false awakening

Notes: This night was the first using a voice recorder for my journal. It may take a while to get used to and I might change up my DJ format to accommodate.

Shenanigans in a Park
I'm across the street from a park. It's a big grassy area with a few trees. I'm looking at 2 parallel parked cars. I third card drives up. I recognize the driver as Brian, a classmate from high school who I don't like very much. I recognized one of the parked cards as belonging to my old roommate Hugh. Hugh's car is a sliver luxury SUV, maybe a Lexus. Brian's car is one of those tiny smart cars, maybe orange? Brian parallel parks his car in the tiny spot between the two cars already there. Even though he can fit, he unnecessarily back into Hugh's SUV to push it back and make more room. This annoys me.

Brian exits his car. I cross the street. Brian, Hugh, and I start to play a round of golf. The dream skips to after finishing playing and we are returning to our cars. Brian gets in his car and again unnecessarily backs into the car behind him to make room. This time I think it's comical in a crass way. Before speeding off, Brian stops and shouts to me "Are you sure you're okay?" I am annoyed by the question. I reply "I'm like a bomb. Like a bob-omb."

Nearby, there is a white plastic lawn chair. I run and jump on it, make it slide like surfboard across the grass. I ride it toward the park entrance, disrupting several games of golf as I pass through. Before reaching the entrance, I jump off and leave the chair. I say something about not wanting to be accused of stealing it.

Camp Dorm, Part 1
I'm entering a dormitory, walking down a hallways, looking for the room assigned to me. It is either a college or a summer camp for college-aged people. I find my room and start setting up a big screen TV so I can watch the Super Bowl. Then the dream jumps around a bit. I recall meeting a man, maybe the dean of the school or maybe someone impersonating the dean as part of a con. I see him in his office. He falls the ground and starts doing pushups to hide his face from the visitor and speaks in a fake voice.

False awakening. I feel a cat sleeping on my stomach. It's very furry. I'm sleeping on the floor and feel stiff. I awake to the sound of a woman's voice. I don't open my eyes. She seems to be a police officer or security guard. She is nudging me with her foot to wake me and talking on her radio about determining when I got a cat. Apparently, pets are not allowed in the dorm. Wake.

Camp Dorm, Part 2 [WILD]
After recording the previous dream, I attempt WILD. It take maybe 5 minutes?

I enter the dream in a dorm room similar to the one from the previous dream. This time it feels more like a log cabin at a summer camp. It's somewhat dark in the room but I can tell it is lighter outside through a big window. In the room is boy about 10 years old. He looks like me at that age. Very skinny and with a bowl hair cut. I ask his name but don't recall his answer. I ask if he knows how to fly. He both phase through the window and fly into the open air.

Outside it is dawn and getting brighter. Besides the cabin we just exited, it's all grass for seemingly miles around. I fly around with the boy for a while. I spot a young woman below us. I fly down to meet her. She has elf ears and is a bit chubby. I ask if she can fly. She says everyone can fly. I fly with her too. We fly up high to get a good view of the surroundings, looking for more people.

Looking north, I see a few more chubby elf girls. They are practicing archery. I land near them and approach. They are just finishing their activity and saying good bye. But they actually say: "Fuck you!" and "Fuck you, too!" but in a pleasant and cheerful way, as if "Fuck you" is a polite way to say good bye. I ask one of them, "What does 'fuck you' mean?" I realize am in a strange world of chubby elf girls and they must have different language dialect. She replies with "I'll show you" and starts leading me west. I intuit that she is taking me to bed.

We fly for a while. Eventually we come on a wooden shelter with some beds. It looks like a campground. The shelter is only a frame with some wooden slats to provide shade, not a building. On one of the beds, there are two guys, with elf ears but skinny. I become skeptical of what the girl intents. Dream fades.

Camp Dorm, Part 3 [DILD]
I have a false awakening in an unfamiliar room. My laptop is open and there's a conference call to work that I should be listening too. I try to pay attention to the meeting. The door is open. Outside is a dark hallway. I can make out a few beds in the hallway. There's a girl in one bed and a guy in another and a row of other bed that I assume also have people. It looks like the summer camp dormitory from previous dreams. I try to close the door so that the sound of the meeting won't disturb the sleepers. But the door doesn't close right. The door is too narrow and doesn't fit in the frame. I try to move the knob toward the frame and it breaks off and slams into the frame loudly. I've obviously woken some of the people. The girl gives me an angry look. The faulty door makes me realized I am dreaming. My lucidity is not very strong.

I turn back to the meeting call. My boss is explaining that it will take a long time to download the file because the project is very big. I know the reason is not that the project is big but that it includes a lot of sample data. I try to explain this.

I give up on the meeting and move to the window to fly outside. But the window gives me some trouble. Wake.

Video Game
I am a character in a what seems like a FPS video game. I'm in a dimly lit rocky canyon. I seem that I have spawned near the enemy base. I take the long way around a rock formation to the back of the base, shooting a few guys in the process. I near the base and intuit that my objective is to capture what looks like a stone altar by standing on it. As I approach, a lightning storm starts. A bone dragon swoops in and lands on the altar. I intuit that the rules of the game prevent you from capturing the altar while the dragon is there so I have to back away. Someone yells "Dragon eggs!"

Camp Dorm, Part 4 [DILD]
I am suddenly in a classroom full of students and a teacher. I am in one corner of the room and have difficulty seeing the teacher at the chalkboard. I move around the back edge of the classroom to the opposite corner to get a better view and sit behind a girl. The students are college age. I intuit that all the other students know each other but I am an outsider.

The class ends and the students socialize as their pack their things to leave. I cautiously talk to the girl in front of me. A big group of them want to hang out outside. I just want to return to my room and organize my study materials. I realize the similarity to the previous dreams and become lucid.

As usually, I find the nearest window and fly out to explore the landscape. Now the campground seems like a futuristic city. There are giant water tubes encased in glass that act like freeways. I phase in and out the through the glass, water, and air. It's fun to breath under water. There are giant sea turtles and friendly sharks.

I fly high to see what's above the tubes. Above the tubes are concrete slabs and I get stuck in one of them. I turn to look up and see Optimus Prime. I grab his hand and he helps me out. He suggests I interact with the people.

Supported above the concrete slabs is a whole other level that appears like a giant park. This time more typical air, stone, pathways, grassy patches, and pools of water. There are people walking and sitting. Most of them are the same chubby elf girls from the earlier dreams.

I approach a group of three girls wearing bathing suits, relaxing in a spa pool. I flirt with them.

Camp Dorm, Part 5 [WILD]
I recorded the previous dream and then easily re-enter with WILD.

I'm back in the camp dorm and looking to interact with the DCs. I walk into a patio where many tables have been set up like an art fair. There are many presenters but I seem to be one of the few visitors so all the presenters are trying to attract me to their table.

