lucid

The first thing I was able to see is two police officers in a SVU show talking. I must have been in third person point of view as I became in 1st person shortly after. My brother and I were seeing this cop show playing and we realize it had started from the beginning. So I told my brother I would fast forward the clips as there were some scenes I didn't care to see. The remote controller was refusing to work properly, instead of fast forwarding it simply pause. Not too long after I have an FA and during this transition I began to realize that I had been dreaming all along.

That's when the transition had end and I awoken to find myself in the bed. I was in my father room and could tell a few things were different how it usually look. Outside was dim but when it shine through the window it made it darker than usual. I figure I must still be dreaming. There was a mirror all the way at the end of the bed. I can see an apple underneath my mouth near the top of my neck. I get off the bed, my dream memories told me that I had fallen asleep with this and apple and now it has become apart of me.

With some effort I manage to pull the apple out. I rather eat apples not wear them. I then toss it on the carpet and found my way back to the bed. I notice that one of the covers I usually sleep in was missing. Suddenly I wake up. Lucidity Time: 52 seconds

Morning of July 19, 2015. Sunday.



After smoothly moving into blissful sleep paralysis after love-making, the “portal” begins to form, the thin short glowing lines (some moving as if racing with others in pairs) and asterisk-like sparks coming together into forming the usually generic city streets setting, by far the most common rendering of origin in the last ten years or so. I am too integrated to be pulled back by a hypnic jerk (as is often the case where my first very short lucid dream of many nights is of walking on a sidewalk and eventually tripping somehow and falling forward, with an intense body-wide sensation before I begin to integrate back towards the flow of a new dream creation) and am soon in my dream’s incomplete setting and where parts of the street are not yet rendered. I also had not scripted a dream concept the previous evening so I relax my focus as in a semi-lucid dream.

Shortly, letting my thoughts wander, I begin to remember a brief previous focus on an old dream titled “Yakety Yak” (August 11, 1974) which featured Mad Magazine’s “Spy vs. Spy” character heads and which I had posted on tumblr earlier. As I have learned, it does not take much for a dream to form out of a very short time period (even with full lucidity) involving the focus on even a very old dream or a brief glance at an insignificant and impersonal article in a old newspaper (as with another recent dream).

A white 1974 Cadillac Coupe DeVille convertible comes into the scene from my left side, seemingly driving north relative to my dream’s implied orientation, but south based on my conscious afterthought concerning my house’s orientation, based primarily on the transition of direction from living here as opposed to living in Wisconsin in America (as it seems a bit like a La Crosse setting), something that is fairly common in dreams that utilize La Crosse settings, and which also make some composites a bit ambiguous in directional orientation (assuming a particular dream does not rotate house layouts and features ninety degrees, or sometimes also symmetrically mirror them).

There is some sort of confusion with names; “Coupe DeVille” warping into “Cruella de Vil” and I briefly falsely recall that this character is Cruella de Vil in a pointless “aha” moment. I soon realize that this is not the case and that, regardless of my lucidity, it is typical invalid word association gibberish, as the Spy driver is male.

Soon, however, Spy is not Spy at all, but is now my Revell SnapTite Pteranodon Model from around this same time period (age 13), though there is some transient ambiguity during my focus on the eerie similarity of the heads. As I focus on the memory of how the model’s head swiveled about in reality, its head begins spinning as it is driving (although there is a brief period where the Spy/Pteranodon seems to be shaking his head “no”). Eventually, in spinning so fast, it becomes a helicopter rotary propeller, spinning faster and faster, creating a slight sense of in-dream vertigo as the car and the head smoothly transform into a helicopter, which rises in the air and flies away, leaving a sense of awe but soon decaying into abstract hypnopompic forms.

Eye

I was inside my house and was with Eye trying to solve a problem a dream character had. I think they were trapped by a device that didn't allow them to feel better or something. There was a bad guy and i think we were being chased so i told Eye I didn't want to dream about this anymore. After that he said okay and was flying me somewhere but than i changed my mind and decided to call Dawn. I had a feeling i saw Dawn earlier too at that time.(I think i did but it was earlier in the dream) I tried using the phone but to no avail. Another character came and tried to do something bad to us though so i told Eye to just fly us somewhere else. As we were flying though i noticed his form was constantly changing from his anime form to somewhat like a reindeer mixed with a human. I touched his red nose and stroked his hair as he was changing telling him to get his form under control. He said okay than dropped me somewhere and disappeared. After that i got distracted with a 100 dollar bill that came out of no where and little girls that were sitting at a table. One of them was hiding under a table and the teacher who was watching them shouted at her to come out. She came out than told me about how she was having trouble with finding out how to play her video game.
Than I woke up.

Kiro

I saw Eye and Kiro in their human form laying on my mom's bed. Eye asked Kiro laying down "What are you doing here?" Than Kiro said something I forgot. After that the scene shifted and i was being tugged on by a invisible dream character in an unknown room. I pushed it away and it turned into a old man that was trying to rape me. I also turned into a old lady but managed to get the character away from me and turn back into my regular form. The DC that was pulling on me transformed into a young boy though.

