a baby learning to walk and her name was 'Baby'. I remember thinking to myself how that name wouldn't make complete and total sense because when she got older she wouldn't be a baby anymore. She kept challenging me to races around the house and for someone who seemingly learned to walk yesterday boy was she fast. But I still beat her. She didn't get upset she just continually challenged me pointing out different courses we could take.

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More Lego Dreaming. Don't remember what it was about. (this is the 6th straight night there's been something Lego related.)

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I remember walking down a beach. I was with my family and cousins. (Different cousins, my mom's family cousins.) We were supposedly on holiday in northern Michigan. I remember we were staying in a beach town and visiting the beach. My aunt said something about people not agreeing if it was 60 degrees or 80 degrees.

I remember walking past these dream characters playing in the sand. One of them had this contraption that was making perfect ~6in sand cubes and sticking together like Minecraft blocks. He was making quite the sand castle, too.

I remember looking a ways down the beach and seeing that it got less crowded. I decided we should go there. But at some point before we reached our final site on the beach that I became lucid. I did a reality check, and laid down some stabilization by wiggling my toes in the sand.

For some reason I remember messing with the colors of the dreamworld. It was kind of like adjusting things in Photoshop where you can make the colors extremely vivid or something. Eventually the setting that I decided upon was slightly more vivid than it was before. It was pretty, though. I also managed to change the temperature in the dream world to be warmer.

I began walking back up into the town. I just remember the town had this row of white buildings on a slight hill, then a road, then a large plaza-like area where I was standing. The town also had a train station and a bakery. The bakery was a very small building with a glass storefront close to the beach where we had been earlier. There was also a massage center next to it... Interesting choice of buildings...

I remembered one of JustMe13's challenges. (Actually I think it was a false memory.) I remembered that I wanted to experiment with food in a dream. I reached into hyperspace (behind me) and pulled, well it looked like a muffin or a small pie. I bit off part of the top. It had flavor and texture, that was a lot like eating corn bread or a nut muffin or something. Not super strong, discernible flavor, but reasonably strong.

I then realized that I've had food before in a dream. Now here's where I can take it to the next level. I need a second food item. I want to see if I can get something that tastes different. I think to go into the bakery, but when I do, it turns out the bakery was a much bigger building on the inside than it was on the outside, and there was a gigantic line of DCs. I remember right in front of me were five or six tall black men with spears and loin cloths. Some kind of tribesmen. I didn't want to pick a fight, so I just figured I'd reach into hyperspace again and hope for something different.

This time I got a chocolate frosted plain doughnut. I started to make my way back outside. I sampled the doughnut. Different texture, softer. Different flavor, could taste the frosting. Back to the muffin. Kept going back and fourth between the two, until I'd eaten them both.

I somehow wound up wandering into the train station while I was distracted. A security guard grabbed me and another guard told her to 'put me with all the other weird ones'. She locked me in the second story room of the train station. I remember there were some brains sitting out on the table. There was also this guy with long blonde hair. He had a viking helmet on and looked to be about 20. (Also he was a disembodied head nailed to the bulletin board, must not forget that small detail.) He smiled at me and said that the brains I saw sitting on the table were from people that had lost their minds. Apparently this room was essentially the Train Station's lost-and-found.

But that didn't change the fact that I was waiting for the guards to figure out what they were supposed to do with me. There was one window in the room, but I didn't feel like breaking it or squeezing out. I figured I'd teleport somewhere else, or at least try. I felt like I'd already been in an LD for several minutes, so if I woke myself up trying to teleport, I'm not wasting the whole dream.

I remember I put my hands together and did like that ninjitzu thing.

"Tesseract-A-Beach"

I was very surprised when the dream actually changed to a beach setting. It wasn't the one from before. I remember seeing the ocean with waves rolling in and the white sand. (Granted I had been on a beach earlier in the dream, maybe that's why I had success.) There was a single palm tree and a cluster of fern like plants. The sky was clear with only a few clouds.

I've had many a failure with teleportation in the past, so my first instinct was a celebration. I think I jumped up and down and shouted "WA-HOO! I TELEPORTED!" I noticed that the dream was getting dark. I knelt down and felt the sand trying to hang on, as the dream was starting to become unstable. "I TELEPORTED! I'M PROBABLY GOING TO WAKE UP NOW, BUT I TELEPORTED!" [Does a little happy dance.]

Yeah I did end up waking up a little bit later. There might have been a false awakening that I forgot.

I was in school, arguing with math's teacher about my grade. I wanted to get a 3 mark for the end of semester that is incoming. I wanted her to give me something to do on a board. She written me a weird, convulsed formula on the board, using a black pen. I said her that this was the one that I actually couldn't do, and asked for another saying "I can make the one with using (y-YA) and stuff", but in the end I asked if I incoming test would be enough.

