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(I haven't actually updated this journal for a few months, mainly because I fell back into my old ways of writing in a paper journal even though I promised myself I would stick to online journaling due to the tag and search features that I love. So here's my new year's resolution, to put down my notebook and use the internet I'm going to upload a few memorable dreams and my lucid dreams in the next few entries, just to have a bridge between the last few months and now. They won't be in any particular order since I didn't date them, I'll just label those entries as (undated older dreams #).)

(undated older dreams 1)

I was at a store with mom, and we found an area with lots of glass trinket cases that had neat items in them. The whole area was very pink and girly but I really liked the items there. There was a case with anime trinkets in it, mostly Hello Kitty and Pokemon, and a bunch of Team Rocket figures caught my eye. One of them I remember vividly was a figure of Jesse but she had the hair of Nurse Joy, and I thought it must be some kind of error and might be worth a lot of money, but then I saw this awesome as hell cat figure I just had to have. I picked it up and turned around to show it to mom, but she was nowhere to be found, so I put the figure down and debated whether or not I should stay there looking at figures waiting for her or if I should just leave to go find her. Eventually I decide to leave because there's this awkward tension between me and the salesperson and I got the feeling he thought I was trying to steal something since I was just loitering around. Eventually I ran into mom, and she told me to go get the cat thing, but on the way back to the case I passed by a giant RV sitting right in the middle of the store and get sidetracked by it. Going inside the RV, I noticed there were lots of small blinking red lights all over the floor, and whenever I picked one up it would make rude comments at me. There was a strange sound coming from the bathtub, but before I could check it out mom and grandma showed up at the door all freaked out and told me to drop the lights and leave the RV quickly. There was this feeling of absolute terror and I ran back out into the store, and froze when I saw this man sitting in an aisle with a blanket laid out in front of him. He had a human head in his hands and was cutting it up and laying it out piece by piece on the blanket and labeling the pieces with prices. He had parts like the eyelids and lips and bits of brain laid out and they were all blackish green with decay. As soon as I saw it I woke up feeling like I was going to vomit.

A lucid dream where I was sitting at a computer, and when I looked at my hands I noticed they looked strange and became lucid. As soon as lucidity hit, the whole dream froze like a paused DVD and I was unable to move. It faded until everything dissipated and I was floating alone in pitch black nothingness, so I willed myself to float upwards in an attempt to find something, but then my head started tingling like it does when I go into sleep paralysis, and I stop going upwards and start involuntarily spinning around in circles.

Not sure if this is related to the last one, but at some point I was laying in bed and stuck in sleep paralysis, and when I opened my eyes I saw a grey alien standing at the foot of my bed out of the corner of my eye. Instead of looking at it, I closed my eyes and tried to ignore it and push myself into a lucid dream, but then I heard this horrible noise coming less than an inch away from my right ear. It sounded like someone pigging out on food making an OM NOM NOM sound with their teeth, but it had this unnerving evil quality to it that kinda freaked me out. As soon as it stopped I had this small dream where I saw a clear blue sky, but then it darkened to night and a red moon appeared, and a shadow of some kind of monster flew across it.

Today i dreamt i was playing pokemon mystery dungeon red on PC.
i was on the mewtwo dungeon (Western cave) i was near mewtwo already.
but i saw mew instead in a floor, i wanted to kill him to be my friend. but when i got near him
he evolved into a wigglytuff (lol) then i went ahead to mewtwo. i was with moltres and mewtwo
was a giant weird gyarados. i had to kill that gyarados, if i die i would face mewtwo. no one ever
won that weird gyarados it was impossible. but i keep hitting him far away with some
fire blast attack. then i got near him and made him sleep with a sleep seed. i thought it didn't work
i made a step back but he was sleeping, when i got near him again he woke up. then i had to ran away
from him again, he took me like 90 hp with 1 single skill. i made a step down and 1 diagonal right.
and i made a last skill on him, i thew fire. and i killed him. the screen went black and asked me
"do you want to save?"
yes.
no.

i said yes. then another question came up.
"do you want to enable VMware?"

yes.
no.