After that the dream changed again and I was in my house on a bed. A group of guys came to visit. Even Kiro and apparently he had a little sister. The little girl wanted to play but i said no and tried to get away from them since i was non lucid. Than suddenly he picked me up and put me on his shoulders. We ended at the living room where a couch was and he put me there. After that I was talking about Hetalia Twinkle with the guys. After we had fun talking they left and i walked back to the bedroom. To my surprise my brother was playing with an odd cage that was filthy with bird poop and had cat like chess pieces in the cage. The two cats were supposed to be two spirits fighting with each other. I assumed they were gonna hurt me from their fighting and decided to leave. Recognizing it was a dream than. But as soon as i tried to leave one came to me in front of the door like a burst of wind and stopped me.(Funny how this reminds me of another dream i had where two spirits were fighting with bursts of wind)

Anyways after that it became a person and i suddenly got the urge that i wanted to go for a walk outside with it. It told me okay but to hurry up. The dream shifted after that though. I ended up inside a bathroom where girls were getting ready for a party but i had a huge problem. There was a small hole on the side of my cranium with a metal piece. I was non lucid and worrying about it. Eye and two other girls tried to help me get it fixed and told me not to worry about it. Than a guy who was dressed and acting as a female mentioned how it reminded him of how at a salon the lady painted someone's eyebrow yellow all wrong by just a bit and that it was tragic. But I could overcome it. I asked if i could use something to cover the hole i had on my head than eye took a paper and pushed it hard on my head like three times. I pushed his hand away and told him to stop since i felt he was gonna make it worse. That is when i noticed that looking at the mirror the hole was gone .

I was content but still felt nervous when i was walking outside. We were planning on going to a party but before we did i decided to take a look at the drawings and sketches. There were sketch books in a small hall on the wall next to the art room.(The place was like a school i guess) As I was looking at the drawings i asked Eye if the drawing reminded him of pokemon. Than walked out of the small hall. Eye followed me from behind and grabbed me. But what he did was beyond inappropriate. I assumed he was trying to butt rape me so i grabbed his you know what hard and told him to stop. Than I woke up after that.

Fragments

--Running outside in the snow at night. The setting was in an unknown city. I managed to get lucid and get away from guys who were shooting at each
other in the dark.Also there was something about ending up at a place where people put bikes on escalators as a job.

--My dad wanted me to type a website called www.Pajamas.com so that my uncle could meet his wife there.(Like a chat place) I ended up doing it than we transported into a clothing shop where a old lady was insulting people as i was looking at the clothing.
I turned to her after she said something really mean though. She didn't insult me until i creep her out with my eyes(staring) or mind or whatever. She stumbled as she tried to get away saying "Is this how you really act around people!?" than transformed into a little girl. I told her i wasn't happy but i wasn't going to hurt her. Than she shouted "Caleb! Call mom!" I looked to the side and saw a wheat field inside a portal. There was a Jack Russel terrier as well in it and when i woke up i was reminded how i really like Jack Russell terriers. > w <

"Two act as one. Not dreamer. Not dream guide. Two parts of same whole. Think like your Yin-Yang."

Well this is the final time I feel like I have to try and do this energy link thing. All I have to do now is get into a situation where it actually becomes useful. I can't say I'm in love with the idea of having to rely on someone else in order to access this amount of power in dreams, but I guess Manei did tell me that in order for it to work, we must be equals, two parts of the same whole. All I am really doing is accessing another part of myself.

I was taking a math test in the basement of my old high school. Someone asked for my eraser and didn't give it back. I remember thinking that I needed it because I kept writing my answers wrong. I remember one was '26' but the six was shifted higher than the two and I wanted to move it. I then became partially lucid and figured I would just use willpower to move it.

Everything turned into negative. So the paper was black and the writing, white and slowly the 6 moved down to its proper spot.

I then found myself in a compound in the middle of the jungle. I was trying to move a metal statue around.

I remember I was sitting on the couch with Manei. I remember saying something really dumb about how I was happy that she was real now, and that I didn't have to go into dreams to talk to her anymore. She told me to come to back with her to the dreamworld and live there forever. I told her that I had to eat my ramen first.

I went into the kitchen and got my ramen off the stove. But I couldn't find any plates. I spilled it by accident onto a skateboard. It got cold almost immediately and I started eating it off the skateboard but I was thinking there might be a lot of dirt and germs and it didn't taste good.

Eating my ramen turned into a long frustrating process and it was like 2:00am. I woke up eventually because I had to go to the bathroom.

I appeared in my own house, right back on the couch where the last dream had ended. It seemed like a whole lot of family was over at the time.

"Alrighty. I'm here. And I finished my Ramen."

"About time!"

I think Marcus was there. He was just acting like another family member. I think he was my uncle, and he was making sugar cookie cutouts. I remembered that just a few minutes ago, I had been trying to WBTB. I remember thinking/saying something to him about being left out. He replied something like "It's okay. If you ever need me, I am here."

Okay, you have to finish teaching me about that energy link thing.

"Alrighty. Take both hands. You know how to do it."

The sensations were much less intense this time. The energy arrows appeared for a second then went away. I remember thinking to myself how the energy is like a river flowing in a circle and that if one person starts forcing more energy into the circuit, they will, willingly or otherwise, push more out of the other person to attain equilibrium.

