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#543 - DEILD (2x chain) - 4:30AM

I took 400mcg Huperzine-A with 600mg Choline during WBTB

I tried I WILD and catch myself after having dosed off. I relax into the vibrations and then roll out of my body. I am blind and I make my way out the back door. The air feels cool but I still cant see so I crawl around. Then my dream eyes actually open but I am fooled into a sort of FA. I am starting at some grass growing in the driveway and I think I am actually sleepwalking. I feel embarrassed and look around to see if the neighbors noticed me. I heading inside and see both my dogs are running around lose so I let them in the house. I lay back down in bed and my wifes family show up. I'm like wtf guys I'm sleeping. They just got back from a trip and want to show my wife stuff they bought. I am super pissed off that they are ruining my sleep. I am trying to lucid dream and it's 3am and they have the light on just talking loud. I say some really meant things until they finally leave. I start to worry that I made them too mad. I said I should have just taken what happened and been calm about it. Then I remember it's ok because none of this really happened. I remember this is actually a typical dream after WBTB and LDS. That thought wakes me a bit.

I DEILD again. Vibrations. This time I shoot straight up like a rocket. I enjoy floating in the darkness for a second then I ground myself. My dream eyes open again. I see a green field with trees but its a low res video game. I think I must be looking at a TV screen in waking life. Maybe I actually opened my eyes. I close them.Then I remember the last dream. I remember that sometimes opening my eyes in the dream state feels physical but its not. Plus its getting me out of the darkness. I open my eyes again noting how how physical is seems but I trust myself and just do it. I am back in the video game. I start walking forward. Since I am in a video game I decide to look at my hand like I do in VR. They look dark and undefined. Ok whatever. There are some hooded figures that look like they are casting spells at me. None of this scene is particularly interesting so I just rush forward until it all goes away. I don't even notice the scene fading out.

I am in a large open area but it really dark. There is a floating female head in front of me (think Gorn). Her face is attractive so I kiss her quickly on the lips. She smiles. Then another appears more on my left. I kiss her too but then she bites my chin. I am shocked and pull her bottom jaw open. Her jaw splits in two. I say eew and toss it away. The first head moves to my right side and now I am standing in a restaurant. I see Alyssa Millano sitting at a table having a conversation. She wont look at me so I do something to get her attention. I see an empty dinner plate on the table. I notice its a deep blue color. I put it on my head and balance it. I say look I am balancing a plate on my head look. Alyssa continues to ignore. The floating head laughs. The plate falls off on a table full with a group of people on my right. The plate rolls of and hits the window but nothing breaks. Alyssa ignore me still so I sit next to her and put my arm around her. Nothing. She is just talking way to some woman across the table. I poke her ribs. She jumps a bit and her voice cuts off for second but she still continues to ignore me. I poke her a few more times noticing how real it all feels. She still wont even look at me so I grab her face with both hands and force her to look at me. I ask her something I don't recall. Her answer is gibberish but I feel satisfied I got some response. I move on. The floating head now a permanent companion follows me.

I see something strange on a mans table. I ask the floating head what is THAT? It look like octopus tentacle with bits of blue and green. When I get closer is changes to some sort of raw meat that doesn't look all that odd. It's package like it was just purchased from a grocery store but its warm and looks like it's going bad. I apologize to the man and tell him it looked like he had something crazy on his plate. I wake up.

I make a DJ entry and use the bathroom. I WILD a few times but at soon as I latch onto the start of the dream I lose it all. I finally give up and sleep the rest of the morning uneventfully.

Didn't get that much sleep tonight.

I'm in the TV room upstairs and I'm talking with dad. Mom comes in and joins us.

Notes: The family except mom spent time in the TV room upstairs yesterday.

5th November 2020 (DFLN)

Fragment:

At the end of a dream I was with H, watching a video of a guy in a labcoat mixing something together in some ceramic mugs he'd previously joined together (ceramic seamless welding technique or something).

The labcoat made me do a RC but for some reason I didn't focus enough on it and so I didn't realise I was dreaming.

Fragment:

In a room, in our house? I remember my paintings are all here. Some of them are stacked on top of each other and I notice one of the "eye" paintings is lying atop the pile. One of the other paintings in the same style/series is nearby or under that one.

7th November 2020

Fragment:

Left it too long and recall was poor. At an apartment building which goes quite a way up. I'm in a floor high up with someone else and we are trying to keep social distancing up while doing something? But eventually we end up breaking it and I think I was there to do some kind of trade or exchange.

