false awakening

So unfourtunatly i havnt been uploading many journals on here. This is like the second one in a long itme, anyways lately ive been expiernce sleep paralysis. Just about everynight. Usually im so usedd to these i can have fun by imagining things up, BUT lately my thought have been filled with things that keep turning evil on me. Its getting bad. Some of the things i see are like three black figures hanging on my wall, then i managed to turn my head and ened up look at a red fading face in the ceiling. The pressure on my chest started and i was able to breathe.When i woke, i easily fell back to sleep and it happened again and once again i coul notbreath. Ive been dealing with sleep paralysis for a very long time but never untill about two nights ao did i have breathing problems. Anyways my dreams have started turning into nightmares and my thought havnt been going the way i wanted them to. the funny thing is, that right now there is actually NO bad things or NO stress in my life, in fact ive been having some of the best times ive had in a long time. With that being said i do not know why these things are starting to appear in my dreams and i dont know..... ive actually been avoideding sleeping because yes....im actually scared for once.

I was all ready to go. Sent my kid off to school at 7 am then got back into bed and closed my eyes to begin.

Right off the bat I could feel it start. My body got very light and tingly and I felt a lifting sensation.

Then loud construction trucks started to run up and down my street and after weeks of doing nothing, began to work on my road again. Right in front of my house.

I grabbed some ear plugs and turned up Enigma to try to block out the noise.

I tried several times to re-engage a dream state but the noise was too distracting. I came close but nothing.

I had been lying on my back the whole time so I decided to switch positions and try my side.

Eventually I just fell asleep. Which was actually a good thing. Because I woke back up and tried again.

I had been watching a video about OOB experiences and decided I would attempt it since I wasn't really able to fall asleep.

I remember falling asleep again and "waking up" but realized this was a false awakening of sorts so I tested it out and "rolled" out of my bed and onto the floor.

I don't recall seeing my body on the bed but I was standing up at this point and in my own room.

I walked into the hallway but the house was different. Older style, different paint, obviously not my house.

But it was a three family house like mine. I remember trying to float up through the ceiling and I may have been blocked. I don't remember if I had to actually take the stairs or not.

I did make it up to the third floor apartment, which was not the actual one in my house.

I also remember doing at least one "reality check" where I looked in the mirror and saw a very distorted image. Where normally I would be scared of such an image, I remember laughing because it confirmed I was dreaming.

The whole thing didn't last very long and I woke back up shortly after that in my bed.

It was a "dirty and unclear" dream state. Everything was fuzzy and I remember feeling that the house was not "clean". Not messy, just dirty.

It was a very strange experience all in all. One one hand I am glad that for the second day in a row I was able to have something happen. But at the same time upset because it started off to be a major LD with full awareness and control but ended up being a very minor episode because of all the noise.

They are supposed to be working on my road off and on again this week. I am still going to try but will have to find a way to compensate for the noise better than ear plugs and Enigma.

No MILD, no WILD. I tried WBTB, and I was so tired that I don't really remember it.

And I honestly have no idea if I had a lucid dream or not.

First, I had a dream that St. Vincent (musician) brought us Chinese food after we ordered it. It was pretty cool. Then there was something to do with Metal Gear Solid.

Then, there was this part where Ephraim and I were walking around this carnival place, and I know a girl was involved, but I can't remember who. There was also this band that I think he was a part of. We sat down to eat with them at one part.

The last vague dream I had was that Brian and Mom were working on something, and they really made progress ,so they invited me outside to see. But, the thing is, there was nothing there. They brought to the backyard, but it was this really small concrete backyard with fences all around to other really small concrete backyards. It was like a backyard in Philly. There was snow everywhere. It was so deep in some spots that it came up to my thigh. Brian handed me some raw eggs. For some reason, we were throwing them at the ground. I remember stepping forward to the middle of the backyard, and worrying that my shoes were going to get snow in them. The wall of the building next to us was brick, and definitely not our house. Anyway, after we cracked some eggs on the snow, I got bored and was going to just throw mine as far as I can, when Brian advised against it. I said I was only going to throw it and see if it hit a house, and the dream ended there.

Next, I was in this very big city. The best description would be Isle Delfino from Super Mario Sunshine, but it was a lot more open, and realistic. This part of the dream was very brief and in third person. I was on top of this bridge looking at the far end of the city. I saw a DE villain.

All of a sudden, I found myself in my old house. I was in my mom's room, and I got up and went to my own room. I got this sheet music for...I forget what song. Anyway, I went back to my mom's room, and the villain was there on my mom's bed. He wasn't so much a villain as he was just some random guy that had DE bad intentions. He didn't do anything though. Anyway, I asked him what he was doing here, and he said he was going on vacation. I sighed and went back to my room. I got a change of clothes (one change of clothes) and brought it back to my mom's room. I threw the clothes on the bed and sat down as the room started to move. It was like how when ships leave the harbor, and in those movies where the characters make it just in time and they jump onto the ramp up to the boat. Well, the whole room started to move outward, as if it was leaving a harbor. I got a little worried, and got up and went to the hallway. I asked the guy when we would be back from vacation. He replied with, "A forest." I clarified, "No, WHEN are you coming back?" I walked back into the room, and knew I still had little time to make a decision. He replied with, "Oh, I don't know. I was thinking some time around...April?" I screamed, "APRIL!?" Was this guy nuts? I had stuff to do today! I grabbed my clothes, and ran back to the hallway just as the ramp to the room was too far away. I told him if he got bored, there is sheet music I printed out and left on the bed. He immediately took interest to it, and laid on his stomach to read it. He may have been able to read the tune without an instrument.