The first time we probably put a little too much energy into the circuit first. Maybe because we were still figuring things out. Maybe that's why the environments kept changing randomly and we kicked up all that wind, too, since we had so much power but were not properly directing it.

All of this while we were hobbling up the stairs while trying to hold both hands. I remember she started using some chant. She explained to me that chants are the way that we control this. She started saying something in dreamspeak. I don't remember what it was, but it began with a K, and had a sort of rhyme or singsong tone to it. I tried to copy her, and ended up just using my summoning command.

"Kuansen Axio Sosumblue"

I repeated it until we were up in my room. We sat down on the floor across from one another. My room in the dream was messy. There were black and white towels everywhere. I figured that was the dream sending me a message, but I was also annoyed by it. Manei didn't mind. Then agian, I went in her room and it was just as messy...

I was still repeating the summon command.

"Stop it, silly. I already here. That one won't do anything..."

I remember she quietly told me the actual translation of that command with her thoughts. Something that I didn't even know until now. Apparently, Kuansen is "to ask of ones' self", and since in dreams, everything is a part of you, you are asking the dream to do what you want. Axio is like "true" or "free of evil", and you are smart to include this in spells/commands. Sosomblue is kindness, meaning that you ask kindly, and with gratitude. I guess it can also mean a close friend or companion.

"I like to use words in your language, since yours is the language of dreams. Manei, what is the word for, in your language, uhh... stabilize?"

*thinks for as is she herself is starting to forget dreamspeak...* "Metatitakiatientes."

*a few pronunciation corrections later...*

"And what is the word for dream?"

"God."

"I'm gonna have to write that down. That second one is gonna be a lot harder to remember."

"*laughs* Why are we in bathroom?"

"I have to pee agian, I guess. Sorry, but I got to go. (Man, I knew I shouldn't have drank so much tea before bed...)"

"Bye."

I remember looking outside at an inflatable statue of a gray alien in somebody's yard. There were a bunch of small spotlights pointing up at it. I let myself lose the dream and woke up.

It was a warm evening. With my mother we were jogging on a path hidden within bushes. The path took a turn right in front of two lakes, and it was easy to fall into the water. There were mountains to the left, and pine dominated in the forest.

We were running and talking about helicopter crash in local forest. When running I almost fell into the lake, slipping on mad and ending slide just before water.

I quickly standed up, and a group of friends appeared. We went away, and went through a sandtrap. I have fallen into the trap with one of friends. We were dragged down, and they wanted to free us somehow.

Suddenly I realised that It's a dream. I thought that I should use something, and got an idea. I moved my arms, and frozen the trap, and then I broken ice jumping out.

So I don't know if this would be considered lucid or more like partial lucid, but I had a dream last night that felt so real. I was somehow in possession of a red Ferrari sports car. This isn't the first time I have had a dream specifically about a red Ferrari. It has been 7-10 years since I last had a Ferrari dream. The dreams are always pretty much the same. Super happy that I have a Ferrari, although I have no clue it's a dream. I just do alot of driving, and for some reason this time around I thought it would be a good idea to loan the car to a friend of a friend (I know, its weird), and then somehow the car was lost and I went on a frantic search for the elusive crimson machine. I never found it, and then woke up. Last nights dream was the first time that I ever let anybody else drive the car. It's kinda humorous to me that it's always a Ferrari, and never any other type of super car.

Niki Lauda would be proud!

The strangest. weirdest. dream I've ever had probably.

I remember fragments, and I have to write this down quick because I have to get ready for work, and let's be honest, I probably won't get back to it today.

It's like I won a strange lottery or something... but not until the middle.

First thing I remember is being with a group of people at night in a neighborhood and going into someone's house that I don't know. I don't think it was my neighborhood, and at first I didn't think the owners of the house were at home. It's dark out and inside the house as well. It's a pretty nice house (this is probably because my cousin gave me pictures yesterday of the new house he bought). Then I'm alone and I'm upstairs and I see that the occupants are home. It's an overweight man and his not overweight wife. maybe in their late thirties, early forties. I feel like I have to get out of there before they see me. so I head to the door and meet up with the people who I broke into the house with and we just walk out the front door. there was an elderly lady, though, that we saw before leaving, and she didn't make it seem like we were in any trouble for being there.

Then we're in a van (maybe because we were talking about vans and the Buick Enclave I want while we were at Busch Gardens yesterday) and driving around a "neighborhood" and I use that term loosely because it was more like a backlot tour at a movie set, but it was kind of creepy. it had the feel like we were in a video game, but I didn't know the objective. I can't remember anything more than feeling that it was weird. it's like we were on a tour. it was still dark, but then it's like we were going through different terrains (I've been playing Terraria) and it was turning into a snowy area, the I feel like there was fire, and maybe muddy at some points.

then I remember walking into like maybe a casino or a gigantic arcade. I was in line with people and when it was my turn I asked for this device that you wear around your neck and it clamps down on it on either side and it has speakers in it and it vibrates like a video game controller, but you feel it all throughout your body. When it activated, I could hear someone say something through the speaker and it was like it was in my head, not a peripheral sound from inside the arcade. (I had a little while ago, maybe a month ago, been playing Fallout using headphones.) I enter the arcade and see all these games, tons of them, in rows like at a casino. Then I run into Poussey from Orange is the New Black and she's so excited and she grabs me by the shoulders and says, "it's like we won the lottery!" I can't find any games I want to play, though.

