lucid

30.08.2010

The elevator to the Atomic world (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

When I went to bed I was determined to have a decent night once and for all. I went tired due bad sleep previous night. I had almost instantly some HH and I drifted in and one from the dream realm while I was meditating, so I decided to get comfortable to sleep. I recorded three dreams. One long dream, one lucid (task for September) and one fragment.

Third:

I had a FA and I went ahead to write down my dreams. I took my journal and went to my kitchen table. I opened the microwave to get the light from it. I opened it and the light did not lit. I closed it and reopened it. Light did not work at all. I looked at my hands. They looked blurry but I think OK. I blamed being tired my blurry vision. I looked at the microwave unsatisfied and tried to jump. I jumped a first time, gravity was OK. I knew something wrong was going on. I jumped again and the jump looked a little different, but still not weird. I jumped a third time and I jumped a lot and levitated. I knew I was dreaming and I was wondering why the RC tried to keep me without lucidity... oh well, happens. I was floating now, I opened my door and left my home.

I started to fly to make my dream stable (again, I do not recommend this as a way to stable dreams) Everything was super blurry and super dark. While I was flying, I felt I was going to awake. I increased the speed and started to look around, focusing on things would pop out. The darkness decreased and I started to see stuff. The sky turned blue and it was sunny. The dream was not perfect still and the atmosphere was stale. I kept flying until I finally felt the wind on my face and engaged all five senses.

I remembered the Task of the Month for September. I started to look around for buildings, but I saw none. Only small houses. I told to my self that I was in a dream and a one story home could have a elevator... and if not, I would just summon one.
I landed and I was with a male dream character. We entered a small house which was a tourist attraction. I entered and there was grass inside the place. The receptionist called me and offered assistance. I started to talk some nonsense with her until I looked to the left and a saw a small elevator. I then unfocused from my conversation with the receptionist and I said, "yeah yeah, ok" I walked to the elevator and the doors closed. When I was in front of the elevator I knew the doors would open again.







And they did. The elevator was super tiny. It could only handle two people inside. The walls of the elevator were red and it was a small light. The panel of the elevator had only one button and two keys buttons (theses ones that need a key to be activated) The other DC entered with me as well.
Now, I was inside the elevator and the doors closed. Now the elevator was a lot bigger because the other DC was like four feet away from me. I looked again at the panel and I remembered that when I was a kid, the key buttons fascinated me because they would lead to cool places (I was a kid...) So I knew they could lead me to the Atomic World to complete the advanced.

I pushed the key button several times (without a key) and it worked. The elevator started to shrink and to go down. I started to jump inside the elevator. I knew it was going to mess it up even more. For every time I jumped I shouted "Atomic World!!!" The elevator shoke abruptly every time I jumped until it stopped.

The doors opened with a "tic" sound. I was in the same place were I took it, however, everything was enourmous. One single blade of glass was like a hundred times bigger than me. I could even see small circles forming a pattern and making a whole... they looked like atoms together forming the blade of grass. The other DC told me we were in the Atomic world. I did not find a single thing exciting about it. However, I was happy. I took the elevator and leaded me somewhere (basic passed) and now I was in the atomic world (advanced passed)

I decided to go back to the elevator and travel to another location and completed one of the tasks of the year, however, the elevator closed and did not open. Now I was bigger again, but not normal. I was about 3 inches tall. A little bigger than a grass blade, but I was still growing.
I walked towards the receptionist and requested her the elevator to work again. She told me, "Well, now its closed. Not even the Principle from this place will be able to use it. Its a tourist thing and its not working well now. You have been abusing the elevator and you broke it. And not only you, other people like Serenity from Dreamviews broke this elevator as well... so no more elevator for you guys." Dream vanished and I woke up.

Missed dream signs:
- None.

Spotted dream signs:
- Microwave malfunctioning.

Reality checks done:
- Hand Check (passed)
- Gravity Check (Passed)
- Gravity Check (Passed with suspiciously)
- Gravity Check (Failed. Turned lucid)

Date: Aug.29/30
Time: 12:45pm-2:00pm

Description: There were about three or four dreams throughout the night that I remembered. I used the help of isotunes to attain SP right before going to bed. After I woke up around 12pm I went back to sleep and had a lucid dream where I went into the dream lucid. I also had a false awakening I didn't catch, and had another lucid dream right after where I lost lucidity and just went back to being unconscious and went with the dream. Unfortunately I can't remember my original dreams as I didn't bother to right them down in the middle of the night. Now next time I know.

Lucid Dream 1: It starts off in the black void, I hear voices about some NBA team. And then there is light and I am standing in my work looking at the front door and seeing 2 people argue about a basketball team, they leave the store. I instantly start losing dream lucidity so I rub my hands together and force myself to walk outside and follow them. I get out there and it is night time, so I throw myself to the ground and hurt myself on the cement to keep myself in the dream. The two people I followed disappeared. I see a street light in the parking lot. I look at a car that is there, I walk up to it and it is the old station wagon my family had back in the day. I see the details of it, and I for some reason need to prove this is a dream so I punch out the driver side window with ease. I turn around wondering what I should do and I black out. I don't think I had full lucidity or full control. I then awoke to a false awakening where I forced myself to go back to sleep and go into another lucid dream.


Lucid dream 2: As I am lying there I think about a bag of sun chips. The sun chips come into view, all of a sudden I am at Subway restocking the chips. I stand up and spin in a circle rubbing my hands. The dream turns super vivid. I see a girl I work with behind the counter, I say and and she says hi. I walk through the kitchen which has a bed in it. I am behind the counter and she gives me a high five. I see another coworker across the store behind a different counter, it seems I am in a party store. I jump over both counters and she gives me a high five. I walk back into the kitchen towards the bed and am greeted by everybody. At this point I think I lose lucidity, but the dream is still clear. I am trying out the bed, and blackout.

I just had my 6th LD last night. I think I'm making some awesome progress.

