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I was submerging slowly into darkness. But it wasn't total darkness. There was something moving in it. My vision went more elaborate... moving objects were people. I was flying, gliding slowly above street, large buildings were standing around it. It was night. The street lamps were shining with bright yellow light. I felt unsure. I felt dark, wild, dangerous emotions targeted on myself. I needed to push feeling of fear constantly away... that feelings were trying to attach onto my consciousness.
People walking on the street were dark. Not dark as in skin colour or clothes colour, but they felt dark. They emitted darkness from themselves... It looked like black aura was around them. When they felt I'm there flying peacefully, pushing darkness away from myself, they all started to converge to my position. I felt oppressive force engulfing my consciousness.... I tried desperately to move above, to be unattached to what I saw and felt. It functioned somehow, not fully, but strongly enough. I flew directly through those people... and I left them behind, I was gliding faster and faster into peaceful darkness and losing slowly consciousness falling into dreamless slumber...

Remarks
*It was late when I went to bed, I wanted to see nice drama in TV. I was tired and I programmed myself to be well slept in 4 hours (to go to work), which I managed, even if I felt to be slow the whole next day
*I didn't try to exercise my relaxations, I only let my mind slowly descent into slumber maintaining consciousness.
*Subjectively about 10 minutes long experience

Hooray, I had an LD the hard way again! Am I cool yet?

Really though, I think this is the most aware and in control I've been for a WILD, so this honestly feels like the best one. Let me describe what happened.

I did a WBTB without even really knowing it because I had trouble sleeping last night, and eventually I got to the transition. I'm not sure how, but I began to focus quite a bit. I began to think of visualizing things, so I thought "Hmm, let's try a sandwich." And I tried to imagine a sandwich floating in the darkness. It worked. It was kinda small, and looked like one from the Simpsons. It was there though, and after a few seconds it floated out of my field of vision. Then I thought "It worked! Let's try something else... A slice of pizza."
The slice of pizza looked a little cartoony too, but it was there and did the same as the sandwich. I moved my eyes and it seemed like the pizza left a graphical trail. It floated out of my vision due to my eye movements. It was as though my eyes were making the visualizations have... graphical errors? It looked... glitchy. Then everything sort of went a bit haywire. I started seeing random stuff that looked like it was reminiscent of World War 2. That's what comes to mind at least. I silhouettes of soldiers standing in a lineup, some child's face, some military commander... All in a 1940's old black and white photo style. Pretty spooky if you ask me. There was a bunch of those types of pictures, and then out of nowhere, I appeared in a room. I did it. I was in the dream. I felt like I was still aware of my physical body though. If I tried to move my arm, it wouldn't budge and I could still feel it on the bed. If I tried to move my arm with my mind however... The one in the dream reacted. It worked. I was able to lift my arm to a doorknob and open the door. I didn't see anything behind it though, and I stayed in the room. It had two big open windows on the side opposite to the door, where light was flooding in. I saw some environment outside, but I can't say what it was or what it looked like. The floors were a golden brown hardwood, and my bed was in the room too. It was strangely empty. I felt like I was actually alone. For once, my dream wasn't all over the place and confusing. It was just me, in this empty room. Nothing was happening. There was no one else around at all. I woke up shortly after.

I think this is the most stable LD I've had. I need to have more of these...

[18.10.2015, ~12a.m., WILD-attempt]
Having in mind to complete the move in quest, I prepare for WILD. My body relaxes and my mind wanders. I use hypnagogic imagery that appears to form my room. Moments later it seems to be stable. It seems to be day, there is shady sunlight and now I stand inside a room. First I check the main door. It opens inwards and is made from wood with a brazen handle. On the left side of the room there is a king size bed which has never been used. On the side of the room there is a desk and a wardrobe with a huge mirror. When I look into it, I see my normal day-to-day mirror image. I costs a lot of concentration to view the image and a feel a strange pull into the mirror. To avoid being sucked in, I look away and search for the glass door that lead to the garden. I see it, it has no handle at all, so I ask myself, how it is operated and protected. I simply ask the room/dream: "How is this door operated?". A Startrek computer voice explains it's voice operated and reponds to owner only, offers me to setup my profile now. I accept and get "authenticated". My AI has no 3D avatar. It is simply there and voice operated. That's fine, I probably like it that way best.
The room itself seems a little small, so I decide to have it bigger. The dream responds and stretches it, now there is more free space between bed and desk. Now I want to get out of the room and look for a pub. The moment I step out of my room a loud noise in waking life makes me wake up.

