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Created Saturday 25 June 2016

Guess I've gone long enough without posting here, and for silly enough reasons at times. Anyway, there were about five dreams I remembered today, but I only know of fragments for all but the last one.

Scrap Group 1
Me and some of my siblings were cruising through the highways at daytime. We reached a cityscape, only to get lost in its streets.

Something about an old friend visiting?

I imitate Mortal Kombat's Quan Chi, bringing forth a group of glowing green skeletons from the ground while cackling (like so). My brother, Fred, questions the type of helmets and armor worn by the undead. Someone else complained that this armor made the skeletons overpowered.

I'm in the vast interior of an office building or somesuch, keeping to the lobby to either wait for someone, or just not to get lost. I soon had to use the bathroom, and go to a short hallway to find it. Industrial curtains concealed most of the openings, which I assumed meant the area was off limits. And yet, on peeking through the blinds, I did indeed find some public restroom entrances.

I'm in a big classroom, a science class, I thought. The teacher, a short, dark skinned middle aged woman, is collecting homework. I realized I didn't even start on it. Furthermore, it was a very simple assignment, more a short questionnaire than anything relevant to the class. There goes an easy 'A'. I then seat myself on a high chair in the middle of the class, barely minding that I had no surface to write on. Pretty sure this dream transitions into, or at least influenced, what comes next.


Dream 1 - Post-Human

The visuals were a bit blurred. I was in a lounge, a place constructed of dark wood. Several other people were in the area, each wearing corporate casual attire, and seating themselves on reddish-brown couches in the area. We were scientists, geneticists and gene engineers, mostly. Our specialty was human cloning, and we've advanced enough to grow subjects of almost any age, yet by that point, such technology wasn't at all novel. Instead, our interests were in memory enhancement at creation, but short funding drove that project to a standstill.

Nothing of interest at first, just a group of bored people sulking quietly. Eventually, a pale, brown haired little girl in a white robe appeared. Clearly, one of the subjects for the memory experiments. She previously showed no conclusive results, and so, was contained until future transfer for rehabilitation and, eventually, adoption. Her early presence and mobility was unexpected, but such a thing wasn't unheard of. A few others slowly reacted to recontain her.

Just then, the girl spoke, talking of various specifics in our tests. This was surprising, but it could have just been mimicry. The subject walked to a cabinet, where she pulled out stray phials of chemicals. and quickly mixed and applied a concoction onto herself. Through some fog, her form changed, the least of which was her being about 18 - 20 years of age. More pronounced was her new size, easily 15ft tall, and her being composed of innumerous, floating, gleaming glass-like shards.

Me and the others stood dumbstruck, though one man remained incredulous, doubting this form's durability and stability. This annoyed the subject, who stamped off towards the nearest exit. With a precise, powerful kick, she sends the door flying off its hinges. The others speak uninhibitedly, saying stuff about matter manipulation and instant knowledge of martial arts.

The glass-girl leaves to some hallways, the scientists flocking towards her with endless queries, her answers laconic and distant in tone. I followed as well, but kept my distance, and to myself. I mentally questioned the consequences, and above all, ethicality, in all this.

In time, the subject squeezed herself into another room. Before anyone else followed, another fellow spoke of similar concerns to mine. Everyone froze to contemplate. Maybe they too realized the implications. Well, except for one man, who placidly expressed his achieving his life work: the creation of a transhuman. Outrage sparked, and the scientists bickered amongst one another. I alone stepped forth to question this new creation.

Now, I was in a wide space constructed of blue metal. There, the "transhuman" was seated hands down and a knee up on the floor, lost in thought. She stares harshly at me, though this softens to a mix of regret and longing. I sensed she already knew what I'd say. Through much stammering, I ask on her concerns, if any, of humanity and morality, though the forward, confused manner in which I did so made me feel foolish.

The glass-shard being remained silent. She leaned closer to me, and outstretched her hand to my eyes. This reformed into a curious, maze-like symbol, the walls indented black. As I followed the pattern, blue liquid filled in the transparent lines from top to bottom. One wider section contained the substance in such a way so as to keep some empty space.

