side notes

I'm watching what looks like a video of just sara, but it isn't the version that she put up online so I suppose it's the original unedited version, I realize the reason it's edited online is because she's at her and her sisters mansion and they're two street sign are in the background and they don't want anyone to know where they live. Suddenly I'm in the video I was watching, and I'm talking to tegan, she tells me about the guy they highered, and how he keeps trying to do things his own way by inviting large amounts of people into their house and acting like a hype man and booming loud rap music, I tell she should just fire him and that they could manage the mansion easily without him, beside he makes it considerably more difficult as all his guests leave the place a mess each time. As tegan and I continued our talk, sara walks over presumably to join our conversation, but three girl across the street with ridiculous hair notice them, and run across the street, we first considered running into the mansion out of panic but it was too late so as to not be rude they heard them out, the girls wanted sara number first and then also tegans, sara and tegan both began siting out number as I watched puzzled that they would give out their numbers but to my relief they both motioned to me to help them come up with the rest of I'm assuming fake numbers. So after that the damn guy they hired invited the girls in and when we enter the mansion there are so many people in, he's holding a party again, and some woman who thinks she's the shit comes in as if she's royalty, and I realize tegan and sara walked off so I go see where they went, they're at these roulette like games in the living room messing around with it, so I tell them I can get rid of the guy for them because they couldn't work up the nerve, I told them to write a letter expressing his departure, and that I would give it to him, and take the microphone he was talking to everyone with and I would tell them there was an emergency and that everyone must leave now, so I did just that. One the house was cleared of population, we saw the full extent of the mess people had left so I began to help them clean.

I'm walking through the beginning of a school, it looks like a highschool. I see the people I'm with I suppose they must be my friends, some of them begin to get picked on as we walk a path through it all, every time someone messes with one of my friends I hurt the bully either by punching, pushing, throwing their food in their face, and finally we get to the end of the school and this big tall guy starts to pick on me, so somehow I find a thick sewing needle and I jump on him and try to push the needle through his cheek, the guy tries his best to fight me off but I shove the needle into his face and he falls to the ground, but a teacher saw what happened and called security on us, but me and my friends realize we have these superhuman powers, so we fend off the security easily, but then this special unit is called on us and I assume they're bad because we freak out and start running for the exit, but some of the unit like four of them dressed in black are trying to block off the door while the rest of the unit are chasing from behind about 30 yards away. We fight the people at the door and it's hard to get passes them but this girl helps us from the outside (looks exactly like the girl from kickass, purple hair and purple outfit and everything, except she can fly like me), she get the door open for us and we run out into the parking lot and for some reason now it's night out. She tells us to follow her, she runs between cars and two of my friends follow her as I go around but keep up, it seems we lost one of our own, but we keep running and the girl stops at a black small pick up truck,she motions us to get into the bed of the truck so I jump and lay down in the bed of the truck trying to hide, but the unit is to close behind to not have seen me, the other two get caught and are trying to fight them off of themselves, and the girl tries to help, but I freak out and accidentally make the whole truck fly with me, so I use the truck to make the unit back up by slamming the truck up and down almost on them, so the girl and the two buys jump into the truck bed and I try to make the truck levitate out of there, but then suddenly me and the two boys black out, and awaken in some place, like a rundown pediatrician office, I turn my head and see my two friends knocked out on a table, and to my surprise the girl knocked out by them, I know that she could've gotten away, but I guess she purposely got caught so she could help break us out of this. Then my friends and the girl drowzily wake up too, and I get up and walk over to the door and try to open it, but this woman comes out of this hallway to the right, and with questionalbe concern tells me she didn't want it to come to this and that althouh she is with the unit, she wants to "help" us, but I run back to the table where my friends are at and try to urge them alert so we could climb out the window or something, the woman gets angered at this and runs over to us and she gives them shots that make them sedated. Then she sets her sights on me and I run around the room begging her not to, but then I feel the needle go into my neck and it clicks (literally felt pain) but I keep running even though now sloppily, then I feel it again and hear another click, I felt the pain in my left forearm, then she places me on the table with the others and she gives us this evil look. then she leaves the room. I dowze out for what seems a few seconds but mustv'e been longer because when I awaken I see the girl standing next to me and my friends behind her, they tell me to get up because we're going to escape, so I get up and follow them, the girl quietly opens the only door in the room, but that woman is sitting at a desk just outside the door and she saw us, so the girl slams the door shut and we run back towards the tables and the girls and my friend pull up this poster and there are these hematite blinds, and they pull them up and start to jump through one by one, and the girl tells me I'm next so I jump through to the other side, then I help the girl through and she puts the blinds back down, and we wait and wonder if the evil woman will know where we went, of she knew and we see her trying to get through the blinds into the small dark room we were in, so I look to the left and see a window and I run to it, and open it, I tell the girl to go first, so she does, and next me and then mty friends, there is only about and inch of wall design that we are able to walk on but we hurredly climb around the building, and then I hear the evil woman at the window we exited screaming for us to return or else. But we keep going and I decide it's time for us to fly, but only me and the girl can fly, my friends have different super power that I don't even know. So we both have one of them to grab on to us as we fly, but the edge we were on crumble and we all fell and had to hand on wires by our hands...sadly then I wake up

