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Wednesday, 6th of March.

So, I planned on having no alarms on during the night and to give my usually scheduled WILD A brake and work on my recall a bit more avidly. Sadly about 10-15 minutes before my natural waking time a rubbish truck came and woke me up, ruining any chances of recall! Ah well, at least I know this one was not my fault

For once again, nice dream recall.

Dream 1:

Don't recall much about start of the dream, but there was some Third Person Shooter/Shmup hybrid game that people don't really liked but i decided to try it anyways. There was a team of five anime girls that basically were player characters and main part of game was third person shooter with platforming elements, but bosses were being fought like Danmaku Shmup bosses.
Shortly i got distracted from game and was having problem that my mouse wasn't working, but after really heated discussion/arguing with everyone in the room i got it fixed.
Back to the game, i was searching for some secret boss and eventually found activation hidden in some storage behind some green containers. The boss was some sort of black helicopter with green markings, i was waiting for shmup mode to start up, but it got delayed so i had to hide player character from boss for a while. Soon other helicopter(grey with red markings) arrived and this 'activation' sequence started: The player character girl sent signal to girl that was piloting the just arrived helicopter, she then sent it to other girl that was in mobile radar machine of sorts, which sent it to girl that was actually piloting spaceship, which then arrives and shmup mode starts. Dream ended shortly after that.

Dream 2:

I was playing some sort of new version of video game named Spiral Knights. Don't recall much of start of the dream but there was this new mission available which could be played once per day like other 'event' missions and had random Shadow Lair material as a reward in the end(Really rare material in game IWL). I decided to play it then sell material later. The mission was happening in some electrical place/factory and it wasn't really hard, i was playing with two other people, don't recall much about it either because of dream skips or just not much recall.
Soon i was at the end of the mission, and the end area looked alot like and had atmosphere of aurora islands area type from actual game, there was not much in terms of enemies obviously, i recall only having to deal with a few beasts, other than that there should have been that shadow lair material. I haven't found it and the other two people apparently were disconnected, i for some reason had to go to haven(central hub location in game) asap so i just disappointingly left. After doing some stuff in haven i noticed that the there was option to rejoin that mission.
I rejoined it and noticed that two other people were back, they facepalmed at me and said that material was literally at the entrance of the area. And there it was, a bit to the side from entrance gate in the niche, how i could not notice it before? It was some weird material that i haven't seen in the game before though, icon for it looked like some white symbol on cyan background, i didn't checked it's name though. Also now there was also another elevator down, i was out of mist energy(Free energy used to go down elevators) but i noticed that i apparently had around 5k of crystal energy(Energy that is bought, can be used for elevators as well), i decided to go for it.
It got us to some peaceful area and there was some puzzle with blocks. Other two players were beyond it already somehow and were challenging me to complete the puzzle 'hard way'. Can't recall much about how puzzle worked but it was something with destroyable blocks and blocks that disappear, either way i surprisingly easy done it the hard way and now was in the area.
At this point dream switched into first person mode like i was actually in game. Also i noticed that the first player that was in team was using some unknown to me white-ish armor and the other used newbie armor. Newbie dude called me 'black man' for some reason. I took a look around and it seems this place was made just for fun, there was some super bouncy area and some arsenal building and some other things that i can't recall. For some reason arsenal building was pickupable(it was turning into box of sorts), so i decided to pick it up and throw it into super bouncy area, it started bouncing around and that was pretty ridiculous.
Suddenly dream transitioned into me throwing blanket at the speakers, but after a few attempts i was back in game.
Shortly the white armor dude asked me if i could trade him that material, i said that price is around 20k crowns(Currency in Spiral Knights). I said that i sold gremlonium(One of the shadow lair materials) at that price before, so i am not going to make it much lower than that. I also asked him how much crowns he has anyways, but he gave me 'perfect snowball' material for some reason and said that it's actually edible! I was about to eat it but the dream ended.

So I broke out of jail in my dream, or something like that. It's hard to say exactly what happened, except that there were four of us riding a fat truck full of stolen shit and we were all fugitives. And being fugitives, we needed cash so we were on a fat crime spree. We actually robbed another bank right next to sheriff station but they couldn't catch us. I wasn't one of the major players, either. There were two guys who were handling most of the dirty work then there was me, who was just there. There was also a washing machine in the back of the truck and our fourth member woke up in there. I asked where he lived and he told me Victor and I told him I'd see him home. We were also passing bowls constantly which was nice cause I got to wake up stoned.

There was a star system, and there was a habitable planet with another habitable moon orbiting it. It was the future. The year was probably 2162. This dream took place in this time period. The moon was predicted, that in a couple of days, it would impact the planet. The military had proposed a plan to save their planet from the moon. They were going to push it away from the planet and destroy it. Now how they could do this, I don’t know. The second day, I witnessed a smaller impact from an asteroid. The asteroid impact was catastrophic. It didn’t wipe out the planet though. I witnessed this impact from a orbital station above the planets atmosphere. There technology was advanced greatly in this period. The dream faded. This concludes my dream.