-Lonesome Much?-
I was laying in my mom's bed on my laptop. I think I was surfing the internet and saw a news post. I saw a picture of a little girl unconscious or dead on the ground. Under the picture, was the headline: "Is it true that the Hathaway children might have permanent birth defects?" After seeing this, I closed the laptop and then walked out of the room. I saw Sam on the bigger laptop playing an online game. I walked up the stairs and she bounded up beside me and then she walked into my brother's room. I said something to her but I don't remember what I said. Feeling alone, I walked into my bedroom and closed the door. I turned on all the lights in my bedroom, Sam's bedroom and the bathroom. It was weird because one switch didn't work. After this I went back into my bedroom and noticed a patch of moonlight beside my bed. I sat on my bed, and made a cross with my fingers in the reflection. It was a very peaceful moment. Then I woke up. This dream felt very real.

-Mom's House, Again?- ~Lucid
It started out in my mom's living room. I was standing in between the chairs that faced the TV. I immediately noticed that I was not supposed to be there. So I RCed, and became lucid.

I walked into my mom's room and noticed that she was asleep. I looked to my left and saw Sam lounging in a chair playing with her phone. I said, "Hey! I'm dreaming! Do an RC so you can be lucid too!" I was going to try to do a shared dream with her. "Hold on." She said. Then walked away. While I waited, I went back into the living room and tried to imagine Taylor Lautner once more (he's sooo hot ). Fail. I went back into my mom's room and told her that I was dreaming, but she didn't really think anything about it.

I walked over to the other side of her bed and picked up a book. I opened it to a page, and tried to read it. It was a crazy mess. Here and there were snippets of sentences, and in between there were numbers, letters, and foreign symbols. By this time Sam came back and I read a sentence out of the book to her and she started laughing.

I walked back out of my mom's room and decided that I wanted to fly. I kept flapping my arms and jumping up, but nothing really happened. Then I woke up.

Ok today is still August 30th, and I usually don't put up 2 dream journal posts in one day because I never take naps. BUT today I took a nap and I had a very strange first FULLY AWARE dream/SP state I think. Ok so here it goes:

I took a nap today, so I was sleeping and I completely forget what was going on in my dream but I remember hearing the sound of cars going by like it was some kind of city setting... Then I heard a voice and first it said "I am dreaming.." very faintly. Then I looked around because it was kind of strange..then I observed my surroundings and then I said to myself "I am dreaming..?" Then I yelled "OMG I'm DREAMING!!!" that moment that I found out I was dreaming, my heart sped up really fast and then the sound of cars passing by just completely vanished and EVERYTHING shutdown like everything went COMPLETELY black. I tried to move but i couldnt! So i was like ok I want to hear the ocean! I couldn't really hear the ocean so nothing really happened. When everything went completely black, there was no sound and my heart was racing so I think I was half asleep. And I could feel my body felt like I was in the ocean like I felt waves hitting under my body like i was drifting and floating in the sea..omg so cool...then I tried imagining the end of my last dream. I had no control but it was FREAKEN AWESOME. Just the feeling that I was FULLY aware and I KNEW I was dreaming was INCREDIBLE. Even tho everything was pitch black...and then my dad woke me up for dinner....

My conscience was fully aware. Although I couldn't see anything I fully knew that I was in a dream. I had no control, but it was a start !!!

I'm in a car with my girlfriend, she's driving and we're going to her mom's house. We get there and tell her about the new bunny we just bought named Cuni (pronounced "koo-nee" short for Cuniculus, which is Latin for rabbit) We leave and she's driving again, then I look over and ask: "Is this Roanoak?" she replies yes. I look out the window and notice we're not on the ground anymore and the ground that is visible is waving around like ocean tides, I become lucid. I look over at my girlfriend and tell her: "Babe! This is a dream! We're dreaming right now! This is a shared lucid dream, come on! Become lucid!" She accepts this and I excitedly jump out of the car (holding my girlfriend by the hand, taking her with me). Falling down I notice we have too much speed and I sprout giant white angelic wings, seeing this my girlfriend also grows wings; we then softly come closer to the ground.

We land on top of a building, in the middle of a dense city filled with giant sky scrapers (like New York City on steroids haha). Since i had the angle wings already I felt that I should have some armor to match, so I look up conceive what it looks like and affirm that I'm wearing it and then look down; wallah! I'm wearing armor similar to that of the Spartans in 300, but instead of the bronze armor it's a deep brown with golden trim; and instead of the red cloth underneath it's tattered, battle-worn black clothe. Since I have all that going on I felt as though I should have a minion of some sort, so I place my hands in front of me with my fingers spread outwards as much as possible. Staring intensely at the ground in front of me, a ring of fire appears in the sand (as there was a large patch of sand in the corner of the rooftop); it started as a single flame from what you might see from a lighter, then it grew on an invisible line forming a perfect circle. I raised my hands towards the sky and the flames followed in suit, what was once a ring of fire was now a column of fire. I put my hands back down and the flames again, followed in suit. Then in the same place where the giant flame column stood, there was a demon with black armor, red skin with great red wings, giant curling horns, cracked hooves, rows upon rows of snarling and drooling teeth, and terribly angry green eyes. It looked at my girlfriend who then proceeded to scream, then it looked back at me and roared; in one fluid movement I leaped in the air towards the demon and with both feet drop kicked him in the face, breaking some of his teeth as well as his nose. Knocked to the ground and beneath my feet the demon was in a daze, I put one foot on either side of his neck and violently twisted, this snapped his neck and killed him.

I reached out and grabbed a sword and shield (after summoning that insanely awesome demon, conjuring up some weapons came very easy haha) and raised the sword into the air; then from around the corner of one of the buildings flew a majestic Pegasus, it landed in front of me. I hopped on and pulled my girlfriend up, who had summoned a spear and was also wearing similar armor (apparently if she sees me do something, she knows it's possible and is then able to do it as well). Zooming around through this never ending city, this eternal forest of skyscrapers there were fearsome monsters everywhere. I slashed the smaller ones with my sword and held the reins in my shield hand; but then we came across a gigantic cyclops with an enormous wooden club. This beast was just as tall as the buildings (and mind you, these buildings were so tall that I couldn't see their base) and he began swinging his club at us, trying to swat us out of the sky. I doge his attacks one after another, but after several attempts he finally grazes the back end of my winged horse; a mere glance but powerful enough to send us plumeting... i wake up a split second after we're hit.