Here my lucidity and recall start to diminish. I recall one girl had a table full of different name tags. They all had her name on it, which was a long Indian name, but from different professions like you would see on the uniform of a doctor, a mechanic, and soldier, and police officer. I think this is very interesting. She asks me to pick one, in a sense, to choose a career for her by picking which nametag suited her best. I shift through them all and pick a coffee cup with her name on it. The coffee cup is shaped like a golf club, suggesting a career as a professional golfer.

There was another girl who I think was trying to choose a color for her dress. And another had two post it notes with the same message but in different ink and style. At some point dream fades.

On exiting the dream, I'm left in some hypnopompic imagery. I see through my sleep mask a television playing what looks like a sitcom. Three characters are in a house when there's a knock at the front door. The three of them quickly hide in a closet. Then from the closet, a four character steps out. He looks like Louis CK. The laugh track plays but I don't get the joke.

I wait through the imagery for a while, hoping I can DEILD back into a lucid dream. After a minute or so I give up, thinking I've dreamed enough and my body doesn't want to sleep anymore tonight.

This was a fairly short little lucid, but I did get some phasing in and felt really happy throughout. And I guess I really like galantamine. LOL.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #60: It's Just a Phase

I'm walking around in my childhood bedroom, practicing lucid dreaming skills. Somehow, though, I'm not actually lucid. (This was a strange feeling.) I'm trying to fly around the room but keep bouncing off of the walls and ceilings. I try shouting "L-dopa!!" like in my previous lucid dream, but even this doesn't do much.

After a while, I feel discouraged. I'm standing by the window wondering what to do when I realize that I wasn't really lucid yet, and everything that had gone before was just me robotically acting out some sort of pseudo-lucid script.

I'm suddenly on the bed again, and everything now feels really vivid. It feels like an OBE except that I'm getting up out of my childhood bed, not the one my physical body's actually occupying. I move to the window again and look out into the street.

The mini-blinds are partially closed but I decide to phase through both them and the glass, get outside, and go play. I push myself through the window, right hand first and pop out in the front yard. It's pretty dark out but when I look at my hands, they're clear and detailed. (Undistorted, too, just like the previous lucid dream.)

I start running, overcome with joy. As I race down the empty street, I gush without a hint of irony: "Galantamine, how I love you!" (That is so freakin embarrassing to type now! ) Darkness descends before I get very far, I don't properly prep for DEILD, and the dream ends.

The last dream, at the end of which I was very briefly lucid.

In the dream, I was in sort of a version of the Classic World of Darkness role playing game. The Technocratic Union was ruling the USSR and later Russia ever since the communist revolution, while the Traditions were mostly based in western Europe. There was something about vampires there too, that arrived to a Technocratic Union base or something... And they died, and the Union wanted to use their remains for something? To track someone down? It's so vague I'm not wholly sure what I'm remembering and what I'm making up as I go.

Anyway, I "woke up" and started typing the dream down. Then I remembered the previous FAs that night. I layed back on the bed with my eyes closed, and pinched my nose.

Yep, it was a dream allright. I pinched my nose again and again, to make absolutely sure this was a dream. Then I discovered I can't really open my eyes without destabilizing. I lay there for a few seconds, but couldn't do much and the dream was gone. I woke up.

Dream 2

A much more vague dream, something about watching a documentary about the military (Artillery corps?) with my sister. And me telling her and wanting to show her a funny video someone made about George W. Bush. What the hell?

Anyway, I had a false awakening in which I wrote in the laptop about my dream. Might've even had a second one, after I realized the first one was a dream, and "waking" up again to write the dream yet again, before truly waking up, and truly writing it down.

I wasn't smart enough to use the FAs to my advantage at this point yet.

Dream 3

Something about cars, I wanted to buy a car, and there was a special "car day" or something in which various companies competed and tried to sell most cars, and smeared each other on ads similar to how politicians do it before elections. This strange competition was even in the news. I vaguely recall going around and visiting places when they sold cars and had conventions on cars, headquarters of car companies etc.

I then remember riding with a friend of mine from university, he was driving and he was giving me some very strange driving tips, mostly about how to bob and weave quickly through traffic, and I think he used his feet to turn the car more quickly? We were riding in a Mazda, which in real life he had, but no longer have for a long time now.

At some point he wasn't even at the steering wheel anymore, he was sitting in the passenger seat, I was sitting in the middle somehow, and there was a pile of old clothes on the driver's seat, as if nobody sat on it for a while and people just dropped there their coats when they got into the car... He was still somehow "driving" the car.

It's amusing, since we often talk about technology eventually allowing self-driving cars (like that Google prototype) when he drives me to university.

Then the dream changed tone a bit, another friend of mine whom I rarely see was in it. He had sort of an argument with another guy, who was somehow sending him messages through his dreams... something like that. I barely remember it, and I wrote only one line on this part of the dream in the notepad.

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I might have had another false awakening, yet again writing on the laptop, either here or at the end of the next dream.
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Dream 4

Me, my mother and possibly the rest of the family were in a hotel. My cat was there too, even though we never allow him outside the house. Me and my mother were conspiring somehow against the rest of the family?

Anyway, I remember the cat jumping out of the window. It was a very long way down. First he hung onto the rail of the balcony right below me, but then the idiot jumped down again, going all the way.

After he landed he was lying on his side mewling and moving his legs. I was in a state of near panic, I love my cat. Throughtout the ordeal my mother was strangely unconcerned even though I shouted her to help me, and was preparing to run downstairs to help the poor animal.

Anyway, he not only got up again after a few seconds, he actually climbed up all the way to the window somehow!

01.16.2013

Sleep Paralysis (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I suddenly become conscious of myself, paralyzed and floating in the black void between dreams. I am not concerned about anything; I just passively wait for a dream to pull me in. It seems as though it's taking longer than normal.

Eventually the faint buzzing of my body grows into great roaring vibrations, far more powerful than normal. It is unpleasant, but I recognize the feeling of being pulled towards a dream, so I do not fight it.

Suddenly I am "waking up" in a chair, with my head hanging uncomfortably back off the arm. "How did I fall asleep in this chair?" I wonder groggily, painfully pulling myself to a sitting position. I do not suspect that I'm dreaming at all. I am wondering how I got back into a house that no longer exists, but more pressing concerns distract me: my teeth seem to be misaligned so that my mouth cannot close properly, and I taste blood.

I stumble to the bathroom and am horrified to find that I have a disgusting looking underbite. My teeth slide together painfully when I try to close my mouth. I push my teeth back and close my mouth the right way, but whenever I open my mouth my teeth go all crooked again. Freaked, I suddenly am reminded of the taste of blood. I start spitting up large globs of blood all over the sink.

Okay, this is definitely a dream. I remember the sleep paralysis now, and find myself silly for not seeing this sooner. However, the sleep paralysis overtakes me once more before I get a chance to move. The feeling is once again extremely unpleasant, so much that I struggle to wake up.

I succeed briefly. I wake up, then roll over and immediately go back to sleep.