There was a star system, and there was a habitable planet with another habitable moon orbiting it. It was the future. The year was probably 2162. This dream took place in this time period. The moon was predicted, that in a couple of days, it would impact the planet. The military had proposed a plan to save their planet from the moon. They were going to push it away from the planet and destroy it. Now how they could do this, I don’t know. The second day, I witnessed a smaller impact from an asteroid. The asteroid impact was catastrophic. It didn’t wipe out the planet though. I witnessed this impact from a orbital station above the planets atmosphere. There technology was advanced greatly in this period. The dream faded. This concludes my dream.

Non-lucid dream, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm at Disneyland, being trained as a Cast Member. I'm with a large group of other trainees, all of whom are wearing costumes and name tags. [The name tags are blue, not white, for some inexplicable reason.] A trainer is taking us through how to operate King Arthur's Carrousel. For training purposes, all the pieces of the carrousel have been taken apart and removed, so there's just a big, wide, brilliant blue, rotating disc built into the ground. It has smaller discs built into it, just like the setup for the Mad Tea Party. We walk across the disc, led by our trainer, who is explaining how everything works. We gather on the north edge of it in a crowd and listen to him talk.

The whole carrousel is back in place, and I think, This is a fifty-year-old attraction, so it deserves respect. It's amazing how well it's working after all this time. There must be just one guy left who is the only one who knows how it all works well enough to repair it.

As part of my training, I go through the queue for the carrousel, which is enclosed, elaborate, and tells a story that appears to be part of, or at least inspired by, Disney's Sleeping Beauty. As I go through, performing my job duties, I find myself on stage as part of a mini-stage show. I'm sitting down, looking out through a window, and when a particular piece of music starts playing, I suddenly realize: You're Belle! Don't forget to sparkle! The song is “Belle,” the opening song from Beauty and the Beast, and I join in the singing. I get all the way through the first verse, and when I get to the end of it, Mulan, who is standing in the audience right next to where I'm sitting at the edge of the stage, says the next line: “Good morning, Belle!” I answer, “Good morning, madame!” ...and then I realize I can't remember what comes next, so I just sort of stop.

[Dreamskip.] I'm walking away from the carrousel, saying to myself: “I didn't sign up to be a princess! I signed up to be in Operations! I don't want to be a princess! I'm no good at it, and I look more like post-haircut Rapunzel than anyone else!” [I do have short hair in real life, but it's lighter than her hair is when it's cut short.]

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Side Notes:
I've always had a lot of bizarre dreams about Disneyland, but more so when I was a kid than now. This is the first time I've ever had a dream in which I was a Cast Member.
I know why I had a dream about a carrousel. I had read this article shortly before going to bed. It uses a carrousel as an analogy for the orbit of the sun around the center of the galaxy. Also, the whole “being a princess” theme comes from a fanfic that I have in the works, and the whole “Don't forget to sparkle!” thing is a reference to a thread I've been following on a different discussion forum.

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So this was the first time where I experienced the transition from waking to NREM to REM. I'm assuming I was aware the whole time, but as always it's possible that I wasn't.

I'm laying in bed, in the darkness and certain things would wake me up up. Like all of a sudden I would be able to fee my body in bed, and hear sounds. This happened a couple of times, and finally I was asleep (I guess).

Everything was black, and I wasn't sure if I should open my eyes or just think of something to do. So I pretended to light a cigar and smoke it. The dream cigar materialized in my hand, and I lit it with my thumb. All it took was a lighter like motion. I put it up to my lips, and inhaled, and my vision got bright red. I ashed in my hands, and could feel them, but they weren't hot. Then the regular dream started forming.

I feel a flying sensation, and I see bars moving everywhere. Everything is still black and gray at the moment, so I open my dream eyes. Things started forming more and more, and I find myself climbing the side of a roller coaster at a high speed. I climbed to the top, and waited for the coaster to come by.

When it arrived I jumped up into it, and went on a wild ride. This thing was doing 90 degree drops over and over like it was nothing, and it would follow them up with super fast vertical climbs. As I spiraled down the tracks I couldn't help but think how awesome this was.

The coaster came to a stop (the dream had obviously fully formed by now) and I found myself in a jungle themed park. I had to find out who worked here because that was the most intense ride I've ever been on. I walked around a bit, and found myself in a big open waiting area. The walls were brown, and it looked like it was composed of diagonal 2x4s. There was a blonde woman wearing safari gear behind the counter.

She had the biggest smile on her face as she greeted me. I told her about how awesome this place was, and that I wanted to know a few things. She said that she would be happy to assist me.

Me: Who created this place?
Her: Mr. W.
(I was so shocked when she said this)
Me: Who's Mr. W?
Her: Why he's the wonderful person who convenes us all. We wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him.

(I wanted to tell her that she was talking about me. I was still pretty shocked that she actually knew who was pulling the strings.)