Unfortunately, my girlfriend only remembers the first paragraph (actually she doesn't even remember becoming lucid, so only the first half of the first paragraph). I keep telling her to work on her recall, and still she doesn't; oh well, her loss. But like the other shared lucid dream I had, this one was unintentional and just sort of happened. Does anybody else think it's strange that out of my three last lucid dreams, two were shared lucid dreams? Is it normal to have shared lucid dreams that often?

Ok so I actually already wrote this sometime ago, but this site deleted it (or maybe my comp, idk but something screwed up and I lost my entry before I could post it ) But I'm going to summarize, seeing as how I already wrote it in my paper journal I keep by my bed and I hate writing things twice haha (well... this will be the third time).

Blue = Non-Lucid
Red = Lucid

I was in a dumpy looking trailer, with shag carpeting and it looked so dirty I swear I could see the smell of filth looming in the air. Then suddenly the door burst open, it was my friend Aaron who I haven't spoke to let alone seen in close to a year. Given my environment and this strange reunion, I became lucid. I walked over to him and placed my hand on his back, he seemed so distressed I couldn't just leave him there (DC or not). I tried to talk to him, but it didn't really work out; it was like there was some sort of sealant in my vocal cords. Watching my friend i noticed that he would look at something and concentrate on it as though he were trying to make it explode using only his mind; then he would switch his focus onto another object with the same intensity, changing his focus onto something else about every 3-5 seconds. Breathing heavily he said in a hoarse, angry voice: "Come on man! Lets go outside and start some shit!" Then he sprints through the open doorway into the night. I walk outside the trailer and see terrifyingly dark clouds, a sky that was so violent that the plumes of clouds would make it from one horizon to the opposite in less then a second or two. It made me want to run back inside so I could hide from these almost villainous clouds, but I walked out further into the night; the sky became angrier and angrier with every step I took, then I woke up.

I fell back asleep and reaffirmed my REM cycle before I woke up too much
In this second dream of the night i was in some sort of public pool/gym. I had much of my focus on the water slides and pools and enjoyed myself a great deal as I splashed down their slopes and ramps. Then I landed under one of those mushroom shaped water pumps you see at many public pools (normally in the kid section) this is where I saw my friend Aaron yet again. (Semi-lucid) He gave me this strange apparatus which he had just sucked on, I proceeded to do the same. I don't know if you've ever done drugs but this felt EXACTLY like waking-life drugs, it amazed me how I knew that I was breathing oxygen sitting in my bed yet I was still able to feel these effects as though I were breathing some sort of inhalant. We continued to suck on this smokeless drug until I woke up.

So as I stated in the dream, I hadn't seen or even spoke with this friend in close to a year. After I had this dream though he contacted me, and asked me the first question he had asked me in over a year: "Did you have a lucid dream last night?" We then proceeded to exchange stories and were amazed how similar they were. The only difference was that he identified the public pool simply as a public gym, as in his dream experience most of his focus was on the weight machines; and mine was on the water slides. He asked if he had been acting "strange" in any part of the dream, because he told me that he has trouble controlling his emotions while lucid. Describing his typical behavior in lucid dreams matched perfectly with how he was acting in the trailer; being over-focused, yet still distracted.

a really close friend of mine is telling me that when he sleeps he has an on going dream. He describes it as an alternate reality. He is living in a house with a family he has never met before, with a girl who keeps telling him that he is chosen to help repopulate the world and that his is going to dissapear from our world. He is getting injections in the dream to aclimate his body to the lack of air, and has marks on his arms when he wakes up. He burnt his mouth in the dream last night and in reality his mouth is burnt...the inside of his mouth is red and burnt looking. This is starting to creep him out, he thinks he is going crazy and it scares me as well. Any ideas or suggestions, similarities ect?

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


23:20 GMT - Sleep

Dream of dreams
interestingly, my fist dream of the night has often been about dreams themselves. I dreamt something about having special dreams and thinking about sharing them with an audience [as if it wasn’t already happening, LOL].


1:30 GMT

Natural landscape
Don’t recall the story, but remember being on top of very high cliffs, seeing a huge waterfall, flying around a bit over the intense greenery of the valleys and then photo-shopping the landscape – no idea why, but I was applying the blur and smooth tool on the waterfall. For fun, I guess.

Experiment with tigers and people
I was watching some wicked experiment in which there were two cages linked by corridor in between. In one cage there are 2 people, on the other there is a hungry tiger. In one experiment, the doors were open and the tigers run to devour the persons. Hideous. On the second experiment there was something put in the middle of the corridor to distract/attract the tiger and then when the doors opened he didn’t eat the persons. It didn’t make much sense.

Lucid and making others lucid
This time I was waiting for someone to open a door of a building so I could come in. I was ringing the bell, but nobody was answering. It was night, so I just sat there waiting. Then a black couple appeared and opened the door for me, saying they were sorry having left me waiting outside. I was ok with it. I entered the building and pushed the switch for light and it didn’t turn on. I thought “Weird!” and let the couple do it – they manage to switch the lights on. I realise something is going on and I become half-lucid. I enter this house where I’m staying and I find my cousin S. there (I don’t see her for years). For some reason I go fully lucid and I tell her we’re just dreaming. I don’t think she ever was lucid on a dream so it’s like I’m talking totally absurd things. She ignores me and asks me something about missionaries, maybe for some research project she is doing. Her question also sounds like a total absurd to me, so I insist in saying “We’re dreaming girl! Forget that.” So to prove to her what I’m saying I float and fly around the room. She is surprised and excited and I tell her she can also do it. She then tries and not long after she manages to fly to! She looks like a kid in a candy store, amazed that she is dreaming and flying! I feel proud of her.
Then my boyfriend comes in and doesn’t understand what’s going on. We tell him “We’re dreaming! You’re dreaming to, join us!”. He offers some resistance but he also ends up believing (at least considering the hypothesis) that he is dreaming but he doesn’t fly. Then my mother also comes in and I’m feeling ever more excited to have this opportunity to “lucidify” so many people at once. I also tell her that we’re dreaming but at this moment I’m simply lying on bed and she has some hard time believing it. I try once again to fly but all I manage now is to float above the bed. She ends up believing me, just for the sake of believing, but not because she knows, so she doesn’t get lucid. All this disbelief let the dream fade.