Now I am in a doctor's office, talking to a nurse about my sleep paralysis and the possibility that I have some kind of sleeping disorder. She laughs at me derisively, as if she doesn't believe me. She instructs me to go into this small room to take some kind of test, which I assume will verify that my problem is legitimate. It is a small room with a desk and a computer screen- no keyboard or mouse or anything.

I sit in front of the computer. Suddenly a demon comes out of it with a horrible demonic chattering filling my head. I can tell it is trying to drain my energy. I become lucid once more. "I'll just force it back into the screen with my telekinesis," I think, not worried in the slightest. But when I hold out my arm and try to exert my will upon it, the demon shoots up my body and drags me back into sleep paralysis.

The demonic chattering accompanyied with the thundering vibrations in my head and body is almost unbearable. I struggle, but any movemment I succeed in making is never with my real, physical body. Somehow I manage to open my eyes. At first, I don't believe they are my real eyes, because I am still entirely paralyzed, but I manage to focus on my clock. It is hard for my eyes to focus on the numbers, but I make out 2:34.

I am getting really concerned, wondering if I'm actually having some kind of seizure. It is a struggle to keep my eyes open, but I concentrate as hard as I can on the clock to keep them from closing so I do not have another endless cycle of false awakenings and more sleep paralysis. I HAVE to wake myself up.

The air is shimmering and moving, the way heat looks coming off a hot blacktop in the summer, and that demented chattering is still screeching horribly in my head. Am I really being attacked by a demon? I cannot move any part of my body except my eyes and possibly my mouth (though it's hard to say if it's my REAL mouth that is moving), so I instead quicken my breathing. If I start breathing really fast and irregularly, maybe it will jolt me awake.

After a few more agonizing moments, the heavy breathing really does force me awake. I am panting heavily, my heart pounding. I look at the clock. The time confirms that my eyes were actually open, as it is now a few minutes after 2:34. After I compose myself and go back to sleep, I have more disturbing dreams, but no more sleep paralysis.

-Top dream cut and re-posted, just remembered details on it the day after- Look 2 posts past this for the LD

1/05/13- All I remember is going through our old paper routes, unplugging everything we could see at people's houses, and taking down things for winter.

1/08/13: Chairs from my tulpaforcing session last night, a player on a minecraft server telling me my town was griefed, and a haunted mansion-ish dream about monsters and that lantern thingy.
Allow me to further explain my Minecraft dream, as that is the only one I actually remember. I logged on, or rather into, my main minecraft server. I have a town called Szabo, and found it to be griefed. Now this town looked nothing like it's IRL counterpart, but I noticed a huge chunk of water drained. I fixed it, and one of my friends on the server was watching me do it. She wanted me to see something, and so I followed her. She ended up bringing me to this cove on one of the walls of the town, and there was a blue-eyed spider there. She got killed, her items dropped, and I picked them up. She decided not to warp back to collect her stuff.

1/09/13- Playing a mario game on my oldest brother's GBC;
Doctor Who(Tom Baker) in a dream that I can barely remember..;
Short continuation of previous dream, ended up running from a very pissed off carbon copy of someone.

Only one of these I recall is the mario game. I was digging through Jeff (My oldest brother)'s stuff, and found this mario game. I started playing it on his Gameboy Color. Jeff was over my shoulder watching me play, and told me there are 32 levels in all. I play 2-3 and see this huge [?] block. I jump up, and this Prince hat pops out. I collect it and grow giant. I walk around and get killed by a normal sized goomba. I respawn, hit the block again, grow again, and am told to hit another normal sized [?] block. I keep hitting it, and it doesn't stop giving me coins. Apparently in this large size, I can get infinite coins from a block.

1/10/13: Grocery store combo lock-
This dream was longer than I can remember. We go in, and are stuck in this elevator like room. There is what seems to be a voice activated padlock. We must answer 5 questions correctly to pass. We just end up using google to get the answers. I only wrote one of the answers done before, so the only one I know is: "A man in outer space is at what temperature?" Answer: 41 degrees.
Once we got in, we talked with the person behind the counter about it, and she said most people just give up, but it is a fun challenge. I think the ending passcode to get in was like poodle or something like that.

1/10/13: My dad goes insane- (Copying from IRC, as that is more close to what happened than my memories.
My dad decided it would be fun to try and kill me and him
Luckily for me, we never hit anything
After a few close calls, he seemingly gave up, and stopped at a stop sign
He then went in circles in the crossroads
Stoping all traffic from passing
I jumped out of the car
Others got out of their cars
and made sure my dad wouldn't leave
I told them what my father had done
And then I stayed until officials came
the officials tied my dad up, and I hoped to never see him come back home
I wasn't wearing any shoes, and it was cold outside
I went to a bus stop, because I was halfway across town
And I live in a pretty big city
A bus came fairly quickly
I asked him if he could take me to my house, and he said it is too far for his route
He told me I'd have to take multiple buses
I asked how much it cost, and he said it was free
There was only one other person in the bus
I told the bus driver what had happened to me, and the dream ended

1/12/13: Mckenna is dead- I do not remember much of this dream, I just remember it fooling me when I woke up. I know two Mckenna's, and in the dream they were both dead. I recall talking to one's dad and saying that his loss must be devastating.

1/16/13: Mega Skype update- I woke up to a brand new version of skype. It was slicker, with a black and green design. Something seemed different about it though, it had more than just contacts. Upon further inspection, it had every picuture, movie, memory, show, song, dream, you name it all packed into it. I got so excited I watched a show to test, got 2-3 minutes in and tested a movie. It was so exhilarating to see all these memories right in front of me.

11/16/13: Meeting my Sister-in-law :/ -I do not remember much here, I just see this run down mobile home where my brother Jeff and his wife live in the dream. We have to cross a highway to get to it, and inside is not much. It is kinda trashy, and I count 9 kids she has(She has 5 irl). She didn't really like us, and we didn't really like her.

11/16/13: Jeff leads me to a haunted house- Again, do not remember too much, but I spent the night walking around this town I do not know with Jeff, and he ends up bringing me to this house. The door is open, and it has an eerie feel to it. I walk in the door and see plenty of people around, mostly teens, laughing and having a good time. I take one step forward, have a screamer come from the roof, and I leave.

11/16/13: Remote viewing- I was in my old house, upstairs. I find that I am not really there, but continue anyway. I end up peeking into Jeff's old room and things do not seem the same. I concluded I was Remote Viewing, but it much be more like dreaming. I was on the verge of lucidity, but woke up from this experience instead.

1/18/13: Not much to add to these posts from this topic-
1. My brother was trying to get away from his wife, so he got in a relationship with mom o.O
2. Some fragment about an old cannibal woman
3. Saw some other form of 3D, not near as good as Real-D 3D
4. Saw Harry Potter 1 in theaters, tons of stuff added.

