I went on a bus ride with a bunch of obstacles. It starts off at the train station where I see my friend, who's a model, and his friend stopping someone whose leaning forward as they're trying to end it all because they're struggling with their identity. I get uncomfortable and start running back home, I hear a Dutch YouTuber whom I occasionally watch talk in his podcast as he's talking the person at the train station out of it. It starts getting dark and stormy when I think I'm walking into the street home until I check Google Maps which, after it keeps moving around due to the raindrops on my screen, finally shows me that I ended up on a random island on the opposite side of the direction home. A bus then stops in front of me, it's my friend's theatre coach sitting in one of those small buses I took twice when I was in Leusden. Also reminds me of those special education buses from when I was younger. He told me that he's going to Utrecht and that I can join them, saying I'd have to pay half of my bus fare. I enter the bus in the front seat as he starts driving off. The bus is full with students. We enter this neighborhood in Kanaleneiland (very similar to the route of my special education bus commute now that I think about it) where we see a bunch of children playing on the street, the community police officers move the first children away, but a bunch of stubborn children stay on the road, even after the bus driver honked. The bus driver then carefully drives past every child like a game of Frogger. After getting out of that neighborhood, we drive through a difficult forest path without any roads. Things go smooth until we end up having to cross a lake in which the bus drives straight into the water. The bus driver then asks me to help him kick the windshield off. After several attempts, the water pressure does the job for us as the bus slowly sinks into the lake. We then defy the law of physics by moving our weight to the back of the bus and balance out the amount of water in the bus in order for us to drive forward. A fat kid stands up from his seat (the bus driver and I were the only ones doing things) and joins us as he goes to the back of the bus to balance the weight. I then get out of the bus and push the bus from behind and it successfully drives out of the lake. Another passenger joins me to save a small trailer that contained a basket full of pets that was attached to the bus. (Why the basket with pets wasn't just in the bus itself is beyond me. We recover the basket and get back in the bus where we stop by a student dormitory, we drop off all the cats and hamsters that were in the basket and reunite them with their owners and families. All the pets from the bus ride are nervously shaking from the extreme bus ride. I then ask if this was the final destination to which the students look at me with a smug face and tell me there's more. Unfortunately for them, I woke up.
I had a dream in which I commanded someone’s attention for a moment. They were the one in a hallway. It was a woman. When I got their attention the dream was over so I don’t know what happened then.
We (?) were at a grocery store when we heard the sound of planes overhead. everyone at the store suddenly stopped where they were and just gave eachother looks of worry. i looked up toward the cieling and saw the sound of the planes led to it cracking and releasing a bit of debris, but it was still not collapsing. The rumbling got louder until i huddled on the ground and heard a huge explosion. i saw a flash of light and was dead. I was a student at a large university, but I was a bit of a loser and this was apparently known to everybody on campus. This university was at the forefront of climate change research. The architecture was large-scale and fatalist, but mixed with certain organic additions. The school's president issued a warning that we all needed to make our way to the underground shelter immediately and bring with us any food or water we could find. .... I was running along with my classmates down this ~20ft wide spiral staircase. although the steps were normally sized, the overall structure was very large. my classmates were all taller than me. As we ran, we heard announcements through the loudspeakers telling us to bring water. I entered the shelter (i was one of the last to enter) through a square opeining and was greeted by a straight set of stairs leading downwards into the dark. On the left, there were tables built into the walls as far down as i could see and each sat 2 students looking downwards. each of them had a plate in front of them of brussels sprouts (?) and carrots diced. most of them were obese. the table closest to the opeining was free, but i didnt know if i was allowed to take that seat as it may hve been reserved. I was told by the girls seated below it that the seats were not taken. The school's president was giving a speech about how this meal of brussels sprouts and carrots was all that survived from the cafeteria, and we would not have any more food to eat. I went to sit down and I got the feeling that I would have a revelation. .... I was on a roller coaster. it was going through a tunnel and other roller coasters were coming onto the track from different directions but did not crash.