Dream of: 17 December 2013 "The Love Of God"


lucidity leads to God

I'm sitting in a movie theater with a thin woman on my right who seems like Katharine Hepburn. Although she's probably in her 60s, she's strangely sensuous, and I'm enjoying her company. I even have my right arm around her shoulder and am relishing the feel of her supple body. I'm amazed that I would be with Katharine Hepburn, but for some reason I think I am.
Abruptly I awaken and realize that I've been dreaming. I'm disappointed because I had been enjoying the dream so much. So I decide to go back to sleep to see if I can continue with the dream. I return to sleep, and sure enough, I again find myself with the same woman. Now, however, we are no longer at the theater, but inside a house where a party seems to be taking place.
I feel sure that I'm dreaming again, but my wonderment that I was able to awaken from a dream, return to sleep, and pick up with the same dream, causes me to question whether I am indeed dreaming. I reflect that I've been wanting to have a lucid dream and the thought occurs to me that I'm having a lucid dream right now. I don't know how to test this theory, but it occurs to me that if I were able to float upside down, I could be sure that I'm dreaming. I'm sitting down on a chair and I'm amazed that I'm able to rise into the air and turn upside down in the air - still in a sitting position. It seems absolutely incredible that I find myself floating upside down and I find great difficulty believing that this is happening.
Fully lucid now, I suddenly remember the "task of the month" from the Lucid Views web site. Remembering that I'm supposed to accomplish a task when I become lucid in a dream, I start trying to remember "What was the task? What was the task?" Suddenly I remember two of the tasks. I recall that one task is to ask someone what they're thankful for. I also remember that another task had to do with becoming a wolf. Trying to chose between the two tasks, I think that becoming a wolf would be the better task, but it might be too difficult, especially since I'm floating upside down. Since other people are in the room, I decide that I should try to complete the easier task of asking someone what he's thankful for. I'm all excited because I didn't think I'd ever be able to remember a task like this. It seems so unreal that this is happening.
Reveling in my lucidity, I float around upside down over top of these people with my head at about the same level as the people and I try to get someone's attention. I first see a little boy and I think of asking him, but then I see a man who looks like a better candidate. I float over top of him - still upside down in a seated position - with my head close to his. When I try to ask him, however, I can't seem to talk. I persevere and continue trying to ask the man the question - what are you thankful for? - until somehow I'm able to telepathically ask him the question. I'm afraid I'm losing control of the situation and the man will not hear me and will not answer the question. At the same time, I seem to be saying to myself, "What would be a good answer? What would be a good answer?" and suddenly in my mind I hear the response, "I'm thankful for the love of God."
I'm not sure if the man telepathically answered me, of if the answer came from my own mind, but I'm overwhelmed by the profundity of this answer. It almost seems as if this is the response that I wanted to hear, and I'm unsure but what I just thought up the answer myself.
I stand back up on my feet and awaken from the dream. I want to write down the dream so I don't forget it. I sit down and I write down the words "I'm thankful for the love of God" and am preparing to write the rest of the dream when I see my old friend Melanie (an English professor at Southern Methodist University whom I first met around 1987) walk through the room. I now realize that I'm in her house and that she is the one giving this party. I want to tell someone what I've just experienced and I think if I tell Melanie my dream right now, then I won't forget it. I start trying to tell her the dream, but she is busy with something and doesn't seem to have time at the moment to listen to the dream.
I follow her into the adjoining room where she has been laying out a table with abnormally large pieces of exotic Latin-American-looking fruit. I'm now quite hungry and am particularly drawn to some large pieces of fruit which look like grapefruit which is arranged on a multi-tiered round glass structure in the middle of the table. I ask her if I can have a piece. She responds, but I don't quite hear what she says. Nevertheless, I pick up a large piece of fruit and I and start eating it. I then follow Melanie back to the main room where I see more fruit laid out in a more customary arrangement and I wonder if I should have taken the piece from the glass structure, which now seems as if it was almost like some kind of decorative structure. I wonder if Melanie is miffed because I took that fruit. I'm going to eat it anyway, I'm so hungry.

Dream Commentary

The task of asking a dream character what they are thankful for was actually one of the tasks for November, but I didn't realize that until well after I woke up and had recorded the dream.

