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Dream 1: I had almost become lucid because I dreamed that I had broken one of my teeth. I went to the dentist and I kept saying "This can't be real. I must be dreaming." I did a reality check, but it didn't work. I couldn't breathe through my nose. I was also fighting some war, too. Beyond frustrating.

Dream 2: AGAIN, I almost became lucid, but the reality check failed. I dreamed that everynight I would go out and fly to try and go to some camp to help out with something (I think it was fighting a creature or something.) I ran out of my house and then onto the street. At first, I thought I wasn't going to fly. I started running and then I began to fly. It was a great feeling. I had trouble controlling it, though. I kept drifting and I couldn't really do much else besides float there. Some other people were flying as well, lol. I remember thinking of my fear of heights, but I didn't care.

07.10.2012

Nuke Building Infiltration (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This picture is from the Peace Walker game of Metal Gear Solid, but it's the only one that reminds me of the Nuke Building at the moment.

I'm going to focus on the environment and people in the dream, because I honestly don't know why I'm back to infiltration again.

I think I'm going to take Melanieb's advice on paying attention to your environments to make even the shortest dreams pretty long.

I remember standing at an enclosed section, and it's basically an almost perfect replica of the first floor of the Nuke building in Metal Gear Solid 1.

This means that in order for the environment to stay true to the original stage, I couldn't fire any weapons, otherwise the whole place explodes. Which explains why things were a little intense for me.

I had to pay attention to a lot of the guards' movements, sometimes even having to wait it out several times to make sure they didn't have to alter their patrol route.

And like the original stage, there were some floors that I had to be careful stepping on, because if I tried to run, it will make more noise than usual.

Those same floors had some ventilation paddings on them, so they would make that loud "clank clank clank" sound if I were to go over them. I think I was controling Naked Snake, not Solid Snake, because the outfit I/he was wearing was from MGS3, so it couldn't have been Solid Snake.

Hmm....I'm still having that doubt of whether or not I'm controlling someone in a video game, if it's me, or it's both me controlling and being that person simultaneously.

It felt weird for him to have that kind of outfit suited for jungle sneaking in a nuke building. The atmosphere had a slight yellow hue to it, and it was so apparent, it's like I was inhaling and exhaling energy.

The outfit was the generic one in MGS3, the same outfit used when Snake did the HALO jump

The common behaviors for me in this dream were being fearful, because I couldn't let an enemy fire a gun in a nuke building, and the other is a surprise.....I was still calm. I felt a neutrality from my emotions of fear and cautious nature, and I could feel and hear myself breathing for once.

It's just that all I focus on is sight and more specific sounds like gunfire, foot steps, or even people having a conversation, but never anything that I'm exhibiting like breathing, etc.

After I figured out the guards' movements, I think things fast forward a little bit.......literally. It was like watching a video clip on some kind of survival stimulation, it was crazy, I was so close to one of the guard's backs, that the only reason I could do that is if I knew this area inside and out.

I think this is why the dream itself fast forward like crazy.

I think the reason I had this dream, was probably because of my desire to meet my eternal self, or just to go to the Akashic Records again.

But what I don't understand is that if that were the case, and knowing that the Akashic Records can be acesses at any time, but because of the brain's mechanism of trying to define the "phenomenon" or "location," it seems it wants to make this information for me to obtain difficult than it should be.

I honestly am not the type for these infiltration missions, I mean sure I like sneaking games and all that, but if it were actually me on the battlefield or in a building, I would definitely need a guide, or do the analyzing of guard movement to even stand a chance.

Maybe it's not my subconscious' way of perceiving the confidentiality of the Akashic Records, maybe it's something my higher self/eternal self is trying to show me.

I know I have a few things to take care of that can affect my future right now, but these are mostly short term things that must be resolved, but again, none of which that are deserving for this type of dream environment to be manifested before me.