Another subaquatic dream last night. I was underwater, and there were a bunch of women nearby returning from a pearl diving expedition, I think. In other words, they had been underwater for quite a while looking for pearls. On their way back to the surface they were singing. I could hear their singing, and reflected on the ability of sound to travel underwater. I think I followed them back to the surface, and then felt like I wanted to be able to join them in their underwater exploits. Apparently these women weren't fully subaquatic, because they had to come to the surface. They had learned to hold their breath for long periods of time though, and/or to build up amazing lung capacity, to the point where they could be underwater for a while and still be able to sing. I decided I wanted to do this too, and started practicing holding my breath and going under water. I also dreamed about whales, and a boat on a body of water with large waves. I think I read somewhere about water symbolizing the subconscious, and I suppose it is possible that these attempts to join the subaquatic people are representative of my desire to lucid dream. I also have been planning to learn to SCUBA dive, which might be part of it as well. Honestly, I like to hope that the "Subaquatics", as I have come to call them, are part of a persistent realm.
I was chaperoning a school field trip with my husband where the kids went to observe a prison. The prison guards escorted the kids and us to an upstairs viewing area behind chain link fence with barbed wire on top. the kids sat down in front of the fence and were observing the prisoners while my husband found a spot to peek through as well. The kids were having a good time and talking and pointing, but they were unusually well behaved. Even though the viewing area was ~ 12-15 feet off the ground, we were on the same level as some of the prisoner's heads since they were abnormally tall. The guard begins to give a speech, but the dream changes.... me and my husband are at the jail's waiting area/loby alone. We are sitting together on a bench. the area is in an open air patio with entrances to the prison on our left and right. In front of us are some vending machines with a large oak tree providing canopy. I begin to see an hotel room out of my left eye as if im slowly opeing my eye while sleeping. This makes me think im dreaming. the rest of the dream switches to the hotel room scenario where i am laying down in a bed and have the familiar tingly feeling of being semi-paralyzed. i think to myself 'since im already awake, i should try AP once again'. I do the rocking technique, but something very strnge happens. Just like I was seeing the image of the hotel room out of my left eye as if i was opening it, I began to see the image of my room since I had begun to open my real eyes. So I was seeing the dream and my actual room superimposed on eachother. In the dream and irl i began to sit up and leave my body laying down. the dream faded, but as soon as I was done sitting up, my astral body slingshotted back into my physical body After this, I felt like my physical body was not calibrated with my astral body: I felt about half a milimeter further ahead than my physical body, and the tingling sensation remained in the back of my head. The feeling is gone now that i have written this, though my head still feels a bit tingly.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP I am between sleep and wakefulness and I hear my dogs barking outside, when suddenly I wake up with the sound of my front door slamming and I feel scared. I am confused and think that the only other person in the house is my mother on the ground floor and she would not go outside in the middle of the night for any reason, which worries me even further. Then I actually wake up and realize most likely no one slammed the door and also that my mother isn't in my home at all, it is Riverstone who is sleeping downstairs and I just had a false awakening. My dogs are also quiet, so I don't know if them barking was also part of the dream. With Riverstone on a van going up a road and the engine is not managing to pull it up. He is driving and he steps on the accelerator to try to reach the top of the hill, but on a curve he loses control and the van rolls over to the side of the road. As we tumble, it gets dark and Riverstone loses his consciousness. I shake him hard and he doesn't wake up. I am really worried. When he finally does, we are in bed at my mom's house and he asks me why am I shaking him up like that. I am confused and tell him about my dream. He says that I am just remembering a traumatic event and I say no way, I don't recall it ever happening in the past. He says it did, we had that accident. I feel more confused about what's real or not. Then we go to the kitchen for a snack as he says now he is angry and we reheat some pizza on the microwave. I think about how I would never eat pizza in the middle of the night, but I am starting to feel maybe none of this is real, so what the heck, I actually eat some and ask for more. Then my mom comes and asks what's going on, I tell her the whole story and continue