lucid

So, last night, I had a lucid dream, my second since joining this site. It was somewhat similar to the first one, in that after (or possibly before) a failed WILD attempt. This of course meant that my mind was more than usual on dreaming, and so at some point in one dream I became lucid. After a couple of minutes, lucidity faded, and I don't remember any more of the dream. As for the part when I was actually dreaming... well, that's kind of personal. Sorry. I'll relate a recent non-lucid dream I had, to make up for it.

The dream begins, and I am playing some sort of role-playing game in the house of someone I don't know. The scene shifts to be 'inside' the game, with me being my character. We are all in a big house on the side of a river, near some think woods/jungle. Everyone has their own small room, and I awaken in mine. I know that there's some danger (though the dream is not a nightmare) so I quickly get up and run out of the house, swim across the river, and enter the jungle. For what seems like hours, I wander through the woods, until I'm sure I've escaped. I then come upon a city, in which I hide for a while. A little later, I become curious and head back through the jungle, more sure of my path this time. I can still see the danger from across the river, so I run back away and don't return.

holy shit. that was crazy. i cannot believe it worked. i was lucid at the begining, and only semi lucid in the middle, non-lucid at the end. recall isn't great

i woke up maybe around 1230 or so but didn't look at the clock. i decided to try wild and just layed down and thought "I am going to remember I'm dreaming. I'm dreaming, im dreamng im dreaming" and day dreaming. It got foggy a few times but i was able to stay awake and then i started to hear one of the dogs in the kitchen but tried not to focus on it. it made me scared for some reason but i held on. then i started to tingle all over. it lasted maybe 15-30 seconds and i remembered this is part of it and got excited...i couldn't control my breathing and was starting to think i was snapping out of it. i didn't know it was a good sign, but my eyes started to move all over...it scared me and i woke up....i think it may have been a false awakening though.

jeremy rolled over after a few minutes and i aske dif he was awake. he was so i told him how close i was. he patted me and rolled over. i got the laptop out and read about WILD.

I decided to try again. this time focusing on lying still and counting 1 im dreaming 2 im dreamking...etc. i got frustrated a few times when jeremy would roll over and touch me or the dogs would get loud(they make more noise at night than i thought) and eventually got up to go to the bathroom. i was frightened then for some reason but tried to ignore that.

I finally settled in and faded out a few times. finally, i could feel myself falling out of bed. i wanted to catch myself, but knew this could be it. i could hear jeremy trying to wake me up, telling me i was falling! i don't catch myself but i end up straight in bed 2 or 3 times and start the falling over(false awakenings?) finally, i fall so much that i know i MUST be on the floor. i feel around and i am in bed. i figure i must be dreaming but feel really silly. its too real, nothing is wrong. but then i look at my hand and it's funny...i don't remember what's wrong with them now though.

i know i am alseep, and try not to laugh too much. i turn to jeremy and say holy shit, this is so funny. he wont wake up...he mummbles and bats my hands away. I still don't quite believe it and am having trouble functioning. eventually i go to the bathroom and look at my hands again...there are 6 fingers, then 4, then 2 sets of 2 fingers on my right hand are stuck together at the base and flare out at the top...i KNOW i am dreaming. I decide to try to get to Marc. i put my hand to the mirror and push. sure enough, i go through. i end up in darkness, but i know i am in the bedroom, on top of a table with a black table cloth covering it. i count my moves forward so i can get out of the darkness if i need to. i go around the table/blackness finding nothing...so i go back. i exit in the bedroom. there is an old volkswagon van and marc is there. i don't think he says much to me. his hair is long and he is sitting in the van as if he is at a drive through watching something in front of him.

i remember worrying about waking jeremy up. i try to call out with him from my own body and even try waking up...i am scared for a minute.

i think i have a false awakening too...jeremy is shaking me telling me to wake up, i am half on the bed, with a goofy smile on my face and drooling.

