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    1. 2022-09-26 fair bit of dreaming, but recall slipped away

      by , 09-26-2022 at 08:55 AM
      Catching up on previous night's short sleep, just not enough energy to recall and record during the night.

      one scene clearly remembered:

      +[f] I'm telling my younger son (young in the dream) that he can go get his black/red rubber boots

      + [vague] some flying around an area outside

      + [vague] something happening in an indoor classroom
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    2. Portal to Rome

      by , 09-25-2022 at 07:06 PM
      I had a few lucids last night. But only remember the first well. I had planned to try to create a scene change, and asked that my dreaming mind show me "something I need see".

      G/C + LT


      Portal to Rome (INRALD)

      I wake from a non-lucid dream. I figure it's best to open my eyes and check the kitchen night light. Turns out it's off, which is a sure sign I am dreaming. At first, I have a bit of trouble getting up. But I do manage to roll over and slowly get up. Making my way to the front door. When I exit, I leap in the air. Attempting to mentally pull myself toward the top of a number of tall trees in my view. This works pretty well at first, but then fizzles out. So I rely on my backstroke approach to fly horizontally. Faster and faster until I induce a scene change.

      I am now at a doorway that leads to a patio that is elevated. A woman greets me and we exchange brief pleasantries. The patio lead to a fairly steep stairwell. In fact too steep for a person to traverse. The stairwell lead down to a flat segment of land the is busy with many people on an open air square of sorts. There are buildings as I change my view farther and farther. But the buildings are not modern. They appear to be more Roman era. And quite pristine. The people however are not wearing Roman era clothes. Rather they are dressed in a more modern manner. It's an odd dichotomy. The woman somehow manages to go down the steep steps almost instantly. It looks too dicey to try to repeat her performance. So instead I leap off the patio and fly downwards toward the square. Eventually I am flying across the square at about 3-4 feet off the ground.

      As I continue to fly in this manner, I am blown away by the scene I am embedded in. It is just exquisite. The pristine Roman buildings with all their intricate detail. Just stunning. I fly for a minute or so enjoying this scene, when the visuals start to fade. In an attempt to re-stabilize the dream, I wrap my legs around the next person I fly past. A young and attractive woman. So I am still horizontal with my legs now around her waist. We greet each other. I don't recall who made the first move, but before long we are face to face and kissing quite passionately. Normally I would be put off by the other nearby people. But not this time. I return to the ground and start to take my clothes off. Which takes longer than hoped. By the time we reconvene I am no longer aroused. So she sits on my and start to manually stimulate me back to an aroused state. This is very nice, but the dream becomes unstable
      and I wake. (another FA).
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    3. 2022-09-25 vivid, long, lots of frisky time

      by , 09-25-2022 at 08:30 AM
      No supplements, to bed not too late (15 mins after preferred), big vivid waking around 5 hrs, that plus major life stress meant I didn't get back to sleep so I just got up about 1.5-2 hours early and lay on the couch with the dog waiting for it to get light outside.

      + I was simultaneously me and some other guy in bed with his/my wife, getting frisky, we're kissing, she falls out of bed and laughs about it, gets back up, then our daughter comes into room, we say we're just playing, she jumps into bed and says "I want to play, too!", I roll my eyes thinking no "fun" tonight

      + rotating the handle to close a 2-part skylight that was leaking in the rain; two dishwashers, they recommend to use the less-automated one with the round dish holder. The entire dish tray is circular like a large donut, it's a strange form factor. The more normal dishwasher had something wrong with it

      + a purple couple being frisky, I tell them about the birds and the bees, they say "well THAT would have been good to know earlier!" and pull out a string of their (purple) kids from underneath the bed, I get frisky with the woman, this goes on for quite a while, it's pretty good

      + frisky time [detect the theme for the night?] with another woman who's in a room with some other men, then we're sitting around in a group talking about how it went

      (MEO 2022-09-25)

      +[f] there is blood on a crane, and it has turned blue

      + strategizing about how to defeat an enemy using advanced technology in the form of a car, and the enemy comes and steals the car

      + a pile of small, odd, round-ish gray devices on a wall, they are computer chips embedded in some sort of solidified powder