Things get hazy, caused by some distracting media comparisons. This had to do with the water physics of Dwarf Fortress and Terraria, of all things. Not sure what else happened until the dream ended. After recalling this dream, I realized the strange woman was no transhuman. She was a post-human.

Bedtime:
10:30pm
Wakeup:
5:30am

Didn't end up falling asleep until after 11:30, so didn't get a full 8 hours last night.

Dream 1 (fragment):
I was in a mini van listening to a CD I got from the library, it was all Beatles music. This is the 2nd time I've listened to the Beatles in my dreams lately, I think it's because I watched the Anthology documentary recently. Anyways, my old dog Stormy was there again (2nd time this week!) she left a big muddy pawprint on the seat when she jumped out of the van, but I didn't mind because I was so excited to see her!

Dream 2:
I had to go back to my high school (dreamsign!) for some sort of meeting, though I was vague on the details. All I knew was that if we didn't go, our diplomas would not actually be valid. It ended up being a movie night, we were watching "Space Jam 3" which I don't think exists in WL, but anyways, I was there with my friend Laura and I realized my hair was really long on the top and really curly. I remember looking in the mirror very excitedly because I've always wanted curly hair. By the end of this movie, I remember saying "is this really all the wanted us here for? This is a requirement for us to get our diplomas, but really it's just to get us to buy stuff" I don't actually remember buying anything, but that's how I was feeling, apparently. Once we were released, I ran through the hallway to get back to my apartment, but i had a textbook in a backpack I was wearing and it was really slowing me down. Running took a lot of effort, the bag was SO heavy, even though there was only one book. I remember thinking "wow, I've really gotten out of shape since I graduated high school," but really it's because I was DREAMING, should have done an RC... anyways, I was running so hard and getting so sweaty, that by the time I got back to my room, my hair was all wet and it was straight again. It also looked like my hair was thinning a lot on the top, I barely had any left.
I got back to my room to find my three roommates (none of them are my WL roommate) who were all in my graduating class, and they were working out. Our apartment was a gym, and my bed was just a couch on the side. Then i had this fake dream memory where I remembered my WL roommate was just letting me crash with her because I hated my real living situation. I decided I would go back and stay with her, because I had a real bed and room to myself.
The dream ended where I was driving to get something from walgreens. I almost walked, but the sun was starting to set and I didn't want to walk in the dark. Before I even arrived at walgreens, I noticed it was pitch black outisde. "wow," I thought, "It really did get dark quickly, good thing I drove,"

I feel like this whole dream I was noticing the strange inconsistencies, but didn't once think to try and RC! Before I went to bed, I was really focusing on doing a RC when I saw a dreamsign, but it looks like it didn't work, though the fact that I was noticing anything at all is a step in the right direction, I think!!

I'm about to take an afternoon nap... I'm hoping for a LD

My brother and I were going to road trip all the way to los angeles. We had to pick a car, and for some reason we were in the same school, and the school was going to pay for the car. We went to a massive car lot that had everything from lamborghinis to mopeds but we took so long to choose we were kicked out. Too bad.

Dream #1: non-lucid- All the details were very vivid in this dream. All the way down to cups & silverware & blankets & furniture etc. Jason & I were at college & were dating but then he turned in Bobby. We were hanging out on campus & doing normal college like stuff like eating together & romantic stuff. But then last nights dream guy became my new guy somehow & we were beginning a new romance & kissing & taking walks. I was staying in a rental w/ some other people now off campus & we were getting tired so I told him he could crash there with me. There was some weird reunion of people at my house & then the lights went dark & I sat on him.


Jason & Bobby were childhood friends of mine. The dream guy from the night before was weird.



Dream #2: non-lucid & lucid- I was at Richie's farm. But it only had very few details of the original. We were having a family reunion where I had become a permanent part of the family. There were a good 80 people or so there in the big farm house & outside. Lots of cars & trucks & other things that are normally on the farm. (Became Lucid) The details were intensely realistic & normal. Real things such as knickknacks everywhere. Everyone knew who I was & they were telling me who had had kids & married such & such & pulling out photo albums left & right. Lots of memories were going along with all of these things. This was extremely elaborate & there was a futuristic field they were showing me across the street where life had changed for all of us. It was elaborate with technologies that we don't have now for everyday life. A whole new system of farming & hovering crafts for water system & flying machines running the farm.... At this point I felt I was supposed to go back to my original families house but I was torn & really didn't want to go because of how all that turned out for me before.