still in the bedroom-cats, 1 with mange at least 3 of them, 1 older mostly black, 2 kittens black and white. jeremy is there, i tell him they are cute and grab for one of the kittens and cuddle it while it tries to squirm away from me. it has bad mange and a few sores on its back that i look at closely, then i put it down.

now in the livingroom and dining room-mister fighting adalie, not in a playful way lola is also there. they are following me around the house. i am trying to get outside to try flying. i think i do it? and am somewhat unimpressed with flying.

lucidity starts getting choppy...but this part is very vivid still. running outside at night...near some sort of school or warehouse. poeple are sitting around watching something in the sky. fireworks? shooting stars? i don't know. the people around are making fun of me...i guess i was naked or did something imbaressing like peed in front of them? i grabbed a plate thing...was very pretty and sparkly. greens, blacks and blue. was my sister's work, matched a pitcher. the man bought it but i wanted it. i dropped it as he chased me and the end broke so i told him he could havfe it. i flew over to the area where the craft show was to pay but don't think i got there.

marc came over to a hosue, not quite my house but close. i was home alone, there were clothes all over the place. he comes in and smiles, i look at him in amazement...wondering if its real marc or a dream character. he can see my amazment and says,"sorry for the old clothes, i wanted to come right over after ----something?---. . he asks if i wanna play borderlands or another game. his hair is super short and he is wearing a heather blue shit with bleach stains all over it. at this point i know it's not really marc *lucidity is almost gone i think*i try to tell him i don't want to play a game but i have a huge wad of gum in my mouth. i try to pull it all out but its all stuck and there's just tons of it.

there are 2 agents who go to an old womans house on a call. the old woman says that her son is keeping 2 kids in confinement. we/they go downstairs and find a chubby little boy and a little girl who is slightly older. i think they are hispanic or just have really dark hair. they are playing with baby toys and quickly turn around when we/they go downstairs. the room is carpetted and has a glass door leading to a yard, even though this is a basement. one of the walls is lined in mirrors but i don't look in the mirror(d'oh!) they dont recognize us and at first the girl yells "daddy! grandmas got us in confinment and..." and she trails off as she realizes we aren't her daddy. the female agent asks the kids if they have a phone number(presumably for their dad?) and they play a recording from a keyboard it goes "charlie, we have the alpha...something something...

i wake up

i will work on this journal when it's not 330 am on a work night. this was remarkable though...can't believe it! i feel very well rested, but know i need to go back to bed.

26.08.2010

Odd pack of cigarettes (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up several times with some finger pain and some pain on one of my teeth, so I did not have a rested night.
Two dreams (one lucid interrupted)

Second:

I was in home talking with my wife and she read from a pack of cigarettes, "Smoke test for be in the movie. Tobacco sold only to driven." I was going to go somewhere and I needed the tobacco. I told myself to RC once I got to that place because I was going to fall asleep and dream. I could not believe what my wife said so I read the pack of cigarettes myself. I read the same stuff. I found it very odd and I checked my hands. I had six fingers. My fingers were moving like tentacles without my command. I realized I was dreaming and I took flight to make my dream stable. I told my wife I was leaving. Suddenly, the dream vanished. My cell phone woke me up. Lost a lucid thanks to my phone. Oh well...

Missed dream signs:
- None.

Spotted dream sings:
- Odd pack of cigarettes.

Reality check performed:
- Hand check (failed - turned lucid)

Most dreams don't make sense, we know this. So, I'll just list whatever happened.

- Group of friends, we're hanging out in street. Walked pasted my cousin.
-Fell into lucidity, didn't last long. It was blurry, I woke up pretty quickly. I'm taking note that sleeping on my back instead of my side is very effective to becoming lucid, because I don't move around.
-Some bar that involves angels. Menu includes thousand year old wine, and other stuff.
-In new york, fountain pen merchant. I was looking at a Visonti dolci fountain pen, and a gold ringtop.

1. I was in space on the moon and I saw a huge black hole in front of me. It looked really amazing. Then I went back into the spaceship that was nearby (looked exactly like the spaceship off of Dead Space). Me and my friends were exploring the ship looking for things. I remember that Samus was involved in my dream at one point too.

