task of the month

Date:03 Jan

Wbtb: around 50 caffeine (latte), way too wakeful again

WILD: I finally feel as if I am not in bed anymore but somewhere else, so allow myself to look around (don't remember opening the eyes?). Yes, I am in an unknown room that has a slight resemblance to grandma's place.

At this point I recall 3 tasks and notice that there isn't a single DC here. The dream feels unstable and I recall that we talked how 501 would examine his hands in detail to anchor himself in the dream and decide to do so. I have a good look at my hands, which look quite realistic and similar to my real ones and move on to my arm where I concentrate on the fine hairs. I also remember to do the old classic stabilization where I lick my arm but with little effect. I still feel the dream slipping away and nervously walk around, thinking maybe I would try this opposite task I had in mind, but I begin to lose vision. The lower part of my vision becomes a blur and I begin to feel weightless, so conclude now isn't a good time for that particular task.

My vision gets somewhat better. I turn around and see a window, a good opportunity to get out of here. There is distinct coldness emanating from outside and I am sure it will help me freshen up and condense me back to normal. Before going out, I briefly wonder whether to bring a blanket or something, since the air is chilly. I open the window and push myself outside. In the meantime, a girl passes by carrying a blanket that she drops nearby. I ask her about her NY resolution but can't hear what she replies. The dream collapses.

DEILD: I very briefly touch on my body and concentrate on dreaming again. There's a confusing mid point dreamlet where I remain in darkness and can hear women talking around me, I keep still, waiting for the dream.

I feel a scene change, but decide I will wait a bit longer to allow the dream to fully form and maybe it will be more stable. I finally conclude it is ok to move and begin exploring. I am in my old room and can see that the voices from the previous part belong to a number of women. They are sitting on couches around a table with food and drinks as if there's some sort of party going on. A friend from school is also there.

I remember the NY resolution task and make an announcement that I would like to hear what their resolutions are. My friend says "I want some juice" and points at the table. A bit unsatisfied with the answer I move on to the next woman who looks in her forties and repeat the same question. She just stares at me with her mouth open. I wait a bit but not a single word comes out. There's another woman sitting next to her and I address her "what about your beautiful friend sitting next to you?", I feel as if I am moderating some sort of show. She says something about a friendship club in New York. I try to memorize as much as possible. The dream soon ends.

I make a quick review in mind and wonder if I should try to go back for more but really need to visit the restroom.

I also remember a fragment that I can't allocate, where I was looking at a blue/grayish backpack with something written on it by CL.

Date: 25 Dec

Wbtb: sleepy so only 5-10min with 35-40 mg caffeine (Red Bull)

Dream quality: vivid, shifty items, recall evading

The ld part is preceded by a short non-ld FA fragment I barely recall.

LD Frag: In the next scene, I am walking down the street lucid. There was something going on here, not sure what. I decide I want to have some fun (part habit part task) climbing up a building. The dream is already very shifty. I go up climbing this building where I easily place my hands even though the distance between the frames of each window fitting my left and right hand separately is out of day life proportion. I keep on climbing but when I reach the end of the building, last floor, another one appears, I climb it, this repeats two more times, then I think about the roof and finally reach it. Some thoughts about having to draw the wall of china, looking for a place to do it. Evading recall at this point but I want to go down and the whole thing happens quite quickly. I descend but at the same time am still holding on to the building with one hand. As I almost reach the ground I stop and look to see what's going on - my hand has stretched all the way down to where I am. I have some more thoughts about this and as far as I can remember the dream soon ends.

Not sure if I touched on my body to deild or chained in dream. Don't remember.

LD: In an office building now, want to cross over to next building, very distracted as something is going on in the building, announcement to all employees which are going somewhere. Between the two buildings are a few red wires and I am confident that I will be able to walk on them. As I try to adjust them for an easier use, they change so that there are two additional wires I could eventually hold on to with my hands.

Not sure if I cross the entire distance or just a part of it, memory is hazy, in the next moment I also do some vertical climbing. This time I have the realization that there are invisible horizontal lines that have been helping me with my climbings all along, therefore it should be easy to climb even on empty space. I touch the air above me, trying to feel an edge or something to hold on to. Initially there's nothing, then I hold on to something, although I also summon some sort of intangible wall/building part as well. I climb a bit upwards in the air.

I finally recall the snowman task. It's dark and there is already some snow on the street but it's not enough. I scan the area, looking for a place with more snow. Initially see these kids that are playing with the snow, in the process of building a snowman. I have a mix of real and false memories, where I remember that this is how Steph completed the TOTM, she built the snowman together with some kids. I don't want the task execution to be exactly the same, therefore I go to another place.

Here there's also lots of snow on the ground, cars and there are two snowmen in progress. I'm also thinking about journalling at this point and whether it is ok to use the half-ready snowmen. I decide to add the finishing touches on one of them and decorate the head. Conveniently, there are a number of items right next to the snowmen, so I just pick up the carrot nose and also put a woolen blue hat on it. I get some sort of dream memory from the hat and remark that the snowman looks very much like D (a schoolmate, who also makes lots of appearances in my dreams, come to think about it he does wear a blue hat). Two other classmates are now here and we are discussing this, while I am also thinking about how to journal this dream.

Without much effort and while I am not looking at him, the snowman turns into the real D and looks kind of pissed off. We irritate him more by making laughing noises behind his back. Can't recall the conversations. Another classmate appears, D is now friendlier I address them both to help me draw the wall of China. Me and the other classmate turn to look at what's across the street where I want to make the wall of China appear. He tells me he doesn't quite know how to draw it but will try.

With no further involvement (apart from comments I can't recall) from his side, I find a spot in the distance and make a few predetermined moves with my hand. Immediately, I get a sort of a large long rocky structure, obviously not what I want. I look away, say something to my classmate then try again in another place. This time the result is better, it is a close match to the Great Wall, although its existence is uncertain/shifty. Some thought processes going on again, do not draw it again or you will change it, do not lose it out of sight, now I need to get there. It shortly disappears, after couple more thoughts and looking appears again. Now it is on a much more convenient place.

We are are at the bottom of an overcrowded with items hill and the wall of China, which has a middle age touch to it, slightly lighter stone color, is stretching from the bottom of the hill to the very top. I enter and get on top of the structure, which is made of small steps in the middle. Some task confusion, I take a couple of steps to make it count (even though this wasn't part of the task). Then remember what I was supposed to do - vandalize.