I've been a dreamer for as long as I can remember, and it was always something natural for me. They often feel, very, very real, and they include smells, textures, and pretty much anything you can feel in the real world.
I had my first lucid dream when I was 4 years of age, and me and my friends were astronauts in it. We were exploring the galaxy and went to the Milky Way, and there we saw cows eating stars. Just as we discovered them, our spaceship broke and we decided to go home riding the cows.
My mom woke me up when we were coming back and i wouldn't shut up about that dream the entire day. It was a great dream, and I was wondering if anyone else had a similar dream. Space is a fairly common theme in my dreams, and I'm sure someone out there is in a similar situation.

Having some difficulty piecing it all together, so it'll mainly be fragments from last night.

My parents and sister were in-town for graduation I guess. They were hurting over the fact that Gtown had blue laws on sundays, so they were willing to drive 40 minutes to a quarry town to make the purchase. We returned to the school and found a lot of students wearing special homecoming shirts.

I was physically involved with Louisa doing some intimate massaging. She made some comment that she liked it and that I was very talented. She also said she didn't want any of the complicated stuff. Twas a very pleasant fragment.

Many people were staying at the house including Jaime and Ben. I woke up and papa said that they had gone out to breakfast. I was a little pouty about them leaving without me.

Maybe I'll remember more later.
-no beer on sundays
-drive to quarry town
-get beer
-go to school
-everyone wearing shirts
-involvement with Louisa/very pleasant/she says that I'm talented/says that she doesn't want any of the complicated stuff
-people staying at the house including Jaime and Ben/ they went to get breakfast/I was pouting about that

Fragment: City Map

Somebody was showing me a map of a city built on a couple of islands. They were in fact showing me two different versions that were a couple decades apart and showing me how the city had grown over the years.

Late For Class,Forgotten PowerPoint,In my Underwear

You know, I've gotten so attuned to the "typical" dreams of being late for class, forgetting homework, and being in those sorts of embarrassing situations, that I was legitimately surprised that I didn't get lucid here.

I was running to get to my social studies class, and the bell rang. It was just down the hall, and the teacher was standing outside the class, he just sort of gave me a scolding look and went into the classroom. For some reason, my walk was real clumsy, and I sort of staggered down the hallway to the classroom.
When I got into the classroom, I noticed that I was hot. I had a jacket on over a hoodie and a t-shirt. I also had on two pairs of pants. I took off both the hoodie and the jacket. I then tried to take off one of the pairs of pants, but accidentally took off both and was in my underwear.
The teacher facepalmed appropriately and everyone in the class was laughing at me.
All of the lights were off and the projector was on (one of those digital projectors that can project a computer screen.) The teacher asked me if I had my PowerPoint ready.
"What PowerPoint?! I don't know what your talking about."
And he tells me that before break he assigned us a big project that we have to make a PowerPoint. He says I can turn it in tomorrow but if I don't I get no points in the gradebook.
The dream ended with me putting my head down onto my desk thinking about how the heck I am supposed to do this project in one night.

Lucid Dream #70: Good Practice

This was an overall good lucid dream. I liked that it felt more stable than some of my previous lucid dreams.

I feel like I just sort of get "plopped" into my school's gymnasium, and my mind was sort of blank. This was similar to the first time I was lucid dreaming, as I got to see the dream begin. So this might have been as I was entering REM sleep.
The gym was ultimately empty, and it actually seemed different than my schools gymnasium, but it sort of had the feel of my school. I stabilized the dream by rubbing my hands together and decided to try out some dream control.
And let me just say that this dream felt way more vivid and stable than my last few lucid dreams.
I had no real plans, so I just wanted to have fun. I jumped, and managed to go fifteen or twenty feet into the air. But I wanted to go higher, so I focused on the metal support beams in the roof of the gym. From there, I was able to start flying in a very slow controlled way and began soaring around the gym.
A bunch of other dream characters began filtering in, but none of them familiar. There was this one boy who was also able to jump relativily high, but not fly as I was. But he kept on jumping up in-front of me, and I would hit him. It almost seemed like he was doing this on purpose. Each time I hit him, I would sort of have to hold him and lower him back to the ground slowly. I apologized and let him continue. But this was getting annoying. We eventually decided to each stick to our own sides of the gym for our activities.
I eventually stopped flying and grabbed onto one of the metal support beams. There was enough room for me to stand on a horizontal beam and hold onto a vertical beam with one of my hands. Viewing the gymnasium from the roof was a rather odd experience.
There was this floating platform that came into the gym with this girl who was trying to look all attractive for me. But for whatever reason I thought to myself that I didn't want to try sexy things with dream characters right now.
I opened a telepathic communication with her and told her that perhaps in a future lucid dream she could visit me again. But for now, no.
After that, I took off flying again, did one more circle around the gymnasium. As I started to lose the dream, I was taken into a third person view of myself flying. The view was from behind and above me, and I was flying forward, kindof like superman. But I had a long black cape and hood on, and had no way of getting a look at my dreaming self.

