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One dream about my brothers from when they were smaller (~3 years ago maybe) and one fragment about DV after WBTB:

• I am at my grandmother's house, sitting at the kitchen table. I haven't been around in a long while, possibly the longest while since I moved out from home. So I have this feeling that I am a rare and honored guest.
  
  The father side of my family (father, his wife and my small (half-)siblings) is coming for a visit, as they often do. They all go into the basement to look for me, except my two youngest brothers. I walk along the hall with the familiar tiles. I say hi to them, they look small and sweet, my grandmother sits on a couch right next to them. They don't look at me and act a bit shy, but I know this will pass quickly. It's been a while after all, I think.
  
  I carry the youngest to the big glass slide door leading to the terrace and I can see his reflection in the glass. His arms are soft and still a bit baby-like. He is wearing a sweater with black and white stripes, but no pants. I ask 'how old are you now?', while I'm guessing he is probably 2 right now. Suddenly my other brother (1 1/2 years younger than me) is there and he has to laugh at the whole situation. I ask him 'do you remember when we were so small?' and by thinking about that, I also have to laugh.
  
  Beautiful dream, thank you. Nothing odd or overwhelming, just natural. Vivid in tactile and visual experience. Definitely memorable for me personally.
  
  
• I dream about the DV-forum. There is so much to read. So much information from various sources. I browse the sections I find interesting or entertaining.
  
  The posts are somehow transferred live. I get the messages directly (by reading and telepathically), while they are written and created. I can literally watch a thread or a post while it is being formed. Some contributions are rather redundant, but others are interesting; there is a great variety. I stick to the messages of the members I trust.
  
  Can't remember any particular people, but I would not name names if I could anyways .
  
  Somehow they telepathically try to explain the mechanism of the forum. They show how posts and threads are formed around topics and they explain the best way to pose a question. They try to connect them with each other in the way it makes the most sense. They manually draw lines between posts and topics and they tie them together with bands. So there is a big and interconnected web of meaning and syntax forming in front of me.
  
  This came after WBTB. I know this is a small fragment of a big dream, but this is all I can recall from it. This fragment is the result of me reading a lot on DV the previous day. I like how my subconscious processes my daily actions and hands it back to me in a neat little picture story.

Date: 08 July

Pre bed: 100mg B6

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Sleep quality and recall: I have been sleep deprived for a number of days in a row, so I really needed my sleep. As soon as my more memorable rebound began (after 4.5 hrs of sleep and an involuntary WBTB), I went directly into a lucid, took key notes only, went back to bed to have another chain of lds. Sleep was the priority so only took brief notes. Also due to deeper sleep in which I think these LDs occurred plus them being one after the other, I was going deeper into the dreamworld and some details were lost.

Early dream: I am in some house and think about a family friend who's visiting in the dream. She will sleep in a particular room, I am now in the room and examine two beds, and a very long couch and make some comments about that. Soon she comes in and we start talking. I am very happy to see her, so I hug her and kiss her on the cheek, one side only, and she does exactly the same, which I find a bit strange. She has short ginger/copper hair, a really beautiful color and looks much younger and as if she has lost some weight compared to rl.

Fragment: my dad was involved. I just remember cleaning something outside, wearing a short top which makes me feel uneasy as some guys are staring at me, so I go inside.

LD1: My first memory is that I am standing and possibly I wake in this bed in a room that vaguely reminds me of my first room. It is dark and there is a sense of creepiness and I explore around as the room changes to a larger apartment. Unfortunately, I don't have much memory of what I looked at in the first part of this ld. This took some time and then I look out if the window and see some strange graffiti. This whole thing is moving and it looks like a picture of graffiti next to another picture of graffiti, below and above each more graffiti pictures and some people there as well. It looks insane/trippy. There seems to be some story developing as outside on the street and to the right some kind of danger is making these people on the graffiti window want to run away. I briefly wonder about what kind of supp I took this night and remember it was the B6, which slightly worries me. (I tend to have more aggressive/chaser dreams with it). Yet, I try to control my reaction as I really don't want to spend the ld running from this thing.

I concentrate on other items in the room. Some kind of a cupboard or whatever, I just see thousands of tiny objects, each one is different and unique. I am literally overwhelmed with detail and unable to remember any particular item. The images remain stable. While this is extremely interesting and I enjoy examining these items, I realize that one can sink to uncontrollable depths due to indulging and decide to move on. I see a glass door and just pass through it as if it is nothing, and wonder a bit about that. I also briefly check out my reflection on this glass door. This room is also very dark and I really don't feel like exploring in this condition as I begin to worry I might meet something I am not going to like.