2. I woke up at exactly 6:30, and figured I would try to have a WILD. I did. All I saw in the dream was an arcade machine (I was actually still on the moon where my last dream began....very strange). I was playing one of the 2D Mario games. I had almost full control over what I was doing in the game, but I didn't have enough control to leave the arcade machine. Trust me, if I had control of that then I wouldn't be playing a video game in my dream...

I'm not sure why video games have been more prominent in my dreams than ever. I've actually cut back a little on video games recently.

Crazy Boarding

At the very start of the dream I was Drizzt Do'Urden, a character from a book im reading atm. Funnily enough last last chapter I read last night he was fighting with his friend.

My dream started with me arguing with Wulfgar. I dont know what we were arguing about but it didnt last long. All of a sudden my ex Rachel and some random pretty blond mate of hers show up. We were outside in a slight clearing in the bush. They came over treating this area like it was my house and asked if they could put some chips on. They put them in the oven which I couldnt see. Then they came over and now I was lying in bed. They came and hopped in next to me. We started watching a girl on TV snowboarding. She really sucked. I was telling the girls how bad she was then all of a sudden I was sucked onto the slopes. I instantly knew I was dreaming, no RC needed. The gravity was realy weird and I kinda glided and spun around in the air landing perfectly. But the gravity is so low I bounce back into the air and am spinning all over the place but again landing perfectly. Once Im on the slope properly I start carving hard into the slope. There is a guy longboarding next to me and another guy snowboarding. I easily carve through them. I start boarding with my hands on the snow and legs right out still able to fly down the mountain at a high speed somehow. The slope levels out at the bottom and all of a sudden im with my flatmate and some other guys who are about to play some basketball. Its dark and apartently lukes brother lives next door. I want to teleport back to the mountain to do some more boarding but it doesnt work. I remember I need to transform into Drizzt but I didnt think it was the right LD so I leave it. I loose lucidity and we go into lukes brothers house. Were there for a while talking and stuff. When we are about to leave I cant find my phone. Then a movie starts playing in my head about how in Russia a good way to get rid of a cellphone is for a dog to eat it because no1 would suspect a dog. I was watching handicam footage of a guy following a big brown bulldog. It kept wiping its ass on the concrete. There was a narrator talking about the cellphone stuff. The the guy walks away from the dog and the narration stops. I notice that there are no cars around or people. The place looks deserted. It doesnt feel very safe. I watch the guy walks through the complex of houses and then starts to open a door. There are no lights on in the house. I pull my phone out and try to turn on the phone light, it doesnt work. I become lucid again even though it was kinda in the back of my head since I lost lucidity. I try willing the lights on but it doesnt work. Then I find some matches. I light a match but it goes out. I grab a few more and then see a lit candle. Then I woke up.


Stalker

Im playing a game called Stalker atm. I remember dreaming about running around killing a bunch of people and taking cool items and guns.

In my dream my family and I where going to Toronto Canada and I though about the movie Scott Pilgrim and then I thought I was going to Ramona Flowers house and I did. then we where sitting on a side walk wall like thing. And she said something about it being like a dream. I then realized that it was and I grabbed by her shoulders saying it was a dream. she said so? I then said "No. That means that if I wake up..." I wake up to apparently having dinner with my family and her I forgot what happened after that but I woke up for real soon afterwords.
It was pretty cool.

This was very vivid and a lot of fun. (btw I had more dreams before this but I was too lazy to write them down)

I was on a steep road near one of the churches in my city. I think there was a lot of water on the road so the road seemed almost like a waterfall. Also, for some strange reason I had transformed into a boy and there was a girl with me. I was calling her for something but she was taking too long so I started to go down the road myself, but once I was a few feet down the road I stopped to wait for her, or at least I tried to. I end up slipping down the road into a pool of water below. At first I held my breath but then I remembered that it was a dream so I could breathe underwater. The dream then felt very vivid and when I tried to breathe underwater I could feel the water going down my throat and in my nose, but after that I found that I could still breathe normally.