      + former work place, meeting with people sitting around a large table, meeting head says something like "and what about status from A, B, <myname>," my [former] manager who is sitting with me away from the table says "oh, he [me] is off the project, now 'Dale' is handling that", I wonder about this 'Dale'. I think Dale is a woman, and probably of Indian decent, I wonder how talented she is (I assume pretty good to be working there)
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    4. 24 Sep: Home invaders and meeting a friend at an antiques store

      by , 09-24-2022 at 09:19 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

      There is some stormy weather and can't close my living room window. I keep grabbing my cats to keep them inside while I try to fix it and they seem intent on getting out. Then my house is taken over by some bad people. They want something and I keep pretending I don't know anything about it. Eventually I grab the thing they want from my office and while they are distracted elsewhere and the lights go off because of the storm, I sneak out to the kitchen and leave through the back door. Luckily my dog Hachi is quietly asleep and doesn't make a sound. I hope to get back for my animals soon, but so far I must leave. The bad guys eventually notice I escaped and turn on some floodlights outside trying to spot me. But there is someone else just arriving and getting in the way of the ligths and I take advantage and run through the fields. Much much later I encounter a group of friends and I think I am safe. Except don't seem happy to see me and proceed to hide under some tarps in some construction site. I join them there to find out what's up.

      Something about an expedition and a UFO.

      Shopping with my familty for some crazy but beautiful clothes. I literally get lost in it as my family leaves me there. I decide to check the second floor of the shop, which I never visited. First part is lingerie but then all sorts of antiques for decor. I am amazed with what I find there. Then some crazy obsessed guy is melting down because he collects something and they no longer have new items for him to buy. My first reaction is to think bad of this guy, but then I realiz he has a serious mental condition and he is not guilty of it, so I feel compassion instead. Then decide to take some pics of some items and of the shop itself. Some cute guy seems happy that I find and expose a wooden piece that was hidden under other pieces and he calls his mom to come and see it and asks my help to set it up straight. I do, but the wood starts breaking apart since it's so old. We decide to put it back. He still considers buying it to restore it, it but every time we touch it, it breaks more. Then he flirts with me and I think he wants to go on a date, but I don't. Then I encounter Sevi and she is glad to see me. Actually too glad to see me, considering she's been mad at me for years. We hug and we talk and the other dude disappears. Then she gets a bit too warm and she whispers in my ear she'd like to invite me to go with her to an hotel nearby and I immediately say no and that she got me all wrong.
    5. Log 2701 - TOTY 2022 - DIY Instant Garden

      by , 09-23-2022 at 08:58 PM (Dream Logs DWN-12)
      Created Friday 23 September 2022

      Woof. Quite a big gap since the last time I posted. Well, better get to it then.

      Spoiler for Lots o' text:

      Updated 09-23-2022 at 09:05 PM by 89930

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    6. 2022-09-23 long sleep, few dreams

      by , 09-23-2022 at 09:38 AM
      Tried 400mg L-theanine and 1g L-tryptophan at bedtime.

      Was in bed from around 22:30 to 07:50, a record for recent months, almost 9 hours!
      I usually estimate about 30 minutes of time awake in the night, meaning about 8.3 hours sleeping.

      Interestingly, there was very little dreaming that I recall.

      + writing with a pen that changes colors as you write

      + talking with musicians, that I play <main instrument>, but used to play trombone in 4th grade, and I could even hit a high "G" note at that time, the trombonists responded and said that's pretty good

      + [vague] with people in rooms, like a hostel, something about beds, bed sizes, and bedspreads

      later:

      + taking pics, someone comes to and demands to see what I've taken
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    7. 22 Sep: Victorian era gentleman and a friend invites me for sex