I look around, the two walls to the side are made of lots of lined statues and I take a heavy metal statue and use it to start breaking the rest. Then I come across a miniature with one of the Sumerian gods/guardians wondering what's that doing here. I don't want to break it. In the meantime, next to the wall the surroundings have changed and I am now in some sort of open air Asian temple, where they honor the ancestors. There is also a creepy dark female deity statue near the part with the wall of China. I feel bad for recking havoc in this place. It surely is enough for the task. What was next - apologize? (I truly think this is part of the task). No, I have to fight the authorities. But then, let's apologize anyways, I do so. Ok, now I have to find some Chinese to fight, I try to summon them, but the dream thins out and I wake up.

~My house was completely underwater. I still lived in it. One day, me and my sister swam for what seemed like hours, and everything was colorful and beautiful. There were big tubes of all different colors in certain locations that you could swim through to get to another room, or outside. Our entire property was underwater: about seven acres. I remember becoming a little nervous, because I had the feeling we were both going to be late for school, and I was afraid we were going to forget to come up for air every once and a while. I went off on my own for a while, and when I swam back into my living room, I find my sister sleeping on the couch. I woke her up so she could go outside and get some air at the surface. The entire dream was very realistic and beautiful.


~It started off as a nightmare, where I was a baby and my mom was playing these 'games' with me and the guests in our house. The games mostly consisted of me being thrown from one end of the room to the other. I was completely helpless, so it was actually pretty scary. After a while of this, I decided just to stand up. When I did, I was back in my 17 year old body. I walked up to my mother and told her "You can't do this to me anymore, I am 17." She stared at me for a moment, then she went and got a little machine that looked like a mini guitar amp and pressed it against my chest. It beeped and showed a number, i think it was 42. THis apparently was some sort of baby detector, because she said plainly, "You're a baby." Horribly enough, I suggested she would just play these games with my little brother or sister to take the pressure off of myself. We were walking upstairs, i think for her to decide who she wants to choose, and I was wishing i could just escape. Then, without a reality check, I simply just remembered I was dreaming and ran upstairs for a window. Mom opens the window for me, not sure why, and i try to climb out. I got a little stuck, and got a terrible feeling that my mom was holding me back. Then, I remembered this feeling is just my own subconscious, and pushed through. I soared through the clear sky for a while, It was exhilarating and wonderful, as flying would be. I closed my eyes and counted to ten, and decided when I woke up, I would be someplace else. When I opened, I was in the dark bedroom of a guy I used to be in love with (i dont use that term lightly) . He was sleeping. I crawled on the floor and into his bed... which is when I experienced a false awakening :/ I woke up in my own bed, sitting up straight. I layed back down and closed my eyes, which is where I actually woke up.

Soo happy - pure DILD without WBTB - I recognized being at my childhood home with my mother.
Did RC - and actually I have been thinking, that my fingers being not countable might be pure expectation - since in the past I had just seen my hands normally.
And so it was - counted 5 fingers on each hand - I knew somehow I was dreaming anyway, though - and convinced myself with nose-plug.
I stabilized with handrubbing and with turning around slowly.
I had read, that the spinning, which is meant to stabilize should be done slowly.
And it worked - seems my brain produced ever clearer surroundings by me relatively slowly turning around and taking it all in.

I did this twice more in that dream, and found it a real help with sub-optimal optics.
I mostly did have suboptimal optics - but could freshen them up like this.
This time I started out with remembering, what my goals were.
And they were step two for comp. - basic summoning, and then I wanted transformation in that arctic wolf.
But the snowman also came to my mind.

So I started by imagining a necklace a bit like the one from my last lucid in a drawer.
It wasn´t in though - but a chaotic assortment of socks and gloves and folding umbrellas.

So I tried it with the door of the house - really convincing myself, that a certain friend of mine would stand on the other side.
I hope it counts, that another guy stood behind that door??

So then I went out - left that guy standing - he wasn´t overly animated anyway - and went out.
Flew around a bit - looking for snow - and it worked again, that from seeing something white - I was able to transform the landscape a bit in the difference into a winter-scene with thick snow lying on the ground.
No need to let it snow.
On the way - twice a DC wanted to lure me into doing something else - but I told them, I had no time.
Then I tried to transform into an arctic wolf.
The only thing I managed was feeling white hair growing from my body everywhere - and that took ages - somehow I gave up - thinking - common - December almost through - do at least that snowman.

And I did - a small one - maybe 40 cm all in all - but from real snow, and this time I had some stones and branches for a face and it looked nice and friendly.
Then I animated it - that was quite easy - I just pretended it was a dancing decoration snowman already - and it started dancing - it had two snow-ball feet (not from me..) and hopped from one to the other to a melody which he somehow caused himself.

Very happy with the achievement - I woke up.
Probably somehow on purpose - having thought, I had done all there was to do in that LD.
Weell - I don´t regret it.

One normal dream:

Something I have dreamt before - I had finished school already - and had gotten a good mark overall - but suddenly this was not enough for some reason and I had to do the last class again.
With younger classmates - some people I knew from real life, who were much younger than me.
I was angry and not motivated and didn´t attend most classes - being on the lake instead etc. - not accepting this sort of.
But when I had to attend - I suddenly wasn´t able to follow the proceedings - and got more pissed off, they made me do it again.
There was a bit more, which I want to leave out - also not nice.
In the end I got thrown out, because of misdemeanor - and it was unclear if I could go to university with what I got.
Dream ended before I could find that out.
I wonder, why so many dreams go about school and old friends from school - and comparatively much less with my actual recent friends and my husband, with whom I really spend time - also older jobs are not represented accordingly..?

Santa sandman was a good man this year. After not having any lucids for a few months I get a bunch in one day so happy.The last two were during a nap a took after being awake for about 7 hours.