(I think the benadryl one day after still had an effect on my dreams, this was ridiculously long, vivid, and story like...which is a possible symptom from taking benadryl.)

(While running through the parking lot a became slightly lucid, as I was thinking how good it was I was keeping up with running when usually in my dreams I run so slow.)

Date: 25 July

Total sleep time: 7 hrs

Pre bed: 200 mg valerian, 100mg B6, 1 pep. oil capsule

Dream quality and recall: The dreams were very vivid, recall was good but only noted keywords. I found some dreams emotionally exhausting.

Challenges: I had trouble falling asleep, and later it was warm and noisy so I couldn't do the proper WBTB and take advantage of the vividness to get more and longer lds.

Alarm: I set a WBTB alarm as my natural wakes have become unreliable.

Fragment1: Aggressive DC B6 style (+3 hrs). A person I know behaves very aggressively, I become enraged.

Early micro-ld (+3 hrs after bed): I am in a city that looks similar to one I dreamt a few months ago. Before I recognize this place I am falling with some kind of flying platform thing? Then I go down the street, looking for the city center, I know it is in the opposite direction. On a very low level, I know that this is a dream, so I daringly look around, trying to get into the closed shops. I get distracted by the stuff they are selling - Swarovski smilies that I consider buying for my mom. I continue down the street, rather non-lucid and see they sell rolled scarves. The one that catches my attention is white/pink and as I pass by the street stall, I swiftly take it and pretend nothing happened. I hurry up, but nobody pays me any attention. Contrary to rl, where I have to look at a manual and the mirror, I easily put the scarf around my head and shoulders and continue down the street.

All the previous street stalls and sellers were from India, and this street also has some Indian style of atmosphere. It looks a bit trippy too, as I see a few DCs spitting like crazy.I am distractedly lucid and try to avoid this weird sight, as I walk down the street. Yet, the act of spitting catches my attention and I soon see strange spit-related stalagmites appearing all around me. For some reason, my will activates at this point and I say out loud "this is my dream and I have full control". I didn't expect myself to say this at all, so this puts me into super clarity of mind. Contemplating the statement, I focus on the space in front of me and see the little transparent dot (pin head size, that I sometimes notice during the day if I sleep less that 5 hrs). If find this very strange. At this point the dream falls apart and I am back in bed. A DEILD could have been successful, but decided to visit the restroom.

Fragment: in front of grandma's, I consider climbing a tree, but as my friend confirms there are webs all over the tree so better not.

Fragment: flying?

Dream: We are in Belgium and I go in this person's lab, where I mix some stuff. He is arrested as he is the owner, but they will soon be coming after us too. As I am preparing to leave, a woman that lives in his place comes in and tells me they (cops?) are coming. I have to go to the store and admit I am the one that bought something. The woman in the store will recognize me, so I change my appearance. Before I go, I want to listen to a song, but bf interrupts me.

Fragment: I enter a building, but as I go up the stairs, it turns into shelves stocked with food. As my mind is trying to figure out what the hell is this, I decide that this a small local supermarket, and look at the items there. Lots of expensive cheese and carrot juice. I have climbed on the shelf as am examining all the items. Soon my dad comes in and talks about the food.

Dream: I am in my hometown, in a small garden, waiting for something I can't remember now, on the ground, when Will Ferrell comes to me. He starts talking in German and there is a touch of aggression in the way addresses me and behaves. I tell him to switch to American, then wonder at my own statement. He makes a few comments in English, then goes to a street stall where they sell books and switches to German again. He forces me to buy 4 books, although I see no sense in reading them (they look very outdated and boring). As I take the four books to him, I remember that I don't have money for all of them, maybe just one.