      by , 09-22-2022 at 07:27 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

      Visiting an asylum in a castle during the victorian era. I accidentally step into the dungeons and encounter some weird looking bald grey skin people who surround me and say mysterious things like I am the chosen one. I just run away to daylight, feeling very uncomfortable. I am a rich young attractive man, looking very much like Gary Oldman in Bram Stoker's Dracula. The ladies all look at me drooling, but I am very chaste and not actually interested. I am also very weirded out by what just happened. Then some tall bulky bald man, also with a weird pale skin and a tall hat stares at me as he walks past me. I hear him in my head whispering something like "soon" and "you have been chosen" and I see visions of myself in a near future as a vampire. I actually feel seducted with the idea.
      I still try not to be followed by this guy as the night falls. There is some nocturnal parade and many policemen on the streets and I am kinda forced to enter a park and end up by a lake that is restricted access. Some policemen see me and tell me to get out. So I see myself again in the parade area and stuck in the middle of a group of noisy teenagers. I try to get away by entering a perpendicular street leading to a parallell road and walking it in the opposite direction. On the other road, the sidewalk is too narrow and the road is too busy, so I spot an old fashion mall that I know can be crossed into another street so I go in.
      I am myself again and I meet some familiar faces at the food court sharing a table. Namely there's Evangelion, whom I don't see for ages and he tells me to sit down at his side. We are packed really tight, but that was his intention all along. He flirts with me and I enjoy it. He says he missed me and would like to be with me somewhere alone right now. The others hear it and laugh, but he is serious. He suggests I follow him and I ask if he is taking me for a quickie in the public restroom but he doesn't get the sarcasm in my voice, Instead he answers that he has a better idea. There is some sort of rental rooms over the mall and despite all being taken he has some friends staying there and he hopes to get a room for free. He kinda does. Some friend is packing to check out soon and says we can enjoy the room for a while while she goes do something outside. I feel embarassed with all this, but I am also horny and want to be with him so I play along. As I get in bed he disappears for a while and when he comes back he has turned into a horny pimpled chubby pre-teenager and I wonder what the hell happened. He says he can't control it when he feels horny, he just becomes his younger self. He gets in bed and I say no way. Not only I'd be in trouble if I am found in bed with a minor, he also looks terribly unnatractive. He also can't contain himself and he is already literally covered in cum. I point it out and he is like "so what"? I am disgusted. Then my mom and a bunch other people just barge into the bedroom and they are shocked. My mom asks what am I doing and why. I try to lie and say it's nothing of what they think it is. I am actually still dressed under the sheets so I get up and say I was just taking a nap and this kid snuck in and got too excited. But they actually know it's Evangelion and know he is actually an adult and that that is not the problem. So I tell him to get back to his current self and he goes to the toilet and says he'll be back soon. When he does he is back into his tall adult self. I introduce him to mom and the others and they are all very nice and cordial and say we don't need to be embarassed. But I feel a bit puzzled and want to know what the problem is after all that they all barged in on us. Turns out that my mom thought I have been too libertine and worries that I go to bed with every guy.
    8. 2022-09-22 short sleep, 3 short scenes

      by , 09-22-2022 at 08:11 AM
      Late to bed, unavoidable due to fun evening activities .
      the range of 06:00 - 06:30 is converging on being a natural wake time. Drowsiness is pretty much gone by then, and the mind kicks in. Works well if I can get to bed by 22:30

      + In a sort of hub area in the center of an area with a lot of rooms around the periphery. I'm reading an electronic sign to try to see which room our commando team needs to storm to get the bad guys. I'm having trouble reading the screen, something about "34?" Then I see a clear "20" and I should out "It's 20! Go! Go! Go!"

      + In a bar, sort of half outdoors, low-class, like build of barrels, dirty, there is a guy from T-5 (Mon. Sal) there. I/they say something?

      + walking in a cave, I come to a point where the path rises up, curves to the left, goes back down, then turns to the right around a corner. From the top of the rise I look down and see some equipment, it is either a sensor or an automated weapon turret or a combination of both, and I know these are from the enemy. I quickly draw back down around the corner so I'm not in line of sight of the turret. I ponder taking another peek around the corner at the thing again (maybe I do, quickly?)
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    9. 2022-09-21 decent variety

      by , 09-21-2022 at 06:16 PM
      Variety pretty good across a number of different wakings
      Starting to scratch down quick notes in the dark before returning to sleep, even a word or two helps remember the dream (but not all the detail, alas)

      + Halloween decorations at my childhood home, including a "joke" bottle-through-the-window that I laughed at and asid "oh I get it", also there were a ton of large inflatable ghost balloons all over the place, I tried to move one from my room to my parent's room, but the entrance to their room was blocked by the things, so I put it in my sister's room, where my son was now staying, and I wondered what he thought of that.

      + beach map show where 's good to swim, [deceased] 1st wife shows where they were, I show where I was, where it's good to swim, and that I happened to go along that route searching for the place that she said was good

      + lion room the large male squeezes through to next room where our dog is, Lena goes there to save him, leaving me in the lion rom, I'm standing against the wall and hope they won't eat me

      + meat party, I smell the meat, I say "smells delicious", the womean like this their men usually don't giv ecomplements, slicing the eat, see the fat and lean, they show how to separate it, "if you eat this you'll never get hungry"

      + "get the (bike?) from the car" means from the way back under the floor board, some man smiles and shakes my hand?