Flying fun:
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I am kind of skate boarding down a street when I do a jump. I am high in the sky wondering how I am going to land without hurting myself. I get giddy and say to my self I am dreaming and drop the thing I was using to skate board with. At first I try to land, but remember about the advanced flying and fly into space. When I get there I expect to see the moon but all I see are colored orbs,I call these planets and dodge the first of them. Then I quickly make a game out of trying to collect everyone. I get excited having fun and soon wake
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No Gifts For Me
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I quickly fall back asleep and tell my self to do a rc. Getting out of the bed. I walk to the door and do a nose plug rc. I am happy I am having another lucid. I open the door and think about what I want to do now and remember the totm basic and set out to find a dc and ask for a gift. I walk down stars and stop at the front door for a minuet thinking about leaving to find a dc but think no one would be around. So I walk into the living room to find hubs on the couch. I ask him if I can open one of my gifts early. He tells me no he was never one of those people who stay up until midnight on Christmas eve to open one gift. I try to convince him to let me open one and soon wake with a cat on my chest.
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Running
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After about 30 minutes of petting my cat I am allowed to fall back asleep. Before I roll over in bed I tell my self to do a rc because I am dreaming. Of course I do the nose plug, but I can not quite get my fingers on my nose so I switch to the hand rc and count my fingers. At first there is only 5 but as I count the 3rd finger more start to show up. I get excited again but tell my self to calm down before I wake. When I exit the room again I try to remember another task. I deiced to try and get a gift from a dc again. As I am walking down the stairs I get excited again that I am dreaming in the new home. When I get to the bottom hubs calls out to me from the living room. I tell him not to worry about what I am doing because I am dreaming. I open the front door and walk out amazed to see I bunch of people camped out in the field. I love this and deiced to walk up to one and ask them for a gift. At first the male dc it confused then say oh yah I do have these to give you from a friend. He hands me three stacked round tins. The top one has what I assume is my name and look at the label, it says it is dark chocolate covered something. I try to open the tin but end up squishing it. I wonder if this is enough to say I complete the task and soon forget the totm. I turn to leave this group but get an idea. I turn back to the male dc I asked the gifts for. I ask him if he knows a person named U. He asks me why I am looking for him. I tell him no reason just wanted to meet him. I then ask if he knows M he gets up set about this a tries to dismiss me by walking away. I call after him what about A do you know her? Now most of the people in the camp are getting worried and trying to leave. I lost lucidity here. I follow the male dc I was talking to with another female dc by my side he calls over his shoulder to stop following him. I tell him not until her answers my questions and tells me where they are. We look to the side of this dirt mountain we are walking on to see some cars come racing to a stop. I get the dream knowledge these please are after me. So I turn and run telling the others to follow me I know a way out. Somehow I run into a building and find some stairs and start running down them as fast as I can. When I finally get to the bottom I exit out into an office lobby. I know this lobby from one of my other dreams. Before I can do anything else I wake.
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During my nap ---

Trying For Points
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I am following a boy dc through the dream. Some relative is taking him on a road trip as they move somewhere I can not remember the name of the state. The male dc is driving really fast down a narrow windy road which has ice on it now. I am in the back seat hoping we do not slide off the road into a lake on the side. As I am thinking this I can feel the car start to slid more and more with each turn., soon we slid off the road. I brace my self before we hit the water, but we never do. I tell my self this isn't right and try to do the nose pinch rc but it does not quite work like most always so I switch to the finger rc. At first I am only seeing 5 fingers, but notice a 6th I have not been counting. As soon as I become lucid I think I wake, but it is a fa. I hear some strange noise in the background and in the dream I place it as my alarm going off to get up. I ignore it and try not to wake up moving to the door thinking about grabbing some more quick points for the comp, but all I can think about is interacting with a dc. I tell my self I will see hubs when I open the door for a dc to interact with. Hubs is there on the other side asking about the noise. I tell him it is my alarm in RL going off to wake me up and not to worry about it. I am trying to grab some quick points then I will wake up. I move fast to the front door and open it, but wake after stepping out into another fa. I pick up my phone and try to turn off the alarm, but it is on the screen for text messages. I look at them to see the words are upside down and backwards. I can read something about me texting with hubs about being sorry and stupid, but do not remember the exact syn text of it all. I walk out of the room and run into hubs and tell him thank you for turning off my alarm for me and I think I tell him about my dream but do not remember what else we talk about. I soon wake.
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Dream Partner
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I wake and roll over looking at the clock it is still 30 minutes before I have to get up so I lay back down. I move into the dream and tell my self to do a rc so I get up out of bed and look at my hands. I have about 8 fingers on my hand making it look like a fan. I get happy and shake my hand and look at it again now I have 3 fat fingers. I laugh to my self and move to the door of the room. I walk down a long hallway which ends in a square room by the front of the house. I see a woman of African decent standing with her back to a window looking outside onto a busy street. There is what looks to be stairs to her right, it could also just be a decoration of some sort though. I walk up to her and she says awe so you are my dreaming partner. I get upset about this and start to pound a small flower earring on the stair thing saying you can't be my dreaming partner I don't want you to be my dreaming partner. She asks why not. I look out the window and see a old Chinese man walking down the street and point to him saying that is why not. In my head I am thinking she will find him frightening as I think she is afraid of every thing. She gives me a weird look and say whats with her to a lady now standing behind me. She is an older Chinese looking woman, she beckons me over to her. At this point I lose lucidity. She tells me not to worry because I am a nephim. And I will survive as my whole line has and the dream launches into a brown black and white color to show a woman running down a mountain with an army chasing her. The scene is narrated and I am told she is the first and kept her name when married and made she all her descents did the same since we are a proud people. The dream soon fades and I wake.
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I am really bummed I did not ask the DC (who told me she was my dreaming partner her name)

-There was a man in a white shirt walking down a road. I got the sense that everyone was mad at him for something he did. I find out that he had kidnapped a girl. As he was walking, destination unclear, a car pulls up and asks him if he would help them move, so the man gives them his number.
--Woke up at 3:30 am

-I was investigating a closet that everyone else was too afraid to look into, because there were supposedly some really creepy and satanic things in there. I walked inside, and it was sort of basement looking. There were no lights, so i had to feel around where i was walking. Then i notice beams of light on only certain spots of the room. I take a closer look at all these areas. There were masks of all different colors, each one equally as terrifying and disturbing as the one before. I also find a few creepy-ass dolls that made me want to get the hell out of there. I felt a strong demonic presence. When I left the closet, i told everyone to never go near it ever again. I put a lock on the door and threw the key in a lake. Some unknown time later, I found that the closet door was completely gone, and it looked like someone had blasted the whole wall off. I was angered by this, and everyone was terrified to go near it because they were forced to see what was in the 'closet'. I built a fence, about four and a half feet tall. After i built the fence, i notice a chihuahua inside it. The dog was clearly from hell itself, because it was attacking everyone through the fence (idk how to explain). I had finally had enough of this little brown demon, so i grabbed it by the throat and made my way to the lake. I said "I know you were sent here from the devil." The dog spoke, but it was jumbled and hard to hear. I threw the dog into the lake to drown. When i turn around and see a random lady, I remember I am dreaming and remember basic task i. I ask this lady "Can I have a present?" And the lady says "A present?! You have pissed me off. Here's your present." This is where she proceeds to strangle me. I kick her to the ground, and lose some lucidity. I learn that she is the owner of the closet with the masks, and also a mother of a psychopathic little boy. I was definitely freaked out, so i allowed the scene to change to walking towards yet another lake. (I don't know why these are coming up so often) The walk to the lake was incredibly beautiful. It looked like i was walking into the sky because the clouds had such a clear reflection on the water. On the left and right sides of the lake, there were walls about a hundred feet tall, that were made from dirt and had grass growing on them. Once I get to the lake, I find my little brother and sister trying to walk on the water, because they wanted to get to a mansion on the other side. I didnt like them doing this because it looked too dangerous, so i try it. It was easy, so we all three made our way to the opposite side of the lake.