Dream: We are going somewhere with parents, and I know we are heading towards the cave as I see boulders being held by protective nets. Before I know it (this felt lucid for a second because the dream skipped), we are already in the cave. I remember I have to crawl in, so I touch floor and walls of the narrow passage with my hands. We continue forward, but unlike what I have expected, there are no other people here and it is absolutely dark. The passage also gets narrower, I see no point in going further.

Micro ld: I can't remember how this started, I am looking at something (maybe in the cave?) and then it changes so in the darkness in front of me I see these huge ocean waves. I exert control over them, the way I do in many non-lds, but this time I know it was a dream. I am watching this from the distance, as if I am in the cave or in the void and the waves are like a vision/dreamlet in front of me. Then I concentrate on the sound of the waves, I hear them form and crash on the shore over and over, retaining some part of the vision of the waves. I become like enchanted, trying to recall how did the memory of the waves become so ingrained in my subconsciousness. The explanation I come up with is that this is a memory where I am lying on the beach asleep or relaxed, with the waves as the background sound. I feel I am lying on the stomach on the beach, with eyes closed, as if I am relieving a past memory. I am relaxing, semi-asleep, listening to the sound of the ocean.

Dream: Another person pisses me off and I tell him exactly the same things I was thinking about in the last couple of days (saying them is not advisable irl)

Dream: I am on the couch with the son of family friends. For a second, I touch his arm, but then think again. No. He tells me he is sorry that his mom is always inviting me to celebrations (like birthday parties, etc.) and that actually he doesn't want me to be there. I understand, I don't want either. I know that his mom has been trying to hook me up with him. (a rather accurate evaluation, his mom is very enthusiastic about us meeting irl)

Here's a peculiar set of dreams.

> My neighbor took one of his classic cars out and I was in the back seat. Then, He wasn't in the driver's seat and the car was moving so I had to reach to the steering wheel and steer the car. The car hit a truck parked in my neighbor's driveway and I then drove it on the road and later came back into his driveway and steered the car onto the grass and put the car into neutral. Oddly, I think it had a lever to switch the transmission gear when in real life the thing has a push-button transmission. Also, The grass was high in his yard and in real life he cuts it a lot.

> This was transferring from that earlier part to the next part. I was in the garage with a car like my neighbor's of a similar year, But mine wasn't restored and it had rust on the hood or trunk. Then all of a sudden thoughts of Chicken Run came to the dream and the farmers were hungry to eat chicken for dinner and I think there was talk among the chickens that Babs (If I remember the character name right) hadn't laid eggs lately and another character, Edwina was to be taken to have her head chopped off and then be roasted and eaten, I guess, But I didn't see the chicken; I saw a pie crust with a few blueberries in it bigger than my fist and I think I got excited and said something like "I should do this more often" or "I should dream this more often" And I don't think I quoted that exactly.

Note - I was eating blueberries yesterday and I ate some today too.

> I saw lots of seeds sprouting quite tall (IMHO) including an Avocado seed. This dream was nice as I've been working on growing some apple trees, From seed and have had some nice results so far over the last few months.

> I talked with an elderly woman who lives in a nearby house in waking life and I was standing in her house, Right inside the front door. I've never spoken to her that I remember in waking life before, This is not the first time something like this has happened; Another time, I dreamed I was speaking with another woman who lives in my same town and I was in her house too, I think sitting at a table.

> A man had a long number on the back of his hand, Near his knuckles

EDIT/UPDATE NOTE - One or more men were in the house too.

A truck pulled up outside of my house with two men in it. They both looked rough and redneck'ish. They said they were sent to cut my grass and I said "By who?"

"you're mother" they answered (sounds like something she would do)
1
I went inside to call her and suddenly they were on my porch. I open the door and one of the guys reaches in and grabs an xbox 360 that a friend had just dropped off and tries to walk out with it. I follow him and say "hey! what are you doing! I can call the police, ya know?"

he acts like he's having a migraine and starts freaking out. Says he's going to smash my head in with a brick and suddenly he's got a pitch fork. i think he was a marine that is having PSTD or something. I managed to push the pitch fork aside and kick him hard enough to put him down. Then his friend pulled out a gun and I woke up.
2
i'm at my old car lot packing up stuff. there's still pictures and stuff. We're taking them down. Suddenly I feel the presence of a ghost and it starts throwing those pictures off the wall at my brother. I said a prayer to get rid of it and woke up.

3
a family was at some type of weird candy carnival, (at some points they looked like normal people and other points they looked like the Simpsons) basically walking through this apartment building tasting different type of candies when they came upon this backroom with a window. Someone stopped them from eating the last of the candy suggesting it was poisoned somehow. They jump out the window and the whole place explodes, apparently someone wanted to kill as many people as they could inside.