to chat while eating. Then I am worried we might wake up grandma and mom says "you're really confused, she passed away some time ago, it's just us here". Then I realize once again I am still dreaming all this. Then we are at a fair, where we volunteer at a booth. It is a mix between art display, book sales and alternative medicines. I am rearranging some books on a table and again confused about what's real or not, when some friends come over from another booth and I tell about my confusion and the whole accident story and that I can't even remember my best friends' names. They show some concern, but then some wild boar enters the place running and causing much damage, until he gets killed and someone takes it outside to the back of the building and leaves it on the ground temporarily. I go take a look at it soon after and some dog like a Husky is trying to eat the boar. He is making a mess so I shoo him. He doesn't like and attacks me. He actually looks more like a wolf now. I climb some structure to get out of its reach but it is not enough, the dog or wolf jumps high and almost bites me. I stop it with my arm and a sort of punch to its head, which beheads the animal. The animal's head falls to the ground and the rest of the body vanishes completely. I am in shock and that's when I realize I must be dreaming. So I lift off flying up and as I leave the ground, I realize I am inside some giant barn like structure. But I try to get rid of logic and let my mind roam free, so when I reach the ceiling, it just inverts and then there is like a second barn upside down. I enter some sort of backroomy dimension with buildings growing upside down and sideways and I just go through them and through wooden walls, ceilings, etc, just trying to get lost in the nonsense, not trying to make it right, trying to make my mind maleable. Then end up in a version of my own attic, but looking like a 60s lounge, with lots of yellow pillows and puffs on the floor. I plunge again in the wooden walls and this time I end up floating in a void for while, almost waking up. After a few seconds I start seeing the inside of the wood in big detail, as if magnified or if I shrunk to microsize. I don't feel my body, just my head, so I feel an urge to lick the surface with my tongue and it feels scaly. Then I am in a regular room but decorated in cluttercore style. There are so many carpets, plushies, curtains, pillows and all sorts of colorful bric-a-brac all over. I feel compelled to just admire it all. I realize my mind is trying to distract me with stuff, lots of stuff, but I indulge for a while. I go from room to room and each one is crazier than the other. Some rooms I need to go up or down through some wall mount ladder to reach the next room. I then see a box of jewels and a mirror in a small cozy bedroom and can't help trying them on, feeling that I am falling for the temptations to distract me. When I look in the mirror, I look absolutely goddess like. For fun I make the jewels, hairstyles and hair color change. Then I remember that often when I look at myself in the mirror in dreams, my face starts shifting and becoming mosnter-like, so I decide to take control of the process and just cause it myself, to fight that fear. My face slowly melts and I become ugly, my eyes all dark, fangs, messy hair. It makes me feel uneasy, but not terrified, because I am in control. I think about meditating next for a while, but I wake up.
I had been in this area in prior dreams. escher-esque architecture + maze of pointless rooms; plain light concrete walls + no view of the outdoors. and yet, soft light coming from nowhere. Me and my husband were going to our room, but some federal agents came out of a disguised opening on the ground. They were wearing dark trenchcoats, sunglasses, and a poker face. the opening was square and incredibly dark to the point where i could barely make out the set of stairs leading downwards. me and my husband went down the opening, but the dream perspective stayed above the surface so idk what went on down there. A federal agent escorted me out of the opening, but my husband stayed inside. The federal agents disguised the opening again and i went off to my room to sleep.i got into my room which was a smallish room with floor, walls, cieling being made of the same light concrete as the rest of the dream structure with a bed on the wall opposite the door i entered from. i began to get suspicious of the agents and the suspicion soon became fear. I ran through another door and kept running through empty rooms. Soon I heard the agents crashing through trying to find me. As i continued running through the maze of rooms, the rooms became darker and more house-like. I got to an empty room with a small door near the floor which when opened revealed an old chimney. I climbed inside the chimney opening and found a crevice where i could hide half of my body. luckily there was a lot of clutter and debris in the chimney, so i covered the part of my body left exposed with the debris. A federal agent opened the door to the chimney opening, but thought that i was just clutter. So i successfully hid from the agents.
