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I knew it was time for a nap so I shut off the game that has been keeping me up at night and laid down on the couch. Everytime I lay down for a nap during the day I'm always reminded of becoming lucid in my sleep. If I keep it up, I could really get the hang of it.

Anyway, I shut my eyes and it really didn't take long before I felt that occasional buzz in my head (you know, that strange vibration as you're falling asleep, usually when your body is falling faster than you).

At first, and since I was intending to lucid dream, I tried to rush it a bit. The hypnogogia was crazy intense. In fact, I'm not sure if what I"ve had before was even hypnogogia before now. I remember seeing skylines and something else I can't recall. I remember something brief about my video game. I was creating a sim but it was so faded, the picture, that I couldn't see it. I began saying to myself that I was lucid and I was dreaming and it did seem to help, but then I said enhance and it acted like it was going to for a second, but it was too soon. I realized it was too soon and that I needed to ride the hypnogogia out a bit longer before I could dream.

I brought myself back to my waking state for a few minutes.

I sort of scolded myself for letting my mind wander to the game. What a waste.

I closed my eyes again and thankfully, within seconds I got the vibrations back quick.

I tried to be more patient the next time. I started to get that hypnogogia back again but then I started hallucinating voices. I was hearing my son and it sounded like he was getting up. I should've known it was my mind tricking me because I forced myself awake to check and see if he was up. (It can be hard to do this kind of thing with a kid in the house, I'm always afraid I won't hear him and something will happen).

Awake again, I assured myself I would hear him if he really got up and closed my eyes again.

This time, I snapped right back into the vibration/hypnogogia state.

I began my mantra again "I am lucid. I am dreaming" and it started sounding like I was whispering into a microphone. It almost sounded like one of those self improvement mp3s with voice suggestion. I kept repeating my mantra.

Then I started to hear a man's voice. I was going through so many thoughts following this point, so I hope this makes sense.

I was still repeating my words, but his voice cut in and said, "Just give me five minutes of your time." My eyes are watering right now because, I don't know, I felt like someone was truly trying to tell me something.

His voice was old and at first, he sounded like Stephen LaBerge, but then I thought maybe, just maybe, this was God. Finally speaking to me.

Right after he spoke and I realized it might be divine, I got images. I can very scarcely remember them, unfortunately, because at the same time I got the pictures, a Tool song started. It was clear as day. Eyes are watering again.

I was in such shock.

Maynard began to sing. I cannot! For the life! of me! think of what song it was. Maybe it'll come to me later.

The lyrics, of course, were changed though. They were speaking directly to me. He sang maybe two or three verses before I woke up. I heard every word, but I can now only remember two: Regression, and annoying.

I understood it then, and I still feel like I understand it now, but no longer in word form, only the feeling I got from it.

God, I tried so hard to get back there again, but my son DID wake up. And I had gotten too excited that I couldn't fall asleep again.

I remember as the song started that I was thinking, shit, I need to write this down, but I can't leave?! I think that's why I only caught three verses and woke up.

IT was an amazing experience, even as short as it was. This journal entry doesn't even give it justice and I really didn't even want to type it in here, but I felt like I needed to.

From now on, I will take naps during the day as soon as the kid's asleep. If my subconscious is finally going to come forward and talk to me, I need to be there, because I truly am one screwed up little girl in my head...

I had to infiltrate this facility place owned by an evil organisation of scientists, so I did, and i did this by somehow disguising myself as someone by stealing their appearance by somehow killing them. I spent some time wandering around, it was nice, sunny weather. Eventually it turned out the guy I was impostering as was very important, and had his own room! so I when there, but it turned out to be a trap, and the room somehow ended up in space! The leader of the organisation was also there trying to talk to me, but I somehow got outside when I saw an angry Commander Shepard from Mass Effect looking through the window, I went up behind him, did a double thumbs up to the villain, and flew off.

I am sitting in a sandy swamp area with another man. He is a colleague of mine and we are in silent contemplation. A horrible incident occurred here a short while ago in which two small children were devoured by thousands of rats. The area has since dried up, rendering the landscape quite eerie. We turn to see a woman to our side. She looks at us and her heart drops, only now does she realise that what took place did so in the very place she sat. “I thought this would just be a quiet place to relax” she says apologetically. We both shake our heads, and I offer to walk the girl back. We cross the sandy dunes of the dried up swamp and I can sense the girl scanning the area and envisaging in her mind the events that transpired. She tells me she wants to walk faster. Eventually we get to a jeep. I ask if it’s hers and she answers yes. I climb in and we drive off. The girl is obviously quite shaken by the history of the area, and becomes visibly upset. I try to tell her it is okay and that she came by mistake but she has become rude in her guilt. “Oh it was okay? It was okay was it??” She becomes delirious and my efforts to reassure her are hopeless. I tell her to drop me off and that I will walk back.