4.
Was planning some vacation and packing my bags. Mom was bragging about how she and Nana had just taken my neice of a vacation by themselves and we should go too this time to see what it's like. Somehow I'll very upset by all this --I think it's because I got left out of the 1st trip... I've got this weird thing about being left out of stuff. Really boils my blood.

5.
Something about a little brother who couldn't have been older than 12 calling his 16 year old adopted sister "babe" and she started picking on him for it.

NOTES:
-My recall has become a heck of a lot better just in the last week. If you saw my dream journal just a few days before I found this website, it's basically just one or two dreams a night at the most, now I'm suddenly recalling 4 and 5 dreams a night.
-But my ability to WILD or even attempt to WILD has seemed to regress. Especially my morning attempts. I feel like I'm just laying there thinking. That's probably the problem (that i'm thinking when i shouldn't be) but I don't know how to keep my mind focused and still fall asleep, if I don't focus my mind i'll just fall asleep normally, but if I focus it too much, i won't fall asleep at all....

Date: 20th July

Pre bed: 200mg valerian, 100mg B6

Dream quality and recall: Dreams were quite vivid today. Generally, I wasn't feeling very comfortable in bed and had lots of these drink then pee moments. Took short key notes with regards to non-lds. Daringly reviewed the ld in my head then went back for more but fell into normal sleep and woke up shortly after.

Summary

Dr1: In a place I used to live, a crow flies in. I use a pc/tablet to chat with other people about it.

Dr2: I am in an SUV and have to deal with some bad guys outside. After I do, extra stars are added to my profile. Martin Freeman (the Hobbit) is sitting to my right and thinks I don't deserve all the stars.

Dr3: Back to school. As I enter the classroom everybody is preparing for a 7 page History + Grammar test. I am very pissed off at my friend for not telling me about the test. She replies that I still have time to prepare by learning all the answers in the break just before the test. I cannot possibly do that.

DILD: As I made the mistake of not taking notes and then going back to bed after the ld, the beginning of this dream is gone from memory. All I remember is that there was something going on in the building and I am talking to someone I know, possibly another classmate by the feel of it. After the conversation in this very large building with open spaces, like a mall, I suddenly become lucid for no apparent reason. I can't contain my excitement, so start running around like crazy. It feels really good until I sense slight destabilization staring to take hold. That sobers me up and I think it is time to do tasks. My mind feels a bit foggy but I nevertheless recall one that I can execute here - punch a President.

There are lots of DCs passing by and my first idea is to get Mr. Sarkozy to emerge from the crowd, so I quickly scan the DCs in front of me and expect him to appear. He doesn't, so I grab a random male DC and decide that I will turn him into Sarkozy. As soon as I concentrate on his face, his features begin to shift right in front of my eyes, which is extremely cool! His nose changes shape several times, until it is a close match to Sarkozy's nose. I also succeed with the ears. The DC reminds me of Sarkozy, but the eyes are not quite the same. I would say he is a 70 percent match. I punch him in the face and the moment I do, his features change again. Slightly annoyed that I cannot properly punch and maintain the view of the right person I punch him again and again, while trying to change his features back to those of Sarkozy. As I don't project too much feeling, this DC simply stays there, staring at me, some distress in his eyes. Interestingly, after punching him, I begin to feel strong pain in the area of my nose, as if I am the one that got punched. Not fully satisfied, I want to turn him into another politician, but before I can transform him the dream slips away. I quickly pass through the void and into my sleeping body. Bad moment to go back as I was feeling uncomfortable in the position in which I was sleepy.

Date: 21 July

Pre bed: Gingko, l-arginine

Total sleep time: 6 hrs

Dream quality and recall: My impression after using this combo tonight was that vividness of the dreams was extremely high. I couldn't recall the early dreams but after I woke up naturally after them, I thought "what is going on, this was so real". The dreams/fragments that I remember had a different feel (despite looking like the usual dream nonsense after reading) to them similarly to one of the other l-arginine trials. Very intriguing.

I was looking forward to sleeping longer and going for a lucid, but was woken up and had to deal with some crap that can't be really dealt with.

Fragment: I am watching a map of the world, but it is actually the real world. One thing that looks extremely interesting is how I see different winds/temperatures moving over the world.

Fragment: I am talking to some German guys. Then I watch a screen with a discussion where half of the discussion is in French and the other one is in German. My username is mentioned as well.