Wanted to stick with SSILD for a while (at least 4 weeks) to try to LD regularly again. Want to keep this journal in the meanwhile on DV. First night with SSILD, went to bed at 00:15, first time woke up at around 3, watch about 10 min of tv show with phone in bed then tried to ssild. Can remember the first and a half iterations clearly but easily distracted since then. But occasionally became aware of being able to "see" some fragments of imagination visually. Woke up again later but quickly fell asleep, even though tried to ssild and had similar fragments of realizing I was seeing some imagination faintly. Perhaps had false awakening? Can't be sure... Did not woke up to do DJ at around 9. Now it's 11:30 and i can't recall anything about the dreams. Overall: good start but keep up the work! Tomorrow should aim for starting your day with DJ.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP About to ingress at some US university and my mom and a friend are accompanying me. The place is gigantic and it's hard to find the info I need. Finally find the office of supposedly my main teacher/tutor/guide and go there to ask for help, but I am told by some other professors that he is late and no one knows exactly when he'll come. They suggest going to the welcoming area for new students that we totally missed on our way in. They give some directions, we see a place with hundreds or thousands of kids and assume it is it. Turns out most of them are really young kids who are there for some show on ice around an ice rink. But nearby is indeed the welcome booth and a line of maybe ten people. We wait in the line. As we move forward and observe the campus and the people, I confess I am not liking the university so far and miss my old faculty. But I am willing to give it a try and ask them for my schedule so I can attend my first classes. Then it all becomes stilyzed like a graphic novel and I am just observing it like a film. Some group of extremists arrives on campus, makes some statement against women and says that it will be a good day if they kill at least a third of all the women there. Then a slaughter starts, mostly women and girls but also the occasional male that tries to protect them. It becomes a sea of blood, corpses and skeletons floating in the sea of blood, and women falling into that sea like lemmings jumping over a cliff to their deaths.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP In an african country, can't identify which one. Visiting some family in a village, the kids love me and we are very good friends. They want to take me along to their daily activities. We hit the orange dirt road and I fear we may have to walk many many kms. Luckily the weather is very nice, not hot nor cold, just about right and the walking is very enjoyable. We cross paths with other kids from other villages at a crossroad and I realize this is not the remote area I first thought it was. Soon we arrive at another village and we drop the youngest at their school: then I walk with two oldest sisters to a highschool. There are other white teens there, but I am a new face and they are all very curious about who I might be. We enter their classroom, but before the teacher starts asking me questions, the older sister says bye to her teen sister and grabs me to take me somewhere else. I thought she was staying in this school to, so I ask her about it and she says she quit school and is now working for a circus. They are still training at some empty facilities on the back of a zoo. Looks like some empty barns. She is really happy about her job and she shows me a huge poster that's being painted to announce the coming spectacle, featuring her among others and I feel so proud and happy for her. I then need to go, but as soon as I exit the zoo I realize I don't know where to go. I go around the external wall of the zoo and I find an entrance that gives access to the reception/management of the zoo. The gates open and a fancy car is coming out and I remember that I am actually an heiress to the white family that owns this place. I fear they see me, because of the way I am dressed and dirty. They totally disapprove of my friendship with these girls.
I had just typed this entry, but lost what I wrote. I don't have a lot of time, but I feel like this dream is worth recording so here I go again. This is just a part of the dream, I think, and I have approximated the dialogue as best as I can remember: The subaquatic people take their seats in their vessel. They are seated around the outside perimeter of a circle, facing inward toward each other. Someone, a main character of the dream, is offered the chance to join them. In the end, he refuses, because it would mean becoming one of them and living underwater for the rest of his life. One of the people, a lady I think, looks at me and says: "This one might join us." I think about this. The scene has the bittersweet feeling to it that happens sometimes at the end of a story where people have come to love one another but now for some reason have to part. But I think to myself that maybe I actually could go with them. "What about my family?" I ask. "Would I ever be able to see them again?" It is explained that although I will become subaquatic like them, I could still visit the surface world wearing a type of 'diving' apparatus. So, I decide to join them. The vessel starts to descend into the water. There is a somewhat maniacal seeming captain, who, I think, expects me to drown. The rest of the people are cheering me on, seemingly happy at my 'rebellion'. I have been promised an oxygen tank, but in the meantime I have to hold my breath. It might be a long time of not breathing, and I count the seconds as I hold my nose closed. I get up to somewhere around 30 seconds, I think. Then I either wake up, or dream that I wake up, wondering if I have been holding my breath all this time. Side note: I had a dream in October of last year with a similar theme. A subaquatic woman wanted me to join her, possibly making me subaquatic as well. In that dream it seemed like it was supposed to be frightening, but I wasn't frightened. I felt an attraction to the woman, and thought that it might be worth the transformation.