Possibly from a different segment or dream but in some other part I recall being with mom and dad, on a highway or something. It's night time and I'm not sure if we actually were in a car at any point but I don't recall other cars or people. There's a junction or bridge over another highway section but the bridge is damaged/ruined and is actually mostly rubble. I remember street lights and that sort of thing being on.

Fragment:

Earlier fragment. I'm a level 60 death knight character in WoW and apparently I can't level up any further (my experience bar is absent). The highest level characters I remember seeing are level 70 and I remember seeing an undead player character that had an elite portrait frame.

I remember getting on a slow gryphon and flying around an area very much like Dun Morogh but on further thought may have been mixed with Wintersrping.

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Notes:

- Recall actually hasn't been particularly poor or anything lately, even with early morning working days, but most of the time I've been far too tired when I wake up to push myself to actually write down the recall and by the time I have a chance I've usually left it too late.

- I think my RC was a bit weak in part because in the dream I was feeling a bit self-conscious while doing it. Generally I don't feel so self-conscious anymore when doing RCs when H is also around, but I guess some leftover part of that still persists for the moment.

- The eye paintings have had some special and unspoken significance to me lately. I don't know why exactly, as I also never really thought "I really love eyes" but they certainly seem to have some sort of appeal to me, as I have been noticing it's a frequent subject matter in my work.

- The ceramic joining thing made complete sense to me while I was dreaming and even after waking up it seemed to make sense and I remember thinking "what a good way of fixing ceramic objects", but I slowly realised it actually didn't make any sense and in itself could have been its own dream sign.

I dreamt about being in a place that is meshed up from multiple universes
in an abandoned house I found little horses, I petted one of them
things happened and one of em run away into what was a mesh of an imperial star destroyer
then on a bus I talked to another on about school education
it was surreal

I woke up ... its 11 am , I slept way too much again

I'm in a group with some of my classmates. I remember Gabriel mostly. We walk and pick things up from the ground. I find a lot of carrots and other vegetables that I dig up. We come to a kitchen and I have already prepared a potato soup with carrots. There is supposed to be a food contest and my physics teacher Karin the judge. I prepare the soup and serve it. Alice has made a cup of water and serves it. Karin asks if she has only made a cup of water and Alice says yes in a way as if she doesn't care. They repeat this three times. The water is apparently hot and I tell Karin that I maybe should have made the soup cold so that there would be a contrast to the warm water. Karin says that it was just what she was about to tell me. Alice is putting some raspberries in a bowl and it looks very good. She puts the water on a brick and it suddenly looks professional.

Notes: The digging is just like in Rise of The Tomb Raider. The dungeon was just like the one in the game. I had a lesson with Karin yesterday.

I'm playing Zilong in in a game. I'm about to deny Lord from being taken but I couldn't because my vision is deceiving me and I can't see properly. The rest of my team comes and there is a laser beam that kills all of my team except me. I hear some voices that are complaining about how the laser got way too good in the latest patch.

Notes: I played Zilong with Diego yesterday.

I had a dream where I was at an apartment with my mom and I had to go outside to do something. There was also a celebration of some kind going on. I left when for some reason I decided to find a car to sit in for some reason. I sat on theo (ex boyfriend who I am on good terms with irl) on accident and noticed that Edynn was in the front seat and vicky from the fairly odd parents was there too. they told me to get out and that they didn't want anything to do with me anymore. Theo cited the fact that we were in a relationship and I didn't care as a reason. I couldn't articulate more than just screaming, specifically at edynn. I actually got so mad I tried scratching up her face, resulting in theo being harmed the most. I got out, told my mom about it, and she seemed more adamant about advertising that there was a two bedroom apartment we were gonna move into. I left and wandered around aimlessly for a while.