Dream: I am on the street in some city. It feels that this dream may be happening in France and slightly reminds me of the place in the dream about the art appreciator. My bf is queuing inside an embassy. People are sitting on my parents' furniture from years ago. I make remarks about his place having the same furniture as us. I want to reach my bf but the other women on the queue won't let me, I think this is typical. I joke that all people here have gathered to see my bf, when he is supposed to get naked for the procedure. It's his turn. There is a small boy trying to interact with us. (this reminds me of a small boy we saw yesterday, he was talking to himself)

Dream: I am in a room (some deep strange feeling here), and see a friend of ours. She looks quite worried as she is supposed to meet her husband at the city center in few minutes but is not ready yet. Her husband gives her a call to ask where she is and she gets so emotional she starts crying. This whole scene is extremely vivid as I see her face in great detail, being influenced by the strong emotions. I try to console her and hug her, but she pushes me away. I am at loss.

Dream: I am in an apartment with lots of guys, this skater guy from my past is there as well. If I am not mistaken, we first discuss lucidity blends, and I want to say that I use coke as the last ingredient, yet as my mom is also there, I am worried that she might understand the whole thing wrong and think I am taking drugs. Therefore I say "coca cola" but she still reacts as if I am admitting to a wrongful act. I don't want to discuss this in front of her.

On the wall appear 3 posters that describe steps in some process, initially related to lucidity, but then it looks like this is the recipe to make ginger beer? There is also a screen next to the posters, but very soon it looks like it shows porn-related contents. I actually don't see anything of the kind, but know that it is an erotic movie that is playing and also on the posters. I feel embarrassed that I have put these things on the wall and family is coming in the room at the moment. My skater friend is not there anymore, but now there are lots of people gathered around a bench. One older guys looks extremely bad, he has some problems, and I try to calm him down, let him lie down on my lap.

Fragment: I am wondering why I just saw my skater friend from the past in the dream (this feels like some kind of meditative analysis while asleep), I see his face and features, and conclude that because he looks so handsome I had something like a crush on him and feelings in the past, and this explains his appearance in the dream.

On August 5, 2012, 7:12 a.m. I recorded a dream that made no sense. There were 2 shirts that had dates on them: July 25, and another date that I forgot. 2 days ago I had a dream of me and a friend (Akundo) and he was sad and needed cheering up, so I gave him a big hug I woke up, called his sister, and she ended up telling me that his birthday was in a couple of days (July 25) I kind of freaked out and couldn't tell whether or not his birthday had anything to do with the dream that I had a year ago that made no sense. I met Akundo in February 2013. Coincidence or not? I need interpreting...

Side note 1 was initially a Waking Life entry but I decided to share it with you because I feel stuck and maybe someone can post something useful
The feeling that I'm in some kind of winding tunnel has become stronger. I can almost "see" the limits of my attention. Also on days that I don't exercise I'm in a bad mood going from irritable to depressed.
I feel that something is changing in my values,in the way I see the world ( the Germans have a word for this: Weltanschauung/ world view) but not every change is for the better. I attribute this to meditation, but I'm not sure. I have no proof of this, it's just intuition (or wishful thinking)
There's a strong gap between how I perceive myself and how the others see me: It seems to them that my behaviour and my way of thinking improved substantially(I don't feel like a genious and I wasn't dumb before so how exactly am I better) but inside I feel like I'm just a massive thing that's simultaneously alive&inanimate object and that what I once considered 'me' is a lot smalle&less alive than I used to think. The nickname Arrakis never seemed more appropriate than now.
I am pouring specific thoughts on this forum because I am under the impression that they are really important to my LD/WL.
Ironically it is still very clear to me that part of me dreams and part of me is awake at the same time and that there is only one realm, like I am some kind of planet where things happen all the time, and that there is night and day, all part of the same process. No real use treating them separately.
However, I probably need to look closer at this belief/observation and I know I will have to rephrase it over and over until I resolve this tension between the perceived inner unity and the intense feeling of being partially dead/automaton. How can one feel dead? That's another paradoxical/bad phrasing. I think what I mean is I observe myself doing things but I am only aware of doing them not deciding them and I also notice that they are not context sensitive most of the time. It's like being in a straight jacket and that straight jacket is you, is part of who you are.
Why do I need LDs when I don't even know in what pocket my keys are?
Do you know where your keys are?