I get off and find myself roaming a vast dessert filled with fascinatingly shaped mountains and rocks. As I explore further I see that these formations are a complex series of geometric patterns, manifested as sets of never-ending clusters within clusters. My view of the world shifts and I see that I am actually indoors. I am a tuxedo-wearing Bryan Cranston and I am in a huge room with walls lined by hundreds of large screens, all showing the same images of the sand formations. I am the creator and controller of this incredible room, however I am currently under a great deal of stress. The android I created to act as my assistant has left me, and I find that in my anger I am quickly losing my mind. I rampage through the area, exclaiming aloud my bewilderment that anyone would want to leave. I see my former assistant through a window, and become furious when I find that he is taunting me. I soon notice something though. With each movement I make, the images on the screens distort themselves in wonderful ways. This is a new development and I consider it to be an amazing one. I run around, throwing myself left and right, watching as the sand formations on the screen spiral in response to my every move. They retract when I lean towards them, and expand when I lean back. I fling myself into the air, swing on poles and run up the spiral staircase marvelling at the greatest visual experience I have ever witnessed. Soon the screens depict a vortex of colour, pulsating and vibrant. I lie on the ground, overwhelmed.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

4 days after my Lucid, I have managed to recall a clear, vivid dream. Quite an odd dream to say the least.

I was in a hospital car parking lot with a bunch of random dream characters. I then sat in a car with the door open. I either sat on the seat or put my leg inside. Then out of fucking nowhere, this crazy guy runs out and throws a bucket of angry locusts in the car. I felt the sharpest pain in my legs as if they bit me. I then ran around the car park screaming and shouting "I have a disease!" I ran back to where the car was and realised it was 1pm and the disasters are calm at that time. I had no idea where I got the idea of disasters, but there were lots of them. I walked out of the parking lot and began walking up the road. My step brother was ahead of me. I turned to the left and noticed a huge crack following us up the road. I looked back and saw that it was on the path that we were on, so we went full out and ran for our lives. I tried to avoid falling down the small holes that were appearing under our feet, although they were about 3cms deep. After about 20 seconds of running, I found myself at a dead end. I turned left and entered a small blue house. There were two ways in the house, upstairs or down a slope. I headed down the slope and saw a woman. She started blabbering on about her daughter going missing and wanted me to find her. She then said the weirdest thing I have ever heard. She said "You can fap fap fap all you want, but for now, just fuck." I gave her a poker face and walked out the front door to the left. I saw a guy stood on a fence with lots of explosive barrels around it. A girl with blue hair (possibly my dream guide?) ran out and the lady smiled. Maybe it was her daughter. The guy seemed happy too, but gave the girl some sort of trial or training. The training was to explode all of the barrels. The girl ran around a circle then came back and punched the barrel. I woke up from the explosion.

Probably the most wtf dream ever. But it's nice to have some recall! I hope to stay awake when I WILD from now on. This dream was a result of waking up at 3:13am then going back to sleep instead of WILDing. Thanks for reading .

I met a blue haired girl twice before. The first can be found here.

The second here.

I know I had two fragments from last night but I can only remember one.

I have a CAP encampment coming up next week so I dreamed I was there. Then I remember my flight sergeant coming and yelling at me because my boots weren't shined. I went and got some polish and then was woken up unexpectedly. (see June 20 Notes)

I had been reading about spuulements and vitamins for dreaming. I decided to try B6 (100 mg) and Magnesium (250 mg). I think they helped make the dream very vivid and thankfully I did not expierence the nightmares that people say comes with it. I will continue on with this for a while just to be safe.

I fell asleep at about 11:15 and tried going into SP. Although many people say it can't be done all of my vivid dreams seem to happen very soon after I fall asleep so I try to enter a dream from sleep anyways.

I had a bunch of vivid dreams my first REM cycle and woke up at about 2:30. I recorded them and attempted a WILD again. This time I felt even closer. My head started vibrating like it was doing a workout and the rest of my body seemed to melt into the bed. I really could only feel my head and was just starting to work on the breathing but I fell asleep. I think if I would of focused on re-entering the dream right then I could of made it.