I try to back off but then get paranoid that I am summoning something as I keep on staring at the darkness behind a door. Soon something begins to form there and comes towards me. Luckily, I only managed to get some grey formless furniture to appear from the door and come towards me. As it gets in my proximity, I instinctively lift it with my mind, and hold it in the air for a while. This reminds me of various tasks that were included in the competition, and I go through my own tasks, but most of them involve some DCs. The only one that I remember I can do here is to transform into a tiger. I simply think of that, and possibly because I am so deep into the dream, it is quite easy. I immediately find myself on fours, and check if my paws are those of a tiger, they are! The only problem I seem to have is with my head/neck. There is some tension and I am unable to look ahead as my head is facing the floor. I am trying to fix this but it doesn't work much and I experience all kinds of weird sensations, connected to vision, my body, floating, etc.

I think this is how the dream ends. I wake up feeling very sleepy (some 5 hrs after bed), take some key notes and review in mind as not to forget. I also think that there was another task that I can do without DCs, swallow fireworks. I fall asleep again.

LD2: I find myself in what looks like my first room again, some floating feeling again, and I am in a normal upright position. Something about this whole thing feels weird as I am thinking what the hell am I doing here, I realize this is a dream just like some time ago. The room is dark again and I remember how this is not an issue for Xanous anymore, but it certainly bothers me, it is just unpleasant, and not just the darkness, but rather the whole atmosphere.

I remember that I don't have to be confined to using conventional means so decide I will use a flashlight to help me. (I had previously thought about this) I look around and there are all kinds of things on the furniture but no flashlight. At this time, I remember that there was this other no DC fireworks task that I can still do and look for some fireworks among the objects, but don't find any. My memory is a bit vague as to what I do afterwards. After spending some more time looking around, I finally gather the courage to risk and phase through the wall or some furniture on the wall. It swallows me and I float in the void.

LD3 fragment: I am in some other room but this time it is daytime. I am examining the surroundings, very enthusiastic, but don't remember almost anything. I want to go outside so I carefully climb on the window and try to cross over to the street. As I do, I feel as if I am phasing, but do some movements to emerge through this invisible sticky water-like material, and hold on to the dream. I lose my balance and fall forward, ending up in the void, where I am floating and rolling at the same time.

LD4: I suddenly find myself in a room, that slightly looks like that of bf. Bf is to my left and we are discussing something. I am facing a wardrobe with a mirror and notice that am wearing a long Chinese dress. It looks a bit strange since I can't figure out why am I dressed like that. I take a closer look in the mirror. Not only that but I just look ridiculous, it is oversize, my hair is kind of weird too. This is a dream. OK, so finally I can do TOTM. I hug my bf's DC, hold like that for a while, then wait for a reaction. He doesn't do anything just breathes and there are some hissing-like sounds coming from him. He finally manages to whisper the word "something". I step back and look at him. While I consider him to be my bf he is a different DC now, more like Nicolas D'Agosto.

There is something unpleasant about him, but his proximity triggers some sexual desires on my part and I start thinking of what to do. I tell myself that it is ok to do that if I want to and think about DV and how people are fine with it, and how I am going to report that...So I am very close to him, both of us with clothes and I am struggling with myself as he just waits there. Two opposing forces are acting on me until I finally manage to move away and just observe him for a bit.

I remeber other tasks with DCs - "assign a DC", I feel like there's no sense in doing that, then "ask a DC". This one sounds good so I decide to go ahead and ask him where my phone is. (I lost a phone at home). He is totally dumb and doesn't say anything just assumes some strange waiting for me to jump on him kind of position. The dream fades?

LD5: I am in my high school and bf's mom is also there.I am still lucid but this is extremely hard now as I feel I am sinking deeper into sleep. I am mostly worried that all lucid memories will be totally lost as I haven't journaled and try to remember how many lds I had before. I count four. I continue down the corridor, float and fly up the stars in yet another float/fly style with my hands locked like in a prayer/or like I am swimming. As I float up, I just remember the ld with the tiger transformation and the issues I had with my head. I can somehow compare the experiences and sensations during both events (transformation and current float moving).

My floating is somewhat hard to control not in terms of where I am going but in terms of how I'm seeing. It's like I am in weightlessness turning over randomly, seeing the world upside down, sideways, etc. As I am trying to figure out a solution for these problems, the dream fades, and I if I recall correctly I float in a similar way in the void. Or maybe not. I spent so many dream ends shortly floating in the void that night, it is getting hard to distinguish those.