Richie & her husband were one of my foster families. I was actually lived there twice. The first time I was going to go home to try & reintegrate me w/ my real family but it didn't work. I won't elaborate on that right now. I then came back after a few months but eventually I broke the rules of prom by leaving w/ my prom date from the after party. We still left amicably. I really loved them. They were good people. I even got a tattoo from one of my foster sisters (actually I put them on myself with her stuff & she gave me a dot on my shoulder to always remember here) & we went to high school for a while together in a whole other town.

Dream #3: Non-Lucid-Nightmare- I was in this house behind mine which is now a bunch of apartments. People busted in while my daughters house & these people were stealing all her shit. More very detailed stuff in it. I pulled out my phone to call the police & at some point I had to put it back cuz they almost caught me trying to call on them & they were an unsavory bunch. At the end I pulled it out & this woman just laughed at me & said "Good luck with that". Somehow she had magically took my phone which was now in her hands & fake phone was in mine. They tore out of there at that point & I woke up.

Recently I've tried not to interfere when I become lucid to work on noticing details. Apparently it's working. I've always noticed that when you try to change your dreams when you become lucid you take a big risk of losing a lot of details so I'm working on mastering details more lately.


Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

25.06.2016

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was at a mall; for some reason I was on top of a huge construction tower inside the mall with a female friend. She grabbed my hand and we started making our way down the tower, leaping from platform to platform and running down the stairs. We got to the parking lot and met up with the rest of the group. We started driving into the woods and found a secluded spot. We parked our cars and set up camp. It was night time, the moon was full and the sky was clear. We started playing soccer and more people started arriving at the campsite.

25.06.2016

(WILD/SSILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up 4.25 hours after going to bed. I remembered right away that it was time to attempt SSILD; I got out of bed and felt extremely tired. I stayed inside my room, just walking around and staring at things. After 5 minutes I went back to bed and laid on my back. I did 4 shorts cycles, but kept getting distracted by toughts; instead of worrying about these thoughts I just let them pass by and got back to the cycles. Then I started doing the long cycles, I probably went through 1 or 2 until I noticed I was falling asleep. I switched positions to my sleeping position (laying on my stomach) and focused on hearing my sleep fan. I don't know how much time passed or whether I fell asleep and then woke up, but I started hearing the buzzing that I am all too familiar with from my WILD experiences. I started feeling the tingling in my legs, and the sound coming and going. I waited a minute or so, and then stood up from my bed.

I was in my room, it was dark and things were not arranged as they actually are. I looked at the window and was tempted to jump out and start flying but decided not to, afraid I would wake myself up. "It has been a while" I thought to my self; I opened the door and walked down the stairs. It was bit lighter downstairs. I opened the backyard door and sat on the patio couch; It was dawn and the sky had all kinds of vanilla and purple clouds. It was so mesmerizing I thought I should take a picture of it, but then realized I wouldn't have it by the time I woke up. The dream was a little bit unstable, my vision was starting to get blurry so I started rubbing my hands together. I tried to remember other stabilizing techniques but I couldn't remember any, again, "it has been a while" I thought. I decided to just observe my surroundings and everything became really sharp. I was amazed at how surreal everything looked, and caught myself laughing out of pure enjoyment. I saw my dad driving around the corner and he asked me to help him with something. I leaped over the fence and we went to the garage. I opened the garage door with Telekinesis... We started cutting lumbers and I drifted into the dream.

I had another dream after this one, and when I woke up this morning I was disappointed because I thought SSILD hadn't worked, then I realized I did have SP during the night and that helped me remember most of the dream. Since I literally got back into lucid dreaming yesterday, this is a huge success and I know I need to build up by recall, as well as review other skills such as dream stabilization, dream recall, and dream control.

