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Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was playing Doom coop with someone, to be exact, Brutal Doom mod. There was some level that was set up as multiple series of rooms and passages connected through central hub. I kept forgetting that enemies take less shots to destroy with mod and ended up using more good ammo than needed. At the end there was boss that looked like powered up version of arch vile and it used some kind of charged laser attack and summoning swarms of missiles.

Dream 2(fragment):

There was some anime discussion.

Dream 3(fragment):

I was looking at the global map, which looked similar to earth, but different, americas were separated. On the map were drawn dragon flying paths.

Yeah, you heard it! I finally had success with the challenge.

Last night I got enough sleep to try out my theory about manipulating the dream and WBTB.

What I did before bed: Meditate for about 5-10 minutes to get present in the moment. I went to bed at 10pm.

After that I almost instantly fell asleep due to exhaustion from work and being tired.

I woke up at around 4am naturally and drank something. I didn't get out of my bed because I was extremely tired and almost about to pass out instantly.
Then I started to think about my theory and actively tried to visualize a dream scene. But this time I noticed something. I could feel how my mind would get awake by actively doing something.
So I tried something else. I consciously tried to accelerate the falling-asleep process (for some reason I can do this, feels just like flexing some kind of muscle :O). While doing this I enhanced it even more by creating random images in my mind (just like you should do for getting into HI). But the images were manipulated in a way that each image had the word "RC" or something else written somewhere. I wanted to manipulate my following dream so it would give me hints to get lucid/do a RC.
Then I passed out. The whole process took about 5-10 seconds max.

Here's the dream:

I was in my house. There was some noise outside so I went to the parking lot right in front of my house. Many people were standing outside, just around the bike rack. For some reason we had to put away all the bikes from the rack...and for another weird reason there were much more bikes than IRL. Even in the dream I started to wonder why we should do this.
Then suddenly even more weird things happened. A police car appeared and two police officers walked towards us. One of them was black and the other one white. They grabbed one of the people in the crowd and pushed him on the ground. They tried to put handcuffs on and I intercepted. I told them that police officers need a reason to arrest civilians (this is from playing an Arma 2 mod, where cops are only allowed to arrest civilians with a specific reason). Suddenly the black one turned to me and punched me in the face while saying "I don't need a reason to do anything!". The odd thing was that his punch didn't hurt at all, it felt like a gentle stroke. I got extremely angry and suddenly the cops grabbed their pistols and said: "Alright, nobody's getting away from here. You are all sentenced to death!". They began shooting the people and I ran behind the back of the house. Now it all made sense. This is so ridiculous, it must be a dream! I was really happy that my method worked. Then I walked back to the cops, feeling invincible. They had to pay for shooting my Dream Characters. They saw me and the black guy was pointing his gun towards me. "QUICK STEP!", I thought. I just love this technique and I got my enthusiasm for the RPG back. Within the blink of an eye, I charged towards the cop and punched him so hard that he crashed into the wall. I focused all my energy into my legs and arms. The cop got up again and threw away his weapon. He looked stronger now. I noticed that I should do ADA because I felt kinda 'numb'. I touched the ground and tried to feel the texture while starting to become present in the moment. The dream was now crystal clear and I could feel the distinct feeling of the dream compared to reality. The cop looked at me and prepared for charging towards me. Right as he was about to run, I used Quick Step to jump high into the air. I then kicked the air to propel me towards my house. Within 5 seconds, I kept using Quick Step to jump from wall to wall between my house and the neighbours house. I felt so extremely fast. After I built up enough velocity, I kicked myself off the wall and charged towards the cop. BAM!, I hit him in his face with all my strength. The way his body crashed through all the houses in my neighbourhood looked just like the enemies do in One Piece or Naruto. Shit this lucid was awesome! - I thought.
Suddenly my vision began to fade black. I thought that I was about to wake up but I did ADA and focused on the dream to regain stability. I was in front of my house again. What happened now is something I won't write here. Let's just say that I had my first dream orgasm...and it felt better than expected. Normally I wouldn't waste my lucids for this but it was one of my experimental dream-goals.
At this point my vision faded black again. I thought to myself that the next time I get lucid I'll do some testing for the RPG. I lost lucidity and thought that I had woken up. A friend appeared and I told him that I'm so happy that I finally figured out how to get lucid again. Also I could see a super-nintendo console on my windowsill. I told him about my dream (in-dream dream recall ) and woke up for real after a couple of minutes.