LD6: I wake up my first room, on the bed, it is dark. I get a bit tired of this scenario. This time I am lying on the bed while some sort of indigo/dark blue energy is attacking me. This does not feel nice at all as I literally sense this thing is energetically feeding on me. I wake up from the nasty feeling.

These dreams took around 30-40 mins of sleep. After waking up, I take some brief notes. The last dream left me a bit distressed so even though I need my sleep badly I am reluctant to immediately fall asleep. I try to dissipate the mood, then go into more unmemorable deep sleep.

LD7: There was another LD that I vaguely as I lost lucidity at some point and then had 3 NLDs. I remember two lucid fragments: one where I was checking out shadows - my own shadow and that of someone else and some objects. I was excited to have finally noticed this. I conclude that the shadows are very realistic and on this occasion there is no difference from RL, at least according to my dream logic at the moment. I also remember organizing an erotic scene, but it got interrupted by other dream themes.

Other dreams: I remember having three NLDs that were cool and interesting, but unfortunately cannot recall as much as I would like to.

NLD: I am having a tiger that I take care of. For some reason this tiger is activated into life and then made to hibernate by being drained and filled with liquids like water and blood. It is a good tiger and I wonder why did I decide to switch it off by taking life away from it. Someone tells me that the more you do that to these types of animals the worse they get every time they come back. The give a list of symptoms that will develop over time, the first one being aggression. I am worried about my tiger and want to bring it to life as soon as I can tomorrow. At the same time, it seems I have another animal, that is some kind of leopard that morphs into a dalmatian/leopard with the head of a bull terrier. This animal already suffers from side effects of the process and is ultra aggressive. I try to lock it in a room and think what esle to do.

NLD: I come across a beautifully decorated box. If contains two strangely shaped crystals, a bit a like the tooth or horn of some animal. These crystals belong to some kind of a ruler/king who has now sold them. They have creepy magic powers that are very strong and can be used to one's advantage
but there's some sort of negative side effect too.

A bit later me and a friend of mine, possibly a classmate go out on a strange street. There is a minor quake and I warn her that there will be another one as this is part of the scenario.

NLD fragment: I am going up some rails that are in the sky. It looks as if I am travelling and want to cross over to Sweden, where there is an invisible track and another one to a nearby location. But who can fly (by himself) for such a long distance?

Comment: The 2-6lds were just following one after the other and I did not touch on my body to DEILD.

In all my recent dreams I am always so nice to people and they are nice to me. They are all pleasant dreams, the unpleasant ones are fortunately rare for me and I haven't had a nightmare since I was a child. But this night I was confronted with one of my recurring childhood nightmares, where I am in the role of a Jew during world war two in Germany, and I am always haunted by Nazis and the holocaust.

Three fragments followed by two dreams:

• I'm on my way from my grandmother's house to my mother's with 3 other guys. I go down through the garden into the valley. It's raining and I'm the only one with an umbrella, too bad for the others I think and enjoy my dry place beneath it.
  
  I want to cook some nice food when we arrive at my mother's apartment, so I ponder my appetites and imagine what would be nice to eat. Then, when we cross the small wooden bridge across the small river, there are three nice chicken filet frying on the right side. They have the same size as a human and look delicious and well spiced.
  
  Don't know who I was with. The environment was the real and well known environment between my grandmother's house and my mother's apartment. Had some chicken the previous day.
  
  
• I am in a courtyard of a big farmers house, there are many people. I have a really big bar of chocolate and I should share it with the others. Sharing is fine I think and I give half of the chocolate bar for sharing, while I selfishly enjoy the other delicious half myself.
  
  Sharing 50% is enough. Who can say no to chocolate.
  
  
• I am at a big harbor with much traffic on the water, many big passenger ships. I am on a big platform with many people, some are just walking, some are enjoying the view across the harbor, standing at a railing.
  
  I spot a young man who stands there with no shirt, so I ask him "aren't you cold? It's so windy", he says "it's all cool" and smiles.
  
  Then I see another guy, who looks just like one of my friends from behind and I tap him on the shoulder and hug him. Suddenly I realize that he is a stranger and not my friend. I apologize and feel sad, because I was happy to see my friend. The stranger is a bit confused, but takes it with a smile.
  
  Dunno...
  