I remember being in a hotel room and saw the notorious B.I.G there with me. I said something along the lines of "wow you really do come across as big". he took offense to it, thinking I was referring to his weight, I clarified that I meant in regards go his presence and energy and then he got really hyped and started knocking stuff over and then left. Cut to a school. I was there with all the friends and students I had talked to in school throughout the years. I had a diary and nicknames. I remember seriously upsetting Jasmine and then apologizing. We stayed in dorms that resembled one star hotel rooms with the same sickening green color as the two star hotel I am in as of writing this. Shawn, a friend I used to know from elementary through middle school, had run into a warehouse after breaking down and being insecure about his musical skills. I eventually went back home and talked to my mom and decided we had to do something over at a different part of the building. We drove there, at one point talking about conspiracy theories and how I personally didn't get them, especially how they apparently gave people the urge to defect to remote locations. We made it to the building and then immidiately noticed the structure of the school location was flipped. There was a lightswitch that my mom got fixated on at the end of a hallway at an upper floor of the building. I was trying to get her attention when I saw someone walking towards the stairs next to us on a lower level. I noticed that there was a shoe replacing this person's head, freaked out, said "mom, these people are made of feet, we gotta go" and noticed that her head had turned into a shoe as well. The shoe person below me noticed my presence and ran full speed towards me as my mom stood mindlessly facing the lightswitch. I was attacked and then I woke up.

Using Alarm DIELD I drift into sleep watching colored lines moving about. I imagine the sensation of walking and eventually I am standing in a well lit room. A woman comes in from another room. It is a girl I have known for decades in real life, but she is young here. I realize this is a dream at first but my awareness of that kind of fades as the dream goes on. I think how she is young and not really as pretty as I thought. I see something on the ground moving. I go look at it. It is a big black widow the size of a mouse. In my fascination looking at it I begin to forget this is not a dream. I go back and forth some times knowing it is not real, and being actually concerned about the spider. the fact that I was concerned shows my lucidity was waning. I summoned a metal bowl and placed it over the spider. It started pushing the bowel along the floor. I told her to get me a plate that I could slide under it. Again less lucid, I could have summoned a plate. She brings me some weird object that is not a plate. I wonder why I am doing this? What do I intend on doing with a mouse sized spider? I could put it in my room to eat bugs? (see not very clear thinking) No, I do not want a black widow in my room, it could end up biting me. It is going to get out. I throw my phone on it! Crunch. Why did I do that? How cruel. And why my phone? It starts to move. there is my phone on top of it.
My alarm is going off for the next snooze cycle. That is why the phone was involved.

Notes: I woke up 45 minutes ago and tried to remember my dreams but didn't succeed. I tried the new mantra "kom ihåg" (remember) and had a lucid on the second night. I have done more RC during daytime because I've wanted to have a lucid again. I haven't had any lucids in a very long time now.

I'm in Sturkö and do my reality check. It works perfectly but I'm only half lucid. I don't remember my dream goals but want to fly really much. I try to run and fly off but I only fall to the ground when I jump into the air. I suspect that it isn't going well because it was some weeks ago I had my latest lucid. I go to the water by the bridge and know that I will be able to fly if there is an obstacle under me that I "can't" go into (the water in this case). I jump out over the water and I am able to fly, but not very controlled. I look at the scenery and enjoy the view. I see the sun and the water in combination with the blue sky. It's like I can't get enough of it. I come across some ducks by a big stone in the water. I remember a dream when I fed some small birds and try to do the same thing here. I take out my right hand and suspect them to fly into it. Two of them try to but they are too big so only one fit. It's not as pleasant as I thought it would be. They are pretty agressive and are disrupting my calm mind.

Notes: This is what I love. Just calm flying, feeling completely free from all troubles and problems with a beautiful scenery.

I am exploring when I come to a building kind of like an apartment complex. Suddenly I am observing third person and things shift to a cartoon like mode. Some people are arguing and in a corny fashion someone pulls a lever and a wall opens up. Out comes a giant red crocodile about the size of a pick up truck. It lumbers forward slowly. That scene is replaced by me being in a body again and continuing walking around. Not fully lucid but not taking this the least bit serious. I kind of realize none of it is real.
I find a group of women who are wanting to go out partying. Someone suggests that there is a dark rave going on. I take this to mean Goth. The character Gena Meronie from 30 Rock says that is stupid and that they will not go. I follow them. I am not attempting any sort of control and just want to see what random stuff my mind pulls up. eventually I see a car ramp leading down into a parking garage and that some sort of party is there. I go down the ramp and peopple are charging $5- to get in. I see the people inside are Goth. I look back and the women have followed me. I say "this must be that dark rave." Gena is mad and says "we can not go there, I will be hubliated!" That is not a typo. I noted the made up word.
A woman dressed in a red Goth gown comes out and hangs like a bat from the ceiling above the door men. She pulls a lever and the back wall starts to open. Guess what is behind it? A giant red crocodile. People start running. Not me. This is clearly a dream. I note that it is shifting into a cartoon mode much like Scooby Doo. Very amusing! I wonder why the heck my mind is fixated on red crocks? I am now 3rd person again. It is so much like a Scooby cartoon, I am chuckling inside. The view is down some sort of dungeon corridor half filled with water. there is a narrator but I am not sure what he said. I focus on the croc, and another comes (giggle) then a third is coming at me. (giggle, how the hell do 3 giant crocs fit in the hallway!) Then a big tiger Joins them! There are now 3 giants cartoon crocs and a cartoon tiger charging at me. Oh my, how intimidating (giggle). My alarm goes off as this was an Alarm DEILD. I wake up fairly happy.