1/19/13: THC channel-(Writing directly from my DJ)
A commercial plays saying "THC: Thai Networking- You piss us off, we show you bad programming.
Huge minecraft world, with tons of machinery going on. It is a superflat world, with at least 3-4 huge robots doing different tasks. I saw shirts dragging one way along a huge metal bar, car seats on another, it was just too much to take in. I flew around just marveling at all of the stuff going on. I noticed a pattern happening, and decided to study it. The dream kind of shifts to another idea, like another show going on. There are 3 superheroes of sorts, all with their special abilities. One very smart one that could create chestnuts for emergency food, one that appeared to be a leader who could make fortune cookies out of nowhere, and the other could fly, but other than that, remained secretive. There was a longer plotline, but the show ended with the one flying, taking information from the smarter one. There were two people flying behind the one. One of the people behind was this technical genius, he had created some way to fly, and was after the good guys. The good guy ended up flying into the air, then headed straight for a huge banner that behind it were big dumpsters. He led the two in pursuit right through the banner and they ended up unconscious in the dumpsters.

1/21/13: Late to a meeting with Superman- I was attempting to fly through a woodsy area, but never went very quick. I eventually spotted Kris (My older brother), and he says he is looking for Superman. He has to meet him at a specific time to hear a top secret message. We find the place, but are a minute too late. Superman has left, and others are closing in. They wish to kill us for whatever reason, but we try to escape. This dream had an involved plot-line that I can't really remember.

1/22/13: Snow apocolypse- It snowed for so long that the snow ended up being about 3-4 feet high. Kris and I started shoveling it, but it just snowed more. The snow ended up being 11-14 feet high, snowing everyone in. I just make a short entrance into this huge mansion, and lodge there. There was one other short part about the dream where I was under layers of snow, in a make-shift igloo of sorts, and people needed what I had. My mom asked for nunchaku, and I had two types. I had fake plastic ones, and real metal ones. I gave her the fake crappy ones.

1/23/13- I made a home made bass drum but it went over badly in the fair. I decide to go browsing around the neighborhood. I walk into about 3 homes in all. I recall one more vividly than the others, as I walked through the cracked open front door, and hear a man talking on the phone upstairs. He is talking to someone about his exquisite trees and gardens that he owns. I walk through the main floor and just marvel at how beautiful the place is. In the back I see extremely tall trees and tons of flowers and gardens. It turns out this man's specialty was broccoli, and it was everywhere: In the gardens, growing from the trees, in the architecture, lining the archways, everywhere. I was just in awe of how awesome it looked. The man comes up behind me and says how proud of it all he is, and then I make a break for it as I do not want him to find out I sneaked into his house. I had a friend with me most of the time, that fatter kid from Diary of a Wimpy Kid. He ended up getting caught by the police at one point.

1/27/13- Just random combinations of the MineZ minecraft server and my being sick, probably about 3 different dreams in there. I couldn't get any sleep this night. The zombies would kill me, the bandits would make me even more sick, and the healers would alleviate my sickness a bit.

1/28/13: The dream machine- I am given this machine that shows all dreams from the previous night. It saves them into its database, and then in the morning you can post the dreams to facebook, or just view them for your pleasure. They were in a format that you can simply save them on a flash drive or whatever. The machine was revolutionary. I tried it for a night, and found awesome dreams on it. I tried it the next day and found the whole thing was a fraud. It did not really save dreams, it simply played a pre-determined recording of some dream programmed into it. It was not real, it was just created.

1/29/13: Lucid dream(Completed a TOTM goal!)- I was exiting a building that I almost got killed in when suddenly I asked if I was dreaming. I decided quickly that must be correct and that made me so happy. I leaped into the air and found myself in someone's car. I recognize the driver as someone I know IRL. I kiss him on his head and say I am thankful for being lucid. This is an angry looking driver with short white hair, a short white beard, and quite the attitude. I look in the back and see two dogs--The dogs I have IRL. I start petting the dogs and the man says angrily that I have their names wrong. I say that I own them IWL and that's their real names. He says he had found them and they were his. He was on his way to get rid of them. The traffic stops and he says that I'll never get away from him. I tell him I was planning on the traffic jam.

I then got out of the car and started flying. Or rather, I tried flying. I could not go very fast, and it was hard to keep the momentum of the flight path. I flew above the power lines, making sure not to touch any otherwise I might have gotten electrocuted. I somehow made it to my house. As I am landing I accidentally touch a power line. I do not get shocked so I keep going. I remember that I should do some lucid tasks, so I expect to see Jeff hanging out from one of the windows. He wasn't there like he should have been, so I started looking around and saw Kris on the back porch. I tell him that I'm thinking of a number between 1-100. My number is 88. He is muttering some difficult equations trying to pinpoint the answer. He concludes it is between 50-60. After a while I ask him if he has an answer. He gives up, and I tell him the answer was 8. I have no idea why I said 8 instead of 88, but I didn't question my answer at the time. I told my mom that I was going to China to vandalize the Great wall of China. She says in the least caring way possible "Alright."

I walk over to the bathroom, expecting to see a portal leading to the great wall of china. Sadly, when I walked inside I just saw my bathroom. I started to try to dream spin but when I stopped spinning I was still in the bathroom. I decided to fall backwards, into China. When I got back up, I was still in my bathroom. I then gave up on this task. I returned to the back porch where Kris was and I saw a huge snow-covered mountain. This mountain exists IRL, just not that large and close to our house. I started flying to it, but again, I had difficulties. I was unable to fly very fast which made me irritated. I decided to land and find myself a motorcycle since it would be much faster than trying to fly. I actually did see a motorcycle where I landed, but I had a feeling that the speed of this motorcycle would fail me too. I hopped on and took off toward the mountain at a high speed. I go over a bump and take off into the sky. I make my way at a good speed up the mountain and get to the top in no time. I lose the motorcycle and find myself at a snow-covered cathedral shaped house. It isn't a very large house, but due to the shape of the roof I am able to climb on top of it. I wanted to view my surroundings from this vantage point. I was expecting to see a giant frozen lake up here but instead I see a somewhat smaller and unfrozen lake. I got into the water and noted that it was freezing cold. I was about knee-deep at this point, so before I went deeper I imagined it was warmer. The temperature did indeed warm up enough to be comfortable. I notice two girls are now with me. I see a little embankment as water goes from where I am into a much larger area of the lake, dropping a few inches. I follow it down, but the water here is much deeper. It goes all the way to my neck, and I notice at this point that I myself am a girl. Before I could figure out when I changed, I bobbed under the water, and accidentally breathed in some water. As I got back above the water line, I coughed out some water then the dream faded out.

Result of a few WILD attempts, not as good as yesterday or day before yesterday(I haven't posted both in DJ yet, need to find time to write them) but still one short lucid though, i need to practice to notice the shift to dreaming state.

Nap #1(non-lucid):

I and LV was playing an shmup video game with some sort of mspaint-ish graphics, i was controlling the level boss, LV was controlling the player character(both player and boss characters were girls). I was using various patterns looking at the list on the side of screen for the help on combos, LV was dodging them easily though. Then i figured out that being close to player character automatically shoots small projectiles every now and then. Eventually boss character ended up ramming player character and player character was somehow stuck outside of screen. Dream ended shortly after.