I looked at the time and it was now 6pm. I slept for 2 hours!
Also, being extremely tired during the WBTB seems to be good for me as I can fall asleep while laying on my back. And when I sleep on my back my awareness is usually higher than in any other position. I also woke up on my back.
What I learned from this was that you should frequently do RC's in the dream and keep doing ADA. Even when you think that you woke up, do a RC just to be sure.

I tried Laberge's "An Hour of Wakefulness Before Morning Naps Makes Lucidity More Likely" and I think I got better quality dreams...but no lucidity yet. Laberge maintains that the brain doesn't "direct" dream scenes...merely throws in a schema..well I'm not so sure.

One dream, where I tentatively approached the white door of a surgery, fearing the worst for what I might find inside...and finding dead medical personnel on the floor around a bed only lacked Hitchcock's screeching soundtrack to the Psycho shower scene...well produced, a decent build-up and a pay-off.

Except, of course, it 's one of my main "trigger" dream signs and I reacted not a bit...maybe I was too busy admiring the direction...just enjoying the movie in other words...

My brain must be laughing its little temporal lobes off, as I stumble unwittingly through its dream scenes littered with clues. I try firing myself up for 2+ hours before sleep, running endlessly through mantras, dream signs etc (and visualising, not just mouthing the words) The main result is that it takes longer for me to fall asleep (still muttering)

But...one day I will be lucid...ever onwards

Big Boys Don't Cry and Sad is Just Cold
I dreamed that my older son had learned that if one is feeling sad what one needs is physical warmth (because sad is actually just cold) and big boys don't cry. There was also something odd about taking off his shoes to get warmer. I corrected this misconception.

Kids Learn Life Lessons From the Homeless
My husband had gotten our two boys into a community service project which involved us dropping the boys off with a community of homeless people, and we would not stay, and there would be no one else just kids and homeless people, and the homeless people were teaching the kids about life. While I was a bit nervous about this, but at least I knew that a homeless woman we know and trust would be with them all the time.

I had a dream, but i forgotten it unfortunately :/

My recall appears to be sinking somewhat.

fragments:
I see many doorways.

Sidenote:
I seem to remember doorways quite often. Wonder what that means.

I started off lucid (thank you WILD), in my room as always. I immediately left my house and went down to the street below (my house is on the second floor, suppose its more of a flat or apartment). Here I decided to try and completely clear my mind. I got into the standard, almost stereotypical, position for meditation and, without closing my eyes (otherwise I might teleport), focused on a single spot and got on with it. For a time, nothing happened, but eventually, I felt intense, but not unpleasant, vibrations and everything went blurry. It solidified before long and I found myself in a skyscraper dominated city. It looked sorta bleak, but with an air of hope. Seeking to explore this bizarre world, I flew around the amazingly detailed metropolis and stumbled upon a beautiful woman. This next part is almost shameful, if only because my goal is to not be id dominated. I naturally had sex with her and woke up. I immediately reentered into the dream and discovered that I was being worshiped as a hero by the DCs because of the powers afforded to me through lucidity. I went along with this role and gradually lost lucidity. The next part consists of fragments. I remember when I was about to wake up, I saw part of my room towards the edges of my eyes and a creepy, metallic creature with a horrible grin. The experience allowed to be lucid, although I couldn't accomplish anything and eventually came squarely back to reality. My third dream of the night/ early morning returned to this city and the only thing I can remember is that it involved cats.

I was in some building. My dream turns into lucid, i lost it, but kept mooving arms and legs and soon the dream came back. In this LD i decided to earn as many point as possible. I tried to make a flower on my palm, but at first my palm dissapered and there was a dark sport. Then appeared, but it didn't look like a flower, so i gave it up and decided to pass through the wall with open eyes. The wall was too thick and when i passed through it i found myself in the destroyed room and there was a beautiful pine wood behind the window. I understood that the wall was a portal - thats why it was so thick. I went through the window and just enjoy the scinery. All was so real - mountains and pines and grass. I just walking and enjoy myself and soon forgot about points and so on, and awoke.

Had an interesting dream this morning that I didn't record until tonight, so I can recall only parts of it.