      Ken (actor Seth Rogen) from Freaks & Geeks eats my little green habanero from my plant, I sday "uh, that's a habanero" then I see the plant see the peppers up close they're starting to shievl I don't know if that means if they're dying or getting ripe, notice that most of thesoil is out of the pot, need to add it back
      Then I see the ripe peppers and try them , brown chilinders, taste like chocolate, there are orange parts too, I run to other part of room to tell peopel that my peppers are raedy and taste like chocolate!

      In a room with some late teen boys, one is playing with lego, he is reluctant to go to school (universyity) because it means leaving home, I tell him "it's ok, it's only like 2 blocks away, and yo'll have fund there, learn neat things, and meet girls, and can always come back to see your lego

      final: group of kids loading up, the "cool" group wants to stay togethem

      you can't serve fresh halloween candy to kids these days, I tsk tsk and quietly think to myself, as the (mom?) shows a tray of fresh hallooween candy that she plans to serve to the kids
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    10. 2022-09-21 halloween party, meat, lions, Seth Rogen eats my habanero, map

      by , 09-21-2022 at 05:18 AM
      experimenting with night-time blind keyword recording on paper, since voice recording is out of the question now (wife). Seems to help recall earlier dreams that have faded over subsequent wakings. Helps to keeps the idea of reaching for dream memories at the front of the mind during wakings

      beach map show where 's good to swim, Elina shows where they were, I show where I was, where it's good to swim, and that I happened to go along that route searching for the place that she said was good

      halloween party balloons in the room in CH my room, lots in dad's put some in Patti's which is Andrei's, the orange bottle through the window

      lion room the large male squeezes through to next room where our dog is, Lena goes there to save him, leaving me in the lion rom, I'm standing against the wall and hope they won't eat me

      meat party, I smell the meat, I say "smells delicious", the womean like this their men usually don't giv ecomplements, slicing the eat, see the fat and lean, they show how to separate it, "if you eat this you'll never get hungry"

      "get the (bike?) from the car" means from the way back under the floor board, some man smiles and shakes my hand?

      Ken from F&G eats my little green habanero from my plant, I sday "uh, that's a habanero" then I see the plant see the peppers up close they're starting to shievl I don't know if that means if they're dying or getting ripe, notice that most of thesoil is out of the pot, need to add it back

      Then I see the ripe peppers and try them , brown chilinders, taste like chocolate, there are orange parts too, I run to other part of room to tell peopel that my peppers are raedy and taste like chocolate!

      In a room with some late teen boys, one is playing with lego, he is reluctant to go to school (universyity) because it means leaving home, I tell him "it's ok, it's only like 2 blocks away, and yo'll have fund there, learn neat things, and meet girls, and can always come back to see your lego

      final: group of kids loading up, the "cool" group wants to stay togethem

      you can't serve fresh halloween candy to kids these days, I tsk tsk and quietly think to myself, as the (mom?) shows a tray of fresh hallooween candy that she plans to serve to the kids
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    11. Aquatic Safari

      by , 09-21-2022 at 02:39 AM
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      Updated 09-07-2024 at 02:06 AM by 99032

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    12. 2022-09-19 and 2022-09-20 uptick in recall

      by , 09-20-2022 at 07:59 PM
      2022-09-19

      + on an airplane, it's coming in for a "landing" via vertical nose dive straight to the runway with lots of banking; in ground transport with my group, I'm trying to count my luggage, my green backpack is missing

      + driving on a road, crazy drivers are always cutting me off , they're driving at odd angles, at some point I sort of chuckle "there goes another one!" [almost on the edge of the idea that this could be a dream?]

      + at a (youth?) hostel, the door is locked, and people both inside and outside are waiting for the manager to unlock it; inside, I go through reception, (I ask about my green backpack?)

      + See deceased dog, young, bright copper color, on a driveway outside in twilight, some patches of snow on the ground, wife mentions that I am on retreat; see my old car (toyota or ford) parked across the street

      + At home, there is a massive flood on my floor, the water runs out and down to lower levels, all the way to the neighbor's, they complain; I get furious [DS] at a young (renter?) and demand they leave; two other young guests perform a "poopy head" joke with poop in a box, I yell at them to leave

      + observe/playing a pool/billiards game

      2022-09-20

      earlier:

      + With deceased 1st wife, outside, I'm "skating" in my shoes on patches of ice on the pavement, back and forth; she gets out her skis and hops down onto the frozen river, it's doesn't look good to me, too wavy, and exposed water; some guys are tumbling around in a room