Nap #2(non-lucid/lucid/FA):

Not only i missed transition completely, but started the false awakening with closed eyes, i heard that my mom entered the room, but it wasn't unusual since sometimes she wakes up close to the time i was taking this nap. She started trying to wake me up so i opened the eyes and took off headphones, mom was indeed in the room, but before i could say anything i noticed that sound from headphones was still there, though i truly woke up shortly.

Nap #3(non-lucid/fragment):

I was shooting yellow lasers from my fingers and accidentally burned my food that way, whoops.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

On a cruise ship that gets stranded near the shore of an island. The captain and crew tell people not to leave the ship until we're rescued, but I feel that a storm is coming and it's dangerous to stay in the ship, so I leave with some close friends. The others are hit by the storm and of course the ship sinks and many die. But some manage to reach the island and they bring some sort of curse with them. As they set foot on the island, it turns into a desert. As I and my friends struggle to cross this desert, we see the others maybe a mile away behind us, being engulfed by a grasshoper cloud. We run to escape the bugs and I fall over a huge slab partially cover by sand, which has the map of the earth carved on. As I focus on a particular spot on that map, I feel pulled into a vortex and I fall, fall, fall into the darkness. I find myself in a dark place inside my head, I feel my "real" body outside and I realize I'm sleeping. I almost wake up but I hang in there and very faint shapes start to form. I seem to wander through a landscape as seen through a scanning microscope. I see microscopic life forms, very small seeds germinating, microbes, the detail of the "ground" with nanometric resolution. Amazing.
Then I feel a force pulling me up and I rise, rise, rise. The darkness gives place to a white light that becomes brighter and brighter. I tumble through the light and then I am laid o a solid surface. I look around and I'm surrounded by ducks, a goose, water spouts, bits of grass, mud, sheep... I turn my head and behind me is a brown bear. I get scared and jump, but he seems to be more afraid and runs to the opposite direction. Then I realize there are animals of all species around me, herbivores and carnivores, all gathered, as waiting for something. I look beyond them and I see we're in the middle of some kind of square in a village, with an interesting mix of European style traditional buildings. I also spot some human beings in the distance, but before I contact them, I'm surrounded by three guys who don't seem to want to sing Kumbaya. They grab me and I use some kenpo moves in self-defense. Usually I use my dream kung fu skills, but this time I consciently applied the lessons from my real life training and it worked (I clearly notice that my left side is my weakness and that I must work it.) Also, the dudes didn't count on my ability to fly. I fly up, up, up, and the darkness descends upon me again. Everything is black, except for a faint blueish light from a window to my left. Something touches my back. A black cat makes an appearance and guides me through what seems to be a house at night. He climbs up some furniture and invites me to follow him, until we reach a door near the ceiling, which could be a door to an attic, maybe. I hear voices and lights turn up. Some guys are entering the room and I feel urgency in leaving, so I go through the door and I wake up.

I get up from the couch, feeling so sleepy and my mom is standing at the door looking at me, commenting that I slept over today. "Yeah, I was so tired." But something doesn't add up and I do a RC. I am still dreaming. I think about using the opportunity but I feel the vortex sucking me again and I wake up.
I did overslept and my mom had indeed entered the house, but she left when she realized I was sleeping.

Lucid Dream:

I suddenly woke up. I was in my side yard. I was really surprised since I had no memory of falling asleep there. I felt really confused for a few seconds before it hit me that I was dreaming.

As soon as I realized that this was a dream I jumped up and started to fly. I looked down on the rooftop of the houses that were supposedly my neighborhood. Seeing the rooftops made me remember that I had wanted to jump from roof to roof. I remembered that being more fun in some ways than just flying. So I flew down to the first rooftop and ran across it and sprang up in the air twords the next house. At first I thought I over shot it, but I landed on the far side. I ran a step or two and jumped off toward the next house. I remember enjoying that feeling of up and down and speed. After about 5 or 6 houses I woke up.

27.01.2013

Reverie: Part I (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was a midst a few others at twilight. The time was nearing for the day to end and we were fulfilling some duties before all the daylight was gone. I was mentioning to the others about how we needed to do this so someone would get what they deserved. There was some sort of odd notion about that while we were sweeping sand with small wooden tools. Each tool had an end with three prongs on them. We were in a giant field of sand. Near the center, the sand was a dark green color, whereas it was fairly normal near the outer edges.
I was going very swiftly through the motion of sweeping the sand, and my tool broke so as to only contain one prong. I stopped to look at it for a moment before continuing like nothing had happened. I finished what I was doing and paused to look out over the land before me. I could see the sun setting and casting a beautiful red and pink glow on a magnificent city below me. It was vast and chrome the way it was constructed. The buildings looked respectable and epic while the surrounding area only complimented its beauty.
With a sudden moment of realization, I thought to myself about how I had had this dream a time before, and that it was really not surprising that this very scenario would be abe to induce lucidity. And at that very same moment I became lucid. My eyes seemed more open that ever, contrary to previous dreams of blur and confusion. I looked carefully out at the surroundings, and felt the sand underneath my feet. I thought about the feelings and the sights and the sounds. I could hear people conversing near me and I stepped on the sandy area. Near the middle I stopped and made myself a goal. It was to look at my surroundings, record what they looked like, an then write something down so I could try to remember the details when I woke up. So I started surveying the area, but didn't get farther than noticing a fireplace like heap of wood sitting near me in addition to different patterns in the sandy floor. After noticing this, I realized the importance of having paper and a writing utensil. I turned to my left and went into a small hut in which there was a drawer. I pulled it open only to find a pencil that I intentionally knew I was going to find in addition to a small notepad that I soon held in my hand.
I was in the hut and as I walked out, I thought to myself about staying lucid. That was a big concern of mine, seeing as my dreams are often short once lucidity is attained. I walked closer to the exit while knowing what I was going to do. In a somewhat chaotic, in the sense of the dream, fashion, I walked out onto the sand and told myself to begin spinning. I closed my eyes, which I wasn't absolutely sure I should be doing, and I told myself it was a dream while spinning around fairly quickly.
The most magical and real feeling swept over my body. A gust of cold wind surrounded my body and I could feel it with every part. It was frigid, but I knew it was a good thing. It felt so surreal. But there were some complications with the spinning. I found myself in the very same situation that I had in previous dreams. My eyes felt like they were opening and that I was coming back to my bed where I lay in waking life. I really concentrated on what I could do to stay in the dream. I pressured my mind and my body into consistence. I realized, that, perhaps, the method of lucidity production was less in the feelings of waking life, but more in those of the dream realm. I thrust my body upward as if taking a large jump. At first, I let myself fall at a normal rate. The second time, I relaxed my body and let it fall at a slower rate than gravity could provide in waking life. My body felt separate, different. It was invigorating. I finally did it a third time only to find myself floating gracefully and gravityless down to the ground of the very same dream.
I was completely excited about this new found accomplishment. I ran toward the dream characters nearest to me to tell them of my amazing feat. I told one woman, and she seemed interested at first when I told her I was lucid, but she soon continued to talk with another character about the set and technical aspects of a musical production from waking life. They continued walking into another type of hut, still adorned with curtains like the first, but much taller. There were several more dream characters inside, and I felt the need to talk to them and make sure that, if there was a possibility that they could be actual minds, they knew what this was. I told them that it was a dream and that when they wake up, they needed to remember it so they could tell me of the connection. But they all seemed somewhat disconnected. There was, though, a point where I engaged myself with a dream character portraying someone I had not seen in ages, so I grabbed his arm, looking him in the eye, and made it known the importance of what was going on, regardless of how little we had talked recently.
My attention turned to Riley, a good friend, and my need to convince him of the current state of being that we shared. I intentionally lifted myself into the air, flying, to the top of the hut. There was a smooth, thick stone roof that curved and formed a circular contour on the top of the structure. I flew to the top, put myself slightly over the edge toward the middle before falling moderately back to the ground. I looked to Riley and we began to talk of a debate we had had in the past. It was about whether or not someone in a movie was flying. And the question was whether or not a jetpack added to the person made it legitimate flying. I jumped up and over a counter in a manner different than waking life, an interesting arch movement to different section of the hut. I landed and immediately look to the first female dream character and retorted a comment about how peculiar it was to be debating and fighting during a lucid dream such as this.
Soon after, I left the hut and figured that my mission was complete, so I let myself seem to fall asleep or, at least, leave the dream world.
I awakened with an interesting amount of energy. I was around a group of people all wearing clothing that was much nicer than I expected. Suits and ties were worn while they were all sitting in the grassy plane of a park. There were a few large cottonwood trees surrounding the area along with white recreation tents. It seemed like a wedding mixed with some sort of outdoor festival. Few tables were placed. I mentioned something about the dream in hopes that people would respond with acknowledgement of the experience. But the people only laughed and scoffed in my face. I only then proceeded to walk around the odd, carnival-like atmosphere until the dream ended.