5:25 GMT

Flying to USA
I am at the airport to fly to the USA. I didn’t tell anybody I was going. I am very nervous for some reason, I think because I am already late and confused about where to check-in. I go to the toilet to take some anti-stress pills. Try to find it on my bag, but I don’t see it. Then I see the today’s date somewhere and I have this impression I am one day too early and look frantically for my e-ticket. Then I realise “Shit, it’s only tomorrow!”.

Strange phenomena in the sky
I am at some foreign country (maybe the US!) for some meeting/conference and I am at a gorgeous somewhat retro hotel. I see there many faces I know, some work related, others more personally related. I have this weird feeling inside and go outside to look the sky. My boyfriend is with me. We see strange rainbows, like 3 rainbows on top of each other, but not necessarily parallel and also 3 other smaller bits and pieces of rainbows on each side of the 3 main arches. I think that must not be natural, but caused by some substance in the air that is making those strange light refraction patterns. I look to my left and there’s a mountain covered in thick grey clouds and in between the clouds I can see patches of sky that are intensely pink. I find all those things a bit disturbing but also incredibly beautiful, so I go back to get my camera. When I’m outside again I see something more amazing in the sky. Someone says “Look, aurora borealis”. Now I get a weird feeling that something is not right. I’m supposedly not so higher up north. I imagine solar activity must be really explosive for all this weird phenomena taking place. I think about the travel home and if it is safe to fly as it happens.
I go back to the hotel and find M.S., this lady friend I know professionally and personally. She just arrived from city centre and tells me there’s a lot of mess going on there. She can’t really explain what it is, but apparently the city is full of people like us coming to events, all happening at the same time, therefore adding more chaos to the city. Later on the hotel entrance they are distributing “emergency bags”. I ask for one and want to know what they are about, but they don’t say and anyway the bag is empty. Big help!

7:00 GMT

Looking for a meal in the city
Again in a hotel (may be the same, don’t know, but the story is slightly different). My guru is staying there to, as well as dozens of people who came to receive teachings from him. I haven’t seen him yet. I am with all the other people in a living room that is completely full. I try to find a seat and can only fit between two other persons in a balcony with view over some lake or river. I thought we were there maybe to have dinner but that doesn't happen and we all go out. We cross this beautiful suspended gardens with artificial waterfalls ending on a pool. I shortcut my way floating over the water ponds and then through the pool. I see a cute turtle and take a picture of it, wondering how I haven’t wet my camera yet. Then we continue walking to the city and look for some restaurant or place to eat. We pass by a huge veranda over an amazing garden and a tennis court – there’s a tournament going on and lots of people are sitting down there and in the veranda, watching the games. This veranda continues and merges with this kind of tunnel that then goes under the garden and takes me to the other side of it. There I find nice streets with fast food and souvenir shops. My companions decide to go to a burger house but I say no way, bye-bye and keep looking for something veggie. I’m not having any luck so I just go to this pizza place and try to get something meat-free. But first I go to the toilet (what else!?).

Recalling dreams between dreams
Then I had a strange dream that I was actually between dreams and found my boyfriend there and asked him if he could recall the previous dream we had shared – the one with the auroras. He tries to recall and he can only mention a few elements from the dream hotel that actually match the place, but he doesn’t remember the rest. I am still convinced we shared the dream and tell him that.

8:30 GMT

My guru puts me to a crazy mind test
I am still in that town, walking around. My boyfriend is again with me. We hear some locals saying funny things about the group that is lodged in the hotel: “I’ve heard they’re Buddhists!” "Oh!"
We smile at each other but decide not to make any comments. We go back to the hotel. It is our last day there, and we all leave just after lunch – this time the lunch is at the hotel.
The hotel has a restaurant in the ground level, but for this group they’ve set up a room in the upper floor, with only veggie meals (I guess, that’s why the first day we had to fetch food somewhere else – they probably hadn’t yet solved the logistics of the meals).
I’m looking for some familiar faces and I find my friend R. She is not a Buddhist but I don’t seem surprised to find her there. I ask if I can sit with her, since we have not been in such good terms lately, and she says “Of course, sit”. I don’t think we talked much.
After eating I just go to my room to grab all my bags and bring them to the lobby. My boyfriend takes some to. Then I remember I forgot something in the floor where we had lunch. I find it already closed so I walk around a maze of stairs and corridors trying to find someone to open the door for me.
Then I find this foyer where a bunch of buddhist practitioners are still chatting about the events of the past few days, the teachings and so on. I still find weird that I have no recollection of ever seeing my guru after all these days there. And as I think about this, a door opens at the end of this foyer and our teacher (guru) appears. Everybody gets stiff with surprise and respect for him, but he just looks at us and takes 2 or 3 steps slowly moving away. Then he passes by the side of my bag, which is on the floor now, and my cell phone starts to ring. It has a funny Indian music on it (it does, in RL) and the guru asks who's that phone and what is that music. I pick up my bag, take the cell phone out and explain to him it is an Indian ringtone and that I was sure we would eventually like it (I do think that, in RL) He picks up the phone, he is now really close to me and whispers on my ear that he is not really that into the music, but that he wants me to follow him, so that I please come. He opens the door from which he just came, he goes inside and I follow him. The others are just staring with many questions in their minds as I look at them one last time.
I follow him down some stairs and then through corridors that are all bluish. The walls and ceiling and floor become more and more blue and then he disappears in this small lobby/foyer that is all blue tiled and has 3 doors. I wonder which one he got in and feel afraid that I lost him. I open the big one on my left, but it’s just a grey wall leading somewhere - I see some white light and mist - but I don’t feel attracted to it. Then a second door on my right has a tag name on it and I wonder if that’s the one, when the third door a bit more to the right, a very tiny one, opens up and I see him inside. I am totally surprised when I see it is simply a tiny toilet room! I am “What the hell....”, I was expecting some bigger room, something impressive, but I kinda get the joke. At least this one is immaculately clean. Blue tiles from floor to ceiling and one very white and virgin toilet in the centre. He asks me what am I expecting to go inside and to please close the door behind me. I am like...”Okaaaay”. It’s so tiny! He is close to the back wall and the toilet is in between us. The door is behind me. There’s no space for anything! I have this hope there's a secret door somewhere.
Then he tells me that no matter what, I will just watch and go with it. No thoughts, no judgement, no fear. Then he plugs an USB plug into a tiny hole in the wall and I hear this loud noise, like electronic music mixed with mechanical sounds. I look up but I don’t see where it could come from. My teacher is dead serious and looks at me in the eyes saying to me so much without really explaining anything. I see trust, but also concern in his eyes. That’s when a blue wall comes out of the lateral wall from my right, in front of the toilet and starts closing him in, separating us. I feel disappointed. I think he is gone and what am I going to do now? That’s when I hear more noise, I turn back to the door and I see another blue wall closing in between me and the door. I freak out and put my arm on the door to open it and think about escaping. But in a split second I remember my teacher saying I must not be afraid of whatever happens! Although I’m shiting my pants of I pull my arm and allow the wall to close in. I am now in between four walls, not able to move. I can’t put my arms up, I can’t sit, I can’t turn and I can’t even breathe too deep. I try to be ok with it, but it's just too much. I panic, I scream and everything goes black. I guess I passed out.
Then I wake up and stay in bed for half an hour digesting this. I wondered what it was all about and if I had passed or failed some sort of test, when I remembered from The Matrix: “Everybody falls the first time.”