This next part is pretty confusing, and slightly frustrating. You see, I was in the old house watching TV I think. Ashley was sitting next to me on the couch, and I was on the end by the window. I may have been eating a meal as well. I stopped for a second. I looked at my hands. "One, two three, four, five, six, seven, eight. Okay now the other ha-wait a minute..." I stood up and looked at Ashley, "Am I dreaming?" She looked right at me and said, "Well, yes." I immediately remembered to rub my hands together to make the dream more vivid, which it did, and I constantly told myself I was dreaming as to not lose my lucidity.

Now this may seem all fine and dandy, but I'm not sure this was actually a lucid dream. At most, I'd say it was the least lucid one could ever be, or not lucid at all. I say this because I didn't remember it upon waking, and I wasn't "conscious" per se. It felt more like I was going through the motions, as if the dream was just telling me that, "Oh you usually look at your hands first, then you were supposed to rub them together, etc." Not to mention, the dream sequence ended as soon as I rubbed my hands together. It went straight into the next dream, and I didn't remember the other one, and I wasn't "lucid" in any sense. My biggest thing, though, is that I wasn't "thinking", but rather it felt more like the dream was doing the thinking for me, if that makes any sense.

I also may have had a false awakening. I think after this fake lucid dream, I went to my dream journal and wrote down the events of the bed/vacation dream. It was so vivid, and clear, that when I actually woke up, I looked at my dream journal and was confused how there wasn't anything about the dream.

Anyhow, the final dream took place in a set-up-differently school. I was in the principal's office, visiting, as I had already graduated. I was to meet with the principal, or was also the president of the United States of America. So the character kept morphing from George Washington to Dr. Morris, my principal from 5th grade, and back. Anyway, I felt honored, and went over to meet her/him. When I got to where they were, they showed me a computer screen. They said that this was the upcoming picture prompt test, and since I graduated already, I could see it. The picture came up, and It was the cast of The Magic School bus, and Arthur, climbing on these statues of animals. They were at the zoo. Then the principal looked at me and said, "Is this something you would be able to write a story on?" I said, "Yeah, I would be worried that the kids will just write about The Magic School bus, and not something original." She agreed and said she thought the same thing, and we needed to think of a way around that problem. I suggested that we get a bunch of random kids together, and we find statues like the ones in the picture, and we take their pictures individually, so that we could imitate the picture. She said, "I hope you aren't serious about that idea." I realised that it sounded a bit creepy, but I persisted, "Yes, I was serious. We could pull it off." Just then, I was in the presence of Green Day. The drummer wasn't there, though, and the bass player was playing a keyboard. The singer started up a song, and I remember thinking that this song has flute in it (DE song), and I wondered how they would pull it off. Just when the flute would come in, the bass player started playing the part on the keyboard. The flute's part was to play harmonies with the singer's tune, and it worked pretty well. Then, the band vanished, and I was left to mess around with the keyboard. I noticed that some keys light up, and I was supposed to hit them in order. I turned to this guy next to me, and I was like, "Is it like Simon? Or do I just hit whatever?" He didn't say anything, and I turned back to the keyboard. Hank Hill, from King Of The Hill, was on every key now, and I turned to the guy I asked about the keys, and said, "I love King Of The Hill. It's such an under-rated show. He turns to me, and in the most arrogant, condescending voice says, "Oh god! King Of The Hill is the worst sho I have ever seen. I can't believe you watch it." Then Lenny walked up (SUPER religious kid). It was DE that they were in the same club, and that they weren't allowed to like King Of The Hill or something. So I figured Lenny would feel the same way, so I walked away.

I was still in the school, but now I was trying to get...somewhere I don't even remember. Anyway, I was wearing this back pack with a yellow sign on the back that said: YES. This short kid behind me had one that had a red sign on the back that said: NO. It was like there were tow sides to a big argument in the school or something. We were running up these stairs, and he was following behind me. So this short, annoying kept trying to get close and trip me from behind. I was getting annoying, and started to skip steps, he followed suit, and now when he got close, I would grab onto the railing, and jerk myself backwards, so I would hit him as he tried to run up to me. Eventually, this kid behind me went for gold, and hopped up onto my back pack (he was small enough). I freaked out, and leaned back, so that he would fall off. I was successful, and I turned around to see this kid very violently and painfully smack his head on the railing with his full body weight, and then tumble down the stairs to a landing. I felt extremely bad, and went up to the kid and said, "Oh my god, I'm so sorry. Are you alright? I'm really, really sorry." He got up, like it was nothing, and prepared to fight me for knocking him off of me. I knew he was no threat so I said, "Go ahead, hit me. We'll be even." I took off my back pack, and positioned myself so that he would hit my right shoulder. He took a bunch of swings, and repeatedly and swiftly hit me on my shoulder. I faked, "Ooooowww, oh you got me. Shit that hurts. Alright see ya." I put my back pack on and left on the other side of the landing, which had a ramp down to a door, which led to a hallway. I walked along the hallway thinking that I probably ruined that kid's whole day. I got to the lunch room. It was set up so differently, that I can't really call it a lunch room. We didn't eat, but we chose where we got to sit, and it was more like an auditorium. As I walked up to the doors to the room, there was a lot of commotion going on. I saw some chick kiss this Ed kid I knew. Then I saw this other dude kiss Ed. It wasn't gay in the dream, it was actually more like a joke because he couldn't get a kiss from the girl because she was dating Ed, so he kissed Ed on the cheek so he could get a taste of the girl. I walked into the room, and saw a bunch of rows or wooden seats. It was reminiscent of a congressional hall, but everything was bright, and school-vibed.