Side note: I've been trying to figure out what my "dream self" looks like for some artwork I've been planning on doing. Black cloak and hood is a start.

At rushcliffe gym center was prcatising on highbars, chalked up.
All the coaches were messing around, can't remember what the hype was about.
Was talking to someone who was on the highbars (matthew mcdermott?)
A female coach came over with her student, and waas waiting to go on next.
I saw them waiting, so got off and went to do something else.
Still, all the coaches were laughing and mocking each other, giggly, and i can't remember why.

Some work study we did which involved some statistics by gender was very popular / in demand, and my boss was asking me to send edited versions of it to people, edited to not include some more secret stuff. Also had to establish which password to use: not our usual one, so they could not access other stuff, and did I accidentally give them my personal password.

We were doing business with some shady character who may have been a spy, meeting in some kind of basement. My boss suggested we may have future common business opportunities, something about creating visas for crossing borders, and I questioned whether those would be official visas and whether this was legal.

Also as part of this dream my boss was not my current boss but a previous female boss. I kept editing an article for her as well, fixing the formatting of the print version.

It started off totally weird:
I'm at my former dermatologist (haven't been there in years) and I tell the aesthetican that we need to do something about my wrinkle on my forehead. For some (at this point unknown) reason I'm totally obsessed with plastic surgery and to look great. The doctor cuts me in my forehead and tells me this is the best way to make the wrinkle go. I'm totally ok with it. Suddenly I'm with my mother and she tells me we can't be late as we are flying to Florida now. It turns out we need to fly to Florida as we are looking for a wedding dress for me there - I'm getting married to D. Of course I am very excited and happy. Obviously D and me are friends again, and even better we are in love and getting married now. We arrive at an airport and my mother's bag is missing. I walk up to the TSA lady (as she's the only one in the arrival hall) and tell her about it. While she looks at our passports and tickets to figure out what happened I hear a terrible voice, almost like one of these public announcements. Don't worry about the bag or anything, nothing of all of this will happen anyway. I woke up crying.

In the second dream I was watching Nicky and David (which seemed to be one person?) in a youtube video?? It was very short and weird.

Woke up at around 7:30. Went back to bed around 8:30. Did a 20 minute meditation, felt good. My thoughts are with D and if there is anyway to save and fix the friendship. More and more I feel like I should give it a shot and ask for help in the beyond dreaming section here.

Night of January 2, 2014. Thursday.



It begins as a well-intended project for humanity. Only the “large” and “tall” metal skeleton of this great building had thus far been constructed. It is three floors high, but certainly does not seem big enough for so many people that may arrive. This cannot be the sanctuary building, though. It looks like a building, but then a “giant man” comes and it turns out to be the beginning of a metal shelf, a set of three shelves (not floors) - and not a very impressive one at that. The man puzzles over a possible subtle slant to one side.

The older man ignores me and goes out to rake his lawn. However, he ends up raking up the roots of all the grass by using too much force, and so, he has no lawn. The pile of grass and roots sits there as three black chickens come to peck in the mess, partly at an electrical cable that had also been accidentally raked up. It starts to spark, and apparently they think it is a snake and chaos ensues, as wings flap and feathers fly, briefly, but chaos returns to the mundane.

He also eventually rakes up some human skulls somehow. Eventually there is smoke, so perhaps he is now burning everything so that the ashes fall back down and he has to rake again, although some of the ash is coming from a factory (in the distance) of sorts. I do not know, seems like a fair bet that it is a cycle of rake, wait for ashes and leaves to fall, rake again. More and more miniature lobsters appear. This looks like trouble. I am not too worried as the last time lobsters appeared, they were holding flowers and seemed to be symbols of friendship somehow. No drama ensues.