I was rudely awakened in the middle of my REM cycle by the wind slamming my door shut. It was about 4:45 and I couldn't recall any dreams I was just having besides a couple of fragments.

Woke up at 7:30 and couldn't remember anything else.

I entered the dream standing at the railyards. I was with some people from school. Anyways, there is an overpass that goes over the train tracks. We climbed up to the top and jumped onto a speeding freight train as it passed under. We were then told that we all had to make it to the engine from the middle where we had jumped on. We all started advancing and eventually made it to the engine. I asked one of my friends why we had to get here and he said I would see in a second. Literally a second later we passed under a low tunnel and one of the guys who didn't quite make it to the engine (which was lower than the coal cars) was... evaporated... you might say. Just went poof. None of us seemed concerned for some reason though and then we recieved a radio transmission through the train's radio. We were told we had to get the train off the tracks and keep it going faster then 56 mph or else, although I'm still not really sure what "or else" was. (kind of like the movie "Speed" if you have seen it I guess) Suddenly all the freight cars derailed and the train was on its own. We went really fast around a corner and the engine derailed as well. Then it kind of converted into a semi. As we careened helplessly through the streets concerned our speed would go below 56 mph we came up with a plan. There were 3 of us. *Don't laugh at this next part, it was just one of those completely random things in a dream. Apparently it is a bad idea to play too much of one game right before bed because our plan involved collecting rings and killing little animal shaped robots. Ya my Steam profile says I played Sonic 4 Ep II from 8:30 - 10:00 last night. I went to bed right after lol. * OK so anyways one guy was responsible for killing the robots before they hit the train and slowed it down. The next guy was responsible for radio communication w/ HQ or whoever the heck told us we needed to stay going that fast anyways. The last guy, me, was responsible for collecting any passing rings and getting at least 50. So we did this for a few minutes and eventually had collected the required amount. "Well, what now?" I said. My firend said we should go ask someone who would know about these things and so we went to the college track. Don't ask me how we got off the train and stuff but we were just there all of a sudden. Anyways, we walked around for a bit to find this professor who supposedly knew what to do. We finally found him and he was wearing some type of Haloween costume. Before we could go ask him though we were back on the train/semi thing. We were now all hopelessly lost because our speed was now 60 mph and we were almost too slow. Then I suddenly remembered what to use the 50 rings for. I said we would just use them to have SuperSonic push the train for us. *thank God I grinded out that last Steam achivement huh?* For some reason this didn't really seem to say "DUDE, YOU ARE DREAMING." Well I guess none of the rest made sense either but ya, should of become lucid right then. Then the dream randomly changed before anything happened.

I was with a bunch of random people and we were all dressed up as Power Rangers. IDK why because I never even watched that show as a kid. Anyways, we were all outside standing in this garden type area discussing the best way to be a 'team leader' (no clue what that was supposed to mean but thats what it was). We tried to wrap up the discussion quickly because at 6:30 all our suits would turn off and that would be catostrophic for some reason. Well, 6:30 came and all the suits turned off. To protest, we all layed on the ground and would not move. Then some very flexible people decided to chop themselves in half to make the protest more dramatic. Good time to become lucid anyone?? People being fine after chopping themselves in half?? After a few minutes of laying on the ground this big vortex thing sucked us all up and the dream changed. After exiting the vortex I was on my front lawn in a conga line with all the people form school. In a firm tone of voice I asked one of the people there if I was dreaming because some things just seemed so wierd. He said no way and any awareness I had vanished as I resumed doing the conga!

I can't recall when this dream occurred but it was pretty vivid. Anyways, the first thing I remember was that I was riding in a car with this old guy from the nursing home who I was supposedly to take care of because he couldn't walk or something. Then I remember we went to a lake and launched a boat and began fishing. The boat had an outboard but he insisted we paddle. For an old guy who couldn't walk he sure could paddle the boat fast! I couldn't keep up! As we were going along we beached on a sandbar and he told me to get out and push. I got out and then he jumped out and swam to the shore. (so much for not being able to use his legs) As I went to go see what he was doing I just barely dodged a rocket car / boat thing. And who was driving it?? THE OLD GUY! After I finally made it to shore a carload of girls drove up to ask for the old guy's autograph because apparently he was some famous rocket car driver. I, being stuck having to take care of this crazy old man, had to go and get lemonade and coca-cola for him and his 'friends' to drink. Then I had a bit of deja-vu as he launched another rocket but this time it was actually a rocket. Then it went up a ways, came back down, and I narrowly avoided death again. Then I ended up serving drinks again. Soon after the dream quickly changed to the old guy finally going home. Turns out he was also a boss at driving rocket propelled excavators too and thats what he drove home in.

