dream fragment

I know I had two fragments from last night but I can only remember one.

I have a CAP encampment coming up next week so I dreamed I was there. Then I remember my flight sergeant coming and yelling at me because my boots weren't shined. I went and got some polish and then was woken up unexpectedly. (see June 20 Notes)

Over there,
Where a vacant lot densely filled with tall weeds,
Stood a tall tree for decades.
Villagers nearby had a strange story of a lost child, strolling;

“Ma… where are you?”

“Ma… I miss you.”

A motherless child blankly cries for its mother.
People tentatively speculate
An abandoned corpse lies beneath the tree,
Waiting and wandering

Mama……

A small tree at the time of a child’s death
Burgeons into a luxuriant tree.
The taller it grows,
Higher and farther a child visions.

Mama……

Avoiding and whispering
Supposedly about the damned tree.
Villagers feel the eerie note to a child’s voice;
Enamoring adroitly.
A warning goes into one ear out the other,
I look up for this infamous tree.

At the top its companion
There is a child wearing a raggedy straw hat,
Incessantly gazing at one place;

Mama……

A pitiful child with
Lingering attachment and memories
Still has eyes full of tears

Had a very vague dream about playing StarWars BattleFront III on a PS4.

06/19/2012
Dream Fragment One:
I was in some large, cylindrical chamber, and had just 'acquired' a bad-ass, jet-black racing motorcycle. I spent a little while in this chamber, spinning the tires and riding up and down elevations in the architecture. Later, I had gotten the bike on the night road, and was riding along side some friend of mine, but don't remember the rest.


Dream Fragment Two (I think):
(I'm pretty sure this was a separate dream, but can't say that I'm certain.) I was with BR, T and maybe one or two other friends. We were riding BMX bikes and jumping some dirt ramps in the woods. At one point, BR jumped off a short ramp and didn't quite clear the gap, but was able to jump his feet off of the pedals with enough time to catch himself on the elevated platform, before falling back down into the gap. A short time afterward, I was going back the other way - jumping from the elevated platform, and using the short ramp as a catch ramp - and caught my front tire on the catch ramp, face-planting in the dirt. I remember getting up and wondering about how strange it was that it didn't hurt, though I wasn't aware enough to become lucid.



06/20/2012
Dream Fragment One:
I was splitting two adjacent hotel rooms between myself and about 4 girls, some of whom I recognized - some I didn't. It was just all kinds of fun. Lol. I really don't remember all that much, besides all having a lot of laughs as we moved from room to room, and then sharing a bed with two of them, when it was time to crash. The next morning, something happened to where we found out that there were some people after us, and the 3 of us in the room I was in had to use some secret tunnel to take us from our room and (somehow) across the hall to the other room, so that we wouldn't be there when our pursuers busted in our door.


Dream Two:
"Pre-emptive Scare"

One of those strange "in-between" dreams, where you can't tell if you're fully-awake, dreaming, or just having some hypnopompic hallucinations...)
I was lying in bed with my eyes closed, facing the wall, when I heard my mom getting ready for work and talking to my daughter out in the hallway. I then heard someone messing with my doorknob, which is locked. Then, I heard CJ whispering to my mom to unlock the door, so she could come in and scare me while I was sleeping. Somewhat smiling at myself at this, I decided to play possum for a minute, to see if she would really try.

The door quietly creaked open. I could hear it from behind me as I continue to face the wall with my eyes shut. I began wondering if this was really happening, because it was so out of the ordinary (my daughter would have never unlocked my door to come in my room), but the more I questioned it, the clearer I heard her feet softly shuffling across the carpet toward my bed. Still not really sure whether I was really awake or not, I turned really quickly and sort of half-shouted "raaah!" at where I knew she would be.

But she wasn't there, and I was now fully-awake, and staring at an empty room, feeling a little foolish for having tried to scare someone who wasn't there.

(As much as I'm fascinated by those 'threshold-of-waking' tricks that our minds play on us, they do have a way of making you feel stupid when you fall for them. Lol.)

I don't remember much but I'll try my best at trying to explain what I saw in little bits. Okay first, I was in a house somewhere in a land far away. The place looked so familiar and just felt so familiar. I'm inside a house that really had no rooms, only a hallway and ever time I dream of this same place, I wouldn't remember if there were people or not. It was sort of like just thoughts that I was picturing. I'm not sure how to explain it. Anyways, Sometime when I was inside this narrow hallway, I was crying again over Quynh. I was in deep pain. I cried so much for her that I didn't know what I was going to do to continue living without her. It was like my pain doubled from waking life. But I while I was crying, I thought about the pain I have to endure to finally get her out of my life. I thought about just forgetting everything about her, then I won't be so sad anymore. I suppose this made me feel better upon awakening because I wasn't dealing with as much mental pain than the dream. I was also thinking of the group therapy session I had the previous day when we talked about this. I also remember being in the kitchen with my mom while she was serving me some drinks. I still felt a little bad about not being able to see Quynh again but I told my mother I would eventually forget about her.