8:30 GMT – Wake up

I was lucid in this one but I really dont remember too much.

I remember something prompting me to do a reality check so I plugged my nose and I could barely breathe....so I tried a few times and realized that I was dreaming. I barely remember walking around in what could have been in my house. I wanted to summon some fmeales that I know so that we could fool around but I could not get anyone to appear. I was frustrated in not being able to get any women to appear and tried hard in concentrating but nothing happened. I then realized that the dream was fading and made a half hearted attempt to rub my hands or spin ........ lost the dream.

I am very happy in this recent lucid even though it was not much.
All my lucids have been ones where I become lucid once I am dreaming.

I have never been able to WILD.

Tigress then said there was more fun to be had, she said if these guys liked forced fighting so much, let's see how they do. She said she proposed a tournament, they would be fighting for their lives, and she chuckled evilly. I felt like I was losing the dream, I tried Allura's time dilation, and since it was technically a new dream I was able to stabilize the dream so it would continue…

Since Tigress seemed to know where she wanted to go, neither Nomad nor I interfered when she summoned up a stargate and used a small remote to dial up a destination. The stargate opened, I commented it was cool, and then we went through it. On the other side we were in a neighborhood that was actually rather nice. Tigress said there were still gangs in the area, just that these ones have more expensive toys… and purebred fighting dogs. That made me mad that they were using dogs like that, and it made me want to kick someone's ass. Tigress said she had other plans, though, it would start with the rescuing of the dogs and then continue to the fun part. The area was clearly divided by a river running through town, as were the territories of the two gangs.

The gang members weren't making any effort to keep a low profile, either. They displayed their colors proudly, driving through the street in tricked out cars blasting their music everywhere. I spotted one of them that looked like he was in charge, and went right up to him and asked if he was the one in charge around here. He asked what if he was, I said I had some product I was interested in unloading, but only to the guy in charge, I didn't want to deal with someone too low on the pecking order to make any decisions. He eyed me suspiciously, then apparently decided that he wasn't in any danger from a girl, and came with me. He said he would have to see my product first. I saw he had a gun tucked into his waistband of his jeans that he was fingering.

I led him back into an alley, he looked around and said the product had better be really impressive or he was going to put a slug in me right here. I said there was no product. He looked at me like he thought I was nuts, he called me a filthy cunt, and fired his gun at me. The bullet hit me right in the chest… and right in the Witchblade as it instantly formed, he did a double take at the fact the gun had proven useless. I walked right over to him and consumed him before he realized what was happening. Now having his form, I returned to the car and his buddies, I leaned on the door and peered inside, one of them, Johnny, asked what had just happened. I said that bitch had been playing games with me, so I'd plugged her. I told them to go ahead and go, I had to take care of things, make sure the right person was blamed for this killing. They drove off, though they looked a bit confused about the whole situation.

Tigress and Nomad came over to me, they both said they could recognize my energy, I said I wasn't hiding it. I said I knew where their kennel was, so we could go take their dogs. All three of us went to the kennel, there were a few gang members there but none of them questioned anything much since I looked like Marko and I said the others were new to the area, new initiates. One of them told me that the dogs for noobs were in the kennel on the right. Nomad said he wanted a really mean one. We went into the kennel, and while Tigress and Nomad teleported pit bulls and other assorted dogs back to my inner world I spray painted the tags of the opposing gang all over the kennel so it would look like their rivals had been there and taken the dogs. We even left a taunting note, issuing a challenge to take place on the main bridge between the two neighborhoods.

So now we just had to repeat that process on the other side of the river, and it went just as smoothly over there, even smoother… because when one of the higher ups of that gang saw me he came to challenge me himself, so it was easy to consume him. Finding their kennel and stealing their dogs went easily, and now we left another challenge letter and there was nothing to be done but wait at the bridge. I was scanning activity on both sides of the river, and soon some centralized movement formed. There was a growing group of people heading towards the bridge, the gangs were gathering together on both sides and approaching the meeting place, no doubt all very pissed off at the other gang and looking for some serious revenge. It wasn't long before they started arriving. I took my normal form, as I didn't want to be identified as being with either of the two gangs, and they met in the middle with murderous intent.