Non-dream
Non-lucid
Lucid

How do I start? I don't recall any dreams from last night which is because I couldn't fall asleep after nearly achieving a WILD. I think I fell asleep originally around 12-1, then woke up around 4 because of my alarm. I was super tired but got up to pee, then I ate a banana and just sat around with the light on for a few minutes. I headed back to bed and started doing SSILD cycles. I got through them pretty, I was convinced that I'd probably have a lucid if I could fall asleep fast enough. Turns out I just ended up lying awake for another hour because I was too awake from doing the SSILD cycles. This happens sometimes. After a while I became aware of the hypnogogic imagery being really strong. It was like at first I was in a day dream just waiting for sleep to hurry up, and then it became really vivid. I think at first I noticed that I was looking at my room and realized it was impossible because my eyes were meant to be shut. I felt myself being drawn into a dream, which was really unexpected. I tried to let myself go with the flow but screwed up and got kicked back into wakefulness. I calmed myself and tried to summon up the experience again. This time it kind of game and then faded. One more time, I manage to summon an image of a map with some basic imagery and symbols on it, I feel myself hurtling towards it though. "Oh my god are you serious?" I feel like I'm falling REALLY fast, my stomach lurches intensely and I get shocked back to wakefulness. "F*ck". I couldn't get it back after that and fell to sleep normally after another hour I think.

These past few nights have been great in terms of dreaming. Not only have I had exactly 3 dreams every night for the past 3 or 4 days, but I also conveniently wake up between each, giving me an opportunity to WILD each time. Not to mention it's helped me to finally be able to perform the transition properly... At least last night anyway.
I was able to actually see the "hypnagogia" stuff, and it was more vivid than ever. Not only that, but I did make it into a lucid dream for a few seconds, rather than accidentally slipping into sleep paralysis and hearing weird noises. Hopefully I can try again and be more successful tonight. I do find this to be a little weird though... Suddenly having exactly 3 dreams each night...? It's very strange. I've also noticed that I have much more ease when it comes to remembering dialogue as well. I've even noticed that even when I'm having non-lucid dreams, I still feel like I'm on the brink of lucidity, and not a complete zombie trapped in the dream's "story" and just going along with it. This is the most regularly I've had lucid dreams in a long time, and I'm glad that I'm finally back in the saddle.

I finally nailed the WILD technique, I suppose. Either way, this was the first lucid dream I had about flying... Well, the first proper one anyway.

It felt so real. The only thing that bothered me is that everything was actually in black and white, and it seemed to be low quality. I looked down at my feet as I was flying, and I was leaving a smoke trail. I tried spinning around, and boosting to go faster... It all felt real, but it really didn't look real. I tried to add color to the background, but it just didn't work. Anyone have any tips on clarity? I could really use some...

I'm also really excited, I think this is the most regularly I've ever had any lucid dreams.

I just need to master the WILD and DILD techniques, since those seem to be the main ones I've used. And with this, I'm one step closer to that.

*Suppress irresistible want to sing all the song, including chorus*

Last night was insomnia night. Around five in the morning I decided that I could try to WILD, because I have very good decision skill around five in the morning and Eli was sleeping. I thought about a movie I've seen some time ago, Only Lovers Left Alive and how it would be neat to see the house of one of the hero, Adam. I fluffed up my pillow and lay down again, seeing his cluttered doorway in my mind's eye.

In what seem to be a flawless transition, I walk in. The walls are as I remember, dark and covered with artworks. They's stuff litteraly everywhere, pilled up high and precariously, things that would make a antiquarian go mad with envy. The corridor is already small, and all this stuff make it cramped and claustrophobic. I keep going and end up in the living room which is as cluttered and full that the rest. Adam is here, sitting on his red plushy sofa. He look as unkempt as usual, in a long dressing gown open on a black washed-out T-shirt and coton pants. I conjure up my tablet behind my back and crouch in from of him to show it too him, with a app mimicking some musical instruments, including a bass and a piano. He isn't very convinced and brush the touch screen with his fingertips, playing a couple of music notes from the virtual piano and briginf up the virtual bass.
I wake up.