  
• I'm in the city with two of my friends, there are big streets, much traffic and many traffic lights. As we intend to cross a street, the traffic light switches from green to yellow, but I think "no big deal, I can easily make it, I'm not gonna die from this!", so I keep going, while my friends stand still. I almost get hit by a car coming from the right, the brakes make a loud noise and scare me. There is a police station in front of me.
  
  Now I am about 50 m ahead of the two and as I turn around to look after them, they scream and yell at one driver. The car stops and the driver yells back, but that only gets the whole trouble started: The window of the passenger seat opens and a young Nazi with a handgun begins shooting at my friends, one of them has also a gun and begins shooting back. I hear some bullets hitting the car, I am really frightened now. The window from the backseat opens as well and another young Nazi begins shooting in all directions, including mine, with an assault rifle. I panic and run behind the nearest buildings. The Nazi gang leaves the car and begins hunting their 'usual group of targets', while they scream hateful Nazi phrases.
  
  I run across a big soccer field, where people are playing soccer and soft ball. They must not have realized the trouble, I calm myself with the fact that I saw a police station nearby. The field is big and I run as fast as I can, still frightened.
  
  I come to a house with 6 apartments, there are names on the doorbells and on one there is "[My name], the Jew sitter", so it must be my apartment I think. But the house scares me, there are all these hateful phrases on the walls, and the fact that I am labeled "Jew sitter", while there is a Nazi gang on the way freaks me out.
  
  So I hide behind the building on a small hill with an old and rotten train track. I calm down a bit. I see some homeless people and some junkies chilling on the train track a little further ahead. Then there is this ringing sound that comes when the railroad barriers are closing.
  
  When I woke up, I realized that the ringing sound was my phone moaning for power and I somehow incorporated that into the dream. The Nazi nightmares were haunting me when I was a child and had learned about all the cruelties from the holocaust. I guess back then I was so overwhelmed with how cruel humans could possibly be (and obviously I still am. I grew up in Germany, don't know if that's relevant, though).
  
  So here was an unscheduled WBTB, where I did some MILD exercises and imagined how the dream would be when I had been lucid. Also, I realized that I did not have the capacity to RC, when I saw the train track, which is one of my recurring dream signs. Maybe I should make Nazis to my dream sign, because they are fortunately only present in my dreams nowadays. Spotting them right away in the dream will give me the opportunity for a nice revenge
  
  
• I'm at a party at my university. Everyone is happy and the party is fun, I smoke a Joint with two of my friends, they get really high. Later they want to go outside, but I rather stay inside.
  
  I try to use a cash machine, but it refuses to give me any cash, because my card is broken. I meet a bald black guy who is waiting in the line to the cash machine and I start talking to him. He is very nice and we have fun together, so we decide to chill in the room next door. There is a table with big soft couches around it and there are some hot girls sitting there. As we sit down, the girls are gone and I wonder what I did wrong, but it doesn't affect our mood. The black guy shares his cigarette with me, it looks like a joint but he assures it is a cigarette.
  
  I go down a narrow staircase to the toilets after promising the black guy that I'll be back soon. I then find myself in a library with many people working and reading in small booths, it is big and confusing and I admit to myself that I have lost track of where I am. I somehow manage to get outside and try to get back to the party. There is a small field with a police car and I walk across the field towards the building. I meet one of my friends with whom I have smoked earlier that night. Strange thing is there are two of him. So I say "Hi [name of friend]" two times, once to each of them. I wonder why there are two times the same person and then I wake up.
  
  Confusing dream, but somehow cool and very vivid. I like WBTB, should do it more often, I think it is a nice tool for dreams in general. I have always had the impression that a small waking phase in the end of the sleep cycle improves dream vividness, even before learning about WBTB and LDing.

Didn't go to sleep until about 5 a.m. Forgot my dream.

I'm going to bed at a normal time tonight.

One night of short and uncomfortable sleep due to high temperature and brightness, one dream.

I am in a bar. The bartender says he will close in one hour. There are 3-4 men at the bar, drinking. The bar goes around the room and the people sit in the middle. I go to my stepfather and my brother and sit with them. I'm thinking I don't want to drink and the bartender has a taunting look at me. He then says he will close at 6 and points at an analog watch hanging above the bar, which shows 5:30.

Both my stepfather and I take out a half smoked joint from our pockets and I offer my lighter. He rather uses his own and we smoke, I think my brother may also have had a toke or two. I feel the cannabis effect coming on authentically.