The one group, called themselves the Black Flames, asked the other group, calling themselves Blood Dragons, where their dogs were. The leader of the Black Flames, Jack, said he had no idea how they had gotten the dogs, but the Blood Dragons had better return them or it was going to get ugly. Stefan, the leader of the Blood Dragons, said they hadn't stolen the Black Flames' worthless mutts, and he wanted the Blood Dragons' dogs back immediately. Everyone there was getting both confused and angry, not sure who was telling the truth since both groups were adamantly denying involvement in the dog theft while just as adamantly accusing the other group. I stepped out between the groups, they looked at me as if I was mad, I asked if they had considered that neither of their gangs were responsible for the disappearance of the dogs. Jack asked what I was talking about, talk before dying, Stefan agreed, it was most likely the first time they had ever agreed on anything… Nomad said they were mistaken by blaming each other, Tigress said yeah, it was us who had stolen the dogs, and those dogs were now somewhere safe from the abuse they had been subjected to. Stefan said he knew an animal rights activist when he saw one, now we would be dog food for those poor innocent puppy dogs. Tigress said she had the perfect idea now, and we were all teleported…

To the middle of a Roman type coliseum where gladiators of old fought epic battles to prove who was the strongest and the most skilled in the land. Now the coliseum was full of assholes and the three of us, we teleported to the best seat in the place which would be reserved for royalty. All of the gangsters down below were really confused and disoriented, they were looking around. So now Tigress got up and told all of them the rules. They would fight to the death, and the one survivor would be allowed to leave the coliseum alive. They didn't have any problems fighting, so they fought. Black Flames vs. Blood Dragons, there was a lot of violence, knives cutting, guns shooting, fists flying, any weapons they had on them for the fight at the bridge were being used here. After a brief but brutal fight, there were seven Blood Dragons left, including Stefan.

Stefan said they had won, so let them out now. I said no, it wasn't over until there was only one survivor. They didn't want to fight each other. So we turned up the heat, literally. Now the Blood Dragons down there were bitching about the heat, about how it was unbearable, they were also getting cranky due to the heat. Really cranky… until a fight broke out, some of them still wanted to work together, others wanted to fight, a couple thought they were going to die due to the heat soon. Stefan tried to break up a fight between two of them, but was cranky himself… he got carried away and killed one of them, now they all got into a free-for-all, it ended when Stefan had the last of his pals pinned to the ground, he had a knife at the other guy's throat… The guy was pleading, "Don't do it, it's me, Richard, your brother!" Stefan said only one of them could leave, and he buried the knife in Richard's neck, Richard died with a last gurgling breath. Stefan stood up and looked at us, he was a bit cut and bruised, covered in blood that was mostly not his, and he said he was the winner, let him out. Tigress said of course. I didn't want to, Tigress said we had to keep our word… An exit opened and Stefan limped through it. All I heard was Stefan's screaming, and that was cut off by a bunch of barking and growling and snarling, I barely heard Tigress beside me, "Just beware of the dogs…" She laughed.

Back at the door Stefan had left through, several pit bulls came into the arena. Tigress said they had wanted a little payback. She said they were ready to go join all of the other dogs now. I wondered how many dogs total we had brought home tonight… it seemed like a lot of them. I was thinking that as everything faded and I woke.

((I had a hard time sleeping and I got woken up early. The two dreams are from the morning))
I dreamed that I was watching a scene as if I were playing a strategy game. I ended up realizing that it was a dream and I wanted to take an active role in the dream so I tried to move into it but it made me wake up.

When I fell asleep again I dreamed was in a house. At first I just went along with the dreams plot, which I can’t remember, but then I realized it was a dream. The first thing I thought about doing was sprouting my brown feathered wings that I had had in a different dream before but the dream was too unstable so I instead became weak. I stumbled outside after that and eventually woke up.

Tigress pointed in one direction and said they were over there, but then she vanished… I felt like I might wake up, so I focused, I used another time dilation… that time I felt really disoriented, I almost lost the dream, but finally it stabilized and I was able to continue…

Or at least I thought I had it stable. As soon as I started walking towards the direction Tigress had pointed, I felt dizzy again… like I was going to wake up. I never have gotten a second time dilation to work, except one time I had tried Walms' method… so I focused on my hand on the wall and counted, trying to focus on extending each minute… but it wasn't successful, I lost focus on the dream and was just focused on counting, and I woke up having spoken the number ten aloud.

I sat up in bed, thinking it sucked that my second time dilation had failed, hopefully I would be able to get back into the dream again to meet up with Nomad. I got out of bed and went to use the rest room, and I almost tripped over something on my floor… something furry. A cat? No, it was much too big for a cat, it was definitely a dog, but what was one of our dogs doing in my room when they always sleep with my mother? I reluctantly turned the light on to see which dog it was, and I saw it was none of our dogs… it was a pit bull! We don't have a pit bull in our house, so I did a RC and found out I was, after all, still dreaming. I had to get back to where I was before so I could meet up with Nomad, and maybe Tigress would be back. I didn't see Tigress anywhere around there, but I did see Nomad. He said he had been waiting for me, he had one of the assholes, but the idiot was refusing to talk, he said he would make him talk. I knew a faster way, so I just consumed the asshole… and what an asshole he was… he had been in the habit of feeding his pit bulls small dogs and cats he found as strays or even a couple he stole from neighbors, he thought making the dog kill its food would make it more blood thirsty… He was the second in command in the gang calling themselves the Night Fangs, so he knew everyone in the gang… sweet… so now I also knew.

So now we transformed, I had figured on that since Nomad likes to use transformation spells, into werewolves, or more like were-pit bulls, and we went hunting. I telepathically told Nomad where the assholes were hiding, and we went after them. There was one of them making a drug deal on the corner, they were giving drugs to a guy who was clearly an addict, and he stared at us, we were basically two really big and vicious looking pit bull dogs, in a stunned stupor, which made it very easy to rip him apart. The drug addict also just stared dumbly, but he wasn't the target, so we left him to whatever he was doing. I think I saw him picking through the clothes on the body, probably looking for any more drugs he could find… or money… or both.