I had a doctor's appointment. The recepcionist game me a key for a locker where I could leave my things. The hospital was like a maze, I had a hard time finding the locker.

On my way back home, I realized I had left my jacket and phone in the locker, so I went back, only to see the hospital had become an asylum. I asked the whereabouts of the locker again to the recepcionist, but they were all crazy people, so I started running. At some point I noticed one girl looked like she knew what was going on, which made me stop. I said out loud: "alright guys, this is either a dream or a prank". For some reason, I ruled out the first possibility at once, deciding it was just those guys playing a prank on me. They admitted to it, which made me very angry because I had had a bad time. I demanded they gave back the things I had in the locker, and before anyone could notice me, I took off in my car so they had to come back on foot.

This dream was pretty cool, I tried to write it out this morning but I just didn't have time :/. And now, 13 hours later the dream has lost a few details.. >_<

Dream
I recall previously having seen my friends Isaac and maybe his brother? They might have been playing guitar but I can't be certain. The dream led to a grass field that reminds me a little of my high school. I'm with Michael Jordan and he's spinning a basketball on his finger. He flicks it up over to me, and I try to catch the spin with my finger and keep it going but I screw it up. I laugh a bit since it's a good time I start the ball spinning on my finger but for some reason I'm struggling (usually this is pretty easy IRL). We get invited to play a game of soccer, he's super keen since he's sport as heck. I feel a bit anxious about playing soccer since I'm gobshite at it, but I'm feeling really confident in MJ's presence. The grass is green and the sun is warm, it's just a game of soccer with friends so who cares if I'm good or not . We get straight into the midst of it all, the ball shoots towards me so I jump up and do a spinning kick. I miss but manage to twist my body in a way that causes my clothing to smash against it in a grazing hit. Man this is actually pretty fun!

Wish I could remember more, it's not often that a dream will actually be intrinsically fun. Getting used to the new routine with my job so my sleep was way better last night.

Bed: 23.00
Wake up: ~07.10
Now: 07.35


Dragons
I'm in the setting of the movie How to Train Your Dragon. I'm in a stone valley. There's an alpha (level 10?) dragon which needs to be defeated. There are a lot of dragons around, but none are strong enough to challenge him. There's Toothless, the Night Shade, but he's not very big, whereas the alpha dragon is huge. There's quite a big dragon which might be a challenge to the alpha male. It has two long necks and two heads. It belongs to someone else though. The main character of this dream (I think I'm just spectating) sends a message on a scroll to the two people to which this dragon belongs to that he really needs their permission to use this dragon to defeat the alpha dragon. He doesn't get it, because the owners don't like him. Eventually he challenges the alpha male with Toothless. He wins.

Black
Not sure what I'm doing. I'm outside and one of my best friends makes a black joke. I consider seriously snapping at him cause I've had it with all the black jokes. Then I realise that this is the first black joke he's made in a very long time. Someone else has been making black jokes for so long that I've grown tired of it [in reality this is my housemate]. I decide not to lash out at him, but I do give him a note about how I value our friendship and that if he wishes to remain friends he should stop making black jokes. While he's reading it, I walk away, rounding two corners around a building that no longer exists in reality. There's 2 people doing something with horses in a trailer. I offer my assistance, despite me not having a single clue what to do. The only thing I do know is to stay away from the rear. Apparently one of the horses is pregnant. I want to assist, but she gives birth within just a few seconds. My friend joins me to tell me that he won't make black jokes. I'm relieved by it.

Korfbal
I'm standing besides a bus. It's not a public service bus, but one of those touring rented ones. There's a small issue with regard to who will be sitting where. Eventually we leave, only to stop again shortly after because we've reached our destination. We park in front of a house. There's a kid that apparently holds the record for most amount of goals in one season of korfbal ever. At first I thought he would be a late teenager, but apparently he's even younger than that, judging from the photo.

We're at a grass field. It's already dark out, but I can still see everything, I assume because of artificial lighting. I'm watching from the sidelines as other people are playing korfbal. There are 2 teams playing, but the way that they're playing makes totally no sense and it confuses me. It looks more like a sort of warm up. At some point a white girl of perhaps 3 years of age enters the field. She has Down syndrome. One of the players, an adult white male, scares her off the field by pretending to be a bull(?). He makes the same 'dragging your leg' movement that a bull does and it scares the girl. He follows her off the field. Her mom gets upset a bit about it. A bit later it all happens again. I think it's also kinda sketchy to frighten her.