This lucid was fueled by pure desperation. I've never fought this hard to save an LD that was going bad, but it paid off. I'm getting a lot of mileage out of this gladius thing.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #58: Generosity and Giants

A young woman named "Crystal Fleming" is collecting money for a charity, and I've pledged $33.13. I'm proud of my "generosity" and totally thrilled that I've found exact change down to the penny. But now I can't find Crystal. It's night, and I trudge across a snowy field to a picnic table where I think she might be waiting. But rather than Crystal, seated at the table is my friend W.

This is unexpected, and as soon as I question whether I'm dreaming, I know that I am. I tell W, "Gotta go, this is a lucid dream." His face is harshly lit, stony, and expressionless. I realize we're in a small, dark room now, getting darker by the moment. I head for the exit, but the scene fades...

Now I'm in the dark. I'm desperate for a lucid dream, though, so there's no way I'm letting this one go. I start swinging a gladius (ancient Roman sword) and willing myself to be in the Colosseum for Task of the Year. On top of this I shout, "This is still a lucid dream!"

I hear Wife muttering and rolling over nearby, and now I'm scared that I'm really yelling and waving my arms around in the bedroom. I want a lucid too badly to stop trying, though, so I jam the index and middle finger of my left hand into my mouth and start chewing on them. This all feels totally real, but I decide to ride it out to the end. If I look like a psycho, I look like a psycho. I'm not dropping this LD.

Suddenly, a sharp new dream scene forms: I'm standing on our bed, fingers in my mouth, swordless right hand swinging madly. The scene's extremely vivid, but there's a slight motion to everything that I see, like I'm slightly drunk. I hop down from the bed and run out into the hall.

The hallway outside of our bedroom is totally transformed. The carpeting is bright pink and the room is decorated floor to ceiling with stuffed animals. There's an exit to the right that doesn't exist IWL, so I explore it, curious where it leads. I find myself in a new hallway with a tall picture window overlooking an early morning street scene.

I phase through the glass out onto the street. The street is wet as if it rained overnight. A few cars pass by, headlights on. It looks like a work day that's just beginning. I fly up into the air, but my confidence isn't what it should be. My altitude is low and my speed's really pitiful. There's an entrance to a mall food court nearby, and the dream seems to be ushering me toward it. I don't resist.

In spite of the early hours, this food court is packed. It's a two story mall, so I try flying again, getting about 6 feet off of the ground and doing that slow drift again. I spot my reflection in the exit door on the opposite side of the food court. Except the reflection isn't me flying -- it's my 6'8" Uncle J walking toward the door with me flying over his shoulder. He looks solid, substantial, and real, while I look like some kind of phantasm. I look down, and he's not there. But in the glass's reflection, he's solid-looking and completely realistic.

Now I can't decide whether I'm me flying toward the door or if I'm my gigantic uncle, lumbering toward the exit on foot. I switch between feeling like I'm the one flying... then the one on foot... then both...

I raise my hand to phase through the door. Uncle J's reflection does the same. The phase fails. From below, an attractive DC calls to me, saying, "Hi! Come down here." The LD's starting to feel thin and I float down. The DC is about 30 with long, dark hair, and attractive almost to the point of absurdity. I remember reading Waggoner during my WBTB and want to ask her what she represents. I feel weak and insubstantial, though, and my voice is just a hoarse whisper. She looks at me, arms crossed, a wry smile on her face and the scene fades to black.

pre-bed 9:00PM
2000MG Fish oil - (some posts suggest better dreaming)
100MG 5-HTP
Bed 10:00PM
WBTB alarm 2:30AM but I woke naturally at 2:19AM
2ish MG Galantamine (poured half capsule out on a dish and just licked it off. )
250MG Choline
600MG GPC
0.5MG Melatonin

INSOMNIA!

+1MG Melatonin at 3:00AM
+2MG Melatonin at 3:30AM

Dosed off a bit brief DILD that I can't now remember. It was a crap dream anyway.
Short WILD with vivid Rainbow colored static and geometric shapes. I haven't tripped that hard since High School!

Finally fell asleep
I woke up about 5:30AM from a NON-lucid. Something about me and another man playing with our sons. We have Lord of the Rings action figures and bicycles. Aragorn against a goblin, orcs, some shrimp like creature, and Uruk-hai. The funny thing is the action figures were actually talking to each other.

#125 FA's Brief Lucids and one Hellacious DEILD chain

I don't know how long this entire dream segment was. I feel it was probably around 30min. Maybe longer. I am not sure. There are a few memory gaps in the beginning but this is the best I remember.

Ex in-laws
I am staying at my ex in-law's house. My ex wife does not exist. My current wife and my ex's brother brother is there. There was some long dialog. Something about his birthday party. I sit and listen to the convo. I go into deep thought like I usually do. I feel dislike for this guy (I never liked him IRL). I think about why I am even here. I remember that I dream this a lot.