Then my mother walks in with a half rotten but still half decorated Christmas tree and puts it in front of us and says something like 'what kind of nonsense do you guys have going again?', then she walks away. I see my mothers cat playing beneath the Christmas tree, a very relaxing and delightful sight.

It's astonishing what I can experience without finding it weird.

Hmm when is it called a fragment and when is it a full dream? I'd say when there is only one particular scene or situation then its a fragment, and if there is more I'll call it a dream. Here are 6 from last night, not sure if they are generally considered fragments or dreams. This is actually relevant for getting points in a DV-Academy competition that I'm currently in.

• I find myself on a big terrace on the first floor. It is made of concrete and there are concrete pillars all around it to hold the roof. There are ~10 people from my university, one is talking. He is very enthusiastic and he tells about his big and awesome plan and he shows a paper with notes. He explains that he created a treasure hunt with challenges on the way, but they are not easy. Everyone listens carefully and they ask questions about any hints. He promises that it will be very challenging but also very fun, and that the price is worth the effort.
  
  Never saw this place before. The guy who is talking is very quiet and not enthusiastic at all IWL.
  
  
• I drive on small paths through nature on a small tricycle for kids. It is very fast and requires almost no effort. It is fun and refreshing, the surroundings are densely overgrown with plants and small trees. I come to an open bedroom between some trees, my stepfather is sleeping in a bed and my sister is lying awake in another bed, the third one must be mine. As I lay down, I become aware that I'm not tired at all and I convince my stepfather and my sister to join me on a tricycle ride. At first they don't want to, but they enjoy it as soon as we get going.
  
  I like my subconscious idea about an open bedroom in nature. The situation must have been from a few years ago, because my sister was still a child in the dream, while she is older IWL.
  
  
• I am with a guy from my secondary school. We are at some kind of meeting and we have to present something. The projector is directed onto a small family house, so that the wall becomes the screen. There is a lot of text projected on the wall and my friend tries to correct the position of the text so that it is readable and does not overlap with the windows of the house. The content of the text seems irrelevant, it is all about the position and layout. So my friend talks while editing the text. Finally it is all arranged and readable for everyone, the text is concentrated on the outer wooden balks of the house and between the windows.
  Suddenly the projector swings around and makes all neighboring houses to one big screen. Now there is weird text projected on their walls, containing nonsensical and even insulting phrases.
  
  Haven't seen that guy for some years and suddenly we make a presentation on a house wall. Dream world, you can be very inventive...
  
  
• I am working in a big warehouse. I have a cigarette pause outside behind the warehouse and as I go back inside, I see all my stuff from my pockets lying on the ground. There is chewing gum, my phone, my wallet and my keys. I wonder how it came to lie there, but I don't worry about it and just pick it up again. Then I see one of my colleagues coming towards me and I hold the door for him. He seems to be in a very good mood and then he asks 'hey, have you ever called an ambulance?'. I say 'yes, why?' and he says 'hey you gotta try it, please call an ambulance now, just for the fun of it!', he smiles. I find it is a very stupid idea and I explain that I don't want to and I try to convince him that he shouldn't do it either. His mood drops as he realizes that there is nothing funny about it.
  I am in a little room, right beside the big hall of the warehouse. There are several black garbage bins. As I open the lids, I see that they are all sealed with an extra wooden lid, which cannot be opened.
  
  I used to have a job in the warehouse four years ago and have not been there since then. So this situation must be from some years in the past, but it didn't seem nonsensical for my dream logic at all. I guess time works differently in dreams and they can span many years into the past and are not particularly bound to the current life situation.
  
  
• There is a big footrace. Many people I know are around, they are from all kinds of friend groups and cliques I know, all mixed up. I want to participate in the race and I try to convince all the others to join me. Most of them don't really want to, but some of them are already among the runners and the race starts. I say screw it and begin to run after them, even though they already have a head start. I run past some friends who don't want to participate and I show them my middle finger while smiling. The route has many small curves and is wound around small flower beds. At one point it goes like an 8-shape, and the runners paths cross each other. When I come to the crossing point, I almost crash frontally and with full speed into one of my friends. We go aside the running track and laugh about it, 'imagine if we had really run into each other'. We laugh so hard that we can barely breathe. Then we slowly start running after the others again, while still laughing.
  
  Hmm many dreams about running recently... Maybe I should do more of it? Maybe it can become a dream sign?
  