I am with a few of my friends. It is nighttime and the moon is very bright which along with lanterns and streetlamps helps illuminate the setting. We are at a harbor. while very crowded and energetic during the day, is quiet at this time of night. it consists of at least 7 wooden stories of piers which are meant to accomodate enormous ships and small vessels alike. you can get around by climbing stairs and ladders between the stories. the piers are also directly connected to a vast labyrinth of shops and restaurants (mostly seafood). [I had the feeling I had been to this city in a dream from months prior. me and my husband had gone sightseeing and were looking for a museum which held the city's famous masks, ut we stayed on the surface level and were there during the day] Me and my friends are on one of the upper stories when we see a white and yellow [like the white and yellow from a previous dream] tiger which begins to chase us. we run to the lowest level while the tiger-demon shapeshifts to chase us down ladders and stairs. EVentually I lose sight of it and make my way very quietly down to the small boat to meet up with my friends again. we are all there and we begin loading onto the small wooden boat.
I was in bed with my husband and I was telling him about my twin sister who is an actress. The room looked just like our room irl. my twin played catwoman in the latest batman movie. [the perspective shifts to 3rd person of the movie im explaining] I was explaining to him that I am worried she is into some very evil things since if you look closely at the frames in the movie you can see some weird messages hidden. The perspective zooms in on one of the perfume bottles in catwoman's vanity titled 'I eat little babies'. It was housed in a very luxurious crystal bottle whith the lettering done in cursive gold imprint. The bottle was among many others on a glass shelf. She finishes getting ready for a gala that she and batman are attending. She is wearing a beautiful flowing gown but she still has her cat woman mask on. The gala is hosted in a large rococco ballroom and is quite crowded. they climb up some stairs which are supposed to contain some occult symbolism but I forgot what it was. [perspective shifts back to me explaining this to my husband] I am worried that the batman actor is leading my sister in a very dark direction. After I tell him this he is stone-faced which makes me worry that he is in on it too. He looms over me and grabs my side very painfully which wakes me up. [i fall back asleep] ..... realize im dreaming and the dream falls into a white mist. I try materializing something by yelling out 'Dream, give me more clarity' and 'Dream, bring me my twin from the previous dream'. a somewhat human form appears but it is very hazy. I end up losing lucidity eventually. ....... I am at work as a teaching assistant in the dream. The school is large with a modern, open floorplan. The classroom has a beautiful design where one wall is full of windows to the park outside, the opposite side is open to the hallway, and the cieling has a curved '~' shape. The kid's tables are arranged around a shelf where the kids can grab materials like paper scissors etc. I dont remember the situation too well. I wanted to grab one of the covers to a CD case since I needed it for something and I assumed it would be fine since the teacher had told me i can grab anything from the shelf. As i go to grab the case the teacher yells out 'No! do not take my cd cases!' ....... I am in the front office ready to clock out but one of the front office girls is having trouble applying to something using a PDF application. I tell her that she should be able to apply online using the school district's wesite. They have a 'jobs' page where you just have to fill your info in online. I tell her that is how i applied to my job and one of the older office ladies says she did the same.
Was in a dream where I was fighting a metal robot while being a high jumping metallic rubber band. I decided to run from it and run in to the darkness. I wanted to end my dream as I wasn't enjoying it. During the darkness when the dream faded I became lucid and realized I was waiting for the next dream to form. Once it did it was nighttime and I was in third person. I thought about positive things and sunlight. That's when a grainy sunlight came in to the background but wasn't good quality. I ended up losing lucidity not too long afterwards.
I have taken a little hiatus from dream work, having a lot of things to do and also starting to get a bit lazy. I did have a lucid dream the other night. There was more to the dream, but here is the lucid part: I realize that I am dreaming. I'm standing on a raised walkway above a watery area. I decide to jump out a nearby opening, either to fly or just to fling myself out for fun. I fall into the frozen water below, which isn't very cold. I try to levitate, and I might end up asking the guy that was in the dream with me to help me. I think he might help, and I float into the air. Then I make myself zoom backwards, really fast. It's like zooming out on a picture, or flying really fast. I fly a little ways, thinking that this is the farthest I have ever flown in a lucid dream (or something like that). I think I try to land at some point, angling my trajectory down toward the ground. Instead, I start going down a slope. Now I'm flying over a green, lush, mountainous terrain. I start wondering to myself if I should try to find the persistent realm I have been working on, but decide to stick to what is going on now since sometimes it seems to destabilize things if I try to change course without planning ahead. But it seems that I make the decision too late, and I start to lose the dream (or things fade away, at least).
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