Tram
I'm sitting in the tram. There are a few teenagers (I guess) sitting just in front of me, talking. They're having a conversation about their sex lives, seemingly not caring that they're in public. Apparently a dentist didn't take one of their sex lives into consideration, because (s)he extracted a tooth from that person and that is now messing with her sex life. At some point these kids start messing around in the tram, dancing provocatively.

Still in the tram, but I guess now with different people. They're talking about Indonesia, about the same university that I attended. I but in and say a few things about it, even though I don't know these people. The girl sitting closest to me asks me if I also want to go there. I explain to her that I've already gone and that I will go again.


So many fragments
» I'm talking with a girl about going to the cinema. It seems like it will be fun. Another girl in the mean time tells me that I should let the girl I'm going with know that I've got a girlfriend, because apparently she thinks that we're going on a date. Fuck. I'm not sure how to smoothly mention that I've got a girlfriend without it sounding weird.

» I'm walking around a bit somewhere outside during the day. There's a weird architectural object in the middle of a black square. It's a sort of stairs which is ~ shaped if you look at it from the side (so going up, down, up). It doesn't have anything to hold on to.

» I'm walking around outside during daytime. It's supposedly somewhere in the Netherlands (I'm assuming Amsterdam). I might be with my girlfriend. There's a museum which you can basically visit or kinda observe from the outside. There are a lot of people and there's a tour guide. It's a white guy my age and he's talking in crappy German. I wonder if I could do that. My German is about equally crap.

» There's something to do with a train in the evening. I want to get home I guess, but I'm not getting anywhere cause of these trains. I think I'm around the Amsterdam ArenA area. I know there's more going on here, but I can't remember.

» I'm standing in front of my mom's house on the 2nd floor. I'm looking down towards the parking lot. There's an attractive Vietnamese or Thai girl doing something with her car. I think she was washing it. I take a step back so that she won't see me. Then she is doing something else. Eventually we end up talking. It's a bit flirty/sassy. The kind where you're flirting, but trying to out-manoeuvre each other the whole time.


Just realised that when I am able to recall the race of people, most often they are white. I wonder if this is gonna change in the next few months, as I'll be moving to Indonesia and the number of white people in the city in which I'm gonna live is very limited.

Also realised that every time that I'm taking a train in a dream, it's not getting me where I want to go.

5.2.16

Night shift today and tomorrow. Took a 2 hr nap around noon, then slept about 4 hrs from 6:20-10:20pm.

Nap:
I'm at work and T, the manager from another store is there. there is a problem with a hose and he tells me to get the plastic end from an older hose to fix this one.

Bunch of "tourists" are riding on our carts.

Sleep:
My brother with his family is visiting my mom's place. She just got a new place, where I have my own room when I visit, my brother and his family have their own room and my mom and dad have theirs as well.

It's a big place, long hallways between rooms. Strange thing is that the house continues into public space and there is a lobby type of a place with tunnel that's Metro entrance. I look inside and people are allowed to only enter from that side, so no strangers are able to come up from the Metro to the house. But I still find it not safe and there is bunch of strange pedestrians walking around.

I just woke up, getting some snacks and I'm going to see if they are awake. My brothers son is up and I see him through door being ajar so I enter and I see my mom waking up as well.

I get an idea that I should go and live with her. Get a bigger place together from my rent money I pay now and we would still have some leftover from rent and we would save money.

2/5/16
Dream 1: I was playing a very detailed basketball game. I was defending quite well, I fouled a bit initially but then I started blocking a ton of shots. My dribbling was really bad though and I lost the ball a few times. The coach wasn't happy but then I focused even more on defense and started stealing the ball as well, passing it of to my teammates and everything went really well.

Dream 2: There was a boxing match which slowly turned into more of a wrestling match. One of the guys jumped up on the ropes and did a leg drop on the other guy as he was getting up, to raucous applause from the audience.

Dream 3: I was in the car with my mum on the freeway when we saw an old woman in a motorised wheelchair in front of us. She was going pretty fast, like 50 km/h, however was disrupting traffic and we zoomed around her. The car behind us however smashed into the back of her and ran her over. We stopped to see what had happened, and I slowly realised the woman was my grandma. I ran out of the car to see if she was alright, and with the help of a few other drivers we pulled her out of the wreckage and found that she, while grievously injured, was ok. The scene jumped to us all at her house, her wrapped in bandages and in bed while my mum and I were having a cup of tea in the kitchen.

Dream 4: I was in Antarctica with only normal levels of clothes on. I found an old wooden cabin and hurried inside. In there I found a pair of gloves, odd sock like things and a big fur coat, which I quickly put on to stop myself from freezing to death.

Fragment: Being at school.