Woke up here- 6:00 am

I rewrote large parts of this Dream Journal Entry, because the original one seemed a bit flakey. (Most likely because I wrote the original Now, I'm able to properly explain what happened.

Where things get Weird

I was in my front yard, and lucid when two dream characters show up. (They show up in this really cool black car nonetheless) I recognize them as Marcus and this other character that I recently identified and named Jack.
It was at this point that for some reason, I thought of the basic TOTM for this month. To ask a dream character for a present and see what you get. I never said anything out-loud about the TOTM, but I thought about it.
I think Jack is the one who gets out of the car and offers me a small grey gun that he says Marcus invented. (And this is where I think I may have just completed the TOTM.) He gives a short speech about how this is the "next step in personal defense" and asks me to try the weapon out. The weapon looks and feels like the sticky detonator from Halo 4. It has a smooth look to it.
I fire it at a tree, and a large cylindrical grenade sticks to the side of the tree. I pull a trigger, and a number of small fan shaped grenades release from the large one and stick all over the place. Okay, that's a cool feature, but I can't figure out how to make the grenades detonate. Don't know if this is my own lack of knowledge or a malfunction with the weapon.

I false awaken in my own house to find that I have woken up very late on a Saturday morning. Makes sense why I would lucid, so I go downstairs, and go on this site and begin writing a DJ entry for this dream. I then, in my false awakening, go back upstairs and "WILD" back into a non-lucid dream.

I go back into a dream where my lucidity seems very unstable, an anxiety dream about school where I'm stranded there and I need to ride home. Jack shows up again. And let the real weirdness begin.
Jack attempts to convince me that I'm not dreaming. He tells me that my "Guides" (Meaning that he is a guide too now I guess.) are here to help me in waking life. He says I won't be going home for awhile. Telling me that this is waking life, given my groggy lucidity left me confused.
We are walking out of the school. I was at a point where I thought this was RL, and I told him I needed to go get my backpack. He then proceeded to tell me that he was carrying my backpack over his own, took it off and gave it to me. He told me that was in fact a basic test to make sure I wouldn't lose it because of that. So I guess I passed.
We get to the street out front of the school, and we try to get into this other vehicle that's like this very strange tractor type thing. Another detail that I couldn't help but notice, but there was a street named after Jonathan, my dream "Nemesis".
All my regular dream characters, save for the evil one. (Manei, Marcus, and David) started to surround the tractor and get out. There were two more, a younger version of Lia who looked to be about 10, and a younger boy who was probably 6. We get out and we all start to get into this really nice black sport's car. (Is that like my dream character's only way to get around.) I'll really have to draw these cars that I keep seeing. But we have seven people trying to get into this car. I have to sit in the middle of the back. And I don't know where we intend to go.
I'm getting into the back of the car with all these dream characters, and I woke up into my bed.

At my Service

I cannot believe I forgot about this dream.

I was in my school's gymnasium. There were a bunch of people running around and playing with the various gym equipment like dodge-balls and badminton rackets.
Manei approaches me and tells me that I am dreaming.
"Oh... of course I am..."
I do a nose pinch reality check just to be sure. I realize that I am dreaming, but I just felt really lucid. I probably got more lucid in this dream than I did in any lucid dream I've had in a long time. I could really feel the dream world around me. I even thought to myself that my real body is back in bed and this is all a dream, so this was a solid layer 3 dream. (For those of you who are farmiliar with receejones87's layers of LDing)
"Thanks for telling me."
She bows
"I am at your service."
I think to myself for a second. Manei... my dream guide, at my service. Will she carry out any command I give her?
"Jump up and down."
She jumps up and down. Given my dreams take place at about 0.5G's, she is able to jump about her own body height.
"Stop."
She stops.
"What's 7 times 4?"
"28."
Now time to really see how this works. I pick out one of the dream characters playing in the gym. Knowing he is just an aspect of me, I issue this command.
"Go beat that kid up."
She calmly walks over to the dream character, and stops in front of him. She then jumps into the air and spins around kicking the dude in the face. He falls over either dead or unconscious and is bleeding from his nose.

#253 - DILD - 4:28AM

I get really annoyed with the quality of DEILDs so I hope for DILD

I am watching Nick and Hank from Grimm talking in front of a building with a covered pick up/drop off area. Nick walks away and I feel that I am supposed to follow him. I feel like this all a video game and watch as he turns right toward another really close building. I wonder what will happen if I turn the other way. I say, "Screw it." and turn left instead. I follow a narrow alley like a hallway between buildings for a few feet and it suddenly stop at a dead end. I am little shocked and hear loud dun dun DUNN music. I figure this part of the game was not supposed to be seen and I broke the rules. The idea of limited environment makes me think of the dreams pace and I suddenly become lucid.

I hurry back to were Nick went but he is nowhere to be seen. I try to think of my goal but all I can remember is my back up plan, ask a DC for a gift. Damn. I really had something in mind but I just can't recall it. I become afraid that I will destabilise by thinking too long on this so I move on. I look around and see that on the side of a building there is a stairway leading up and an elevator. A Hispanic man in a hair net and white uniform walks up to the elevator, pushes the button and waits. I approach him asking, "Do you have a gift for me?" He looks scared and puts both hands in front of him as he starts speaking fast Spanish. The elevator door opens and I walk in giving up on the man.

Inside, there are three or four men. They look like business men in suits but one gets my eye. He's a large ginger who looks a lot like Arthur Weasley. I ask everyone in the elevator but look at the ginger, "Do you have a gift for me?" Suddenly, they all become very nervous and start clearing throats and muttering uncertain words. I wait patiently with both hands held behind my back thinking they surely have something to give me. The ginger starts patting his pant pockets and dives a hand in one. He quickly produces a coin and tosses it in the air toward me. I think that my dreaming eyes will be unable to follow but I deftly snatch it out of the air. When I look at the coin I see it is copper colored. "Oh. A penny." At that, the elevator door opens on the other side and I exit not ready to give up on this.