The Magnolia League had Brenda W and Tina as members. This was in the 1960s of course - Arcadia - and I contemplate how unusual it is when old patterns and ideas are “borrowed” as if it is something brand new, and yet amazingly oversimplified and the foundation of the original ideas scattered into the wind senselessly (or altered perversely through a skewed personal history), without merit (even “new” songs which are twenty-year-old cover versions and such that people use as an example of “modern” talent…wow) - and the source is not only not recognized but scorned - why “From Noon Till Three” (1976) is one of my favorite movies. Still, a lot of “Big ol’ Ruby Red Dresses” wandering around and many following them as the lawn burns. Brenda called a particular girl by that name. “Leave me alone,” she said. It was the funniest thing ever, because it was just like the song…we spent the whole day laughing about it. The other person did not even get the joke or why I was crying tears of laughter even after school at the library. I even dreamed about it a few times and woke myself up laughing. I guess I was easily amused.

Perhaps this great sanctuary really is a small bookshelf for people to “escape” to. The pages of books can be leaves. The leaves are not raked and discarded, but absorbed forever…

The dream starts with my ex-girlfriend in my arms then she is suddenly gone... So I start running around in a panic to find her. When I finaly find her I hold her again in relief, then I'm suddenly running in A panic looking for my Fiancé. This happens repeatedly in the dream and its a reaccearing dream, any ideas what it could mean? I've searched and searched but can't find anything on the internet...

Here is some of my background, maybe it will help... I've been with my fiancé close too 3 years and she is pregnant, I met her 4 months after I left my ex for a petty reason... Just before I met her I attempted to get back together with my ex and she wasn't interested... All the internet says about former lover dreams is that I could see some of my ex in a current relationship but that doesn't seem relevant to this dream.

After having an energy drink I Dreamt I was running and maybe swimming near and on the river (which is near my house) away from men looking like those from the Jesus last supper portrait, then jumped into some ice age type world where I was the mother I think of human children and we kept getting eating by other huge humans, finally I begged to spare my life when I met a huge Caucasian human who had some kind of icy electric field plate ready to eat us and I asked for help he told me to contact someone and the number was 366 or 3665. Then jumped to a Zombie jail scene where the security officer kept trying to eat me and I begged to spare my life in the end then I woke up.

Also my 6 year old son told me he dreamt a grasshopper ate him.

We were at a big family reunion today and we ate a lot of food.

I'm a little obsessed with 2010 Freddy Krueger and Chucky, my American friend told me to search 'Freddy Krueger & Chucky hentai' I search unknowingly and it inspired a gross dream......
The dream;
I was in a bubble bath, I closed my eyes for one second and boom, I was in a bath filled with blood, naked, with a naked Freddy Krueger and a naked Chucky, and they were just casually talking to me and then Freddy stroked my leg, Chucky played with my hair and then we all took a shower together, got cleaned and then went on a killing spree and (here comes the hentai) everything turns gross
*Wakes up crying*
What has been seen, cannot be unseen....
(Not for the faint heart)
https://www.google.co.uk/search?q=fr...entai&tbm=isch

bo jonnsonn was there and amelia was embarrassing me by E.M.O. in front of bo. i think it was bo who said that cipro antibiotic makes pleasure more extreme, so i was excited.
alex tried to spice up his life and was doing all these random things like painting and activities that only exist in the dreamworld..

(Just copy and pasted my competition post to add to my DJ.)

Night 19 / Last entry

4 fragments, 3 dreams, wbtb success - 8pts

Wild/become lucid, dc interact - 10pts
My first of two painfully short lucids. I finally made sure I woke up enough to maintain awareness all the way to sleep and used a motion based entry when I felt I was close...was bounding higher and higher which brought on vibrations and I found myself in a car at a gas station with my wife looking at me strange asking me what am I doing. I thought about giving her a more specific answer but I said I'm just lucid dreaming. She starts arguing in the dream and it wakes me up into what I later realized was a false awakening but nonetheless out of lucidity.

Dild become lucid, dc interact - 7pts
I was close to wilding again but lost consciousness and found myself in a big Department Store with just me and my wife and as I ask where is everyone because no one else is around I realize that I'm dreaming. After a short interaction I hear my wife IWL moving around the room and wake up. I was able to get close to conscious REM a few more times with some advanced HH's but lost awareness before entering the dreams.

Competition total - 265pts