I haven't written anything since I joined this forum. I have had several LDs but I only remember how I gained lucidity in one of them: I was in a stressful situation ( that is too often the case ) and instead of becoming even more tense I thought to myself : That cannot happen in RL, so I must be dreaming! And All of a sudden I understood that I was dreaming and felt relieved and changed the scenery so to speak .
I seem to be "dragged under water" for long periods of time, I forgot that I wanted to write my dreams and keep a DJ and so on. It's like sometimes I have this tunnel vision in my life when I can only focus on one or two important things and I completely forget about other things.
I still meditate, not as much as I would like even though I find it subjectively beneficial.
I was in Barcelona and I jogged up to 15 km a day. It feels like a dream now.
I've noticed that when I'm on duty at the hospital and some emergency wakes me up in the night this really ruins my sleep, not just for that night but sometimes for longer. I wish I were more adaptable or that people were healthier. That would work too.
I'm trying to connect math, physics, medicine, meditation, LD, martial arts training, jogging, healthy eating, nutritional supplements into one. I feel strained instead of stronger.
Anyway this was a good English exercise.

Comment: So I got tired of this heat plus other distractions reducing my ld count and decided to try with G

Preparation: I had pre bed insomnia, too wakeful plus nagging thoughts. Still, I decided against setting an alarm and going for a natural wake.

WBTB: Of course, I missed my desired WBTB but decided to go ahead. I was very sleepy due to the heat so walked around a bit. As soon as I took the pill and went back to the bedroom I saw this huge moth (a real one!) that came in last night and we couldn't catch it. It started flying around and caused me some additional wakefulness. I tried to ignore it and went to bed.

Started my usual induction mix and internal dialogue was fine but I felt too alert bodily to be able to fully fall asleep and be absorbed by those dreamlets/HI. Here are some that I remember, some were lucid, some not, I don't think it matters much in this case.

Mini-dream: I am somewhere and to my right is a guy that I identify as Xanous. He is holding some kind of a brush that I next take and inspect. White bristles, strange shape. I wake up. (Not much time to observe appearance, but in my mind it was him)

HI/dr: The head of state

HI/dr: The best lucid dreamers in DV [Names]

HI/dr: The tree of plenty from HMM game

HI/dr: A very large tropical plant plus other greenery

Micro-ld: I am standing on my grandma's balcony and it is night. I can hear nice music playing and look down to see a strange guy in front of the building. He is performing for a new place that has opened up just in front of grandma's. I have positive feelings towards the guy as he reminds me of a friend of mine. But most importantly I am very happy to have finally made it to a dream. The air is very stuffy and warm but I feel some kind of pleasant power in the air. I try to move my head to look around but meet some resistance as if my dream body isn't quite ready yet. I'm thrown out of the dream and into my super awake body.

I try to go back to sleep for some time but in vain so I give up and go to meditate in the other room.

I spend appx. 50mins meditating then go to the restroom. Moving from thought to thought and by means of association I remember my phone, see a quick phone image along with the thought, then another image quickly flashes by - the true location of my phone.

I have looked in the place two times but couldn't find it before. I decided to give it another try, this time a fully thorough search until I got out every little piece of crap from there. And at the bottom was of course - my phone!

Background: I bought a new phone but put it somewhere in a hurry in April, while preparing for guests. I totally forgot about it in May, looked for it everywhere in June, gave up in July and decided I would ask a DC where the hell it was. Asked a few times, got some nonsense and the best answer that came from DCs was "outside". Well, it was inside and not outside. Lol! Anyways, one task less.

I had a dream, but i forgotten it unfortunately :/

My recall appears to be sinking somewhat.

fragments:
I see many doorways.

Sidenote:
I seem to remember doorways quite often. Wonder what that means.

7/17/13

last night bed 12am - 8:30am

DR - I wrote down some keywords at night. "Backpain, classmates, school looking for printouts, LDing

Around noon I layed down and listened to my Yoga Nidra MP3. Barely like 4 min into first part - "Surveying your body", I suddenly got into this very weird and pleasant state.

I lost feeling of contact with sofa. As if I was floating on water bed made out of energy. It was moving like a waterbed would, slight wavy sensations and energy.

This part "survey of body" is guided meditation. Voice is telling me to pay attention to certain parts of the body and to experience them any way I can. Either feel the skin, bones and such, or experience it as energy.

I my mind I said "energy" and when thinking of parts of body, I was first time actually able to feel them. Like "top of my head" I was actually aware of it and felt it. Same with knees, ankles and so forth.

It put me to sleep rather quickly.