That was a lot of fun. I had a art time keeping my lucidity tho.

I'm not even sure what this was, to be honest.

But I did the usual WILD technique, and then I was suddenly in the dream world, except I was just in the other room playing on my 3DS and shiny Pokemon hunting.

I remember finding a shiny Pokemon but feeling super exhausted at the same time and falling asleep at the desk, only to slip back into consciousness.

I'm not even sure this classifies as a lucid dream because I wasn't even aware I was dreaming, but I still felt like I was in one.

I don't know.

I was laying in the bed and training my relaxation and concentration routine. I didn't think I would be able to either to travel or make to WILD. But... as I got into sleep paralysis I started to see hypnagogic images... like small colored squares through whole field of vision. I worked to eliminate this vision. After some time I managed to clean off that visions till blank view remained. By that time I felt the bonds of physical body loosened, so I started to rock my second body and separated fully.

My surrounding is indistinct... dark and grainy... But I don't ponder on the state of it and I'm moving further away from my body. I walk to stairs to go down, but it seems that gravity has not hold of me and instead of going downstairs, I walk on the air above stairs and then through the roof out of my house. I'm walking on the air My surrounding is clearer. I observe it. I found strange but interesting motorcycle parked on the street. I sat on it and started to drive it down the street. When I got to first turn I found it very difficult to steer. I went through a few objects- some concrete poles and trees- till I found my way back on the street. Second turn was as difficult as first one. Strange. I tried to lean on the opposite side to what one has to steer motorcycle and it functioned. To turn right I need to lean to the left side??? Strange. My concentration slipped and I found myself back in my body.

I'm laying in the bed. I see hypnagogic images again... the squares are somewhat distinct... They are not the same. Each of them is a little different. I concentrate on them and they magnify a little. The squares are photos of people... Some of them I know, some not. There are also squares with generic silhouette of people. I browse through those images and I tried to concentrate on some of them. It seems like concentration on the image makes me to see 3D image of the particular human. It started to animate... and my concentration slips. I need to make it faster if I have to make it into WILD with someone I concentrate on. I found image of my wife. I concentrate on her and I managed to create WILD with her. We are in some kind of place... It looks like made of concrete. Concrete floor, and concrete high walls. I observe- there is no roof. If I manage to fly up, maybe 5m, I could see what is on the other side of wall. I concentrate to fly... I don't have good results at start. I manage to make my body lighter. I concentrate further. My body starts to levitate till I'm above the wall... It looks like whole surrounding is a honeycomb made of concrete. In the adjacent cell there were a few unfamiliar people... hmm what this means... Some blonde woman saw me and she was curious how I managed to fly up... I shout back that she needs to concentrate. My concentration on flying is not so good and it slips already. The gravity takes hold of me and I'm dragged back to my cell. To my wife. She asks me why I'm naked. I look on myself and indeed I'm naked. I'm not concerned with this. Why should I be? I'm dreaming. She handed me black leather coat. It looks quite cool. As I got it on me, I was fully clothed. I took hand of my wife and I took us to some city. It is night. There are many people walking around. My wife sees some man and she recognizes him as friend. She wants to speak with him. I left her with that man and I started to walk around observing my surrounding. I walked maybe 100 m from my wife by the time and looked back to her. She talks animatedly to her friend. I didn't want to disturb her reunion, so I walked away alone. I walked and I observed... Somehow I couldn't interact with people I met... They circumvent me and at same time they looked like they don't register me. I remember to walk for some time. I remember that I found my surrounding very boring. I remember I was tired, it was long after midnight after all. I remember falling into darkness of unconsciousness.

The OBE was quite weak. My surrounding was very rough, very obscure.
The WILD part was interesting on the other hand...
My wife doesn't remember to be dreaming with me, so I didn't manage shared dream. Again.
The honeycomb was made of concrete, with high walls... what could it mean? Maybe nothing. There were cells as far as I could see.
Concentration on flying out of our cell was difficult. I managed only short time flying and I was exhausted after that.