After I get out of the water I and the girl go into a house and go to sleep, or at least that’s what we were going to do. Somehow I got out of the house, turned back into a girl (I can’t remember how) and ended up at the shore of a lake. I saw people chasing after me so I ran into the water. I then suddenly gained complete lucidity and realized that I didn’t really have to worry about the people and that I could do whatever I wanted, so I start to waterbend the waves to perhaps slow down the people chasing me. Controlling the waves then reminded me of Burke's Element Challenge on Dream Views. I thought about perhaps attempting the challenge but I couldn’t remember all of the criteria so I decided not to, but then I remembered something that I had wanted to do for a while in my dreams, touch the clouds.

I then made up my mind that I was going to touch the clouds, but before I could try the people that had been chasing earlier captured me and brought me on their large boat. When I was on their boat they put some kind of vest thingy on me. They also had a rope somewhere that was supposed to be attached to the vest, but they seemed to have forgotten. After they put all the stuff on (at least that’s what they thought) they positioned me at the edge of one of the windows. They were going to push me out of the window with the rope attached to me, but I don’t know why. I was getting annoyed with the people because I wanted to fly away, but I guess my brain wasn’t working that well because I should have escaped earlier. Anyways, I told the people to hurry up so they pressed a button but it didn’t work and then they noticed that I wasn’t attached to the rope, but they had realized too late, for I had jumped out of the window without it.

I didn’t fall into the water. Instead of diving underwater I landed on top of it and walked on it a bit and sometimes just floated above it. After a while the water came to a river which was moving a bit fast so I flew high up and went over it. On the other side of the river was a long road. I remembered wanting to fly up and touch the clouds so I looked at the sky to try to find some nice clouds, but the clouds above me were all gray and ugly, but in the distance I could see some nice and fluffy clouds and a bit of the blue sky. I decided that I’d go to those clouds.

I’m quite a slow flier most of the time so I tried to do quick bursts of speed by slowing down and building up energy and then quickly propelling myself through the air like I did in a different dream, which worked a bit. After flying for a while I came to an area with a bunch of electricity wires and telephone wires. I was worried about colliding with the wires, but not because I was worried about being electrocuted. I was actually worried that I would get tangled in the wires and slow myself down, which is what ended up happening a few times.

I was now quite close to the clouds, but there were also a lot of obstacles now such as trees and the wires. Eventually I came to the end of the road but there was a wooden wall with a ceiling too, but there were holes on the sides so flew down to the left. When I flew down to the left I saw a creepy forest and there was a strange old lady there that said “This place is sacred you can’t go here” and she got super mad and it seemed like she was going to attack me, so I just said sorry and went the other way.

The place through the exit on the right was a beautiful glade with a little pool and waterfall, and it seems to me that it was the place that I had imagined and thought about sometimes before going to sleep. There was a bit of mist in the area and the clouds seemed to be lower here. I flew up to touch the fluffy white clouds and found that they didn’t actually feel how I thought a cloud was supposed to. The clouds actually felt kind of cushiony like cotton and not really cold or wet at all. I tried focusing my mind to make them feel more like a cloud, but then I changed my mind and instead flew on top of the cloud and lay there….Then I woke up.

Last night I had this dream about two different Caucasian girls from different city classes. One girl (Lola) was from a poor single-parent family. The other girl (Isadora) was from a rich family.

In Isadora's mansion for 3 months a Scarlet Hand (print) appearing everywhere. I first see it on Isadora's mom's vanity mirror. The adults are always having a "cow" when the print appears.

One day Lola broke her leg and her mom with some help from the Toronto FRESH AIR FUND sent Lola to camp. Isadora's mom sent Isadora to the same camp.

We see Lola w/crutches waiting for the bus to camp outside her aparment building. She than gets on the bus (with help from the bus driver). She thinks about her dad and is mad at him for leaving her and her mom.