Pre bed: 100mg B6

Dream quality and recall: Dreams were vivid but recall was challenging due to the fact that I continued sleeping after the lds. It took me a while to journal the lds and by the time I did, the non-ld memories almost vanished. Still, taking into account recent busyness, heat and other distractions, I am very happy with the results.

Early dream fragment: It is the 5th of July and I am watching lots of fantastic long-lasting fireworks in the sky

Early dream fragment: I am doing dumbbell exercises, it feels really good

WBTB: Was very sleepy but made an effort to review the tasks. Said a mantra a few times, then fell deeply asleep.

Dream: I enter grandpa's room and discover that grandma has forgotten some kind of a diary she kept hidden behind the door. I wait until she is not around and peek in the diary to find out it is actually my diary. So, I had forgotten it in 2007 and she hid it and has been reading little bits ever since. This is terrible because this diary fully describes my views, plans, etc. I want to take it back home, but my mom comes snooping around, so I have to be careful not to attract her attention.

Fragment: I am with a classmate going to a class meeting. We stop in front of a building.

LD1: For some reason am in someone's store that resembles an outlet of a totally unknown brand. I spend some time checking out clothes, mostly interested in pink and purple ones. There is a cardigan I like but it turns into a net? Classmates are also there, I am trying to get their attention. A woman working in the store comes to bring us what looks like orange juice, but she claims it is beer. My whole class is gathered around something like a long table and we are having a drink. I first wait for everyone to get served but soon notice that some are already drinking. I feel drunk. Other classmates tell the story of a girl with the same name as mine, about how she lived in some city where women are emancipated. I think this refers to me, but later find out that they are talking about another classmate because they say her family name.

I turn to one of my best friends and say to her that we better leave the place and go outside. I am not sure what we did there but I am overly bold and become lucid. I turn back to all the guys from my class that have been passively following me and say some things to them I don't any longer remember. I recall how long this dream has been going and have very little time left, so decide to hurry up. The scenery around me is absolutely beautiful. We just left a lone building and there is only grass around, hills, trees. It seems like fall is just beginning, the colors are very pleasant to look at.

My brain is more asleep than usual and the only task that comes to mind after looking at the scenery is flying to angel falls. (which is so totally CL!)

I lift off and do some maneuvering that I can't exactly recall. I keep on flying over some fantastic hills, but I just feel this is going to end very bad because I have no idea where I am going and I am in the air for too long. (Also my expectation was set very deeply on a subcon level).

I decide to land and end up facing what looks like a small waterfall. There is water pouring over some rocks just in front of me. While I know this isn't what I am looking for (too small), I go as close as possible to this water falling down the rocks, trying to feel the water on me as the dream fades away and I end up in the void.

I spend some time in the void, just waiting there. (I couldn't remember any advice as what else to do, but that was fine)

LD2:It's a bit hard to remember what the first image was that I was looking at here but I am lucid from the start. It is an open area, with lots of vegetation again. I try three tasks, not fully sure about the sequence of but mostly likely in this order.

I look around and see some hills and trees in the distance. Once again it is all very beautiful and this makes me happy. It also reminds me that I was headed towards Angel falls. The vegetation makes it just perfect for the task and I stare there and day dream for a very short while. I feel like I want to rush forward and just get there. However, I just passed a few DCs and I remember I had another task I wanted to do "ask a DC".

I turn to this overweight mid-age woman and she makes some kind of word-like sound like "nah", I ask her where my phone is and she says "outside". This cannot be possible, as I know the phone must be somewhere at home, so I object and ask for further explanation. She says something else that I can't exactly remember but it means that this the answer. I am not satisfied with the answer she gave me, so I look around and there is another DC woman more or less the same type, but different face. I go to her and she makes exactly the same word-like sound like the other one, I find this very strange. I proceed to ask her about my phone and she just answers "but didn't you already ask". Well, yeah, but I want to ask again, and it is none of her business, just tell me where the phone is. I am annoyed with her and start some senseless explaining. After a while, I give it up and move on.

Still in the same place I decide to do the fireworks task and look around for some fireworks to swallow. The problem is that I am not in a room where my mind easily makes all kinds of objects but in the greenery and there's only grass and some small bushes there. I somehow remember I can do a summon from my pocket. I have the memory that my pockets are currently empty but still decide to search in my pocket. It is indeed empty but I manage to scrub something there, I hold my fist tight for a second and then I expect to see a mini-firework in there. Unfortunately, it is just a purple brown pill. I become confused thinking I really had this pill in my real pocket and that's causing the problem. Anyways, I concentrate on the pill, trying to make it look at least a bit like a firework but in vain. Somewhere after this intense concentration the dream fades.