Shradha is in a bus and I am walking and we are in coimbatore and we are goig to uppilipalayam.. Nikitha is there and I am dating her in the dream. She is coming out with some bike key and she is leaving. I give her my bike key instead and she is saying the key is not working. I am telling her it is in my pocket.

Kunji Sharik, his boy friend go to a bakery next to PMB (which in real life does not exist) . His boy friend went inside. Kunjan wants to rip off his boyfriend. I am asking sharik, "Does he know about us ripping him off?" He is saying he does not know. And then Rony, Mukhil come, it is night and the Pm door is closed. we somehow get inside from the front and we are taking a flash light and we are keeping some money there.

My extended family was together at my grandparents' house, which in waking life was sold shortly after their passing nearly ten years ago. The atmosphere was very casual, and felt as though it was Christmas. My grandparents were there, and their being present is a common dream sign, so as I stood in their kitchen, I became lucid.

I can't remember very much about this dream, I think because my recall wasn't very good that night and my ad-hoc self-prompt to remember it only covered the dream very generally, which was much longer than my last lucid. I recall thinking that it had been ten minutes. I also don't think the dream was very vivid to begin with. It seemed to vague in retrospect that I questioned whether I had been truly lucid.

After becoming lucid, all that I remember of the dream was communing with my imagined family and at one point gathering in close in conversation, all facing in one general direction as if posing for a picture that was not being taken. That is literally all the detail I can recall, other than the layout of the house, which I know by heart. I couldn't even tell you who else was there or what they said to me, only that they were family.

I tried to recall some kind of information from the waking world after basking in the atmosphere for a while, thinking, "Now this is really nice." and the connection I made with the waking world destabilized the dream. All I can remember recalling from the waking world involves an isolated vision of a piece of paper with a coloured in cartoon drawing of a piece of bacon.

I really don't know what to make of this one, to be honest.

Dream One (Fragment): I dreamed of watching those youtube videos from last nights chats, lol.