Then I see this lady sitting on the ground or in a beach chair talking to a group of people about selling... cars... electronics... something, and I start talking about how I would sell the shit out of whatever it was we were talking about. I was pretty excited about it, and it seemed like she was, too, like she wanted to hire me.

Then somehow I don't have my shirt on and I walked up to someone that worked at wherever I was at and told them, and she said, oh it's no big deal, show off that six pack! (I do not have a six pack... but I *am* losing some weight!) so I straighten myself up and stand tall and walk around like it's NBD.

Then I'm outside and I'm walking around in the snow and I can see my footprints. At this point I become lucid for a brief moment and think that I can go do whatever I want now because I realize I'm dreaming. but something startles me and I lose it. I haven't been lucid for a very long time. Maybe stressed out at work, I dunno. Then I see my wife go walk off into the bushes with another woman and I feel really upset, like, that's my wife! what are you doing?

then I'm in a group of people and we're walking through what feels like a haunted house, except it's outside and there a guy and a few girls with me. I feel like it's a game and people are watching us (like Cabin in the Woods). Then we get to a swimming pool/lazy river and we all get in. we float over to a section where there's a man asking what we want most. one of the girls says she wants a spoon with caramelized sugar on it and I say I want a "marijuana cigarette" which must have been a big no-no to ask for and the girl and the guy asking the question's eyes got really big ans so I said "haha, I got you, just kidding, I want to do stand-up comedy!" and so then I'm on a big stage and the curtain opens and the song "I don't wanna lose your love tonight" comes on, but I sing the words "I got my first real six string... bought it at the five and dime... I don't know the rest of the words... I just wanna shake my ass for you!!" and then I'm on these gymnastics parallel bars and I do some really sweet routine.

then my alarm went off.

damn. what a night. I need to take a shower.

I was in my house about to do something when all of a sudden a huge machine crashes into it and i hear a lot of screaming. I have a weird feeling that its going to be me next and try to escape. I get knocked out by a group of assassins or military agents and when i wake up i'm sort of beaten up. Eye is dragging me than carrys me into a bathroom than tells me that we don't have time. That I have to escape through the window. I look out the window and he pushes me through even though I say no at first. When i get my head through and im fully out I'm in the narrow fenced place that leads to my backyard. I run and try to fly because i noticed a alien that looked small and green and jello like was trying to come after me. Along with three girls. I spit out mushy green/white stuff from my mouth and hit the alien thing as i'm flying. (Really Random idea)When I get to the front of the house the setting begins to change to dark and things begin to be added.

The girls who wanted to attack me than begin to make jokes about how their going to get me and I punch one in the face. Than I tell her sorry and wipe her bleeding mouth with a napkin. I also tell her I forgot that hitting my dream character is like hitting a part of myself. She forgives me and I notice that Eye is now present with us. He is talking about how cool the setting is becoming. I turn around and notice that there is a dark forest near by and that there is a lady who looks like she is casually dressed.Shes in a white tank top and maybe green/yellowish pants. Anyways shes walking back and forth and i become creep out by her. "Can we go inside?" I ask nervously. Everyone says okay and we run into my house. As were running it begins to change into a school setting and soon were running down the stairs. Eye jumps up and shouts how much fun he is having than continues down the stairs. I try to follow him than notice were now in a huge building that looks formal yet open to the public. Sort of like a bank but not a bank. Maybe office building. Well whatever.

I continued looking around and noticed dream characters going about doing their own stuff. Some are happy while others are serious. As I'm walking and looking around i notice my teeth have stuff stuck to them. "Splinters?" I think to myself as i see a animated gorilla carrying a broken door. "How many times am I suppose to tell you? Your not suppose to eat the door..." He says to me in a British like voice. I say sorry and notice an open door where i can see people outside in a city. I want to go out but don't. I look at the gorilla again and my surrounding than it fades until i wake up.

Asking Dawn About His Name

In this dream I was asking Dawn if he could give me a new name to call him that was better than Dawn. He wrote a few things down trying to think of one. Co...Was a good start for me until he changed his mind and than the dream changed to non lucid a dinosaur game like plot with my family.


Attempt to see Dawn Failed

I was in some sort of arena where people that acted like old time warriors were forcing me, my brother and others to battle. I didn't want to though and ran and jumped over what became a castle like wall. Fell into the ocean and the warrior king/chief tossed fire spears at me, along with his men. I thought about them disappearing and as soon as i sank to the bottom i began swimming and walking and jumping. Trying to get through until i arrived on a island. I got on the sand and ran until i met a little boy and girl. One of them was holding a cracker filled with jelly and gave it to me. I bit it than ran away. The mother came and found out so she called the guards though. I ended up inside a school and ran up. Bumped into a guy who offered to help me but after running around for a while they were caught.