Issy comes on board and asks Lola if she could sit beside her. They talk about stuff. Than Izzy mentions about the Scarlet Hand appearing in her family's mansion. That really got Lola's attenion and it seems like they are both fans of mysteries.

When they got to camp they were concidently put in the same cabin. They kept talking as they put on their swimwear to go swimming in the lake. (I guess that Lola's leg "magically" healed?) and they still talked when they were swimming in the lake (the one above the other kind of swimming). The dream ended when all the campers left the lake.

I am so excited that it hasnt even been a week and I have had my second lucid dream!

I started in a house like a country style house, very nice and detailed. It had a lot of mirrors and things and all I remember from this point is that I was walking frantically back and forth and I had went to the back room and turned around and walked into the hallway. Then I stopped in front of a mirror and looked at myself. I was a old man. Then it hit me that I was in a dream! The feeling of it changing from non lucid to lucid was amazing I can feel the change in my brain. I then turned back into myself and felt myself coming out of the dream. Then I spun around right quick and everything was great. Spinning for me is the best which I found out from my first lucid dream. I put my hands up and concentrated on them but i did that just in case lol. Well then I ran down the hall and I think i felt myself coming out again and I spun around while running. Then there was a glas door leading outside and I went outside and there was a tree. Well I told myself I wanted to be in a city after I woke up from my last lucid dream so I was walking in a circle around this tree and I wanted a door to appear. Then the branched hung really low so as I was walking the door appeared from a low hanging branch (hard to explain) I then saw something through the door but it wasnt the city scape I wanted. I began to think about the city scape and walk around it one more time. Then I looked through it again and i still didnt see what I wanted but i walked through anyway (The door didnt have a door door... it was just the frame) When I walked through I saw a cartoony style landscape and purple trees and wierd odd things I cant really remember. Then I looked to my right and saw my city scape but it was alll cartoony and there was futuristic style cars and flying cars and like 4 or 5 levels of sidewalks floating. Then I concertrated on the grass I was standing on. It was really cartoony and fake looking. I nelt down and looked at it and it was all pixlelated and weird looking. I was disappointed cause I was expecting a realistic landscape. Then I woke up unfortunately. Oh another thing I felt my dream really unstable... I cant describe the feeling I felt I knew I was lucid and at the vurge of waking up but I wasnt sure how to get in my dream completely without that feeling. I could feel myself breathing and things it was such a odd feeling. Yet again I felt myself laying in bed yet I was standing in my dream.

Another one. Three. In a row. Three in a row. Wow. I cant believe it. It took me 24 DAYS to reach a total of 3 Lds and now I get three IN A FREAKIN ROW. I dont know what im doing, but im doing something right and im gonna keep doing it.

Dream 1: I am Cleveland (Family guy) who escapes from Lois who is trying to kill him. Something about his breakup with Loretta (his wife).

DILD: The beginning is weird, since im not quite sure how I got lucid in the first place. This time it wasnt me that though about checking; I think it was a song on the radio that said something like: This is a dream. Its all a dream. Stuff like that. But where was that situated in time and space? No idea. Only now I do tons of shit. I talk with my first DC (mom) and tell her: You know this is a dream, right? She seems interested so I even show her how to do a reality check.
Here's the plotline for this dream: Nothing happens! Nothing! No event with DCs whatsoever. Just me trying to fly like a beheaded chicken. Along with other stuff. I even tried Loafs technique, which failed too. Damn. I jumped really high, tried from different heights, backflip again. Next time (tonight )I will try: Swimming, taking a pill to give me the ability to fly, giant magnet. I am starting to think im trying too much to fly. Like the more I fail the more it looks like a huge task. I may take a break of flying and try other, maybe easier things tonight. Like stretching my arm, skin, tongue and other body parts. After all, im good at turning a wall in Jello, which is pretty hard. If I can make pills appear in my pocket, it will trigger a placebo effect which will hopefully help me achieve my goals. After all, that same effect helped me get 3 DILDs in a row, a fourth one tonight So im not doubting its power!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