  
• I sit at a table in a small room together with 5 other people. I know the guy to the right of me, he is a friend, but I have never seen the others. It is some kind of secret club or organisation and apparently I'm the new one. My dream memory tells me that I have been in the rival group previously, but that I am happy to be in this one now. We drink beer and wait for the 'leader'. As he arrives, he welcomes us all and gives free beer for everyone. I take a sip of it, but then one of the others whispers that we should wait with that a bit. Then my bottle falls to the ground by my friends accident, the others look irritated at us. The 'leader' explains something on a blackboard. Suddenly I see a flash of lightning on the blackboard, it is more like a chalk drawing of lightning, but it is dynamical like a normal lightning bolt. I try to explain to the others what I just saw and they smile, saying 'yeah, you will see more awesome things like that from here on!'
  
  Dunno what to say about this one. Well, didn't see that one coming at least.

My dream recall is quite good now, considering that I had zero recall of any dreams only a couple of months ago. Quitting regular cannabis consumption does indeed enrich the dream world very much. I'm still lacking a suitable LD induction technique, but I'm working on that.

I dream I am driving around a parking lot in a pink Bug with my Dad. We pull up by a small playground and see my ex-health teacher Mrs. Wolfe. She wants to speak to my Dad for some odd reason. He suggests I pull up onto the sidewalk, but Mrs. Wolfe denies the idea. So my Dad gets out and goes with her. I continue to drive in circles. I stop and get out shortly at another small park area where some of my friends are hanging out. After awhile I get back in the pink Bug and drive. But the keys aren't in the ignition, and I begin to roll down a hill. I see I'm on a dead path to hit a car and panic. I finally get the keys in and attempt to turn out of the way. To my luck, the wheel is down and won't turn because its rubbing against my legs. So I quickly pull the adjustment lever and it goes up and I turn out of the way, barely missing the car.

Next I dream its the last days of the next year of school. It feels like it went by in just a flash. I'm in the hallway of the school, which looks more like a prison than a school. I find my two friends Joey and Mark and we talk about how fast the school year has gone by. It literally felt like yesterday we started the year. Later on I'm going by classrooms and a teacher I had two years ago stops me and hands me a very odd plant.
"I noticed you're going to be in my class again next year, so you'll need this," she says. The plant looks somewhat like a small tree. It's entirely green, and has a massive stem, with green little "branches" hanging on it. And small little grey flowers are on it.

That's all I remember.

Finally I remembered a good chunk of a dream.

1. [non-lucid]
Were in a very dark corridor, 3 kids are walking slowly, the kid in front has a torch I think and the kid at the back (Tom) was very worried about a man he just saw in the darkness which happened before the dream started. We come to a corner (theirs some sort of wooden pillar on the corner), as they are walking round it Tom suddenly stopped and said "the man was my/the murderer" the other kids just think he is being silly and laugh it off, Tom is now petrified about the man.

Sidenotes:
As Tom said "the man was my/the murderer" I became really scared as if I was in fact Tom. I felt an emotion
Tom had spiky dark brown hair.

2.
Was to focused on the first dream to remember.


I think I hit the start of a WILD as I kept hearing noises and I felt like I was slipping off my bed, the problem was this was before I had any sleep at all and I know WILD's don't work at the start of the night.

3 fragments

• Someone wants me to perform a task with colors. I have to paint and connect colors on an infinite plane in such a way, that a colored region may only touch another color, when it is also the neighboring color on the rainbow. The task seems exciting to me and it is very fun as I begin with it.
  
  I wasn't even present with my body, there was just an infinite plane and I somehow controlled the colors with my imagination. Weird and unrealistic, but vivid colors.
  
  
• I sit at the dinner table at my grandmothers house. All the chairs are occupied by some of my family. There is dinner in all sorts and varieties and every square-cm of the table is used. I ask my brother if he can hand the butter and he does.
  
  Nothing unusual to tell me whether it was a dream, might as well be a memory.
  
  
• I am running in a big forest north of Copenhagen. It is mostly untouched nature, the treetops are grown densely together and are light green as the sun shines on them. It is a huge forest with many paths and there are many people taking a walk. I run fast and effortless, it is very pleasant. There is a big lake and there is a wide and wooden bridge across it. It is not so high, so it feels as if I am running on the lake, the bridge is ~150 m long and many people use it. It is an awesome and sunny day. At the end of the bridge there is a railing and I jump on it and slide on it for the last ~30 m, it is fun and even more effortless than running and the people look amazed, when I slide past them. The path to the left leads deeper into the forest, but I choose the path to the right, which goes across small fields along the water. I outrun the other runners easily. There are steep hills on the way, some of them have to be climbed. A female friend of mine (suddenly she's there) takes the lead and she climbs ahead and I have a great view on her round ass.
  