I could conclude that these dreams should teach me to not try to rush things that are dangerous and life-threatening such as the nuke building I was in. But even with something so obvious as that, there has to be more.....I can't just be in a nuke building, or whatever military building without some kind of reason.

And if that reason turns out just to be for the thrill or adventure, then I guess I need to change how I get that need met in my dreams.

I've also noticed something, but was too afraid to analyze. It's so obvious, but still, in my non-lucids, I'm usually always in some kind of infiltration.

Actually, let me rephrase that, nearly all sneaking missions, gunfire, killing, military, infiltration, etc. are all non-lucid states.

My lucid dreams are obviously geared towards real life environments like colleges, houses I've been to, etc., things related to the subconscious utilizing homologous variation to synch the piece together.

I know that if I wanted a sneaking mission in a lucid state, it probably wouldn't work out because I'm not that creative as yet in the lucid state. I know I can use archetypes to easily manifest these types of dreams, but maybe I just don't want to do that in my lucids.

It would probably just feel like a waste, and I would only do it if I was bored.

Hm.....guess I should be aware of those differences.

And if I end up having bad recall, I'll just be grateful for what I do remember, and recall as much detail as I can in that confined snippet, and remember more based on that.

It's something I've done frequently, but it's just because I'm slacking off a bit because I'm being distracted in waking life a lot, at least in Canada.

I guess that's a good thing, because I'm supposed to be doing things here in the first place, otherwise the money for the trip wouldn't have been worth it, right?

I was flying through the sky and I wanted to get down and enter a house. I had trouble being able to tell where the ground was. At first the sky looked like it was down and the ground up. I fliped over and the earth was to my belly again.

I then all of a sudden found myself in a building with furniture and a bed with blankets. I trained my telekenisis by pulling the cover up and down and my power improved dramatically.I then tried something new. I tried to change the blankets color and design. At first I tried to turn it purple and failed. After a few seconds, the blanket was dark blue and had images of torpedo girl from BOBOBO on it.

I then could change the design to what ever i wanted and i played with it for a while. The bed also got taller as the dream went on. After while I woke up.

I was stuck in a room at the bottom of the stairs with a little black haired kid. On the stairs where two mean dogs that could talk and they threatend us.

I had a short talk with them and they allowed us to leave the room. We went upstairs and found a little kid. We made him sleep on the couch, so we wouldn't get caught by Orochimaru, the owner of the lab.

We found a flight of stairs that was old and falling apart. We climbed down and we could go through two doors. One on the right and left. We chose left and we found our selves outside. We saw a fence blocking our exit.

My companion started to unlock the lock with a key he had, but i told him that real men climb and I threw him over and climbed after him.

We where standing next to a car and i knew i would awaken soon, so i asked him his name. He told me and then changed his mind and renamed himself. I don't remember his name, but now he looked like and adult bodybuilder and he was huge. I then went into another dream.

I was on a river in a very small boat which seemed to have no motor about to go tubing with one of my good friends Tylor but instead i got out and was just walking the beach and the water felt really incredible against my legs. Then i woke up.

Signs of a Dream:
unknown whereabouts
properties of water were abnormal
boat wasn't even big enough to pull a tube without a motor (realized this, didn't seem important at the time since he already left)

In the middle of the day in a unknown location, some idiot was tricking a very beautiful foreign lady in to having sex with him at a park across the street from me and couple other acquaintances who i couldn't identify. She started taking her clothes off and when she got to her undergarments i suddenly appear over there telling her something so enlightening she stops what she is doing and tells the guy off. She seemed to have a new view of how nice a guy could truly be.