I saw them being taken away and asked one of the guys to help me out in the dream but he said "You want me to help you? I'm about to be executed because you!Thanks a lot!" Than he was walking away with the others that were taken by guards. The place also looked somewhat like an office building now. The way the dream character expressed himself made me feel like I was n't in a dream world like i thought i was in. and that i really got him into trouble. So I decided to just forget about it and fly through the walls and get out myself. I managed to get to a window of the office building but i became stuck halfway. A girl came by and mentioned how she found me. Than a guy came and said he was going to cut my legs off. I felt like a trapped bird and told him to wait before he used the knife. He waited than i looked down and looked back at him. noticing that he had removed part of the window. After that I jumped out the building wanting to fly and had a false awakening where I thought I fell asleep in my bathroom.

Than something else about jewelry i think happened and i woke up for real.

Morning of July 16, 2015. Thursday.



There is a residual sound, somewhat like an echo; a layered but pure vocalization that is somewhat nostalgic and defining; a single note that resounds from nowhere in particular, a group of young females vocalizing once, somewhat like the first vocalized note of David Essex’s “For Emily, Whenever I May Find Her” but with a younger chorus. It “hangs” in the air like a simple single statement on life and time, like a little cloud. It is the moment of my consciousness coming into existence for the first time.

Grandfather Clock on the “Captain Kangaroo” set is tipped over and destroyed by a dog-sized griffin of primarily orange coloring. A clock cannot bleed (even a minimally anthropomorphic clock), but the glass flies into my arms and elbows in the semi-dark “Captain Kangaroo” set; the Treasure House. I pull the glass out nonchalantly perhaps reverting back to age two when wounded near-fatally with large pieces of glass cutting into my left wrist. I do not care that much; I am lucid, though I just watch the mayhem with a slight twitching of my sleep paralyzed legs followed by a wave of bliss, like a “splash” that grows more pleasurable and quickly rises from my toes to my stomach. It is macabre but somehow amusing in its surreality.

The griffin scratches and pecks at what remains of larger glass and wood pieces in Grandfather Clock’s “chest”.

“That’s enough,” I say rather loudly to the griffin, getting tired of pulling glass and wood slivers out of my arms (especially elbows) and face. Puzzled by my apparent audacity, the griffin turns its head towards me and transforms into a Doberman Pinscher, becoming a bit thinner, running away with its tail between its legs, and shrinking and becoming a mouse, leaving the Captain’s Treasure House.

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What does it mean to dream of a griffin? At the core level, a griffin is a flight symbol. A flight symbol is rendered in a dream in subliminal anticipation of the hypnopompic waking start. Additionally, a griffin is a mix of unrelated animals, which is likely to be a unique precursor factor of the coalescence of the preconscious and emergent consciousness.

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Some of my other dreams that feature griffins (links): (1) Making a Griffin?, (2) R Brand, (3) Malfunctioning Griffin Game, (4) The Temple and the Tomb

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Flashback to reality: Conversations I do not want with the endlessly annoying locals who use terms they do not know the meaning of and saying little that makes any sense. I push an empty baby stroller to the NightOwl Convenience Store as I always do when needing a couple things heavy enough to warrant aid. The unfamiliar cashier looks worried as I come in, unpredictably shouting “where’s your child?” and then seemingly assumes that I left them home on their own, something that other people apparently do from time to time (though I have no idea why an adult would leave a young child on their own). I guess the concept of “with my wife” is not a realistic scenario in the “minds” of the characters of this region.

As I begin to explain (even though there is no reason to have to explain yourself to a random member of the public) how my daughter is home with my wife, another female interrupts by commenting to the cashier, “he sold his child on the black market…I saw it on eBay”. Even though I am a stranger, she is pointlessly joking (albeit in extremely poor taste) as they continue to make other references that make no sense to me. When one addresses me briefly as I am getting the items I need, I simply look back and nonchalantly say “I have no idea what you are talking about.”

As I leave the store, one of the females tells me to make sure I wrap my child up when I take them out on a cold night so that they do not get windburned. I am not sure if she is joking or serious, though I am so nonplussed by her untimely misuse of the word and previous bizarre commentary (especially in walking on a completely windless warm night without a child in the stroller) that I just look at her for a very short time and utter "no idea” and I go on my way.

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NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember being in my room at my mom's house. My older sister was asleep on my bed, while Sam was under my bed (the bed was slightly taller) on her laptop. I walked into my bathroom. My sister had woken up and followed me in there. "I'm about to take a nap." she told me.

She then made to go back into my room, but then I became annoyed. "Go to sleep in your bed.." I growled. She gave me a pissy look. I looked on the floor. Percy, my bearded dragon, was looking up at me.

Suddenly, I wasn't in the dream anymore. I was back in my bed.

'This had happened to me last night,' I thought. 'I woke up from a very short dream and I had a false awakening. Maybe it's happening again. Nah, maybe not...'

I was laying on my side with my left arm under the pillow. I heard my family downstairs, talking low; 'probably getting ready for breakfast,' I thought.

'That can't be right, though. my step mom has work, and my brother wouldn't be up at this time...'

I slipped my hand up through the covers, clasped my nose, and breathed in just to make sure.

Sure enough, it was like my fingers weren't even there.