Now I was not actually Mr. Bond himself but it was action packed with lots of guns, explosions, and ... um... you know, that other thing James Bond does a lot of. So, we were all hiding out in the basement of this warehouse. Then this lady comes around the corner. (she was on our side though) As she walks towards us she pops two bad guys in the head that are about 100 yards away without even looking AND using a pistol. Then we all ran up the stairs to a bunker type room. Then everyone kind of dissappeared and I was left alone with this chick that was trying to get information out of me. (was I duped by my own side?) Anyways, she was trying to get me to say something (idk what) by doing what she did best. *winks* I held firm though and wouldn't speak. Then she called in reinforcements and i had about 5 girls all doing thier stuff trying to get me to speak. *DISCLAIMER Ya I know this would be the ideal dream for some of you but personally I found it pretty wierd and wish I had become lucid so I could continue on w/ my quest from the last lucid dream* So ya, I held out though and they released me. I was then standing outside my own HQ and the commander guy radioed to us that we all needed to go to our offices. Then we all pulled out computer keyboards, typed in our passwords, and a jetpack came out of the keyboard. We were all headed to a portal thing to take us to our offices and then we were under fire. Someone already at the protal fired back and drove them away. Then they got sucked out of the portal and I jetted back to save them. Then we all made it back safely. We were then talking to this monkey. We could understand it but only if it talked really slow. So, someone built a translator thing so it could talk fast. Then I went out on another mission with the monkey radioing me info. My codename was "Ru 2" and he was "Ru HQ". He asked me for a comm check and then I woke up.

Dreamed I was driving up a hill to go to a Doctor appointment. My car started shrilling an alarm and I saw I was JUST about out of gas. I placed the car in neutral and rolled backward to a gas station I had passed.
When I was very close to the pumps, my car stalled and I realized I never would have made it to the top of the hill, so I was very proud of my backward driving
My kids bumped fists, then thought such too tame so they then banged on the door of a house they thought empty.
But the owner was home and he was most displeased about the noise.

Dreamed the kids weren't doing as I asked so I went to my hubby for help. But he was much too hard on a much younger Ray. Hubby told him he could find a new place to live if he didn't start showing me some respect, but Ray was only about 9 years old in the dream lol
For some reason, Ray called hubby "Uncle".
There was a lot more to the dream but I've forgotten it.

Dreamed I found a teensy alligator. He was eating a lizard (tail first) that was as big as he was. The alligator even "rolled" as if he was in water lol
I picked him up and he bit me. It hurt a little at first, but I was excited to show him off, but he disappeared along the way.

Then I saw a large fish. Myles was excited about his discovery and was carrying it around, cradling it and petting it lol
I told him it was a fish and the fish was about to die. So we released it into a bathtub filled with water. Myles thought the fish was drowning because it kept leaning to the side and surfacing as if to breathe. I told him the fish was just looking for food.

Dreamed something about driving and something about the Congregation, but I've forgotten the details.

Dreamed all the kids wrote their father a letter. It was a bit like "This is your life", but mostly mean-spirited. Their grandmother and I were very disappointed in them.

2 HOUR NAP

Dreamed Roxanna died. I was very upset but I reassured others they had done the right thing by not telling me first. Juliet had been called in from NY to settle Roxanna's affairs.

In another dream, a 6 year old boy attacked someone who was threatening his teenaged sister. When they got home, he told her he loves her and then he kissed her very intimated on the lips. She kissed him back but then gently pushed him away. But she thought "Damn, that boy can kiss!"
She had just had a baby boy and thought about how nice it was to have both her boys love her so much they'd do anything for her.

In another dream, there were 2 bears in my bed (a larger "normal" bed).
They wanted to mate, so they kicked me out of the bed and I literally snarled at the male lol

In yet another dream, I was in a stadium full of ppl. I took out a recorder (flute) at some point. Myles bickered with me about my finger placement. I didn't change it and when I blew a single note, it was very loud and VERY shrill.
Then someone came along and made ppl move so we could squeeze in another row of seats. I helped move the chairs but I was still annoyed about the tight fit.