Signs of a dream:
teleporation
suddenly she was clothed again
there was no confrontation with the guy
i didn't know the park we were at

So my dream begins with me somewhere, I don't exactly remember where. And then after this I was sent to go work on a space station. And I was beamed there like a sort of teleportation. Upon my arrival I was in a small bubble like building, floating in space. There were two men there one British man and one other who I didn't really talk to, or rather didn't talk to me. I asked them how we could breathe because the station we were in seemingly had no walls. They gave me some explanation that I don't recall now. After this they told me about some water coolant system under the space station. When they told me this in the dream I had a sort of vision. I saw into the pipes and I could see the water surging through them. We went to work on something in the space station and all I remember after that was something about vodka and then a pipe burst and the space station flooded with water. After this happened I woke up in a sort of barn building on the ground and got up and the two guys were ahead of me. I ran to catch back up to them. When I had caught up I asked the one British one where we were. His response was, "We're dreaming." I replied with, "Wait what this is a dream?" And he nodded. So then after this it turned into a sex lucid (not with the man) and uhhh I forget the rest . Also I had a false awakening after my lucid.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

It starts as a dream of me in my bedroom. I feel an evil presence and some blades cut through the matress by my side. I get up and run away to the corridor and I encounter Freddy Krueger. Some chasing and some wrestling until I realize this is just a dream. I'm not lucid enough to just make it go away, instead I decide to wake up. I find myself again in my bed, thinking the dream is over. Then I go out and the scenario gets weirder and darker and I make a reality check. I realize I'm still dreaming. I'm crossing a basketball field and Freddy appears again and the chase restarts. I try again to wake up and once more I just have a false awakening sending me again to my dream bed. But I'm not freaking out. As long as I know I'm in the dream world, it's ok. I am actually quite amused with this game. I hear Freddy again, but because my mood is light he also changes his attitude from predator to interested. He enters the room and he is not so scary anymore. I let him lean over me and it feels quite sexy in a weird way. I consider making out with him until I realize "eewww, what were you thinking". Then I decide to open wide my "real" eyes and finally I wake up.

It was a long and detailed lucid but I'm not perfectly sure about the chronology of some things and actually I can't remember it too well.

I know that I was on a plaza of some kind of city in the night, I don't know how I became lucid and what exactly happened there but I tried to fly, while looking into the sky, some weird stuff happened, my vision blured and I lost lucidity. A moment or maybe a minute later I was in front of a building and saw another building kind of hovering above and I associated that with my flying attempts from before, did an RC and became lucid again. I tried to summon a clocktower for some reason and then I ran through the city in high speed before I woke up.

Date: 09/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 12.05am
Consumed 2 x Menthol sweets right before bed
B6 100mg before bed

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red


Ok, so I am pretty tired, but not exhausted. I lay to sleep and feel the sleepy onset, but something keeps me awake. I feel a little weird, nothing major, but as I fall asleep I'm sure I have strange thoughts sliding through my head. My first reaction is that I'm catching myself as I start dreaming, which I often do when WILDing, but this should be NREM cycle. Eventually I sleep, and I'm woken every 5 minutes by a feeling of fear. I'm not sure why. At one point I open my eyes in fright with a sudden jump, and really feel like I'm having a nightmare - but I don't recall any dreams. Eventually I sleep for good.

Dream 1 - 2.23am
I am in a room, which is kind of dark, and I'm helping a vet. The vet is friendly, but I honestly don't recall weather they were male or female. There is a bed and a desk (bedroom?) but we are facing the desk. So the vet first brings out a dog. It is old and skinny, and very scared. For a bit in this dream there is someone else there, watching and at some points laughing, but they disappear. The vet has the dog tied up to the desk, and the dog looks scared, it's a wiry mutt, kind of like a large terrier. It's pretty ugly. It has big, brown eyes that are filled with sadness, and it stares up at me, silently begging me for help. I can't believe how skinny it is, we proceed to wash the dog, or at least cover it in something that drenches it. The vet tells me the dog will be ok. Then this is where it get's a little weird.Next, the vet brings out a horse. The horse is the size of a rabbit, but a fully formed adult horse in every way. It is clearly in pain, as it is about to give birth. It jumps onto the desk, and starts giving birth, and I can see the baby inside!!! The horse is brown and the baby is black and white. The baby seems to fly out easily, and I am given it to clean up while the vet sorts out the mother horse. I take it to the bed (which is apparently my bed) and lay it down. The horse is contained inside a balloon-like sack, filled with liquid. The vet shouts that I must get it out, as it can't get out itself. So I try to open the sack but it rolls around the bed, making it difficult. It is like a water balloon, and very slippery. Eventually I manage to rip one end and the liquid spurts out - it's water like consistency but it is really warm, and soaks everything, including me. There's a mirror just laying on the bed, with a heavy gold guilt frame, and this gets soaked too. My bed sheets are soaked, (they are purple and black silk) but despite all this, I am incredibly happy. I can't stop smiling and watching the water spurt everywhere. The vet kind of laughs, and says 'you'll have trouble sleeping in there tonight.' but I just don't care, I'm delighted.