Dream Two: I only have vague memories of the first part of the dream. I know it was like a party or a restaurant or some sort of other loud dim atmosphere. The first point of the dream I can really remember I'm in a gravel driveway in front of a house that reminds me of my dad's trailer, but the house really looks nothing like it. I think the house is just where his trailer should be. There's a blond guy with medium length hair in front of me, dressed in the Shinsengumi blues from Hakuouki. I hear a noise behind me, and I see a zombie with green flesh stumbling in my direction. A man in a white lab coat and medium length grey hair was also behind me, and he turns quickly also startled by the sound. He tries to pull a knife out of his coat, but it does him no good against this zombie and it bites him in the hand when he tries to strike at it with the knife. The man behind me curses, and then tells me to stay behind him as he rushes forwards and draws a sword, the slashes the zombie in half. He says something like, "Looks like the good doctors experiments have escaped during our absence." and then he turns to me and tells me that I should scream as loudly as possible. I find this odd, and ask him why, and he informs me that the screams of a helpless woman will surely draw the attention of any other escaped experiments in the area. So I start screaming pretty fakely, but when I do the bushes start moving and I start screaming for real and scramble onto the covered bed of a nearby red truck. An arm reaches out of the back window of the truck and grabs my legs, I freak and kick it then jump on top of the cab of the truck hoping to be safe on the highest ground. The Blond guy gets all the zombies, then starts assessing the damage to the house. He tells me there's a lot of damage to the doors where they've no doubt tried to bang against them to get in, but it doesn't look like they were able to break in. He pulls a key out of his sleeve, and opens the front door. I hop off the truck and try to half carry the man in the lab coat (whom I'm assuming was the "good" doctor) inside, and then some headlights shine on the house. The Blonde guy curses again and says of all the times for an inspection of the house, this is the worst. I'm not sure why anyone is inspecting, but two women get out of the little car that pulled up with clip boards. I think the middle of the night is an awkward time for an inspection, but the women say it's a surprise inspection to be sure that everything is the same when they're not expected as when they are. Makes sense I guess, but I still don't know they were inspecting for. When we open the door, there's a woman inside as well, but she looks closer to my age, maybe even younger. She's holding a baby, and she's so happy that we're home. She starts to gush and cry to me about how those monsters were trying to get in and eat her and the baby, but then she sees the inspectors and the injured doctor, and she rushes me and the doctor into a room on the right. The inspectors start to follow us, but the blond guy tells them to leave us be because I needed to nurse the baby and the old man got drunk and hurt his hand and needed it cleaned and bandaged. The women didn't seem like they were very keen on seeing blood, lol. In the room, I lay down on the bed and started nursing the little baby whom I'm guessing by this point was mine. She was a cute baby girl though, probably just a couple months old. The doctor stumbled and fell onto the bed as well, and I noticed he didn't look so good. His hand was completely healed, but he looked like he was sweating and his dark grey hair was turning white as snow. I recognize these as signs of the fury blood lust in the game Hakuouki, and ask him if he needs blood. He assures me that he'll be fine, he'll get the medicine he needs as soon as the inspectors leave. I pull the baby as close to me as possible as if I could protect her from the man if he went crazy, then put an arm between her and him hoping that if the blood lust overcomes him he'll attack my arm not her because it's closest. Then I start saying , "Shhhhh, it's ok. It's ok, shhhhh." and petting his hair like I do to calm my kids when they're hurt. After what seems like an eternity the blond guy walks through the door and drapes the doctor over his shoulder and carries him out of the room. The baby is asleep, so I get off the bed and let the girl who handed me the baby to begin with sit with her. I start to follow the blonde guy out of the room, but he tells me he's taking the old man to his lab to get the medicine he needs, and some of the experiments might be loose still so I need to stay inside with another guy who's name I can't remember. The other guy had long brown hair, and he was leaning against the front door looking out the storm door, as if he was watching for something. He turns and smiles at me this huge goofy kid like grin and says something about how we're going to have fun without the blonde guy around, but it sounds more like a joke to lighten the mood than actually having nay meaning behind it. I nod, and walk back into the room with the baby, where I grab a blue robe like uniform like the guys were wearing, and a long staff with a blade on the end on it. I walk back into the living room where the front door was, and the guy in the door is shouting, "They're here! There's a bunch of them! They couldn't have all escaped from here, there's no way that lab would hold this many!" He dashes out the front door, and I follow. Lots of action ensues that I'm not even going to waste space narrating one by one. Lots of me stabbing these creatures through the throat and severing their spines and lots of me whipping the staff around and using the blade to slice their heads off. A thing I find weird now that I'm awake, I didn't have enough force to sever their heads unless I lifted my right hand and pushed extra hard against the staff closer to the tip than where I was holding it. It's wasn't a smooth motion like in the movies, ha ha. We massacre these zombies, and then start to go back into the house, but then there's another wave of them coming up the road. I notice that they keep going past us though, and start up my uncles driveway nearby. I start to take off to fight them, and the long dark haired guy tells me to come back or the blonde guy will had a fit. I tell him that's my family, and I can't let these things get them! I start fighting off the zombies on my own, and yelling at my cousins and uncle to get inside NOW! But they're having some sort of party (maybe that's where I came from in the beginning?) and they can't fit everyone inside. The brown haired guy comes over and helps me, but it's difficult to tell at points who's a zombie and who's not, so we're taking longer than we feel like we should to kick their butts and we're worried that another wave of zombies will arrive before we can even handle these. Just when it looks like we're getting ahead though, a short, skinny but built, and just generally hot Asian guy steps out in front of me. I immediately recognize him as one of our men, and start to lower my staff so it doesn't look like I'm attacking him, but he tells me, "I wouldn't do that if I were you. I'm not on your side anymore. These zombies are under my control." I raise my staff, but I know there's no way I can hold my own against him. Zombies are slow and can't really fight back, but this guy has been training and fighting for years and I'm just now learning. I decide I'm going to try using his honor against him, "If that's true, please wait until the others arrive. We both know I don't stand a chance against you. At least let me go down fighting your zombies. There's no honor in a fight between us." He laughs, and his hair goes white and I realize he's becoming a monster like the doctor was. He tells me he'll wait for the others, I'm not worth lifting his sword to. Then he jumps backwards, but goes much much farther than he should so its as if he's flying. He lands on the street where a new wave of Zombies is coming. The long brown haired guy tells me that He thinks he's got the last of the zombies, and what am I just standing around for? I tell him about the confrontation I just had, and he's pretty upset. We yell to my cousin that I think I've gotten all the zombies, but if they notice anyone turn into one, yell at us so we can kill them before they hurt anyone. Then we start running up the road to towards the new wave of zombies. Just as we jump into the wave and start fighting, the blond guy and another guy come rushing out of the house where the baby was and they jump into the fray as well. Soon all the zombies are down, but there's more coming from farther up the street, but before trying to fight them, the guys in blue all attack the Asian dude that used to be one of them. I stand back and watch as they are all yelling and attacking and dodging. Suddenly there's like a black wave that flies through the dream, like a shock wave but it's visible like a black cloud. It hits me, and everything goes black for half a second, and then I'm seeing images of myself being in a field of flowers typing on a computer about this dream, but I'm asking people how to defeat the dude and what I should do. Someone starts gushing out how cute the bad guy is, then someone gushing about one of the other guys, then someone says I'm so much luckier than I know to be there in the middle of that fight, and then the flowers fly and suddenly I'm standing dressed in a golden dress. In my arms is the little baby girl, and she's also wearing a golden dress. There's someone standing beside me with his arm around me, and it's the blond guy, he's also dressed in gold and he's wearing a crown. He kisses the top of my head and tells me that he's finally destroyed all the darkness and it's safe for me now. But then I see a little boy standing over a well, and he plucks a coin from it, then his face twists and looks evil as he shoves the coin into his clothes. Someone confronts him, and he says he was drinking water, not stealing. Then when he does try to drink from the well to prove this, he starts coughing like the water won't go down his throat. He spits the water back into the well and runs. Then the scene changes, and the blond guy and I are handing the little boy, all wrapped up in tin foil (LOL) to the little dwarf guy in Game Of Thrones. The guy asks what he's supposed to do with him, and we're telling him to take care of him, and teach him to be a respectable person so he doesn't bring the darkness back. He scoffs, this is something he feels is beneath him and a pain in the ass to do. But he takes the kid anyways, and the blond guy and I smile at each other feeling like we've just made a huge difference. And that's when I wake up, lol.