I also dreamed I was at Grams old place and I was using something (?) to glide around the air with. It was like one of my bandanna's, only metal. I held it above my head and twisted my arms side to side above me. That lifted me off the ground. Then I would alternate a sort of "rowing" motion which lifted me even more and allowed me limited movement. I could only stay airborne for small amounts of time but it was great fun.

5 HOUR NAP

Dreamed I almost had sex. Forgot the details.

Dreamed I was at a school and went into a co-gender restroom to change clothes. At first, my clothes were in a shopping cart. I looked for a stall and found 2 which were really gross. In a cleaner one, I struggled to wedge the cart in the doorway.
Another woman was in the restroom wearing a bra top. She complained about her hair which was black and wet. She was combing her hair in front of a mirror and one of the plastic tips from her brush fell off.
Then another woman came in and asked what we were doing. I quietly closed and then locked the stall to make her think I was using the restroom. She told us we had 5 minutes to get to class.
My clothes were now in a box with me inside the stall lol and they smelled bad, so I sprayed some vanilla perfume on them.

I woke up to another dead bird in my bed....... Grrr...

Oh, hello.

I didn't know anyone still visited this dusty old place... There's plenty of tidying up to do, that's for sure. But in the Spirit of Procrastination™ I've created a (completely free) blog/resource that is relevant to my interests!

*link preemptively removed*

I have plans to re-write entries as pieces of fiction and post them there occasionally. Of course, that doesn't even begin to scratch the surface of what'll I'll eventually be doing. Most of you won't care, or be interested, but that's where my future guides (and ones not featured on DV) will be popping up, along with other insights that might help you achieve or understand lucidity in a new way.

If the staff is cool with it, I'd be more than happy to share these resources on DV, but it's not worth getting banned over.

Of course, the blog won't be all about lucidity, as restricting myself to a single topic would get boring fast....

Anywho.

Cheers!

P.S. I know "advertising" isn't allowed. There used to be a clause that allowed linking to free off-site resources, but I guess that's been nixed. Hence my preemptive removal of the link. If anyone would like to discuss this matter with me, I'll clear out some space in my inbox.

Over there,
Where a vacant lot densely filled with tall weeds,
Stood a tall tree for decades.
Villagers nearby had a strange story of a lost child, strolling;

“Ma… where are you?”

“Ma… I miss you.”

A motherless child blankly cries for its mother.
People tentatively speculate
An abandoned corpse lies beneath the tree,
Waiting and wandering

Mama……

A small tree at the time of a child’s death
Burgeons into a luxuriant tree.
The taller it grows,
Higher and farther a child visions.

Mama……

Avoiding and whispering
Supposedly about the damned tree.
Villagers feel the eerie note to a child’s voice;
Enamoring adroitly.
A warning goes into one ear out the other,
I look up for this infamous tree.

At the top its companion
There is a child wearing a raggedy straw hat,
Incessantly gazing at one place;

Mama……

A pitiful child with
Lingering attachment and memories
Still has eyes full of tears

Woke a couple times, tossed and turned a little, had a couple of soda dreams which were quickly forgotten because Meesha brought ON MY BED a dead and helf-eaten bird.

TOOK A NAP

Dreamed I was in some strange dark building/room and I came across a black woman who was about to give birth. She was in a LOT of pain and I wanted to help, but she didn't speak English.
I was with the Coroner from the show Glades and I kept trying to reassure the woman that he could help, that he was a doctor.

Ahh yes, but before that, I was in a main area for entertainers and strippers. A woman was desperate for a job. She was on the verge of being fired.
She was new and wore a very neat dress but the decorative seams down the sides were unraveling and she was upset. I wanted to help but the seems looked like they were nothing more than hair ties which had been looped and the metal from the bands were falling off.
I ventured off then found the woman about to give birth.

I dreamed Zee's Case Worker brought her home. I had been sleeping and missed an appointment that I would have picked my daughter up from.
Zee covered Ray's face in a picture with a puffy sticker.
The Case Worker complained someone volunteer her to also pick up and deliver Colleen, which she wasn't happy about at all.
She was nice to me, though, and didn't seem to mind having transported Zee.

I also dreamed I was driving and saw some Chickens and Eggs on the side of the road. They seemed wild and I figured no one would mind, so I pulled over to gather the eggs. One of the chickens acted like she was going to attack me but I ignored her. All of the eggs were either cracked or rotten though.