What in the actual fuck. Lol. The most poignant part of this dream was the real warmth of the hot liquid, and the vivid feel of the horse in the sack. It suddenly dawned on me when writing this that it felt EXACTLY like the chick from yesterday's dream.

Dream 2 - 4.11am
I am writing a story, on small pieces of paper. I think it is aimed at young children. (This is what I do for a living.) The story is about 2 little boys, who cross a road, and one dies. As I get to the end of the story, my real dad walks in. Bearing in mind I haven't seen my real dad since I was about 14, I'm 25 now. He was an abusive father, who caused me a lot of issues growing up. I hardly EVER dream about him. He walks in, clearly angry, but I ignore him as this is usual for him. He does this thing that he used to do, which is strut around the room shaking his head in anger, and glancing at me every so often with a weird look in his eyes. I know this is not good, but I pretend not to see him and carry on writing. He starts saying something about people not listening to him, and he's been doing everything and I think he's talking about my mum. He lays his head on the desk in the room (I am in a bedroom, I'm laying on the bed) and then suddenly, he walks in the room again. So, there are now 2 of him. The one that has just walked in is carrying a frozen chicken, and a bottle of something, and a balloon that has not yet been inflated. He sets these things down and looks at us both. He then tells us that we better get up quick, cos we're going to play a trick on mum! He starts putting the chicken inside the balloon. I really don't want to join in, but I can't say no. My dad that was already in the room, looks like he's pissed off at the other version of himself, but also agrees to help.

Dream 3 - 9.47

I tried to WILD, and started feeling results. For me, I don't get noticable SP or HH, just a rush as I transition. I felt the rush several times, and when I finally started getting dream images forming around me, my partner decided to roll over and hit me in the face. I RC'd just to make sure, but I was awake. Annoying. I went to sleep.

I was very bad at writing this dream down, I was so tired I kept saying 'I'll write it in a minute...I'll remember,' then fell back to sleep. I did wake 5 minutes later and write it down, but I lost most of the dream. I normally do this in later morning dreams, I have to learn not to.

I'm at R's house. R is a very close friend. Just a friend. For some reason I am there to say goodbye, like I am leaving town or something. It is a bit sad but not too much. And then R says he is at work and will be home soon, that I should meet him at his place. I make my way to his place, and suddenly realise I am completely naked. I am trying to find my way through a hotel-like building, or block of flats. The doors are all black with ornate details, and I'm struggling to find where I need to be. Two girls pass by and start laughing at me because I'm naked. I'm a little embarrassed, but ignore them. They won't go away, so I look down and now I'm wearing a dressing gown. It's purple, but I don't care I'm just happy I'm covered! The girls eventually leave. I finally get to the room and have some trouble messing around with the key, but I do get in in the end. There is no one inside. Now I'm sure this is the same dream, but it doesn't relate to the beginning, I just sort of find myself in a garden somewhere else, fully dressed. I am sat at a garden table, with my friend I's son on my lap. His son is talking like an adult, and asking me what words mean. He asks me what bank means, I tell him. Then he asks me what house means, I tell him. This goes on for a little while. I is hanging around the background somewhere.