After my lunch I fell asleep and had a WILD out in the countryside. I kept telling myself "When I am dreaming I will know I am dreaming". I woke up a few times knowing I was dreaming as I seamed not to be stabilising. Then I fell asleep again. I could see my son Matthew and my ex-Wife Melissa. Melissa was giving me a list of instructions on what to do when I was minding Matthew while Matthew was looking up at me smiling with not a bother on him. Matthew is 8. I looked into his face and then I knew I was dreaming. There was something about the twinkle in his eye and as I stabilised myself looking at him. Melissa had finished giving me the instructions and had gone away so immediately I said to Matthew would you like to go flying. He looked puzzled but then he said ok. So a grabbed him in my arms and flew up into the sky. I could see the clouds around me and could feel the height we were at. Then I remembered about the black hole. Probably last months task but anyway it is meaningful to me. I told him we were heading up to the black hole and he looked puzzled again but said ok. We went up into space and found the black hole quite quickly and kinda disappeared into it. We were in there for a while. I wanted just to see what would happen next. Now this is when I realised that dreaming is not dreaming as the whole of our perception including ourselves turned into the Buddha in the form of a golden statue. I stayed in that state lucid for some time not very long and then opened my eyes. All my thoughts had stopped and I was one with nature looking up at the sky. I then realised that the whole point of dreaming and waking life is to understand this and stay in this reality. The lucidity in daily life and dreams becomes much more vivid and I am able to understand and see everything clearly. This is definitely reality free from personal interpretation. A flower is a flower and a tree is a tree without any other stories going on. So dreaming is not for dreaming but for being fully present in the dream and daily life.[/SET_ANCHOR]

Night 1:

#461 - WILD - 3:00AM

Because it took two hours to set things up, I was extra tired going to sleep at midnight. Or I thought I was, I was having a very uncomfortable time with the EEG net and was in and out of light sleep with long bouts of wakefulness. I realized part of my issue was not having the sound of a box fan to lull me to sleep so I spent a ton of time meditating.

I finally manage to watch dreamlets form until I hear a loud voice say, "I still remember the smell of her fried chicken." I was curious if the voice was talking about the lab technician, but then, I remember. I latch on to the feeling of being in the dream and try to move my arms. I feel mild vibrations and slight resistance as I sit up. I float up into darkness. I become excited and remember to give the left-right-left-right eye signals. I spend the next few moments in the void trying various things to get some traction. I have the sensation of physically opening my eyes and I see some light on part of the wall. I worry that this is the actual room (it wasn't) so I quickly close my eyes. My thoughts cause me to wake up.

Night 2:

#462 - WILD - 6:00AM

We got set up early and I lay down around 10PM. I felt much more comfortable and tired this time, but my dreams where hard to recall and I had no lucids to report. I decide to pretty much skip my 3:30AM WBTB and I wake about 4:22AM. I have to be disconnected so that I can use the restroom, so all of this woke me up enough that I spent what felt like most of the next hour being very awake. I used this time to meditate into the dream almost exactly like the night before but this time it gave the *indescribable feeling* like before and I have to roll to my left to make it pass.


Later, I come to some awareness and feeling of being in the bardo. I float up and quickly give the left-right-left-right signal, but I am not sure if I am actually in REM yet or not because it's all dark. I decided this time to go ahead and open eyes. It felt vivid and I was worried that it was my physical eyes. I was happy to see the room was well lit and very different then my actual location. I also note that when I focus on it, I can also feel my physical eye closed tight. I go ahead and give the eye signal once more for good measure.

I leave the room and find myself upstairs in my parents old house. I see my mom down stairs and glide to her. In a weird, Norman-Bates-tone I ask, "What are you doing mother?"
She doesn't say anything, but her body becomes gaunt and rotten. Her right arm is now missing with splintered bone protruding from the stub at her shoulder. She looks up at me hungrily with red rimmed eyes and dark circles under. She has a look of hunger as she stared at me with her head hung low. I am taken aback, but only slightly frightened. I decide not to accept this and dismiss it. No.