I am now in what looks like a waiting room lobby full of people. As I stroll through, I spot an extremely beautiful blonde woman lounging in an arm chair. The room darkens save for a beam of light on the woman. She appears to be from the 40's era but looks strangely like an older version of a Disney star who's name escapes me at the moment. I stop dead in my tracks with my jaw on the floor. I timidly approach the woman having real anxiety and shyness. When I get close she looks up at me. I am barely able to speak at first but my words suddenly rush out at the end, "Um hey. Um so...do you have a gift for me?" I give a nervous smile.
She smiles and nods, "Mmmm Hmmm."
I suddenly lose my nervousness at the prospect of sex, "Oh do you?"
She just rolls her eyes and gets up moving to the other side of the room. There is very large purse or cloth bag on a chair. She reaches in then pauses, "Wait. Do you have a gift for me?"
Shit! I am at a loss and begin to act like the guys in the elevator. I pat my pockets finding nothing but suddenly remember that I can just summon something. For some reason I don't want to be a show-off so I use expectation to find a gift sitting in the room. I turn around and there is a couch with people on it. I walk to the end and expect to find the present sitting on the other side. I push past a woman in a chair and reach down hoping it will appear. My hands grasp on a small box and it materializes before my eyes. It's neatly wrapped in white paper with green and red ornaments on it. Yes!

As I walk the package back to the woman I think that I had better decide what the gift is. I don't want it to be something lame. Judging by the size, I decide it should be jewellery. She's now holding a medium sized box wrapped in red paper with green stripes. We quickly exchange gifts and I tear into mine right away. It's a white box with some writing on it that looks a lot like a board game. I squint to read the yellow writing: NATIONAL LAMPOONS AND BREAKFAST CLUB TRIVIA. I ask if this is a board game and she nods smiling. "Thanks!", I say.
She now unwraps her gift revealing a black felt box. (The type you would expect to have jewellery in) Then, she asks an odd question, "Where does it go?"
I am confused and not sure I understand, "What?"
She repeats herself more clearly now, "Where... does... it go?"
Still thinking she is being very odd, I think "necklace" and trace a line on her chest near her neck. I answer, "Right there."
She smiles and begins to open the box as I take the seat next to her. She pauses, "Is it Lavender Ruby?"
I picture a white gold necklace with purple gems. Wondering what the hell is wrong with this woman I answer, "Well, It's um purple. Amethyst, I think."
She lifts the lid only slightly and quickly closes it looking a little disappointed.
Guessing her thoughts, I ask, "You're going to return it aren't you?"
Without looking at me, she gives a slight nod.
I become annoyed and a little hurt at this, "Why are you being a bitch in my dream?"
Her only response is a playful pouty-lipped-look. I feel bad about calling her a bitch and hug her. I close my eyes as we kiss. The kiss feels odd and I suddenly break away.

I think about how this woman is so lifelike but isn't real at all. In fact, she is just... me. I become curious about what part of my subconscious she is so I ask, "Who are you?"
She smiles and responds, "How are you?"
I don't find the humour in this and sarcastic reply, "Haha how funny." I try again, "What's your name?"
This time get a an actual answer but it seems she is lying because she stumbles on the name like she is just making it up, "Amar...rosa."
"Your name is Amarosa?" (Not Omarosa. There was a distinct 'A' sound.)
She smiles at me and snuggles into my chest. I put an arm around her and want to enjoy this but decide this is wrong. I go ahead and let her down gently, "Well, Maybe in the next life but not this one." I push her away and see looks at me questioningly. "I'm already married. Sorry but I have to go." As if on cue I wake up.

After 8 h WBTB - maybe 10 min. SSILD-activities - these made me tired and want to roll over.


First dream:
What resulted was a very vivid dream - started nicely with being hiking in the summer with a group of friends - we made a pause at a cottage to eat and drink something. But first I was missing my cigarettes - then also mobile phone and purse.

We suspected a woman, who had behaved weirdly and turned her eyes away when looked at.
So a friend of mine helped me nail her down - like managed against her will to look into her bag - and there the cigarettes were.
And I saw something, which looked like another purse of mine than the one, I was looking for.

I left it be - but later, considering the cell-phone - I wanted to catch up with her, to look again.
I knew at that point, that she lived in the same house where I lived - just one story below.
There was only her kid - telling me, his parents would be at the gynaecologist.

So I went there - confronted her - and against even physical hassling from her husband - I got my phone and purse back, and left the practice.
This was all in front of the other patients/their partners.

On returning home - the story had seemingly gone on without me - and the janitor of the house had called the police about it.
This husband would have been violent again and was shot dead - lying on a stretcher - with a law medical examiner - who by the way had made an x-ray (in our flat - wtf??) - he showed it to me - and again there was a fixateure interne in his spine (like in mine some dreams back).
This whole thing somehow lead to a general police alert all over the city - and throngs of police were holding a meeting in a big railway-station hall - really huge.

Second dream:
Like so often I was in search for a flat - and was with several other interested people looking at a weird longish flat with glass roof.
It looked like some train-department with 70s-style rounded windows rimmed in red etc.
But then the real-estate-guy took a remote control - and the roof folded away - so you could make the whole flat open to the sky.

Later I was test- sitting on a high-bench maybe 50 cm deep but around 4-5 meters up.
Now comes the mad part - I got lucid from the fact, that I was afraid of that height.
Even sitting there safe and all - I had such a visceral fear - and I couldn´t overcome it - looking at the side of that bench, and considering climbing down made me almost sick.

Now in real life - I have almost no fear of any heights - going rock-climbing in the mountains sometimes.

So - I went for nose-plug - questioning this reaction - yepp - I was able to breathe.
But like once before - I had the feeling, I might subconsciously be cheating - like not really holding the nose completely closed or whatever.

So I took my hands up to look - and again - they looked all right at first - just a bit blurry - but that didn´t convince me - when I started counting fingers, though - it seemed my hand was sprouting fingers as I went - they even bifurcated.
But somehow, I wasn´t as lucid as I used to be two weeks back with easy fearless flying.
I climbed down that thing..

Unfortunately - I didn´t first change something or somebody - but did basic summoning then.
My comp tasks are first object/DC change - and then summoning.
I was sitting on the ground - and expecting somebody coming round the corner.
Instantly something dark moved about there - but I willed a guy to come around because I was in a certain mood ..ähämmm.
He did come around the corner - was naked and inspiring - but we didn´t touch.
Mixing stuff up - I stupidly first asked for a present - and got a cat-reaction (when I asked a cat last month, what she was thankful for - she looked disdainfully and stalked off).
He shook his head and went back around that corner.

I woke up shortly - and right back into a lucid dream - so DEILD.

Third dream:
I was standing outside at the border of a meadow with many trees.
And I had to RC several times again - not high lucidity, but high realism.
After that - I had nicely stabilized by hand rubbing and inspecting things closely.