I was walking to my car and it was engulfed in a hedge growth. I tried to break through to sit in the front seat and wait for [someone]. My cat appears from a tree and the branch bends and lowers her to the ground- she looks as if she might fall but doesn’t.

I am still outside in the same area. I see a squirrel and I bend down and it comes to me. I don’t have anything to feed it so I get up before it approaches my hand.

I am in trouble in school, and I have to stay behind for in class detention along with around 5 other students. The teacher is a woman that in waking life I don’t recall ever seeing before. She doesn’t like me, as if I have behaved terribly and deserve no respect. She lets the two students she likes go home, and ignores us. The two other students and I get angry at how she is treating us. I get up and move to leave as well, and I knock things off of her desk.

I get a newsletter via email titled ‘The Dawn of the Voice.’

Thoughts:
The newsletter is probably a reference to a design job I might have to work on. I slept well and all the way through the night last night, but I felt frustrated this morning that I didn’t wake up immediately remembering my dreams. Once again I feel like I am not being very mindful and feel more determined to practice awareness and ramp up my meditation times.

A Japanese "castle" that I explored with a group of others?

Sailboating somewhere (not me driving) off the coast. The weather looked like it was getting pretty bad when we left (dark clouds approaching, already pretty high waves), so I wondered if this was really a good idea.

I was with some kid in the desert, next to a large structure. We wanted to leave. I started climbing a sandy hill, but the sand was deep and hard to move through. The hill suddenly turned extremely steep (90°), so it was impossible. A kid (possibly accompanied by another) appeared on top, seething with anger. He was mad at the kid who was with me, I think. I asked him why he was so angry. He replied that he had shown a potential customer the apartment, and that customer didn't want to rent it. Or something like it. He was in our way, and I didn't want to be trapped in there forever (it was the only way out), soI walked up to the wall of sand and kicked it. The sand collapsed, and the kid on top fell down with it. He immediately attacked me, possibly wielding some kind of stick or bat. I kept fighting, until I realized I must have been 15 years older than this kid and could easily overpower him. With some help of the other kid (he was possibly inspired by "Piggy" from Lord of the Flies, I watched the 1990 film yesterday and am still reading the book) I got him on the ground. He was swearing, but I grabbed his throat with both hands, and in the heat of the moment felt the desire to kill him. I squeezed hard, he went red and coughed a bit. I leaned closer, bit into his neck and savagely ripped out a chunk of flesh. Last thing I remember is me saying "Die, you little shit!". Then I woke up.

Dream
I'm in a forest during day time for a school trip of some sort. I'm hanging out with my friends, I recognise Cameron here. I show him how to identify magic mushrooms as we walk along. He's like "oh cool man, dude that's awesome" as I remember him being really keen to try them IRL. We're heading down slope with the group, ahead of us they're talking about how they just found a huge nest of blue lipped mussels. The mussels apparently clack their shells in order to bounce around, achieving a sort of momentary flight-hop to get around. They're not even in the water either, they're just on land for some reason. I imagine that there must be a river nearby that they came from and we all start heading downslope to try find it. I remember also having something in my hand that I needed to feed, like a little animal. We came to a small river and waded in, only to get caught by a teacher who was peering over at us. Apparently it's illegal to try catch mussels from the river or something

I was with my family in some kind of sports hall. Family from whole country gathered and we were playing some basketball before we were about to enter a church. With group of cousins we didn't wanted to go there, so we were circling around it. Suddenly I heard my mother's voice, she was talking to me through a window "What are you doing?! Have God abandoned you?!" We immediately entered the building and took our seats.

Next day was cold and rainy. Whole family drove away to their homes. We entered a small shop with my mother, it had a sign "Forestry equipment". There was an old man behind the counter. I looked around the shop - it was arranged like a small forestry inspectorate. Maps and equipment were laying on shelves and counter. I was quite interested in prices of various tools and maps. We talked about forestry overall, then the man went away and a woman appeared to serve us. It was a brunette woman with arms length hair, in long, black dress and with quite pretty face. She was in her late twenties. She had a similar face to the shop owner, she probably was his daughter.