  Vivid dream, the surrounding forest and people were all so alive. I loved running so fast and easy.

I wish I could WILD that's all

I don't know if I slept last night. I've been having trouble with sleep for a while. I've tried drinking milk for the tryptophan, but it doesn't seem to affect me much.

During the schoolyear, I only got 4+ hours of sleep a night. Could it be that my body is so used to running on that that getting proper amounts of sleep is "overwhelming" it?

I also think excitement and enthusiasm play a part.

Comment: A bit behind with updating

Date: 30 June

Pre bed: 3mg mel

WBTB: Some latte

Total sleep time: appr. 6 1/2 hrs

Early dream1: I am posting to our conversation in DV

Dream Fragment2: There is an old apple pudding that I try to throw away in the sink but the apples won't dissolve.

Dream3 Irritating Kitten: I am on the street where we live and there is a grey kitten that catches my attention. We play for a while but as I leave it starts to behave like a crazy cat, always coming back to me faster and faster. Its claws and little teeth are sharp, I want to get rid of it. Finally, I toss it aside and as it lands on the other side of the street, it turns into a dead rat, with its insides open. I have concerns of what will people think about hygiene, having a dead animal on the street, but then some guys come pick it up.

WBTB: I was initially worried that I am not wakeful enough, so headed for the latte. It was not the best morning to do so as there were lots of distractions and I ended up very nervous, struggling to fall asleep for an hour and a half.

Falling asleep/LD: I can't even remember where, it was a dream forming around me but I woke

Falling asleep/LD: I appear walking down the street of my hometown. Some people are passing by, I try to hold on to a big tall guy but the dream slips away and I wake up.

WILD (Nyx style): I find myself in some room with soft light, as the dream forms. For some reason, I attempt to control the dream by using a touchpad screen? I stop doing this and look around. The dream is unstable and I try to engage whoever is around. There are three-four DCs and I immediately recognize my parents there. The memory of quickly phasing through the walls comes to mind but I dismiss it, then run through some tasks that I remember and decide to ask the DCs there including my parents how to find Xanous. Unfortunately, these DCs are totally dumb, so I get almost no reaction from them, no matter how many times I ask. They go to sleep on the few beds that are in the center of the room. The dream is still unstable (possibly because I am super wakeful), so I start jumping on the bed (white bed sheets) to engage myself a bit more. I find it quite pleasant and I don't have to worry about breaking anything. I am bounce-walking now, trying to stabilize this way, as I notice the instability is still here to an extent. Then as I am jumping in front of a wooden desk, my leg hits some small item on the floor and it even hurts a bit. I find this strange.

Finally, I calm down, look around the room and ponder my next action. The light in the room is very soft and pleasant, as if coming from a lamp. Lots of the furniture that I barely notice is wooden. I remember three wooden doors on the two walls in front of me. They are all closed. Initially, I decide to stay in the room and explore it, but then the door in front of me is open. It is dark but I think of playing a bit, open the door with TK, nice! I go forward, now there is light in the room. As I am slowly and carefully moving forward, I notice that there are windows showing the reflection. Very interested to check it out, I concentrate on it and worryingly see someone else's reflection there. So behind the door as I am entering is another DC that obviously corresponds to this reflection and she just...well I just didn't expect her to be there, so got a bit scared.

I fully enter this new room and look at the DC in front of me. At this point the dream is super stable and vivid. I carefully examine her looks and try to memorize as much detail as possible.Ok, I now try to talk to her, but as she replies there is no sound. I continue asking her questions but can't understand anything, just that she answers "no" about something and she moves her head in negation. My speaking is more like thoughts and without sound, but she understands me. I truly start to believe that I have crossed into another multiverse and that this is the cause of our inability to communicate. I ask her if it is because of energy? Does she see me at all? Her mother comes around as well,I continue questioning them - do they see me, or can they only hear me? I realize that I am spending way too much time and concentration on this apparently useless conversation, and orientate myself in the room so that I can report in what kind of room I was. It is a kitchen, no, a dinning room. There is a large table with some chairs.