      + I'm high on a cliff/wall overlooking a large body of clear water (lake/ocean), I'm planning to jump down, I'm scanning for rocks/obstacles, and plan my jump to land in a sufficiently deep area; get out of the water, and (eating chips?)

      later:

      + Arrive in a cafe with lots of people, we're meeting a (realtor? finance advisor) there, a woman sitting on a couch, one of two, looks up to us, we greet; she advises that a particular piece of paper is all we need to establish ownership of our property, and "you can use it for escrow or future needs", I'm a bit surprised by this

      + Walking in the aisle between cubes at work [DREAMSIGN big time], in one cube a guy is working with multiple screens/computers, and I think that's because he's testing a lot of different graphics cards all at once

      + [f] twilight, something about a football game [DS]
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    13. The man behind the slaughter

      by , 09-19-2022 at 03:44 PM
      i was walking down a street with a friend, it was night and to my left was a concrete ruin. half collapsed, the parts that were still standing had fires in the windows. we walked in to investigate, and i put my hands on over head in case something fell on me, this destruction happened recently and i could hear parts crumbling. we walked through a roofed segment to the other side which was open, but also incredibly dark.

      my friend went somewhere but i couldn't see where, it was too dark. there was a working LED screen on a bit of standing wall, i moved to that for some light. i heard an animal behind me, i turned around and saw something moving back and forth, growling. i thought it might be a bear but it was still too dark to make out. i stood still, not knowing what to do, until i went back to where i came.

      a bald shirtless guy with tattoos and a goatee was standing there(looked like the guy from american history X) with a fake dog on a stiff leash while dipping its tail back and forth into a mug full of water he had in his other hand while laughing at me. he had played a joke on me, he was the bear.
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    14. first entry

      by , 09-19-2022 at 12:37 AM
      Trying to get better at recall, in the last dreams i could remember, i was a vampire being chased by a group of angry people from a pub, pale and bald like nosferatu. i ran across a river with a bridge made out of the stuff those floats at the pools are made of. to escape i made myself levitate and floated above the water. they ran to the other side and began fighting, so i flew down and bit their necks, only i sucked the negative thoughts from them, causing them to make up and fall in love with each other.

      In another dream i got called the n word by a ghost who looked like the grudge in a haunted house.

      another dream i was in a dystopian city, tall grey concrete skyscrapers packed closely together, people lived latched on the sides of these buildings, in small flats, shops and slums. unsafe scaffolding made the walkways, and formed bridges between the buildings and skyscrapers, it was a long way looking down. i was part of a gang who stole bread to sell to a woman in a bread shop who bought illegal bread. she told us what we got wasn't worth much, and if we wanted decent pay we needed to get 4 more bags of it. later i saw the insides of the skyscrapers, they were parking complexes on the insides, though i saw no cars, i saw no living spaces either. completely dark and grey, no colours anywhere!

      in another dream, the dream crashed when i found a cow that was clipped into a spiral staircase, it was thrashing around manically like a ragdoll in gmod and when i touched it, the perspective went to me looking at the dream on my monitor, and then checking my pc thinking it was going to explode.

      In another i shot up a russian nursery with the guys from the no russian mission in MW2. i was slipping and sliding on the laminate floor as i chased them through the hallways, i only felt bad about it when i shot one i wasn't supposed to, my dreamself is strange.


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      saw the pale man scp(as shrek mod i had downloaded that day, but not played yet) in the front garden of my house, me, the girl from portal and someone else were there. it got up and began its process. i was not sure who looked at it, me or the girl. we decided to run out to a grey 2000's car and head as fast as we could to the scp base. i understood that we would be outpacing the scp in the car, but it was only buying us time. first i was in the backseat, and we were speeding through motorways, they were talking about something serious but i cant remember what. then i was in the driver seat, left side, it was night and my driving wasn't great. i was going full speed around corners staying really close to the curb to avoid the traffic, bushes and trees hung close meaning i could not see what was coming around ahead, and then grinding onto the curb when the corner would suddenly turn the other way. eventually we reached a desert, and the base was there. the entrance was a ruin, and we slowly walked up. a gap in my memory, the others had made it in but i was still outside. i walked up to the entrance and crouched under a wide but low square entrance. at the other side was the dog scp and a humanoid, they were talking about something, the dog sounded like the terminator from kuragame communication. i saw a dynamite bundle with a timer on it and i threw it back at the entrance and detonated it, causing it to collapse. i thought it could buy me some time, but gravel could be torn apart easily by the pale man. just as i thought that, i could hear its screaming approaching, it had caught up, and i scrambled to crawl through the small hole the humanoid and the dog were standing beside. i don't remember what happened after that part.