Woke up after that.

Was at my apartment in sammamish with Leo kara and dina. It snowed really hard and I went to go to work at the restaurant. I though I would be fired for sure because I didn't come in for a week. I went inside and the manager said to talk to him. He walked me to a table of kids and said here's your punishment. I hated kids tables. I went through the grueling process. They started with diet coke, coke, strawberry soda, sprite, and water. Some of them ordered food like farfella. There was an older woman there too. She didn't order anything. I went to the cashiers stand to put the order in and did a reality check. I could breath through my nose. Impossible! This was too real and I could remember what I did a few hours ago. I did it again and I could breath. I did it about five times in a row and just couldn't believe it so I continued to put the order in. I took my time putting the order in and didnt really worry about getting it right. I didn't really care if I got fired. Curtis came and said someone smells bad. I laughed and we talked a but about why I wasn't coming in. I said I just hated working. He asked if I had acid and I said no and asked him the same thing. I left the restaurant and went to my car which was now a giant motorcycle. I was more like a truck with armor. It was black and was being held by five giant brakes. I got on and rid home. Leo and i talked about him leaving and discussed about the next step. We all went to watch a movie and I kind of got sucked in. It felt super long like a dream within a dream. In this movie there were animals everywhere and they could talk. It was a disney movie. They were being hunted by a giant. Black lion type thing. I went around talking to them trying to figure out how to save them. There was a giant machine like thing that could capture and kill the beast. I spent some time trying to get it into the machine. The lion tried getting out but I locked it. I turned it on and it made a really loud humming noise and started to spin. There were spikes at the bottom and he jumped to the top and held on while it spun. I cpukd see him getting dizzy as be lost his balance and fell into the spikes to die. I went to go dispose of the body. The mountain opened up to expose a mother dimension. It was dilled with thousands of dead animal bodys. I had to scrape them all further in into the dimension. Leo was there. A cut scene came in saying that dead is just the becoming and you shouldn't worry about what you do but enjoy it. It was very passionate. I was back home and told lei and dina about the movie and how amazing it was. They said they didn't finish it because it was too slow in the begining. I went for another movie. This movie was short and took place in rolling foothills. I was hiding on a hill as a giant creature was running free. I just watched in amazement as I have never seen such an animal before. It came close to me and then just ran of f to another animal. It was beautiful and sunny out. I was back in my apartment and Leo and dina were going to take a walk. Kara wanted to join them and they waited for her. I wanted to take baron on a walk with them so I slowly got ready. I could tell they wanted to hurry so I got barons leaah. The scene teleported to outside where I was with baron in the snow. He didn't have his leash on and was barking at some lady. I got worried he would run and put him on his leash.

As usual there is more to this dream, but I can only remember the tail end before I woke up.

It began with a false awakening, I remember there was a dream before then I woke up into this one.
In the first dream I barely remember a small puppy dog was in my bed. I loved this dog and he was playing in my bed with
me before I fell asleep and had the false awakening in the dream realm.

I am in a strange house, I briefly recall that my Dad and sister live in this house, the previous dream took place here, and I'm visiting them.
I feel really tired and keep falling back asleep. Finally, I force myself to get out of bed. I feel bad for sleeping
so late. I look around and notice its late afternoon, 5-6 based on the lighting. Nobody is in the house and I remember walking around thinking everyone left.

Later I'm at a grocery/convenience store with my mom and sister. I am standing in front of a freezer trying to pick some
ice cream. I decide on blue bell Almond bar, but they only come in packs of 4. I see a premium almond coated chocolate ice-cream bar for 1.99 and decide on that. I can remember some comment my sister made about me picking the most expensive one.

I walk to the line where my mom is standing and throw the ice cream bar down on the conveyor to be checked out.
As I'm standing in line with my mom, my sister walks into line with us. She walks past the guys behind us, 2 men dressed
in civil war army uniforms. My sister salutes one guy and makes some comment about him being a cop.

I correct her looking at the guy and saying "He's an officer, Army right?" I ask him. He responds yes, and tells me that
the uniform is real civil war era, he thinks. He tells me he doesn't know for sure, but his guess is civil war. I tell him
I agree, that I have seen army uniforms before and it definitely looks to be civil war era. I can't remember his rank for sure, but he was officer, captain or higher.

The dream ends here

I wish I could remember more, this dream was at least 3 times longer, but my dream recall still needs work. I'm glad I could remember this much. I just know that there was more before the false awakening/top dream layer.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm driving through the parking lot of a shopping center, at night. There is a violent physical altercation going on in the parking lot, and it turns into a gunfight.

I'm now riding my bicycle through a nearby residential neighborhood, where there is more violence going on. It's still nighttime. As I ride, I pray that I won't get hit by a stray bullet. I also reflect that I could be driving to my destination, which is my old church, but I like bicycling better than driving. [This is true.] I miss the turn to get to St. Mark's.

I'm no longer riding my bicycle; I'm now standing in a black nothing. [I suspect that I might have DEILDed here, but I'm not positive.] I think of the destination I was just trying to get to, the parish hall at my old church, and cause a knife from the parish hall's silverware drawer to appear in my hand. A second later, the parish hall appears around me.