I had a dream last night where I was working for a catering company and was serving as bartender at an event in the back yard of a really nice house. The house was a mansion with a terraced back yard that backed-up to a large lake or a river. I was working at the party with an athletic middle aged lady with shoulder length blonde hair and girl in her late teens or early twenties who had long blond hair that was pulled into a pony tail. The middle aged lady was in charge of the even and the girl who was her daughter was taking turns passing around finger food on a tray and then going back around and picking up empty plates and glasses. Sometimes she would also come-up to the bar where I was working and get a fresh drink for guests with empty glasses. I think the dream was set in the present time because the woman, girl, and me were all wearing masks and the party was outdoors and everyone was practicing social distancing.

The house and yard that backed-up to the water were beautiful and well maintained. I do not know whose house it was, but the yard looked like the grounds you would see at a palace. There was a boat house and dock that went out into the water at the end of the back yard and there were some really nice boats that were tied to it. While working at the bar, I would see guests to the party come and go in boats sometimes.

While I was tending the bar, I would see the woman walking around keeping an eye on everything and putting food out for the guests to eat. Sometimes I would see her keeping an eye on me. A few times she would come behind the bar when no-one was waiting for a drink to let me know things I was doing that she didn’t like and I needed to improve on. Sometimes she would come to have me make a drink for a guest. She definitely seemed to have very high expectations and seemed a little difficult to work for.

When the party was over, I got to go into the house to take things from the kitchen back to a green 1980’s Silverado with a camper top with the catering company log on it was parked in a remote corner near a utility building out of site from the mansion and grounds where the party had been. The house was one of the nicest I had ever been in with everything inside of it super nice and expensive looking. It looked like the inside of a mansion you would pay to take a tour of. Whenever I was in the house, the woman or girl always seemed to be nearby and made sure I was sticking to the task at hand and not looking around.

When we had everything out of the house and back in the truck, the lady told me to go ahead and get in the cab since I didn’t have anything else to do and she didn’t want me standing around. I open the passenger side door and sit down on the brown vinyl bench seat and then roll down the window and take off my mask because it is a little stuffy in the truck.

Not long after I start looking at my cell phone, the blonde girl is at the passenger side door. She tells me to scoot over to the middle and then opens the door and sits down in the passenger seat. As soon as she closes the door, she quickly rolls-up the window I and opened and then tells me to put on my mask and then tells me to buckle-up as she puts on her seat belt. I pick-up my phone to look at it, and girl tells me I need to keep it in my pocket and tells me that I need to sit-up strait and keep my hands in my lap like she is doing. I guess this is my first time working an event for them, because the girl is explaining to me how her mother expects us to act when we are waiting for her in the truck. She tells me that when we are waiting in the truck after an event that her mom expects us to sit up strait and stay still and look strait ahead because she wants us to look professional in case anyone sees us. She says we all have to keep our masks on whenever we are on the location where an even takes place incase someone sees us.

After we have been waiting for a few more minutes, I ask her why it is taking her mom so long to load everything back in the truck. She tells me she and her mom finished loading the truck before she got in with me and that her mom has gone back to talk with the hosts and make sure nothing was left behind. She tells me we probably won’t be going anywhere anytime soon because her mom usually spends at least 10-20 minutes with them and making sure everything has been cleaned-up. I start to slump down in the seat and the blond girl nudges me with her hand and tells me I need to sit up strait. I then turn my head towards to passenger side window to see if I can see what her mom is doing and she reminds me I need to be looking strait ahead. I them just focus on the water a few hundred yards in front of us wile the girl and I carry on a conversation and she gives me a heads-up about other things her mother will expect from me and keeps talking about other employees who either left or were fired because they didn’t meet her mother expectations. Whenever I am not sitting up strait or looking strait ahead, the blonde girl corrects me.