So I thought - meanwhile pretty clearly - lets make that snowman.
I saw a birch or otherwise white-branched tree - and convinced myself of that being snow - and it snowing back there.
I think, I get the hang of that firmly expecting stuff.
Instantly it started snowing everywhere and strongly, and there was snow on the ground, which didn´t first have to pile up like last time.
This second time around was so much faster and better.
I am really surprised how much practice seems to really help with specific things.
So I knelt down - felt the snow very realistic again - and made a small ball - maybe 20 cm diameter only.
It didn´t really easily want to stick together, by the way.
And then the damnated real life doorbell rang!!

Now I get angry at this quite a bit - but I took it unusually mellow and didn´t rip anybody´s head off, when it happened.


Fragment one:
There was a physics experiment with a complicated installation and it was about, if my emotional state could influence the flow of electricity - and there was something, to make the flow visible.
And I could change that - what it read/showed.
But later it was found out, that I didn´t really change the flow - only what we all saw as a read-out.


Fragment two:
I was listening with a group to somebody recommending vacations, and what you could do there and there.
Strangely - it was also about lying in the sun - and the recommendation was to do sunbathing at a lake - but when at the sea - he said, one could then at least sun-bath in the forests close to the sea..??

Side-note | Lucid

[LUCID] Grocery store task
Before bed, I was running over my known dreamsigns, telling myself that "If I see X, I'll know I'm dreaming" I don't remember how this one started, but I think there's a good chance it was the "huge room" dreamsign. After waking up, I couldn't remember anything for a few moments. Just as I thought all was lost, I got a flash of this one. I'm sure I forgot parts (like how I got lucid in the first place).

I'm in a grocery store. Some kind of event is going on at one end. I'm at the other end, getting snacks. Lots of junk food is hanging in front of me; nothing is too my back. A friend is with me, but I knew that as a DC he can't be as fast as me, because he's bound by the rules of the dream. I'm still waiting for him at the snacks, and I know that once he arrives and gets his own snacks it'll still take him a while to get back to the event. I start thinking about how I can help him. I decide that adding moving walkways to the store would be a good start, but I don't actually try it.

Now, I'm looking at the store's safe. I pick up something that would let me open it (maybe the key? I don't know), but then I decide, that I'm in a dream, so I should use my mind! I stare at the door, trying to picture the gears inside it spinning, unlocking, and opening the door. Nothing happens.

Now I'm with my family in a kind of hallway next to the windows. It's wide enough for a line of cafe tables and enough room to walk. We're sitting on the floor, looking out the window. A couple of bulky men are standing outside the window. Beyond them is the parking lot and road, and beyond the road is a steep embankment going up. My wife and I are sitting right next to each other, my right arm pressed against her left. I remember the task to close my eyes for ten seconds. I get an odd feeling of excitement, that I'll be doing something I know I shouldn't be doing, but I KNOW it'll go well. I close my eyes and start counting. I focus on the feeling of my wife against my side and on the memory of what I saw. I almost see a kind of "after image". The men's shirts particularly stand out as blobs of color. I reach 10 and open my eyes. As far as I can tell, nothing has changed. I consider trying it again, except visualizing a different scene with my eyes closed; but I don't do it.

Now I'm looking at the embankment. People are climbing up ladders to the top, but something is going wrong. They're complaining loudly about it, even though it's their own fault. (I don't know how I know they're complaining; they're across the street where I can't hear them). Eventually, some other activity has to stop because their complaining is just too much of a pain.

Now I'm walking with my third daughter on the road, just like everyone else. We're still following the rules of the road and get into the left turn lane behind a line of people.


New directions
I'm walking through a grassy field (some kind of park, I think) sending a text message to Jakkarth, telling him that I've moved to a new place. I try to give a thumbnail sketch of where it is, but I'm still not familiar with the area and I can't provide real directions. I tell him that I'll send proper directions once I get back to the house. Now I've just come down from being on a play fort. I realize that my phone isn't in my pocket and look around for it. I see it on the ground under the fort, and I realize that it fell out of my pocket somehow as I was coming down.


Lost ties
I'm walking around outside church Side-note(which looks nothing like the real one)[/COLOR] when I see JB, one of our deacons, holding a wad of ties in one hand and his cell phone in the other. He's using the cell phone to talk through the PA system, announcing that he's found some ties and that they'll be going in the trash unless they're claimed soon. He shows them to me and asks if they're mine; I take a quick look and tell him they aren't. He gives one final warning over the PA, then starts to throw them away, but I stop him. I tell him that it always annoys me that the policy is always "Claim your stuff or it goes to Good Will." I wish there were a short period during which the stuff stayed on display but where anyone who wanted it could take it. He thinks about it, then agrees with me and hands me the ties to look through again, to see if I want to keep any of them. He warns me that there's trash in the middle of the wad of ties. I see that he's been going around the property, picking up trash and wadding it all together. On closer inspection, I really don't like any of the ties and start looking for a place to throw them away.


Parking deck excitement
I'm in the passenger seat of a van driven by people I'm staying with. I don't know them very well. The father Side-note(who looks like Iron Man 3's Killian - something had reminded me of Extremis the night before)[/COLOR] is driving, and his kids are in the back. We're in a parking deck, trying to get out. The main exit is backed up, so he decides to take a "short cut". He drives over a curb, knocking over some glass jars that had been placed along it. Following this path around the deck, we reach what should have been an exit, except that it's been mostly walled off. There are still gaps around and under it where we can catch glimpses of the outside. I see tires under it and hope it's not a police car, and that if it is they won't realize what we've done. He backs up back over the curb. I see that the unblocked exit is right next to this one, and that it's currently clear. I don't think he should take it yet - if it really was a police car out side, we don't want to tip its occupants off that we were the ones who jumped the curb - but he just takes the exit. Sure enough, it was a police car, and they start following us, though their lights aren't yet on. The father starts slowly accelerating. I ask incredulously if he's planning on getting into a chase with the police, but he denies it. By this time, he's going recklessly fast around the parking lot, trying to lose the police before they actually turn their lights on. I consider bailing out of the car, but decide that would be just as dangerous as staying in.


Fragments
It's night. I see something about a ghostly apparition - some kind of advanced technology - that jumped on / through a helicopter and brought it down. An investigation is ongoing into what it was. I see a pool of some kind in front of me. An artificial animal - a cow? - is helping fill it. Suddenly, I realize that the plot to bring down the helicopter was from the artificial animals, and that it lets them fill these pools over and over, becoming rich and taking all the power as they do so.

Something in a house.

I went to bed late - woke up only 2 h later - and had no recall - didn´t try very hard.
Seven hours after falling asleep - I did my WBTB.
Reading through my workbooks - I found out, that the successful tries were all rather late - misleading, that I had put alarms earlier - but did the actual attempts later.
Good that I kept book with this.