I walk through the room, appreciating the dream environment, as usual. A lot of people are there, including my parents. My dad comes up to me and offers to give me a hug, and I accept it and hug back. All the people are there for a big reception, with a lot of food laid out on tables.

After the reception, when everyone has left except me, my parents, and two or three other people, there is still a huge platter of thinly-sliced roast beef left over. I try to give it away to those two or three other people.

I wake up in my current bedroom, very pleased to have just had a lucid dream. I remember to grab my phone, which is running Ev's Lucid Dreaming App for Android, and draw a star on the screen with my finger to indicate that I just had a lucid dream. I draw the star, but very sloppily, with one point much bigger and longer than the other points. I'm concerned that the program won't recognize the gesture, but it does. It displays the gesture I just drew with the caption “lucidity!” underneath it, in the same font it always uses for those captions.

When I woke up for real, I thought to myself, You know, I bet I didn't actually record that lucid dream. The app wouldn't recognize the star if I drew it that poorly, and the caption always just says "lucid dream." I checked my actual phone and, sure enough, no "lucid dream" mark on my graph. That had, indeed, been a false awakening. I felt slightly frustrated, as well as highly amused that the app had shown up in one of my FAs.

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Side notes:

Wow. I'm pretty pleased with this DEILD, if that is indeed what it was, and with my sudden mastery of changing the dream scene. To be fair, though, I did change it to the destination I had been trying to reach in my non-lucid nightmare.

I didn't realize until after I woke up that the part where my dad hugged me was day residue. On the evening before I had this dream, I hadn't bothered to get up and hug my dad when he left the house, and I had regretted it. I thought it was awfully nice of my subconscious to give me a second chance to do that.

Tried WBTB, no LD. Sorry if this one feels rushed. It's mostly because it is.

First, there was this Halloween party I was supposed to attend. It was at one of the houses I see on the way to Alec's, but it was Jing was going to be there too, and this other Asian chick who I don't know lived there. I was supposed to go there with Ephraim. I also wrote down "green/red", "strawberry", and "yuigoh", but I don't remember their significance, although I do remember that they had to do with this part of the dream. I also wrote down the word "plants" in quotations, meaning there was weed somewhere in the dream, but I don't remember that either. Anyway, suddenly I was in this other house with Sean, Onyx (school nerd), and some other faceless people. Onyx started talking about twitter to me, saying that everyone in school uses it to remember their homework. I said, "Why would I do that when I could just type it on my phone?" Then I got up in his face and said, "You jelly?" In case you aren't familiar, that's internet lingo for "are you jealous?" Then I realised how stupid this was and went to go sit down, embarrassed. As I went to go sit down, Sean gave off the vibe that he was one of the nerds or something. On Onyx's computer, he had this list of names, and it had something to do with LAN. I saw names like Abe Lincoln, Linkin Park, Sean Connery, etc.

Then I had a false awakening in my room. It looked like my room, but I still knew that this was before the Halloween party. It was DE that I took a nap before going. I didn't do a RC because my brain hates me.

At the party, which now took place in this swag mansion/restaurant, there was a guy who was supposed to be V from V for Vendetta, but he wasn't wearing a mask, and he was a well-known DE actor. All of a sudden, when this one guy comes up behind V, V turns around around shoots him. The guy didn't even have any bad intentions. Anyway, one of the shots fired missed, and went outside and some guy outside dodged the bullet. Andrea and I saw this, and we agreed that this was impossible (NO RC? WHY?!?). Back inside, V had his victim on a table, and he just kept shooting him, but he just wouldn't die. He shot him like ten times, then turned around to walk away, but then the victim would muster up all of his strength to raise his own gun and shoot back. Then V would turn around and shoot him again, like ten times. This repeated for a while.

Then I was in Anthony's living room, but he wasn't there. It was just me, and Dad, and the one couch was on the other side of the room, and everything was white. Dad kept making these comparisons that I didn't understand, like he was referencing things that came before my time or something, and I don't remember what he was comparing, but it had something to do with me. Then I was on Family Guy, except I think I was just watching this part. Stewie and this other character were racing, and they had to race without teleporting. They were in this futuristic looking park, and the whole place looked like a gigantic jungle gym. Stewie, who was sort of me, won, and he said, "This is the greatest moment of my life! Aaaaaand...now it's gone." I guess the feeling wore off quickly.

I woke up at 7 AM.

Back to sleep.

The next dream I had was started a sequence of dreams. I don't remember what I was doing before hand, or if I was doing anything before hand, but I was stuck on the side of the road. It was raining hard, and there were major floods. The side of the road was completely flooded to the point where you could swim in it. In my dream, I don't know if I couldn't swim, or the water was just too violent, but I was drowning. There was a lot of dirty grass all in the water. There was this guy not too far away sitting with some of his buddies in lawn chairs. They had a tent up and they were just enjoying some beers. Keep in mind we are on this desolate road in the middle of a serious weather situation. I yelled for help, and at first this guy didn't want to help because he didn't feel like getting up. The guy also looked familiar, I think he was a teacher at my school. I yelled for help again, and he finally got up, and it was DE that he was only doing this for fame and fortune. There was another person drowning with me, and the guy who saved me, only grabbed my hand, so I thought fast, and grabbed the other guy's hand to save him too. Then the dream told me the tide was low, so I started to walk home. I saw Rocky, my cat, and I was worried about him, so I picked him up and took him with me. As I was walking this group of kids were walking on the right side on the road. I told them that they could get hit by a car on that side since they can't see behind them. However, every time a car went by, they miraculously didn't get hit.