Before I moved, I remembered where I was. 'You're in a dream. Hang on..' I tried to prop myself up on my elbow, but was having a very difficult time doing so, like I was stuck to my bed by a very large wad of chewing gum. So I tried to take it slowly. I still had my 'eye mask' on, and I didn't move to take it off yet. I remember feeling the coolness of my pillow as I was trying to get my arm out from under it.

I reached out my right arm with much difficulty, and felt for my bedside table. The cool corner of the table brushed my fingertips. At first, I was grabbing on for support, but then I just placed my hand fully on it, trying to ground myself and increase my sense of touch. To test it, I wanted to see if I could 'break' the corner with expectation, but before I could finish expecting it, I was back in my regular bed in RL.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID



I remember I was doing my WILD technique, when suddenly I found myself in my bedroom at my dad's house, sleeping in my sister's bed. Sam called my name. She sounded close. I grunted in reply, because I was "asleep," doing my WILD attempt. She threw something at me on the bed. I opened my eyes and looked at it. It was her phone. A message was open on it that was a conversation between her, my mom, and some guy that wanted a dog [that we didn't have]. I read the messages for a moment, then I found myself back doing my WILD attempt again, in my bed at my mom's house (where I started). A couple seconds passed. I realized where I had just "been."

'Dang, I was just dreaming.' I thought.

About a minute passed. I could feel slight vibrations in my body, and, now that I think about it, I didn't really feel anything at all. I almost felt "wide awake."

I heard thunder roll outside my window, and rain began to pick up. I wondered what time it was. Then I heard my sister and my brother come into my room. They were talking about the storm, "It's starting again." I heard my sister say. I wondered why they were in my room, but my main curiosity was about the thunder and rain. Were we under a thunderstorm or tornado warning? I decided to call this WILD attempt a bust. I sat up, and RCed just in case. I almost knew it before I even did the RC. Sure enough, I was in a false awakening. I tried to control my emotions and actions, but they had already begun to take over me, and I started to rush like I normally do in my lucid dreams. I was ripping my sleep mask off and getting off my slightly larger bed before I told myself that I need to stabilize and remember where I am. I stopped myself moving with MUCH difficulty. I was excited. I could see a little bit of white light coming through my window.

"Okay," I said out loud, to myself. I closed my eyes (which was probably a mistake) for a second, then opened them again. "You are in a dream right now. You can do anything..." But before I could finish grounding myself, the desires of myself started to take over. I walked over to my bedside table and tried to turn on my lamp. But of course it didn't work. I almost told it to light itself, but something else occured to me. I realized I was halfway hunched over, staring at a stuffed animal on my bed. It had a frightened look. I realized what was making me hunched over was my hair. It weighed a good 10 pounds on top of my head, and was all in front of my face. I tried to move it out of the way, but it would barely budge.

So I said, "Hair, UP!" Suddenly, my hair began twisting around to the back of my head. I felt around for my hair. Sure enough, it was "up", like the direction. I don't know what was holding it up. And then I added, "like in a ponytail..." Then, my hair began twisting itself all around and formed its own crude ponytail holder. It felt a little loose and I could see that it was bumpy in my mirror that was now very close to my bed. I then said, "Erase bumps." But I didn't get to see what would happen, because, before I knew it, I was back in RL, in my bed, still doing my WILD attempt. My chest felt hot. My heart was pounding. 'This can't be good to feel.' I thought. I tried to stabilize my breathing and focus on the lucid dream I had just exited. But, to no avail. I decided I should probably get up and record the dream, anyway.

Morning of July 14, 2015. Tuesday.



Instead of my first dream of the night being sensual and lucid as usual (probably due to the so-called Tetris effect regarding actual lovemaking), they have remained so for a couple days throughout and as such, have not much of a plot otherwise. Still, one has enough additional detail to perhaps post online as it involves one of those common (to me) imagery-based events that seem very familiar, even nostalgic, yet completely fictional.

Yet again, I am back in my (implied) teenage years in Cubitis. The bed is aligned east to west along the northeast corner against the outer carport door (that door being perpendicular to the main entrance into the living room), which is where it was during the height of unexplainable clearer dreams associated with my wife-to-be before we met.

There is another presence in the room other than Zsuzsanna and I on the west side, supposedly also with a bed in the room; an unknown female, though who leaves in a short time without saying or doing anything other than a straight walk out the door from my room (without acknowledging us), though it does not seem that much of a privacy issue even though it seems possible she may return (though she does not). After an extensive level of intimacy with augmented touch with Zsuzsanna, and even though it is semi-dark, I find myself looking at some sort of “impossible” Warren-like comic magazine/“computer” composite in the same location on my bed (it is not much like an ipad - but more like a normal magazine though with computerized pages), though which transforms into solely a comic magazine after a short time, though mostly in color. Firstly, there is a black-and-white splash page that shows a scene similar to art from near the end of the “Heavy Metal” movie (from 1981) with a female riding a winged creature. There is some sort of ambiguity that implies more imagery can somehow be inserted into the page into any white space with some sort of software routine. Although I contemplate this idea, I do not use it or see any options to do what is implied (or any context menu showing additional art to be inserted wherever - the ground below the winged creature is mostly white and featureless, implying that perhaps figures or buildings can be inserted as well as perhaps something else in the sky).