There was one walking with his buddy down a street heading home, from something I didn't even want to think about, they were confronted with two giant vicious pit bulls as well as one normal but pissed off pit bull. We got one of them quickly, but let the other one run away a bit and chased after him, there were two pit bulls with us now, we chased him until we cornered him in a dead end alley, where he tried to hide in a dumpster. While that was exactly where the trash belonged, he wasn't going to get away that easily. We opened the dumpster and saw him in there cowering, the smell was foul, smelled like rotten food and urine, he had pissed his pants. Nomad tore his head off.

Another three thugs were sending their dogs to attack a couple of smaller kids, scaring them, they had the smaller kids cornered and were threatening to let the dogs go to tear them apart for being on their turf… The kids were cowering from the assholes at first, but then they saw us behind the assholes and switched their gaze to us. The three assholes wanted to know why they no longer had the kids' attention… and they finally looked. I tore one open with my razor sharp claws, Nomad bit one in half, and the guys' own dogs pounced on the third one… the kids made a run for it, clearly terrified of our forms and not knowing that we weren't there to attack them. Nomad and I were now two giant vicious pit bull dogs heading down the street with six normal pit bulls following us. I knew where the next guy lived, and there were several dogs being held in cages in his basement. He was "training" them to be mean, so when a new member joined the gang they would already have a fighting dog for them.

The house looked like a normal small home, nothing about it gave hint of the cruelty that went on within its walls, but Nomad and I knew. One of us went to the front door, the other to the back door, I was at the front. We broke the doors down at the same time, to make sure the asshole didn't try to escape. That wasn't really needed, as he was in the basement with the dogs and would be cornered there. The guy's parents were terrified, the mother screamed, the father pissed his pants, but we ignored them and went down to the basement. The asshole was prodding a dog with a cattle prod, electrocuting it repeatedly, which pissed me off. Apparently Nomad and I thought the same thing… summoned cattle prods, cornered the asshole, and proceeded to shock him repeatedly until he passed out, then gutted him and left him there to bleed to death. There were five dogs in the basement, we took all five with us. The parents were down there now, I wondered if they had been allowing this to happen, but telepathic scans showed they didn't realize what their son had been doing with the dogs, they weren't evil, just completely retarded… most likely in denial. Nomad and I left the house with nine pit bulls in tow.

There were five more gang members spread throughout the area, and each one basically went the same, they were terrified when they saw Nomad and me, they tried to run, tried to hide, pissed their pants, maybe shit themselves, maybe begged for their lives, maybe cursed fluently… Every one met a bloody end, an end that was fitting of the violent and cruel way they had been treating their dogs… if anything, they were getting off too easily. We left the house of the last one, and Tigress appeared. She looked at Nomad and me, we changed to our normal forms. She asked if there were some left for her. We had to tell her they were all dead. She said we should have saved her some. She then said there was more fun to be had, she said if these guys liked forced fighting so much, let's see how they do. She said she proposed a tournament, they would be fighting for their lives, and she chuckled evilly. I felt like I was losing the dream, I tried Allura's time dilation, and since it was technically a new dream I was able to stabilize the dream so it would continue…

I spent some time petting each dog, healing the ones who had injuries, but I was sure I would wake up soon. I wasn't ready, so I used Allura's time dilation method, there was still more to do here, but I will continue that in the next dream…

So there I was in an alley of an unknown city, surrounded by an 11 dog pack of pit bulls, each of whom had been traumatized by the world of dog fighting, each of whom I had used telepathy to soothe them and convince them to trust me, each of whom had pent up pain they were struggling to control within them. They were used to that pain and tension, and they had always been forced to release it on each other even if they didn't want to, but maybe this time they could release that pain and rage on an appropriate target, on those who had hurt them in the first place… or someone like the ones who had hurt them since their cruel masters were all dead. I accessed the memories of the people I had consumed to find out that there were two other rival gangs in the near area, both of which were into dog fighting. In the area there were the Devil Dogs (whom I had just consumed), the Hellhounds, and the Mad Dogs. I thought those were ridiculous names considering that they were into dog fighting…

So I headed out onto the streets, looking for one of the other two gangs, I was heading into Mad Dog territory, 11 dogs following after me… when I ran into Tigress. Tigress had her own pack of pit bulls following her. She said she had eliminated one of the gangs, calling themselves the Mad Dogs, and those were their dogs that were following her. I said that just left the Hellhounds, since I had taken care of the Devil Dogs and claimed their dogs. We both had the same idea. Set off a challenge to the Hellhounds to meet somewhere that they could be trapped inside and hunted at leisure. Since I already looked like one of the Devil Dogs, I figured I would drop off the challenge, that would make it look legitimate. So I took the biggest, meanest looking dog with me and went into Hellhound territory. I could sense the feelings in the dog by my side, he didn't want to fight, he would rather be curled up in a comfortable place getting a belly rub…

I didn't get very far into Hellhound territory before I was met by a couple of guys who were trying too hard to be tough, which made them look more retarded than cool. Still trying to look cool, they walked over to me and said I had a lot of balls coming into Hellhound territory… too bad for me that I wouldn't be leaving. I told them I wasn't there to fight, I was there with a challenge, from the Devil Dogs to the Hellhounds, unless they were too cowardly to accept the challenge… They said no way, the Hellhounds aren't afraid of anything. I said if they are as tough as they pretend they are, meet us at the old warehouse by the pier, I got the idea of the warehouse from the memories of one of the Devil Dog members, meet us there in half an hour… it also seemed like that should be enough time for them to gather there. The one guy said that was a challenge I was going to regret. We parted ways, with me heading back to Devil Dog territory. I met up with Tigress and told her what I had set up, the warehouse consisted of a maze of crates and stuff, perfect for hunting the assholes down in.