I was in a bar talking to an attractive Oriental woman. I was telling her about a recent experience of mine; the details of which I don't remember now. She and I left the bar and walked through streets of a city somewhere in Japan. It had skyscrapers and tall brick buildings. Several of these buildings appeared seriously damaged and dangerously unstable, so we returned to the relative safety of the bar. There we found a shotgun that had a shot glass for an ammo clip, and the glass was filled with a caramel-colored alcoholic beverage. Two or three times, I drank the liquid in the shot glass and aimed the gun at nothing in particular, without ever pulling the trigger. [end of dream]

If this is a precognitive dream, then it means a destructive event (probably an earthquake) will occur in one of Japan's major cities within the next few weeks. The epicenter of this probable seismic event may be indicated by one or more of the dream symbols. If the shotgun means shōgun, that would suggest Tokyo (ancient Edo) as the most likely location. Or less likely, the alcoholic beverage (though it wasn't clear-colored) may mean sake, which sounds like Osaka.

Based on this dream, I predict a major earthquake will damage parts of Tokyo or Osaka within 1 to 6 weeks (sometime between July 18 and August 28 of 2013).

This was a total waste of a Lucid Dream. I was Lucid for maybe 5 minutes and didn't do anything that I've wanted to do in my dreams; almost like I had completely forgotten what I wanted to do. Anyways...

So, the first thing I remember were my neighbors were making a movie with this really crappy DV camera. It's the cheap, vertical cameras where the screen pops out to either the left or right, and you hold it sort of like you would an item scanner at a retail store. Apparently, and also illogically, they had no experience in editing video, and I was supposed to do it for them. I watched them film the couple of scenes they needed, although I don't remember exactly what happened in the scenes or what they were about.
When they were done, I was about to start editing the clips together, since the short film was due for some festival in a few hours. I, for some reason, went into my bathroom to brush my teeth. As I brushed, I noticed my teeth ached, and when I took a look, there were cavities on my teeth, and some had even fallen out. I ran out, and my neighbor was obviously distraught, as I needed emergency dental work and their film was due in mere hours.
The dream skipped to me at a dentist's office. The dentist wore surgical scrubs and a mask, and he instantly began applying some sort of paste to my gums to numb them. After they turned a bit numb, I saw him get out the novacaine syringe and walk my way. This, I suppose, woke up the logic part of my brain.

I instantly stood up, looked at the dentist, and said something along the lines of "I need to check on something at work. I'll be back in a little bit." The dentist nodded, and without doing a reality check, I instantly said, "yeah, I'm dreaming."
I left the room, walked down the stairs, and was at some sort of college. The best way to describe it is a grand wooden fold-back staircase that led to a log-cabin cafeteria filled with students. Down the hall was a gift shop, and outside was a park. I decided to test out my "dream powers", and looked at the first dream character I saw. I, for reasons unknown, decided to blow them up. Sure enough, it worked, and I shrugged it off as just something that was sort of "cool". Then, I walked to the gift shop area and met up with this douchey kid who, until then I had not noticed, had been in previous dreams that night. He was apparently some sort of famous musician, but let's face it: he was a total douche. I started calling him out, and then I woke up. I actually woke up at 6:59, one minute before my alarm was set to go off.

This really bummed me out because I have so much I want to do, yet when I get opportunities like this, I completely waste them because for whatever reason, I'm not thinking properly.


Also, after work, I took an hour and a half long nap. I don't remember if I had any dreams while taking it, but I did wake up and sort of lay in bed and try to visualize a little bit. What followed was a super-illogical "dream" that was too abstract for me to even begin to comprehend (that, and I don't even want to share because it was that weird). I was well aware that I was in bed, and could feel my body laying there, but didn't have any logic whatsoever apparently.

I find it amazing that my dreams sometimes seem to be themed for the night. My recall has been a little better lately and I've been trying like hell to get lucid naturally.

1:17AM

Some dorm room party. I find my cousin and party with him. I can't find any beer but I find some rum/tea mixture.