My attention is caught by another reflection in the window. It is day outside. I am curious to see how I look so move closer and notice a white T-shirt with some red flowers on it, find the clothes interesting. These DCs are all around me still in another section of the room, now that might have been the kitchen. Going through tasks again. Ok, let's do "lucidity DC" just in case. I don't believe I will see these DCs ever again, but I still tell them that if they ever dream of me and see me they have to tell me it's a dream, etc. Since the dream is quite stable, I once again I think I might try to find Xanous. I ask the DCs to help me find him, pause for a moment and listen. There is no single sound in this dream. They are still trying to interact with me, saying something but in vain. The mother holds a roll of blue paper in her hands and I come up with the idea that they write down whatever they want to say. They take too long and as I wait doing nothing, the dream dissolves. I do a lousy DEILD attempt then impatiently wake myself up.

Maybe I should have been more persistent with my attempt to go back there but I was way too awake and overexcited.

I kindof went on an informal leave the last few weeks. My recall has been crappy too. Just updating my dream journal, so that I know that this is still a priority.

I will often, for my amusement, approach my LD's with a couple of different personas that put me in different places regarding my environment and my interaction with the characters. Inspired by KingYoshi and (in a way) a TV Show I've been watching recently (The Tudors) I decided to make myself the King of my dream world.

19/06/2013 - DILD

I was in my kitchen with my mom talking about something I don't recall and I did a RC for no apparent reason, counting my fingers mindfully looking at my hands I had half fingers "This can't be, is this really a dream?", I RC'ed a couple more times, somehow I was having a hard time accepting I was dreaming, I don't know why but my guess is because it was an habit RC and not a surge of awareness or questioning of reality.

Eventually I accepted the most welcomed fact, went to my backyard and jumped to the top of a big green wall which is sort of not there (iwl). I decided to stabilize and enhance the dream so I started looking for visual detail around me, the dream was already vivid so I'm not sure if this really added to it but where before I didn't have sun at all now I was still standing in the shadow but the sun illuminated an area directly in front of me.

I remembered my current goal at the time, to have the queen of my dreamverse present herself to me (such bs).

I let out a passionate and euphoric shout into the air "Your king is back! May the queen of my dream world please step foward!" As I was finishing that sentence I expected to hear cheers from a crowd all around me while some sort of competition was to take place and, I think I closed my eyes somewhere in the sentence (or the scenario turned 180º with black in between).

The crowd did make a lot of noise (mainly females) and suddenly I was sitting in the central top row of a place like this:



The biggest contrasts with the image is that there was nothing in the field (but a big central screen hanging from above) and, it was a smaller arena. In the screen I saw the image of a martial artist girl wearing a kimono and throwing a big kick in the air. When she appeared I also heard a male voice announce "The first contestant is a judoka from Japan (bla bla bla)". So they are going to fight, sweet. I immediately just stretched my arm to the side and was expecting to manifest someone bringing me some popcorn to snack while I watch some of the action before acting myself, when... my alarm went off and I obviously woke up.

01/07/2013 - DILD (DF)

My memory is very fuzzy regarding the details of this piece of fun because I didn't record it immediately due to the nasty back pains that have been bothering me from dawn to dusk for a couple of days. It just got way better today.

I was in some busy street and it occurred me to do a reality check and I was lucid. I remember aimlessly but nicely spending some time jumping from place to place in the scenario before deciding to have a go at some fine Miss in the middle of the street. I can't exactly remember how she looked like but I know she was very fine, then... I saw some other one I liked and got her on top of a small structure in a central place. We made out and all the action was very good sensually, very vivid and also felt quite dirty in the middle of a dream busy street.

While we were having fun, just to our side, down in the ground was Bruna (a middle school classmate I had who was fairly attractive but I didn't care much for her most of time, wonder why she was there) talking to another person, so I thought "hey why not?". She aged normally btw.

So I was going to pick her up when I realized she was not only talking but making out with a girl that was just my type. Dark black hair, snow white skin, glasses and beautifully shaped curves. I thought it might as well be more exciting to steal the lady away from Bruna. I come down to pick her up and as I do she wraps her legs around my waist and we go up there and have some really good fun.

Somewhere between all this playing with the ladies I remember trying and enhancing the dream which certainly happened, this was nothing but intense.

I also had some interesting non-SP HH chat but this is way too long already. Certainly more to come, see you next time.

Today I had 2 LDs. Started with a DILD and a dog biting my hand while I was trying to stabilize so I woke up. Went back to sleep and did a WILD practically right away. I flew up a bit and my awareness changed so I knew I was lucid. I tried opening my eyes or something and I woke up and fell asleep again.

This is sweet as I haven't had a LD for a long time, or 2 LDs in 1 night for that matter. Took me from 06/13/2013 to 07/01/2013. Which is pretty dang good for me.