Dream 4 - 11.51
We are in a room, is is pretty dim and I remember very red. We is me, R and I, as well as my friend D. We are watching a screen, and it's a bit like an interactive game. We throw baby toys at this screen, to kill a monster. It's very fun. One of my friends has to leave for an important meeting, I tell him to stay, because it's so fun. He resists, but eventually reluctantly agrees to miss his important meeting. The game plays recordings it took of us earlier without us knowing, we find this hilarious and laugh a lot.

There is another dream after, but I forgot it almost instantly.

What is the meaning of my moonstone dream?
I was in a building that wasn't exactly school. But there were classes. I was 20 minutes late to a class, that seemed to be of music. The teacher was familiar, as she was my music teacher many years ago. She told everyone to get out the assignment. I said that I forgot to do mine, and she just smiled and seemed okay with it. We all gathered in a circle, each sitting in a chair. She grabbed a basket and claimed it contained moonstones. She handed me the basket and said I could keep them all, or share them if I wished. I passed the basket around and everyone took one moonstone. When it got back to me, there were a few stones left, and one was sky blue. They said I could keep the rest. Then a cloud of smoke that was pink, yellow and orange, started traveling upward, emitting sparks. Then I woke up.


**Side note: I have been trying to develop my psychic abilities recently, and wonder if this is revealing something important. Thanks for all your help.

[COLOR="royalblue"]Non-Aware (Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="blue"]Partially Aware (Lucid Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="navy"]Fully Aware and Vivid (Astral Projection(OOBE)[/COLOR]

I think I fell asleep, because I set the time on my fan to stop after about an hour and I never heard it stop, although I probably lay there for about 40 minutes before falling asleep.

I did a very late attempt the time was 02:36 when I started. After that I had very vivid dreams.

[COLOR="royalblue"]I am in some strange house with many people, but then I see that it's filled with computers and guys, and a few girls actually. I remember seeing some familiar faces and talking a to them for a bit. I also remember watching a youtube video with me in it that I re watched two times because i also showed it to my friend, the video was about 8 minutes long, at least it said so on the screen.

I went out of the house to get some fresh air, and for some reason I went into another house. I tripped on the treshold into that house and for some reason I got more aware. [/COLOR][COLOR="blue"]I felt the rug with my hands and I look around the rooms in the house. I fee l that my vision is strange, it felt like I had plastic around my head and it was hard to keep the eyes open. I looked myself in a mirror and I see that my eyes looks very strange, they are cross eyed and in different colors. I rub my eyes and manage to get normal vision and I think to myself "Oh here's my chance. I want to see Iapetos! (My dreamguide).". So I run out of the house, but then... I see a yellow car with my aunt, godfather and cousins and a man with a gun pointing at them screaming at me.[/COLOR][COLOR="royalblue"]I guess my change of emotion made me lose my lucidity or something, but here I started dreaming normally again.[/COLOR]

When I wake up I look at my alarm clock and the time was now 05:37.

I'll make a new attempt tonight! Hopefully not that late though.

Had s dream that I was at school and needed money from an atm. Subplot of someone dying and gambling on their life or something.

Made a commitment that I would no longer cram for exams and actually pur the work in

[Dream is from 8:35AM or so Similar to yesterday's timing]
[The funny thing is, that i took 3 Negros again, just like yesterday... It seems to work pretty good so far, but i need to try it for 1-2 more days to see if i can get a lucid everyday with them =D]

The regular dream i was in was really surreal and dark. I was just planning to go home, but on the way i passed by many buildings that were made of metal and some people were fighting the police on the way. I started running to not make them see me, but the police noticed and thought that i was also part of the vandals. I started running fast and they didn't follow me.
I was walking again, just passing by a corner where everything reminded me of Half-Life 2. There were metal buildings everywhere and the air just had an "authority" smell. [Not sure how much sense that makes].