I am outside at night walking home. Some old lady on a bridge about 10 feet up wants my help. She crosses her arms and falls back and I catch her. We are now on some shore in bleachers waiting for a boat. Then I see flashing lights to my left and know someone is coming. The lights go out and now we are confused and disoriented by a strobe light. It is 3 guys trying to rob us of our electronics. I see my phone and GP on the seat next to me. He takes it. I feel they are too important to let him. I fight him and only can he flashes of the action. Then he falls and bashes his head on a large rock. I slam his head again and it kills him. His face looks like Gollum. At the last of the fight my phone and GP fall and shatter to a million peices. I somehow kill the other guys. Now, I am severely hurt. I feel like my mouth is busted up and I spit out a lot of blood. I hear someone say, "He hemorrhaging." Someone points to a hospital down the street. I slowly limp there wheezing and gasping for breath. I check in with a nurse and she asks, "What have you been taking?" All I can say is, "I'm drunk."

Other dreams forgotten

Time unknown

First part is hazy... something happens. I park a large pickup with a trailer. I had stashed some stole bank cash in the bushes and came back for it. My buddy went in a house to do something. I sneak out and get the money. I see a lot of paper coin rolls and stacks of really large bills. They are in various plastics bags all in a paper sack. I snatch the money and get back in the truck. I am very nervous that someone saw me. My buddy comes back and I talk to him. We leave. It's day time now and a cop follows us. We stay cool and he turns off. I think we need to switch vehicles. I see C.H. in a yellow bug in front of us. We plan to get in with him but he has a wreck in font of us. He decides to run and hit another car. I talk how surprised I am that a minister would do this. He gets out and runs on foot. I hope he jacks another car without being seen.

5:16AM

I am at work waiting for some meeting to start. There are some invented devices. One drills into plastic and runs on clean burning fuel rather than electric. I think I know the mixture and we have the chemical. It's Isopropyl Alcohol and another ingredient. I think I should mix some up real quick but think I won't have time. There is a display in the middle of a table. That one guy I don't know his name from work created it. It looks like a star wars game. I see you can control storm troopers. I wake up.

One dream about astral projection and two about deilds....

Dream 1

I've been sleeping and am suddenly awoken by the feeling of intense vibrations. I wonder what's going on but I decide to 'roll out of my body'. When I do, it feels like I am on my floor, so I stand up and open my eyes. I look back and see my body on the bed and know what has happened. I start to walk out of my room but then everything fades away..

Dream 2

I'm in an unfamiliar house, at the kitchen table. An acquaintance is here; she's been waking me up so I can have a deild.

Fragment

I'm watching short videos that are supposed to help me have a deild.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Church clothes:
I find myself attending some church service, i remember that i don't want to be here but i had to. It's early in the morning. After the service was over, i start to go home and take a nap before i have to come back at 3. As i walk out of the church, i see a girl i know. I open my mouth to say something, but i'm in too much of a shock from seeing her that i can't say anything. I walk past her and i'm still a little surprised she was here. I get home and i'm at my grandparents house. I go to their bed and sleep. I wake up at about 2:45 and i start to get ready to go back. As i get ready, i notice i can't find my clothes. I start asking my grandparents but they don't help.

Storming baseball:
I remember being outside near my house throwing baseballs or something. Then it starts to rain hard. A person who appears to be my rival is next to me. It starts to rain so i get an umbrella and start to leave but my master tells me to stay. So i drop the umbrella and go back to throwing but in the rain this time. I pick up a baseball and as i squeeze the ball to throw it, there's a hole in the ball and this black oil-like substance is flowing out. That's about all i can remember, i know that this dream had a deeper plot to it but i forgot.

Borderlands defense:
I'm in borderlands 2 and me and a friend are on a tower shooting crawling monsters. I kill one and it drops health upgrades but a girl takes them.

comments: Well, that wasn't really much at all, tonight, i will do better. ( i mean it this time!)

7/17/13

last night bed 12am - 8:30am

DR - I wrote down some keywords at night. "Backpain, classmates, school looking for printouts, LDing

Around noon I layed down and listened to my Yoga Nidra MP3. Barely like 4 min into first part - "Surveying your body", I suddenly got into this very weird and pleasant state.

I lost feeling of contact with sofa. As if I was floating on water bed made out of energy. It was moving like a waterbed would, slight wavy sensations and energy.

This part "survey of body" is guided meditation. Voice is telling me to pay attention to certain parts of the body and to experience them any way I can. Either feel the skin, bones and such, or experience it as energy.