I remember two dreams from before, one older fragment - and the dream, that made me lucid.
Again I had given up on WILD - with RC this time - not a FA - rolled over and fell asleep.

That dream was again situated at my old school - but I was grown up - like my friends - and we were organizing an exhibition of what we were doing now - it later changed into mainly an art/handicraft/invention show.
I was going outside on the school yard - and noticed, that I was naked - two attractive young beaus close - after a short shame reaction and flight reflex - I suddenly realized that noo way I would be naked there!!

Copy-Paste from TOTM:

Originally Posted by StephL

Soo happy - 7 days nothing - and now I even managed a task!
Also the "harder" basic one.



Bit weird - I had be-mantra-ed and visualized and so on - my most frequent dream-signs in the day - and also put intent on all but that task.
What made me lucid, was ironically one of my dream-signs, which I hadn´t worked on: being naked in public.
I thought - noo way would I be naked here - bam!

Was obvious - needed no RCing - buut: I did the hand-looking again - and first I thought - wow - they are perfect from the get-go - no need for staring them sharp - but when I counted fingers - I had one more on the right hand!
Now I´m not sure, if it was because I expected it or not - but it was an interesting sight.

And then - an attractive guy, who was standing there with a friend - came up to me - hugged me, lifted me and started swirling me around.
That´s when I closed my eyes - spontaneously - and remembered the task - and kept them closed and counted.
All the while being hugged and swirled, which felt wonderful.
And when I opened them - he put me down - and there was still the dream - so I guess it counts - even if I woke up maybe only some seconds afterwards..?
This eye-closing can be great, if you have something to feel!!


Soo happy, it started working again!!

Earlier Dream 1:

Again a journey with a bus (not that I would have ever done a lot of these - in school/in my youth latest).
Me and a group of maybe ten more people were staying at hotel, which was almost empty - and had for some reason two staircases next to each other - some weird spatial relations - can´t really it picture any more - only a bit.
We had been staying there - but in far apart rooms - and most of these rooms didn´t even have furniture besides a mattress and some junk - but there was a breakfast room, where we met up - all a bit over plush and baroque-style there - lots of velvet and diamond-knurling (looked it up..).
When the bus was about to depart - I had to use the toilet super-urgently - and hunted through this building for a facility. Finally decided on an unorthodox one - and got caught of course.
But I managed to keep her from telling somebody else and making stress.
Then of course - the bus was gone - but I found it after some back and forth around the corner.
And we departed - home actually it was to.

Earlier Dream 2:

I had to lead a discussion and brainstorming group - and nobody wanted to contribute - and it was not on me, to do it myself.
So I thought, how I could lure them out.
I tried to plant some ideas, but making them think, they would be theirs - and be in the mood to follow them.
This worked quite nicely - until one woman stood up and kicked up a general fuss - accusing me of this - and making it sound as if I would brain-wash people.
But then she got going, and came up with tons of ideas of the sort, that was useful.
The others only looked on - and me and her ended up in agreement.
So sad, I forgot, what it was about.

Earlier Fragment:

Doing removals again - this time not from free choice and after my will - but I had to.
Needing to find a new job.
It was stress and I felt, it was my fault how it came to pass.

Date: 12-15-13
Time: 9:21 P.M. - 6:58 A.M.
Technique(s) Used: SSILD
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I wake to the start of multiple cries, and realize I'm in a group. Apparently, soldiers have taken our homes, and used them as refuges for a long time. We were ready to be rid of them, and their tyrrany.

I was the leader, and asked the people if they had any ideas. One said that they all went into a store at a certain time of the day - right now, in fact. I ask around, asking what we should do.

One of the people spoke up, saying we should lay a trap. We all comply with this, and begin to set it.

We used C6, a highly explosive substance, as the killer. We set it, and are ready to go, until the one that set it mentioned that one should stay behind. I volunteered, and told everyone to leave. I bring up a rifle, and position myself near the door, a safe distance away.

Three of them walked out, and were instantly consumed by blazing heat and cold stones. One runs out, trying to go left, but I take him out easily.

One dives for cover, which prompted me to draw him out. I went around, and he makes a dash for a long tunnel in the middle of the area. I steady myself, breath deeply, and prepare for his arrival.

The soldier suddenly pops out, like a gopher, right into my red dot sight. Two clicks of the trigger, and he is dead.

A little HUD piece popped up in my vision, telling me I'd only gotten five out of the seven that had come here. I dropped the rifle and begna to search around for the other two.

I was taken to a dog daycare, which was one of the houses with a large fence around it. I walk in, and sign my name on the in/out sheet. I'd been here before - my signature was there from two days ago.

I give the woman $5 as she rattles on about her navy experiences to her friends. I was going to go inside her house, but the door led me into darkness.
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I am in bed, but not my usual bed. Next to me was another bed, housing my brother and a dog. The TV was on, playing some cartoon.

I wondered why the dog never slept with me, and instantly the dog jumped to my bed. I was too big, the bed too small, which left no room for the dog to sleep. It (For I didn't know its gender) hopped back to my brothers bed, and rested.

In the blink of an eye, the room shifts. I'm close to the door now, still in bed, but now my dad is in the room, smiling.

The dog jumps at him, and jumped into him, as if he were a portal. I did a reality check, and realized that I was dreaming.

My brother said, "Cooooool, we're dreaming!" right after.

I was about to get up and leave, but my dad said "Wait, I want to show you something." Interest piqued, I sat down.

He handed me a red plastic cup, and tol me it was cookies and creme. I tilt it in my mouth, but nothing comes out. Suddenly, a burst of flavor fills my mouth and throat. I had to shut my eyes in ecstacy.

Right then, I remembered Basic Task II. I slowly counted to 10 with my fingers, still drinking from the air in the cup. When my eyes opened, the room had shifted yet again.

I was in the far corner, the room darker now. A light hum and a gentle glow permeated my senes, prompting me to go investigate. It was a computer hooked up to a toaster.

I type in coffee, and out pops a thin and tall pop-tart. I take it, and take a bite, surprised to have it taste flaky, instead of hard. The coffee taste was sweet, with an underlying tone of bitterness (Usually, I put a bunch of creamer in coffee - I dislike it most of the time).

I go outside the door, and are taken into a schoolroom. There was a mansion model on one of the desks, and it must've been for me, for my last name was on it. I investigate the model, only to soon awaken.