I noticed a huge green glowing cable that was connected to a building and the other end of it was somewhere in the sky, but i couldn't see the end of it. This building had some weird equipment and machines on top and the sky became purple... like that cable did something to it.
I just started walking towards a steep road, when i had this played out in my head:
- "Hmmm i'll must tell Aly about this weird dream when i wake up... maybe the Negro caused it... Wait what?! ... THIS dream? OH YES, I'M JUST DREAMING!"

I got lucid and almost facepalmed for myself

My first thought was to try and find out where that glowing cable goes, so i would need to fly to reach it. But first, i noticed some people doing something behind a barrier.
I walked up to them and looked around. This place was filled with trash, junk and metal parts in big piles... it was like a junkyard, but there were some clear parts where the people were doing their daily things.
A guy was cooking something on an old rusty stove and others were collecting things from the junk.
[This environment just made me think more of the ridden civilization of HL2].

Who would like to live in a place like this?

I felt somewhat sad for them, but i had something else to do, so i jumped into the air and started flapping my hands the way i always get into the air. To my surprise, i just fell back to the ground soon after.
I was wondering what might be wrong, so i did it again... and again... and again.... and i did it until i fully realized, that i'm unable to fly high for some reason now.
I could only flap my hands for a short while and it got me above, but i always fell back... controlling my flying with my mind wasn't even working. [Sad, sad...].

I tried it that way that i got into the air a little bit, then gave myself and extra push by a wall nearby... i could get higher this way, but i couldn't keep it up long eough... Once i even got up to some kind of ceiling that i almost got through, but it got dark inside it and i had to wait until my vision returned.

Well, i gave up on this after that.... As i was getting a little sad, i noticed a tiger walking by... it was funny to see in this environment, but he seemed to be at home and just sit down somewhere...

I thought that if i can't fly, then i'll have to do something else... So i decided to check out the DCs more precisely and see what they are doing. I turned around to check out the cook guy, but he wasn't there anymore. I went up to the stove and grabbed the pan and played around with it a bit, then put it down.
[I forgot to put my hand on it, to try to burn my hand with it, althrough i planned it].

I was just staring at the stove, thinking about what to do, when someone stood in front of the stove again. I looked up and it was an asian girl, who had no pants on, nothing. I looked at her weirdly as this was unfitting to the scene... but then i already knew what i'll do

I was looking at her from behind as she was cooking something, then...

Spoiler for +18:

I leaned in closer and i found it extremely sexy how her pussy was moving slowly as she was moving a bit left and right while shaking the pan. I got horny by this and without hestitation i started caressing around the area with my fingers for a bit, then i put two of my fingers inside.
Just as i did this, i got overwhelmed by an orgasmic feeling, but i kept moving my fingers...

I couldn't continue for more than some seconds, because suddenly everything got black [as it happens often with scenes like this] and i was focusing on getting back my vision now. But while everything was black, i still felt the same sentation as before, which then caused my real body to feel some kind of tingling too and it just distracted me and i thought about my real body... which then caused me to wake up fully

After a short while when i was laying in bed, i had a short dream about that i was chatting with Wolfwood on some site and i was telling him about this same dream and i told him that i got lucid in the dream because the stove turned on twice instead of one.... which is not true, but lol.

[I don't usually have sexual dreams and don't usually do anything like this in lucids either... but since i lost my ability to fly, i thought i'll give in now and do it But i can never keep it up long enough, i always feel something in real too and it distracts me and the dream collapses... sigh...]
[I rarely dream about asian people, but it's getting more usual these days... probably because of the arguments on the forum about preferences...]

I made RC, then desided summon something just before my eyes. I looked at my hand and wanted that a butterfly appeared. It appeared and it was orange and about 2-3 sm. I made second butterfly. It was the same colour. Then i decided to make TOTM and transformed one of the butterflies in the magic poishion. It was little glass bottel. I took it and drank. Felt nothing interesting but absolutely lost awarenes.