Then I was at the old house. I'm pretty sure Avatar: The Last Airbender was on TV. The show's plot had something to do with the planet about to explode, and Aang went into outer space to-I have no idea. Anyway, Anthony, his mom, and his sister, Alexis were there, and suddenly, I was in this room with Alexis. I was supposed to talk to her because for some reason, Anthony, and their mom couldn't get through to her, which would never happen in real life. We were in this room (sort of DE that it was inside the TV, but not really) that had plain walls, some art tables, and a door leading out. There was a clothes line that was holding up some papers with art on them. Anyway, we were talking about her interest in art. She was saying that she likes art, but she doesn't see the point in going to school for it, since she knows how to paint. I told her that she may think she knows everything there is to know, but she will get to school and realise that there is so much more for her to learn. As I was talking, I saw Anthony and his mom walk past the doorway to the room, so they could peak in to see how I was doing. This part of the dream could have paralleled my predicament in music, which was similar to Alexis's in the dream.

Then I was back on the road still walking home, except now, I wasn't there, and I was replaced by Alann, and some of his friends. They were late for a party that I was already at. I went inside the house for the party, and I was pretty nervous because I didn't know anyone. I remember it being very sunny outside, like after a storm, and there was a brilliant garden out front. When I walked in the door, there was a room to the left, and if you walked forward, you found the kitchen. Jimmy Neutron's mom was the host of the party, and when I walked in, she offered me this cake that had chocolate on top, vanilla ice cream in the middle, and Oreo cookie on the bottom. It was DE that the father was going to be late for his own kid's birthday party. The father in question was Alann, but now he was some other guy. The dream cut to this guy, who looked like a modern version of Fred Flintstone. He got sidetracked on his way home, even though he was like a block away, and he went to this amusement park. The only thing at the park was this roller coaster that had three or four different tracks, so that four different trains can ride at the same time. Suddenly I was on this platform at the top of the roller coaster, and I saw Rocky on the tracks. I was worried about him again, and I climbed onto the roller coaster tracks to save him. The tracks were very thin, and I could sit on them, as if sitting on a horse. I looked down, and I realised that I was very high up; all I could see were the very small tops of the trees of a forest down below. For some reason this didn't bother me, as I had to hop from track to track to avoid the roller coaster as they went by. The trains were only one car in length.

Anyway, we all get back to the party, and the dad got there JUST in time. Then, we all ate. The host was suddenly Anthony's mom, and I kept dropping food on my lap, and looking over out of the corner of my eye to see if she noticed. I saw that she did notice, and I was pretty embarrassed. The food we ate were these very large trays of steak, peas, carrots corn, and various meats. The vegetables were scattered all over the whole thing, and the steak was in cupcake form. The tray next to that had a bunch of meat that looked like sushi, and it also had these circular rolls of ham (it was DE that they were like my mom makes, although she doesn't make rolls of ham lol). Someone on the other side of the table told me that there was also ham, not just steak, so I tried some of it. This food was the best thing I have ever tasted in my entire life. It was so juicy, and tender, and it just tasted so amazing. Everything at the table tasted great, and when everyone else was done eating, and they went into the other room, I was still at the table eating. Since it was a dream, I couldn't get full, and I just kept eating for a while.

Then I met up with everyone in the next room. There was this robot on the couch, and he had a yellow, pointy head, with a visor over where his eyes would be. He had a round body, and was pretty short. The host of the party powered him up, and we all became miniature, and we went inside this robot dummy. It was supposed to be a simulation of a real body, but for party purposes, it was a rental robot. Inside the body, which reminded me a lot of Bowser's Inside Story, there were there monkey bars made of organs, and there was this ball pit and slide made of organs that all the kids were playing on. But then, I realised that we were trapped. There was this one exit to the body where we were suddenly under this surreal (think Little Big Planet) ocean, and the water was too high (because of the flood in the beginning) so we couldn't leave. I try calling Plankton for help (from Spongebob) on this phone, but it didn't work. Then I went back into the meaty, organ room that we were all initially in, and I saw that everyone else was still having their fun, oblivious to the fact that we were stuck in here. The host, at this point, now morphed into a pink fish. I realised that we needed to call Plankton so he could save us. And I also realised that if you ate this certain kind of food, it changes your urine, so that it can power the phone. A lot of the parents there were suddenly bloopers from Mario (the squids), and their urine would be the most potent. While they worked on this, I went back to the under-sea spot. I found a giant metal pole that I tried to stick out of the ground so that this spider that was on it could crawl up, then onto this tree, and go get help. When the spider was crawling up, I could feel the vibrations through the pole. It was pretty weird. Debbie, my mom's friend, was suddenly there next to me, and she was worried that we wouldn't get out. Then the tide was low again, and I walked out. I walked towards the ocean, which was now an under-sea beach, and to the left, and up a hill. Everyone was disappointed because they ate all of that special food for nothing. When we were out of the body and back at the house, I realised that the host fish had this slot on her stomach. It was for a pole attachment, so I took the pole, put it in the slot, and held up the fish, like a balloon. I showed her around the house, as if she was a guest. Then I showed her outside, as if she was unfamiliar with our world. The seasons changed right in front of us, so I could show her each season.

The main dream i remember was somewhat of a flase awakening I was very sure I was awake and that i smoked some weed and then got very upset that i was likely going to fail my urine analysis the next week and kind of threw a fit with my friend. It was not his fault at all i had just forgotten and hit the bowl a few times then rembered later on and i remmber it was kind of earth shattering to me, which inreality it wouldnt have been such a big deal.