I don't remember anything from the void here anymore.

LD3: I appear in some kind of public building restroom, still lucid, where I am looking myself in the mirror. I feel some pain in my tooth and have a closer look. Yeah, something is not quite right there and that worries me that I might actually have done something to my real tooth. I vaguely remember Penny talking about tooth dreams, and try to ignore the issue. Yet, I keep on checking myself out in the mirror until I zoom in to see and feel my entire row of teeth in a painfully twisted position. Dreams can really get crazy, I think to myself, remembering how Checker's fingers were twisted or something like that.

Finally, I brake my teeth fixation and walk around, trying to exit the restroom. Slightly worried that the dream might destabilize, although there wasn't an indication?, I decide to rub my hands and see if anything feels different. I remark that everything feels absolutely normal, and rubbing my hands on this occasion does not feel different from waking life. I also remember to jump a bit supposedly to stabilize, but it's more like some mischievous act of fun. I jump a few times, although cautiously as I don't want to destabilize the dream by losing the sense of my feet while mid air.

Trying to leave the restroom, I walk around in this building, but get lost in a maze of corridors. I go back, then try again and end up in some creepy looking corridor, lit by a single old bulb, shining bright. The whole place looks like from some kind a cheap movie scene and I don't like it at all. I don't want to be there. I get paranoid, staring at the corridor which turns to the left and soon some kind of a non-human thing is summoned by me.

Before he even has the chance to move closer I know that the only way out of this place is to phase through the wall in front of me and I do so.

I immediately end up in the void, but am still a bit paranoid that this thing might follow me into the next dream. I try to reason this whole situation, that he doesn't exist anymore, and feeling with certainty that once in the void, it is over. From then on, I remember to concentrate on Angel falls and on appearing on top of it. I do my best to create sensations that I am there.

I don't remember what happened, I just found myself in the next scene.

LD4: My memory gets even worse as I fall deeper into sleep. I am on the street, facing some building. My concern at this point is recall. I realize that I have been having dream after dream with no opportunity to journal. I try to remember how many lds so far, four, try to recall some details as I feel they will be lost. Using either my fingernails or some other object, I write down the number of dreams with a key word next to each to help with my recall once I wake up. This whole task is extremely difficult and towards the end of the process I begin to hear non-lucid dream thoughts interfering in my head.

Soon I lose lucidity as a Heroes of Might and Magic scene develops in the building in front of me. There are the two players' armies and obviously mine has been defeated because I didn't send reinforcements, while the other player did. The armies look quite 3D life-like with the largest beast looking quite scary.

NLD: Someone informs bf about his dentist and that some kind of refund is due because he did the dental work in a hurry. Tom Wilkinson is the dentist.

NLD: I am in a tram, there is a strange looking skinny old man in front of me. He is dressed like Gandhi, also has some kind of flat drawers on his chest, as some sort of a medallion. We talk for a short while and unfortunately I can't recall more detail anymore.

Soon the dream ends and I am in my body semi-conscious and extremely sleepy. For some reason my physical body decides to change position, so my legs move. This is what wakes me up a bit more and I decide it is better to journal before I forget everything.

My recall has dropped to a new minimum, although I am consistent with my DJ. No dreams yesterday and last night gave only two small fragments from what I know were big dreams. At least I feel there is much more to them.

• Elite district: I'm in a housing complex. The houses are big and they have huge front yards with massive cars. It feels like some kind of elite district, where the educated and financially successful people live. I walk around and ask the people about their dreams. While they are generally polite, no one really seems amused or interested.
  
  There is a lot more, but all other details are foggy. Nevertheless, it shows me that thinking and talking about dreams is active in me, while I'm dreaming.
  
  
• Knife in dream-shoulder hurts: I'm in a small house with many small rooms. They are like small chambers, where the floor and the ceiling are made of wood. There are also wooden shelves. My mother is there at some point in the fragment.
  
  I'm with my brother. It feels like something bad has happened to either or both of us. I hurt him in the stomach and he slowly stabs a knife into my left shoulder. It hurts a lot, but I don't resist it, because I somehow feel like I deserve it. The whole thing makes me sad, I hug him, while he is lying injured (injured by me(?)) on the ground. I tell him that I love him and that I am really sorry.
  
  My brother was also in my DJ-entries from 2 and 4 nights ago. I have no clue what this means and where it comes from, but this one makes me think. This feels like a small fragment of a bigger dream (which perhaps spans several nights lol).