I my mind I said "energy" and when thinking of parts of body, I was first time actually able to feel them. Like "top of my head" I was actually aware of it and felt it. Same with knees, ankles and so forth.

It put me to sleep rather quickly.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some palace-like place and it was on fire, i was in some group and we were evacuating people, then there was some princess i had to find and after leading her to the exit, a voice with leader-like tone, that i thought to be a dragon, said to search for more people.

Dream 2:

I was entering some gas station place with some group, it was somewhat abandoned. Many doors and windows were closed one way or another. Inside we found some junky person, i was asking him about something but he was laughing and was unreliable in many ways. We kept searching through the building until one of us, a kid that looked like he was from some anime, found a secret passage in a wall of hay, and what we were searching for was here and it was a vehicle of some kind. The junky dude from before kept following us and when we were going on the vehicle outside, he got a hose that sprayed some liquid around that on contact made people drunk, it hit a few cars, including one police car, drivers of which promptly got drunk and drove them into walls and stuff, the liquid missed us though.

Dream 3:

I was in some group and we were wandering around, we went near some power plant looking place and then reached an area full of caves. I went into one of caves and there was lava in some place, at certain point i got my PC and started playing some video game.
It was 3D semi top-down semi from-behind perspective game that had Link from LoZ as main character, progressing through some dungeon, i also thought that it was some LoZ inspired game and that it was made in game maker(Interestingly though, i haven't played any games from LoZ series yet IWL). I was controlling the character, finding way through that dungeon and fighting various enemies, ones were some humanoid brown rat-like creatures. There was also checkpoint/save point system, but i really disliked it.
I got distracted from game and went outside the cave, and i ended up scouting around some hill area. Soon i found some girl with a spear and another person, i suddenly decided to borrow the spear for something without asking for a bit, which i did, and in the end getting hit hard with that spear after returning it, which didn't affected me much though. I returned to cave and continued game.
Soon i reached what appeared to be endgame part, there was some place with stone conveyor belt-like mechanisms, i was talking to some shadow person and i had to make a choice. I knew that one of choices triggers one endings immediately so i selected another one to prolong the game. Some genie-like beings as well as some efreets were spawned through whole dungeon and i had to find/fight my way through it, but this time from the end to the start. After some fight i have found that different shadow person was waiting for me, it literally grabbed my character and we quickly got back to start of dungeon, though near the end it was behaving weird and i thought AI glitched up a bit, also it was killing enemies almost in one hit.
Upon reaching the exit i suddenly was in game instead of just playing it, there were some scientist people waiting and testing some experimental stuff. One of them being 'living' boots of various kinds. They were making new ones, that looked yellow and had small 'legs', i thought i would test them even though scientists were against that, so i got them on and they became alive and started bouncing extremely. I ended up bouncing around the place and getting "Tester for !!Fun!!" achievement.

Last night's dream:

I just get out of a store that is like a video game store. There is an abandoned fruit stand outside that has mangos, papayas, and some other fruit that is foreign to me. This kid I am with tells me that the fruit is free and that he takes a fruit with him home everyday. I pick one up and take a bite out of it, it is sweet. I have this feeling of needing to move and go on to the next scenario, but I feel very upset about this, anxiety? I then am at this huge house that I am staying at. It is night and no longer day. I'm in this bathroom getting dressed for a party, but feel very awkward about it. something doesn't seem right to me about where I am. I start to notice small things that irk me into believing I am being watched by someone or something. I walk outside and then it is like I am high above this courtyard. I run outside-END

Nap dream:
I am at a walmart with my grandparents. I buy a few ice cream containers. I remember seeing this family from a video blog on youtube blog. I was upset at myself because I could not make it to their baby shower and I had only gave them a very small sum of money which made me feel 'bad'. Although, the dream moved on and I was back in the walmart again. There was this small scene where I was in a baby section of the story looking at items when someone asked me where the other two people I was with were at, but it wasn't my grandparents. I become a little suspicious of this and move on into the dream into the front of the store where I check out my items with my grandparent's. There is this guy conducting what items I would buy on my own and which items were my grandparent's. I felt like I was being charged with a felony with this guy because even though he worked at the store he was yelling at me about where items went, and how to check out items. I already know how to do this. I then explained to him that where I come from this didn't happen, I wasn't accused of not knowing things where I lived, because everything was pretty simple. he didn't answer-END