The second dream i recall was very intense it was me and my two friends biking to another location and we had passed to turn so we kept biking for a good distanceand ended up at the edge of town by a bridge where we turned around and somehow caused traffic problems and as we or /I passed over the bridge i remember a semi-truck falling over and barely missing me as i peddeled into the ditch and seen my friends bike next to me get smashed and then another two large truck/vehicles were tumbling toawrds us and then i looked at my gps to review the incident and realized the friends bike was hit and thought that my frined was prolly hurt on of the vehicles was in the river under the bridge and i got scarred and yelled for my friends they were actually still on the other side of the bridge having seen what was commming jumping onff their bikes or the road previous to me and then there was also a train flying by at the moment and a bunch of cut large tree logs floating down the river. just trying to review the gps which somehow cought the video of the vehicles flying inches above me at like 60mph was very remarkable i recall and was the last thing i remembered.

Well I had my first day of work today since spring so i woke up early went back to sleep for a while etc. I recalled having very good dreams but maybe not in some opinions, I enjoyed the atmosphere even though I was apparently some kind of reptile or whatever as were my friends in the dream. Anyways the most fluid memories i recall were parts that seemed much alike a video game trying to get from place to place and and many other reptile were around so i didnt seem to question my reptilian body and continued with my apparent mission in some direction, I rember obtaining a vehicle that was unusable and once driving into health markers it repaired itself. I also recall parts were I had great adrenaling rushes from sliding down a huge rock/metalic slope and I had some kind of built in parachute that i could use to land gently, I also was able to sprint for short distances having to press the thumb stick again to sprint after i would stop. I recall being frusted at stopping at going in such a retarded manner. I rember going back to sleep after urinating and resuming my dream and redoing the huge slope structure or mainly approaching it i guess. I also recall parts where all the other reptiles/people hid from a futuristic helicopter for fear of being sighted and at which times i made the most distance because noone was in the way of my movement. I remember halving a very real false awakening pertaining to needing to go to work but i forgot most of what happened it is waht i think led to this reptilian dream i did recall because it was more of a 'oh i can play a video game attitude and make my own dream now' part of dreaming.

These dreams are a couple days old

Under Water

I was in someone elses apartment. I tried to leave through the garage, but when I opened the door that led from the house to the garage, I heard an evil moan. I turned and ran the other way.

I ended up in a room with an angled floor. (I wonder what that represents). Somehow, I was supposed to be underwater, but I wasn't...though all around me were huge aquariums. The only one I really saw was for penguins.

I was concerned about being underwater even though I could breathe. Eventually, someone who worked at the aquarium opened a door from between two of the aquariums. Seeing my chance to escape, someone else yelled, "Fire!" and I ran out.

I was then in Florida in a neighborhood where every house had a boat on a lift, and every street looked the same, with sandy, shell-littered road. That's all I remember.

A Nothing Lucid

I entered a dream lucid, but I was thinking I was awake, or maybe lucid. I tried to manifest a woman, but I couldn't because I thought I was too awake. In hindsight, I realized I was lucid.

I have concluded in waking life that by the time you do an RC, you already know you are lucid. In contrast, I realize that THIS is why you should do an RC. Oh well.

Later, not lucid, I saw a lady standing a couple feet away in a silk neglige. She scratched herself with her pinky. I thought it must have been very soft.

This dream happened years ago. And when I say that I mean YEARS. I was probably 8-9 years old. All I know is that it is probably the most memorable, and vivid, dream I have ever had. An interesting thing about this dream was that this was before I knew what lucid dreaming was. You will understand why that is important later...
This dream probably spanned over the course of six months, but it skipped forward quite a bit. Just... you'll find out.


Just A Normal Day...
I awake in my bed with usual ease and quickly venture down the stairs. Nothing seems wrong, and why should it? I get myself some breakfast and get ready for school when my sister comes down and asks what I'm doing here. Of course, I question this as my father comes in and looks at me in sudden shock. It doesn't take long before he explains to me that I died in a car accident about 5 years ago with my mother. What? My mom isn't dead. I saw her last night before I went to bed.
I begin to explain this to them as they sit there and contemplate what is happening. They ask me how I got here. I explain to them I went to bed last night and now I'm here. Simple as that. My father figures it out. I am dreaming. I am dreaming in "their world". I really don't want to be here though. I want to be home with my real family, and to live my life normally. My father sends my sister off to school and tries to figure out how to wake me up.

The Solution... Sorta
After a few hours my dad finally thinks of something. I will live in this life for the time being while he works out a way to wake me up. This isn't the solution I was hoping for but I realized I could easily come to live in this world.
Here is the thing. This is the world I have always wanted. This is my version of a utopia where nothing is wrong. In this world my house was exactly the same (back when I was 8-9), but it was placed in a neighborhood instead of the country. I hate the country. Not that I despise it, but I don't want to live in it.
Can't say my idea on the country has changed since then...
I think a month or two skipped. I was still living in this world and I had grown to love it. I still wanted to return home though. This dream may seem boring to you but it was the life I have always wanted. I almost feel sadness thinking about returning though. I would return to this dream any day though, and I plan on returning to it once I get more control of my lucid abilities.
Well, anyway, there was this insane storm. It was crazy and the lights were flickering on and off, and I can tell you I was pretty terrified of it. My dad suddenly realized out computer wasn't turned off and if we kept it on then if the power went off it could kill it. We all run upstairs and shut it off as the power goes out. We made it just in time. Time then skips another month.