      next i was daisuke and i was with J, we were at a tall building, and we were hunting two bad guys. we chased them up the tower, doing stiff and awkward parkour. outside it looked like a block of flats but inside it was construction, blue plastic sheets and open wooden cargo crates. once we made it to the top, they got past me and began going down much faster than they went up, i struggled to keep up to them.

      next we had to go to a far away place to investigate someone. i was at a border between britian and india, no one was allowed there. i was J, daisuke was not around. i was in a buss and i was in a country side on a road. to my right was a huge green valley, to my left was just normal landscape. no one was allowed to be in this area, it was called the ??? zone, the word began with an I, but it was something like forbidden zone. i was in a bus and it was overgrown with bush on the side, and that was done intentionally for some reason. i knew i was not allowed to leave the bus, the place i had to go was along this road and i saw it on a map. no one was around, it was dead silent. creepy. there was no one stopping me from leaving the bus, i was the only one in it, what would happen if i stepped outside? i realized that i didn't have to take this risk, if there was any, and could find the place through normal civilization, so i did a u turn and went back where i "came". there was a town here, but it was also silent and empty, dark empty windows.

      next I as daisuke and J were walking at the designated location, a shady town with shady people, a malfunctioning android in a trench coat, covered in soot, was walking around with its head pistoning up and down, plastic smoke coming out the hole where its neck should be. J was gritting his teeth, we couldn't coax anyone for breaking any laws here as we were only here to find one person. so i was holding onto his arm trying to comfort him. next i was at a jacuzzi, there were two cyborgs in it, a man and a woman, these two were rivals somehow and were being passive-aggressively friendly to each other. the woman had iron-man style thrusters on her palms and began vaporizing the water for some reason. the guy stood up, he was the target. he had a completely mechanical body, but from his spine hung a cable and a large plastic tube, in the tube was his real body, with all skin and bone and muscle stripped. his organs were wriggling and stretching inside, at the top was his brain, with his eyeless face stitched onto it. he dragged it around behind him, i went up for a closer look and he got mad when i got near it.
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      last night i dreamed i got a box, inside was a comic where terry bogard fought the incredible hulk. the outside made it look action, but the comic itself was more so drama. terry was in a depressive state and released the hulk from imprisonment just to fight him, because he felt he needed to prove something. he acted a lot more like macus bogard in this, he was a government agent. as i read the comic, the dream would switch to me observing the events as real things, at one point i noticed japanese pencil writing inside, my mom told me that they probably sent me a defective book at full price. i looked at the cover again and saw lots of small scratches in the reflection of the light. i was mad and sad, and threw my head against a metal radiator, though strange gravity slowed my decent, i felt nothing.

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      this is a start, lets do this!

      Updated 09-19-2022 at 09:26 AM by 99490

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    15. Kicked out of Heaven

      by , 09-18-2022 at 05:11 PM
      This was a sufficiently interesting non lucid that I felt I should share.


      Kicked out of Heaven

      I am in a house where pretty much everything is white. Most noticeably the walls and ceilings. But most other things as well (e.g. furniture). There is some food out and I help myself to something that I would not normally eat. A hotdog with sauerkraut (in WR I don't care for either). I head up some plush carpeted stairs. One of my old girlfriends from many years ago is in a red dress and walking ahead of me. She walks past a doorway. I feel compelled to open this door. It's another white room and my wife, her friend Larissa and some others are there. My wife is displeased that I am disturbing her girl time and asks me to leave. So I turn around and go back downstairs. Taking a bite of the hotdog. Which is surprisingly good as it tastes more like a sausage sandwich, which I DO happen to like.

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      At first, this had the feel of ascending to heaven and getting kicked out. The more I thought about it, I feel the symbolism is much more complex than that.

      At work, I have been dealing with one particular Japanese customer for 3.5 years. We've managed to sell one 1.4 million $ tool to them. In short, with all the support we've provided them we've lost our shirts. They were supposed to be our beta customer for the new product. However that opportunity seems to be crumbling as the customer changed the requirements, and we'll never hit what they are asking for.

      Diane (ex) gave up on guys many years ago and is now with another woman. This seems to represent our Japanese customer changing their mind. I was ascending until I realized she was there. And was then rejected by my wife who otherwise has accepted me for a long time.

      Then I descended, and realized the hot dog was quite good. Which represents getting rid of this crazy ass customer and potentially finding a better opportunity.
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