The scene resets and I am now standing with her in the Main Room. My mom has returned to normal, so I hug her to put emphasis on the restoration. I say something to her about all of this just being a dream and how everything is OK. I feel excited and overjoyed to be lucid and having completing my goal. I think of waking up, but I remember that I was supposed to stay in dream for a few minutes if I could. I am not sure of the time, but know it hasn't been long at all I turn to go out the back of the house, but all of this, thinking about waking up, actually wakes me up.

I'm flying. There is crying and wailing below me. The Earth looks black, burned. There are fires on some places... I see black remainders of things... and black bodies. Some of them are moving. My power is strong, I feel currents of energy inside myself, but I can't help.
I'm flying down. My blue violet sparkling aura is shining and lighting that destroyed country... The wailing grows stronger. They are scared of me... I'm cloaking myself into a field of changed reality. It changes the feeling of desperation and pain emanating from that place into peace and love surrounding myself. It helps to stabilize my balance. I'm landing.
The surrounding of my landing place is cleaned of the blackened miserable beings- they ran. I'm offering the help... There is nobody who wants it. After a few minutes I'm starting to fly away. I'm flying surrounded by my aura, the island of peace and unconditional love. There- I feel connection... My soulmate is here? I'm seeking for her. And I'm finding her. She lies on the ground... blackened body as others. As soon as she notices me, she is trying to run away. I'm feeling a strong denial from her, which makes me to contemplate whether I should go to her. My feeling tells me, that that wouldn't be a good idea. But I decided not to stay away and I'm flying down to her. When I'm determined, there is no escape for her possible. My aura surrounds her... She is declining the peace, love... she can't understand the feelings and she is visibly shaken. My aura can't penetrate blackness of her body. I feel desperation, sorrow... my peace and balance is failing which is possible to see on my aura. When I see that, I let it dissipate fast, I restore the balance and strength of the aura is also restored. I let her feel, that I'm going away, but I will be back again... And I send her as much light, love and peace as I can. She is staying blackened... and I'm flying away... I'm flying and cruising above that world. I'm seeking for beings who are able to understand and take my help...

Remarks
-I debated myself whether I should write this here... Well I feel that this was little too intimate for comfort of my mind.
-I know it looks depressive, but I felt in peace and love with everybody.
-My aura... energy strongly depends of the concentration... on the balance of feelings. Again and again I'm finding that.
-I would say this was wild without imagination starter, or astral projection without feeling of separation. Both are possible. It wasn't normal lucid dream, but for astral projection it felt like... maybe very low astral?
-Meeting with my soul mate was unexpected. Her state of mind even more so. I'm confused.
-My whole communication with beings there was done by using of the feelings. I didn't use words. I was sending feelings and received answers in feelings.

I was in the city, where I stood on the bus station. It was night. Lights were shining brightly. Then I saw some fighters attacking the city. People went into panic mode. I observed them for a moment and then I flew fast up into sky. I shot down attacking fighters by bolts of orange plasma emerging from my hands. Then I made aerobatic maneuvers and shot more and more fighters till no fighters remained on the sky... After that I flew down to the buss station and created a big red sofa out of thin air. I sat down and observed people... and things around me. I relaxed and let my thoughts disappear. The stars were shining... and I felt the peace. I sat there for some while, then I stood and dismissed the existence of sofa(it vanished)... then I started to walk away.
Suddenly I felt that someone caught my right hand. I froze in midstep and turned. It was my long lost friend. She took also my other hand. I felt emotions inside... Both- joyful and dismissive at the same time... I let my emotions to evaporate into nothingness and started to turn away and at the same time I tried to free my hands from hers to walk away. But she held me fast and told me: "Look, I'm sorry what I have done and what I'm doing but I'll need you still. Please don't walk away..." I stood quiet for short time... I let her to hold my hand and we went together on my way to observe the surrounding, around river.

This LD ended soon after we started walking on bank of river.
First part of dream was more or less peaceful with nice meditation on the sofa, second part was very emotional at first but then I calmed down and the peace returned.
Flying was very funny, I never felt to be in danger. I was the raptor in human body, fighters were my prey.
Creating the sofa was interesting. I only thought what I wanted. I almost never manage such feat.