It soon gets more and more “familiar” (as if I had read through the fictional magazine numerous times in the past) as I turn the pages. There is a page that is somewhat like “Wizards” movie scenes (from 1977) in a typical Bodē-like three-by-three vertically narrow nine panel layout. Eventually, I am looking at what seems to be a very unlikely but “familiar” Vaughn Bodē Erotica comic, yet featuring Disney’s Magica De Spell. She appears to be standing (on the right side of each panel) and engaged in conversation with another female “duck” over most of the nine panels. The art becomes so vivid and detailed (and focused with full clarity upon), I partially forget I am dreaming and start to reflect on the intense “familiarity” of this book. It seems, though, that each page is only a “demo” (or sample) of various other magazines and I do not quite recall if I have all or some of the full copies elsewhere. (Magica De Spell was actually one of the first cartoon characters that appeared in dreams from age four, though only in two-dimensional still images and not really that often). This of course distracts me from my lucidity, though I do eventually shift into other sensual scenes without any comic imagery. I even enter a lucid “false awakening” (which is fairly rare) as if I am more lucid in coming out of another lucid dream. (Typically, concerning non-lucid dreams, my false awakenings are almost always far less vivid than the previous dream, though real movies that use this trick imply the opposite. The fact they are less vivid at least with me, is probably one reason why they “work” as a false awakening in the first place - with less reasoning skills available than the previous main dream.)

Decent night despite late bedtime, LD #126 (short, low lucidity)

Earlier:
+(f) trying to meet people, I call out my location, "Sol. and Sa. Pa." I think we're meeting on Al. hill

+ in a class with bad/strict teacher, studying words, a student stumps the teacher by calling out a word the teacher does not know, I think if you're going to teach a lesson like this you'd better study the words. There is a phrase I must work with and I have a book like a dictionary where I see some terms defined and I start reading from it, it's like a fairy tale entry on some mythological being? The text is black and red, it's not making much sense and people aren't listening so I stop reading.

+(f) thinking over my class schedule, why did I sign up for two English classes in different schools, when will I have time to do all the reading, how many pages were assigned?

+ playing with my kids as babies, "it's very hot in Cu.", It's very cold in Cu." and they echo back, we're rolling around on the floor wrestling and I look up and see an adult sticking her head in the door looking at us, I think it's my dad at first but it resolves into an unknown woman looks in, I say we're preparing for shower, smaller one crawls to closet with a passageway between the bedrooms, I follow to get him back, see girl in closet heading for me and I get interested, i realize its my sister and lose my interest, she's wearing a brownish turtleneck. She's blocking the way, and in her room is a leather suitcase being repaired with some dangerous glue so I have to go around to get my kid.

+ fire mall: outside city intersection at night, there was a fire and the fire department is here, the fire was to the right and the fire dept is blocking that side while ensuring that up the fire is really out, enter left side, a fireman extends the crosswalk timer to give people a chance to make it across. I enter the mall, go up to a woman's beauty salon up on a platform, I pee in an exposed toilet, a woman complains. And I say I'd do it again, step down and walk to the left of the platform and see a sign for the men's room and feel a bit stupid for using the women's salon bathroom.

I enter through the door and see a small shoe store there with racks of shoes all along the walls and think they really make use of all available space. Sitting down is an older middle-aged lesbian buying running shoes, "the advantage of running shoes is <something>" (I think that it's that they're good for walking, too.) The lesbian has a deformed foot, the front half is twisted a quarter-turn she says "I don't have AIDS!"

I'm walking to the elevators, miss one, get in another bit leave since my coat flies out of my arms and down a stairway, I go get it and it's now a glove.

Walking through the mall I see signs hanging from the ceiling advertising super fancy restaurants with long presumptuous names. I think they're really expensive but I'm on a business trip so could expense it.
There's a (gay?) maitre d', I'm trying to figure out the layout of the upper floors where the restaurants are: is it one continuous level, or are there separate towers on each corner that require using a different elevator (I say this out loud)? He answer and his voice changes from initially stereotypically gay lilt high-pitche'd to a deep man's voice, saying you have to leave enough time (because the elevators could be crowded/slow I think) and should try to arrive 10 minutes before your reservation. I see a huge (1 square meter at least) raw red steak on the shelf of an industrial press that starts to close on it.

Later:

+ LD #126: I'm walking on beach, I'm naked, almost walk into people, apologize in foreign language, where's my swim suit I'm a bit confused maybe I left it at home? Theres a girl at a big rock, people wont like me being near her while I'm naked. I go around the boulder to the right, look at the water, enter water put head under the surface, see clearly opening my eyes under water, think this water is particularly clear with good visibility, the water is knee-deep, I'm now standing, I look down into the water and see zillions of tiny fishes, then bigger odd fishes with weird mouths, I think they like to nibble on people's legs. One of these fishes comes near to me I think to nibble on me, its mouth gets larger and I see odd teeth, like large human molars, I kick the fish away from me and it slowly drifts and rotates, It now looks like the green glutton ghost from Ghostbusters.