23:30 GMT - Sleep

Friends visiting and kid gets hurt
I’m in a home I feel it’s mine but only has some similarities to my real home. I’m at the balcony, that in reality is on a 3rd floor but in the dream it looks like 1st floor and has direct access by stairs to the street. In front, instead of other buildings there is a huge landscape with green hills and sparse houses. At distance I see a group of friends, but i can only recall who was one of them (H.E.). They see me and we wave at each other. They decide to come to visit me. We express lots of joy when we meet, but then they surprise me by saying they’ve been there before when I was not present. I ask “really?” and they say “Sure, and A.G. even stayed behind. Didn’t you see him inside the house?” I was embarrassed thinking that he might have been hiding and saw me undress and talking to myself. But then they say they are just kidding and I say it wasn’t funny.
Later at dawn there’s a big fuss going on under my balcony, on the street. I go look and apparently some kid had an accident while playing and is losing a lot of blood – it seems he cut or lost his ear, but I’m not sure. An ambulance is already coming and lots of people are taking care of him, so I decide to close the window and go inside. But I think my action didn’t please my neighbours and I hear them saying nasty things, like I don’t care if the kid is ok or not.

Cat possessed by a spirit
The next day I receive a visit from my dad, my two uncles and one aunt. They are on the kitchen that connects directly to the living room. It then that I realise this house is actually much more like the beach house of a friend of mine. On the living room I find my black cat but with him are two other cats and the most striking is that one of these cats which is also black, he’s a bit old and has some injuries, namely one ear missing (what a coincidence – a cat-dream-reincarnation of the kid of the dream-night before).
When the visitors leave, then something surreal happens. In the living room I find this demon or spirit which I can only sense but not really see. He is cloud-like and when in contact with it I feel it’s intentions. I just have time to grab a plastic bag and close it very tight (cool, catching spirits with a bag, reminds me of Ghostbusters). As if it was some insect, I decide to take it outside and then close all my windows so it won’t come inside again (silly). But when I arrive at my second balcony on the back of the house, there’s an helicopter landing on it and with all this commotion going on, I realise I left the spirit out of the bag.
I run the house looking for it and I find my cat, possessed by the spirit! He looks demonic and ready to cause some damages. But with love and patience I approach the cat and I think I calm him down (don’t remember more.)

Brussels on a hurry
I was in Brussels, inside a taxi and upset that this time I had no time at all to enjoy it. I was passing an avenue and saw the theatre/opera which strangely looked more like Berlin than Brussels, but ok. I was thinking of some invitation from friends who were going to see a play and I couldn’t go because I was on my way to the airport, already leaving. Even the hotel where I stayed was amazing and I had no time to stop and simply enjoy it. I was sad and a bit frustrated. [I am actually going there next month, so we’ll see if it’s just work and no enjoyment or not.]


2:00 GMT – 1st waking

Undefined
As soon as I move to write it down, it fades. I vaguely remember looking at some charts with hollow olive-green circles and something about magic.

4:00 GMT – 2nd waking

Talking about gurus and peeing myself
I met my high school girl friends, with whom I don’t speak for so long. There’s a huge distance (emotionally speaking) separating us and they are talking with each other, excluding me from the conversation. Until I hear them talking about their spiritual journeys and realise that L. is very interested in my guru, although she has no clue he is my guru. I tell her and this breaks the ice. She wants to know more. We hang around a bit and then head to a toilet - I go to the toilet every night, probably because I really go to the toilet every night in RL. The toilet seat is very high and when sitting there I pee all over the place because I can’t sit straight on this thing – it’s embarrassing! A cleaning lady comes at the right time and I tell her it was not my fault. She is aware of the toilet problem and even helps me, showing me a shower where I can clean myself. Then I finally leave the toilet with my friends, but it’s not easy because meanwhile a huge crowd of ladies is going in and out of it. (What a stupid dream...)