I really think that second dream was at least 2 dreams, but I don't recall waking up in between so I just wrote it as one. It was definitely a lot of fun in the beginning, but the end was very strange and probably symbolic. I half wonder if the blonde guy was Kurasawa. I don't recall having the over whelming calm feeling that I usually do in dreams with him, but at the same time I was very oddly calm through out the whole dream. Zombies terrify me... I can't play zombie games or watch zombie movies and I can't even watch zombie cartoons after 4 or 5 without getting nightmares at bed time. A lot of this dream is fuzzy, so I wonder if that overwhelming calming moment was in the forgotten parts. The role the blonde guy played as protecting me, the fact that he was quiet and rarely said anything like Kurasawa, and the fact that what I can remember of how he looked (because his face is fuzzy in my memory) looks like Kurasawa is pretty convincing, lol.

I had a really crazy dream considering I went to bed buzzed from a bunch of whiskey and high as a kite. I remember walking around with several friends I know in peson and eventually I had no phone or keys. That immediately seemed like a horrible situation and my friends whom I had been wondering about with decide that they will help me at all costs. I titled this minecraft because the world was that kind of nonsensical with waterfalls where they shouldnt be and caves and mountains and we just walked up them, but there were structures as well. My other friends (where i left me keys and phone) were at a sort of outdoor picnic area but there was also some type of structure where some girls were playing on the second floor. The lack of walls allowed them to walk to the edge and talk to the people on the ground. I got my phone back and everyone was like "why the heck did you leave your phone?" I didn't have a good answer. But then I woke up.

I remember we were in this fantasy like trail thing with the school. And we were walking to this place. Jean randomely asks me if i want to race him. Being the competitive guy i am, i say yes, even though im not really in the mood. What happens though once we do start running, i get in the mood really quickly. The place im running to is like a castle. It's pretty huge. I remember me and jean running neck and neck for a while. Then i tarted blowing him out. He said something happened and he wanted to srart over. But we didnt want to go back. Apparently this place was like a game world so if you killed yourself, you'll just respond somewhere. So me and him are near the front entrance of this huge castle. We see a ledge on the side and stand over it. We decide who jumps 1st by playing rock paper scissors. I won. I had scissors and u could guess what he had. So again we were at the ledge, and looking down you could tell it was a long way to get to the bottom. There were other trails you can land on if you didnt jump far enough. Thats what happened to jean. He jumped but didnt land to the actual bottom. Instead, he jumped ontop of this makeshift house's rooftop. He broke some body parts, but didn't die yet. He rolled down. And there was snow on the ground. So when he finally plopped to the bottom, you can see the blood around him. He still didn't die yet. Jeez. If it was going to be that painful...... Anyways idk what he was trying to do. He started crawling somewhere when like 3 or 4 white wolve come and just basically maul and eat him up. You can safely assume he died when that happened because i remember him showing up behind. (now that i think about it. If he was gonna end up respondonding behind me, there was no point in him having to jump, but whatever). Scene changes and i am now inside this castle. This place looks more modern then you'd expect. Actually this place looks more futuristic then anything else. It feels like the near future (a good 5-10 years away). Now im guessing we came here for a school trip or something. Theres more, but cant really remember

I apparently have become quite used to listening to binaural beats because for some reason my mp3 player glitched out and didn't start up when I told it too. Anyways, this caused me to only remember 2 very vague dreams because the alpha waves didn't wake me up after each REM cycle.