When Tigress and I got to the warehouse, the Hellhounds were already there. Tigress took all of the dogs around to the back entrance and let them inside, the place truly was a maze. One of the Hellhounds, who appeared to be the leader, asked me where the rest of us were, or if they had all chickened out. I said they were already inside the warehouse, of course. So unless they were all cowards, get inside and let the challenge begin. The leader wanted to know what was going on, I said the challenge was simple. If they aren't afraid, we were waiting for them somewhere in the maze, with only our dogs to fight with, so follow us in if they dared… I went into the warehouse, and after some discussion about being seen as cowards, the Hellhounds followed me in all except for a couple that stood guard at the door.

So now there were a total of 12 gang members with dogs in the maze, as well as the dogs Tigress and I had taken from the other gangs, wandering around in the warehouse. Tigress and I split up, and one by one, we teleported the dogs with the gang members to safety so they wouldn't be in danger of being forced to fight. That led to much confusion among the Hellhounds, wondering if the Devil Dogs might be cheating by taking out their dogs before facing the Hellhounds themselves, so they were getting angrier as time went by and more of them found themselves without dogs. Then came the violence. Tigress and I didn't really have to do much, as I said, the dogs had pent up aggression, rage, and pain that they would be best off releasing at the right targets. So we were on top of the huge crates, mostly keeping an eye on things to be sure the dogs didn't get in danger during the fights. Mostly the dogs were pretty smart, they would gang up on one of the Hellhounds and strike so quickly that the asshole didn't have a chance to draw a gun or other weapon. One case a woman got a gun out and aimed at a dog, so I used TK to take the gun from her before she could shoot the dog. The dog went for the jugular, tearing it open and spraying blood everywhere. The dog, a male, lifted his leg and peed on the corpse. I couldn't stifle a snicker.

I could hear all the screaming around me, screaming from the people, snarling and barking of dogs, but the sound was fading as time went on… there were fewer and fewer screams as there were fewer and fewer remaining Hellhounds. I wondered if Tigress was killing any of them or if she was letting the dogs do it all. The only ones I was thinking about were the ones at the entrance, so I went back to the entrance and pulled an Ezio… I formed a hidden blade on each arm and knifed them both at the same time before they even noticed I was there… a double assassination… sweet. They fell to the ground, and their dogs just sat there looking at me as if they didn't really give a shit, which considering how they'd been treated, they probably didn't. A short bit later Tigress came from the other side of the warehouse, already outside, with a large pack of dogs following her. She said there had been a couple of assholes guarding the back door, probably looking to catch any Devil Dogs trying to escape, but they were dead now. The pack of dogs around us had grown considerably, Tigress said maybe we should take these guys home, I agreed that Angelina could take care of them best. So I opened a portal to my inner world and we sent all of the dogs through to Angelina.

Tigress asked if I wanted to find some more, I said sure, and Nomad had said he was going to join us sometime… she said that was cool, but Nomad could find me when he was ready, she knew where there were more assholes. She teleported both of us to another place, though it didn't look much different than the last one. If you've seen one crappy area of town, you've seen them all… Tigress pointed in one direction and said they were over there, but then she vanished… I felt like I might wake up, so I focused, I used another time dilation… that time I felt really disoriented, I almost lost the dream, but finally it stabilized and I was able to continue…

I am standing at the mouth of a cave looking out. It is overlooking the sea. I immediately look at my hands and realize they are distorted. I turn them over palm up, and the fingers are too short, especially the ring and pinky. I am completely lucid. I look up and start to walk. I begin to awaken, I look up in the air and immediatley spin in my dream.

I don't remember what happened after that, but I woke very quickly, so whatever I dreamed was probably very short.

Conditions:
Fell asleep: 5:00 am
Headphones: Isochronic pulses descending from 5 to 1 hz over 20 minutes. Took them off afterward. Was very sleep already.

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

This dream was pretty cool.

I was in the kitchen of my house, although it looked different. It had black granite countertops, light wooden countertops, and an island in the middle of the room, topped with the same black granite. There was a black modern stove in the middle of two pieces of counter, like most people have in their homes. I looked at the clock and was already more aware than normal. I became lucid as my gaze turned to the clock, and it read 5:8, aligned to the left. There was a space where the third number should have been.

I did my usual simultaneous "yes" and "woohoo", and turned around to face the door, twenty feet or so away, located in the entrance way. I really wanted it to be light outside, unlike previous lucids. This wasn't exactly a false awakening, but I was in my house, and every time I'd exit my house, it would end up being dark outside. However, the lighting in the house was very close to normal, so I was hoping that'd help in keeping the lighting equal. I walked towards the door and opened it, expecting it to be light outside. As the door turned, I became a bit excited because the whole neighborhood was light, as if it were daytime. I slowly walked out the door, expecting my mother to be on the other side, and she was. I ignored her because that was pretty much just a control test, and walked down the driveway and onto the two-lane road. My street's a crescent, so it's a T-shaped road; one large road turns over into a small loop, which was where my house was. There was cars slowly driving by on the road, but in the wrong direction. I recognized this and laughed.

I looked down the crescent and that was when I saw a shiny red truck, similar to an F-150, going down the street, onto the curb, and then onto the front yards, destroying grass.

"Stop!" I shouted to it.

The truck let out a hollow-sounding honk and kept going.

"Where's my control now?" I cursed, upset.

Then I saw a young girl, probably four or five years of age tops, playing with a yellow toy dumptruck in the yard. The truck was heading right towards it.

Should I save her, even if she wasn't real? I didn't want to waste my lucid time doing that. "Fine," I said, somewhat arguing with myself, and ran towards the truck. It began to drive over me when I pushed my hand into the bottom bumper and it shot up into the air, flipping a few times and then landing on its side. Its wheels were still turning as a generic man got out of the trunk... From the bottom of it (not visible because it was overturned and I was on the other side), not using the doors or windows.

I forgot all about the girl and continued to fling and punch out cars as they drove by. My control had returned; if it hadn't, I'd probably have gotten run over.