This is weird enough to prompt me to do a nose pinch RC. The air leaks out around my fingers, it's not a free flow of air, I try a few times and the air keeps leaking out, I decide this means I'm dreaming and immediately start striding confidently out of the water, feeling like I'm in command of all around me. There are people walking around and a building ahead. everything is so clear and detailed, I get a bit skeptical about the dream and think I could get in trouble messing with the DCs if they're actually waking people, but I decided to go ahead anyway

There are mostly guys around, I look ahead and see a girl coming up to a glass door to a shop to leave it, and give her a "come here" gesture. She comes up to me and I tell her to take off her shirt. I'm running my hands along the skin of her back, she's hesitant and I tell her to keep on going. I bring in her head for a kiss and I see her mouth cave in a little and get a bit wrinkly. I pull back a bit and tell her "be young!" the dream transitions.

I lose lucidity, big deli guy makes me a turkey and mayo sandwich, he's complaining that "Szechuan Palace is stealing all my business".

Dolphin killers

The whole world was flooded with sea water, and people had to built platforms in order to survive. I was swimming on my little raft, when I reached ruins of harbor city. There were only some small parts of platforms still standing, with some useful stuff on them, like food, fresh water and other resources.

Suddenly my raft started to squeak and crack. Just before it fallen apart, I jumped on the farthest platform to the east. Thinking that I'm safe, I sat down and watched surroundings. There was nothing on the horizon, only endless ocean. I felt that something hit the platform from inside the water.

I looked around, and managed to turn back just as a dolphin jumped out of the water, with intent to eat me. I slapped it in a head a few times, and then another dolphin jumped out of water to help his buddy. I slapped it too, and both of them squeaked in irritation. They stopped moving, and looked at the water expectantly.

I leaned over the edge of platform, and then a huge orca jumped out of it, with open jaws. I quickly jumped back and slapped the orca while shouting with fear. After a few slaps or so, I just decided to run away. Both orca and dolphins jumped back to the ocean.

I inspected other platforms, but found nothing of use besides food. Without my raft, I was stuck there.

MILD - In a castle walls; wonderland

I was inside of guest room in a castle. I inspected the room - the floor and furniture were made with exotic wood. There were expensive tapestries, a comfortable bed and some wardrobes.

Suddenly I become lucid. For a while I thought what can I do this time, and looked around again. I saw a maid - a beautiful blonde lady in a green dress. With nothing better to do, I came closer and talked with her for a while. Then I persuaded her that we should have some fun, being alone in the room, and probably in the whole guest wing of the castle. I managed to keep the lucidity for quite some time, focusing on my intent and on the lady. Suddenly I just lost lucidity, without waking up. I was still in the guest room, maid nowhere to be found. When I wanted to leave the room, everything faded.

I found myself on a cliff. There were some roadsigns and a grave without any plaque. I was standing in front doors to a tavern. There was a tunnel leading to deserts, and down the cliff there was a weird, eerie jungle. The tavern was surrounded with dense forests.

I entered the building, and found myself in some kind of a museum. I wandered for a while, watching exhibitions, and suddenly founding myself back at the cliff, staring at the grave. For some reason, I took my phone out of my pocket, and took a photo of it.

Bully

I was in my old school, wandering the corridors. I decided to go back to classroom, and sat down. Teacher told us that it was free day, so we could do anything we want inside the classroom. I looked around and saw my friends playing some games.

Suddenly a bully walked closer to me, and showed me a pack of chips. I said that I don't want to eat, but he insisted on, and spilled some on my desk. With nothing to do, I decided to just eat them. Later that day, bully told me to appear at fuel station with 1000000 dollars, or he'll beat me black and blue. Back in home, I thought about that, and about the fine hunting knife I received as a birthday gift.

Next day with my family we were driving to a city, stopping by at fuel station. I told them that we had a free day at school, but I haven't mentioned the bully part. I saw that guy waiting for me there, but I wasn't going to meet him, and waited in car until we drove away.

I was with Manei in the park in my neighborhood. We were swinging together on the swingset and talking for awhile. I don't remember everything we talked about, just the ending part of our discussion. There were one or two questions before this.

I think one of the questions was about communism and farming. I don't remember the wording but it had something to do with her asking me if I thought communism was bad. I told her how the idea itself isn't evil; we just think it is because there have been evil dictators in the past.

I also remember she looked odd in the dream. She's been having trouble mainlining her physical appearance recently. She was shorter and had green eyes this time.

Me: "What is your favorite color?"

Manei: "Milky human peeish poo." (wut?)

Me: "You know sometimes I feel like I should be asking you about more important spiritual things that your favorite color, but I can't think of anything better. Okay, I have one. Do you think humans are going to destroy the planet with war and pollution or is everything going to be okay?"

Manei: "It looks to me like humankind as a whole is pretty much screwed, with global warming and all. I think its better to make a significant change in one persons' life than an insignificant change everywhere."

We got off the swings and started walking toward where my house is.

Manei: "You know what would be cool? Having a cyclops dog with only one eye."

Me: "Well its a dream so anything is possible... Wait... do you mean like one eye in the middle of the head like a true cyclops, or just a regular dog that's missing one eye?"

I woke up.