War (again)
I’m with my friend R. (from the previous group of girl friends) in a trench. She is dressed in military uniform from WWII with one of those metal helmets on her head. Behind us is a tank shooting at some wall in front of us. My friend is getting to adventurous and gets out of the trench heading to this wall. Not only she is danger because of the enemies, but she is on the way of our own bombs. I see she has some idea but I have no clue what could be. I see the bombs exploding closer and closer to her I also get out of the trench and move towards her to get her back in a safe place when one bomb falls right by her side and we are projected in the air. Magically none of us get seriously hurt and then I hear some off-voice commentating that in reality this wouldn’t be possible and explaining all the physics behind it to prove his point. (I felt I was inside a war documentary.)

Reptilians
I was with my parents at the airport. I had just arrived from somewhere (probably Brussels, from that other dream before). We were sitting on a cafeteria, talking, and I had this itch in my eye that was getting worst and worst. I looked on some mirrored surface what was going on and I had this awful irritation. After a while my iris was all black and I had this internal jelly-like extra lid - like cats have. I thought it looked like I had reptilian eyes, but I didn’t say anything, because my father would not understand or would think I’m crazy. But he left the table for a while and I told my mother what was on my mind. She then told me she had had the same exact problem a few days before and it occurred to her the same exact idea. No way! Then we were discussing that maybe we are reptilians without knowing and about if that would even be possible. I mean, this would prove that they aren’t all evil heartless cold blooded creatures, but that they are actually normal people or that many of us are actually unknowing reptilian-human hybrids!

Two dreams intertwined, soup kitchen and a stalker
I’m still with my parents at the airport but nobody is coming to serve at the cafeteria. My father comes back and tells us that we must go to a desk on the opposite side from where we were to get the food. It happens that this was in fact a soup kitchen for the poor. Then I had two dreams overlapping and I was two characters at the same time, with different stories – my own RL and some DC.
So I was on the queue to get the food when some girl putting potatoes on the plate found strange that I was there and asked me if I was really poor. I said I wasn’t starving but that I was a single working mom and my baby was staying with his grandma and that we had food but we also needed to save money for other expenses with the baby and I had in fact got stamps from the social services to eat there. Although none of this is true in my real life, I wasn’t truly lying. I could actually see the baby in my mind and know that he existed in my life and the story was real. But at the same time I had doubts – didn’t I just arrived by plane from somewhere? Wasn’t I here with my parents? The girl believed me and went back to get even more potatoes.
Then I notice a guy leaving the queue and exiting the place. He tries to do it unnoticed but I have a glimpse of him and I recognise him as this guy that stalked me for some time (in RL). He knows me (the real me) and I got scared that he knows I’m not poor 8the me that’s not poor, I mean) and he probably is feeling upset to hear my dream me telling this story that for him isn’t true. I imagine that he is waiting me outside somewhere to hurt me. Or maybe he knows my new address and is there lurking, waiting my arrival. I feel worried and try to get company to go home with me.


5:40 GMT – 4th waking

Lucid in the city and Goldberg machine!
I’m walking in a city, it looks like Lisbon, but could be anywhere. I pass in front of a grocery store and they have those supermarket freezers with no doors on the sidewalk. I think “what a waste of energy” and stop to look at the leafy green vegetables and salad dressings they have on it. Then for some reason I become lucid. Oh well, what am I going to do?, maybe fly. I fly around the city, really trying to shock the DC, but as usual, they don’t find it strange that I’m flying and I get bored. Let’s try something I’ve never done before: fireballs in my hands. I make a wish, I visualise, I do my best, but nothing comes out, just a bit of smoke. I feel frustrated and try harder. This time a new set of fingers grow in the palm of my hand, imitating a flame, which is very funny and original but clearly not what I had in mind. I shake it away and they are gone. Before I lose lucidity I decide to fly a bit more, this time to above the city, to see the world from up there as I’ve done before. Unfortunately this night I’m not managing to fly much higher than the city buildings and taller trees. Luckily on top of a tree I find a wooden platform and discover a whole circuit between the trees and city buildings, made of platforms, suspended bridges, ropes and lianas and I decide to follow it. Not only it might be amusing, but I wonder if by doing it it will help me loose these fears of doing it in RL. At some point it even get dangerous, because I have to cross some place with high-voltage wires just hanging on ropes – I start to forget that it’s just a dream and feel a bit fear. Then I end up in front of this amazing 3-storey high box-like construction and wonder what it is. I figure out it is some kind of Goldberg machine and equate if I go inside it or not, when some chair falls down and the whole thing starts to fall apart – jets of water, hanging objects falling, etc. Three guys, laughing their asses off and all wet, come out of it. They were inside it and had lost the game. It was a team game: they had to solve some kind of puzzle, but as they go on, they start running out of options and one wrong movement can start the machine, ending the game. Apparently they were there for hours, thinking about the next move, when one made the wrong move, collapsing it. All of a sudden, puzzles and chess games look so démodé. Then I can't keep the dream on and I wake up.