7.8.15

Still on night shifts. Day off.

Slept from around 2-3 pm, then again later. 2 WBTBs, one around 10 pm and second at 2 am. Both times started out on the sofa. Second WBTB lead to a WILD and DEILDs.

I started feeling vibrations and reminded myself to open my dream eyes, like what opheliablue does. Was also trying to "fall backwards" and roll out. Soon after I felt the falling backwards and I realized I'm already in a dream. I saw only from the center of my vision, the rest of it was blacked out. But I got up from the sofa.

I was in a house with family. I chose not to interract with them but headed for the door. I opened it and again a door to the outside.

It faded and I realized I'm still dreaming so got up again and headed outside. Don't remember much else, because slept another hour after that before getting up.

Non-lucid before these - I'm on a racing bicycle riding on a snowy road. I have someone on the back of the bike. The snow is covering the whole road and it's all around. It's getting deeper and harder to pedal. We are out in the country, no cars. Now I see 4 cars in the distance coming closer. I hope we can get to the side of the road enough so they don't hit us. First car pulls to his side too much and sideswipes the railing.

Date: Tuesday July 7 2015, 5:18 AM
Important: Yes

wild
Big day for day work! Last day of vacation and I'm at home. I'm working on the RC + Sageous' Unreality checks a couple of times an hour. Studying some Leberge and Sageous yesterday and getting to bed super early with a Meditation session right before bed.

bed at 10:30, wake up at 3:30. I almost didn't get up but then i finally did. Let the dogs out to go pee and wandered around the back yard looking at the sky and thinking about dreaming.I took a "Lucid dreaming" supplement from Dreamimins. (galantamine + Choline) I lay still. I stretch my hands, arms, legs, chest, back and face. then i hhold still and repeat the classic Carlos Casteneda mantra. "The next time I am dreaming I will look at my hands and realize I am dreaming. I hear lots of noise. Rushing wind, people talking. I'm thinking about getting up to see what all the commotion is then I remember that I'm WILDing and remember that I'm dreaming.

I'm in a dark room with no light source but a lamp. I'm carrying it around shining it on things. I think that because I'm dreaming I should be able to make light appear.
I try to find a light switch but when i find one, it doesn't work.
i think about how i have that old schema that light switches don't work from "Waking Life".
i find a door and imagine what I want on the other side. I remember how one of my goals is to have a conversation with a DC. I walk through the door
then the lights come on.
I'm in a big room with super tall columns. There's an elegant cocktail party going on.
I am looking at hands, the fingerprints are deepening and darkening and crawling all over my hands in crazy patterns.

I see a pretty indian woman in a black cocktail dress and my sex drive takes over, I walk up to her and started kissing her. I put my arm around her. She's pulling away. I ask what she thinks, not interested, gives me a disgusted look, she leaves and i'm a little annoyed. The dream starts to destabilize so I Look at my hands.

looking at my hand and seeing henna tattoos patterns all over them. I find another door and want to go outside.

make it outside and it's very bright and very green. Lots of grass and a few small buildings.
I try to fly and make a high jump and fall to earth.
I see a building like some kind of fancy shed and use that as a jump off point.
I Jump to the top of the building and fly into space.
I'm looking around at the stars and I see the death star. This is super cool.
I try to fly to it but I'm stuck
I remember the Waggoner technique of thinking myself there so I try to pinch zoom it closer with both hands. Instead of it coming closer the whole sky expands into an industrial death-star landscape. I see smoking red fires and and explosions. This causes a heart rush and I lose the dream.

Dield
I'm walking around in a dark house with lots of hallways and i see people walking around.
I see an old friend but he's now in a wheelchair. I remember that one of my goals is to have a conversation with a dream character. I ask him how he's doing but he won't look me in the eye. His brother walks up to me.
I ask how he's doing.
he tells me that we are friends now and that his brother is happy but distant.
dream goes black

I start spinning. It's like 2001 with the colors shooting all around me.
I am in a very gothic house. There are mer-people flopping all over the place.
they are disgusting. There is a hot meryl streep mer lady laying on the couch. I tell her hi. A big ugly mer monster man, slimy and sweaty, jumps down from a door frame and attacks me.
I wake up.