I slept from 21 p.m. to 23 p.m., then I couldn't sleep so I was browsing internet. I went to sleep at 5 a.m. and wake up at 11 a.m. with two wbtbs.
I sit in my car infront of our house. I try to sleep. I wonder for a second why I wanna sleep in the car and then I realize that I haven't been home for long period of time so this is reason why I sleep in my car. When I falling asleep I see little blue tit (small bird) sleeping on the twig in the bush next to street. Beneath it there is another brown bird who isn't sleeping. I watch them and slowly drifting to sleep. Suddenly a large eagle flies on the bush. The eagle is really tall (1,5 meter). It peck with its big peak to the bush. I think that the predator is hunting those small birds, but it captures another smaller predator, I think it is falcon or something. It bites off falcon's left wing and fly away with its pray. I pick up my phone and there is video with large eagle playing on youtube. Wait a second, this is really wierd... This is dream! I do RC using my phone time. The time change up one minute all the time. I'm in a dream. GREAT! I immediately know what I want to accomplish. I jump out from my car and try to find a DC on the street. I see a man on the sidewalk. I run to him. He wears dirty blue dungarees. I think he is low work technician from last century. He has work bag on his shoulder. I say hello and ask him where is he going to. He think for a while and then replies uncertainly: To the theatre. I see... Well you should give me christmas present, i say to him. Oh yes, of course. He looking to his bag. I turn away so he can summon some present. He knock me on my shoulder and say: Here is your present. It is large nice present in the box pakaged in red matte christmass paper. Thank you. I take it and go away. I jump at the street and try to fly. After a few jumps I fly 10 metres up. Now I wanna unpack the present. I find that the present is men's parfume packaging. It looks cool, but I'm not excited at all. I throw the parfume away and go to my friends flat. There are lock doors with no handle. I point at it with my finger and say that it's open and really I can go in. I find my neighbour sleeping on the sofa. John opens his eyes when I enter. I ignore him. I go to my friend's room. He isn't there. I see swimming goggles and rubber breats. These breats was a gift from me that i gave him 7 years before. I go to the room, where his sister lives. She is sleeping under a thick blanket. I see their father coming from work. He is suprised how I entered to their flat, but he is happy to see me. I don't want to talk to him, so I sent him find my old swimming goggles to my friend's room. I do RC with dvd player time and my phone to gain more lucidity. I do stabilization as well. I painfully scrambling all over my dream body. The dream is stable again. I try to make all people in the flat disapear. It works. Nobody is there. Later I find in the room a man in the bad.
I was wondering what is it like to have sex with man. I didn't find no man attractive in reality and I'm heterosexual but I just want to try this experiment. I started to make out with him. We were naked and I try to get sexualy aroused, but nothing happens. I wasn't excited nor aroused, it was kind a boring... I stop and go outside on the street and the wake up.

Lucidity 1,5
Vivacity 1,5
Control 1,5

I slept from 21 p.m. to 23 p.m., then I couldn't sleep so I was browsing internet. I went to sleep at 5 a.m. and wake up at 11 a.m. with two wbtbs.
I sit in my car infront of our house. I try to sleep. I wonder for a second why I wanna sleep in the car and then I realize that I haven't been home for long period of time so this is reason why I sleep in my car. When I falling asleep I see little blue tit (small bird) sleeping on the twig in the bush next to street. Beneath it there is another brown bird who isn't sleeping. I watch them and slowly drifting to sleep. Suddenly a large eagle flies on the bush. The eagle is really tall (1,5 meter). It peck with its big peak to the bush. I think that the predator is hunting those small birds, but it captures another smaller predator, I think it is falcon or something. It bites off falcon's left wing and fly away with its pray. I pick up my phone and there is video with large eagle playing on youtube. Wait a second, this is really wierd... This is dream! I do RC using my phone time. The time change up one minute all the time. I'm in a dream. GREAT! I immediately know what I want to accomplish. I jump out from my car and try to find a DC on the street. I see a man on the sidewalk. I run to him. He wears dirty blue dungarees. I think he is low work technician from last century. He has work bag on his shoulder. I say hello and ask him where is he going to. He think for a while and then replies uncertainly: To the theatre. I see... Well you should give me christmas present, i say to him. Oh yes, of course. He looking to his bag. I turn away so he can summon some present. He knock me on my shoulder and say: Here is your present. It is large nice present in the box pakaged in red matte christmass paper. Thank you. I take it and go away. I jump at the street and try to fly. After a few jumps I fly 10 metres up. Now I wanna unpack the present. I find that the present is men's parfume packaging. It looks cool, but I'm not excited at all. I throw the parfume away and go to my friends flat. There are lock doors with no handle. I point at it with my finger and say that it's open and really I can go in. I find my neighbour sleeping on the sofa. John opens his eyes when I enter. I ignore him. I go to my friend's room. He isn't there. I see swimming goggles and rubber breats. These breats was a gift from me that i gave him 7 years before. I go to the room, where his sister lives. She is sleeping under a thick blanket. I see their father coming from work. He is suprised how I entered to their flat, but he is happy to see me. I don't want to talk to him, so I sent him find my old swimming goggles to my friend's room. I do RC with dvd player time and my phone to gain more lucidity. I do stabilization as well. I painfully scrambling all over my dream body. The dream is stable again. I try to make all people in the flat disapear. It works. Nobody is there. Later I find in the room a man in the bad.
I was wondering what is it like to have sex with man. I didn't find no man attractive in reality and I'm heterosexual but I just want to try this experiment. I started to make out with him. We were naked and I try to get sexualy aroused, but nothing happens. I wasn't excited nor aroused, it was kind a boring... I stop and go outside on the street and the wake up.

1 st LD Wild. I found myself in the kitchen. Tried to move hands and stabilise the dream, but awoke.

2nd LD Wild. I found myself sitting on the sofa, but my body was shaking so much, that i fell down the floor, but i didn't worry about it - i knew that its a dream. So i fell down the floor and wait a bit till the dream stabilise. Then i stood up and went outside through the wall. I wanted to make TOTM with snowman. There was little snow on the ground, but enough on the car. I made a small snowman and took it on the ground and animated. It had a big mouth like snowman in "frozen" and instead of feet it had gloves. And it was funny when it mooved with its gloves)) It said - look! Opened his mouth (it had a blue tongue) and got a piece of lego from the mouth.
Then i decided to make a snowstorm. I made strong wind and even a tornado, but there wasn't snow, so it was only strong wind. I thought that it counts like first of three step task and i can make a snowstorm next time. I turn around and found that my wind destroyed my snowman. I made it again, it was alive.
I went to find Santa. My yard transformed in the school yard and i imaging that i found Santa with dears and sledge round the corner. I went there and found what i wanted and even more...
Big sledge was coming in the yard. There was dears and the sledge was FULL of presents. The Santa was young - about 30 and without bread. When i saw presents - i lost my manners at all. The slege mooved slowly, so i jumped in it and opened one of the presents - there were sweets. I took one and ate. It was tasty. I jumped down from the sledge and awoke.