After we have been waiting in the cab for a really long time, her mother is finally opening the driver side door. I turn to look at her, and she tells me I need to just look strait ahead. I look towards her again when she is trying to start the truck, and she reminds me that I need to look strait ahead and sit up strait until we are out of there driveway. When she gets the tuck started and is putting it in gear, she reminds both me and her daughter that we need to look strait ahead until we are out of the driveway. She says she knows we want to look at the house and grounds while we are driving out, but she is afraid the hosts might see us starting and gawking.

I have to resist the temptation to look around during the drive out their really long driveway and not turn to look at the house or fountains and statues in the front yard. When we get to the end of the driveway, she reminds us both to keep looking strait ahead and then makes a left turn onto the road. After we get to the end of the road and make a right turn onto the next road, she tells us we can now take our masks off and look wherever we want. The daughter quickly takes her mask off and I take mine off right afterwards while the woman keeps hers on since she is driving. When she gets to a stop sign, she takes her mask off and then tells us that she will find a place to stop so she can get some gas and we can use the bathroom and stretch since we have a long drive ahead of us. As she keeps driving, she is telling us that the hosts seemed really happy with how the event went and thank us for both for working hard and making sure that the guests and hosts were well taken care of. She then told me that the hosts had mentioned to her that several people told them I made great drinks and she was happy to have me on their team. As the woman kept driving, I saw there were communities with golf courses on both sides of the road. I figured we were getting closer to town and a bathroom and stretch break.

When we got to a red light, the woman put the truck in park and then leaned over me and her daughter to pull a map out of the glove box. When the light turned green, she went through it and then pulled off the side of the road to look more closely at the map. I asked if she needed me to get her directions on my phone and she told me she was old school and like using a map. When done studying it, she leaned back over me to put in back in the glove box. After she was done, she sniffed around the interior of the truck and then told me and her daughter that she thought she smelled poo and told us to check our shoes. I looked down at my black shoes and saw that I had stepped in something.

I held off on saying anything until I heard her daughter say “not me”. I then reluctantly told her I had stepped in something. She then groaned really loud and started interrogating me. She asked me if I had checked me shoes before going into the house. When I told her no, she asked me the last time I knew my shoes were clean. When I told her I hadn’t looked at them since getting to the event, she slammed the truck in drive and speed to the first empty parking lot she could find lecturing me on how irresponsible it was not to be checking my shoe and the I should have known to always check them before going into someone’s house.

When she found a parking lot, she speed into a parking place and then slammed the tuck in park and turned it off. She told me she had to call the hosts to make sure no one had tracked into their house and that she would have to pay to clean anything I tracked on. As she was getting out, I started to undo my seatbelt to get out and clean my shoe when she snapped “stay” and then slammed her door shut.

As I watched her pacing around the parking lot and taking on the phone, her daughter was taking her turn lecturing me about how irresponsible I was not to check my shoes and that she couldn’t believe I was that careless when we were working at such a nice house with expensive things. She also suddenly noticed how bad the truck smelled and was telling me how gross it was that she was having to smell it.

I woke-up from this dream while the woman was still pacing around talking on her phone, not knowing if I had tracked anything into the mansion or if I was in the clear.

I am in a room and there is a sweet little talking ferret and some other talking critter, perhaps a squirrel. I am not exactly lucid. I know this is a dream, sort of, not fully. There is a plot going on but I do not recall what lead up to this. The ferret has agreed to do something very heroic! Perhaps it is to take a message secretly to someone or perhaps it is to sneak into an enemy tent and steal something important. He is now in a tube or something like a cut off pant leg and can not get out, and we need to escape the room. He turns around and burst out of the open end! It is a great moment of triumph and he is so proud of his smartness and how brave he is! What a good ferret. Let's go! We run out of the room and are along a road side. We start running. There is a guard rail on my right side and I keep between him and the road so he will not get hit. There is a hill on the left. The place he needs to go is down that hill up ahead. We get to the trail head where he must do this brave thing. There is chain link between us and the road. He is now clinging onto the chain link and could end up in the road. I take him protectively in my arms. He tells me he is afraid to do the thing. He is so sweet and cute. How could I have asked such a darling helpless creature to do something so dangerous? The dream ends here.