The First Attempt
There was one really strange thing about this dream. It was logical (for the most part). Nothing seemed off about it. Time was always how it should have been, and everything in my house was the exact same way in my real house.
I awoke at about 11 at night for some reason and was so excited because I thought I was finally awake. I also had a sudden wave of sadness as I walked down the stairs. I never even got to say goodbye. Things changed as I entered the kitchen. Our living room connects to the kitchen and I saw my dad watching TV in it. I looked into my kitchen and noticed that one of our tables was replaced with some strange blue laser machine. I asked my dad what it was and he told me it should shock me awake. I was pretty happy. And I also wasn't. I said my goodbye to him and told him to tell my sister goodbye as I walked into the laser.
Nothing.
I was still here and nothing had changed. He had a disappointed look because his contraption didn't work, but I knew he was happy I was still there. I could just feel it. I went on up to bed again and slept.

The Pickle Salesmen
My sister arrived home from school and told me that her class was selling pickles to win a trip of your choice. I thought going around the neighborhood would be a great idea, and she had no trouble agreeing. We set off from the house and sold those pickles like wildfire. That sounds... really, really weird.
We sold enough to win her the trip and we returned home. My dad then told me he might have a way to finally send me home. He was keeping it a surprise until the next day though. For some reason I was wishing that day would never come. This was my home now. I almost wanted it to be...

The Final Goodbye
I awoke, still in the dream, and did some normal things. It was around noon when I went outside and started to hang with some of my friends that I had made during my time in this dream. My father came up carrying a skateboard and told me that I could go home now. He put the skateboard down and told me to lie on my back on it, and then push. It would wake me up.
I knew this was the end. I was leaving for good. This was probably the most emotional goodbye that I have ever had to make in a dream. I hugged everyone around my block and got on the skateboard. Everyone was smiling. I really remember that. They were so happy for me. I just laid there while they waited for me to finally return from where I came.
I let out that final goodbye and pushed. I flew backwards. The skateboard went faster and faster, but I still saw their waves of goodbye in the midst of the blur. The neighborhood slowly turned into a speck as I flew further and further back into blackness. I suddenly awoke in my bed the next morning.
I was home...

I am going back. Nothing will stop me from returning there. I don't care if that was just a memory in my head being morphed into something bigger than it needed to be, but I will never forget this dream. I think about it all the time, and this proves there is nothing but joy in a dream if you really believe in it. I may have been lucid, but I didn't care. I just wanted to be there. If I had known what lucid dreaming was during that time I bet you I would have skipped this entire adventure by. In the midst of my mind there is one thing that will always stand out forever, and ever.
This one, single, dream.

Last nights dreams
Deam 1 fragments
I had a dream where something was biting chunks out of someones arm, don't know what but the man showed me his arm, on one of the bites I could see throught to the bone!

Dream 2 fragments
Again a dream about someone being bitten by that thing and this time I also was being bitten but I couldn't see by what.

Dream 3
I am in a lighthouse and there are 3 men with me. I go upstairs and 1 of the men is lying down on the flat metal of the stairs. There is a leak or something and there is lots of water all over where he is lying. I am holding a white cloth and I am wiping up around the man, trying to mop all the water up. He keeps farting and they smell really, really bad, I say "for fuck sake..you fuckin stink" ((lol)) I see the main 1 of the 3 and I say "have you smelt that smelly fucker" he says "smell him!" then he speaks a load of jibberish...I say to the man that keeps farting "see, he can't even speak they smell that bad" I then notice that the leak is coming from the other side of the lighthouse, I go over to the other side and mop that up aswell. A bloke standing by the edge of the stair at the top nearly falls backward off them, I say "steady on there!", he then goes down the stairs and goes to sleep on an old settee. I go and get a big blue coat but this one has no sleeves to it and it's like a puffer jacket. I walk over to the man lying on the settee I say "are you ok on there?" He nods yes with his eyes closed. I gently put the puffer jacket over him to keep him warm and he turns into my husband, I lean over him and kiss him goodnight, I also say something to him I can't remember what though and then I wake up.

Dream 4
I am in a white van with my husband. I am driving and i'm looking for somewhere to park. My husband tells me where to park and directs me into a really big car park it was very confusing but we eventually found somewhere to park.Me and my hubby get out of the van and go somewhere. ((dream skip)) I am going back to the van and i'm on my own, I get to the van and there is a man and a woman there they are looking at my van, he had short blonde hair and was wearing a denim jacket. She had long black hair, a pale complection and was quite thin and tall. They were both being nice to me then all of a sudden the man jumped into my van, I am going mad then see him nod his head to the woman. I stand still and get ready for her to come round the van, she comes round from the back of the van and lunges at me, I punch her really hard and she lands on the floor then I kick the shit out of her. The bloke has the top half of his body sticking out of the sunroof on my van, I jump ontop of my van and angrily drag him out of the sunroof, I grab his neck and twist it untill i break it they are now both dead. I see some of their family members so quickly hide their bodies behind my van. I open the back doors to my van and quickly chuck the 2 dead bodies in but the womans body falls to the floor, I leave it there and her mom sees her and screams so I run! I find my hubby and tell him what happened and what i've done, he walks with me back to the van, we look for the van but we cant find it, I turn round and notice that I have 2 of my daughters with me S and J. We eventually find the van but it took us ages and it has now started to rain..I now wake up.