I remember some SP but my focus was low

Downtown event
I have a FA. My wife and I are leaving the ex in-law's house. First we were driving now we are walking. My wife tells me that her "brother" R is going to give an anniversary surprise during his birthday party. I feel disgusted and want no part of it but say nothing.

It is really early in the morning and still dark. It looks like we are downtown Webb City. There are a few curbside bistros open and large groups of people are flocking to them. Most of them are nicely dressed in evening dresses and suits. As we are walking through I comment on this to my wife but decide there must be some event going on and these are famous places to eat. Anthony Bourdain comes to mind.

I sit in a folding chair next to some woman in a black evening dress. I look around and notice my wife went into a building. I just *know* that she had to use the restroom. This woman looks familiar to me but I don't know her. I felt an indescribably strong connection to her. Like a close friend or a family member. She is older with shoulder length gray hair. She is well kept and beautiful for her age. I get the feeling that she is ultra rich and well known. In spite of that, she is super friendly and down to earth. We have a really long conversation. I forgot almost all of it. I can only remember telling her that I was really confused. I told her that I had a brief lucid dream and I just woke up. I told her I wasn't sure what was going on. I felt really sleepy still. I don't remember her reply if any.

I start missing my wife and look behind me. I see a bunch of folding chairs set out full of people and a woman at a podium. My wife is taking a seat in the middle. The woman at the podium says something about a church service. I feel annoyed. I just woke up. I am tired and I am in no mood to sit through some church service in the middle of the street. I march over to my wife. I sit beside my wife, put a hard hand on her shoulder and ruffly whisper in her ear, "What is this bullshit!?" The woman turns to look at me. It is some blond woman. She looks shocked an a little scared. I feel extremely embarrassed. "OH! Um sorry. I thought you were..."

I run off to find my wife. The shock of this triggers lucidity. I remember that I took G and was trying to get lucid.

I am in bed with vibrations.

Memory gap

I have another brief FA to lucid here but I can't remember enough to record anything.


Blanket Attack

I am back in bed with vibrations. This time I feel like a retard. I very quickly remember the dreams and how I was so close. Now I am more focused and determined.

I transition out of bed but I am unstable. The blanket suck to my head and I can't see any more. I try to fight it but my hands can't feel anything. I give up and turn to leave blind. I am thrown back into SP.

DEILD

The Colosseum - Another failed attempt at TOTY

I transition out again. This time it is better. But I am blind. I feel my way out of the bedroom. I try opening my eyes for a bit but I realize that I keep opening my real eyes. I see the dream and see the waking world. Finally I stop and focus seeing through my eye lids. Now I can dimly see. This time instead of heading to the front door I wonder what the back door will be like. My vision improves once I reach the back door and have a hand on the door knob. I try to visualize a Colosseum. I think of the line I used last time. I open the door but I see a moon lit back yard. I close the door and try again. Still the same. Not wanting to push my luck and wake up I walk out side. At this point part of me wonders If I am sleep walking. As a RC I try to float. I see me feet lift off the upper level of the back deck. Yep it's a dream. Now, I uncontrollably float over the rest of the deck and do a nose dive into the ground. I flip and roll end over end. Undaunted, I get up and brush myself off. (Brush myself off? lol) It is still really dark so I look up and ask the dream, "I need some light here" Oops I forgot to be polite. "Please." Nothing happens. "Can I please have some light?" I look around sort of wildly. I see a full moon and some stars. I try to focus on the moon but it is like looking through unfocused binoculars. It is really unstable and blurry. I look to the east and see the sun is just beginning to light up the sky.

Encouraged, I decide to fly to Rome. I "feel" like Rome is to the east. My flying stinks but I remember a trick I learned from Robert W.'s book. I see the closest tall tree and focus on the tip. I go into warp speed. I see the small focused point of the tree but my peripheral vision is a blurry mess. I sort of lose vision for a sec but feel the tree branches smack into me. I blindly grasp and feel something small thorny branches. There is a dull pain but I don't dare let go. I see another tree in the distance. I repeat the exact same thing.



I look farther out. I see a tree covered mountain range. The sun is rising behind it. The mountains look really far away. They are small and on the horizon. I pick a spot with trees and focus. I fly/teleport. Again, I grasp branches and hold on. I lose vision briefly again. I think that this has to be far enough.I let go and drop to the ground. I land hard.

I pick myself up off the ground and notice the sky is dark again. I try to imagine the Colosseum again. A huge spot light comes on be. I begin to hear a roaring crowd chanting something. I think, This is it! I pretend I have a sword sheathed on my left side. With my right arm I make a drawing motion. I can hear it come out but I feel nothing. All I can see is my shadow on the ground in front of me. I am a bulky muscular man with a Gladius in my right hand. I am in a fighting stance and ready for battle. At that moment the dream collapses.

Haunted?

DEILD back into bed. This time I give the SP a little more time. I focus on the feeling and relax. I just wait and watch like I do when I have HI.

I begin to see a bright blue blob of color. I focus on it. It looks like some sort of animation on a computer screne. I sit up and reach for it. It becomes a tablet in my left hand. I continue to watch the strange blob. I ask the the dream, "What is this?"
I hear a reply in my mind, "EVIL..... THIS HOUSE IS HAUNTED."
I become afraid. I shout. "YOU FAGGOT! SHUT-UP! NO IT'S NOT!" (faggot? really? Sorry folks, I never use that word IRL) Then I realize that I pretty much just called myself a faggot. I think about stupid it was. The dream collapses.

The Creep In The Mirror

I DEILD again and remain calm. I sit in SP again. I am beginning to realize that if I give SP some time and not rush things I will be able to see better. After some time I can see the room. I get out of bed. This time I try to focus on using the bathroom door to teleport to the Colosseum. It is the closest door. I remember the non-lucid awhile back that when I opened the door it led to a park outside. I try to visualize the outline of wall again. I open the door. Nope. Normal bathroom. I try again and the room is a black void. I feel encouraged and walk in. I imagine a Gladius in my hand and try my WILD tech in dream. I make a repetitive chopping action with the sword and wait for the Colosseum to form.

Suddenly the lights come on. I am just in my bathroom. I can see the sun coming from the window. The light is bright and warm like noon in the summer. I decide to just play around now.

I go to the sink and look in the mirror. I notice the medicine cabinet is all wrong. It has a sliding glass door rather than a hinged one. I look really creepy and distorted. My body is all jittery and wavy like I an underwater. I focus on my face. My eyes look bloodshot. My goatee is gone and I look like I am 16 again. I gasp and let out a laugh. When I do that there is this strange zooming focus effect in the mirror with the background behind me. I am taken aback. I focus again on my face. I am making crazy faces at myself. I am still wavy and jittery. My reflection give me a half smirk. It looks like someone is photo editing my mouth in real time with a smudge tool. I realize I am not smiling. Then I notice that I have a black, smoky aura around me. I gasp and again the strange zooming effect. It was almost like reality bent and flexed around me. I focus on my face once more and it looks sort of normal. I feel really creeped out and decide to move on.