#1 : I was at a Civil Air Patrol meeting and we were working on ground searches. Then the next thing I remember was we were all randomly at a cookout eating hot dogs.

#2 : While in context it might seem it was a false awakening, I don't think it was. All I remember was briefly logging onto DV and checking to see if my intro had any replies yet. Then it said it still had zero and had been deleted due to lack of response. Thats all i can remember at the moment. Hopefully I can remember some more as the day progresses. (usually does happen)

Note on false awakenings : Is it just me or does this seem like the easiest way to become lucid from a dream is a flase awakening?? It seems this way to me because you are expecting everything to be exactly like it is every morning when you get out of bed. While this should seem apparent in other dreams for some reason it seems sasier to remember in a false awakening. You find one little thing out of place and go "I'm dreaming". This was also how I had my first lucid dream.

Ugh, only six good hours of sleep last night. The plan was to do a WBTB. But I could hear jet-lagged family members moving around the kitchen and felt too guilty to sleep in.

I was throwing a tea party/bridal shower and no one showed up. That made me pout, thinking that no one cared enough to show up to my special occasions. But then I went outside and saw that all the cars were lined up and stuck at some sort of barrier. In the meantime, there was all this ice and show building up on the cars. I started going from car to car and wiping ice off the windows with gloved hands. There was a moment of recognition where I asked myself, "Hey, why am I doing this and why am I using my hands to do it?" but I didn't really think about it too much.

Havent Found time this weekend to write down my dreams but i did manage to keep some in my head.

I had a dream in which i was a leader of some sort or a person of high importance in what seemed to be the Roman Era but i recall their were buildings and streets of the modern world. I remember a scene in which i was in my office with a bunch of guards around me. This blonde haired women from the show Spartacus comes bursting in my office with what seemed like the intention of killing me so i order my guards to attack by pointing at her (This whole sequence did not have sound to me and it all happened in a slow motion fashion). My dream skipped to another scene where the blonde woman was walking on a sidewalk with unknown buildings around her. She had a sword with her and a few men. I was a few yards away when I witness her yell "How dare you attempt to take my life!" to the guards that accompanied me during the office scene. Next thing i see is her impaling a kneeling guard in the neck instantly killing him and when she starts walking away i woke up.

I had another dream in which i recall as fragments now but it started out with me trying to hit on a very attractive girl. From what i remember i felt i was getting it in with her very nicely when all of a sudden this girl named Nicole pops up with a baby in her belly. This was scary for me since i have had sexual relations with her and having a kid right now is not part of my agenda. I awoke a few seconds after seeing her and her pregnant belly. I should talk to her and see hows shes been, i pray she doesnt mention any baby.

Command & Conquer 2150:
The whole dream centered around me playing several missions of a game which was like a mix of C&C and Earth 2150. I remember playin on several maps and once a long time ago I had a similar dream. Each map (I think there were 3 in that dream) I was playing a different faction with a different color. The first one I played was yellow and GDI-like, the second was blue I think and the third was green and was much like the ED from Earth 2150, their base was located in a dark spot in a wastelend hidden behind walls.

Snake fight:
It was a long dream and the first thing I remember was being in a big cavern. There were pipes running along the ceiling and there was a blue glowing lake covering the ground. I had a fight against 2 huge snakes which apparently where somehow related to Orochimaru (from Naruto). I managed to remove their balance and make them fall into the water which made them dissolve immediately. Then there was a reference that this water had a similar effect on them like empty water on normal lifeforms. After that the dream was pretty hazy but I remember being in something that looks a little like a city in the sky and there was a latias doing something.

Spoiler for Additional Pleasure (Strong Sexual Content):

I remember being on a bed in an unknown room and I had fun with my girlfriend, though at this point it was pretty undetailed. Some minutes later I suddenly had a pussy and my girlfriend used a vibe on me, and when it went in as deep as possible I came really hard, and my member blasted its load several meters through the room against the radiator under the window. So wrong and perverted, even writing this feels weird. Yet it felt at least really good. I honestly wonder what made me dream this.