6:55 GMT – Wake up

*Mature Content*

8/25/10

In my dream I was a supposed "call girl" strange but that is who I was. I was in another state outside behind a building .. there were big fancy cars rolling in and out. I was standing there with other girls dressed up in a tiny skirt and heels. This guy walks up to us and he seems smooth but immediately I knew he was the pimp. He had lots of tattoos too. He was being very nice to me and hugging up on me.. guess I was the main one. Eventually in my dream he begins to act cold to me. This mobster guy pulls up and wants me to get in the car.. I am hesitate and turn to my pimp who is being mean to me. He told me it is business and I need to hurry up and stop fucking around. I am still hesitate and don't want to get in the car I turn to the pimp and say " I love you.." He gets pissed and the guy in the car drives away. Now I am getting my arm grabbed and find myself thrown against an iron fence and this pimp is screaming at my face. I tell him I want out but he is not listening but getting violent with me. He starts hitting me and I am on the ground the other girls are running trying to help me back up telling this pimp to chill out. I just didn't care and felt this strong connection with this pimp.

I am sitting in this large home guess it was his too and watching a huge t.v screen.. he is walking around staring at me and fixing some drinks on the bar table. I turn back to the television and see he is on the screen performing.. guess he was an entertainer/rapper too. I feel very sad and a bit scared too.. girls are crowding around and rubbing on him and I sense this jealousy rage through me. I look to my right and see this girl from my past who use to be my best friend and we embrace one another hugging. I know the girl was with the pimp too .. I told her I want out so she starts trying to sneak me to the door and I am following.. the pimp turns my way yelling telling me to get back in and orders some guy to take care of the guest that were there. This pimp grabs my arm and pushing me towards the back room.. there I start telling him I want to leave.. he blast music and motions me over to the balcony. We talk and he apologizes I feel safe again and we are kissing heavily.. he had me pinned to the wall.. eventually I am laying on the bed and he is doing oral on me.. there is this knock on the door.. scene switches and I find myself in the bathroom and the girls are telling me the pimp doesn't get intimate with any of the girls like that and when he does it usually means he is going to finish them off.. kill them.
I start to panic again and hear my name.. weird thing is it was not my name.. the name he called started with either a B or an R from what I can remember.. and when I had looked in the mirror passing the hall I saw that it was not my body but belonged to a more slender girl with red and black hair.. I tried looking at the face but couldn't make out any features..

hmmm wonder if there is really a girl out there in trouble with their pimp.. interesting dream had to write it down.

In the dream, I preformed the hand reality check, and noticed I had a finger protruding from my middle finger at a 45 degree angle, and I realize I am dreaming. The only thing I remember from the dream is trying to fly. I jumped, and shot up 20 feet, then fell back down. I did this three times, then woke up.

Camp. Lots of trees, a small dirt clearing near a lake, some cabins gathered around. One is an old church that's been converted to a mess hall. Looks like my brother's music camp, but with more trees. Suddenly, it's night time. I don't remember seeing anyone, but there were other people there. We were on a team, competing to see who could find a kill a monster first.

Shame I can't remember, I think it was a really cool dream. :C