I'm in a big shop with Albin. We look at different wares we want to buy. We walk to the ice cream and Albin says that a Piggelin costs 7 kr here and 8 kr at a different place. He wants to buy some ice
cream here and make a profit by selling it elsewhere. I tell him that it is a very bad deal and that he can get it much cheaper if he buys a big package. There is one with 30 Piggelines in it and the price/ice cream is 3 kr here. I tell him it is a much better deal. There is a package over the last one with 100 ice creams in it with a price/ice cream of 1.2 kr. I tell him that it is a fantastic deal and we grab a package. The package is full of frost and we can't quite see the package actually. I take away the frost and see that it is not Piggelin but a smaller twister ice cream. We put it back and walk away. I see Sezer and take up my phone. It has some weird phone case on it that looks like a balloon. I inspect my phone for a while and notice that I have really long hair. I wrap my hair around my hand that is holding the phone. New fragment. I'm in the jungle on a branch high up in a tree. I am adult and see another person that looks like me higher up but with a lot of beard. Lara Croft is above us and my other self is swinging with her in the branches. He's holding her and is doing some dangerous tricks. I'm just a spectator and doesn't have a body any longer.

Notes: My cousin bought a Piggelin four days ago. Edvard made a balloon phone case for some weeks ago. I played Rise of the Tomb Raider with Lara Croft yesterday. There is a character named Jacob in the last part that looks like me a bit. He was the other me in the jungle branches.

I'm in military training with a heavy backpack on me in the forest. There are a lot of people in front of me and two leaders just behind me. I try to run to the others but it's so heavy and hard. The leaders use a word I have never heard before that means that I will soon fail and be sent home. I am able to join the other troops in front of me. My old classmate Eric runs in front of me and he hasn't got a backpack on him. I understand that he actually doesn't want to be here and doesn't care about the rules. He turns his head around and I greet him but he greets someone else. I am ignored. We keep on running and come to a settled town with some people. There are three brown, big dogs playing with each other. Dina is running in front of me and all the troops gather in a circle. The leaders talk about something but everyone is unfocused and doesn't care.

Notes: I saw a video of military training in the forest some months ago. Yesterday I read about the Vietnam War for a school project. I thought it was very intresting and saw some army pictures. Me and Eric saw each other two weeks ago but there was a weird turn where it would be awkward to greet him so we just ignored each other.

I'm in Håkansson's house upstairs. There is trouble with Oskar. I go downstairs and see David in the kitchen. He is cleaning the table and I ask if I can help him. He says yes. I walk to the sink in order to wash my cloth. Peter comes and wants some water. I fix the water but there is an uneven pressure and Peter isn't satisfied.

Notes: I cleaned up after Håkansson's slept here some nights ago.

Woody and Buzz Lightgear from Toy Story are having a verbal fight about something. Buzz Lightgear betrays Woody and disappears. New fragment. There is an army of small Buzz Lightgears of different forms and colors. There is a Shhhhh Lightgear that hushes everyone quiet when they speak. There is a bubble Lightgear that is rolling in a bubble and much more. There are some big Buzz Lightgears that are talking to the small ones and Shhhh Lightgear is kicked out on the big ones because he hushes all the time.

Notes: The deceit from the last dream hasn't left me yet.

Notes: I woke up 15 minutes before my alarm went and made a challenge that I would be able to enter a dream before the alarm.

Two small cupcakes on a table are fighting with swords. One of them gets sliced but survives.

Notes: Haha, that was funny.

Trying to get back into Alarm Deild, never got to a dream, but did stay conscious after the body slept. This left me in a darkness Shapes moved darkly in the background, I could influance them and create images of birds. Suddenly a wonderful eye covering much of my vision open out of the blackness. Magical and detailed. It was only there for a few seconds.

I had a dream last night that was set at my junior high school where I think I was in junior high.

It is the end of the school day and I am waiting for my carpool ride to come and pick me up but I don’t see the car I am expecting anywhere in the line of cars. Soon a fat girl with really long brown hair is coming towards me. She says she has been looking all over for me and reminds me that today is the day her little sister has brownie scouts and her mom is already here.

We walk towards a sport field where a bunch of girls in brownie scout uniforms are playing different games. She walks up to a really big leady who also has dark hair and tell her she has found me and then asks for the keys. The woman who I figure is her mother hands her the keys and then she leads me into the parking lot and then toward a really big 1980’s general motors station wagon that is white with wood trim. When we get to the passenger side door, she unlocks it and tells me we are both riding up front and that I am sitting in the middle as she points to the dark brown bench seat.