Dream 5
This dream starts with a faulse awakening but unfortunatley I don't realise
In my dream I have just woken up in bed, I turn round and see my hubby lying beside me I think "why's K here, he must have come home from work, maybe somethings happened like a planet is close or something!" I turn to him again after some thought and say "what you doing back home?" he looks at me and says "something has happened in space and a planet is due to hit us, other planets have been pushed closer to us aswell" I absolutley shit myself My hubby points up to the sky and says "look", our bed is now outside in the street! I look up and I can see a huge black and red planet to my right, it is spinning slowly and moving a little closer, I can also see 2 other little planets in the sky. The sky is dark and it was an amazing sight but the fear I had in me was undescribable. My hubby says "the Army are trying to send a missile up to it but they don't know if they will do it in time" I gasp and start to worry even more. I'm thinking about my kids and my hubby and how I don't want them to go through this and die and how I don't want to die either and be without them. My hubby says "we have to make the most of the time we have left", we didn't tell the youngest what was happening but my other daughter S was very inquisitive so I took her a little down the road where she could see properly. In the sky we see like a big dragon thing, its very long and has lots of legs, it's flying inbetween the buildings, this creature is from space and is here because all of space and the planets are being shoved into us. S says " I don't want to see, take me back!" She is scared ao we go back to our bed and sit down. I sat and admired the planets I was amazed that I could see it so close but at the same time i'm scared out of my witts!!!!!

Dream 6 fragment
Something about a baby, she only wanted me and no-one else, she was about a year old. I felt like she was my baby but she wasn't, she was a beautifull baby.

Jurnal #1 - My Lucid Dream as Suggested by Dreamviews


just today, i successfully wild, but i'm lazy writer i dont have book jurnal, so let me type it online. pardon me for this lame act, but i want to record this first my "fully controlled" lucid dream. the dream started on, not sure maybe 8 or 9am on sofa, after a short nap, my wife woke me up, she said she want to go out, i get up turn off my PC and fan, and get back to the sofa, after another short idle nap, i woke up but still close my eye, i remember wild and i know i'm still half sleep state, so i attempt wild, very hard to purposely enter a dream and my body tinggling as usual, but not so tense, i ignore it, continue attempt to the dream world, at last i entered when i move and feel my hand and feet one by one off the sofa and... walk away.


look at watch its 11.00am and reality check, now it passed RC, and i realized my wife still not home, so i jumped to DV to type this experience.

[B]several important achievement..[/B]


so.. have a nice day. albeit this boring stuffs. :D is my journal ok? good enough? or should i do more detailed work. dont mention i should not do it online, i know but i'm 1st time excited, cant hold it and want to share.

I slept late today and had many dreams which I cant remember.

One involved a movie based on Oedipus Rex with Cartman from South Park playing the king, I remember commenting that he did a good job.

Another involved me talking to a professor about a research study I have been deliberating(I remember more of this so I'll discuss it)

I walk down to his desk after class, everyone is leaving the room. I say "Can I ask you a question Dr. Jones?" He responds "How can I answer that question with no?" this is his way of saying go ahead, he is a very open professor and has never turned down a question. I began telling him that I am considering running a hypothetical experiment about the effects of psychedelics in depression. I explain to him that there was a study conducted on LSD, which found it can treat depression(don't know if this is entirely true). I mention that there have only been a handful of studies and that this is a novel research area.
He is listening, interested and makes helpful comments throughout. I finally mention the difference between my study and previous ones, I intend to use a psychedelic which is found naturally in the human body, dimethyltyrptamine. I say "I want to use a psychedelic found in your body" and point to his chest, he suddenly gets a look of immense interest, but before I can explain the dream ends.

I had another fragment which I believe proceeded the false awakening. I remember that I had a party in my new apartment, it looked different(even though in reality the only difference is my room mate moved out). I walk into my room and pick up my phone, it says missed call and when I click on it it says "so many." As if I missed many calls and it can't display them all. It then flashes a message to connect to the computer to retrieve these missed calls. I vaguely remember searching around the room for the cable to connect it. Then

I hear a knocking, "Oh, that must be room mate coming to pick up his last few boxes." I get up in a hurry and am rushing towards the door, suddenly I realize that I'm not awake. Then I actually wake up.

Here's the strange thing, I knew he was coming to pick up the boxes, but about 20 minutes after this false awakening I actually heard a knocking on my door. Lo and behold it was my room mate, here to pick up the last boxes. It may be considered a dream foresight(I don't believe it), because it happened very shortly after the dream. More likely it was just a happy coincedence

maybe false awakening, I am in my room sitting on a bed. my brother and I are making little pictures for some kind of poem I wrote. it's in Korean, so I have to write all the pronounciation in English. there are 2 hispanic female friends to help me out for pronouncing the poem. we have to do this infront of kindergarten kids.(they are in my room)

my recall is foggy. I think I went outside my room. I watch a TV; the announcer says that there's gonna be a snow blizzard tonight due to electrical-thunder-snow-blizzard in Antarctica. I see penguins suffering in extreme windy weather. (kinda sad...) so I tell my mom this news in the living room. suddenly there is another 'new' mom. I recognized that we had new mom before...(in dream) so terrible. my real mom is kinda sulky about this situation.

anyway I return to my room, and the pictures and poem writings are disarranged. I ask my brother, whats going on? and he says, the DVD player is broken(I dont see the connection b/w DVD player and this poem stuff)... so I'm like, okay.
a kindergarten boy is sleeping on the floor with pillow and blanket. I wake him up, saying "do you wanna sleep in my brother's room?" and he nods, slowly walking out of my room.

here my dad knocked my room and I woke up.