I thanked her for her time, and headed out. There was a Marriott hotel joined to the theme park. I entered, and there was two people at the desk. One Indian guy, and I'm not even sure who the other DC was, but there was a line for people waiting to check in.

I walked past them down the hallway, and the Indian guy yelled "hey". I turned around, and he told me I had to wait in line like everyone else. I walked over to the counter, and jumped over it into his little space and said "do you know who I am?" He didn't have an answer, so I filled him in. "I'm Wade", I said. He spoke back to me with this thick Indian accent. He's always doing whatever he wants in these places and it's getting on my nerves. I told him that he could shoot me if he wanted it. Then the guy pulled out his pistol and pulled the trigger.

*Click*
Him: "It's just that you seem to mess up things all the time"
Me: "Look I love this place, so I really don't have any problems"
*click*
Him: "You're always trying to do whatever you want *click* (yes he's still trying to shoot me at this point) and I'm getting sick of it.

Me while making an ottoman float: "I can do whatever I want, but that doesn't mean I didn't enjoy this place. I


I told him that I was waking up and we'd have to continue this conversation at a later date.

Some guy was tearing up my car trying to show me what happens when an accident is caused. He was trying to show me that what I did caused the damage, but it was actually him doing it. At some point he couldn't even break the wheel like he wanted to, and I was just sitting there thinking "I didn't do crap to my car, you better fix this".

I had another where I was in some medical class. Everyone was talking about oral and pharyngeal airways. Some reason I was wrong, and I felt like I wasn't ready. I left class, and came home. I saw two pairs of old shoes out in my yard. I was going to wash them and wear them the next day.

took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- no galantamine + choline
- no Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
note:
Working on getting into the routine before starting galantamine again

In my dream my husband is out of town (as he is in real life).

In my dream I asked a coworker out on a date, and he happily accepted.

See this is a perfect example of why I want to lucid dream. This is not who I am in waking life. This is not who I want to be. This is not who I choose to be.

Yes, I am lonely when my husband is out of town I get it.
I will also admit that I like this coworker ... as a coworker, as a buddy, as someone to share ideas with and to joke with.

Infidelity is a big no-no for me, and I also get that my mind therefore decided to present me with this scenario to shock me, to tell me "See I know how to push your buttons." Here is something that would really bother you.

But we already knew that! We already knew that I am struggling with self-esteem issues and with taking control over who I want to perceive myself as and deciding what is proper.

This however I know is not proper. And I refuse to think that I "need" this, so subconscious fuck off! I am going to relearn lucid dreaming, and make sure that I get to decide what I do and what is right for me.

If I am so fucking lonely tonight, why not give me a dream of my husband instead. That would have been nice, ok? But no, my subconscious, you decided to play games with me. Well, I don't appreciate that!

In an hour I need to get up and go to work and face this coworker, and forget that my subconscious asked him out on a date.

Frqgment: In my dream a real life acquaintance mine whom I usuelly see about twice a year were in a dream competition of sorts.

She was trying to learn how to "suck out" the nightmare part out of dreams.

I was trying to learn how to "suck out" lucidity out of dreams.

Upon waking I was struck by the odd use of the word "suck out". Did we mean like a succabus?

Meanwhile, my son was the one who had woken me up (at 2:30am) saying that his leopard and some other plush toy were stuck together and he did not know how it happened. I suggested he bring them to me, and I would look into it. He said he did not know where they were. Realizing that what was bothering was probably a dream fragment, I suggested he go back to sleep, and we would look for them in the morning.

I was non lucid, but i was with my sister playing some game in which one person lead a team to the other side of a set of courses. we had to defeat a boss at the end.

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I was realized I was dreaming when I huge car that took up all three lanes was on the road. I thought this is a dream! I looked around this amazing huge in future city. I thought this must be what it will be like 500 years from now and was almost amazing about how original this city looks. I didn't copy something from a movie but was very unique. I noticed a building a wanted to go into. I walked in this empty factory with gaint toys displayed on all ends of the wall. There a very loud noise coming from inside this warehouse. The sounds was so loud I thought I must be hearing this from the physical world. I lost lucidity at this point.


I became lucid while attempting a wild. I got out of bed in the dream world and walked to my shrine in my room. This is one of the most interesting places to go in my lucid dreams. A red dakini appeared clearly and then other forms of dakinis. Then ganapati appeared at the same time all of the large groups of people in the world that were distress. Ganapati watched over all the people with compassion.

I'm riding in a car, and J is in the back seat with some girl who's supposed to be her daughter...J has a mustache, and I'm like "wow I'm glad I'm not with her now, she has really fallen off" to myself. Her kid looks to be about 6 or 7 and she's talking really dirty....about "sucking cock" or something. And I'm just like WHUCK!?

So the dream ends, and I'm in ISP...I don't even think about moving...totally gonna be a DEILD right? No....freak HI gets silly. Not the demon succubi silly, but the "my dads new GF comes into the room and sits on the bed. I can feel the bed slump down, and hear ha conversation with her daughter. What the fuck are they doing here!? I break it only to find out, I was just hearing things.