After I get in, she tells me she needs to take the keys back to her mom and then leaves me in the station wagon by myself. While I am waiting alone in the old station wagon, I notice something really stinks but figure it is just the station wagon since it is old and the interior is dirty.

Soon I see the fat girl walking back towards the station wagon. When she gets to the passenger side door, she opens it up and then tells me that I need to go ahead and buckle-up because her mom expects everyone to put their seatbelt on as soon as they get in the car. She then sits down in the passenger seat to my right, buckles her seatbelt, and then closes the passenger side door.

When then spend a long time waiting in the station wagon wile her sister and her friends are still running around on the field. It is not very comfortable waiting with her. Even though the station wagon is really big, the girl is fat and her fat body is pressing up against me.

Eventually, I see her mom leading 5 girls in their brownie uniforms towards to station wagon. One of the girls is chubby and has dark hair and I figure that is the little sister of the girl sitting beside me. When they get to the station wagon, the mom opens the back door and the fat sister and two of her friends sit down there and then she opens the back gate and the other two girls sit down in the jump seat in the way back. The mom reminds everyone to buckle-up and then closes the tail gate and back door and then goes to talk to another mother who is already in the driver seat of a minivan filled with brownie scouts.

While she is talking to her friend, all of the little girls start singing songs they had learned that day and the fat girl beside me then joins in with them. I cannot decide if is it worse having to be pressed up against the fat girl or having to listen to all of then sing annoying songs.

While we are still waiting for the mother to get in, one of the girls in the backseat notices something smells after they have finished another really annoying song. The 5 girls in the back seat and way back all talk about the smell and decide it is me since I am the only boy in the car and boys smell. They all then start singing the jingle bells song saying that I smell. The fat girl sitting to my right starts laughing when they sing it and eventually starts singing it with them. I try to tell them that it isn’t me, that it smelled when I got in but they keep singing the song and getting on my nerves.

Finally, I hear the minivan start-up and then move forward out of the parking space. I then see the big woman go over and check on two brownie scouts who are still waiting for their ride and then stays with them until someone comes to pick them up and talks with the driver of the car for a few minutes. When the car drives away, she is finally walking towards the station wagon we are all waiting in. The five girls in the back are now getting on my nerves doing who stole the cookies from the cookie jar and getting on my nerves even more when one of them says I stole the cookies and I have to join in.

When she gets to the driver side of the station wagon, she opens the driver side door and then plops down in the driver seat to my left. I have to move my body closer to her daughter so she can have enough room to get in. When she closes her door, I am squished between the fat mother and daughter. Both of them are pressed-up against me and I have no personal space because they are both fat. The mother talks to all the girls to decide the order for dropping everyone off and I am about to die when she talks because her breath is really bad and my nose is right by her. I know that regardless of the order she drops everyone off, I will be stuck in the middle of the front seat between then until the very end since they live across the street from me.

When I am about at my wits end having the fat woman talk to the girls and breath in my face, she finally puts the keys in the ignition. At first the station wagon doesn’t want to start, but after spending a few minutes pumping the accelerator and turning the key the fat woman gets it started and we pull out of the parking lot. There is a New Kids tape playing in the tape deck and the fat girl sitting next to me and the 5 girls in the back all sing along with the tape while I ride in misery and really wish I had a Walkman so I can tune them all out.

After a couple of songs, we are at the end of the tape. The 5 girls in the back start singing another brownie song with the fat woman who is driving while the fat girl in the passenger seat leans forward and looks though the glove box for a new tape to put in the tap deck. As she is in front of me taking the New Kids tape out of the tap deck, I see her pause and sniff and then look down at my feet on the floorboard. She then loudly tells everyone that I have stepped in doggie doo. The five girls in the back immediately stop singing and start saying different rhymes about me stepping in doodoo and then start singing the jingle bells song again while I just want out of the car. When we get to a stop light, the fat woman sitting next to me gets in my face and starts getting after me for not being more careful watching where is was stepping and for getting doggie doo in her car while her nasty breath is torturing my noise.

When the light finally turns green, the station wagon stalls out and the fat lady keeps turning the key and pumping on the accelerator but cannot get the car to stay running. I woke up from the dream while she was trying to get it started a people behind us were honking because the light was green but she wasn’t moving.