I think about going outside so I look out the window. I pull back the blinds but find that I can't see past the screen. Its just really bright light coming in. I decide to head to the front door.

I walk through into my son's room. And become distracted. I see him asleep in the crib. I lean over him and say "BOOOO!" He makes a face and puts his hands to his mouth. He looks like he is about to cry. I feel really bad that I scared him. I try to comfort him and kiss is forehead. Then I wonder if I am really astral projecting and worry that I am waking him up. Then I get an idea.

I rush back into my bed room to try and see myself. I go back through the bathroom. There is breif darkness. Then I an standing next to my bed in the dark. My wife wakes up and half-way sits up. I see my body lying in bed in my right side with my legs slightly bent. I notice that MY HEAD IS MISSING. I jump in the bed next to me. It feels like a plastic dummy. It has a shirt and shorts on. I reach into the neck of the shirt but it feels like smooth skin. I remember the headless boy dream the scene destabilizes.

Concentration is Lost

I begin to DEILD again. I feel the vibrations buzzing my body. This time I become distracted. I realize that have had a long dream. I feel like I am going to forget is all. I try to think back while keeping the SP going but this much thinking fully wakes me up.

The time is exactly 7:00AM. I feel a little confused because the room is so dark still. I swear to myself that I am still dreaming but after several clock RCs and awareness checks I quickly realize I am not. It is just cloudy outside.

Unfortunately, I don't remember much of it now, but I did finally get lucid again. I do remember, after performing an RC and becoming lucid, I exclaimed that I was dreaming and could prove it by flying. I couldn't fly, but then my brother threw a snowball at me, and we got into a snowball fight.

I soon "woke up", and it was the stupidest kind of false awakening not to catch - I didn't wake up in bed or anything, I was in the exact same place (but the "next morning") but with different people. I mean, I didn't even "wake up"; I just "knew" that I did.

I went to bed at 10. Woke up at 230 and decided to do SSILD.

10-230 dreams.

My family and I were going on vacation... kind of boring until we get to the huge hotel that was stocked with free candy everywhere. Alltl the guys were going to the pool, and when we got back the gals were missing. I found a place that was filled with about 50 girls, my wife wasn't there though. I kept looking after releasing all the gals there. I went to the top floor and found her drugged and with 5 men in suits. After talking to the guy I got him to release her to me. One of then stood up and started talking about how it wasn't fair and how we should. Just let them take us away. I got mad and said "all we did was check into a hotel, why do we have to be punished?" He replied "it is enough"

230-3
I don't remember how, but I woke up in a car. While there I remembered a dream that was lucid that told me about how my wife was gonna die (I think this was a fake dream because of the way I remember it now) I was in the passenger seat and my "wife" was driving. She was nothing like my wife, but I started rembering the dream and told he to get off the highway because the glass in the car was all breaking and I wanted to save her. When she got off the highway a car went up the off ramp and hit our car, just a fender bender, but three guys came out of the car and I was trying to tell her to drive away, but my throat caught and I heard a voice commentating inside my head that was supposed to be me remembering my dream that had talked all about this.

Wake up, get up and go to the bathroom. Lay down and SSILD.

3-330
I am walking outside the hotel. I start thinking of how I got there and realize I had to be dreaming. I walked across the street and started waking up. I looked up and blinked. Every time I blinked the scenery changed. I started seeing lesss and less of each until I tried to keep my eyes open and woke up.

Laid still and started walking on the street again. Realized again that I was dreaming. Spun like crazy because I didn't have time to do anything else. Could feel myself spinning, and a dream formed around me. Lost lucidity and forgot what I did after that.

330-5
Woke up laid still. Started going through cycles of SSILD. I then noticed a beautiful girl leaning over me EDIT: added because I wrote this quickly years ago knew I wouldn't forget this I was in the void and she was the only thing with me, she was an ageless being, I couldn't tell if she was 16 or 35, she was just the prime example of a human. Light seemed to emanate around her and when she reached down and touched my arm, electricity shot through my body and I was hoping that I didn't jolt myself awake. Color exploded around me and I was now downtown on one of my routes. I forgot to stabilize, but I started looking for infinity. I turned around, and that changed the scenery behind me. Not to infinity though. Started tripping and decided to walk around the corner where infinity would be at. After about 2 minutes into the dream I woke up.

The rest of the night was just me trying to get into a used tire store and telling everyone about my dreams..

I had some more LDs last night. I have a huge problem with stabilization. Please any professional lucid dreamers with good stabilization techniques leave some comments on it if you are interested in helping me out. I tried rubbing my hands together in every single one of these and it is not working for me. It might help for a second but I eventually just wake up not long after.

I start out lucid in this parking lot in front of a store which had a name with Blood something on it in glowing red letters, which I notice my brain is testing me in each lucid dream to make something bad happen. I don't think much of it at all and I walk out onto a sidewalk. I look down the street and see a few buildings and the street lights are on which it is night time. I walk over the road and walk into a yard and see houses along a street. I notice some of the ground in front of me starts to become darker and I rub my hands together. It doesn't really help so I just sit on the ground and try to focus more, I close my eyes and try to change where I am but I wake up.

I go into another LD and I don't realize it at first. I am sitting at a table in a school or something like it. Then as I am sitting there it comes to me, oh ya i'm doing LDs right now and I get up and start walking. I walk past this kid who fucked with me a bit in high school, he didn't bother me much IRL but he would piss me off sometimes. I saw him and recognized him. I knew my brain was testing me and tried not to think about him but he did turn and look at me because I felt uneasy around his DC. I ignored him though and came up on one of my friends IRL. I asked his DC if he knew any stabilization techniques, which I surprisingly wasn't having much problem with at the moment. I don't talk to my DCs much. I couldn't believe what this fucker did. I asked him and he showed me a hand gesture of straightening the fingers together and tapping the tips of the middle fingers against each other. I tried it and he watched me with a grin on his face. He slapped me in my face and started laughing hysterically. I just stared at him and said you're fucking around with me aren't you. He shook his head continuing his laughter. I was laughing a bit as I couldn't believe my brain was fucking with me. I woke up at some point after that. What the hell was that about.

I do another LD and I get up from my bed. I walk out of my room and see my brother on the computer as always. I start to walk for the door to adventure out side but I wanted to try and stabilize first because I knew I would wake up if I didn't. I sat down in front of the door and relaxed a bit. Miles then asked me what I was doing. Thinking about it now it was kinda stupid what I said. I asked him, "Can you see me" thinking that because it seemed pretty real as he is always sitting at his spot on his computer, which is what he is doing now as I am writing this. Everything was just like real life except I knew I was dreaming. He said yes and I was kind of amazed. I then woke up not long after, because his DC distracted me. I had a FA about me telling him about that exact LD and he thought it was pretty cool. I then woke up IRL.